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1965-1998
Mimi will be 50 on the 8 th of July 1965.
Preparation for death. Beginning of the year 1965.
– Mimi: “And when death will take hold of this body, I will jump into the arms of Jesus my Beloved.
When my eyes will finally close on earth, I will open them joyfully towards heaven, and I will cast upon it a gaze of faith.
And when my mouth shall close, I will sing a hymn of thanksgiving and praise.
And when my heart will cease beating, I will begin in heaven to live again for all eternity.
Each heartbeat will be as many acts of love, of thanksgiving, for my God, my Creator, my Beloved.
My Beloved, knowing my weakness, my smallness in carrying my cross, preferred to lay me on the cross.
Georgette Faniel.
– Jesus told me: “At the moment of your death, We are the Ones who will come towards you!”
Good Friday 16 April 1965
– Mimi: I was awakened by the voice of my Beloved saying:
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, I am suffering a lot. I need to come and rest in your soul. I would very much like you to receive My Precious Blood! Ask you director this favor for Me and for you. We would be so pleased; a single drop of My Precious Blood is sufficient to purify you.
Your companion R…, will also take part. By this blood transfusion, she will be entirely purified. She needs it to help her along. Beforehand, you must be purified by the sacrament of penance. R… will have to remove all make-up as a sign of respect.
It is up to you to open Our living tabernacle in the soul of Our victim of love, Our dear little Joseph. If you knew what We are expecting for souls!
– Jesus: “My Beloved, stay near Me. Today, remain attached to the cross. Help Me during My agony which is also yours. Before starting, recite an act of humility. I will be in your midst. Your Gentle Mother of heaven will guide you.”
Saturday 1st May 1965
It is the month of Mary.
It is the month of Mary. Let us give thanks to the Blessed Virgin!
– Mimi: “What thanksgiving I owe You, ô my God. You have overwhelmed me! I don’t know how to thank You. I must be dreaming! Everything in me and around me is so full of mystery! I don’t understand everything that is happening to me. The more I receive, the more I feel unworthy.”
Wednesday 26 May 1965
– Mimi: “My Beloved, we would like to offer You more; to offer You a gift before You go to the Father. Yes, to give You something out of love, as thanksgiving for all that we have received, especially for all the graces since the 13th of October 1964.
We are experiencing a real mystery! No one knows the great desire we have to offer You a beautiful gift that You will be able to offer Our Father. Coming from You, our little gift will take on value. Tell us, what must we do?”
Thursday 27 May 1965
Feast of the ascension of our lord
– Jesus: “Thank you, My dear children. Your sacrifice is greater than your offering. I will ask you for more on the 13th of June 1965. Your two hearts are not in physical condition. Your director still has signs of it in his flesh, and you, your hidden wound is not yet healed.
By asking you for nothing more today, I knew I was asking of you a great sacrifice, for your generosity knows no limit as well as your love for Us. However, by your conformity to Our Holy Will, you have accepted it out of love. You have satisfied Us and We bless you both.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, do not try to understand My mystery of love. Accept everything We offer you out of love.”
Sunday 13 JuNE 1965
– Jesus: “What a beautiful day, My dear little children! Thank you for the beautiful triduum of love, for communions, prayers and especially for the suffering. My dear little host of love, We are so pleased! With the permission of Our Father, I manifested Myself clearly to your director in a tangible way.
Weren’t you very happy? But all the happiness you had was nothing compared to Ours. We jumped for joy in the soul of Our dear representative. In the past, I was royally served by suffering. Today, by a special grace, We served you royally with love. What more could We offer you, My dear children, before Our perfect union?”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God! Yes, we thank you for so much love! Nothing could be more beautiful! I am still dizzy! My director is totally moved! How can we express all our gratitude?”
– Jesus: “My dear children, continue to love Us, to serve Us by giving Us souls through suffering. We would appreciate it so much!”
Tuesday 28 December 1965
– Mimi: I was making an inventory of all that I had received from God, and of all the spiritual richness I had. What hidden treasures discovered thanks to His merciful love for me.
– Mimi: “In return, what can we refuse Him! However, He expects a lot from us. He has filled us. He must come first. Yes, He wants to use our love, our sufferings to glorify His Father, our good will so that we may walk with Him and conquer souls in thanksgiving for His Precious Blood.”
Thursday 27 January 1966
– Mimi: Concerning Father J. Gamache.
– Mimi: My enemy is near me. He says he is pleased.
– Satan: “It is the best trap given to your director in 16 years. Even on his death bed, I will do battle. You want to help him and you will lose him by making him proud. God does not need you to tell him what to do. If he had understood his priesthood, he would have been the one to ask for Holy Anointing.
God gives me free space with you : No more director, confession or communion. Your physical strength is leaving you. There is barely a breath of life in you. It is your God who has it and I who will receive it for you will not receive the Holy Anointing for God has rejected you. He has already abandoned you. Show me the contrary!”
Tuesday 8 February 1966
– Mimi: Concerning Fr. J. Gamache.
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, why be afraid of the truth? Are you going to do like My apostles after all that you have received? Why be afraid of the judgment of humans? When have I deceived you? It is a duty of justice to bear witness to the Spirit of God, the Spirit of truth. One must render what is Our due and what belongs to Our servant Joseph.
Yes, to render Us homage by proclaiming Our marvels and Our infinite love for this privileged soul. Like Myself, he shall have passed among you as another Christ living and suffering. Few have been aware. It is the common law of the elect.
Like Myself, he fell asleep in the arms of Our Father after having been attached to the cross in a total giving of his whole being. His soul was continually in Our Hands, available to grace and love. We lavished him Royally with the folly of the cross in pure love.
The few human imperfections We left him were his rampart. His shield was humility. His love for Us and souls came first.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, be worthy of your God and also of your spiritual father, Fr. J. Gamache. Continue to follow the guidelines he gave you. You have received so much. I repeat, always live according to the beautiful prayer of total giving. With this prayer, you have everything you need.
My Beloved, you have done your duty towards your neighbor. You are a living witness to truth. Though there was apparent death on the day when your director offered Us your little soul (30 June 1964), this is the reason why I kept you. You will have a lot to suffer because of Us and for souls. Have no fear! I will always be with you during your trials and agonies.
The road traced by your director is not ended. It is up to you to finish it. If at times the burden is too heavy, ask for help from Our dear apostle Fr. Mayer and Our dear little girls. Hang on to each other. We are in your midst and your dear director will be your visible and invisible protector. It is his mission to watch over and protect our beautiful Team of love which will grow more and more after Our perfect union. Your mission will continue with souls in order to glorify Us.
My dear little girls, always be faithful to your vows of love. I will always be with you and your director will watch over you.
Your Gentle Mother, Mary Immaculate, will protect you in a special way. Walk without fear under the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Remain fully confident, My dear little hosts of love.”
− Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for everything, especially for Your love. Thank You for Your protection!”
22 July 1967
– Mimi: “I am always in the arms of my Beloved Jesus, allowing Him to guide me. He certainly doesn’t fold His arms!
We have a lot of work to do, that is, He and I. We have prepared our spiritual-expo 1967. We have 52 pavilions to visit : the pavilion of love, of confidence, of obedience.
I haven’t finished yet. There are pavilions that we will visit together, for I bought for each member of the Team a passport, not for “Terre des hommes” but for heaven.
October 1967
– Mimi: “Out of kindness from my Beloved, I dreamt of our kind director. I was having a hard time. This is when our kind director approached me and said :
− Father Joseph Gamache s.j.: “You know, even the spiritual direction that I have given you is based on moral theology and not on practical theology.”
– Mimi: “Imagine my surprise! I asked him : “Father, are there two kinds of theology? ”
− Father Joseph Gamache s.j.: “Why yes. Moral theology comes directly from God, from the Holy Spirit in the soul. Practical theology is a science that allows one to study in order to attain as much as possible moral theology. You understand me, don’t you?”
− Mimi: “Always in my dream! Everything was so clear, so precise! I would have liked everyone to understand, even the pope! Since then, I feel transformed! Everything becomes so easy, even total giving.”
Sunday 26 October 1969
Feast of Christ the King
Vows of immolation
− Mimi: “Ô Eternal Father, on this beautiful day of the feast commemorating the Royalty of Your Divine Son, my Beloved, and to answer Your call, in the presence of Mary Immaculate, of the celestial court, of my guardian angel, of Saint Michael, of Father Gamache and of Régine, with Your grace, I want to take the great step and answer “Yes” with love. For this, I need the help of the Holy Spirit, of all His gifts and of all the graces attached to these gifts.
My Beloved, I offer as a gift this “Yes”. With my Beloved Jesus, I unite myself to His “Yes” that He gave You by accepting Your most Holy and Adorable Will till the end. With my Gentle Mother of heaven, I repeat my total “Yes”. Following the example of Father Gamache, I answer “Yes” as on the day of his ordination to the priesthood when he gave himself totally to You out of love.
Today, my Divine Father, look upon me as Your little girl, full of good will. Don’t look at my misery too much, look at my love for You alone, my God. Relying on Your grace, on Your infinite love and with the help of the Holy Spirit, I take the vow of immolation of my soul, that is, the total abandonment of all self-love, of all personal preferences, of all judgments, of all that would be in the least contrary to that of the Lord Jesus.
My God, I renew my offering to You so that Your reign may come, for the needs of Your Church, for the Holy Father, for all missionary priests, especially for Father Paul Mayer s.j., for all consecrated and religious souls.
I entrust to You L.G.G.D., all the members of my family, all the souls in purgatory, all the souls who suffer on earth. Have mercy on us!”
− Mimi: “Today, I would have liked so much to receive You, ô my Beloved, but, in spite of my tears, I offer You everything out of love. I ask Your forgiveness for having waited almost a whole month before answering “Yes”. With this long preparation, I was able to discover once more Your infinite love, Your patience. Between Us, there are no secrets. You know very well that I was fearful, that I was afraid of Your demands. I was afraid of losing Our intimacy. I believe that it is a very great trial for a little soul to no longer feel Your presence.
Moreover, I wanted to keep my own responsibility without any constraint or human influence, with a complete consent of my will. I wanted this pact between Us to be only a question of pure love.
Thank You my Beloved for giving me the courage to say “Yes”, for giving me once more Your love, Your peace. For You know, during this time, I had to do battle with my enemy who was raging.
Today, I am happy. I feel more bound to You, to Your love. I am breathing freely, detached from things of the earth and of the world : Thank You my God! With Your grace, please help me never to retract my offering.
And if, some day, I should have the weakness of forgetting my commitment, take me by the hand and remind me of this beautiful day when I answered “Yes” to Your love, out of love for You and for souls.
Father Gamache helped me take my first steps in spiritual life and You, You are helping me take the big step that will be my last; the immolation of the soul, the last stage of my life. I don’t have any time to lose. Everything will be for God and for souls.
Georgette Faniel.
15 May 1977
– Jesus: “I am heaven, you are the cloud. Let yourself be led by Me. Look at the clouds! Some are white, others grey. They are not the same size. However, they all have the same rhythm in the Powerful hands of Our Father. My heaven is always there with its peace.”
12 JuNe 1977
Feast of the Beatification of Brother André
– Mimi: the acceptance of André Daigneault to the priesthood.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I beg you, cry with Me, console Me. In this immense crowd, many have acted as reckless children. They proclaim a living God, a living God and I was present. I had to wait in order to be offered to My Father. This name so precious was interrupted by applause and singing.
It isn’t that I condemn these manifestations, but there is a time and place for them. On Calvary, when I offered Myself as a sacrifice to My Father for the remission of sins, My divine Mother, Mary Magdalen and John did not feel like singing or applauding. Yet, today, in 1977, it is the same bloody sacrifice being offered to Our Father. I am the same Jesus. It is a lack of sensitivity, a lack of faith.
During the recitation of the rosary, on the feast of Mary Queen of the World. Inside of me, Mary asks me to kneel.
− Mimi: “For the last 24 years, I could not kneel following an operation of my spinal column. To give glory to God the Eternal Father and to greet Her as Queen of the World, from Her children of the earth whom She loves so much. Be blessed and glorified, ô Eternal Father through Mary Queen of the World.
– Jesus: “Pray for those who hesitate to take the first step toward righteousness, that is, those whom I am calling. And pray also for those who do not hesitate to take the first step in committing evil.”
tuesday, 22 august 1978
While saying the Rosary on the feast day of Mary Queen of the World. Mary, within me, asks me to kneel in order to glorify God the Eternal Father and to greet her as Queen of the World, on behalf of all her children on earth, whom she loves so much.
For the last 24 years, I could not kneel since my spirnal operation.
May you be blessed and glorified, ô Eternal Father, on behalf of Mary Queen of the World.
N.B. Mimi will be 65 on the 8th of July 1980
30 July 1980
− Eternal Father: “The angels adore Me, the souls glorify Me with the Precious Blood of My Son. To glorify the Eternal Father and for the delivrance of souls in purgatory.
Sunday, 16 October 1983
− Mimi: “The nostalgia of Heaven is the agony of the soul before the great departure. Thank You, my God for allowing my two spiritual sons to give me their blessings in the name of God, to help me begin the three day retreat in the most absolute silence, prayer, contemplation, for the success of the spiritual Synod.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, pray for what is presently happening at the Vatican during the Synod. The Holy Father is weeping in silence and We are also weeping with Mary Immaculate. We are saddened by the thoughtless conduct of certain bishops concerning the great responsibility of their priesthood and moral commitment during this time of prayers and reflections during the Synod.”
− Mimi: “My Beloved, Your words are painful to me and I am weeping with You. Why is it that, after so many centuries, Your passion is renewed and this agony continues with Your sufferings caused by consecrated souls? After all that You have done out of Love for each one of us.”
