Sunday, 1st January 1956
– Mimi: “Indeed, my God, I am your little spoiled child, but it isn’t my fault, I know that I don’t deserve it. But you are the one, my God, who has spoiled me with your infinite mercy but also with your love by allowing your Divine Son to become my Spouse and in your immense goodness have given me an enlightened spiritual director to guide me, to lead me to you. Thank you, my God, I have received everything from you, through your grace. You fill me each day with your love. What more can I wish for on this earth. However, like a spoiled child, I am never satisfied, I always want more. Therefore, my God, I want more, I want you more and more. I can no longer live separated from My Beloved, my Spouse, my Unique Love. I want heaven in order to be with you and with my Beloved Spouse forever without forgetting my gentle heavenly Mother.
“Come and get me, I miss you so much. I want heaven not because I would be leaving this earth filled with suffering, I want heaven, my God, only in order to love you more, console you , adore you during all eternity. It is a need that I have of giving myself to you, of loving you, ô My God, who are so good to me.
“I understand your love for me. I understand the need you have to come into my poor soul in order to purify it, so miserable, so full of faults. Come, ô my Beloved, come with your grace, with your merciful love, come put in order your small dwelling. I beg you to increase in my soul your love, purify my soul and my body, grant me if you please the grace to love and practice humility.
“Teach me to love and bless the crosses and trials of this life, to submit myself totally into your powerful arms. I know that without you I can do nothing, I am nothing.
“I hope that 1956 will be the year of my sanctification since it will be the year of God. I offer myself to you from the outset, do with me what you will, I accept with love your Holy Will, I trust in you for I know that you love me and that you will always be near me for without you I can do nothing, but with you I can do anything. You know my Beloved that there is a lot of work to be done in my soul in order to make it agreeable to my Father. Before thinking about my sanctification I must first think of my conversion. I am confident that I will obtain it for I know that you are always near me and also because I trust in my director who represents you. In the last six years under his direction there has been a lot of changes in my poor life.”
– Jesus: “Indeed, my dear little spouse, let’s see. Meditate a lot on what we have done, on what we are doing for you, for your soul, your director and myself.
Look at it with the eyes of faith.
Human love has been replaced by divine love.
Sin has been replaced by purity.
Carnal life has been replaced by spiritual life.
Comfort, few goods have been replaced by begging, abandonment of created things (even permitted things).
An aimless life has been replaced with an ideal, the salvation of souls.
A forsaken and useless life has been replaced by an active life of loving God and neighbor.
A life of sinful pleasure has been replaced by a life of intimate joy in suffering and crosses.
A life of pride, vanity has been replace by a life of self-denial and humiliation.
“Remember your visits to the hospital during a whole year; your temptations, your small moral crises in the presence of your director and of your reparations. Remember your awful gesture of revolt, your blessed ring. Remember my love, my marks of mercy afterwards.
My dear little Beloved spouse, for the last six years I am pleased for your director has done a great job. He has cooperated in the work of my Father, he is worthy of our love and trust, he has given us great consolation. My dear little spouse, I can’t say the same about you. You give me at times great concern but I love you still in spite of your miseries.”
– Mimi: “My God, what more can I do? It seems to me that I have shown good will, that I am doing my best not to displease you.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, did you do your best on Tuesday with your greed? When I was by your side asking you not to take anything? Remember also your awful gesture of revolt, your lack of trust, your disobedience to your director who represents me. What about your hidden pride? And so you think you are doing your best!
Indeed, my dear little spouse, there are days when you do your best to listen to the voice of the devil.”
– Mimi: “My God, how I suffer when I listen to your reproaches. After six years of struggles, of efforts. Yet, I have often done the housework of my little dwelling with my director.”
– Jesus: “Yes, I know that you did the housework but there was the attic where your pride, your lack of trust, your faults were hidden. You haven’t finished, you will discover many things accumulated over the years. It took the Holy Spirit to stir up the dust. There is still some more.”
– Mimi: “Why, my Beloved, didn’t you tell me this six years ago. My director could have helped me more?”
