Spiritual notes 

Year 1954

Sunday 21 February 1954

– Mimi: “Hardly a few hours of sleep, I’m up at 7. On the occasion of my director’s birthday, I was going to attend Holy Mass celebrated by him. I was looking forward to it and I was so happy  for, during this mass, he was to offer me to God, but circumstances changed all that. I was deeply disappointed.

However, I was happy, my Beloved, to offer You this sacrifice at the beginning of the day. It gave me time to meditate, to prepare my communion before the next mass. How many wishes I was able to make on this beautiful day.

I ask You, ô my Beloved, the grace that my director always remain a good and holy priest, devoted, faithful in following You as he has always done in the past. I also ask You the grace that his love for souls grow more and more. I ask the Holy Spirit that He continue to enlighten him and that with his advice and examples I may reach my goal for the greater glory of God. My Beloved, grant me the favor of always being very obedient and submissive since it is You who command me through him. I have total confidence in him, in his prayers and it is with utmost respect that I address myself to him because he represents You. How I wish to love You as he does, to have a full life like his. This is why, at his example, I am working so hard to reach my goal.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, teach me to be very patient. I began offering my spiritual bouquet to my director, that is, masses, communions, holy hours, ways of the cross, rosaries during eight days. I am praying for all his intentions. He has been good to me but especially to my soul that has cost him dearly. I can’t forget all the sacrifices he made to pull my soul away from the devil. My debt of gratitude is so great! My Beloved, keep him safely in Your Divine Heart. It’s the place he deserves. Grant him lots of health to accomplish his work for the souls You have placed in his care.”

How good it is to be in Your arms, my Beloved! My Gentle Mother of heaven, I thank You for the grace obtained this morning. My Gentle Mother of heaven, I entrust You with all the souls dear to me.

My Beloved, I thank You for the grace received this morning, that of receiving You. I am so unworthy, yet, in Your infinite goodness, You descend, You lower Yourself to me, ô Infinite Goodness. I believe in Your merciful love for me.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, lend me Your heart to receive, adore, love, serve Your Gentle Jesus as He deserves. I don’t want to lose Him. I love Him so! To show Him my love, I want to prolong my thanksgiving all day. It is the only way not to offend Him and to work for the salvation of souls.

Thank you, my Beloved, for helping me be patient. I had to wait almost an hour, seated on a chair, silent, and listen to the reading of letters that I already knew about. I had planned to read or write. I am happy to have offered You this hour of patience. 

How the devil tempted me many times during this hour! I did not fear for I knew that You were present in me and that with You I can do all things. You know that I don’t want to lose You, displease You, nor cause this person any sorrow by seeming annoyed.

Good night, my Beloved. Till tomorrow! I am anxious to receive You. Increase in me Your love.

Ô Holy Spirit, please help me understand what God expects from me and to remain faithful.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect your child who is trembling and who is taking refuge in Your arms. Let me rest on Your Motherly Heart. I need support. I am bringing with me all the souls, especially the poorest sinners like me and remember, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, the poor souls in purgatory who are abandoned.

My Beloved, I desire You more and more. 

My Good Angel, my Patron Saint, watch over me.”

                                    

Monday 22 February 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I offer You my day. How tired I feel! Only a few hours of sleep. I couldn’t sleep because of physical pain, but the main reason was because I was anxious to receive You, my Beloved. It is such a beautiful day, today! I thank You for the sun rays that are so encouraging.

As You asked, this morning, my director offered me to God. With the respect and reverence of an angel, he raised the white host and offered me. I united myself to this offering. I cannot explain what took place at this precious moment. I would have liked these minutes to last a life time. And it was lovingly that I looked at this white host where You were really present with us. I was so happy and my heart was pounding. I didn’t stop saying: I love You, my Lord and my God. I believe, I adore and I love You. I offer myself to You forever.

Yes, my Beloved, it is with joy that I throw myself into Your arms. I accept Your Holy Will. From now on, I allow You to work in my soul, to be the Master of my being now and forever. I entrust You with my soul, my mind, my body, my heart. Reign over me. Do with me what You will. I am Yours. I offer myself with all my miseries, my weaknesses. I am convinced that without You I am nothing and can do nothing. I want to rid myself of my faults, my imperfections, my lack of trust that causes You so much suffering. How many times I have been the cause of Your sufferings through my lack of confidence. You, Almighty God, my Creator. You, Infinite Mercy. I sincerely ask Your forgiveness, my Beloved, my Love.

I want to love You even more. I want my whole life to remain unknown. I want to stay hidden in You where no one will know about Our love, Our union.

Like my Gentle Mother of heaven, I will keep it a secret in my heart. I will keep it like a treasure, hidden in my inner self where no one can penetrate and in moments of weakness, of discouragement, give me the grace to remember this beautiful day where I will go immediately to You, my God, my Refuge. I need You so much. I do not want to refuse You anything. I will keep my goal before my eyes …

Yes, I want to follow You. I want to carry my cross each day with love and resignation. I want to atone for my sins, for the sins of poor souls. I ask Your forgiveness, mercy for them and for me. Gazing at the chalice, I could see You nailed to the cross, shedding Your divine blood out of love for me. I also, my Beloved, accept out of love this kind of death You want to send me. 

You warned me several times that I was to die a victim of Your love. How many times I worried about this. Poor human nature! I promise You not to try to understand how. I ask Your forgiveness for doubting You. If I had fully trusted You, I would have accepted Your Holy Will. If I was trying to know what kind of death, it was because I was thinking too much about myself, and not enough about You. How selfish I was! Now that I have offered myself, I accept the kind of death You want to send me because I trust that You will give me Your grace, Your love. If You had abandoned me years ago, what kind of death would I have had?

But in Your Infinite Mercy, You offer me to follow You, to share Your sufferings. Your offer me Your heaven for all eternity! Ô Infinite Goodness, thank You, than You for having been patient.

Keep me near You always. Help me remain faithful in Your service until death. I have a lot of good will but I am weak and easily discouraged. I beg You, give me the strength and necessary courage to accomplish my duties and mission that You wish to give me for the glory of God.

Ô Holy Spirit, enlighten me. I need Your celestial light.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, guide my steps. Teach me to remain little, very humble. Teach me also to flee from and detest sin and all that could separate me from Your Gentle Jesus.”

– Mary: “My dear little one, if you knew how happy I am today. Yes, offer yourself often with My Beloved Son, to God the Father. It is the greatest homage that you can give Him, the Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth.

My little girl, I will help you. Together, We will work firmly to correct your faults. I ask you only one thing: do not allow your enemies to crush you. Fear not! I will protect you as I have always done. Trust Me. Love Me. To speak more intimately with My Jesus, borrow My words, My feelings, My love… My little one, pray with confidence and humility. Do not hesitate to tell Him your love, your gratitude. How He loves the simplicity of a child. You are so little in Our sight.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, for several hours I have been wanting to chat with You. But, You understand the situation (reading out loud). Finally, with resignation and patience, thinking of You, I had to wait several hours before writing. I am very tired by this interior struggle. But I no longer want to refuse You anything for Your sake. Till tomorrow! I am anxious to see You… Please give me Your Spirit of Holiness. Increase in me the love for souls, for I want to save many souls and offer them to You.”

Thusday 23 February 1954

– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved! I want to work with You today. I offer You my whole day. I need You, I need Your love. A mass for the soul of my dear little sister, my director celebrated the Holy Sacrifice once more.

I had the great pleasure of receiving You. I need You so badly. I desire this union more and more. I need Your love. I feel so lonely at times but no matter that I should feel abandoned, forgotten, provided that You are always present in me. You know that I can do nothing without You. You are my hope, my strength. I wish for only one thing: never to lose You because of sin, even the slightest one. I regret them all. Make me more patient. This is what I need today.

I must be charitable towards two persons by not showing annoyance at what they tell me and that I have known for a long time. They don’t seem to notice that this tires me, for this lasts several hours. Almost always the same stories. I say to myself: what a loss of time, what things I could be doing. Out of love for You and also to overcome my impatience, I try to appear interested. I thank You for Your help for if You were not present in me, I don’t know what I would do.” 

The devil takes advantage to discourage me saying:

– Satan: “You think you pleased God by offering him your little interior struggles! You were hypocritical by showing interest in the conversation. 

You are too much a coward to admit that I am right. Open your eyes and look at the value of your actions.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t be sad! Close your ears to these lies! Believe in Me who am the Truth. Offer me these little pricks and think of Me. Was I hypocritical in remaining silent before all kinds of accusations, before the tales I already knew? My Father knows My wish and that is sufficient. I know you. I know your intentions. My dear little one, don’t be discouraged.”

– Mimi: I recite my rosary. Afterwards, I practice the piano as a distraction. It has been months since I played. I wasn’t satisfied.

– Jesus: “My poor little one, be patient. Do you see the importance of practicing each day? It is the same thing at the spiritual level. To attain holiness, one must practice each day; the practice of love, charity, of all the virtues, of confidence, in order to offer My Father something pleasant. My dear little one, be patient. Think about it; if instead of being tempted to abandon everything you plucked the strings of your heart, what a beautiful melody We would hear, both of Us. I would be satisfied. There is still much work to be done, isn’t there, in this area? I will help you. I am a musician at times. I am the one who inspire the artist, the composer. It is I who guided the fingers of King David when he praised Me by playing the harp.