− Jesus: “My Beloved, it is because a certain number of bishops came to the Synod with their minds, hearts and hands empty. I beg you, pray in the intimacy of Our little sanctuary that is in your little soul.
Yes, my Beloved, many will return with an empty heart and their hands closed. How will they be able to open their hearts and hands to share, to instruct the faithful who expect from the Synod a lot of light and graces? Repair and be attentive to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit.”
− Mimi: “My Beloved, how You must suffer to have such severe words toward Your consecrated souls!”
– Jesus: “Yes, My Beloved, presently, My consecrated souls are the ones who wound Me most by their lack of faith and love toward Us and by their pride. They act and say things contrary to the truth and this wounds the Holy Spirit, the Spirit of truth who has always guided the Church. And it is the same Spirit who guided Mary Immaculate in Her Conception and who guided the prophets. This same Spirit instructs the little ones and the humble in the service of God.
The Holy Spirit has no place in the mind and heart of the proud person who is full of himself and who believes he is righteous. Led by this spirit of deceit, the proud person believes that he sees the light amid the darkness. He believes he is walking on the right path when he is close to falling into error and the abyss.
How can he maintain that he sees the light when his eyes are blindfolded? How can they proclaim words of truth when their mind is invaded by lies and error?”
– Jesus: “For certain ones, the state of disobedience to our Holy Father John Paul II, to what the Holy Father asks in Our Name, God the Father and the Holy Spirit, does not draw blessings on the Synod. But in My infinite mercy and with the intercessions of Mary Immaculate and the faithful souls, the sacrifices and prayers of little souls, I will give graces to My chosen ones, those who by their faith and love for Us and souls have been obedient to him who represents Me, to the one who by His mission has guided the people of God in Love and Truth to the glory of God the Father.”
Monday 17 October 1983
1st day of retreat. Mass : Father Armand.
− Mimi: “Eternal Father, it is at Your feet, with Mother Mary and my Beloved, that I begin this retreat that You desire. It isn’t easy to shun the noise of the world, to empty oneself, to free ones heart, to awaken this spirit in me that seems fast asleep, to realize this interior reformation of the state of my soul. Beloved Jesus, without a special grace, I am unable to do so.
Thank You for helping me put things in order in order to be totally given to God during these three days. No telephone, no visits, meals alone etc… Yes, to take the time to allow You to live in my soul, to give the Holy Spirit the task of transforming this life and prepare the last stage.
Everything is grand and mysterious in me and in my environment. At this moment, I would like to be during these days of grace on the summit of a mountain, far from everyone, alone with You, Beloved Jesus, in order to be more attentive to Your word. To live in silence, to have this solitude that You had in the garden of agony. But, like You, I must accept the Holy Will of Our Father. It is upon the inspiration of Your grace that I depend during this retreat. Without You, I am nothing, I know nothing. You are aware of my ignorance.”
– Mimi: “Tell me, Beloved Jesus, what more must I do to accept fully the Will of God the Eternal Father. It is my turn to be empty handed and the mind full of all kinds of preoccupations.
Thank You, my Beloved Jesus for this intervention in answering my question. Yes, You have manifested Yourself fully with the suffering on the side of Our Alliance. There are no words to make me understand Your presence in this terrible pain and to situate me directly on the road I must follow in order to be well attached to God’s plan and to His thoughts; this mission to make known the Love in suffering through a greater intimacy, and today, to give witness by accepting everything : moral and physical pain, agony of the heart, soul and spirit, to help the Holy Father John Paul II, for the spiritual success of the Synod 1983, and for consecrated souls.
Beloved Jesus, I feel so poor, so destitute, so little in this mission so great, so full of mystery and I know that it is by pure gratuity that You have given me this task to acomplish. For the glory of the Eternal Father!
My Gentle Mother of heaven, it is in Your motherly arms that I want to hide in order to beg you to help me accept the Holy Will of the Father. No one else can understand me and guide me. Place me with Jesus in Your arms to be offered to the Eternal Father for His greater glory.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, look in what state of soul and spirit I am, after all that God, out of pure goodness, has given me. At Your example, I accept, like a little servant, to serve this Father and my neighbor, since it is the precise goal of creation. I am a product of the Thought and Heart of the Eternal Father. I was created to know, love and serve Him.
How can I know Him in all things and everywhere?
How can I recognize Him in all things He does for each one of us?
How can I love Him without knowing Him?
How can I serve Him without giving myself completely to Him?
These are the many interrogations that need an answer! I am so little, so ignorant. But all that You ask me is to obey and love by serving without asking questions.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved little host of love, you don’t need to ask questions. You only have to look with the eyes of the soul at all that I place in you through grace but especially through the merciful Love of the Father.
My Beloved, when, during Our great intimacy, I press you to My Heart and that you feel My embrace, you don’t ask Me any questions! You are completely abandoned sometimes without even understanding this privilege. Does a child who is in the arms of His Father or Mother ask questions?
My dear little host of love, the other day, by a special grace, I was holding you in My Powerful arms after My Father had wounded your heart, to render you identical to Me in My moral sufferings, in the physical pain of My whole body, to make you understand in a tangible manner the depth, the extent of the Divine and human suffering for the salvation of consecrated souls.”
– Jesus: “You know, the cross of chosen souls is much heavier to carry because consecrated souls, after having been chosen and called by Us, are marked by the sign of Our union and bound by vows and eternal commitments. Poor senseless and blind souls! They cannot even stop this infernal race that is leading them to their loss with many souls who are following this easy and dangerous road.
Today, more and more people are dying of cancer. But what are we doing for souls who are eaten by a spiritual cancer? Every day, how many souls die without any help… because, being used to take pleasure in everything, they want more human love and comfort, but especially to be free to sin.
There are so many consecrated souls who no longer believe in their commitment. They don’t even have faith in My presence on the altar. I obey their words for the Immolation in order to continue the work of Redemption, and I allow Myself to be eaten by souls at times in the state of mortal sin. And this Precious Blood, with what indifference it is consumed. For certain consecrated souls, this beverage is simply a drink taken to offend Me gravely, because they no longer have the respect, the faith in this great miracle of the Love of a God who gives Himself as food to nourish you with His flesh and Precious Blood. Yes, this Divine Blood that I shed without any condition other than the love of a God for His creature.
My Beloved, if you knew all the tears that My Divine Mother sheds each day during the celebration of the Holy Sacrifice of the mass said by certain unworthy priests who dare offer the sacrifice in the state of sin!”
– Jesus: “What eternal unhappiness awaits them! If they took the time to stop, to understand, with what respect they would raise the chalice and drink with faith, love and gratitude this Precious Blood, because it contains the precious blood of Mary Immaculate who nourished Me. Certain theologians immediately would object to this human. Don’t forget, My dear little host of love : The Precious Blood that Mary Immaculate received at Her conception was the work of the Holy Spirit and of the Father.
− Mimi: “Excuse me, my Beloved, I don’t understand how the Holy Spirit could have given Mary Immaculate the Precious Blood of Jesus?”
– Jesus: “My poor little one, that is precisely the mystery of Love. Many years ago… you were not of this world, and since then, God the Father created you and gave life to the womb of your mother who nourished you during nine months with her blood. Is it more difficult for God to perform the same miracle in the womb of the Immaculate Virgin? And to give Me human life and nourish Me, it was necessary to have the pure blood of the Immaculate Virgin, since by My Divine nature, I was Son of God.
This is why, the blood of Mary united to My Blood are identical, since the Blood that I offer the Eternal Father at the moment of Immolation is also the immolation of Mary Co-redemtrix, spouse of the Holy Spirit, mother of God and daughter of the Father who was protected from the stain of original sin.”
− Mimi: “My Beloved, You know very well that I would like to die as quickly as possible to glorify the Father and live eternally for Your Love and never have the fear of losing You.”
– Jesus: “My dear little host of Love, you must live to atone for the sins of consecrated souls that you are carrying on your shoulder, and for the sins of humanity.
With Mary, you are a spiritual mother. This is why you must feed your children that I am lending you since they are first of all the children of Mary.
At the last stage of your life, you must drink in the chalice of Jesus. You must drink the Precious Blood, drop by drop, till the end. And this will not happen in a single day.
Day by day, your will, united to My will, shall be crucified and your heart crushed like Mine for you shall die a victim of love and offered to the Father as a holocaust of love for the Holy Father, the Church, and especially for consecrated souls and humanity.”
− Jesus: “By the total giving of your life, I will be in you and you in Me. The cross your are carrying on your shoulder is the cross of the sins of consecrated souls and of humanity. But, your real cross is Mine where you will be in the near future really crucified, your eyes fixed on the merciful look of the Father. Your agony will be greater upon seeing the tears of Mary Immaculate slowly trickling on souls and the Precious Blood of Jesus flowing uselessly.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how I would like to go all over the world and cry out the pain that You have, ô Eternal Father, upon seeing Your Beloved Son and Mary Immaculate cry. What sorrow at seeing the indifference, contempt,the hatred of the humanity You created, and that Your Beloved Son redeemed by His death on the cross.
The pain of Mary is incomparable, since She is carrying within Her the sufferings of the Father and all the physical pain of the Son. Before the heart of Jesus was wounded, Mary’s heart had already been pierced by the sword of man’s ungratefulness, contempt and indifference. Why, Beloved Jesus, after so many centuries, do we remain with hardened hearts in the face of suffering?
During this Holy Year, I beg You, Eternal Father, help each one of us discover our faith, the faith of our baptism, our commitments in the Mystical Body. Send us Your Holy Spirit, the Spirit of Love, to enlighten us and lead us, to teach us to know, love and serve God the way He wants and deserves.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for allowing my spiritual son, Fr. Armand, to come and celebrate the Holy Eucharist. We prayed and offered by reciting the prayer of total giving.”
Tuesday 18 October 1983
– Mimi: After many physical and moral sufferings, I must get up and accomplish faithfully what You ask me for the Synod.
– Jesus: “My little host of love, today, you must carry in your mind, soul and body, the sins and temptations of consecrated souls. We allow these temptations to help you understand a little Our pain and Our sorrow in the presence of certain sacrileges that have become normal for certain priests.
This headache that you feel is the crown of thorns that I am carrying because of the pride of My consecrated souls. Their pride makes them believe they are God outside of mass. They approve everything they say and do, and believe Me, it is not to the glory of My Father, but in order to have a great prestige and renown in the eyes of the people. How to discover them? They speak loud, affirm themselves with strength and conviction their errors, give out advice without thinking twice. For them, sin no longer exists. Certain priests go as far as saying : “In the presence of so many sins, the mercy and love of God closes its eyes.”
My dear little host of love, truly I close my eyes to cry and to avoid seeing My Father and My Mother cry. I cannot continue looking at all these horrors. It is at times a vision worse than hell. They would deserve being silenced and incapable of moving. By their dangerous conduct, they invite the faithful to follow them, opening the door to commit evil and all kinds of sins.”
– Jesus: “There are priests who approve adultery, saying that it is something quite normal these days. For others, having sex before marriage is permitted for the sake of experience. Contraception is allowed because there are no consequences and abortion is acceptable. And, My dear host of love, do you know why? Because the child would be a living witness of their sin; it would be better to eliminate him. Whatever the reasons, it is a grave offense to God because they are committing murder, and are killing the soul and body of a child of God. Some take part in God’s plan of creation concerning a human being while animals observe the laws of nature.
The scale of values is turned upside down. The sacraments are given according to the whims of the priest, sometimes without preparation or respect. Communion is distributed like candy. How do you want the faithful to be respectful in the presence of the host that is My body. Many priests count the number of communions. This is why communion for certain priests becomes routine and all the sacraments become a habit, like a laborer who works and who rests after a day’s work. However, the priest is first of all a servant of God and of the faithful.
How terrible and strict will be the words of the Eternal Father on judgment day : “My priest, what have you done with the souls I entrusted to you? Whom did you serve? Whom have you loved? The Creator or the creature? Have you been the servant of God or the slave of the evil one? Did you blush at identifying yourself with your priesthood, with the Church, at the request of My representative, the Holy Father John Paul II?”
– Jesus: “Why place yourself in a state of disobedience? To please whom? Pride or contempt? One is not found without the other. If you do not change your ways, it is I who will blush because of you in the presence of My Father and of My Mother.
My Beloved, pray a lot for consecrated souls. You are becoming a soul who restores. Your sufferings are expiatory. You must be continually in a state of offering with Me since the Alliance embedded in your body is the unique sign of Redemption, the total giving of Our life offered to the Eternal Father in order to glorify Him with redeemed souls.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved Jesus to help me understand a little about my mission. Thank You for immolating Yourself in the poor dwelling of your unworthy servant.
As we do before and after each mass, we pray together in order to prepare ourselves as an offering to the Eternal Father with Jesus through Mary Immaculate.
I asked my spiritual Son, Father Guy, to pray for me for I was undertaking a difficult period , that is, the state of consecrated souls living in sin.
I was going to suffer temptations against faith, sins of the flesh, disobedience. Depending on my Beloved Jesus and His grace, I accept. There was a fear in me of losing Jesus. I asked my Beloved forgiveness for my lack of confidence and generosity and once again, I accept. Father Guy was praying in order to help me for my enemy was raging.
Then, my Beloved showed me something I will never forget. He showed me a priest who was not in a state to offer the Holy Sacrifice of the mass. Around the altar, there were a multitude of demons who were laughing and prostrating themselves. Others were kneeling and ridiculing the offertory. Seeing this spectacle, I was weeping and asked : “Why, my Beloved, do You immolate Yourself in a heart that is not in a state to offer You?”