– Jesus: “Do you think that your director could have done more? Did you always allow him to enter your little abode? As for myself, how long did I wait at the door of your soul without receiving an answer. How many times did your director stand before your little dwelling with the door closed? He could not even look through the window. There was too much dirt, too much disorder.
“My dear little spouse, six years ago you were not ready for what I expected from you. Would you ask a newborn baby to do the house cleaning of your little dwelling? After six years, you are only beginning to stand up alone. You are still unable to walk on the road of spiritual life. This is why I have chosen for you a spiritual director, an experienced guide, to lead you where you must go and where I want you. Give him your hand without being afraid, close your eyes and walk with him, He represents me. He cannot err. He knows what I want. You cannot understand, no matter.”
– Mimi: “My God, forgive me. How could I have done this? How can I not remember your goodness, your mercy, your love? My Beloved, in the name of our love, do not consider only my misery, but also my love for you in spite of my weaknesses. I love you, I recognize my sins, my miseries, my weaknesses. I know that I am feeble at times during my struggles. I know that I am far behind in following you on the road of perfection. I know that I am blind and do not always see all that you are doing for me and I am quick to forget what you are doing for my soul and what my director is doing for me and for my soul. I recognize how ungrateful I am after receiving so many signs of your love, that I am selfish after having received from your infinite goodness so much love, so much mercy, special graces, graces of choice. I am aware day after day that I am nothing. My sins, my daily faults remind me constantly that I am not an angel, that my poor nature is not dead and in spite of this, you can see how blind I am. I did not even see the hidden faults in the attic of my dwelling.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, remember when your director suspected these faults. What was your reply? You would simply say in a disinterested manner : “I don’t think so.” Yet, he knew quite well! And he knows many other things. He knows what I want from you and what I expect from you. For the moment, you are still too small to understand.
“It isn’t for nothing that I chose for you a director who knows what I want. He knows well the road you must take in order to come to me. He has already taken the same route. He knows about the obstacles, dangers, the craftiness of the devil, his traps. He has suffered a lot. He is still suffering, he is suffering for you, he very much wants to lead your little soul towards me. Help him, trust in him, obey him blindly. He represents me.
Address to God the Father
– Mimi: “Ô my God, infinitely good, I ask your forgiveness. Let me cry on your shoulder for I am suffering greatly. See in what condition I am, full of misery, and that this saddens you. My God, have mercy on me who am but an atom in your powerful arms. My love is so small, so cold, at times so indifferent. However, my God, I offer you all this nothingness and I offer your more and more my small soul in order to become your little host of love, not simply an ordinary host that one offers! By your grace, I want to be a host consumed by love for you.Yes, my God, in your love, consume me totally, so that nothing of me may remain. I know, my God, that you will perhaps have trouble digesting the small host I am offering you. It is so full of the misery from my sins. However, I am hopeful, for my gentle Mother of heaven, seeing your difficulties, will give you a dose of the precious blood of your Divine Son and all will end well. Forgive me, my God, for speaking to you this way. I am speaking to you like a little girl in the arms of her father.
“My Beloved, I ask your forgiveness, I ask your help in order to overcome my numerous faults.
“Ô Holy Spirit, please enlighten me so that I may see the ugliness of my faults and understand the enormity of my sins, but, that I may understand especially the merciful love of my God, my Creator, My All.”
– Jesus: “At last, at last, this is what I expected from you. That you would understand what my love has accomplished for you, what we are doing for you.
“Child spoiled by love and grace, dear infant of my Father, child privileged by my love, my mercy like Mary Magdalene! Are you beginning to understand a little what your director is doing for you but especially for your soul? You owe him a lot, a lot. Without the help of his prayers and sacrifices, his tireless devotion, his self-denial in the service of God and of souls, your salvation would have been in danger. He has always cooperated with us. He knows what we want from you. Don’t forget that he was chosen by me and not by you. He has complete authority to direct your soul because he replaces me. Let him act freely in you. It is for your own good. Therefore, be very obedient to him and don’t place obstacles with your short sighted will that he must break, by your pride that he must crush. May he use all possible means. You must walk rapidly towards holiness for you have begun the last stage of your life. So, be fully confident. I have entrusted you to him. You are secure provided you remain obedient, humble and simple as a little girl.