My dear little one, if you heard the choirs of angels sing to the glory of My Father! It is still I who am the Director. Now do you believe that I can do anything, that I am able to develop this talent to the glory of God? ”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness for this moment of weakness. I trust in You. I believe that You are the Almighty and I also believe that without You I am nothing. I thank You for this talent that under Your guidance I will develop for God. How anxious I am to hear these celestial melodies! I hope that some day I will go to heaven to play and sing Your praises.

Wednesday 24 February 1954

– Jesus: “My dear little one, give Me everything. Keep jealously secret Our conversations except with your director, in a spirit of humility. Offer Me everything.”

– Mimi: “I promise to refuse You nothing. I abandon myself into Your divine arms with love and confidence. 

My Gentle Mother of heaven, I want to go to Jesus through You. Help me, please. Out of mortification, I will keep silent concerning certain unpleasant situations. However, I am tempted to give my opinion. 

My Beloved, help me remain silent. I need You.”

– Mimi: “I am happy. It is my director who celebrated Holy Mass. It seems to me that our team work is complete when We are all three together. 

I had the great pleasure of receiving communion. I asked my Gentle Mother of heaven to lend me Her heart in order to receive You better. I am so unworthy. I am ashamed of approaching You who are so pure. But I know that You are infinitely good and merciful. You will have pity on me. It is precisely because I need You that I approach You and I am certain that I will then become stronger and that my love will grow. 

I give myself totally to You. I give You the freedom to transform my soul. Uproot all that displeases You. I so want to please You, to love You, to serve you and work with You. I always have before my eyes my goal. Yet, without You I can do nothing. I need support, strength, preparation to undertake the mission You are offering me. May Your Holy Will be done now and forever.

I am looking forward to receiving You tomorrow. I need You so much, ô Supreme Love, my Unique Love, my God, my beloved Spouse.”

Thursday 25 February 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I offer You my whole day. I need You. I am suffering terribly. I can hardly move. My heart is beating quickly. Give me the necessary strength to do my work. 

I was finally able to attend Holy Mass celebrated by my director. I received communion.

− Mimi: “My Beloved, You can see the work that needs to be done in my soul. To please You, I will remain silent. Help me please to correct my faults. My Beloved, in a few moments You will come into me, into my poor soul. My director will place You on my tongue, yes, this tongue that has offended You so many times, I ask Your forgiveness.”

– Jesus: “My poor little one, you are not the only one who has offended Me. How many use their tongue badly! They abuse it to offend Me, to take pleasure in many ways through alcohol, gluttony, etc… without omitting other sins, slander, blasphemy, and many others. And yet if we knew the importance of this sensory organ. I had planned everything. I wanted this tongue to be used to praise, to glorify My Father, to pray, to preach, to forgive, to feed the soul and body… but men take advantage of it and use it badly.

My little one, think frequently about what I tell you: You please Me greatly when you remain silent. Don’t forget that you are deserving. Also, remain in solitude in order to ponder My words.

Look at My Divine Mother. She loved solitude! … And I, Myself, often felt the need to be alone to pray, to speak to My Father in heaven.

And We, My dear little one, need to be alone in order to speak to one another… to share Our mutual love… to prepare Our next encounter… Think of heaven, think of Me, think of eternity. Think about what your life will be like with Me on earth. Think about what My life will be like with you in heaven. Think about what your life would be like without Me.

– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved, I do want to prepare Our union with Your help. I will begin this very day to hold my “tongue”. With You within me, there will be no room to allow criticism, slander, calumny.

I love You, ô Merciful God. To please You, I want to atone for my sins. From now on, no more lies. Help me, You who are Truth. No more criticism. Help me, You who are Justice. No more gluttony. Help me, You who are the Bread of Life… Yes, from now on, I want to use my tongue to give thanks, to pray, to ask forgiveness. I want to use my tongue to give glory to God, the saints, to make known Your goodness, Your infinite mercy, but especially Your love for souls. Thank You for making me aware of my mistakes.”

Friday 26 February 1954

– Mimi: “Thank You for coming to my awakening. How happy I am to be near You. I attended Mass. I received communion. I was feeling awful, however, I thank You for all Your help.”

The struggle is more and more intense, and this voice doesn’t stop repeating:

− Satan: “Take advantage of the occasion being offered to you.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, You are the strongest. Help me put up with this temptation.”

Visit to the church in spite of my spiritual aridity.

− Mimi: “It is near You, my Beloved, that I can find peace. How I would like to always be near You. I feel so far from You, today. When will the day come where Our union will be perfect?”

– Jesus: “Prepare yourself, My little one, what you are enduring presently is a forerunner of the end of your miseries… Offer everything up. Through your moral and physical sufferings you are atoning and earning. In a short while, I will ask you for more, for I want to purify you more. Show Me your love by accepting. You now know for whom to pray. This is why I confide these souls to you. I must have them. You will have much to suffer.

Remember that a single soul was bought by the blood of a God. As for what is going on within you, to overcome this temptation that has been pursuing you for many days, ask your director for permission to take important measures to appease it. He will tell you how to stay pure. Open wide the secret door of your soul to him. Trust him. He is taking My place near you. I am expecting a lot from you, and he knows this. Go without fear. I repeat: he understands you, for he has suffered a lot. Allow him to work in your soul as if it were Me.

Walk on, my little one. Don’t look back. Your past no longer exists. The time has come to find Me, the future to possess Me.”

− Mimi: “Poor human nature that is continually worried! Help me, please, in this struggle! I can’t go on! My God, I don’t want to lose You. My Beloved, where are You? You know that I love You.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, do you hear my cry? Come quickly, I need You. I take refuge in Your arms. Let me rest  a little on Your heart, You who are the refuge of sinners, the comforter of the afflicted. I come to You with confidence and love. After all, I am still Your child who loves you. 

I will go to my director and tell him about my temptations, and this will allow me to make an act of humility.

– Jesus: “My little one, do you go to the doctor when you are well? Don’t forget that your director is the doctor of your soul. If you want to get over your illness, tell him everything and be very obedient.”

Saturday 27 February 1954

– Mimi: “How disturbed I was by the devil who had borrowed Your voice, and even Your words. He was suggesting that I do certain things. I didn’t know what to do. I no longer knew what was true. Was it You, my Beloved or the other one? So I consulted my director. I exposed to him the situation and he told me it was the devil who wanted to trouble me. How I hate this liar, the devil!

I was happy to hear such encouraging words from my director. He helped me understand once more Your goodness, Your mercy towards me. How I would like to pray to You, to love You the way he does. This struggle isn’t over. 

My Beloved, I believe that You are within me. Increase my confidence and love. I am terribly tired. I am suffering a lot. What consoles me is that I am certain that my sufferings, united to Yours, are not useless, and are agreeable to God because I am doing His Holy Will. This gives me courage to continue the struggle, and follow the path leading to heaven. I know that You love me. I want to walk by Your side. With You, I want to save many souls. Keep me in Your arms. Without You I can do nothing.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect me, guide me as Your child.”

Sunday 28 February 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, how I love You! I offer You my whole day! I am suffering a lot. I thank You for this suffering for with You it is meritorious. I also want to atone for my sins and for those of poor souls.”

I was planning on visiting You at the monstrance altar for the 40 hour devotions. I wanted to offer You some holy hours of love, adoration, reparation, requests and thanksgiving. But finally I made my holy hours at home in another manner. A visit from a cousin with her little girl. How patient I had to be in order not to appear disappointed. I accepted Your Holy Will. I told myself: I’ll go tonight. Finally, I had to babysit the two youngest. I was so tired… but for You, my Beloved, I accepted Your will, not mine. I couldn’t let these dear little ones notice that I was disappointed. Teach me to be generous! 

Thank You for Your help, my Beloved. I had the necessary patience with the little ones. They seemed happy as they listened to stories. I can still hear them saying: more! more! Funny! This lasted two hours, while I played with them. I could imagine You as a child. I couldn’t refuse You anything. I could see You in these little ones. In spite of it all, I was happy to spend the evening with them, and with You. I cannot write as I would like. It is very late.”

Till tomorrow!

As for the holy hours, I plan to make up for them soon.

Monday 1 March 1954

− Mimi: “My Beloved, I would have liked to receive You this morning, but I was too sick. I am suffering! May Your Holy Will be done now and forever, my Beloved. Give me the strength to do my work.”

I come to You, my Love, to take refuge. I would have liked to lie down a little to get my strength back. Impossible, for I would worry my poor mom. So, it is near You that I come to rest a little. The devil is constantly on my heels, my Beloved. Increase my faith, my confidence in Your love for me. I found on my path some little crosses made of straw or pine branches.”

– Jesus: “My little one, don’t worry. The road that leads to heaven is filled with these little crosses. I beg you, don’t stop. What impresses you is to see the cross before you here and there. But if you were rather impressed by My cross, you would not offend Me. See how weak you are, poor little one! If I didn’t uphold you, you would easily fall.” 

– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved. I recognize Your goodness, Your infinite Mercy. You who know everything, look into the depth of my soul. In spite of my weaknesses, I love You, I trust in You, I expect everything from You, I place all my hope in You. You are the Master of heaven and earth.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, I just learned that my little P. is in danger of dying. I place him in Your motherly hands. Have pity on his poor mother. However, may Your Holy Will be done. I ask if You please, for the parents, confidence, strength, courage, resignation in accepting this trial as good christians.”

Tuesday 2 March 1954

– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved. I offer You my whole day. I accept with love all that You will ask of me. Increase my patience with the same trial that has been lasting for 8 days.”

