Monday 1st March 1954
− Mimi: “My Beloved, I would have liked to receive You this morning, but I was too sick. I am suffering! May Your Holy Will be done now and forever, my Beloved. Give me the strength to do my work.”
I come to You, my Love, to take refuge. I would have liked to lie down a little to get my strength back. Impossible, for I would worry my poor mom. So, it is near You that I come to rest a little. The devil is constantly on my heels, my Beloved. Increase my faith, my confidence in Your love for me. I found on my path some little crosses made of straw or pine branches.”
– Jesus: “My little one, don’t worry. The road that leads to heaven is filled with these little crosses. I beg you, don’t stop. What impresses you is to see the cross before you here and there. But if you were rather impressed by My cross, you would not offend Me. See how weak you are, poor little one! If I didn’t uphold you, you would easily fall.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved. I recognize Your goodness, Your infinite Mercy. You who know everything, look into the depth of my soul. In spite of my weaknesses, I love You, I trust in You, I expect everything from You, I place all my hope in You. You are the Master of heaven and earth.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, I just learned that my little P. is in danger of dying. I place him in Your motherly hands. Have pity on his poor mother. However, may Your Holy Will be done. I ask if You please, for the parents, confidence, strength, courage, resignation in accepting this trial as good christians.”
Tuesday 2 March 1954
– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved. I offer You my whole day. I accept with love all that You will ask of me. Increase my patience with the same trial that has been lasting for 8 days.”
I was getting ready to write, but I had to babysit the four little ones. I accepted with pleasure, for I wanted to give the little mother the chance to visit her dear little one who is dying in the hospital. Visit at the church with the little ones. How great is their trust. The little one who is 3 or 4 said to me: “P. will heal because I prayed a lot and asked the Blessed Virgin.”
I said to myself that this little one was right. We must go to Jesus through His Mother. I am sure that the prayer of the little one, who is so pure, will be granted. However, may Your Holy Will be done.”
− Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, give me the strength and courage to resist this temptation. The devil wants to win. Everything is going badly.
My Beloved, I trust in You. I give You all my problems. I am suffering but I love You! During the recitation of the rosary, I suffered a lot. But, no matter, this suffering is now Yours, since You asked me to offer it. Yes, I offer You everything in atonement for my sins, all kinds of sins being committed during Carnaval time. My Beloved, I ask myself what I could offer You more? Thank You! You made the choice for me. I accept it with love.”
Wednesday 3 March 1954
– Mimi: “I don’t want to lose You. I am weak. With Your presence in me, increase my confidence. Give me the courage I need to fight my enemy. Without You I can do nothing.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, Refuge of sinners, keep me close to Your motherly heart. Protect your child who is struggling and weeping at this moment. My cross is so heavy to carry. Help me! I sought strength from My Beloved in His sacrament of love.”
Thursday 4 March 1954
– Mimi: Great temptation against faith.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am looking for some rest near You.The devil is still near me. The temptation is getting worse. What can I do? Should I tell my director? Of course not, says my enemy.”
– Satan: “Don’t discourage him for so little. After all, he tells you himself that there is no sin in this temptation. You see that I am right. When you will be judged, he will hold you responsible for the time you wasted about all your nonesense.”
– Jesus: “My poor little one! Go with confidence and humility to your director. Tell him about your temptations. Tell him everything. Let him be the judge. Since he represents Me, he will accept with patience and be indulgent to all souls who come to him with sincerity and confidence. Go, My little one! Do not fear! I give you My hand. My Divine Mother will accompany you.”
Friday 5 March 1954
− Mimi: “My Beloved, how anxious I am to receive You.”
My Gentle Mother of heaven, lend me Your heart to receive my Beloved. I need You so much at this moment. Why is my enemy always near me? He doesn’t stop suggesting all kinds of doubts against faith, against God’s infinite mercy. How this situation makes me suffer!
I don’t stop repeating that I love You, that I believe in spite of the state I am in.”
After communion, I exposed to Him my great weakness, my fears of losing Him through sin.
− Mimi: “You know how I want to love You, serve You as You deserve. Why is my heart so cold? However, my Beloved, I accept Your Holy Will and not mine, now and forever. If You want me to remain in this spiritual aridity, I accept it with resignation, with love. However, do not abandon me.”
Saturday 6 March 1954
– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved! I give You my day. I am suffering a lot. I can hardly walk. However, I did my chores as usual but with a lot of difficulty. Thank You, my Beloved! Mom doesn’t seem to notice that I am suffering.
My Beloved, please help me. My enemy is after me again. The struggle is beginning again. Help me overcome this temptation and to remain pure. I don’t trust myself. I am weak as You know. I cannot hide anything from You. Recognizing my weakness, I can do nothing without You and I expect everything from You. I do not ask You to remove this temptation nor to lighten my cross. I only ask You to help me accept Your Holy Will in all things to give glory to God.”
Sunday 7 March 1954
− Mimi: “The storm is raging, my Beloved. Help me! Give me the necessary strength not to give in to this temptation. I trust in You.”