“Do not listen to the devil. He is jealous of your director. Listen to me carefully. I will surprise you once more. You know the wrongful discomfort towards your director in speaking to him, in opening the door of your soul to share your consolations and our conversations. Well, my dear little girl, this was basically pride in disguise. You have acted in the same manner with me, your God.
“Yet, it is so simple to talk to a friend, to someone who is attentive, who understands, give advice, console, lead someone to perfection, holiness, who wants your good, who respects you, who loves your soul for love of me. I implore you, tell him all, your salvation depends on your obedience, your trust.
“I have waited a long time for you to recognize what my love has done for you. Finally, you acknowledge your faults, your weaknesses, you admit that without me you can do nothing, that you are nothing. Believe it! You are weakness itself. This is why you must listen, obey your director, even without undersanding why. This is why that in turn I can show you your mistakes, your failures, your faults. I ask you to repair immediately, even in the presence of your director, in order to remain in perfect humility. Do you believe, my dear little Beloved spouse that if I did not love you, I would speak to you in this manner? It is because I love you with an infinite love, it is because I want you totally, I want you to be mine, all mine, your Beloved spouse. I so want to purify you, to render you agreeable to my Father. I implore you, do not place obstacles between us, between our love by your lack of trust, by your pride that wants to remain in you, even without you noticing it.
“Do not let yourself be defeated by your enemy, fight with me and for me. My love is stronger. Be with your director as a child and not as a lady. After all, who are you in my presence? In his presence? He knows you well enough and for a long time. You know in spiritual life, age is nothing. An elderly person can have the soul of a child, a pure soul and a candid heart.
“So, my dear little spouse, meditate on what I have just told you. Inform your director about it. One more remark : do not neglect your handwriting, form your letters well, especially the letter “T”, think of the cross.”
Wednesday 4 January 1956
I was meditating on missionary work.
– Mimi: When I think that with my prayers full of distractions and my sacrifices so small that I don’t even think of them, I can help missionaries in their work for I too want to save souls. I want to do my part.
– Jesus: “Certainly, my dear little girl, everything counts for me, an atom offered out of love to save souls is more agreeable to me than all virtuous acts done out of obligation. What have you done with the communion of saints. This does not exist only in heaven. Let it be known that every soul in the state of grace and, in spite of its daily weaknesses and showing goodwill by accepting everything out of love, by accepting its daily obligations out of love is a soul that is sanctified and has already begun on earth to give glory to God my Father. Think about the little Thérèse of the Child Jesus.”
Thursday 5 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear Beloved little spouse, I would like you to have your spiritual testament blessed and that afterwards you wear it on your little heart. Meditate on it every day. In the darkest moments, during your great temptations when your mind is lost, or when your being seems lifeless, numbed by the devil, place your trembling little hand on your little heart and I will understand all that you wish to tell me and all that you have offered me in your little testament. I forbid you to remove it for any reason. I expect a lot from this little spiritual testament. Wear it preciously on your little heart for, at the moment of your death, it will be your ticket to enter heaven. Do not doubt this.”
Friday 6 January 1956
– Mimi: A memorable day. I had my spiritual testament blessed and have placed it on my little heart full of love for him, my God, my Beloved Spouse.
During my meditation concerning the visit of the three Magis to Jesus :
How long this trip must have been for them! They walked for days in order to adore the Infant Jesus. Perhaps they saw him only for a few hours, and when I think that this same Jesus is present in me. I believe it. He is in my poor little soul and that, in order to adore him, a single act of love is needed, an act of the will and of faith. How happy I am. This is why I do not want to leave him a single moment and when I happen to loose him through my fault each day, through my concerns, my lack of trust in moments of trials, I quickly do my best to find him through acts of love and contrition.