I was getting ready to write, but I had to babysit the four little ones. I accepted with pleasure, for I wanted to give the little mother the chance to visit her dear little one who is dying in the hospital. Visit at the church with the little ones. How great is their trust. The little one who is 3 or 4 said to me: “P. will heal because I prayed a lot and asked the Blessed Virgin.”

I said to myself that this little one was right. We must go to Jesus through His Mother. I am sure that the prayer of the little one, who is so pure, will be granted. However, may Your Holy Will be done.” 

− Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, give me the strength and courage to resist this temptation. The devil wants to win. Everything is going badly. 

My Beloved, I trust in You. I give You all my problems. I am suffering but I love You! During the recitation of the rosary, I suffered a lot. But, no matter, this suffering is now Yours, since You asked me to offer it. Yes, I offer You everything in atonement for my sins, all kinds of sins being committed during Carnaval time. My Beloved, I ask myself what I could offer You more? Thank You! You made the choice for me. I accept it with love.”

Wednesday 3 March 1954

– Mimi: “I don’t want to lose You. I am weak. With Your presence in me, increase my confidence. Give me the courage I need to fight my enemy. Without You I can do nothing.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, Refuge of sinners, keep me close to Your motherly heart. Protect your child who is struggling and weeping at this moment. My cross is so heavy to carry. Help me! I sought strength from My Beloved in His sacrament of love.”

Thursday 4 March 1954

– Mimi: Great temptation against faith.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am looking for some rest near You.The devil is still near me. The temptation is getting worse. What can I do? Should I tell my director? Of course not, says my enemy.”

– Satan: “Don’t discourage him for so little. After all, he tells you himself that there is no sin in this temptation. You see that I am right. When you will be judged, he will hold you responsible for the time you wasted about all your nonesense.”

– Jesus: “My poor little one! Go with confidence and humility to your director. Tell him about your temptations. Tell him everything. Let him be the judge. Since he represents Me, he will accept with patience and be indulgent to all souls who come to him with sincerity and confidence. Go, My little one! Do not fear! I give you My hand. My Divine Mother will accompany you.”

Friday 5 March 1954

− Mimi: “My Beloved, how anxious I am to receive You.” 

My Gentle Mother of heaven, lend me Your heart to receive my Beloved. I need You so much at this moment. Why is my enemy always near me? He doesn’t stop suggesting all kinds of doubts against faith, against God’s infinite mercy. How this situation makes me suffer! 

I don’t stop repeating that I love You, that I believe in spite of the state I am in.”

After communion, I exposed to Him my great weakness, my fears of losing Him through sin.

− Mimi: “You know how I want to love You, serve You as You deserve. Why is my heart so cold? However, my Beloved, I accept Your Holy Will and not mine, now and forever. If You want me to remain in this spiritual aridity, I accept it with resignation, with love. However, do not abandon me.”

Saturday 6 March 1954

– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved! I give You my day. I am suffering a lot. I can hardly walk. However, I did my chores as usual but with a lot of difficulty. Thank You, my Beloved! Mom doesn’t seem to notice that I am suffering.

My Beloved, please help me. My enemy is after me again. The struggle is beginning again. Help me overcome this temptation and to remain pure. I don’t trust myself. I am weak as You know. I cannot hide anything from You. Recognizing my weakness, I can do nothing without You and I expect everything from You. I do not ask You to remove this temptation nor to lighten my cross. I only ask You to help me accept Your Holy Will in all things to give glory to God.”

                                                                                                

Sunday 7 March 1954

− Mimi: “The storm is raging, my Beloved. Help me! Give me the necessary strength not to give in to this temptation. I trust in You.”

– Jesus: “Yes, My poor little one, I am with you during this storm! My poor little one, you remind Me of Peter in the boat during the storm. Why do you tremble? Why do you let yourself be distracted by your enemy? If I were not there, what would you do? I cannot remove from you this cross for I love you. I want you to be all Mine.

You will have another great trial, but be courageous and faithful in My service. I want to purify you. Let Me work in your soul. Let Me be free to do what I want. I am beginning today to clean your soul for I want it to experience the effects of My Resurrection and of My Love. Together, we will give thanks to My Father.”

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven! Give me the necessary strength and courage to follow Your Gentle Jesus like You followed Him on the road to calvary. Teach me to give my Fiat each day.”

Saturday 20 March 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, give me the strength to get up and to undertake a good day’s work. I am suffering a lot. I don’t want mom to notice this suffering. I can hardly walk, so great is the pain at certain moments. The pain becomes so intense that I cannot move and for a few moments I cannot budge. This is when I think of You, my Beloved. I can see You nailed to the cross for several hours, enduring everything out of love for me. How could I not accept to follow You, to carry my cross in atonement for my sins?”

The devil is on my heels once again. How he would like to discourage me! He suggests temptations against faith, saying:

− Satan: “See what He has done to you, now that you have given Him everything. He leaves you alone, He abandons you. You can see for yourself. Open your eyes and look at yourself. What is there left of you? Your soul is already lost through sin! What has He done with your freedom? He is constantly threatening you. You believe that He hears your prayers! When you ask His forgiveness! He doesn’t need your pleas. He prefers to rest in His heaven and listen to the angels sing rather than hear your complaints, for He can no longer do anything for you. Your sins are too numerous, and you are mine for I have already taken over your soul. 

He is not that powerful. He has a lot of difficulty in hanging on to a soul, and it is so easy for me, for I give everything, I give freedom. Souls can enjoy themselves for they do not live in constant fear.”

– Mimi: I did not want to write anymore. Writing this makes me suffer too much. Out of obedience, I opened the door of my inner self:

− Mimi: “My Beloved! Look at the mess! Help me please! My God, I want to offer more for my director: R.Fr. Gamache.” 

To submit myself to the Holy Will of God, I accept with love and resignation the state I am in. To give me courage for I was suffering so much and the devil wouldn’t stop tormenting me, I took my crucifix in my hand and the little statue of the Blessed Virgin in the other. With both hands tied by my two loves, I could offer more to God and chase my enemy away.

How I felt small in His powerful arms! I love Him so and would like to love Him more. I would like to love Him for the world and I would like everyone to love Him, especially the poor sinners.

I know from experience what we lose in losing Him… and what advantage it is to be taken care of by His infinite Mother. I abandon myself to Him without reservation. I throw myself into His arms. 

My God, come to my aid. Holy Spirit, strengthen me.

 Wednesday 24 March 1954

– Mimi: I was watching a parade go by. How beautiful! There was a lot of discipline.

– Jesus: “My little one, My celestial army is made up of chosen ones. I am the general. On earth, it is the same. Your director is the leader; you are a simple soldier. I make plans. I indicate the road that leads to your goal, and how to overcome the enemy.

Your director accepts My plans according to My Will, My Cross. He transmits them to you. Being a simple foot soldier, you only have to obey and follow orders from your superiors in order to be victorious and ready to engage once again in the struggle. My dear little one, don’t forget that you are to die a victim of My love.”

Thursday 25 March 1954

− Mimi: “Thank You for so much goodness. Thank You, my Gengle Mother of heaven for accepting to become my Mother.”

– Jesus: “Don’t forget that We are a team, your director, I and you. My little one, you have worked, offered and prayed together. But, for a better purification and more merit, I allowed this trial so that you could suffer together, one because of the other, just as I suffered because of you.” 

– Mimi: There was a misunderstanding between my director and me, and I was at fault.

Friday 26 March 1954

− Mimi: “My enemy had borrowed Your voice. I was so upset.”

– Jesus: “My little girl, if you had payed attention, you would have seen the difference. Think of it! When I speak to you, don’t I have the habit of calling you My little girl, or My poor little one? But I never say: listen to your God who speaks! From now on, be prudent and more attentive to My voice.”

Saturday 27 March 1954

− Mimi: “My Beloved, how I would like to be learned! How I would like to know all sciences so that I might speak better to You, give homage to You in order to write about all Your goodness.

My Beloved, see my poverty. See my ignorance. Everything in me is a mess. However, I give thanks to You for the degree of love You give me, and with Your help, I want it to grow.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, do you think there is a special language to speak to Me about love and trust? Don’t be shy to speak to Me. I understand everything. With the learned, I give thanks to My Father. With the ignorant, I inspire them and teach them. With children I babble. With little ones, the humble, I joyfully accept them, and comfort them with their language of pure love. I understand the state of your soul and accept everything.”

Saturday 3 April 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, help me, please. I spat a few drops of blood. I am suffering a lot but I will remain silent about this.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t worry!| It is not a sign of the end. Prepare yourself.”

– Mimi: I had begun a small retreat. The devil said:

– Satan: “Why make a general review of your life? Why disturb your director, he is very busy?”

Tuesday 6 April 1954

– Mimi: “I was feeling weak and the devil wanted to take advantage, to discourage me. I went to see my director to tell him about my doubts and temptations. He advised me to go to You fully confident… Here I am, my Beloved.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, come close to Me with confidence and love. I want more… With the permission of your director, mortify your body in order to better understand what I endured out of love for you. In your examination of conscience, do not look so much for the number of sins. I know them. Look rather for the lack of confidence in My Merciful Love.”

– Mimi: “With the permission of my director, I offer You what You asked. Help me! How weak is human nature! Poor human nature! Give me the strength to accomplish Your Holy Will. How slow I am in mortifying my body and so prompt to flatter this same body that some day will turn to dust.”