– Jesus: “My little host of love, I offer Myself to the Father out of obedience, and I doubly suffer My Passion, and Mary Immaculate weeps. I must immolate Myself because the priest demands it and has received the power to consecrate. Moreover, I come for the faithful who are in the proper state to receive Me.
Whatever the impure hands that hold Me, I must give Myself as nourishment to the faithful souls. The number is so small. The essential element is the content of the offering, that is, My Body and My Blood.”
– Mimi: “Beloved Jesus, increase in us the faith in Your Holy Presence and the absolute confidence in what You are. You are the truth. Why not believe in You?”
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, the devil of pride leads the unbelievers, the foolish, sometimes the learned, and very often theologians also. It is not always the Spirit of God that enlightens and guides these priests.”
– Jesus: “This is why the Holy Spirit instructs and guides souls who are little, humble, priests who recognize their poverty before us and who know very well that it is out of pure gratuity that We called them to undertake such a great function; one of offering to the Eternal Father the Body and Blood of a God. At the moment of consecration, they become identical to Me.
During the Holy Eucharist, angels adore and prostrate themselves, trembling before this great mystery of Love where the God man offers Himself to the Father with the whole extent of human suffering, in the whole capacity of love and in the fullness of total giving, accepting to die on the cross as the most miserable of men; rejected, despised by His own and condemned by those who should have supported Him.
Pray a lot the Holy Father John Paul II. Five years ago, I asked you to be his spiritual mother, to sustain him with your prayers and sacrifices : he is suffering a lot presently. He is suffering My Passion and My agony because of the imbalance of the Church, that is, of certain of Her members. His sorrow is great because of the results. Those who are in place to help him, sustain him, seem to ignore him, to criticize him, to judge him in the smallest details, to condemn him even before he has made a move.
His coming to Canada for the 10th of September 1984 is not accepted. In the city of a hundred steeples where the cross was planted to bear witness to faith and Redemption, it is with a heavy heart that he will come to accomplish his mission. Yet, these hours of grace and blessings would be highly appreciated in other poor countries.”
− Jesus: “But, there are consecrated souls who refuse to meet the Holy Father. They are afraid of his words, his prayers, his blessings, his reproaches. Mary Immaculate is always near him to sustain him and protect him near Her motherly Heart that loves him so much because he is My representative on earth. All My power, My words, My blessings pass through him. With him I glorify the Father. In him, I immolate Myself to redeem souls. Like Me, one day, he will be a victim of Our Love.
Thank you, My Beloved, to distribute the beautiful prayer to the Eternal Father in preparation to the coming of the Holy Father. They are as many graces that I will grant those who pray with faith and confidence.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved Jesus, the joy is all mine in serving You and Yours is the glory. For, it is the Holy Spirit who inspired this prayer. I give You thanks. My Beloved Jesus, after all that You have told me, I invite You to come with the Holy Father into Your poor dwelling. Yes, Your little servant will receive You with an open heart and open arms to console You, to tell You once more all my love.”
Wednesday 19 October 1983
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God for these days of graces and blessings. In Your presence, I come to renew my strength wounded by yesterday’s battle in which You were victorious. How great is Your presence! But how I feel small and unworthy. I don’t understand everything about this state of the soul. Sometimes I don’t feel You. I no longer see You. I look for You when You are so close. I weep and yet, I feel overcome by You, Beloved Jesus! But I no longer experience the sweetness of Your Loving Embrace.
At that moment, I feel as if I were dead in Your powerful arms. I am no longer of this world. It is really You, Beloved Jesus, who lives in me. I would like these gentle moments to last eternally. How difficult it is to come back to reality and face what is going on in the world. The cortege of human misery is so great. Sin, the rejection of God by consecrated souls and all of God’s children, sickness, wars etc… I thank You for making me understand all these things. Without a special grace, I could not see. I know that in asking me to carry with You the sins of consecrated souls and of humanity, You want to associate me to Your sufferings.”
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, there is a thin nuance between being associated and sharing, being united and to unite oneself! But for Us, according to the Holy Will of Our Father, by a unique grace,you have become a victim soul of love, continually offered with Me to the Father through the hands of Mary Immaculate and of your two spiritual sons, Father Guy and Armand, servants of God and of souls.
By the Alliance that I have embedded in your body, which is not the work of human hands, it is a unique reality in the world, and especially in order to underline My presence. Two in one flesh does not only mean the physical pain, but rather My real presence in all its extent and requirements of the Father over you.
This is why I have asked you to recite before the number two “2” etched on your body this prayer:
My Lord and My God!
I beleive, I adore You present in this Alliance,
to Glorify You with Mary.
Remember that during a moment of intimacy, during your offering and prayer, I made you say in latin this other phrase that confirms it entirely : “Hoc es enim corpus Meum” and that in your ignorance, you did not even understand its meaning and greatness. Presently, My Beloved, the time is urgent for you to immolate yourself each moment with Me to the Father.
You must die to yourself in all things, renounce willingly to all that is not of God. There is a choice, to live fully the total giving, the most beautiful prayer for little souls. Like Me, you will be rejected, crucified in your will and crucified to the will of Our Father. You will experience the agony of the heart, the soul, the mind and body. The agony of the body will be to give witness to your identity with Me : Two in one flesh.”
– Jesus: “I repeat, you will die a Victim of love, offered with Me as a holocaust of love for the remission of the sins of the world. What I have done in you will become visible. The sufferings of the passion will be revealed. You will be placed on My cross in order to glorify Our Father and at the moment of Our perfect union for eternity, there will be apparent death on Our carnal body. I will be truly living in you for our entrance into the house of Our Father.
My Beloved, do you remember when you lost your ring that you wore on your finger? How sad you were! I allowed this trial of your enemy to test your faith. In spite of your search, I had told you to remain calm and confident. You found your ring on the day I attached you to the cross; it took almost a month.
Today, after a long preparation, I am placing you on My cross, that is, you are carrying My cross. The cross you were carrying was one of your sins and those of consecrated souls. Presently, My cross, Our cross is one of humanity till the end of time. Is the servant of God above the Master?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, am I dreaming or is this an illusion? It is so great, so beautiful, so full of Mystery and my poor nature is trembling before it.”
− Jesus: “Come near Me, My dear little host of Love. I understand. Before the mysteries of Love and Mercy of the Father, I wept during My agony. My Divine Mother also had a moment of hesitation. When the angel visited Saint Joseph, he experienced these moments of trials as well as my prophets and my apostles. Why would it be different for you? Fear not! This is willed and permitted by the Father to strengthen your faith and as a last purification.”
– Mimi: “But You, Beloved Jesus, You didn’t need a purification, so why?”
− Jesus: “Poor little one! Because of My human nature, I had to suffer these trials. This is why you will have to accept everything and keep silent like My Divine Mother and Myself. Remain humble, in contemplation and faith before the great Mystery of Love. Give thanks to God for everything He is doing in you. It is your poverty, your smallness, but especially this great desire to love Him, serve Him, atone and save souls in order to glorify Him, that draws God’s attention on you. His eyes, at times filled with tears upon seeing your conduct so despicable, one day, were closed and then opened again to see your repentance, your good will in spite of your weakness.
And one day, you became My spouse. This is why, this mystical union and identification to My passion surpasses all human reasoning. Only those who shall have been informed by a special privilege will be able to help you and sustain you. Happy are you! I only had John and Mary Magdalen. As for you, I have given you more in the persons of your two spiritual sons and priests: Father Guy and Father Armand. They have been chosen to continue offering Me to the Father while offering themselves at each mass and by total giving which has become the centre of their sacerdotal life.
As they love Mary Immaculate, She keeps them in Her arms in order to protect them at all times. Your fervent and constant prayer for them will be granted.”
– Jesus: “They will continue your mission, to make known the love in suffering through a greater intimacy of the soul with God, to atone, merit and save souls for the glory of God.
My Beloved, what gave them this privilege was the total giving of their mother when she gave you her three sons who were priests, not simply entrusting them but giving them to you. Do you remember how moved you were upon hearing these words coming from the lips of their mother? And it was by a special grace that you were able to know her and speak with her for a while before I came with Mary to receive her into eternal happiness with Us.
My dear little host of love, as a spiritual mother, you must give Us your two priest-sons, in a state of perfection. Their mother has given them to you after having prepared them for the priesthood. As for you, you will have to prepare them to be immolated with Me for the salvation of souls to the glory of the Eternal Father. Give them a new birth in spiritual life and do not neglect anything. Follow the instructions of the Holy Spirit to allow them to grow in their priesthood and remain small on the human level.”
Tuesday 6 December 1983
– Mimi: “It is midnight! I am beginning my retreat to prepare the beautiful feast of the Immaculate Conception and also to prepare my heart, my soul, my mind to receive the great graces that, out of pure goodness, You deign give me for the Church, for consecrated souls and for all souls. My Beloved, how I wish to be hidden in the wounds of Your heart during these days of blessings for the Church.”
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, since when have you left My merciful Heart? Why would I have placed you at the heart of the Church? By your physical and moral sufferings, united to My cross and the sorrows of Mary Immaculate, you must follow Me totally along the way of the cross, on this path of Love in suffering in order to glorify Our Father with the souls that I entrust to you.
The cross that you were carrying was the cross of your sins, of your shortcomings. From now on, the cross that you will carry will be My cross, that is, Our cross upon which you will be nailed, to which you will be attached in order to be offered to Our Father with Me as priest and victim, as a holocast victim of love for consecrated souls and for humanity.
My dear little host of love, do you remember one day, in your spiritual notes, I was telling you that you would die a victim of love. Now is the time to prepare yourself for this gentle encounter, this perfect union in love and suffering through the total giving of your life in the service of the Church.”
– Jesus: “Your agony will be a long one, for you are beginning today the agony of the soul, the heart, the mind and the body. During your last retreat on the 16th of October 1983, I was telling you that your will had to be crucified and your heart crushed. This is what took place this afternoon : In the state of darkness in which I placed you, there was no human element, only a state of despair of a single priest who had lost faith in his priesthood.
How you cried! How you suffered in front of the real presence upon hearing the words of rebellion, blasphemy, contempt, hatred, insults that your enemy placed on your lips. I also, My Beloved, cried at seeing you suffer so much. I would have liked to press you against My heart, but I had to obey Our Father. It is by accepting this agony that We were able to help, not only a priest, but many more.
My dear little host of love, the state of a victim soul must be continually an offering to the glory of Our Father for His consolation. If you only knew how much Our Father suffers. Don’t forget, My agony is also His.
Before so much contempt, hatred, ungratefulness, lack of faith in His infinite mercy, rejection of His Love, these things are what wound Him most. After having given Me to the world out of love, after having chosen Mary Immaculate for us, becoming My Mother, the Mother of humanity, how to accept Mary in their lives as a mother who loves each one of Her children, that is, the children of God the Eternal Father.”
– Jesus: “Without the total “Yes” of Mary, the world would not have been saved. It is through the love and obedience to the Father that I was able to give Myself to the Father with humility and the love of Mary, My Mother and yours.
My dear little host of love, throw yourself with confidence into Her arms. It is close to Her Motherly heart that you will learn more about your mission as priest and victim with Me, through the spiritual maternity of Mary. She will guide you and lead you to this spiritual maternity for consecrated souls and for humanity.
Your spiritual sons will be there to help you ascend Calvary to the cross in order to be consumed by love of the total giving of your life, each day, each moment, especially at mass. If priests could believe and see for a second what is happening in heaven during offertory, when by his priesthood, the priest becomes Jesus crucified offering Himself to the Father for the redemption of the world. Mary, priest and victim with Jesus and the whole celestial court are present to give glory to the Eternal Father.
The eyes of Mary, moist with tears, are concentrated on the cross, looking at Her Beloved Jesus, the child of God. With all the Maternal love that the Father has given Her, She casts her look on Her other child, the priest. How She suffers at times from the indifference, lack of faith, the irreverence before Her Jesus on the cross. There are many who by their lack of faith step on Our hearts. How can they believe in the real presence when they don’t even have faith and respect for their priesthood.”
– Jesus: “Some priests are being lost with many souls for when they administer the sacraments, there is a lack of respect, of discernment, of prayers, of reflection near Jesus and Mary. Under the pretext that they are priests, they give themselves total freedom to speak and act. For certain priests, My mercy is so great that there is no more sin, therefore, no more sinners. There are also priests that the spirit of mutism prevents from speaking. In order not to judge and hurt people’s feelings, they sin out of human respect if not of cowardice. Yet, I was and still am a God of Mercy, Love and Truth.
I was crucified because I walked enlightened by the Father, by faith and charity. I gave witness to the Truth. Why remain silent in certain situations so as not to hurt people’s feelings whereas the Heart of the Father is wounded and My heart is bleeding with that of My Mother’s. Why are they so blind, so cowardly in the presence of Truth. The commandments of God are still real even in 1983.
Love and charity are also true. Yes, certain attitudes on their part of goodness, mercy and kindness are attitudes of cowardice. They open the door to their enemy in order to prevent themselves from being witnesses to truth. One cannot walk in the right direction without truth. One must not be afraid of truth. On the contrary. One must give witness to Truth, for the father of lies has lost the world because of pride and lies.”
− Jesus: “Even our days, how many consecrated souls don’t even see the difference between a lie and the truth. Truth does not cause trouble, gives one the courage to bear witness. Truth does not judge but forgives. There are also priests who distort the truth because they fear being criticized or misjudged. Even in My sacrament of forgiveness, they remain silent, a guilty silence as guilty as the sin that is accused.
