Sunday 21 February 1954
– Mimi: “Hardly a few hours of sleep, I’m up at 7. On the occasion of my director’s birthday, I was going to attend Holy Mass celebrated by him. I was looking forward to it and I was so happy for, during this mass, he was to offer me to God, but circumstances changed all that. I was deeply disappointed.
However, I was happy, my Beloved, to offer You this sacrifice at the beginning of the day. It gave me time to meditate, to prepare my communion before the next mass. How many wishes I was able to make on this beautiful day.
I ask You, ô my Beloved, the grace that my director always remain a good and holy priest, devoted, faithful in following You as he has always done in the past. I also ask You the grace that his love for souls grow more and more. I ask the Holy Spirit that He continue to enlighten him and that with his advice and examples I may reach my goal for the greater glory of God. My Beloved, grant me the favor of always being very obedient and submissive since it is You who command me through him. I have total confidence in him, in his prayers and it is with utmost respect that I address myself to him because he represents You. How I wish to love You as he does, to have a full life like his. This is why, at his example, I am working so hard to reach my goal.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, teach me to be very patient. I began offering my spiritual bouquet to my director, that is, masses, communions, holy hours, ways of the cross, rosaries during eight days. I am praying for all his intentions. He has been good to me but especially to my soul that has cost him dearly. I can’t forget all the sacrifices he made to pull my soul away from the devil. My debt of gratitude is so great! My Beloved, keep him safely in Your Divine Heart. It’s the place he deserves. Grant him lots of health to accomplish his work for the souls You have placed in his care.”
How good it is to be in Your arms, my Beloved! My Gentle Mother of heaven, I thank You for the grace obtained this morning. My Gentle Mother of heaven, I entrust You with all the souls dear to me.
My Beloved, I thank You for the grace received this morning, that of receiving You. I am so unworthy, yet, in Your infinite goodness, You descend, You lower Yourself to me, ô Infinite Goodness. I believe in Your merciful love for me.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, lend me Your heart to receive, adore, love, serve Your Gentle Jesus as He deserves. I don’t want to lose Him. I love Him so! To show Him my love, I want to prolong my thanksgiving all day. It is the only way not to offend Him and to work for the salvation of souls.
Thank you, my Beloved, for helping me be patient. I had to wait almost an hour, seated on a chair, silent, and listen to the reading of letters that I already knew about. I had planned to read or write. I am happy to have offered You this hour of patience.
How the devil tempted me many times during this hour! I did not fear for I knew that You were present in me and that with You I can do all things. You know that I don’t want to lose You, displease You, nor cause this person any sorrow by seeming annoyed.
Good night, my Beloved. Till tomorrow! I am anxious to receive You. Increase in me Your love.
Ô Holy Spirit, please help me understand what God expects from me and to remain faithful.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect your child who is trembling and who is taking refuge in Your arms. Let me rest on Your Motherly Heart. I need support. I am bringing with me all the souls, especially the poorest sinners like me and remember, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, the poor souls in purgatory who are abandoned.
My Beloved, I desire You more and more.
My Good Angel, my Patron Saint, watch over me.”
Monday 22 February 1954
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I offer You my day. How tired I feel! Only a few hours of sleep. I couldn’t sleep because of physical pain, but the main reason was because I was anxious to receive You, my Beloved. It is such a beautiful day, today! I thank You for the sun rays that are so encouraging.
As You asked, this morning, my director offered me to God. With the respect and reverence of an angel, he raised the white host and offered me. I united myself to this offering. I cannot explain what took place at this precious moment. I would have liked these minutes to last a life time. And it was lovingly that I looked at this white host where You were really present with us. I was so happy and my heart was pounding. I didn’t stop saying: I love You, my Lord and my God. I believe, I adore and I love You. I offer myself to You forever.
Yes, my Beloved, it is with joy that I throw myself into Your arms. I accept Your Holy Will. From now on, I allow You to work in my soul, to be the Master of my being now and forever. I entrust You with my soul, my mind, my body, my heart. Reign over me. Do with me what You will. I am Yours. I offer myself with all my miseries, my weaknesses. I am convinced that without You I am nothing and can do nothing. I want to rid myself of my faults, my imperfections, my lack of trust that causes You so much suffering. How many times I have been the cause of Your sufferings through my lack of confidence. You, Almighty God, my Creator. You, Infinite Mercy. I sincerely ask Your forgiveness, my Beloved, my Love.
