Monday 2 August 1954
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I love You! Then, I greet the Blessed Trinity with a beautiful sign of the cross and kiss my crucifix. This reminds me that I must also carry my cross with love. Always the same ordeal from 7 to 9.
– Mimi: “Thank You, thank You my Beloved! Mom is still resting.”
The devil would like to take advantage of the situation to distract me and keep me from mass and communion.
– Mimi: “Today, I want to work for You. I want to save many souls. Give me more patience. I don’t want to offend You with my criticisms. I will remain silent. With You, my Beloved, I will begin to correct my faults. They are numerous. I will begin by putting an end to my criticisms. I know that I will be tempted. Out of love for You and to atone for my sins, I won’t even give my opinion, and so, there will be no criticism.
Thank You, my Beloved! With Your grace, I was patient. One half hour listening to a reading. Now, I will go meditate.
I will especially meditate on: Why has God created me? I will ask myself: What have I done to know Him better? Do I love Him the way He deserves? Do I serve Him thinking of myself rather than of Him?
Thank You for the beautiful sun! – Washing – I would prefer staying at home this afternoon but I have to do some shopping. I walked for two hours. It was very hot!
– Jesus: “Thank you, my dear little one! It is for Me that you walk. I count each of your steps. Think of Me. I walked 33 years for you, My dear little beloved spouse!”
Tuesday 3 August 1954
– Mimi: “I getting an early start to work for You. Good morning, my Beloved. Today I want to save many souls. I accept with love Your Holy Will. Thank You, thank You for this proof of Your love. I love You.”
– Mimi: “I must remind myself that You are meekness. My Beloved help me be meek and charitable. I notice that the day begins with little pricks. I don’t want to lose anything for heaven. Increase in me the desire of heaven.
Circumstances obliged me to fast this morning. The whole morning went by doing the will of my neighbor.
– Mimi: “Out of love for You, I accept the cross that You place on my left shoulder.”
– Jesus: “Come, offer everything my dear little spouse! Make the way of the cross on your knees in spite of the suffering. I beg you! Accompany Me along the stations of the cross as I did along the roads searching for souls. Atone, offer yourself with Me to God the Father.”
– Mimi: Evening, at home, rosary said by my director.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask forgiveness for the sorrow I caused You today. How easily I judged a person.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, what would you have done if I had done the same to you?”
I had just been contradicted and I gave this person the cold stare without saying anything. I ask Your forgiveness once more.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, when you offend Me, do I give you the cold stare? Think about how often and at each moment what I do for you. Pray for your director. He is suffering a lot at this moment (it is 4h30 p.m.) The devil is tempting him, but he is fighting back. He needs your prayers.”
Night prayers. Preparation for communion. Thursday, tragedy accepted.
Wednesday 4 August 1954
– Mimi: Awakened at 5h15 by such a soft voice… repeating three times: Glory be to the Father, to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
– Mimi: “Ô my God, today I will consecrate my day glorifying the Blessed Trinity.”
I want to meditate on what the Blessed Trinity has done for me in my life and what place today God the Father has in my soul. Does He have the respect and love that He deserves from me? God the Son, does He have the love He deserves? Am I really the faithful little spouse He desires? The Holy Spirit, do I let Him freely work in me ? Do I not doubt at times His inspirations?
So many things to meditate on today! Thank You, thank You, my God for such a gentle awakening. I made a spiritual communion at home. I did not go to mass. I nevertheless united myself to all the masses celebrated throughout the world… Morning prayer, meditation, spiritual reading in the Imitation of Christ and the Spiritual Combat.”
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me please to be very humble… Teach me also to love Your Gentle Son. Increase in me the devotion to the Blessed Trinity. Give me the desire of heaven.
My Beloved, I offer you everything out of love. I want to atone for my sins. I want to save souls with You for the glory of God.”
I was sad at not being able to go to church. I had too much work.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, console yourself. I am still happy for you accomplished your duties. Didn’t we make a beautiful way of the cross together!”
− Mimi: He is talking about my work this afternoon when, for three hours, I was on my knees washing and waxing the floor: for, during this work, I was meditating on His passion and was offering the fatigue and pains I had. I was also making many acts of love, thanksgiving for so much goodness. During the break, before preparing the meal, I said my rosary.