– Jesus: “Yes, My poor little one, I am with you during this storm! My poor little one, you remind Me of Peter in the boat during the storm. Why do you tremble? Why do you let yourself be distracted by your enemy? If I were not there, what would you do? I cannot remove from you this cross for I love you. I want you to be all Mine.
You will have another great trial, but be courageous and faithful in My service. I want to purify you. Let Me work in your soul. Let Me be free to do what I want. I am beginning today to clean your soul for I want it to experience the effects of My Resurrection and of My Love. Together, we will give thanks to My Father.”
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven! Give me the necessary strength and courage to follow Your Gentle Jesus like You followed Him on the road to calvary. Teach me to give my Fiat each day.”
Saturday 20 March 1954
– Mimi: “My Beloved, give me the strength to get up and to undertake a good day’s work. I am suffering a lot. I don’t want mom to notice this suffering. I can hardly walk, so great is the pain at certain moments. The pain becomes so intense that I cannot move and for a few moments I cannot budge. This is when I think of You, my Beloved. I can see You nailed to the cross for several hours, enduring everything out of love for me. How could I not accept to follow You, to carry my cross in atonement for my sins?”
The devil is on my heels once again. How he would like to discourage me! He suggests temptations against faith, saying:
− Satan: “See what He has done to you, now that you have given Him everything. He leaves you alone, He abandons you. You can see for yourself. Open your eyes and look at yourself. What is there left of you? Your soul is already lost through sin! What has He done with your freedom? He is constantly threatening you. You believe that He hears your prayers! When you ask His forgiveness! He doesn’t need your pleas. He prefers to rest in His heaven and listen to the angels sing rather than hear your complaints, for He can no longer do anything for you. Your sins are too numerous, and you are mine for I have already taken over your soul.
He is not that powerful. He has a lot of difficulty in hanging on to a soul, and it is so easy for me, for I give everything, I give freedom. Souls can enjoy themselves for they do not live in constant fear.”
– Mimi: I did not want to write anymore. Writing this makes me suffer too much. Out of obedience, I opened the door of my inner self:
− Mimi: “My Beloved! Look at the mess! Help me please! My God, I want to offer more for my director: R.Fr. Gamache.”
To submit myself to the Holy Will of God, I accept with love and resignation the state I am in. To give me courage for I was suffering so much and the devil wouldn’t stop tormenting me, I took my crucifix in my hand and the little statue of the Blessed Virgin in the other. With both hands tied by my two loves, I could offer more to God and chase my enemy away.
How I felt small in His powerful arms! I love Him so and would like to love Him more. I would like to love Him for the world and I would like everyone to love Him, especially the poor sinners.
I know from experience what we lose in losing Him… and what advantage it is to be taken care of by His infinite Mother. I abandon myself to Him without reservation. I throw myself into His arms.
My God, come to my aid. Holy Spirit, strengthen me.
Wednesday 24 March 1954
– Mimi: I was watching a parade go by. How beautiful! There was a lot of discipline.
– Jesus: “My little one, My celestial army is made up of chosen ones. I am the general. On earth, it is the same. Your director is the leader; you are a simple soldier. I make plans. I indicate the road that leads to your goal, and how to overcome the enemy.
Your director accepts My plans according to My Will, My Cross. He transmits them to you. Being a simple foot soldier, you only have to obey and follow orders from your superiors in order to be victorious and ready to engage once again in the struggle. My dear little one, don’t forget that you are to die a victim of My love.”
Thursday 25 March 1954
− Mimi: “Thank You for so much goodness. Thank You, my Gengle Mother of heaven for accepting to become my Mother.”
– Jesus: “Don’t forget that We are a team, your director, I and you. My little one, you have worked, offered and prayed together. But, for a better purification and more merit, I allowed this trial so that you could suffer together, one because of the other, just as I suffered because of you.”
– Mimi: There was a misunderstanding between my director and me, and I was at fault.
Friday 26 March 1954
− Mimi: “My enemy had borrowed Your voice. I was so upset.”
– Jesus: “My little girl, if you had payed attention, you would have seen the difference. Think of it! When I speak to you, don’t I have the habit of calling you My little girl, or My poor little one? But I never say: listen to your God who speaks! From now on, be prudent and more attentive to My voice.”
Saturday 27 March 1954
− Mimi: “My Beloved, how I would like to be learned! How I would like to know all sciences so that I might speak better to You, give homage to You in order to write about all Your goodness.
My Beloved, see my poverty. See my ignorance. Everything in me is a mess. However, I give thanks to You for the degree of love You give me, and with Your help, I want it to grow.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, do you think there is a special language to speak to Me about love and trust? Don’t be shy to speak to Me. I understand everything. With the learned, I give thanks to My Father. With the ignorant, I inspire them and teach them. With children I babble. With little ones, the humble, I joyfully accept them, and comfort them with their language of pure love. I understand the state of your soul and accept everything.”