– Jesus: “My dear Beloved little spouse, one day I watched you as you walked like the Magis. You were looking for me in spite of your sins. You were suffering. At times, you had positive desires but your flesh was weak and at the bottom of your little heart there still remained love. One day, my heart could no longer contain the love that I had for you. I wanted you all to myself. I had pity on you. I suffered to see you walk alone on a deserted road without a guide. In spite of your good intentions, your good will, you could not go very far without falling, without getting lost on an unknown road. This is why I chose a director for you. May he be your star, your guide on the road of love and suffering, a direct route of happiness leading to us for eternity.”
– Mimi: I was getting ready for my Holy Hour and I immediately told my Beloved:
– Mimi: “Do you want me to place myself near your Divine Heart? Let me rest my poor head on your shoulder. How good it feels to be near you, ô my Infinite Love, my Beloved.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl. Don’t you find that our roles are inverted? I am the one who wishes to be consoled. – (After a long silence.) – Now do you want me to rest on your little heart, this little heart that I love so much?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, forgive me for having chosen first. How selfish I am. Forgive me, poor Jesus of my heart. Come, I beg you, come rest your head on my little heart.
“You know that it belongs entirely to you and that I am totally yours forever. You do not need permission to come and rest in your dwelling where I am living.”
Monday 9 January 1956
– Mimi: I had distractions and was looking at the donkey in the manger. I wonder who he resembles, his gaze seems like that of a person.
– Jesus: “My poor little one, do not look any further, for, at this moment, you resemble him for you are like a donkey, with your wide eyes, looking everywhere, your ears listening to the least little sound, your mouth that is unable to speak to me, with your heart that is so cold, so indifferent in my presence.
“Can you now recognize the resemblance? Do you see yourself? Weren’t you pleased to have lost this page. So, now, add this page to the others.”
– Mimi: “Do I have to write this, my Beloved?”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little one, it is even important in order to keep you humble and oblige you to make an act of obedience. Do you think I do not know the bottom of your little heart? It repels you to write this...Do it out of love for me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, in writing this, I am not only doing an act of humility. I am also doing one of humidity for I am very hot!”
Tuesday 10 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, for the soul that aspires to a high ideal, and, in order to offer itself as a holocaust, the soul must be purified like incense.
“Incense must be consumed by fire and it is only when it becomes ashes that it spreads such an agreeable odor that reaches heaven.
“It is the same for the soul. It is only when it has been purified by the fire of divine love that it becomes ashes before God, that the soul can offer itself and rise rapidly towards God and be agreeable to Him. Meditate on this.”
Saturday 14 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come and make a Holy Hour at the church.
– Satan: “No, my dear little one, I prefer that you attend Holy Mass and I even allow you to receive communion once more, two communions on the same day isn’t too much for a soul that loves, that loves me so much. Don’t share your doubts with your director, he wouldn’t understand the love I have for you at this moment. Isn’t my love ready to give of itself each moment?”
– Mimi: “My God, please enlighten me, where is the truth?”
I shared with my director my doubts and he enlightened me by explaining where this voice came from. He advised me to make the Holy Hour and not to listen to the other voice that suggested I make another communion.
Wednesday 18 January 1956
– Mimi: My heart is causing me pain. I can hardly breathe without feeling sharp pain.
– Jesus: “Come, my dear little Beloved spouse. Come and tell me that you accept this suffering for it is a precursory sign of our encounter.”
– Mimi: “I ask him : Am I going to die soon?”
Poor human nature! I was trembling when I asked him this.
– Jesus: “No, my dear little one. Do not call it death but rather the beginning of your life with me. For this is when our union will be perfect according to my Father’s wish.
“Make an act of humility. Go towards your director. Share this with him and take advantage of this occasion to put your little soul in order. There is still a lot of dust in the attic. Tell him about your greed yesterday. You must repair.”
Thursday 19 January 1956
– Jesus: “Don’t worry about the pain you experience in your heart. It is simply my love that is beginning to work.