Thursday 8 April 1954

− Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved, for the grace I received today. With the permission of my director, I was able to make a general review of my life, my poor life. I came to you with the repentance of Mary Magdelene, with her love, her confidence.

I had asked my Gentle Mother of heaven to be near me, to give me Her hand. I also asked the Holy Spirit to enlighten me, to uphold me. Yes, my Beloved, I finally understood what you must have suffered because of me but especially my lack of confidence, after all You did for me, after so many signs of Your love.

I ask Your forgiveness, my Love. I regret everything. Yes, I want to atone, to prove to You my love, my repentance. I offer myself to You forever and out of love, I want to follow You, to walk at Your side, in order to become, some day, Your little spouse, Your little host of love that You will immolate as You please. I also accept to share Your sufferings endured during Your Passion.

My Beloved, increase many spiritual graces for my director. He is doing a lot for my soul. If I am now able to lift up my eyes towards You, I owe it to him. Like him, I want to do a lot of good. I want to save souls and I count on Our team work. I hope in You for everything. I expect everything from Your divine hand, Your goodness, Your omnipotence, Your love. Without You I can do nothing. With You I can do anything.”

Friday 9 April 1954

I was in the shed working. He often speaks to me in this place.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, why do You speak to me so often in this place. It doesn’t seem suitable to You, my Beloved?”

− Jesus: “My dear little one, didn’t I choose a stable in which to be born and to manifest my love? Don’t I have the right to choose the shed to give birth to My love within you, to speak to you without any witnesses? Solitude pleases Me so much?”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, another struggle! Help me please! I am suffering! The devil doesn’t stop saying:

− Satan: “You try telling Him each day that you love Him, that you accept in all things His Holy Will, that you carry your cross each day with resignation and love. In doing so, you are only increasing your sinfulness for you know very well that it is the contrary. You only have to look at your life to convince yourself.”

− Jesus: “My poor little one, I am always there, anyway. I am within you. By all means do not doubt My presence in you. Why complain? You are not the only one to suffer! For the last three days, your director also has been suffering. He is experiencing a terrible trial. Help him with your prayers and sacrifices. Share with him Our encounter. It is through suffering that I embrace My friends. He is one of them.

I allow this so that Our team work may be complete. He must offer up and work, you must suffer and pray, and I take care of the rest.

Think about the salvation of souls. They cost dearly. How many are lost each day! This is why I ask your help in saving souls, to complete My passion at the price of your very lives.”

− Mimi: “I shared with my director Our encounter. I was uncomfortable for I thought I was committing an indiscretion concerning his trials. But he reassured me saying: “To be sure, I am undergoing a great trial” and repeating the same words that You said: “You see! You are not the only one suffering. I also have my share!” I was so moved that I couldn’t reply. This isn’t the first time that he says the same words as You.”

Saturday 10 April 1954

– Mimi: Great temptation against faith! I am suffering a lot! The devil wants to discourage me. I waited one hour before going to confession. There were many people. The devil wanted me to leave. He said: “Leave room to others. Be charitable!” or again: “My sacrament of penance is not for you. My mercy has limits and the confession you intend to make is void.”

− Mimi: “My Beloved! I trust in You! Please help me!”

– Jesus: “My poor little one. Go see your director. Tell him everything. I know what you are suffering. Offer these temptations in atonement for your sins and for merit. Pray for the souls who are waiting to make their confession so that they may make a good confession. Through your physical sufferings, you will give strength and patience to the confessor. Help your director through your prayers. He is very tired. He is suffering. Do not forsake him in his work. Don’t forget the team work for souls.”

− Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved! Thank You, my Gentle Mother of heaven! I finally went to confession to my director. How he understands the state of my soul! He encourages me to go and take refuge in You.  Here I am, my Beloved. Accept my good will and my little sacrifices for souls.

How I would like to work more and with more love for souls. Following the example of my director and upon his advice that I want to put into practice, I want to atone and save souls in order to offer them to You.

I went to 5 o’clock mass and received communion. I was so happy to receive You. I need You badly. Without You I can do nothing. Help me! It is near You that I restore my strength.”

Sunday 11 April 1954

– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved. I am Yours. I offer myself today to work with You for the salvation of souls.”

I wanted to write more but I had to babysit 4 little ones. I was happy to do Your Holy Will. After their departure, I was able to make a holy hour.”

Monday 12 April 1954 – Holy Week

− Mimi: “I went to church to attend Mass but because of a misunderstanding I did not receive communion. How sad I was! I was so looking forward to receiving You.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, think of the sorrow I experience when I am there waiting and you do not come.”

− Mimi: “While ironing, I was listening on the radio to the french version of the Seven Last Words of Christ. How the devil takes advantage to put doubts in my soul! My Beloved, where are You? 

My Gentle Mother of heaven, keep me close to Your motherly heart! Protect Your child in need.”

− Mary: “My little one! Think about souls…”

Wednesday 14 April 1954

– Mimi: After going to confession to my director, I did my penance. I wanted to leave for I had work to do.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, stay near Me a little longer. Pray for poor sinners. Isn’t it marvellous? It isn’t often that We are able to work all three of us in the same place. I, in the Tabernacle, I wait. In the confessional, your director is working and offers Me souls. You, in the church between Us, you are suffering and praying for all these souls to save as many as possible.

– Mimi: “How Our little team must please God! To glorify God I want to work even more. With permission from my director, I will begin to do what You ask of me for souls. I must save as many souls as possible. I lost so many of them in the past. I want to repair. I want to console You to help You forget all my indifference of the past and my daily omissions.”

Holy Thursday 15 April 1954

− Mimi: “5 o’clock. I am at Your disposal. I want to work with You and please You. 

At church, I was watching my director distribute Holy Communion. He made me think of the Good Shepherd feeding his sheep. How strong he is after so much fatigue! His example gives me courage. I want to work all the more for souls.

Visit to the monstrance altar.

− Mimi: “My Beloved, I prostrate myself before You to give You thanks and all the homage You deserve… You, Master of heaven and earth, my God and my All. I want to adore You like the angels in heaven, pray to You like the Saints. 

Help me, my Gentle Mother of heaven, to love God and remain faithful to Him.”

Good Friday 16 April 1954

– Mimi: A memorable day for me.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I would like to offer You what You ask of me, but circumstances oblige me to take other means. Finally, I am sharing the 6^th wound of Your left shoulder. I often ask myself why You carried Your cross for a longer time on Your left shoulder?”

− Jesus: “My dear little one, I carried My cross for a longer time on my left shoulder because, in spite of My sufferings, I wanted to free my right hand in order to bless one more time My people whom I loved so much. Do you recognize in this gesture My love for souls? My dear little one, show Me your love by accepting everything. Prostrate yourself before My cross and remain in this position while making the way of the cross for I want to share with you My sufferings.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, what more do You want me to do?”

– Jesus: “My little one, take your crucifix, place it near your elbow and press hard. Keep it there until the end of your way of the cross. I will do the rest.”

– Mimi: All of a sudden, I saw the Holy Shroud, but there was like a veil that covered its face. I could not distinguish clearly the features. This barely lasted a few seconds, but, during the way of the cross, this happened several times.

− Mimi: “I don’t know whether it is my imagination, but all that I know is that I will keep hidden in my heart, Your gentle veiled features, as a treasure, as my only support, my consolation, my strength, ô Adorable Face of my Beloved. I love You.”

Then there were physical sufferings. Every part of my body was affected.

− Mimi: “My God, please help me! The pain is increasing more and more and all my limbs are trembling. I don’t know what is happening. I am frightened and I am weeping. I can’t take any more.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t leave Me. Keep looking at Me. Your sufferings are nothing compared to what I endured out of love for you during My Passion and think about this out of love.

I can tell you that I died of love. This is why I was telling you the other day that in accepting to become My spouse, you would have a lot to suffer. You will experience like Myself total abandonment, and will die a victim of My love. I know very well that you do not understand everything, that you do not understand the importance of My words. This is why My Beloved Mother will protect you in a special way and will keep you under Her protection. 

She knows my plans for you, My dear little one, so weak and so little. Yes, my dear little one, later, much later, you will understand everything. But for now, trust Me, follow Me in My passion, carry with love your daily cross to please Me and to glorify My Father. 

At this moment, I offer you with Myself to My Father, for you are taking part in My sufferings with love and entire submission to My will. I know that you have been faithful in following Me especially during this week. I helped you, for, by yourself, you are capable of nothing. I knew you were weak. I often placed you on My shoulder as My little wounded lamb. I didn’t want to lose you, for you are so frail.Your poor human nature is still there. If I had not helped you, you would have fled long ago. It is My love that sustains you. You felt it this afternoon.”

− Mimi: One hour of prostration. My limbs are numb. I am suffering. The least little movement I make causes me pain. The pain on my left shoulder makes me suffer more.

− Mimi: “It isn’t much compared to Your Blood shed out of love for souls. I unite my sufferings to Yours for the salvation of souls. I accept to do Your Holy Will and I am happy to do so for, I repeat, I wish some day to become Your little host of love that You will immolate each day.”

– Jesus: “My little one, go see your director and tell him everything. Why be reticent with him. This wounds Me greatly, for it is I who chose him for you so that he may guide you in the mission I want to entrust you. Tell him everything!”

− Mimi: “I had already bought a ring. I was waiting for the day when He would tell me to have it blessed and to wear it as a sign of Our union. I was reticent to talk about it.”