– Mimi: “My God, I am worried about my director. Protect him. I feel he is hiding something from me.
Thank You, my Beloved, for Your help, but especially for Your love. Are You pleased with me today? If I displeased You in any way, I sincerely ask Your forgiveness. My love for You is growing day by day. I can no longer live without You.”
I miss You so much! I am anxious to see You in all Your splendor. Ô my God, my only Love, I love You now and for eternity. Here is my heart! It is Yours! Before falling asleep, I give You a big hug. Good night, my Beloved!
My Gentle Mother of heaven, let me rest near Your heart. I am so tired! Keep it close to Yours. I so need to feel Your presence in me. The devil doesn’t stop tormenting me. I trust in You… I believe, I adore You and I love You, my Jesus”
Evening. My rosary for my director. Evening prayers, meditation, preparation for communion.
How I look forward to tomorrow!
Friday 6 August 1954
– Mimi: “I was thinking about Your infinite mercy, Your love for me… I was thinking about all the sorrow I caused You yesterday. My soul was very sad.
My Beloved Spouse, let me weep for my sins on Your adorable heart. I need to tell you once again all the sorrow I feel. How ungrateful I am after receiving so much love from You. My Beloved, forgive me. It is near You that I seek refuge. Receive me. Keep me close to You. Do not leave me to myself. See my weakness. Look at my misery. I am so poor.
I know that I am unworthy of receiving You. But I also know how great is Your mercy towards sinners. It is with repentance and a firm purpose that I weep for my sins. But it is especially with love and fully confident that I approach You. Ô my Beloved Spouse, I believe in You.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one… My poor little one. I love you in spite of everything. Do not doubt My love for you. Truly you have offended Me… but I forgive you because you trust Me and love Me sincerely. See My love for you. Today, I will be the one to give you the kiss of peace. Now do you believe in my Divine love?”
− Mimi: “Thank You, thank You, my Beloved . Too much joy! I don’t deserve so much happiness and, in a few moments, You will come to me, ô infinite goodness! You are welcome in my poor soul. My inner dwelling isn’t rich to receive my King… but I think You preferred a stable to a palace. This gives me confidence. I am so poor.
With You within me, all is beautiful! I count on You to embellish my soul, to transform it, to render it agreeable to God. This is why I recognize my miseries and let You work within me. I accept everything out of love… what I desire above all is to do Your Holy Will in all things…
Grant me the grace to recognize my mistakes, to flee from the occasions of sin, even the slightest imperfection. Teach me to detest all that displeases You. I so want to prove to You my repentance, my love. I therefore want to repair, atone. I wish to save many souls. I also want, with your grace, to do a good job with my team work.”
− Satan: “My little one, you quickly justify yourself! You wish to be forgiven, but what tells you that God has forgiven you (for you are guessing). Did He come to tell you so? Isn’t it rather your pride that is speaking within you?
For you write what you would like to believe, but interiorly you know very well that God detests you and that He is waiting for the right moment… to suddenly show you His justice… You are writing in order to deaden the remorse within you. You are deceiving your director. You are feeding your vanity. Your pride and lying is getting worse. Some day, you will see your mistake, but it will be too late for you will be with me for all eternity… He wants you but I am holding onto you. Don’t say anything about this to your director. What more can he do for you? He knows I am right! And you trust him! Open your eyes.”
– Mimi: “My God, come to my aid! My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect me!... I am suffering.”
Holy hour in spite of temptations. My enemy is always at my side.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I believe in You who are present in me. I love You. I adore You. Increase my faith. Give me the strength to resist these temptations. My Gentle Jesus, tell me once more You love me. I throw myself with confidence into Your arms…Do not leave me, my Beloved Spouse.
I have confidence in my director for he represents You. He has done so much for my soul and helped me overcome my enemy. I will tell him everything and obey him. At the moment I am writing this, I want to obey You. I cannot become proud for I am aware of my ignorance – hardly six years of schooling… and the only vanity I can have is to transmit what You inspire me through the Holy Spirit and I am satisfied. For, whatever good there may be, it is God who has given it to me. I can do nothing and am nothing. All I know is that I am a sinner who wants to show You my love by atoning for my sins and accepting Your Holy Will”
Till tomorrow, my Beloved.