During my public life, I did not fear the truth. When I had near Me a sinful soul, I would forgive the sincere soul because of its human weakness. But I always remained in the truth but with forgiveness there was a condition : “Go and sin no more!”
Many souls die in the state of sin because the priest did not have the courage to correct them, to say the truth concerning an offense made to God. To teach souls how to disobey God in His commandments is an offense, a sin, (don’t be afraid of the word sin, it still exists), to teach them how to remain pure or to teach them error by saying that God overlooks everything.
How many souls, before such language, depend on mercy and never correct themselves or never make an effort and remain continuously in the occasions of sin and take advantage of the priest in order to receive approval concerning the disorder of their lives. The judgment of the priest will be severe for the one who does not pray to have faith in his priesthood and to have the courage to speak and act in truth with discernment.”
– Jesus: “Interior reform of consecrated souls is so tremendous. It is important especially during this Holy Year of 1983 where My representative on earth, pope John Paul II is speaking, begging, weeping, suffering, offering himself by the total giving of his life. It is an agony for him and for Us to see so many souls being lost because of those who have the duty and responsibility to direct them take an easier road with the desires of the world that attract them more and more.
No more intimate prayers, no more recitation of the rosary, no more meditation, no more sacrifices, no more ways of the cross, no more recitation of the divin office, no more fasting, no more silence. With a busy mind, how can they be silent, how can they stop for prayer, adoration, to give thanks for our infinite Love, to ask Us forgiveness and mercy. We are at times rejected by these consecrated souls. We weep in the presence of so much ungratefulness. We had chosen them and pampered them with infinite Love.
At the moment of their ordination and commitment, We came to them with Love and the fullness of chosen graces to help them work properly in the service of their brothers and sisters so that God’s kingdom might come. Our confidence and hopes were so great for each consecrated soul. After having filled them out of pure gratuity, they turned a deaf ear.
They have no more time to listen to Us, to hear and obey the demands of the Holy Father John Paul II who asks the bishops and priests to minister out of obedience. How many resist out of pride. At times, they obey on a human level but not on a divine one. This is the reason why the faithful no longer know where truth lies or how to find the right road.”
− Jesus: “The Holy Father John Paul II asks in the name of God that the sacraments be given and administered with authenticity and respect. The Eucharist, this sacrament of love, under what condition it is given! My heart bleeds when My Body and Precious Blood are given with indifference in an off handed manner. They put Me in baskets or other recipients, when the sacred vases were consecrated and prepared to receive My Body and My Blood. There are priests who no longer have any respect in the real presence. This is why there are so many sacrilegious communions, so much irreverence in Our presence.
My dear little host of love, if you knew how I suffer to see such horror whereas in Heaven, the angels prostrate themselves to adore Us, and My Divine Mother adores Me near Her Heart. She did not see at the time, but Her faith, Her confidence, Her Love, Her conformity to the Holy Will of My Father was Her reason to live.
I am the same God. I give Myself out of Love. I show Myself in the host, yet how many take advantage of this sign of love. I give Myself as food to help souls. Why don’t consecrated souls speak more about the Eucharist to make Myself known to the full extent of My Love for each soul?
The soul who understands My Love, consoles Us. Do you see, My dear little host of love, why We have chosen you? To help consecrated souls to better love Us, to better serve Us with the souls We entrust to them. By your mission of victim in love and suffering, by a greater intimacy, you make Us known. It is a very great grace that We have given you out of Love and gratuity.
– Jesus: “Many thanks to your two spiritual priest-sons for helping you in your mission. By their vow of immolation, one day, they will identify with My moral and physical suffering in order to save as many souls as possible to the glory of Our Father. Their vows and desires will be granted according to their love, their fidelity, their faith in their priesthood, and with the graces I am giving them.
The more they are attentive to their faith and love, the more they console Us and glorify Our Eternal Father. As little children, they must always cuddle up in the arms of their Gentle Mother of heaven, Mary Immaculate. With the help of the Holy Spirit, let us prepare the beautiful and unique feast of the Immaculate Conception.”
Wednesday 7 December 1983
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved, for allowing me to continue this retreat for the feast of Mother Mary Immaculate in Her Conception. I am asking the Holy Spirit to prepare our hearts and our souls : My two spiritual priest-sons are also on retreat. I give them to You so that they may become holy priests. Thank You, ô Most Holy Father for allowing us to attend Holy Mass in Your dwelling where we are your servants.
Eternity won’t be long enough to thank You. With what respect and faith my spiritual priest-sons offer You to the Father while offering themselves in all the extent of their love by total giving. How we want to atone and merit for consecrated souls so that the Precious Blood of Jesus may not fall uselessly on souls.”
− Jesus: “My dear little host of love, your spiritual children were well prepared in the heart of their saintly mother for she gave the Church three priests by her total giving. During her life time, she gave you her three priests, children whom she loved so much. This obtained for her many graces for each one.
By your role as spiritual mother, you will be asked also to give them back to Me, to lead them to the cross. By faith in their priesthood, they will identify with My sufferings, My wounds, My Blood that was shed upon souls. They will be living witnesses of My merciful Love.”
– Jesus: “Because of the fidelity to their priesthood, I will grant them the gift of touching the most wounded and hardened hearts. May they keep their eyes constantly on the cross and remain in the arms of Mary Immaculate.
As for Father Guy, he will be the pampered child of Mary, an apostle of the Father, the little servant of Jesus and of the Church.
As for Father Armand, he will be the dear child of Mary, a disciple of the Father, the little priest of Jesus at the service of souls.
They will be with you, victims of love, and offered with Jesus as a holocaust to the Father by the hands of Mary Immaculate for the redemption of the sins of humanity, especially of consecrated souls.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved Jesus, what can we do to console the Eternal Father and atone?”
− Jesus: “My dear little host of love, you only have to look at Me on the cross, meditate on My Passion, My physical and moral sufferings. Often kiss with respect and love My wounds. Each kiss is a balm on My wounds and makes me forget many things, that is, your sins, your imperfections, your faults. You know, the least little indelicacy toward Us, wounds Me, because you are My little spouse and that I have given you so much in spite of everything.
Each day, you recognize your mistakes and weep, asking Me forgiveness. If you could see Me, so close to you, wiping your tears that are for Us precious pearls. Yes, My dear little host of love, you are suffering a lot, but your sufferings are not for you, and the 8 of December 1983 will be entirely for Us.
In 1953, when your spiritual director, Father Joseph Gamache told you: “God wants everything from you. He will take everything and that will be all.” The moment of this prophecy has arrived, after 30 years of preparation in love and suffering.
Possible continuation of 7 December 1983
– Jesus: … More gentle than when I wound your poor heart already wounded by the sins of consecrated souls, and moreover the sins of humanity that you must carry with Us. For in your state of victim soul, you must accept the plans of God for you in all things, for you will be My All.
My dear little host of love, the only thing remaining will be the freedom to accept everything out of love, without understanding much about this great mystery of Love in you. Ask your Gentle Mother of heaven to help you, to guide you on this difficult road for a human being, for a frail little girl, but strengthened by Our love. Be attentive to the Holy Spirit.
Year 1984
Sunday, 1st January 1984.
Mass Fr. Armand.
Sick in bed.
Visit from the doctor, injection.
Moral crisis.
Monday 2 January 1984
Mass Fr. Armand.
Visit from the doctor, injection
Moral crisis, darkness.
– Jesus: “My Beloved is in pain, we have heard her.” Tuesday,
3 January 1984
Mass, Fr. Guy
During the Eucharist :
– Jesus : “My dear little host of love, the tears that you are shedding abundantly on your sins, on the sins of humanity and for consecrated souls are becoming more and more an ocean of love and of mercy.”
Tuesday, 4 January 1984
Mass, Fr. Guy.
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, I need you, your loving kisses to honor my wounds. The injuries that I am receiving each day from my consecrated souls are intolerable : especially when they give the sacraments in the state of sin. My Precious Blood is falling uselessly on these souls. By their refusal to obey and by their pride they are closing the door to grace and are not drawing upon themselves my mercy and blessings.”
Friday 6 January 1984
Mass, Fr. Guy and Fr. Armand.
Wednesday 18 April 1984
– Mimi: Since Sunday, I have been living the agony of the heart, the soul, and the spirit.
– Mimi: “Each day, I have the joy of receiving you. With what faith, what love, what generosity my spiritual sons come and celebrate the Eucharist in order to give me the strength and courage to continue the journey you have traced for me from all eternity.
“My Beloved, I would have liked so much to be continually near you, to follow you step by step on your way to the cross. How I would like to hold you in my arms, kiss your forehead, wipe your tears, tell you how much I love you. But, Father most Holy, may your Will be done and not mine.
“My soul is sad in the darkness where I am. I am unable to pray, to meditate. All that comes to my mind are moments of rebellion and despair at the sight of my poor life that I consider useless, full of misery.
“In the presence of this state of my soul, my enemy is near me to destroy me, telling me that I am lost, that there is no redemption for me, that I belong to him forever, that my sins are so numerous that I can no longer hope for the mercy of God.”
– Satan: “Because the blood of Jesus is useless for a damned soul like yours. You have taken advantage of grace and the sacraments. Your whole life is made up of lies.
You are living simply the way you wanted, but God is rejecting you more and more. Your only hope is in despair and to end your life. You are on the last lap of your life and I am pleased for you will soon be with me forever.
“We have waited such a long time for this moment. It is a great pleasure for us to receive a soul that wanted to serve an invisible God; to love this unknown God, to believe that you are priest and victim, to believe in your mission that is but an illusion, that the Alliance is only on the surface of the flesh and not in depth. Only Mary had the privilege of carrying in her heart, her soul, her body the sufferings of her Son. The joy for us is as great as when we receive a consecrated soul.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, where are you? I so want to hear your voice and it is the evil one who seems to want to replace you.”
– Mimi: “My God, hear my prayer, in spite of the state of my soul. I want to believe in you, in your infinite mercy. My God, I lift up my voice, sustain me, sustain my faith. I have lost hope in your forgiveness and yet from the depths of my soul, I want to believe.
“Today, my spiritual son, Fr. Guy, at the moment of communion presented me with Jesus. I am unable to receive for I did not have this desire for communion and faith in his presence. Fr. Guy, my spiritual counsellor, said to me : ‘Make an act of faith’. Even with Jesus present in me, there was emptiness. I was convinced that I had committed a sacrilege; this increased my despair. I am weeping as I think and write about this.
“I am like a blind person, without light, not even a glimmer of hope : this tunnel is endless and with no way out, this death in the soul that no one can understand without a special grace that I do not have. My God, I do want to believe, to love you, increase my faith in moments of temptation. Give me the strength to thank you.”
19 April 1984
Holy Thursday
– Mimi: After a terrible night, I am able, by the grace of God, to get up.
– Mimi: “I want to be close to you more and more my Beloved Jesus. Yes, I want to walk with you. Thank you for giving me the desire to serve, to share a little in your sufferings.
“In spite of the state I am in, I could feel in the depths of my soul a bit of happiness. To my great surprise, my two spiritual sons, Fr. Guy and Fr. Armand came by to pray with me in your little sanctuary recently renovated : painted in white, the adornment in the little sanctuary is in blue, the furniture is white and blue, a marian color. In the center, the altar, in the form of a chalice as requested by the Father, on the altar is the statue of Our Lady of the Blessed Sacrament.
“On this Holy Thursday, 19th of April 1984, it was the first time that the little monstrance was placed on the altar in the presence of Jesus.
“Before this real presence of Jesus, we adored, thanked and contemplated for several hours. Then, my two spiritual sons, Fr. Guy and Fr. Armand blessed and dedicated the little sanctuary to the Eternal Father : the dream of P. J. Gamache s.j. deceased. He was my first spiritual director, 1948 to 1966.
“One day, when I was suffering after spending a long time in Notre-Dame Hospital where I had undergone an operation for my spine, I was lying in my little room that is now our little sanctuary. After thanksgiving, Fr. Gamache told me : ‘You know, Mimi, your bed will one day be your cross on which you will be attached, with Jesus, as an offering to the Father; and then, this little room will become a sanctuary.’
“Knowing from an interior voice that there was no church on earth, not even a small chapel, dedicated to the Eternal Father (spiritual notes), and wanting to obey the desire of the Father, and for this reason, we called it the Sanctuary of the Eternal Father in order to render homage to the Father and make Him known by spreading the prayer to the Eternal Father inspired by the Holy Spirit (spiritual notes).
“After moments of silence in adoration before the real presence of Jesus, all three of us renewed our vow of total giving to the Father with the prayer of total giving. Then, they renewed their sacerdotal commitment. In this gesture of faith in their priesthood, they thanked God for choosing them out of pure gratuity. How small they feel in the presence of this great mystery of love and mercy!”
– Mimi: “Ô most holy Father and Beloved Jesus, twenty years ago you had entrusted them to me in prayer, to sustain them in their priesthood, so that they might become holy priests.”
– Jesus: “Yes, my Beloved, with your role as mother, you also had to give birth to twin priests. It is for this reason that we chose them. To help you in your mission and to lead you where we wish you to be with me, on the same cross, to glorify our Father with all the souls that I entrust to you, especially consecrated souls.
“Thank you, dear children of the Father and of Mary Immaculate, for your offering as Priest and Victim with me, to glorify our Father and for the spiritual renewal of consecrated souls, and for humanity : thank you for the Te Deum and the Magnificat. Mary Immaculate wept for joy in hearing you sing her praises with children’s hearts. Always remain very little in our powerful arms.