– Jesus: “My poor little one, why are you so shy with him? Be careful lest this shyness turn into pride! Be humble and transparent with him. Speak to him with confidence. Tell him everything. If everything that is happening to you came from you, you would have reason to fear being discovered. But, on the contrary, if it is I who am working in you and inspiring you, why should you be afraid? Am I not the Truth? My little one, make an act of humility. Go to your director and tell him everything.

I want him to bless this ring in My name in memory of Our union of this afternoon: union first of all of love in suffering, of love of God for His little creature, of the union of two hearts with the same ideal: souls. The union of two hearts filled with love for one another and from now on who will be one.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, my happiness is so great! I shall never forget this beautiful day. I shared our encounter with my director and with his permission I shall do as You wish.

I have been desiring this union for a long time, my Love. I, so little, so imperfect, full of misery! You wish to make me Your little spouse! How great is Your mercy and Your love is immense for poor souls, especially like mine. I can refuse You nothing. I cannot resist Your call. Ô infinite Love, my unique hope, my happiness is so great! Your caresses are so soft! Only Divine Love can give the soul such joy, in spite of sufferings. Thank You, Thank You my Beloved.

My director has blessed my ring in Your name. In accepting this ring, I become Your little spouse. From this moment, I accept with love Your Holy Will. I accept to follow You on the road of suffering. With You, I wish to carry my cross each day, with an entire submission to the will of God.

I accept what You expect from me on this earth and later in heaven, for I am confident that Our union will be completed in heaven for eternity where I will never leave You. How anxious I am to see You in all Your glory to adore You, to show You my love, to cover Your forehead with kisses. When will this day arrive? I miss You so when I am far from You. When will You come and get Your little spouse? Time seems to stand still! However, I submit myself to Your Holy Will. I no longer want to waste the time you give me to atone, to purify myself, to merit. Yes, I want to save as many souls as possible in order to offer them to You. To do this, I need You, Your help. I want to accomplish my team work properly in order to reach my goal.”

− Jesus: “My dear little one, you will endure criticism, questions of all kinds, even slander, calumnies concerning this blessed ring you are wearing. Don’t let this discourage you. You will be tempted to remove it, perhaps. When this day arrives, remember Our union, Our commitment before My Father. Remember Good Friday during which you are so happy to become My little spouse. This is why I want you to wear this ring for the greatest benefit of your soul. You will be reminded of your duty as the spouse of Christ, your vow, your mission. I want you to be all Mine. I beg you, in atonement for your sins and to please Me, remain silent before all the questions we will ask you concerning this ring you are wearing. Our union must remain hidden from the world except your director. Tell Me you will remain faithful to your promise. Give Me a proof of your love by keeping silent. Ask My Beloved Mother to help you.”

− Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me to remain silent, in reverence. Help me keep secret Our union. Teach me to remain humble and submissive to God in all things. Yes, I want to keep my Beloved Spouse hidden in me. I will keep Him as a Treasure.”

Holy Saturday 17 April 1954

− Mimi: “My Beloved, I need You.”

I was sad and I asked Him: Why is Your adorable face veiled?”

− Jesus: “My little one, the veil that covers My features are your sins, your imperfections, your lack of trust.”

− Mimi: For Easter, I would like to wear my straw hat. It’s such a beautiful day.

− Jesus: “No, My dear little one! I do not want you to.”

− Mimi: “But Lord my God, there is no harm done.”

− Jesus: “I know very well that there is no harm done, but it pleases your vanity. Offer me this sacrifice in atonement for your sins of vanity, pride. Think of My adornment of Good Friday! Think of my crown of thorns!”

− Mimi: I was looking at taffy. How anxious I am to eat some at Easter.

− Jesus: “No, My little one! Offer Me this sacrifrice. Do not take any sweets, especially chocolate. Offer this to Me to atone for your gluttony. 

How many people celebrate this Feast of My Resurrection by committing excesses of all kinds, under the pretext that Lent is over. How many think of thanking Me for saving them and opening the gates of heaven? Remember yesterday Our union. Isn’t it first of all a union of love and suffering?”

− Mimi: “My Beloved, do You want to please me? Allow, if it is Your Holy Will, my director, tomorrow, to say mass in a small chapel. I would like to celebrate this beautiful event together.”

I had removed my ring. I was afraid of being questioned.

– Jesus: “My little one, why do you not wear your ring that is blessed? Are you really My spouse? Why are you afraid of criticisms? Remember you, yourself, are often critical for nothing!

My little one, to all questions and criticisms, answer with silence. Offer this to make amends for your criticisms, slander and calomnies. Think about My silence in the presence of your sins. Think of My silence before Pilate! I want you totally pure, beautiful. This is why I ask of you a lot to purify your past, your present. Don’t forget what you have accepted in becoming My spouse. Now that you have given yourself to Me and that I am yours, let us work together for souls, for the glory of My Father.” 

18 April 1954. Easter

– Mimi: “My Father, let us give thanks together for my resurrection in following the right way. It is to you that I owe this great happiness, besides many others. I hope that your heart as a priest will be appeased at the thought that I do not ever want to leave Him, and always accept His Holy Will. Now that I have placed myself into His divine arms, nothing else matters.”

This morning, during Holy Mass, He made me understand the importance of suffering and the necessity of the cross in my life.

– Jesus: “Do not forget, My dear little spouse that Our union is first of all a union of love through suffering and an entire submission to the Holy Will of My Father.”

– Mimi: “Ô my God! I thank You for fulfilling the wishes of Your child. For the last four years, I have been constantly working with my director towards the realization of my ideal, that of saving souls with You. This is why I cannot refuse You anything after so many signs of love. Since I am never satisfied, I had been looking forward to Our union for a long time. Now, more than ever! Now, my desire is even greater: to possess You for all eternity! To see You face to face! To adore You, pray and give thanks to You for so much love.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, if you only knew the extent of My love for you. Why be shy with Me? You call Me your Beloved. Am I not more to you since Good Friday? Think about Our union. From now on, when you want to please Me, call Me your Beloved Spouse. 

My dear little one, I want to tell you a secret. This morning, I showed Myself to your director by giving him a visible sign of My love for him.”

Easter Sunday  18 April 1954

– Mimi: “How Divine Love is transforming my soul! In the past, I once was near a friend and my heart was pounding in his presence. Now, my Beloved Spouse, in Your presence, not only is my heart beating fast but it seems to be growing in size. Only Divine Love can do such a thing and give joy, happiness, peace and security even in suffering. Now that You are all mine as my Spouse, I am always anxious to talk to You, to pray and consult You about Our projects, to show You my love.

Since I know that We are working together, I do my best to do my work well, to keep my soul in order, to please You, and to be agreeable to God. As a little mother, I think about and pray for my children (souls). I always want to be submitted to Your Holy Will for the greater glory of God. I am so happy! I can’t stop thanking You! I give thanks to God the Father for being so good to me.

Ô Holy Spirit, enlighten me! I need Your enlightenment to know my God.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, obtain for me the gift of love for Your Gentle Jesus, for the Blessed Trinity! I want to love so much more. I wish to know You better in order to serve and love You better. I want to live only for Him.

       

Monday 19 April 1954

– Mimi: My duty obliges me to go shopping.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am taking You with me shopping. 

He doesn’t leave me in spite of the crowd. I am thinking of Him. 

– Mimi: “I offer You acts of love for each person present; acts of perfect contrition for souls in need.”

Friday 23 April 1954

– Mimi: I removed my ring for I was afraid of questions and criticism from certain members of my family.

– Jesus: “My poor little one, what would you say if, at the moment of your death, I were afraid of questions and criticisms concerning Our union? My dear little one, do you think that if you remained faithful to Me, I will blush when I will present you to My Father as my spouse before My Heavenly Court? You offend Me a lot by acting this way. Think a little, My dear little one, when I chose you as my spouse, was I ashamed of you? Yet, I would have had reason to be, for you know what you were!

In My infinite mercy and My love for you, I closed my eyes and opened My heart to you. My dear little one, promise Me never to remove this blessed ring. Remind yourself of your commitment, of My love for you.

My dear little spouse, to repair this fault, kiss often with respect this blessed ring. Think about Our union of love and suffering.”

– Mimi: “I recognize, My Beloved, that I was weak and in doing this, I was like Saint Peter. I have been Your spouse for such a short time and I was already beginning to abandon You, to forget Our promise. How guilty I feel!

I sincerely ask Your forgiveness and promise You to wear this blessed ring in spite of all obstacles. And when I will appear before You as a spouse, You will see that my hands are empty, for I shall have given away everything. But there will always be this blessed ring that will be the sign of my fidelity, my infinite love, ô my God. I ask Your forgiveness and give You a gentle kiss to help You forget my weakness in Your service.”

Saturday 24 April 1954

– Mimi: I had such a headache! I could hardly open my eyes. My sight was leaving me.

– Mimi: “My Beloved! How I would like to see the stations of the cross more clearly.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t be sad! Some day, you will contemplate Me. You will see Me in all My splendor. Offer Me this. My gaze was once veiled by blood, sin, your sins. Look at Me for now with the eyes of faith. I will be satisfied. My poor little one, know that I love you.”

Sunday 25 April 1954

Children’s confirmation. 

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, it is near You that I weep as I think about all the sorrow I caused You. When I presented myself to receive this beautiful sacrament, I can still see myself. How my little soul was troubled! I am suffering too much! I need to cry! It is near Your Motherly heart that I take refuge to tell You all about my sadness, my sorrow, my repentance.”