“Do you recall, yesterday, when you were near me, at the moment when you offered me more. Wasn’t my embrace too strong for you? Then, afterwards, your pain became more intense. Remember Good Friday 1953 when I taught you about my sixth wound. Then on Good Friday 1954, the gentle moments you had near my Holy Face that was veiled. Then on Good Friday 1955 when you undrstood the meaning of love through suffering. Finally, there will be Good Friday 1956 when you will understand perfectly the love of the cross, when I will take all.
“My dear little one, I have been telling you for a long time that you must die as a victim of my love. So, I am preparing you each day. The last stage of your life begins in 1956. It wasn’t a passing fancy that made me want your director to prepare you, to compose and write for you a spiritual testament.
“Remember the short prayer of the 13th of November 1955. Meditate on it. And don’t forget to meditate on your spiritual testament. It is very important.”
Saturday 21 January 1956
– Jesus: “Come, let us make a Holy Hour, for a calamity is hovering over your family.”
To my great surprise, the next day, my sister phoned me to tell me that something strange had happened. Her little girl was studying her lessons when suddenly there was a loud noise. The glass of the window was shattered. There was someone who had fired a rifle. The bullet was found in the house. Thanks to God, the little one was not wounded. She was however in a state of shock.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, do you still doubt about my demands? Share this with your director.”
Sunday 22 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, is this what you call making a Holy Hour? For the last 10 minutes, you have been near me, half asleep, your mind almost numb.”
– Mimi: “I know, my God, but it feels so good to be with you, and you once said : Come to me all you who are burdened, you who suffer. Since I am suffering a lot and am tired, it is near you that I am getting back my strength, that I come to find the courage to continue my journey towards heaven, towards you, my Beloved. I am so happy to be with you. I feel safe. I am taking advantage of this gentle peace”.
– Jesus: “Indeed, my dear little Beloved spouse, enjoy the time in which you find yourself. I am leaving you a bit of a break to allow you to get back your strength. The time is at hand where you will begin to take your first steps in the mission that I have chosen for you and destined from all eternity. Don’t forget that you must die as a victim of my love.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, do not listen to this voice. This peace that you feel comes from me and what you are hearing comes from your imagination. See how strong I am. I inspire you to write what I want. I even inspire you with good thoughts, for, in your blindness, your director has let himself be taken. He has doubts, he is prudent, he is fearful at times and asks for help to understand the meaning of our exchanges.”
– Mimi: “Where is the truth?”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, if you believe that everything that happens to you comes from you or if you doubt my voice, it is just another form of pride.
“Why be afraid, why do you ask me where truth lies, why ask for a visible sign? My dear little one, if you want a visible sign, I can very well withdraw from your life and leave you alone and if everything that happens comes from you, you will soon see what you are capable of doing. I implore you, do not listen to the voice of your enemy. Reflect on this. Are you able to give yourself consolations in a time of desolation? Are you able to find peace during violent temptations? Are you able to have a single good thought during a time of spiritual dryness?
“Are you able to pray, meditate, love me and even write when I allow your enemy to remain near you at certain moments to try you, to increase your merit, to save souls. My dear little one, are you able to answer yes to all these questions? Am I really the Almighty God for you? If you believe that I am Almighty, why do you believe in the evil voice of your enemy? Do you consider your director an imbecile? Do you think that after six years of spiritual direction, your director does not know you? Why do you listen to the suggestions of the devil? Do not let yourself be led by your impressions. Scorn your enemy.
“Go your way, set your heart and spirit on me and not on your neighbor by allowing yourself to be distracted and preoccupied for this is an obstacle to what I want and expect from you.”
Monday 23 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come and make a Holy Hour.”
– Mimi: I don’t know what came over me. I was loath to go out. I was cold and very tired. I rather preferred to lie down and take some rest. Then, while on my way to church, suddenly, a mysterious force made me change direction and I was on my way to see my director. I could not explain to him why I was there. He took advantage of this visit to speak to me about my pride. He spoke to me clearly about my lack of confidence especially concerning temptations. To my great surprise, the time for my Holy Hour was over.