“Thank you, my Beloved for sustaining the Holy Father John Paul II. As spiritual mother of the Holy Father, you will have to suffer a lot. You must help him carry this heavy cross of responsibilities. My Beloved, the more you will be a victim with me, the more you will be at the heart of the Church : this Church that is suffering from the devastating effects of a lack of faith in certain consecrated souls.
“How many priests no longer believe in my real presence in the Eucharist. How can they believe in their priesthood, in prayer, in the accomplishment of their duties! Poor priests, how they wound me even more! Each time a priest celebrates the Holy Sacrifice of the mass in the state of sin, he renews, by himself, all my sufferings : my agony, my scourging and my death. Pray a lot for these priests, and intercede often by asking forgiveness and mercy.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how I would like to console you, to console the Eternal Father and Mother Mary. What more do you want me to do.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, offer me all your physical and moral sufferings, your temptations, that nothing may be lost.”
– Mimi: “Thank you, my God, for telling me and allowing me to see the importance of temptations. Thank you for inviting me to pray with you tonight.”
20 April 1984
Good Friday
Prayer of total giving.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, this is a great day. I could no longer pray during the night, my heart was too heavy. I was thinking about the pain of our gentle heavenly Mother and of your sufferings and death. I would have wanted to die in your place. You know, my Beloved Jesus, you did not deserve to die and you accepted it out of love for us, for me.
“You were asking me, during the night, not to leave you by yourself. You can see, Beloved Jesus, that I am no better than your apostles. I was able to keep you company until three in the morning. Poor Jesus, I am so weak and little in following you, forgive me.
“Awake at six o’clock. Thank you for placing on my head your crown of thorns. Yes, these thorns that I allow to penetrate deeply through my sins, my doubts, my lack of confidence after all you have given me out of pure gratuity. Why, Beloved Jesus, after so many signs of your merciful love, am I still searching for you?”
Friday 5 May 1984
Today is a day of prayer, of silent retreat in the sanctuary of the Eternal Father, in your dwelling.
Even before learning that the Immaculate Virgin was asking in her apparitions in Yougoslavia to fast, to pray, my spiritual director, Fr. Armand asked me that each Friday be a day of prayer, of atonement, of fasting, bread and water and sometimes total fasting. We were pleased that the Immaculate Virgin asked this from the seers of Yougoslavia and souls of good will. It isn’t always easy.
– Mimi: “My Beloved Jesus, what is going on in my soul? I am in darkness and this dryness is hurting me. My director, Fr. Armand asked me whether I wanted to receive the sacrament of penance each week, on Friday if possible. My enemy is raging, I am troubled, everything is dark and I am choking, I am lacking this oxygen of your love. I tried to explain this to my director, I couldn’t find the words; how I hate myself, and all that is within me. I have the impression of being rejected by God since he rejects lukewarm souls.”
– My director tells me: “The only thing you must detest is sin. And Jesus has never rejected anyone, on the contrary, he came to save us.” With this opposition between my director and the evil one, I was somewhat paralyzed. It was really the agony of the soul with all its doubts, I did not even feel this hope of being forgiven. Jesus was so distant and was rejecting me forever.”
– Mimi: “Jesus, you who are truth itself, he who walks with you is not in darkness : you who are the light , the life, the truth. Why so many years of moral and physical sufferings that end in damnation. My soul is wounded, why is he leaving me in this state of total abandonment. This pain in my head that you told me that I was sharing your crown of thorns was but an illusion; and yet, this suffering is really physically present.”
– Satan: “Poor little girl, you are walking in a dream. You so want to identify yourself with this Jesus that you pretend suffering physically when he is not even present in you. Why would God with his power need a damned soul to follow him? I repeat to you that you will die in my hands.
“After so many years of struggles, do you think that I am going to let you go, especially since you have this Alliance embedded in your flesh. It amuses me a lot when you honor this Alliance wih this prayer, for you are in error with your two blind priests : two naive priests looking for the marvellous in you. When they discover your game, they will abandon you like God is doing today.
“The number two embedded in your flesh is nothing but the sign that I am in you, as present as God could be. Our two powers are meeting. You are there, defenseless, and it is the stronger one who will be the final victor.”
My director asks me to make an act of faith and to confess myself. In the sacrament of penance I no longer see the priest before me. It is always to Jesus that I uncover my sins, my miseries, my poverty.
I ask him to forgive me for not understanding everything and not trusting him in these situations. How I would like to be like Mary Magdalene at the feet of Jesus; I weep and wait for forgiveness from his priest.
If certain priests could understand and believe in their priesthood, the presence and identification with Jesus crucified, a priest would never allow himself to doubt. But if only priests would meditate more often on the passion and kiss the crucifix with faith and confidence in God Priest and Victim, the Eternal Priest, to glorify God the Eternal Father!
– Jesus: “Indeed, my Beloved, how many graces are lost among certain consecrated and religious souls. Because spiritual pride has replaced humility, how many are satisfied with their prayers, their words, the work they are doing on their own. This personal search, with a false humility, is an open door to spiritual pride through which the evil one enters with pleasure to distance the soul from prayer, meditation, silence, contemplation.
“How can a proud soul meditate on Jesus crucified? How can a soul that loves to talk uselessly, with at times frivolous words, contemplate and understand the humility and silence of Jesus and Mary?
“My Beloved, where are my priests who really want to follow me on the royal road of the Cross?
Where are those who want to serve me by remaining faithful to their priesthood?
Where are those who want to love me, console me?
Where are those who have faith in my representative on earth, the Holy Father John Paul II?
“Many don’t want to obey,and have no respect for the demands of the Holy Father when he speaks to consecrated souls : to make a choice and to witness to their sense of belonging to the Church and to Jesus, by wearing a distinctive sign. All priests who do not wear a distinctive sign as demanded by our representative on earth, Pope John Paul II, are in a state of disobedience, are not drawing blessings upon themselves and are giving a bad example to the faithful : they will be held accountable for this.The same reproach goes for religious sisters.
“My Beloved, you know that we often weep. There is such disorder in my Church that has cost my Precious Blood and the blood of martyrs. Why is there such indifference? Why is there such contempt, even among some of my consecrated souls? Why destroy instead of build? There is devastation everywhere, even your temples are no longer places of respect, of prayer. Every human reason is possible for closing the doors to the faithful who want to encounter me, to visit me in my sacrament of love, to console me and intercede.
“The evil one has set a trap and some have fallen into it; the fear of being stolen. Poor senseless ones, they steal from me the presence and prayers of faithful souls who want to console me, to adore me. What would these souls say if when they come before me we would close our door?
“On the cross, I opened my heart out of love, to welcome those who were thirsting for my Precious Blood. At each mass, I renew this invitation to my children, that is, to the children of God. My Beloved, many will have to answer for their actions. Certain bishops, priests, religious are responsible for the decline of faith among the people of God.
“In some areas, the bishop has only the title because he is not fulfilling the mission he received : the first responsibility being to direct the people of God towards this Church, in the authenticity of its doctrine, in its clarity, purity and truth. Yes, lead all these children towards the unity of christians, in one single love, that is Jesus Christ.
“Many priests of good will are disconcerted by the lack of attention from certain authorities. Priests are no longer able to expose their case to their bishop. When I was the authority, I was available to everyone; the little ones, the important ones, sinners, the sick. I went towards those who needed me most. I came on earth to serve. They have the same mission, but don’t want to serve, only when it is profitable.”
Friday 11 May 1984
– Mimi: Day of prayer. I would have liked to begin my day by praying in your little sanctuary to the Eternal Father, but circumstances did not allow me to, having a lot of work.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved, for always helping me, for sustaining me, for carrying me in your arms to accomplish this work. Without your grace, I wouldn’t even have the physical strength.”
Friday 8 june 1984
Visit of Daniel Ange with Fr. Guy and Fr. Armand.
A very warm welcome.
He is really a man of God.
Wednesday 26 june 1984
– Mimi: A memorable day for us.
We prayed a lot to prepare the feast of the Precious Blood of Jesus and also the 2nd … (Anniversary of the Alliance).
Sunday 8 July 1984
– Mimi: In an exchange with my Beloved, I asked him, on the 69th anniversary of my birth, that I be totally forgotten by my parents and people. I want to be detached from everyone and everything, and also from myself. “However, ô Eternal Father, may your Holy Will be done in every way.”
A few hours after this request, the phone rang very early with wishes for a happy birthday. Then, friends brought flowers, gifts, cards, money with masses for my intentions. And the whole day was spent answering phone calls and receiving people until midnight.
In spite of all this, my prayer was answered. Two members of my family offered their wishes in the evening, and this family is made up of at least 50 persons; brothers, sisters, nephews, nieces.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my God, for making me understand a little how much you suffer when I allow myself to be distracted and forget at times that you are present in this Alliance. Render me attentive to grace and to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit in order to always obey and accept your most Holy Will.”
On this occasion, my director gave me the sacrament of penance and the sacrament of the sick after 63 years of sickness. What memories! At 6 years of age, after my first communion, Jesus began to make me walk along the way of the cross. I did not understand all the importance of these physical and moral sufferings. However, in the deepest region of my little heart, I would weep for not loving Jesus enough and for having offended him with my sins. For me, what I felt in the presence of my sins, would become a serious sin. I experienced very young these agonies of the soul in which all seems lost, and I felt rejected by God. With the least imperfection, the evil one…
Tuesday 10 July 1984
– Mimi: The day of my baptism. A memorable day, already 69 years since God accepted me as his child, a child of Mary. I have a great devotion to the Precious Blood of Jesus. It gives me great pleasure to have been born during the month consecrated to his Precious Blood.
Friday 20 July 1984.
Friday : My God, do with me what you will.
The presence of Cécile and Régine.
Saturday 1st December 1984
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I do want to obey my director by writing down our exchanges, but you are hiding! What must I do? It’s like asking a blind person to write.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you are right on! The expression is well chosen! This is exactly the state of your soul, blinded by your preoccupations. I also at times am blinded by the love I have for you, in spite of your behavior, in the presence of the will of our Father. I am always present in the Alliance.
I know that you don’t understand the whole extent of this commitment in the service of the Eternal Father and of the Church. My Beloved, the Church needs your physical and moral sufferings. The Holy Father John Paul II has an urgent need of being sustained by constant prayer from his spiritual mother. Think also of your spiritual sons, your spiritual children, the souls that I entrust to you; especially consecrated souls.
I want them all to be holy : holy in their actions, in their souls, in their hearts, in the accomplishment of their ministry, holy with souls I entrust to them, holy in their prayers and offerings.”
Sunday 2 December 1984
– Mimi: “Most Holy Father, I beg you, come to my aid, the state of my soul is in agony; all these doubts against the faith, this fear of suffering in all that you are asking, to be identified to Jesus crucified.
However, my Beloved Jesus, you know that in spite of my weakness, with your grace, I want to follow you to the cross in a total abandonment of my will to the Holy Will of our Father to glorify Him.
Upon the advice of my director, Fr. Armand, I want to thank you :
- Thank you for the temptations,
- Thank you for my doubts,
- Thank you for my weakness,
- Thank you for this agony of the soul,
- Thank you for this darkness,
- Thank you for what you are doing in my soul during these trials in which you are purifying me,
- Thank you for listening to my complaints,
- Thank you for the phone call I would have liked to receive from my director to help me,
- Thank you for allowing me to feel alone, abandoned,
- Thank you for everything that I don’t understand.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, it is my turn to say thank you. Like my divine Mother, my gentle heavenly Mother, accept everything in your soul, in your heart by saying constantly, thank you. In spite of this abandonment that you are feeling, this rejection that takes hold of your mind, this interior rebellion, be assured that we are looking upon you with love. Never, never doubt that I am present in an invisible manner in your suffering, by the Alliance that I embedded in your flesh. Yes, this pact of love in suffering, two in one flesh, is a unique event on earth.
“My Beloved, these hours of agony that you are going through at this moment, allows you to experience total giving in its fullness. For your mission, you must sustain the Holy Father John Paul II and consecrated souls. My Precious Blood was shed for all humanity. Your sufferings must be continually offered, night and day, united to the sacrifice offered to the Eternal Father through Mary Immaculate, for the Church, for the sanctification of consecrated souls and for the needs of all humanity.”
Evening.
– Mimi: “Thank you, Beloved Jesus, thank you Eternal Father for allowing your divine Son to come and immolate himself once more in your dwelling. It is in the little sanctuary dedicated to the Eternal Father that we can pray, meditate and contemplate in silence.”
– Jesus: “Thank you, my Beloved for giving us shelter in your soul, in your dwelling. I should rather say the dwelling of the Eternal Father where our two privileged sons are offering themselves to us as priests and victims at each Eucharist to glorify the Eternal Father with my Precious Blood and the offering of Mary Immaculate.”
Monday 3 December 1984
– Mimi: “My God, please give me the strength and courage to get up and accomplish your holy adorable will. I feel extremely weak.
“Mother Mary, it is near you, near your motherly heart that I want to cuddle up. I need you so badly to help me accept the Holy Will of our Father.
“My gentle heavenly Mother, I beg you, protect me from my enemy, from his tricks, his snares. Give me your hand, I don’t want to fall, I don’t want to lose you for a single moment. Without Jesus, without you, I can do nothing. Ask the Holy Spirit for me to sustain me. In spite of this dryness, I want to believe. Increase my faith, the courage to fight back temptations. Grant me, please, perseverance in my resolutions.
“My Beloved Jesus, I don’t ask to understand everything, it is way above my little intelligence. Everything is so huge, so full of the mystery of love. I ask myself : ‘Is all this happening to me? All that I am receiving out of pure gratuity? Why so many signs of love, of mercy towards a poor sinner?’