I want to love You even more. I want my whole life to remain unknown. I want to stay hidden in You where no one will know about Our love, Our union.
Like my Gentle Mother of heaven, I will keep it a secret in my heart. I will keep it like a treasure, hidden in my inner self where no one can penetrate and in moments of weakness, of discouragement, give me the grace to remember this beautiful day where I will go immediately to You, my God, my Refuge. I need You so much. I do not want to refuse You anything. I will keep my goal before my eyes …
Yes, I want to follow You. I want to carry my cross each day with love and resignation. I want to atone for my sins, for the sins of poor souls. I ask Your forgiveness, mercy for them and for me. Gazing at the chalice, I could see You nailed to the cross, shedding Your divine blood out of love for me. I also, my Beloved, accept out of love this kind of death You want to send me.
You warned me several times that I was to die a victim of Your love. How many times I worried about this. Poor human nature! I promise You not to try to understand how. I ask Your forgiveness for doubting You. If I had fully trusted You, I would have accepted Your Holy Will. If I was trying to know what kind of death, it was because I was thinking too much about myself, and not enough about You. How selfish I was! Now that I have offered myself, I accept the kind of death You want to send me because I trust that You will give me Your grace, Your love. If You had abandoned me years ago, what kind of death would I have had?
But in Your Infinite Mercy, You offer me to follow You, to share Your sufferings. Your offer me Your heaven for all eternity! Ô Infinite Goodness, thank You, than You for having been patient.
Keep me near You always. Help me remain faithful in Your service until death. I have a lot of good will but I am weak and easily discouraged. I beg You, give me the strength and necessary courage to accomplish my duties and mission that You wish to give me for the glory of God.
Ô Holy Spirit, enlighten me. I need Your celestial light.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, guide my steps. Teach me to remain little, very humble. Teach me also to flee from and detest sin and all that could separate me from Your Gentle Jesus.”
– Mary: “My dear little one, if you knew how happy I am today. Yes, offer yourself often with My Beloved Son, to God the Father. It is the greatest homage that you can give Him, the Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth.
My little girl, I will help you. Together, We will work firmly to correct your faults. I ask you only one thing: do not allow your enemies to crush you. Fear not! I will protect you as I have always done. Trust Me. Love Me. To speak more intimately with My Jesus, borrow My words, My feelings, My love… My little one, pray with confidence and humility. Do not hesitate to tell Him your love, your gratitude. How He loves the simplicity of a child. You are so little in Our sight.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, for several hours I have been wanting to chat with You. But, You understand the situation (reading out loud). Finally, with resignation and patience, thinking of You, I had to wait several hours before writing. I am very tired by this interior struggle. But I no longer want to refuse You anything for Your sake. Till tomorrow! I am anxious to see You… Please give me Your Spirit of Holiness. Increase in me the love for souls, for I want to save many souls and offer them to You.”
Thusday 23 February 1954
– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved! I want to work with You today. I offer You my whole day. I need You, I need Your love. A mass for the soul of my dear little sister, my director celebrated the Holy Sacrifice once more.
I had the great pleasure of receiving You. I need You so badly. I desire this union more and more. I need Your love. I feel so lonely at times but no matter that I should feel abandoned, forgotten, provided that You are always present in me. You know that I can do nothing without You. You are my hope, my strength. I wish for only one thing: never to lose You because of sin, even the slightest one. I regret them all. Make me more patient. This is what I need today.
I must be charitable towards two persons by not showing annoyance at what they tell me and that I have known for a long time. They don’t seem to notice that this tires me, for this lasts several hours. Almost always the same stories. I say to myself: what a loss of time, what things I could be doing. Out of love for You and also to overcome my impatience, I try to appear interested. I thank You for Your help for if You were not present in me, I don’t know what I would do.”
The devil takes advantage to discourage me saying:
– Satan: “You think you pleased God by offering him your little interior struggles! You were hypocritical by showing interest in the conversation.
You are too much a coward to admit that I am right. Open your eyes and look at the value of your actions.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t be sad! Close your ears to these lies! Believe in Me who am the Truth. Offer me these little pricks and think of Me. Was I hypocritical in remaining silent before all kinds of accusations, before the tales I already knew? My Father knows My wish and that is sufficient. I know you. I know your intentions. My dear little one, don’t be discouraged.”
– Mimi: I recite my rosary. Afterwards, I practice the piano as a distraction. It has been months since I played. I wasn’t satisfied.