Saturday 7 August 1954
– Mimi: “I wanted to go to communion as promised, but temptations against faith were torturing me.
I could hear a voice saying:
− Satan: “I am your Beloved. Out of My great kindness, I am warning you. You must not received communion this afternoon. You have offended me enough so far. I don’t want you to defile my sacrament of love.”
– Mimi: “Ô Holy Spirit, enlighten me! Where is the truth? I was troubled and very sad. Can my enemy borrow Your gentle name? What am I to do? I must be very wicked not to be able to receive Holy Communion.”
− Satan: “Your soul soiled by sin must not approach my immaculate soul.”
− Mimi: I went to see my director and told him all my sorrow, my doubts, my temptations. I did my best to make a good confession. He advised me to go to communion in order to overcome my enemy and he also reassured me of Your love. To prepare my communion, I made the way of the cross, for my enemy was giving me all kinds of pretexts, such as shyness, fatigue, self love. Upon the advice of my director, I humbly made the way of the cross. This way, I knew…”
Monday 9 August 1954
– Mimi: “I got up too late to attend Mass. This made me very sad. However, I made a spiritual communion and I want to extend my thanksgiving throughout the day.
– Mimi: “Today, my Beloved, following Your example, I want to be very good, very charitable. I want to save many souls.”
The devil is tempting me to tell about the interview I just had.
– Jesus: “No, My little one. Offer Me this silence for the salvation of souls.”
– Mimi: “In order to please You, my Beloved, I offer it to You.”
Hardly ten minutes go by, another attack.
− Satan: “You can talk about it. It’s not a crime… Do you think God needs silence in order to save a soul? Use your head! Why does He ask the martyrdom of certain souls out of love.”
– Mimi: I know that silence is little compared to martyrdom, but I believe that what counts most for God is humility and a sincere submission to His Holy Will. And in accepting this silence out of love, I am certain to save a soul because God asked me and I believe in His Word. He is truth!
– Mimi: “My Beloved, look at my weaknesses in spite of my promises. The devil wasn’t able to make me break my silence but he succeeded through gluttony. I could have abstained from desert to mortify my body. I regret not having offered You more… I was feeling sorry at the thought that I could have saved another soul by offering You more. I ask Your forgiveness… how frail I am! My Beloved, make me more prudent… and persevering in Your service.”
– Jesus: “My dear beloved little spouse, you please Me in recognizing your weakness… I know you. And if you did not receive My grace, you would sink even lower. You are so frail that a simple breeze can make you fall. Take a look at your past.
In the future, do not wait for Me to ask for a sacrifice on your part… it consoles Me greatly when you simply offer something out of love… And when the soul has understood Divine love, it always finds a way to please Me, to grow in its love.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Gentle Mother of heaven for keeping me near You today. You were so patient in waiting for me in the past. I am now certain that You will not abandon me for I throw myself with confidence into Your Motherly arms. I believe in Your love for me. A mother does not reject her sick and lame child, does she not? It is my infirmity, my weakness and also my love that urge me to go to You with confidence, for I know that I will be secure.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, I also come to rest on Your heart after a day filled with interior struggles. I bring with me all the souls of poor sinners. I am praying for the success of the marian congress. I would have liked to go to Cap-de-la-Madeleine as a pilgrim but I offer it as a sacrifice. Mother of heaven, I ask for the grace that all souls that will visit You may not return empty handed and may profit from the graces. I especially give You the souls of poor sinners.”
Tuesday 10 August 1954
– Mimi: Today, I want to make many acts of humility, but especially acts of love, of contrition.
I was in a lot of pain. I was asking myself if I should make the way of the cross.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I beg you. Come and keep Me company on the road to calvary. I need your sufferings, your sacrifices to complete My passion. Remember Our union in love and suffering. Remember Good Friday 1954…”
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, strengthen my faith. Holy Spirit, enlighten me. My Gentle Mother of heaven, there seems to be an emptiness in my soul. Tell me what is missing. Tell me what displeases You. What I must correct. What I must do to love Your Beloved Son, to serve God, to make Him known, to make people love Him. I so want to prove my love for Him. But I do so little! Something is missing.”