“Each day, I see again my poor life full of misery, and I weep. Beloved Jesus, I no longer want to offend you! And when I look at all the evil in the world, I suffer feeling at times guilty for my lack of generosity, of penance. It is a duty of charity to pray for my neighbor.
“My God, do not allow a single soul to commit sin, or die in the state of sin because I neglected to pray for him. Do not allow your Precious Blood to fall uselessly on souls.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, if consecrated souls and the faithful prayed this way, how many souls would be saved by the act of charity and love for ones neighbor through my Precious Blood.”
Tuesday 4 December 1984
– Mimi: “My Beloved, where are you, I am looking for you? I beg you, come to my aid. I don’t even have the strength to cry out to you. I am weeping like a child who has lost all that was most beautiful in the world, at this time when I need you to help us prepare the feast of the Immaculate Conception.
“My two spiritual sons are helping me a lot with their prayers, the celebration of the Eucharist, their advice. But in the state of soul I am in, I don’t believe all that they tell me. However, I would like to believe. This attitude makes me suffer.”
Wednesday 5 december 1984
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I still dare call you, my Beloved. Yet, of this union, of this intimacy, what is left? I make an act of the will to look at our Alliance, and each time, I’m afraid of making a mistake. I tremble before what represents the Alliance.”
– Satan: “Poor little girl, why be afraid of my work within you. I have what I want. To keep you with me for all eternity.”
– Mimi: “I think I’m going crazy. Who is speaking to me? My Beloved, is it you or my enemy? I have no more discernment : why are you leaving me in such darkness? Each day, I feel myself falling into this abyss that I have before my eyes. Why struggle and lose everything? I feel no need to live this way : for 69 years I have been suffering morally, spiritually and physically. I have the impression that my whole life is wasted as I await losing heaven, if there is one!
“Why did I believe? Why be hopeful? Why believe in the real presence within me? If God were there, he would help me understand.
“I cannot write all this interior rebellion, but out of obedience, I must, this makes me hate my director and my counsellor. Why is my heart so hard! I hate myself. How I would like to leave and never return! And yet, I am afraid to die and of judgment. Why must I, in spite of everything, say ‘thank you’,according to the advice from my director! I cannot deceive God.”
– Satan: “My little girl, God has rejected you for such a long time, why do you still want him? He can do nothing for you because you took advantage of his graces. All the facade of your life was prayer and acceptance, but now, all is desolation and rejection.”
Thursday 6 December 1984
– Mimi: Another stormy day. If I could believe that these days, these trials, this agony is agreeable to God and that it is really his will! Before, in moments of trials, there remained a small ray of hope, but today, I have nothing, I see nothing, I understand nothing.
To live this way is folly. What is going on in me? Is it pure folly? Or a depression? Or an acceptance of being damned? I no longer have any reason to live in error.
– Satan: “My dear little one, you have finally understood, you have only to accept this verdict coming from God. If there had been a single reason to forgive you, he would have done so. On the contrary, he gives me the freedom to act within you. You only have to look at the Alliance which is of your making. Your spiritual sons did their best to help you by praying. Even the celebration of the Eucharist, the sacraments that you received convinced me.
“Why did God show you in a mirror, during mass, the place you had next to the enemies of God? Why did you hear the Virgin tell you that she rejected you totally, after praying to her and begging her to help you, at least to hold your hand to prevent you from falling : see the results. Why shed so many tears for nothing. While your director was praying for you, your God came to distract you saying that tomorrow you would have a difficult trial to endure for consecrated souls.”
Friday 7 December 1984
– Mimi: “Hardly a few hours of sleep, I feel so weak! And yet, my God, I want to believe that you are present within me and in this Alliance. During the whole afternoon, I had terrible temptations against faith, against the real presence of Jesus, against charity in all shapes and forms, against faith in the sacraments. At the time of confession, unable to speak, I no longer see Jesus in his priest. I was suffering, for my enemy was near me saying :
– Satan: “If you director gives you absolution, I will be pleased for this will be one more sacrilege; this is what helps me grow in my power. For I have a proof of the helplessness of the priest, of his faith in his priesthood. This God that you implore to come to your aid, where is he, where is his glory?
“God rejects you in telling you to accept to carry the sins of consecrated souls, so, he sets you free to do what you want with your thoughts, desires, actions, etc. In doing this, he places you in my hands, for the power of evil belongs to me. I thank your director and counsellor for asking you to write your notes, for this is for me a marvellous occasion to make myself known, to show my power over a soul, especially if this soul is carrying the Alliance.”
– Mimi: During mass, I was feeling the weight of my treason, all the cowardice of my acts. I was unable to act according to my will, it was so dark. Yet, I wanted to believe that Jesus was present. Why is my faith dead in the presence of this great mystery of love? Even in reciting the prayer of total giving, there were words changed that my enemy inspired me to say. I didn’t want to, yet, I would say them anyway.
I was unable to sing the praises of the Blessed Virgin. At the request of my director, I was able to pray but I don’t remember the nature of this prayer.
Mimi: “I give thanks to God for not understanding, out of obedience, I thank you my God for the temptations.
- Thank you for not being able to sing praises to Mary,
- Thank you for this state of spiritual aridity,
- Thank you for this lack of fervor in faith and prayer,
- Thank you for my pain,
- Thank you for my crying,
- Thank you for my temptations,
- Thank you for my despair,
- Thank you for my nothingness,
- Thank you for the sufferings for consecrated souls and for your Church.
“But all I have to do is to obey your representative and continue to give thanks, continually, without knowing whether my ‘thank you’ has been heard and accepted.”
Saturday 8 December 1984
– Mimi: It is midnight, we would like to be the first ones to offer you our wishes since we are your children of the little family of the Eternal Father.
A year has already gone by when the Eternal Father chose to show us what he expected from us and also what he wished us to accept, all three of us. His Holy Will clearly manifested itself in each one of us, by total giving as priests and victims in the service of God, of the Church but especially to sustain the Holy Father John Paul II.
– Mimi: “Mother Mary, I was hoping this morning that my soul would be calm. I was hoping for a beautiful sun and a blue sky. I was hoping to have white and blue flowers to offer you on this feast day; but there was nothing of this.
- Thank you for all that I did not receive,
- Thank you for the phone call I did not receive,
- Thank you for this expectation,
- Thank you ô most Holy Father for allowing my Beloved Jesus to immolate himself once more in your dwelling,
- Thank you for giving us the occasion to offer ourselves, all three of us, as a holocaust of love, as priests and victims with Jesus, for the glory of the Eternal Father.
With my two spiritual sons, we renewed our vow of total giving. Thank you my gentle heavenly Mother for helping me renew my vows of immolation of the heart, soul and spirit.
This is the offering by immolation of the soul :
Eternal Father, my God, my all, unworthy though I am to come before your divine Majesty because of my numerous sins and of my profound misery, but confident in your infinite mercy and in the firm hope that you will grant me your grace,
I, Marie Anne Georgette Faniel, in the presence of Your Divine Son, of Mary Immaculate, of the Celestial court, of your representatives Fr. Guy and Fr. Armand Girard,
I make the vow
of immolation of the soul, heart, spirit,
of the acceptance of the agony of the soul, heart, spirit.
in union with Mary Immaculate,
in union with Your Divine Son, my Beloved,
for your greater glory,
to support our Supreme Pontiff, Pope John Paul II
for the renewal of consecrated souls
for humanity.
May God help me. Amen
– Mimi: My director, Fr. Armand accepted by giving thanks to God for this grace with a long prayer. Then, Fr. Guy, my counsellor, said prayers of praise asking God to help us accomplish the Holy Will of the Eternal Father. Finally, we recited the litany of the Blessed Virgin and the Te Deum.
We sang the Magnificat. We were so happy to sing together the praises of our gentle heavenly Mother. Many thanks to my Beloved Father for this delicateness in allowing our gentle heavenly Mother to come and gather up our offering as priests and victims.
– Mimi: “Thank you Mother Mary, you are so beautiful and so good to your little children.”
– Mary: “My dear little children, it is for me, you heavenly Mother to thank you for your love towards the Eternal Father and my Beloved Jesus with the Holy Spirit.You have filled me on this day of my Immaculate Conception.
“My dear children, spoiled and cherished, my privileged children, remain faithful to your offering of total giving as priests and victims for the glory of the Eternal Father, in order to help my blessed and privileged child of the Father, in the person of the most Holy Father John Paul II. I am carrying him continually in my Motherly arms in order to protect him from the danger that threatens him from his visible and invisible enemies. His faith and love for us protects him. My dear children, continue to sustain him with your prayers, sacrifices and affection. Remain faithful to all that he asks; you know what I mean.”
Monday 24 December 1984
– Mimi: “Thank you, ô most Holy Father for this great grace. After asking me to prepare my heart for the coming of Jesus, today you have come and graced my heart with so much love. These hours of waiting with my gentle heavenly Mother are so precious.”
Mass by Fr. Armand : what graces, what favors during this Eucharist!
– Mimi: It is in union with the Holy Father and my spiritual sons that we are preparing in prayer and silence these precious moments. What joy and gratitude are enlivening our poor hearts; mine is so cold.
– Mimi: “Ô most Holy Father, I beg you to warm my poor heart. I so wish to hold in my arms this little Jesus, your child, God the Father. I would like to give him the warmth close to my poor little heart.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, be at peace, the warmth of your love is worth much more than human warmth. With the Alliance I have received from you, I am continually kept warm.”
N.B. Mimi will be 70 on the 8th of July 1985
Wednesday 23 January 1985
During the Eucharist in the presence of Jesus :
– Jesus: “The prayer of your director will be granted. Because of his faith, his hopeful prayer and the Alliance.”
Note at the bottom of the page : Secretary of the Holy Father, Kabongo.
Monday 28 January 1985
– Mimi: Spiritual maternity, with physical development, verified by Doctor Victor Farley.
– Mimi: “Today, my Beloved, I feel weary from carrying this weight, day after day, to help Jeannine carry her child who must be born on the 5th of April 1985, Good Friday.
“My Beloved, all this is beyond me, it seems to me that I am dreaming. At 69, you are asking me to help Jeannine carry her child (a child she did not accept at first at 43 years of age) because she is a carrier with her husband of an illness called cystinosis : having already 2 children carrying this disease, a daughter of 20, a son who died at the age of 11.
“With your grace and spiritual help of my director, Fr. Armand and of my counsellor, Fr. Guy, in prayer, we are walking in faith, with a great miracle that we are demanding from the Eternal Father with the heart of Jesus and the heart of Mary Immaculate : may the child be born in perfect physical condition.
“My gentle heavenly Mother, you know what it’s like to be a mother, help Jeannine. Thank you for helping me carry spiritually this maternity with its physical development : nausea, back pain, insomnia, loss of energy. At the twentieth week, we had the same waistline, 34.Today, everything has been verified by 4 doctors and eye witnesses. My Beloved Jesus, I am not looking with hope but walking in faith
“Ô Father most Holy, Eternal and Almighty God who in your infinite wisdom fore saw from all eternity that this child would also be your child, we give you thanks for having cast your eyes on your humble servants. Thank you for depositing a little soul in the body that is growing in the womb of Jeannine.
“Beloved Jesus, Jeannine has been receiving your divine Body every day. Nourished by your Precious Blood, I believe that this child is already present in your grace by your Precious Blood and by the baptism of desire we are asking each day.”
Saturday 2 March 1985
– Mimi: Often, in my prayers with my two spiritual sons, Fr. Guy and Fr. Armand, I ask the Father most Holy if it be his most Holy Will that the Alliance that I am carrying in my body be also embedded in their bodies so that they may carry on my mission : to make known love in suffering through a greater intimacy. Also that they may be witnesses of the merciful love for each one of us.
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, my merciful love presses me to reveal you this : each baptized child is marked with my Alliance made by the holy chrism. Plus, at the ordination of my two sons and priests, Fr. Guy and Fr. Armand, I placed on them this Alliance of love by entrusting them to my divine Mother as my spoiled and cherished children. But the Alliance that I specially cherish is the Alliance that you are carrying in you as priest and victim like your spiritual sons.
“My dear little host of love, I want to thank all three of you for preparing the celebration in prayer, in recollection, and during which you offered yourselves by the total giving of your lives, in our service and that of your brothers and sisters in Christ.
“My Beloved, when the priest offers himself with me on the paten, I renew my Alliance of love to the Eternal Father by total giving. It is with great pleasure that I receive these offerings from the hands of Mary Immaculate, Queen of the world, Queen of Peace.
“My Beloved, everything that is mysterious in your eyes is nothing compared to what I am preparing for you, if you continue to obey us by living your faith as priests and victims. Be attentive to the action of the Holy Spirit in each one of you. Remain little, humble in the arms of your Mother, your gentle heavenly Mother who loves you, because you continually need her assistance in everything and everywhere to put things in place during this period of Lent. Reserve moments of reflection, silence, prayer, contemplation before us, really present in the host.”
Sunday 3 March 1985
Feast of the Transfiguration of Jesus
– Mimi: “My Beloved Jesus, how I would have loved to be with you on this beautiful day. Yes, to see you in all your glory. I know that my poverty, my smallness, my sins prevent me from seeing you in all your splendor. You know, my Beloved, each day I beg you to have pity on me. During this blessed time of Lent, I would like to follow you step by step. At times, my weakness prevents me from going forward, I have the impression of backing up.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, don’t cry, don’t try to know whether you are advancing or backing up, only seek to remain in my powerful arms. The time that is left for you to live is up to us for the Church and humanity.