– Jesus: “Don’t worry, my dear little one. Don’t trouble yourself. I am still pleased for the visit to your director was necessary. He told you all that I wanted to tell you. Think about it. You were on your way to church. Who directed you to your director? My dear little one, after the remarks from your director concerning your pride, were you still cold?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you know very well that I was warm and even very much so. I can assure you that I didn’t need a heater.”
Tuesday 24 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, be very careful. Act as a night guardian who must look after a building. He mustn’t sleep. He must be attentive to to the least noise and must keep a close watch on safe and precious objects for he is responsible. At each hour, he must mark down his presence. Do the same. Your body represents the building. Watch over it but especially your soul where I am hiding like a precious treasure. Be attentive to the least noise of grace, to the least murmur of the Holy Spirit.
“My dear Beloved little spouse, at each hour, come and mark down your presence in my Divine Heart by acts of love. Your team work will be more complete. Think about your ideal, that is, I and souls. And I am thinking about your ideal : you and your soul. For me alone, I want everything.”
Wednesday 25 January 1956
– Mimi: I was looking at the monstrance. How I would like to be the little consecrated Host to give glory to God.
– Jesus: “My dear Beloved little spouse, you need not go so far. In offering your poor little body, you have become a living tabernacle and in offering your little soul, you have become the little Host consecrated through love and suffering. With the state of grace, you are continually dwelling with me within you. How pleased I am! Adore me, present within you.”
Thursday 26 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, repair the irreverance in my Church. During the holiday season, people arrive with their children and the first thing that they do is to go in haste to the manger. It is not that I blame them but I would prefer that the parents also teach their little ones that I am present on the altar in the tabernacle. May they come first to greet me and then go to the manger and make them understand that it is simply a representation of me. This saddens me for it is a thoughtless gesture. At times, they have more faith in a small wax figure than in myself, present at the altar.
When entering a palace, do people immediately go towards the picture of the king without first greeting him and offering him their homage? Am I not the King of my palace in a church? Repair. Stay near me and do reparation for yourself. Yes, for yourself. The other day, you spent very little time speaking to me. You were distracted, looking at the children in front of the manger. You made me think of the donkey that seemed to look at the coming and going of the children. I would also like to correct the expression of those who simply say : “I am going to see the manger”. I would rather that they say : “I am going to see the Infant Jesus in the manger.” or “I am going to see the Holy Family in the manger.”
“My dear little one, with your little sensitive heart, you will understand. It is not to complain that I tell you this, but to show you that the judgment of men are false at times, and that their minds are narrow. I feel sorry for the little children who have a religious education with a bad start, poorly directed.
“Do you believe that if these people weren’t so preoccupied, so distracted, they would be so irreverent? In spite of this, I pity them, their weaknesses. To console me, tell me that you accept to repair. However, ask your director first.”
Friday 27 January 1956
– Mimi: I am so happy to be working under the gaze of my gentle Mother of heaven. How I love her! Sometimes, when I am writing, I am distracted for I look at her, I find her so beautiful. I pause to embrace her, to tell her that I love her, that I am happy to be her little girl.
– Mary: “My dear little girl, listen to me carefully. If at each hour you pause for a short while and think about the sufferings and death of my Divine Son, imploring mercy for sinners and the dying and ask for the deliverance of souls in purgatory, for peace in the world, for the reign of God on earth, offer up this prayer to God saying : “Eternal Father, my God and my all, through the hands of Mary Mediatrix of all graces, have mercy on these poor children whom she loves so much, these poor souls, and with the precious blood of your Beloved Son, purify them so that one day they may render you glory in heaven. All I ask for myself is to increase my love for you alone, my God and my all. My God, in your infinite love, protect your Church, the Holy Father and all his priests, missionaries. Give us holy priests. Eternal Father, I believe in you, I love you and I give your thanks. With Mary, I am confident and expect all from your love.”
– Eternal Father: “My dear little girl, if you are faithful in doing this, I promise you to save souls and to answer your humble and trusting prayer. Persevere in this for I can never refuse Mary, my Beloved daughter who intercedes for you and her children. Ask your director permission to say this prayer. Do nothing on your own. You owe him obedience.”