− Mary: “Don’t look so far, My little one! What is missing today, the emptiness that you feel is caused by your negligence. This morning, why didn’t you go to mass? And during the day, how many times did you think of Us? Your mind is too preoccupied by all kinds of things. You didn’t even find a moment to write, and yet you found the time to gossip with your little neighbor… My dear little one, is My Son waiting for you to think of Him in order to think of you?”
– Mimi: “Forgive me, my Gentle Mother of heaven. I thank You for helping me understand. My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness. I do not want to cause You anymore sorrow. I am not pleased with myself. My Gentle Mother of heaven, You are right. I find time for everything, but not enough for God. In the future, I will put God first in my life. He must come first in my actions for I am His.”
– Jesus: “Ô My beloved little spouse, what would a husband coming home and seeing his house empty and upside down say? This is what I found in you today. Your soul was too preoccupied, in a mess. There was no room for Me. In spite of all this, I love you. I beg you, do not leave Me alone. Speak to Me. I need to hear your language of love.”
– Mimi: “Good night, my Beloved. Till tomorrow. To help You forget my miserable day, I give You gentle kisses and repeat to You that I love You, my Beloved Spouse. I want to remain faithful. Help me with Your grace.”
Wednesday 11 August 1954
– Mimi: During the stations of the cross – The agony of Jesus.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, allow me to feel Your agony at the sight of my sins. I detest all my sins that offended You. I ask sincerely Your forgiveness.”
Saturday 14 August 1954
– Mimi: mmmmMI did not receive communion because a voice told me not to profane the sacred Host. I went and confessed my doubts to my director. A certain unease took hold of me. I did not want to make the way of the cross because I was in too much pain. I could hardly walk.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I beg you to come near Me during My passion. It is precisely because you are suffering a lot that I want you to share My sufferings in atonement and to obtain the conversion of sinners.”
– Mimi: My director advised me to make the way of the cross. In spite of my condition, out of humility and obedience, I made the way of the cross. Afterwards, I recited my rosay near the grotto of the Virgin of Lourdes… I was looking at the beautiful flower that decorated the altar and the rock. We were preparing the celebration of the feast of the Assumption.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, I also would like to offer You flowers for Your feast day, but I don’t have the means.”
− Mary: “My dear little one, offer Me souls. Jesus will be very pleased. Offer Me especially acts of love, humility, confidence and place them at My feet like a bouquet of flowers. I would be so pleased.”
But, suddenly, my enemy interrupted me. For more than half an hour, he tempted me:
− Satan: “You pray badly! Don’t recite your rosary!”
– Mimi: Seeing that I ignored him, he tried something else, about faith, then, impurity. What suggestions!
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, help me put up with these temptations. I love You. I believe in You, ô Immaculate Virgin. Keep my soul pure”
And I continued to recite my rosary. And as I finished the words:
“Now and at the hour of our death”, I clearly heard a voice say:
− Mary: “My dear little one, what would you say if I came to get you tomorrow?”
– Mimi: My surprise was so great that I answered: “My love, I’m afraid!” believing that it was my enemy attacking me again.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, is it You or my enemy? I beg You, give me a visible sign to let me know the truth. Give me a flower or allow someone to offer me some flowers.
That evening, my little neighbor brought me some flowers to please me. – Thank You Gentle Mother, I have my answer.
That evening:
− Mary: “My dear little one, remember what I am going to tell you. Beginning with the 15th of August, you will begin counting your days! Prepare yourself with prayers and sacrifices. You will have a lot to suffer for the conversion of sinners and to finish your purification. Believe in Me, your Gentle Mother of heaven. Go see your director and tell him this.
Trust him for he knows what We expect from you. Aren’t We the ones who designated him to fulfill the role of director for your poor little soul. Be confident! We have placed Our trust in him. Tell him everything and be very obedient and submissive. “He who hears you, hears Me”. Meditate this well. Yes, make a good confession. Believe in his absolution.”