– Mary: “My dear little one, don’t hesitate to cry in My arms. A mother always understands the heart of her child, especially when she is suffering. Each tear is like a precious pearl you place in My hands. I accept all of them and place them at the feet of God. What beautiful gems! These tears have become precious pearls by the grace of God. Pearls of love, of repentance, of forgiveness, of confidence.

Remember Good Friday when you accepted to become the spouse of My Beloved Son, when you accepted to offer yourself with Him to God the Father to accomplish His Holy Will in all things. Be consoled, for on this beautiful day, We considered the sincerity of your heart and all the love it had for Us. You could not give us a better sign of your love, your repentance, your confidence. What joy for My Motherly heart to Her child once again back among Us as on the day of her baptism.

How happy We were! This happiness is renewed each time you offer yourself with My Son to God. Each time you accept to follow Him on the road of His Passion. Each time that you humble yourself before Us, in front of your neighbor. Each time that you atone for your daily failures by acts of love, of contrition. Each time that you thank Us for all that We are doing for you. My happiness is great when I see you determined to reach your ideal in saving your brothers who are My children. How happy I am to see you each day at My feet honoring Me by reciting your rosary. Do not give up for you will obtain much. Remain faithful to Me, My little girl. Yes, little one. Remain little more and more, for it is easier for Me to hold you in My arms.”

Tuesday 27 April 1954

– Jesus: “My dear little one, why do you listen to the suggestions of the devil? I know more than you that you are not worthy of receiving communion. It is precisely because your soul is sick that you need a salutary remedy. You are in doubt? Come to Me! I am the Light. You are weak? Come to Me! I am your Strength! You are poor in virtue? Come to Me! I am Rich. I am the King of heaven and earth. Your soul needs a guaranteed refuge. Come into My heart! You need forgiveness? Come to Me! I am Infinite Mercy. You feel lonely? Come to Me in My sacrament of love. I will fulfill your desires. I am Goodness. My dear little one, remove from your life the “self” in you. I want you to be so humble. We are two from now on. Without Me, you are nothing.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is true that without You, I am nothing. I need something solid and lasting and it is in You that I will take refuge. In this Heart full of love. I had certain regrets, doubts concerning my vocation. I can’t understand it. There have been so many new things in my life, especially in the last 5 years.” 

– Jesus: “My dear little one, you don’t understand spiritual life because you are too withdrawn into yourself. You don’t understand My love because of the human element in you. You must die to all these things. You have become My spouse. Am I not the one who chose you? What more do you want? Isn’t it a beautiful vocation? To be the spouse of Christ?”

Saturday 1 May 1954

– Mimi: My first greeting goes to the Blessed Trinity by making the sign of the cross. I was preparing my communion.

– Mimi: “I beg You, my Gentle Mother of heaven, lend me Your heart to receive Your Gentle Jesus. I am so unworthy to receive Him. My sins are so numerous. It is my misery that allows me to approach You. In spite of everything, You love me, ô Infinite Goodness, ô Divine Love. Purify my souls! I allow You to do with me what You will. I give myself entirely to You.” 

My enemy tells me:

− Satan: “You recognize yourself that you are unworthy of receiving Him and you do so anyhow! Do you still think you are worthy of receiving Him?”

– Mimi: “The interior struggle is beginning. My Beloved Spouse! Come to my aid! I believe, I adore You and love You! My Gentle Mother of heaven, help me! See your child who is struggling. My God! Keep my spirit free to love You sincerely and faithfully in spite of the spiritual aridity in which I am.”

– Jesus: “My little one, make the way of the cross on your knees.”

– Mimi: But shyness has taken hold of me for there are many people around!

– Jesus: “My poor little one, why are you shy? Was I ashamed during My Passion and this cross was your sins? You want to follow Me but you remain at a distance. This saddens Me a lot My poor little one. Remember Good Friday when you were so happy to share a little of My sufferings! It is not only once a year that I give My life! My Passion is continual. Yes, I need souls! There are so many who are lost each day.”

– Mimi: “I told my director about my temptations, how I felt small, how I was ashamed of my conduct towards You. My director opened my eyes once more by showing me my despicable conduct towards You. Then, he spoke to me about Your infinite love for me, all the favors I received, especially in the last four years. He reminded me of my commitments during Holy Week, of my role as spouse of Christ. How good he is to help me love You. Thank You for giving me a director with so much insight.

My Beloved, I ask Your sincere forgiveness. How ungrateful and weak I was in Your service. I am sorry for having offended You. Yes, I want to repair by accepting everything out of love for You. I will make the way of the cross on my knees in atonement for my faults and in union with Your sufferings.

I then recited my rosary. But my rosary was knotted, the beads were entangled. I was unable to undo the knots without breaking the chain. My sorrow was great. I asked my Gentle Mother of heaven to help me straighen out my rosary without breaking it, but to no avail. The more I tried, the more the chain got entangled. But suddenly I thought of my director who told me often to speak to my Gentle Mother of heaven as a child speaks to her mother, with confidence and simplicity. So I asked Her: “Mother! Mother! Look at my rosary! Will You please fix it, please?” 

Then, I placed it on my knees. I was seated and facing the statue of the Blessed Virgin. I couldn’t do anything else. But, suddenly, I felt my rosary between my fingers and to my great surprise, it was untangled. I was so happy. I was so moved that I was weeping with joy. I knelt down saying to Her:

– Mimi: “Thank You, thank You my Gentle Mother of heaven.”

At that moment, I was invaded by a deep feeling of peace and confidence. I was certain that all the graces I would ask for that were spiritual, I would obtain through Mary by remaining little, simple as a child, for, if She is able to untangle the beads of my rosary without human help, She was more powerful in breaking the chains with which the devil imprisons souls through sin. 

I am certain that in invoking Her with humility and the simplicity of a child, I will obtain everything, for I am convinced of it after so many signs of Her love. This gives me the courage to persevere in prayer and strength to follow Him closely by carrying my cross with love and resignation to His Holy Will. I know that Mary is constantly with me.

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me to prepare tomorrow’s communion. I am anxious to receive Him. 

My good Angel, watch over me. Ô Holy Spirit, strengthen my will, my spirit, so that I may remain open to Your inspirations.

My Beloved Spouse, come quickly for I need to share with You words of love. Before leaving You, allow me to kiss Your forehead. I love You! I give You my heart! Come and rest! I want to work for You with my Gentle Mother of heaven.

How I miss You, ô Infinite Love! My God, how I love You!”

Sunday 2 May 1954

– Mimi: “Good morning my Beloved. I offer You my day.”

− Mary: “My dear little one, you will have a lot to suffer during this month, for I need souls. They are purchased by sacrifices, prayer and “Hail Marys.”

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, at Your feet, Your child is asking You to help her. Give me the strength I lack. Yes, I accept with love and submission whatever you want to send me.

After so many signs of love, I cannot refuse my Beloved Spouse. Like You, my Gentle Mother of heaven, I want to remain very little, very humble in the arms of my Beloved and I also want to remain very submissive to the Holy Will of God. I so need to be forgiven. I don’t have a minute to lose. The little time I have left to live, I want to use it to love You, my Beloved and serve God.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me to know, to love Your Gentle Jesus. Teach me to pray, to always be submissive to the Holy Will of God. Like You, I want to give, each day, my Fiat.

Monday 3 May 1954

– Mimi: A dream troubled me for I was offending God. How sad I was! I was house cleaning and was wiping the floor.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, kiss the floor and during this time, recite the act of contrition in atonement for your sins.”

– Mimi: I didn’t know what to do, fearing that it was coming from my enemy.

– Jesus: “My poor little one, is your enemy in the habit of suggesting that you kneel, humiliate yourself before Me, repent for your sins? Go see your director so that he may pacify your soul that is still troubled. Trust him.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, watch over me during my sleep and protect me from sin, even while dreaming. I so want to remain pure and resemble Mary.”

                         Saturday 8 May 1954

 – Mimi:  I was ironing. During this time, I heard a voice tell me:

– Jesus: “Do the following: kiss the floor and prostrate yourself in a spirit of humility, in atonement for your sins.”

– Mimi:  I don’t have the time, and I don’t believe in this. I am filled with doubts. I suffer from this situation for I do not know where the truth lies. Then, the great temptations arrive: a distaste for prayer, and my enemy takes advantage of it to discourage me.

− Satan: “You are right in acting this way. First of all, as long as you are feeling this way (spiritual aridity), you have no merit so why tire yourself in prayer, in making the way of the cross, why receive communion? You are taking advantage of the sacrament of penance, you desecrate the host by receiving it and you know it. If you only knew the chastisement awaiting you! So, open your eyes, while there is still time. Are you not suffering with Him? Remember your past. You were certainly happier with me. I never reproach you anything, I respect what everyone wants, I do not impose myself. Now don’t go telling your director what I have just said. After all, it isn’t a crime to chat together.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, give me the courage to go see my director. He understands me and will help me in my struggle.”

My director scolded me on my conduct. (I deserved it). 

This is what he said: “The Good Lord is sad and so am I to see your attitude. He loves you very much, He sends you trials, temptations. This is how He treats His friends and you, you lack confidence. Why are you discouraged? He who has done so much for you! Think about the consolations on Easter, Good Friday. He hasn’t changed. He is always the same. But you are the one who has changed. Yes, Our Lord is sad and so am I. Why prefer listening to the devil who suggests to you all kind of lies instead of believing in Our Lord, in me who represents Him. Why not believe in us? You are going to promise me to recite your rosary near the statue of the Blessed Virgin in spite of the state you are in, in spite of all the temptations. As for myself, I will say the rosary for you. Together, let us go and pray.”