– Jesus: “My poor little one, be patient. Do you see the importance of practicing each day? It is the same thing at the spiritual level. To attain holiness, one must practice each day; the practice of love, charity, of all the virtues, of confidence, in order to offer My Father something pleasant. My dear little one, be patient. Think about it; if instead of being tempted to abandon everything you plucked the strings of your heart, what a beautiful melody We would hear, both of Us. I would be satisfied. There is still much work to be done, isn’t there, in this area? I will help you. I am a musician at times. I am the one who inspire the artist, the composer. It is I who guided the fingers of King David when he praised Me by playing the harp.
My dear little one, if you heard the choirs of angels sing to the glory of My Father! It is still I who am the Director. Now do you believe that I can do anything, that I am able to develop this talent to the glory of God? ”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness for this moment of weakness. I trust in You. I believe that You are the Almighty and I also believe that without You I am nothing. I thank You for this talent that under Your guidance I will develop for God. How anxious I am to hear these celestial melodies! I hope that some day I will go to heaven to play and sing Your praises.
Wednesday 24 February 1954
– Jesus: “My dear little one, give Me everything. Keep jealously secret Our conversations except with your director, in a spirit of humility. Offer Me everything.”
– Mimi: “I promise to refuse You nothing. I abandon myself into Your divine arms with love and confidence.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, I want to go to Jesus through You. Help me, please. Out of mortification, I will keep silent concerning certain unpleasant situations. However, I am tempted to give my opinion.
My Beloved, help me remain silent. I need You.”
– Mimi: “I am happy. It is my director who celebrated Holy Mass. It seems to me that our team work is complete when We are all three together.
I had the great pleasure of receiving communion. I asked my Gentle Mother of heaven to lend me Her heart in order to receive You better. I am so unworthy. I am ashamed of approaching You who are so pure. But I know that You are infinitely good and merciful. You will have pity on me. It is precisely because I need You that I approach You and I am certain that I will then become stronger and that my love will grow.
I give myself totally to You. I give You the freedom to transform my soul. Uproot all that displeases You. I so want to please You, to love You, to serve you and work with You. I always have before my eyes my goal. Yet, without You I can do nothing. I need support, strength, preparation to undertake the mission You are offering me. May Your Holy Will be done now and forever.
I am looking forward to receiving You tomorrow. I need You so much, ô Supreme Love, my Unique Love, my God, my beloved Spouse.”
Thursday 25 February 1954
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I offer You my whole day. I need You. I am suffering terribly. I can hardly move. My heart is beating quickly. Give me the necessary strength to do my work.
I was finally able to attend Holy Mass celebrated by my director. I received communion.
− Mimi: “My Beloved, You can see the work that needs to be done in my soul. To please You, I will remain silent. Help me please to correct my faults. My Beloved, in a few moments You will come into me, into my poor soul. My director will place You on my tongue, yes, this tongue that has offended You so many times, I ask Your forgiveness.”
– Jesus: “My poor little one, you are not the only one who has offended Me. How many use their tongue badly! They abuse it to offend Me, to take pleasure in many ways through alcohol, gluttony, etc… without omitting other sins, slander, blasphemy, and many others. And yet if we knew the importance of this sensory organ. I had planned everything. I wanted this tongue to be used to praise, to glorify My Father, to pray, to preach, to forgive, to feed the soul and body… but men take advantage of it and use it badly.
My little one, think frequently about what I tell you: You please Me greatly when you remain silent. Don’t forget that you are deserving. Also, remain in solitude in order to ponder My words.
Look at My Divine Mother. She loved solitude! … And I, Myself, often felt the need to be alone to pray, to speak to My Father in heaven.
And We, My dear little one, need to be alone in order to speak to one another… to share Our mutual love… to prepare Our next encounter… Think of heaven, think of Me, think of eternity. Think about what your life will be like with Me on earth. Think about what My life will be like with you in heaven. Think about what your life would be like without Me.
– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved, I do want to prepare Our union with Your help. I will begin this very day to hold my “tongue”. With You within me, there will be no room to allow criticism, slander, calumny.
I love You, ô Merciful God. To please You, I want to atone for my sins. From now on, no more lies. Help me, You who are Truth. No more criticism. Help me, You who are Justice. No more gluttony. Help me, You who are the Bread of Life… Yes, from now on, I want to use my tongue to give thanks, to pray, to ask forgiveness. I want to use my tongue to give glory to God, the saints, to make known Your goodness, Your infinite mercy, but especially Your love for souls. Thank You for making me aware of my mistakes.”