“My dear little host of love, we need more and more your physical and moral sufferings in order to sustain your spiritual son the Holy Father John Paul II. I have a secret to tell you : one day, I will manifest myself in him with my power to glorify my Father and my divine Mother since he is her privileged child being also part of our little family of the Eternal Father. This is why you have the duty to sustain him with your prayers and sacrifices. Ask for help, make these demands known, speak about the obedience of consecrated souls.
“It is in our name that the Supreme Pontiff speaks to the people of God. As the Good Shepherd, he visits countries to bring them the Good News.
To those who seek, he gives hope and love to those who suffer injustice and the indifference of mankind. My Father has given him the gift of pure love to touch hearts, the words to be understood in all tongues so that the people of God might understand the great message of love of the Father for his children who are suffering. He gives his mercy to sinners, hope to the sick, the elderly and the hope of salvation to the dying.
“My Beloved, besides your mission, your first duty is towards the Holy Father John Paul II. This is why we have asked you to accept him as your spiritual son, so that through this maternity you may sustain him night and day with your constant prayer, with your physical and moral suffering.
“My Beloved, as a victim of love, your life is at the heart of the Church. With me, as priest and victim, with your spiritual sons, Fr. Guy and Fr. Armand, you are the very soul of the renewal of consecrated souls. Do you know the price of a single soul?
“You must teach your spiritual sons and daughters to obey the Holy Father and the supreme authority of the Church, to never doubt or criticize the infallibility of the Holy Father : this divine right given by God the Eternal Father. The Holy Spirit is working in him with an indescribable wisdom. My divine Mother is continually by his side to help him, sustain him, protect him from his visible and invisible enemies who want to destroy him, thinking they are destroying the Church. I will be with you till the end of time.”
Monday 4 March 1985
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, this ascent towards Calvary must be a daily affair, in total abandonment to the Holy Will of the Father.
Pray a lot for consecrated souls who are living in a state of disobedience, who rebel against authority, lacking the humility to accept God’s plan for each one of them, whatever the decision of authority might be.
“Consecrated souls won’t be judged on what they have done, but on the love and respect they had in obeying the Holy Father who represents me. Pray so that each priest be hidden in the humility of the Blessed Virgin Mary. It is by her humility, her love, that my divine Mother helped the apostles and sustained their efforts.
“After Pentecost, the only theology that the apostles had was the faith and love in their priesthood and in Jesus. Like Jesus, they were humble servants. They were evangelizing the people with words inspired by the Holy Spirit, always very attentive to this same Spirit of God. They proclaimed the Good News with all the love that a human heart can have, witnessing their faith in one God, the merciful Father.”
Tuesday 5 March 1985
– Jesus: “My Beloved, last night, I would have liked to continue our one-on-one but you were sleeping.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if I was sleeping, you are the one who allows me to sleep.”
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, this is not a reproach! I even enjoy this intimacy. What I am about to tel you will open your eyes and your heart!
“The teachings that I gave my apostles weren’t always understood, but their obedience, their humility, their faith and especially their love allowed them to accomplish their obligations with an entire submission to the Holy Will of the Father. They did not try to understand everything and to study as great learned scholars. Their sole knowledge was my words, my examples, my teachings, my absolute conformity in all things to the Holy Will of my Father.
“Following the example of my divine Mother, they kept everything in their heart until the day when the Holy Spirit invaded them totally with all his gifts.
“The science of love made them strong. Their faith overflowed with joy even in the presence of the cross, persecution, martyrdom, witnessing to their sense of belonging to the Father as children of God and of Mary.
“My dear little host of love, if you knew how much we cry these days in seeing the conduct, indifference of my consecrated souls. Where are my real apostles? Today, in 1985, how is my doctrine understood and taught within my Church, schools and families? Even my communities no longer have this aspect of prayer.
“My Church, the temple of God the Eternal Father, what has it become? There are areas where they make these temples meeting places where there is dancing, bingo, card games, singing, etc.
“Sometimes, I am tempted to come in person and chase these people from my Church. How dare they, in my house where I am present, put me aside for amusement, distraction and money.
“Certain priests, bishops, pastors give scandal through their conduct and will be held accountable for the decline of faith among the faithful, the children of God. Their conduct already condemns them. Where are my priests, my apostles who want to follow me to the cross? Where are those who struggle, who pray to me with faith in their priesthood? Where are those in whom I had placed all my trust, my love by raising them to the priesthood as priests and victims?
“My Beloved, don’t cry. I know that you are suffering with us, but you must write down everything.”
Wednesday 6 March 1985
– Mimi: This morning, near my gentle heavenly Mother, I was weeping as I remembered all my sins, my failures.
– Mimi: “Mother Mary, my poverty distances myself from you.”
– Mary: “Of course not, my little one, don’t cry. Your poverty gives me the occasion to come closer to you and take you in my Motherly arms. The more you suffer, the more I stay close to you. I no longer see with the same eyes as in the past. Now, I look upon you with Jesus, in this Alliance, the masterpiece of the Eternal Father : two in one flesh. His infinite mercy has marked your poor body and made it into a temple of prayers, sufferings by the total giving on the cross in order to sustain the Holy Father John Paul II and consecrated souls.
“My dear little girl, humanity needs you with your smallness. You must always obey and serve. The Church also urgently needs her little servant of the Eternal Father and my little servant.”
Thursday 7 March 1985
– Mimi: “Thank you, my God, for this great favor of having Holy Mass celebrated in your dwelling, I should rather say in the dwelling of the Eternal Father in which Beloved Jesus immolates himself once more. I give thanks to you for allowing us to offer ourselves, all three of us. It is always a great pleasure for us to offer ourselves with the prayer of total giving, and to pray together. Thank you, Holy Father.
“What thanksgiving we send up to heaven to thank God the Father for all graces obtained during Holy Mass.”
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, it is for me to thank you for the preparation of the Holy Sacrifice of the mass.
“I also thank you for inviting your heavenly Mother. This great respect, this faith in this great mystery of love where I offer myself to the Father, where I am really present, Body, Blood and soul in the host and wine. And the small drop of water added to the wine is you, the whole Church, mingled with my Precious Blood.
“Thank you my children in spite of your poverty. It is with pure gratuity that we fill you with great graces that human beings have never known and seen on earth. Always remain small, very humble in all that you do; in all your actions, your prayers, your words, your advice. Knowing that it is the Holy Spirit who is inspiring you and leading you to everything with divine help.
On the day that there will be a personal research on spiritual curiosity, on that day, you will become aware of what you had.”
Way of the cross : Continuation of 7 March 1985
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– Jesus: “… what God the Eternal Father expected from all eternity.
“Everything in you must be in our hands. I repeat, your will is going to be crucified and attached to the will of the Father. Like myself, your poor heart will be destroyed by sorrow, incomprehension, false judgments, insults, scorn, jealousy, renunciation of certain persons who claimed to be your friends.
“Your agony has already begun. You will have no respite for your mission is growing more and more, for you are at the heart of the Church; this Church that is going through a time of purification. As spiritual mother of the Holy Father John Paul II, you must sustain him with your prayers and sacrifices. With your spiritual sons and daughters, pray a lot. For the Alliance embedded in your flesh with the number 2 is not an illusion.
“I am now present in your physical and moral suffering; Two in one flesh. I know that this surpasses all human ways of thinking. After you die, the great mystery will be revealed, for our greatest glory and to confound the proud who did not believe in the mission as priest and victim.
“My dear little host of love, you will have to walk on your heart. From Thursday the 8th of December 1985, nothing will be yours; the total giving of everything. Your sins, your failures are finally in the mercy of our Father; your soul is ours. Your will is attached to the Holy Will of the Eternal Father. As spouse, everything is mine : your love, your affections, your desires, your ideal, your projects, your body, your physical and moral sufferings, your crosses, your sorrows, your tears, your doubts, your state of darkness in which I place you at times, the blows from your enemy who is raging against you, the agonies of the heart, soul, spirit. Everything will be ours, even the Alliance is not yours. Everything belongs to the Church. You are a daughter of Mary and daughter of the Church.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you speak to me about agonies that I will undergo, will I have a long agony before our union is perfect.”
– Jesus: “My dear little host of love, when you will be in my arms to be offered to the Eternal Father, it will not be an agony but rather a loving embrace, only…”
Friday 21 March 1986
Mary announces good news to us.
– Mary: “Thank you for having been attentive to the Holy Spirit and faithful in accepting in faith your love for us.”
Thursday 8 May 1986
In spite of the (rain).
– Mimi: Yesterday, I felt like a little bird, at the top of a tree, marvelling at all that surrounded me. Hidden from the looks of human beings, shivering at the least breath of wind, letting myself be caressed by the rays of the sun coming from my Creator.
Saturday 22 june 1986
Departure of Guy and Armand for…
– Mimi: The detachment is growing more and more, I must live with it. Each day, the physical is slowing down, the pace hesitant, I have to walk, I should rather say that I drag myself. However, on the spiritual level, the pace is more rapid. I feel in my soul this strength to advance more rapidly towards you, my God.
I often meditate on this : today is one step less on earth, and one step closer to eternity. How many more steps are left for me? I lovingly accept your Holy Will.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, it isn’t the step that counts, it’s the love you give me, to the Church, to the Holy Father John Paul II and to all humanity.
“Love has no end, it is an eternal renewal. I died out of love and have risen out of love, to glorify the merciful love of the Eternal Father.”
Sunday 23 june 1996
– Mimi: I would have liked to attend holy Mass in the chapel. I still don’t have permission to leave my room. I have been living in solitude for the last two months. To encourage myself, I think of you, my Beloved, who are often alone in the tabernacle.
This morning, I was watching mass on television. I suffered greatly while looking at these images. At the Sanctus, they were singing “Holy, holy is the Lord” on a popular tune.
Pure love is not divided up but given entirely to God alone. He must come first. A spiritual bond that unites two souls is not based on human love.
1st March 1998
– Mimi: Holy Hour in the chapel of the Little Sisters of the poor.
– The Holy Spirit: “My Beloved, recite this rosary. On each bead, say :
Eternal Father, I believe in you,
I adore you and I love you.
Blessed are you in your infinite mercy,
Have mercy on us poor sinners :
For the dying,
And for the souls in purgatory,
Those most abandoned,
Especially consecrated souls.”
– Mimi: “Thank you, Mary, for being with me in saying this rosary before Jesus in the Host for the Holy Father, the Church and all your children. Thanks be to the Holy Angels for being with us.”
Agonizing heart of Jesus,
Have mercy on all your children,
Especially on those who are wounded
In their soul, in their heart,
In their mind and body,
Have mercy on the dying,
On the most abandoned souls in purgatory.
The Eucharist is my love. My life is the Resurrection.
Good Friday 16 April 19..?
– Mimi: I was awakened by the call of my Beloved who said :
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, I am suffering a lot. I need to come and rest in your soul. I would so like you to receive my Precious Blood. Ask this favor from your director for me and for you. We would be so pleased. A single drop of my Precious Blood is enought to purify…”
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Continuation.
– Jesus: “How we are expecting a lot for souls! My Beloved, stay near me, today. Remain attached to the cross. Help me in my agony, that is also yours. Before beginning, recite the act of humility. I will be in your midst. Your gentle heavenly Mother will guide you.”
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– Mimi: no longer have the strength to dispute this, it’s total abandonment. I no longer fight against illness, not from discouragement, but being aware that all that God wanted from his little servant is happening rapidly to render her identical to his Son Jesus, my Beloved.
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– Mimi: Easter joy is the triumph of love. On this blessed day, we have the pleasure of believing in our future resurrection.
For now, we have God within us by the state of grace, awaiting perfect union, since we will be then one in him, and with him. At this thought, my heart is overflowing with joy at the sight of so much love. And the nostalgia of heaven grasps my heart.
I must continue to carry my cross. I am not carrying a heavy cross. God knew very well that I am weak and could easily fall. For the moment, they are small daily crosses that at times become agonizing. It isn’t always easy to carry.
To share with ones neighbor is already to possess God.
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– Mimi: “My God, I have already offered my life for the Church, the Holy Father and the souls of everyone. Don’t forget Alain. (Dr. Alain Farley).”
– Jesus: “I accept but I am keeping both of you.”
– Mimi: I can never express the depth of suffering and joy in accepting to be placed with our Beloved on the same cross, to cooperate in the salvation of the people of God, with our gentle heavenly Mother, our future is secure.
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The scourging : from your lack of confidence.
The crowning of thorns : in submitting to your Holy Will.
The carrying of the cross : from your discouragement when faced with trials.
The crucifixion : from your lack of submission to the Will of My Father.
Received by divine inspiration.
Mass, communion, holy hour, rosary for my director.
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… I spent an hour with my Beloved king of love. I would have wanted my soul to be ready to receive him.
– Mimi: “I offer you my soul as a palace, come and occupy it. Take possession of it forever : My home is your home.”
1st Sunday : Feast of Christ the King. Monday : Queenship of Mary.
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– Mary: “… to love him as he deserves. Learn to be thankful with sincerity. Please learn to be humble. Open your arms wide, in order to receive all the souls that I entrust to you.”
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, you know that I expect everything from you. I thank you for interceding for me to God for such a long time. Thank you, thank you, how I love you!”
“My gentle heavenly Mother, how I would love to rest near your adorable heart! How I love to kiss your forehead like I do when I am near the statue of the Sacred Heart, at home.”
– Mary: “My little one, don’t be sad. One day, your dream will come true. Remain confident and always remain little like my child. Believe in my love for you. I am watching over you.”
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– Jesus: “It took a very special intervention of the Holy Spirit so that my representative might finish this offering with all the recollection and attention needed for this great mystery of love.