How moved I was when he told me: “You have no right to commit certain sins for you have made vows and moreover, you are the bride of Christ.”

How I was suffering! I could almost hear the same reproaches from my Beloved. I wanted to cry out my sorrow, my repentance, my shame for so much ingratitude towards my God, towards my Beloved, towards my Gentle Mother of heaven, towards the Holy Spirit, towards my director who has done so much for me.

My director asked me to say the following prayer: 

“My God, it’s I again before You with all my distress, my miseries. I ask Your sincere forgiveness for my lack of trust, You who are infinitely good. I ask Your forgiveness for having listened to the voice of the devil rather than listen to Your voice. 

You who are the Truth, but see my great weakness, have pity on me, My God. From now on, I want to love You and never refuse You anything. However, I can do nothing without You. I ask Your help.”

I had finished my rosary and wanted to leave.

– Jesus: “No, My dear little one, stay some more near Me. Pray some more! Your director is suffering a lot. He is offering more than his rosary for you. He wants so much to remove you from the hands of your enemy. He is doing all he can to save your soul. Be obedient and very grateful to him. Pray for him. He deserves it. His confident prayer to Us on your behalf will be answered.”

Sunday 9 May 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am tired of this situation. How I would like to rest a little so that I might put my soul in order.”

– Jesus: “My poor little one, you are doing like My Apostles. When I was in agony, they were resting. Poor human nature.”

Wednesday 12 May 1954

– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved! With You, I want to work for souls. I offer myself with You to God the Father at the outset of this day. I want to be sure of Your help, for without You I can do nothing. I expect everything from You.”

After my morning prayer, spiritual communion, meditation on confidence. I was trying to think about all that God had done for me during my whole life, especially in the last four years. 

– Mimi: “Out of gratitude, I offer You all my actions of love, perfect contrition, acts of humility. I do not want to refuse You anything, You who have given me everything out of love.”

In the afternoon. His call is becoming more pressing. I cannot resist.

– Mimi: “My Beloved Spouse, I am Yours. I beg You, Your embrace is too much for my poor human heart. How powerful and strong is Your love! How small I feel in Your divine arms.” 

Kneeling before the statue of the Sacred Heart, I kiss His feet and tell Him: 

– Mimi: “It is with respect that I approach You. I beg You, let me lament my sins like Mary Magdalene. I wish to have true contrition for my sins. 

Like Saint John, let me rest my head on Your shoulder so that I may hear the heartbeats of Your Divine Heart full of love for me, so little, so ungrateful at times! I sincerely ask Your forgiveness. I love You too much to displease You. Teach me to remain confident in moments of trials, spiritual aridity, temptations, darkness.

And when You will seem to be asleep or far from me, I beg You, increase my trust, grant me the grace never to doubt of Your presence in me. Give me each day Holy Perseverance. Grant me also the favor of not allowing myself to be distracted by the suggestions of the devil who is jealous for he knows that I hate him, that I do not want to sin and that with my director, I am working hard to correct my faults. 

The devil knows very well that since I became Your spouse, I wish to remain faithful. I wish to refuse You nothing, for with You I want to attain my ideal to give thanks to God and to show Him my gratitude for all that He has done for me.

Yes, I want to repair, atone. I want to accomplish the Holy Will of God. I want to accomplish well my team work in saving souls with You and my director who is working ceaselessly. How many times I let You work alone because I was too weak to follow You and in spite of all this, my Beloved, You continue to ask me to work for You. You wait for me patiently, lovingly. You lavish me with favors.  My Beloved Spouse, I want to remain faithful to You. Keep me near You! I am so weak.”

– Mimi: “In the church, I was looking at the decorations of the altar of the Blessed Virgin. I especially admired the red and white tulips. I was telling myself how I would like to be able to offer You beautiful flowers. I would like to do so every day.

If you like, my Gentle Mother of heaven, I will offer You the recitation of my rosary as a bouquet of flowers and each “Hail Mary” will represent a red tulip, a symbol of my heart and the “Glory be” will represent the white tulips, a symbol of purity. Would You please share this bouquet and offer it to God as a symbol of my love. This offering, coming directly from Your hands will be agreeable to Him.

My Beloved, what do You want from me? You want more! May Your Holy Will be done. I am suffering a lot. I can hardly breathe. My heart hurts so badly. This heart is Yours. Keep it forever! Thank You for allowing me to feel Your gentle presence during this suffering. This helps me carry my cross with love and resignation. It is quite true that We are more than one, now that I have become Your spouse.

Why do you wish me to tell everything to my director? That I open wide the secret door of my soul? I was so used to keep secret a small corner at the bottom of my soul to receive You, to receive Your secrets, Your love, Your requests, at times Your sorrows and, yes, I would take refuge there in moments of discouragement and look for comfort, strength and love. This little corner of my soul! How it was a witness to Our intimate moments, of Our perfect union in pure love and suffering! How many times it was a witness to the sharing of Our avowals. 

No human being could know what was going on between Us, not even my director. Like my Gentle Mother of heaven, I jealously kept like a treasure this little corner of my soul.”

– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, one day, I told you that I would ask you for more, that I would ask you for everything. The moment has come to open wide the secret door of your soul to your director, that he may penetrate it with the assurance of being at home. Allow him to work freely at the bottom of your heart and not on the surface. May he transform your little interior dwelling in order to embellish it and render it agreeable to God. Submit to him with humility. Trust him for he deserves it and he represents Me. My dear little one, think about it! Would you shut the door of your soul if I came with him to take possession of this secret little corner? Evidently not. So, not only is he with Me but I am in him. He represents Me. I give him complete power over your soul to direct it. Let him work freely. He is working for Me. As a priest, he has his membership card to work in souls, especially hardened sinners. You are one of them.

Don’t forget that everything has to be redone in you, many things must be corrected, uprooted, taught, cultivated and he alone can help you. I chose him for you. Thank Me often for this favor. If you have become My spouse, it is to him that you owe this great happiness. Out of gratitude, be obedient in all things.”

20 May 1954

– Mimi: “How dark it is in my interior dwelling! There is, however, a small ray of sun that comes to visit me at times. This little ray of sun is so good to me… do you know him?

The priest has the key of heavenly treasures. It is he who opens the door. He is the bursar of God, the administrator of His graces. I would rather say it this way: Father Gamache has the key of the hidden treasures of my soul. It is he who will open it wide. He is the bursar of God, the administrator of my soul. I count on him to open the gates of heaven. I am confident.

– Mimi: “It is for the director to penetrate into the little secret heart of my soul, like it is for the Holy Spirit to penetrate into the cenacle on the Sunday of Pentecost. I am certain that he is really the element of unity between You and me…”

Tuesday 1^st JuNE 1954

– Mimi: “My God, I offer You my heart. I also offer You all my pain, my sorrows. Today, I need a lot of patience. My Beloved, I offer myself to You completely. I am still suffering in my heart since Sunday when Your embrace was so strong. You know the pact we made together. I am so happy to be Your spouse, to work with You for souls.”

I was preparing the meal. Suddenly, He called me saying:

– Jesus: “Come and kiss My feet. Tell Me that you love Me.”

So I knelt and kissed the statue of the Sacred Heart saying:

– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is lovingly that I kiss Your divine feet that walked so much searching for me on the wrong road I had taken. My Beloved, I sincerely ask Your forgiveness for the sins of my whole life. How I want to atone, to make You forget my conduct so ungrateful, so despicable.

My Beloved, teach me how to love You. Grant me the gift of Divine Love. Increase in me the love for souls.”

A visit to my director is always comforting to me. There still exists, however, a certain shyness. This makes me suffer a lot.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, help me be more open to my director, to open wide the secret door of my soul.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me how to remain very little, very humble. Help me give my Fiat each day and give me the strength to accept in silence and with resignation the trial that has been weighing on my family for the last four months, following the death of my dear little sister and of her little girl.

Since then, what tears, what pain and troubles of all kinds! Come to our aid! I trust in Your motherly heart. You, the Consoler of the afflicted, the Refuge of sinners, it is in You that I confide my miseries. For, no one can understand at this moment what I am suffering. My director seems to make out a little what it is, but I cannot tell him everything. He is too sensitive.

My Beloved, yes, I accept to suffer more for the salvation of the soul of … that you gave me Sunday. However, I insist and ask Your help for I can do nothing alone. With You, I can do anything. You are all my strength, my support, my Love, my God, my All. Give me the patience and perseverance to do my team work. I must have souls to give You.” 

Tuesday 8 JuNE 1954

– Mimi: Already 5 months have gone by since the death of Fernande and Diane. 

Departure of the 3 dear little ones for the charity convent. How sad!

– Mimi: “My Beloved Jesus, I place all three of them in Your Divine Heart. I no longer fear for them. I am confident for You said: “Let the little children come to me.” 

I entrust them to You, my Gentle Mother of heaven for they will never know the happiness of having a mother. Fill in the emptiness in their lives as orphans.”

I felt sad at the thought of never seeing them again. They will be so far away. I will make the sacrifice.

– Mimi: “Thank You my God, the ray of sunlight arrived just at the right moment. Visit to my director. I spoke to him about my miseries. I told him how ungrateful I had been towards You. After having given me everything, I thanked You with ingratitude and even contempt… Poor Jesus! How You have suffered because of me.