Friday 26 February 1954
– Mimi: “Thank You for coming to my awakening. How happy I am to be near You. I attended Mass. I received communion. I was feeling awful, however, I thank You for all Your help.”
The struggle is more and more intense, and this voice doesn’t stop repeating:
− Satan: “Take advantage of the occasion being offered to you.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, You are the strongest. Help me put up with this temptation.”
Visit to the church in spite of my spiritual aridity.
− Mimi: “It is near You, my Beloved, that I can find peace. How I would like to always be near You. I feel so far from You, today. When will the day come where Our union will be perfect?”
– Jesus: “Prepare yourself, My little one, what you are enduring presently is a forerunner of the end of your miseries… Offer everything up. Through your moral and physical sufferings you are atoning and earning. In a short while, I will ask you for more, for I want to purify you more. Show Me your love by accepting. You now know for whom to pray. This is why I confide these souls to you. I must have them. You will have much to suffer.
Remember that a single soul was bought by the blood of a God. As for what is going on within you, to overcome this temptation that has been pursuing you for many days, ask your director for permission to take important measures to appease it. He will tell you how to stay pure. Open wide the secret door of your soul to him. Trust him. He is taking My place near you. I am expecting a lot from you, and he knows this. Go without fear. I repeat: he understands you, for he has suffered a lot. Allow him to work in your soul as if it were Me.
Walk on, my little one. Don’t look back. Your past no longer exists. The time has come to find Me, the future to possess Me.”
− Mimi: “Poor human nature that is continually worried! Help me, please, in this struggle! I can’t go on! My God, I don’t want to lose You. My Beloved, where are You? You know that I love You.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, do you hear my cry? Come quickly, I need You. I take refuge in Your arms. Let me rest a little on Your heart, You who are the refuge of sinners, the comforter of the afflicted. I come to You with confidence and love. After all, I am still Your child who loves you.
I will go to my director and tell him about my temptations, and this will allow me to make an act of humility.
– Jesus: “My little one, do you go to the doctor when you are well? Don’t forget that your director is the doctor of your soul. If you want to get over your illness, tell him everything and be very obedient.”
Saturday 27 February 1954
– Mimi: “How disturbed I was by the devil who had borrowed Your voice, and even Your words. He was suggesting that I do certain things. I didn’t know what to do. I no longer knew what was true. Was it You, my Beloved or the other one? So I consulted my director. I exposed to him the situation and he told me it was the devil who wanted to trouble me. How I hate this liar, the devil!
I was happy to hear such encouraging words from my director. He helped me understand once more Your goodness, Your mercy towards me. How I would like to pray to You, to love You the way he does. This struggle isn’t over.
My Beloved, I believe that You are within me. Increase my confidence and love. I am terribly tired. I am suffering a lot. What consoles me is that I am certain that my sufferings, united to Yours, are not useless, and are agreeable to God because I am doing His Holy Will. This gives me courage to continue the struggle, and follow the path leading to heaven. I know that You love me. I want to walk by Your side. With You, I want to save many souls. Keep me in Your arms. Without You I can do nothing.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect me, guide me as Your child.”
Sunday 28 February 1954
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how I love You! I offer You my whole day! I am suffering a lot. I thank You for this suffering for with You it is meritorious. I also want to atone for my sins and for those of poor souls.”
I was planning on visiting You at the monstrance altar for the 40 hour devotions. I wanted to offer You some holy hours of love, adoration, reparation, requests and thanksgiving. But finally I made my holy hours at home in another manner. A visit from a cousin with her little girl. How patient I had to be in order not to appear disappointed. I accepted Your Holy Will. I told myself: I’ll go tonight. Finally, I had to babysit the two youngest. I was so tired… but for You, my Beloved, I accepted Your will, not mine. I couldn’t let these dear little ones notice that I was disappointed. Teach me to be generous!
Thank You for Your help, my Beloved. I had the necessary patience with the little ones. They seemed happy as they listened to stories. I can still hear them saying: more! more! Funny! This lasted two hours, while I played with them. I could imagine You as a child. I couldn’t refuse You anything. I could see You in these little ones. In spite of it all, I was happy to spend the evening with them, and with You. I cannot write as I would like. It is very late.”
Till tomorrow!
As for the holy hours, I plan to make up for them soon.