Saturday 28 January 1956
– Mimi: I couldn’t make up my mind to go out. I was so cold. My Beloved was asking me to make a Holy Hour at the church.
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, don’t think of yourself at this time. Think of me and my little manger. Think of the souls. Do you think that I was warm in my manger? I endured this out of love for you. Think of the souls, of your little adopted children for, though I consider you as a little girl, as a spoiled child in your role as spouse of Christ, you must have the heart of a mother for everyone. Think of souls as if they were your own children. I have given you an affectionate heart for me and for souls. Think of what I endured out of love for you. Do you think that I was warm while looking at your heart so cold in the presence of my love? I didn’t have a heater like a little girl that I know.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, more remarks again! What am I to do?”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, this last remark was to tease you a little, to make you smile, to teach you to know me better. I am not always a stern God, an annoyed God, a melancolic God, a sad God.
“I am above all a God of love, of mercy, a God of peace. Does the love in me make others sad?”
“I am the Good God, infinitely Good. I am not a God with a stern look at all the ugliness of man. I am not always tight fisted, ready to strike at the least offense. Rather, I am so easy going, gentle with the little ones and the humble. I am always ready to forgive. My arms are always open to receive them into my Divine Heart, to bless them, to sustain them, to love them. Look at me on the cross. My heart is open to all. Look at me on the cross, my arms are open to receive them. Look at me on the cross, my eyes looking towards heaven to implore mercy.
“Do you understand my Love? This is the way I want you to love me; simply. I want our intimacy to grow. There are moments when you become so little, so simple, so humble that I smile when seeing you act this way. You are like a tiny baby, spoiled by grace, that one looks upon with love and tenderness. Everything is so simple, so pure. When this happens, I am so happy, so happy that if it wasn’t to do the will of my Father asking me to wait, I would come and fetch you right away never to be separated from one another.
“I love you. There are days when my heart can no longer contain my love for you, my Beloved little spouse. Do you see how much love I have for you? I beg you, increase your intimacy with me. It’s so simple, so easy for you with your nature withdrawn from the world. To be alone with me. There are days when you sadden me, when you seem to regret being simple, to have had a greater intimacy with me. Why don’t you always remain little, simple and affectionate with me? I have not come to condemn love. On the contrary. Pure love has first place. Am I not a God of love? I have given everything out of love.
“Why be shy to speak about love with me, your Beloved Spouse, your God, your Father, your Friend? This little heart, so tender, so affectionate, do you think that I don’t understand it? I am the one who gave it to you. I know you so well and love you so much, my dear little one, my little Beloved spouse. Yes, I know this heart very well. I know that it is very large. Though it is large at certain moments, there is almost no room for me. It is full of affection for sinners, the dying, the whole Church, missionaries, the sick, without mentioning the concerns and all the rest !”
– Mimi: “You know very well, my Beloved, that this little heart is yours for ever and if I give hospitality to all these souls, it is you that I have in mind for I love my neighbor for your sake. I am loving them with you. Fear not, my Beloved, I will always love you. Always. You have first place!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, don’t speak too soon. Don’t be so sure of yourself, even in loving me for you could perhaps one day be called the female Peter of the Gospel. Remember Peter, his words, his promises?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t know how to talk to you. I want to be open with you but you are still scolding me.” (I was crying)
– Jesus: “Come, my dear little Beloved spouse, come closer, don’t cry. Let me kiss your eyes and dry your tears for you won’t be able to see. Now, lets look at your sentence: “Fear not! I will love you always, always”, as if you were capable of loving me alone. See what I mean? You should have said: “With your grace or with your help, I will do my best to love you always.” See the difference?
“Without me you can do nothing, you are nothing, you cannot have a single good thought without the help of my grace. You cannot pray to me, think of me without the help of the Holy Spirit. Don’t forget this. You can do nothing like a little child.