− Satan: “Don’t disturb your director! People will notice for you went to confession this afternoon. Don’t go back this evening to tell him about your pipe dreams, your illusions. You will disturb him. Wait until next week.”
− Mary: “Don’t listen to him. Meditate this well. Make a good confession. Believe in his absolution. He has received the power. He is worthy to carry the secret of the priesthood. He alone can help you.”
– Mimi: “My God, I commend my soul into Your hands. I accept Your Holy Will. Grant me the grace never to offend You.”
Tuesday 17 August 1954
– Mimi: I was meditating on these words: “My God, I commend my soul into Your hands.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, think about this for you are growing in confidence, about going to heaven, about My infinite mercy. The love of possessing Me, an entire submission to the Will of God, total detachment from everything.”
Monday, mass at 7h o’clock, holy hour, rosary, way of the cross, rosary for my director.
Tuesday 25 August 1954
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I have come to tell You that I love You. How I would like to speak to You freely but my mind wanders, my will is somewhat paralyzed, my heart is cold and I am silent before You. However, my Beloved, You know very well that I love You in spite of the indifference. Look at the bottom of my soul. In spite of my spiritual aridity, I yearn for You. I desire you. My God, have pity on me. My Beloved, don’t leave me. I am afraid of everything, but my greatest fear is to offend You. I beg You, help me!”
– Mimi: “In spite of the state I am in, I come to You for I promised to obey my director. In the future, I want to accomplish all my actions as if everything were going well, as if I were receiving great consolations etc… I should walk with my eyes closed, guided by my director and I should throw myself into Your Divine arms. I abandon myself to Your Holy Will.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, look upon Your little girl who is before You asking for help. My Gentle Mother of heaven, grant me the grace that the little love I have, I may always keep it for Him alone. You know that I prefer Him to everything because He is my Beloved Spouse in whom I have placed all my trust. Grant me the grace never to think of myself for a moment in order that I may faithfully follow my Beloved on the road of suffering, for the conquest for souls.
Give me also Your humility everywhere and for everything. Teach me to pray with love, confidence and resignation. Tell me what I must do to please God.”
– Mary: “My dear little one, remain where My Son has placed you and as long as He wants. What counts in the eyes of God is love, humility and an entire submission to His Holy Will. Try to practice these three virtues and you will please God.”
– Mimi: “Even in the state of spiritual aridity I am in at this moment?”
– Mary: “But of course, carry on, my little one. Love, humility and submission to His Holy Will.”
Sunday 29 August 1954
– Mimi: In church, I knelt before the statue of Our Lady of Seven Sorrows.
– Mimi: “Thank You my Gentle Mother of heaven for having held back the arm of Your Divine Son. Yes, this hand that You are holding in Yours was the one that saved me .
My God, I am before you as the smallest of Your creatures. How I would love to adore you, render You homage like the angels and saints in heaven! How I would love to pray to You like Your Gentle Son used to do when He was on earth, but especially during His agony.
If only I could love You like my Gentle Mother of heaven! My God, I admit my impotence, my ignorance. However, I thank You for making me Your child. Unfortunately, I did not always act as Your child.
I thank You for Your infinite mercy when I presented myself to You as the prodigal son, and You accepted me. How could I not believe in Your love for me? And, in Your goodness, You knew I would need as a road companion a strong person on whom I could depend, in whom I would find reassurance, security. You knew that my heart needed a solid and lasting bond. And it is Your Son that You gave me as road companion to heaven and as a guide You gave me my director Fr. J. Gamache, s.j.
I thank You for all these graces, my God, my Father-in-law. Can I call You my Father-in-law? Am I not the spouse of Your Son? Forgive me my God for so much familiarity. I have such a need to tell You all my gratitude and my love… Yes, this love that remains is Yours for You must come first. I offer it to You. My Beloved, please help me purify my love so that it may be agreeable to God.”
− Satan: “Why write these things? You know the state of your soul. You don’t even believe in what you have written. So why write down lies.”
– Mimi: “and more I want to love You, more my heart is cold. More I want to grow in confidence, more my fear increases. More I would like to hear Your voice, more I remain deaf and indifferent and more I wish to speak to You heart to heart, more I remain silent.”