“In my real presence, everywhere and always, God must come first. I had pity on this crowd. With our divine love, we interceded to our Father. Father, forgive them for their indelicacy, their attitude, they are your children in spite of certain titles, they were like little children.
“What more can I ask God for you. You are laden with gifts. You are the spouse of a God. You possess his love. You share in his life, in happy times as in troubling times. Isn’t this marvellous!
“Ô the gentle encounter where our union will be perfect. It is with love and prayers that she awaits the coming of her Beloved. In the meantime, do with me as you will. I am anxious to receive you and possess you.
“By your patience you are saving many souls and by your submission you console us. Thank you for accepting everything out of love. You must humbly await our hour.”
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Continuation.
… hands of God. Yes it takes a special grace to remain solidly attached to where God wants us. And a special grace to understand, to love those who are suffering. One must see Jesus in his suffering members and lots of love to love them, to guide them towards him, towards his love. – To Rose.
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Confidence. Confidence in God in all things and everywhere. Yes, confidence in Providence, during good and bad days!
Tell yourself during somber days that the sun will shine tomorrow; in hours of weakness, that our strength is in God; in hours of downfall, that God who is in heaven will rejoice more at your recovery than the perseverance of the just.
Confidence, confidence, confidence, confidence, confidence, confidence always.
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– Mimi: If every soul could understand the importance of the mass and the mystery penetrating our souls at the moment of this encounter with God, the infinite love, we wouldn’t have enough of eternity to thank God for this grace. If people knew what it is like to be deprived of a single mass.
Before this beautiful spectacle where the Trinity is present, giving everything out of love, these friends would never dare miss mass by their fault or negligence. I used to be among them.
If I could only travel across the earth and shout my joy, my gratitude to God. I want the rest of my life to be one of thanksgiving to God. My debt of gratitude to God and to you, Father, if growing more and more.
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- The reason that makes up my mind to confess my sins is my faith in this sacrament : this faith in the infinite mercy of God, helping me to pick myself up, placing me in the state of grace.
- The accusation seems difficult to me, if I maintain an attitude of pride and human respect, when I lack confidence or when I do not consider enough the priest as another Christ, ready to forgive me, in the name of God, and undestand my sins, my problem. There is also the lack of time to reflect on this sacrament.
- Yes, I often accuse the same sins and this makes me suffer. The remedy is to ask the Holy Spirit for the necessary light to make me understand the malice of this sin and the strength to resist or at least fight against it, avoid it, explain my situation to my confessor and listen to his advice.
- The sorrow of sin is the sorrow that my soul feels for having offended God my Father, infinitely good, my creator. It is the sorrow for having offended God the Son in his love, through my lack of confidence, after so many signs of love and also the pain in realizing that I have scorned the inspiration of the Holy Spirit through negligence and a lack of sincerity. I regret my sins because I’m afraid of losing God. Without him, what is there left for me?
I accuse my sins to a priest because he has received the power to forgive me. He represents Christ leaning down with love, goodness, on my misery and wanting to help me with his advice and prayers, restoring in me a peace of soul, of heart and spirit.
- I expect to hear from the confessor the words of Jesus himself that will touch my soul. May he truly be the mediator between God and my soul. With the example of Christ, may he be conscious of the role he is fulfilling. May he be patient and give me advice while remaining firm in his decision when he corrects me and enlightens me.
- Forgiveness represents for me a tangible proof of God the Father’s merciful love for his child. It is like an answer of his love corresponding to his infinite love for me. – Absolution is the visible sign of this new union with God in which the priest is the hyphen. Remission is a gesture of love where God manifests his great mercy by telling me, come closer my child, I am here. Throw yourself into my powerful arms. In spite of everything, I love you and I forget. Come and share my love.
- I must accomplish a penance because it is the means by which I can show God my love, my respect, my gratitude, my sincerity, my good will, and repay my debt of gratitude. Punishment must not appear useless to me. On the contrary, it is good for my soul, for it keeps me humble and allows me to repare my debt and in spite of my unworthiness, prove to God my love.
- The relationship between the sacrament of Penance and the Eucharist is that they are both sacrements of love. For in the sacrament of penance, there is the encounter of the miserable soul with a God of love and mercy. Yes, this Father who leans down with love towards me sees my miseries in order to help me struggle and follow him along the narrow road of love.
The Eucharist is the sacrament of pur love or the perfect union of God in my soul and the possession of the Blessed Trinity : yes, through this presence of the divine Majesty. With this divine presence, though unworthy, I am invited to live in great intimacy and place myself continually in a state of adoration, while increasing my faith in this divine presence.
It is through an intimacy with the Blessed Trinity that my soul is strengthened and rises towards a greater ideal, that is, towards pure love, while purifying myself through detachment from my ego. (Between you and me, I have a long way to go).
In receiving the host in which Jesus has become love, in the presence of my divine guests, I offer my poor little being as a dwelling so that God may reign as King and Master and this way, I take refuge in their love.
Yes, the love of God the Father, the infinite love for his little one, the love of the Son by total giving, the love of the Holy Spirit by grace, in the presence of my smallness. I feel the need to speak to them, to listen to them, to thank them, to ask them the grace of never losing this faith in the divine presence,in their intimacy, asking them to sustain it and render it very much alive and active while maintaining their intimacy.
- As for the sacrament of penance, in the future, I see in it an effective means of rendering my soul more available, more agreeable to God, for it allows my soul to encounter God, reaching out for his forgiveness, his merciful love, where I can draw my strength, where I discover the light allowing me to walk, sometimes in the dark. With the light of the Holy Spirit, and the help from grace, I see my sins, my faults. It allows me to pick myself up from my losses by discovering a Father of infinite mercy, a God of love. And it is with this thought in mind that I walk with my friend Jesus in love and suffering towards my ideal, that is, towards this passion, this perfect union of infinite love.
- I regret not having taken part in penitential liturgies. First of all because I have been an invalid for more than 15 years and sick since the age of 3. This is why I am not educated but, by the grace of God, I have gone to the school of the Holy Spirit. Happy are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Perhaps I have a chance to enter the kingdom!
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Sicknesses of the heart : The sick must not forget that the heart is the only organ that never rests.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, it’s the same thing on the spiritual level. Think about my heart that will never cease to love till the end of the world and in eternity, for there it will continue to love.”
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Meditate the Our Father and Hail Mary; pray for us poor sinners.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, grant me the gift of love, for you and for my neighbor in the world. Grant me the light and graces that I need to put my life in order so that I may better serve you and help you. Grant me total submission to the will of God. Make my prayer constant and confident. Increase in me the desire of heaven, the desire to love you more and more. Grant me the grace to love my neighbor.
My Beloved, I want to look at my miseries in order to remain humble as I look upon my past. In the past, this would discourage me, but now that I have thrown myself into your divine arms, I understand with what love you waited for me and I look at all your goodness towards me who have been so ungrateful. How could I ever leave you now after so many signs of your love!
I am counting on you to help me be your little faithful spouse. You alone can change this cold heart; warm it with your ardent love.”
– Jesus: “In the future, my dear little spouse, when you ask me for something, speak to me in the plural, don’t be selfish, think of your neighbor.”
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– Mimi: “My Beloved, give me patience, I am so tired listening to a reading. For half an hour, I have been waiting to do my meditation.”
– Jesus: “My little one, offer it to me. You would merit more by this than if your did your meditation, for this is training you to be patient. Moreover, in listening peacefully, you are making an act of charity towards this person.”
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– Jesus: “Tomorrow, first Friday of the month, offer me more. Share my sixth wound. Ask permission from your director.”
– Mimi: “I visit my director and inform him of our exchanges. With his permission, I will do everything you ask me for the greater glory of God. I will also make a small retreat so that I may put my life in order and clean up my little dwelling.
“Since I opened the door to my director, he penetrates like a ray of sunshine and enlightens everything. And that is when I notice sadly the dust, the stains hidden in my little dwelling.
Ô Precious Blood, help me wash, perfume my little interior dwelling so that you may take possession of it as soon as possible and forever. I do not have any time to lose to acquire what you want. This is why I will ask my director to help me. Together during a small retreat, we will go all around my little interior dwelling in order to clean it up. I am counting on your Precious Blood to remove the stains that have been on my soul for many years.”
Earache.
– Jesus: “Offer this illness in atonement for your sins. How many times did you listen to the false discourses of men and how many times did you turn a deaf ear to my voice, I who am the truth. Offer, atone my dear little one.”
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At three o’clock in the morning, I suddenly woke up. I was in pain; He said :
– Jesus: “Offer it up, I need your sufferings during this night.”
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– Mimi: was suffering physically and morally.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I can’t go on! Help me! I’m suffering terribly.”
– Jesus: “Do you think you are the only one suffering? Have you become my little victim only by name? Don’t forget, you are all mine : my suffering is also yours, my little Beloved spouse.”
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– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, teach me how to pray, my soul is lukewarm, fearful, why? I beg you, help me to be fervent and may my love for God grow more and more.
“Give me the courage to work for souls. My cross is heavy at times, this is why I implore and ask your assistance. I am suffering but I want to share your sorrow, Ô Mother of sorrows. Grant my wish to love you more and more.”
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– Mary: “Ask them before Holy Mass whether they accept our choice. If so, everything should take place at the moment of the offering.
“May they be careful, the evil one will want to destroy everything by saying that it is what you want, your choice, that you are living an illusion. They will be tempted to doubt you and themselves during this mission. Jealousy could appear to destroy and cause a disorder in God’s plan. As a Mother, I will watch over them and protect them from all the threats of their enemy.
“By their faith in their priesthood, their love for us, their humility, they will be protected. It won’t be easy. May they reamain united in prayer. They can exchange often in order to help you accomplish your mission.”
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, I beg you, why not tell them yourself?”
– Mary: “My dear little host of love, are you going to lack confidence and faith in my intercession? I repeat, they are my spoiled and cherished children the same as you. Why be afraid even before they have accepted? Together, pray with me so that the light of the Holy Spirit enlighten them and guide them in their decision. We respect also their will.” (This is about the Girard Fathers.)
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– Mimi: “My director would like to know whether the Blood of Jesus in the Alliance is the same as the one in the chalice after the consecration?”
– Jesus: “My Blood is homogeneous. Here is an example : you beat an egg and add milk. Are you able to separate the egg yolk from the egg white?”
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– Mimi: God wanted me for suffering in love. The road at times was long, now it is so short. Just a few more steps before being with him forever, isn’t this marvellous! This comes from faith, heavenly hope, there lies my strength. Suffering without love is nothing and love without suffering is emptiness.
Feast of the Epiphany. (Year?...)
– Mimi: “Thank you my God for the joy of receiving you. How can I write my impressions after all that I have just received! Ô my God, why are you so good to me! I don’t deserve so many favors.
“I weep for joy and am so moved. On this beautiful day, roles are reversed. I am the one who should be offering more, and it is you, my Beloved, who is giving me everything, who are fulfilling me. What more can I wish for than to possess you eternally? Before you, I am present, my hands are empty, however, receive my love, my will to love you by total giving.
“Like the wise men, I would have liked to offer you more, but I am so poor. With Mary and Joseph,I bow down and adore you, ô my God, my Beloved, my Savior. With all the souls of the earth, I render you homage and thank you for your love. I would like to continue talking with you at length, but I am still dizzy after receiving so much love. Thank you my God.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you are so surprised to see that on this beautiful day, I wanted to fulfill you, you believe the roles have been reversed! My dear little spouse, I did not come to receive but to give myself. Yes, to give myself entirely. Today you have received a large portion with my Precious Blood shed out of love for you. Do not weep because of your apparent poverty. Consider all the spiritual richness we have given you. Offer them to us in order to give us glory.
“In offering your miseries, your sins, your tears of repentance, your love so ardent, so sincere, we also have been fulfilled.
We have been honored to receive the homage and gifts of the wise men, but these were perishable. What is the value of incense without the elevation of the soul, of the heart and mind towards us. Perfect and agreeable incense is in the pure love that rises towards us. The ‘yes’ accepted with love, resignation, this complaint, even this tear of repentance reaches us and consoles us.
“What is myrrh, pleasant but short-lived, worth next to a soul in the state of grace where one finds pure love, sincerity, total abandonment to our adorable will. Yes, the perfume coming from this soul comes towards us like a prayer.
“What is gold worth in comparison with the spiritual richness of a soul in which we live as in a palace with all our glory, our divinity, our royalty. In spite of its miseries, if this soul is living in the state of grace, it shines more brilliantly than gold and has more value, for it was redeemed by the blood of a God.
“Thank you, my dear children, your director has understood correctly the sense of the mystery of the Epiphany; he has been so generous towards us and yourself. You understand now what this means, to give everything out of pure love for our greater glory and the salvation of souls.”
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– Jesus: “My Beloved, it isn’t so much what you give me that pleases me, but what pleases me is what you expect from me, with confidence. My Beloved, this is sufficient for your communion.”
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– Jesus: “You have begun taking your first steps on the road that leads to calvary. Like myself, you will have a lot to suffer in many ways. You will experience the agony of the soul, heart and mind. With your mission, you must die a victim of my merciful love. To console you, I will always be with you since you accept from now on to always be with me to console me.
“We will have an exchange of love in suffering for the salvation of souls, many souls. Therefore, with me, my Beloved, an ardent love of the cross and an all-consuming thirst for souls…
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… Clearly manifested in this soul (Fr. Gamache). Ô Blessed Trinity, I adore you present and in the heart of God.
… The only cross that can identify us with God is one that leaves its mark in our flesh.
…19 November
Purification. Beautiful snow, so white, so pure, that has not been touched and soiled by the hands of man.