“Throw yourself into my arms with confidence like a small baby. I love you dearly, you know. Now, look into my eyes and give me a beautiful smile. It is because I love you that I speak to you this way. I want you to be so beautiful, to have a pure soul to offer my Father. I don’t want to be ashamed of having chosen you as a spouse. This is why I want to educate you spiritually. You know where you come from and where you must go. However, you still don’t know the road you must take. Fear not. Your director knows what I mean. He knows this road that leads to me. Before leaving you, I must tell you once more how much I love you, my dear Beloved little one. You are mine, all mine.”
– Mimi: “Thank you, my God, my Beloved. Why, my Beloved do you call me by my name instead of my pet name. Wouldn’t it help us have greater intimacy?”
– Jesus: “I know very well my dear little one that your pet name suits you well for you are so little, but I prefer the name that you received at your baptism. When I call someone to serve, I call him by his name. On the day of Last Judgment, I will do the same. Each one will be called by the name he received at baptism, as a child of God and of the Church. What would Peter have said if I had given him a pet name like Scaredy-cat?”
Sunday 29 January 1956
– Mimi: I was wondering how many souls were saved today.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I did my best not to refuse you anything.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, think about all the souls that perhaps you lost. Therefore, stop asking why. I know everything. Don’t be curious. If you were as anxious, as curious to discover your faults, your sins, I wouldn’t reprimand you.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you seem to have something against me. Why do you speak to me this way?”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl. Indeed, I am not pleased with you and my Father as well because you don’t stop asking me why : why temptations? Why consolations? Why am I hiding? Why am I near you? Why am I treating you this way? Why does your director act this way? You are always asking questions. Correct this fault of yours. In asking why, you are lacking confidence, conformity to the Divine Will of my Father. In asking why, you lack humility. In asking why, you lack love. Remember that my Father is the Creator of heaven and earth and the Sovereign Master. To him alone belongs the reason why of everything. You didn’t realize my dear Beloved little spouse, that this is what saddens us most, the lack of confidence. You must never, never try to probe the designs and the Heart of God. Humbly ask your director to help you correct yourself. Did you not see that there are many hidden things in your little attic?”
Monday 30 January 19560
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you often remind me of persons in the Gospel :
- The prodigal son, when you return to me.
- Mary Magdalene, by her sinful life but especially by her love, her repentance.
- Peter, by his temerity.
- Thomas, by his disbelief.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I recognize that I am all this and that at times I am in your eyes very sick, lame in spiritual life. My Beloved, don’t only look at my miseries. Look at my love for you. Like the persons in the Gospel, I approach you in order to know you better, to love you more.
- Like the prodigal son, I run towards you, ô my God. I throw myself with confidence into your fatherly arms, into your powerful arms ready to receive me in spite of my shameful conduct.
- Like Mary Magdalene, I approach you with love, confident in spite of my numerous sins, in spite of my life filled with misery; consider my love, my repentance.
- Like Peter, I have been very imprudent in my life. I thought only of myself. I did not think of the nothingness that I am in your hands.
- Like Thomas, I was weak. How many times I refused to believe even when you were near me.
“I ask your forgiveness, my Beloved. It is not I who touched your Divine Heart in order to believe. It is you, my Beloved, with your love, your mercy, by your grace that touched my poor little heart. It is you, ô my Love, who bandaged this wound that I carried for a long time. Yes, this wound caused by sin. My Beloved, like the blind man in the Gospel, I want to see you in all your splendor. I want to see you only through the eyes of pure Faith, simple Faith. I want to see you in all things as my God, my All, my Unique Love. Grant me to see my sins, my miseries as you see them. Grant me also the grace to remain blind to all created things and to the world.
“Allow me to walk like a blind person in spiritual life. May I walk lovingly, confident, leaning only on you and letting myself be led by the hand of my director.
“My Beloved, I hope that at the hour of my death, you will remember me like the good thief. I will be certain to be near you on the cross and some day hear you in heaven forever.”
Tuesday 31 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, remain little. Do not oppose your affectionate and simple little nature. Let your soul open up to me, let your heart dilate within me. If you knew how much I love you, my little one, when you act simple, like a little baby. What I want from you is your whole heart and love.”
