Thursday 2 September 1954
– Mimi: During my holy hour, I remain in doubt. Spiritual aridity is growing more and more. According to the advice of my director, I shall say:
– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me, forgive me.” What suffering! I have nothing to hang onto. There is complete emptiness. I cannot go anywhere; there is total darkness… My God, I beg You, help me… do not allow my condition to discourage me.”
– Jesus: “My little one, you don’t have to hang on. Throw yourself into My arms with confidence. My dear little beloved spouse, it is because I love you that I treat you this way. I repeat: you must be purified before I present you to My Father as My spouse. Remain faithful in My arms… If you could understand all the pleasure you give Me at this moment by accepting My Holy Will!
My dear little spouse, you will have a lot to suffer to save souls. If you accept with love to remain where I place you, I promise you to come and get you and you will not go to purgatory for I am giving you the privilege of doing it on earth. See in all of this My love and My mercy towards you.
Think often of the day of Our union (Good Friday) when you were so happy to share My sufferings. Did I deceive you? Each time I promised you something, I always kept My promise. But you, My dear little one, do you always keep your promises to Me, to your director? Renew your vow of obedience to your director.”
– Mimi: “How can I please You, my Beloved? I cannot even pray. I accept and do not understand the importance of my actions. More I wish to approach You, more I feel far away and more I hope to chat with You, more I find the time long because I have nothing to tell You. Words fail me and my mind is troubled… more I want to love you, more my heart is cold. More I want to be confident, more my fear is great. My Beloved, doYou still love me?”
– Jesus: “But of course, My dear little one. I love you even more for you admit that without Me you can do nothing and that you are nothing, that you understand nothing. By admitting your weaknesses, your miseries, remain in My Divine arms, do not leave Me. Stay in the situation in which I have placed you for the greater glory of My Father.
I know you don’t understand… for the moment…however, tell Me only that you love Me. I need to hear you say it My gentle little spouse even if you don’t feel what you are saying.”
Saturday 4 September 1954
– Jesus: “Thank your director for he is doing a lot for you, especially this afternoon. Mortify your body with the permission of your director.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, You know this. I am suffering enough as it is.”
Thursday 9 September 1954
– Mimi: Words of my director:
- God is preparing you for special graces.
- Act as if…
- When you listen to me, you can be sure of not being misled.
Moreover, in the presence of my director: I make the vow of accepting to suffer all my life for the salvation of souls, to uphold Your Church.
− Satan: “My little one, it is I who inspired you. You guessed right concerning death. Do you know why your director wrote this morning? He wanted to reassure you. If he was so sure of himself, it is because he consulted a confrere concerning this encounter.”
Friday 17 September 1954
– Mimi: Visit to the church. Complete emptiness and yet, I would have liked to pray to You.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, see at Your feet Your child so miserable, so poor, so weak. I beg You, receive my love so little, so cold. Warm it up in Your heart ardent with love for God.”
I wanted to buy a hat. I did not really need it.
− Eternal Father: “My dear little one, buy Me rather souls, they cost so much!”
Saturday 18 September 1954
– Mimi: I wanted to meditate but I was suffering too much, especially my head and neck.
– Jesus: “My little one, offer Me the state you are in… Accept to wear My crown of thorns. Think of My heart that loves you so.”
– Mimi: Since four o’clock this morning I have been suffering. I was so weak, feverish, that I could not meditate on anything.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, offer what you are suffering at this moment. There is no better prayer!”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I accept with love and resignation what I am suffering. Today, I am uniting my weak sufferings to Yours in atonement for my numerous sins and also for the salvation of souls with You.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me to love Jesus as You loved him: to love, to submit myself to the Holy Will of God the Father.
In the state of spiritual aridity in which I find myself, I cannot pray, meditate as I would like. However, what I can say is that I wish to always remain faithful… because I love You. My Beloved, I believe in Your love for me. I beg You, believe in my love for You. However, I feel nothing. You know that I love You, that I am Your little spouse.”
Tuesday 21 September 1954
− Mimi: “My Beloved, I am always in the same state and accept it with an entire submission to Your Holy Will. Since Sunday that You nailed me to the cross with You. I am happy to be with You, to share Your sufferings for the salvation of souls.
Yes, I accept to be bedridden. You know how I hate to be inactive. However, I don’t want to lose this precious time during which I am with You on the cross… The fever is burning up my body. To mortify myself, I will not take a single drop of water. I thought of Your thirst for souls… In spite of the pain, I said my rosary. I prayed for the Holy Father, for my director, for missionaries. I offered my sufferings, united to Yours, to obtain the conversion of sinners and for the deliverance of the poor souls in purgatory. I so want to save souls with You, with my director.
Help me my Beloved Spouse… the devil is tormenting me. He knows that my body is weakened by illness and that I am in the dark, that I want to reach my ideal in spite of everything. My God, have pity on me. I trust in You. Come to my aid!
My Gentle Mother, protect Your child who is struggling. I feel so lonely. Console me! I need You! I love You.”
Wednesday 22 September 1954
– MImi: spent the whole day writing and praying.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you please Me by writing for you are obeying My orders… The time spent with Me is not lost. Think of Me first, do as I ask… As for your housework, don’t worry, it will be done. I will help you. Through this illness, I wanted to ask you more for souls. I also wanted you to put your little notes in order for you were beginning to neglect Me for work that profits you nothing after death.”
A great temptation
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother, protect me. Keep my soul pure for Him, my Beloved Spouse.”