My Beloved, I entrust to You the soul of Cylien. Tomorrow, he will undergo his trial, accused of the murders of my dear little sister and of her little daughter Diane. Be merciful towards him, please! You forgave the good thief. I trust in Your infinite Mercy. 

You have forgiven me! My crimes were just as bad for even though I did not kill human beings, how many souls were destroyed because of me! How evil and guilty I was! Ô Infinite Goodness, after such conduct, You could have chastised me, kept me far from You for all eternity. How can I forget Your patience.

In Your inifinite goodness, You allowed me to encounter this priest, Fr. Gamache. You entrusted my soul to him. He had trouble fulfilling this obligation from the start for the devil had me in his grip. Following Your example, he was patient. He prayed so much and said many masses including all kinds of sacrifices and mortifications… How my soul cost him dearly!

Ô my Beloved, now that I have become Your poor little wounded lamb, do not leave me for I could go the wrong way if left alone. I am so frail. After so many infirmities, I ask myself how I was able to live so disorderly. How was I able to breathe in the prison of my soul? My body had become a furnace where the fire of my passions were devouring me and destroying me little by little.

Thank You, ô my Beloved Spouse, for Your love, for Your infinite mercy. Thank You for the Precious Blood poured on my soul to reanimate it. Thank You for the Precious Blood poured on my body to put out the flames of my passions. 

My Beloved, there are so many stains that remain. I beg You, wash me anew. I so want to be purified. It is with confidence and love that I throw myself entirely into the chalice with Your Divine Blood through the hands of the priest. I so need to be purified to render my soul agreeable to You since it has become Your permanent abode. Now that my director is with me, we will work together to make it agreeable to God.”

Thursday 24 JuNE 1954

– Mimi: “I am very sad! I woke up too late to go to mass and receive You. I offer You a lot, however. I am happy to be working with You for souls. There are so many who are living in sin! I thank You for giving me the opportunity to repair, atone, to merit.”

– Jesus: “My little one, think of the souls who are suffering in the fires of purgatory. Offer and sacrifice yourself, My little one, this afternoon. Do not go to see the St. John parade. Visit Me. Together, we will look at the parade of all My goodnesses. We will look at all the chosen graces I have been showering on you for the past four years. Come, My dear little one. I am feeling so lonely today!”

– Mimi: “You know very well that I love You, my Beloved. Yes, here I am. I am sacrificing everything to please You and show You my love…”

Here comes my enemy again to attack me. The temptation is getting worse.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, come quickly! You know that I don’t want to lose You. I believe in You, I adore You and I love You.”

“Here I am, my Beloved Spouse.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, come closer! Please Me and console Me. Place your heart in Mine and tell Me that you love Me. Speak to Me of love. This consoles Me from the indifference of certain souls. Remember that you used to be one of them, but with the impulse of love coming from your little heart, I forget everything. Tell Me often, very often, that I am yours. Our union is first of all about love through suffering to please God.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, You invite me to come closer to Your Divine Heart, but how can I penetrate completely into this adorable heart? My poor heart is so little, so imperfect to come in contact, to take possession of Your Divine Heart completely.”

– Jesus: “My poor little one, you are aware how small your heart is. I still wish for this union where Our two hearts will beat in unison. My little one, I will give you a way of penetrating more easily into My Divine Heart. Pass through the wound of My side and the blood that is flowing. Clean and purify your little heart before entering. Once your heart is purified, We will stay together in My Divine Heart. We will be united.”

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, what more can I do to please my God?”

− Mary: “Today, My dear little one, tell Him simply that you love Him and accept His Will in the future. Remain faithful as a spouse. Don’t try to understand everything. Trust Us.”

Friday... JuNE 1954

– Mimi: I was suffering a lot.

– Jesus: “My poor little one, don’t complain! I am simply placing you on the cross for a brief moment. I need your sufferings. My beloved little spouse, prepare yourself to die. Ask your director to compose a prayer that you will recite each day in order to better prepare yourself for this great departure… May he help you detach yourself from everything and everyone. 

– Mimi: “My Beloved, teach me how to live in order to die well. My Beloved, it seems to me that if You came right away to get me, I wouldn’t be afraid, for I trust in Your Mercy. I believe in Your love for me. I am certain that You will receive me as Your faithful spouse. I know that my hands are empty, but look at this little cross I am carrying on my shoulder and that You Yourself placed there.

Since I have had it, I have always kept it, even in moments of weakness. From the darkest moments of discouragement. I know that sometimes I drag it, but I don’t want to leave it as long as I live… and in heaven where You are waiting for me, if You wish, I will keep it for it will be for Your glory. It is through the cross that You redeemed me. It is through the cross that I shall live and die united to You out of love.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, if you only knew how I much I love You! Yes, I love You because you accepted to become my Mother. I know that through You I will reach God. I believe how powerful You are over His Divine Heart. I know that You are watching over me… that You are keeping me pure… that You are helping me give my Fiat each day with love. You are helping me in all my trials and temptations…

Ô Gentle Mother of heaven, thank You for Your help… I am not afraid of the future for You are the refuge of sinners. This is why I throw myself into Your arms. This way, I feel safe! And at the hour of my death, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, receive the soul of Your little girl. Offer me with Your Gentle Jesus to God since Jesus and I are now one since I became His little spouse.”

I was greedy by taking three helpings from a desert.

– Jesus: “My poor little one, think of My fasting for forty days for you… So, atone right away.”

– Mimi: “I am suffering a lot. Without You I can do nothing.”

Thursday 1^st July 1954

– Mimi: “Ô Precious Blood of my Jesus, pour just one drop of this Divine Blood on my soul to purify it.”

– Jesus: “Yes, my poor little one, you must offer with Me and atone. My Precious Blood is so abused even by those who frequent My sacraments. How many attend and understand the importance of Holy Mass or of My Precious Blood which is the same as the one on the cross? Precious Blood that I gave till the last drop out of love for you and for mankind. 

My dear little one, if you knew how much I love you! Offer Me in return many acts of love. Don’t wait for Me to ask. This will console Me for the indifference of so many others. 

My beloved little spouse, ask Me each day for the grace of accomplishing well your duties towards Me. For, during this month, you will have a lot to suffer in order to atone, repair, and merit. I need souls. Help Me. It is important for Me and for you.

On the 8^th of July, the day of your anniversary, My Father in His goodness gave you life. Ask your director to offer you to My Father with Me; through the hands of My Father, I will take possession of your whole being. You are all Mine. I know it and I want everything. However, remove the obstacle between Us. I will love you so much more. My little beloved spouse, gather yourself with confidence into My Divine arms.”

5 July 1954

– Mimi: 1^st day of retreat of my director. Mass, communion, presided by my director. 

Lots of work, headache… the pain is getting worse.

– Mimi: “My God, I am suffering but I love You.”

– Jesus: “My little one, offer Me this pain in atonement for your sins and especially for a soul that is consecrated to Me and is going to gravely offend Me. Pray, fast a lot. Accept to save this soul.”

– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved. Even though I am suffering greatly, I accept with love and resignation Your Holy Will. Thank You for helping me endure this evil and remain silent.”

In order not to worry my mother, I went to practice the piano as usual. I was in such pain, I would have preferred remaining quietly at home.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, why didn’t you visit Me before practicing your piano? In the future, think twice! Think of what I represent for you…”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I sincerely ask Your forgiveness. You are so good to me! Thank You for showing me my mistakes. I so want to please You in all things. Increase my love and confidence so that I may better serve You and do Your Holy Will.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, lend me Your heart and Your humility to receive Your Gentle Jesus!

Tuesday 6 July 1954

– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t go so fast in doing your chores… Be patient! Accomplish each action as if I were near you… Don’t forget, I am in you. Do not neglect anything as if you were to die this very day.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, you have placed me on the cross this evening. I accept it with love, out of love for You. My God, I ask Your forgiveness for the lie I said. It wasn’t necessary. I hate myself for having offended You. Forgive me, my Beloved. I will try to keep silent when I am tempted to lie. To do this, I need Your help. 

I notice that there is a lot of disorder in my interior dwelling. My Beloved, how great is Your love! In spite of everything, You still come to me who am filled with misery. My heart is so cold. My Beloved, warm me with Your Divine Love  so that I may burn with love for You day after day.”

Wednesday 7 July 1954

– Jesus: “Offer Me your work, your fatigue. Think of those poor missionaries.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I come to recite my rosary before going for my practice.”

− Jesus: “My dear little one, why do you stay at the back of the church to recite your rosary? Come closer to My Divine Mother. Look at Her. Speak to Her in all confidence. Do not hesitate to cry on Her shoulder. Does a mother reject her child who is suffering? On the contrary. She presses her to Her heart. She understands your misery… She is ready to help you. Give Her your hand. She will not forsake you during this… and She will not abandon you at the moment of your death, because you trusted Her and gave Her your love…

My dear little one, you offered me your work, fine. But to please Me, offer Me acts of love. I am so happy when your little heart offers me these surges of love. How I love you, My little beloved spouse. Prepare your soul to receive tomorrow the graces I will send you for the greater glory of My Father.”

Friday 9 July 1954

– Mimi: “My God, help me. I am in so much pain! Give me the strength to go to the chapel to hear Holy Mass and receive communion…My Beloved, what is going on? I am afraid! There is something going on that I don’t understand!” 

– Jesus: “My little one, why are you so surprised? Didn’t I warn you yesterday that I would take full possession of your being? I want everything. Everything must be purified.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I accept everything. May Your Holy Will be done” 

I did not have any breakfast. I was too sick and I offered this in atonement for being greedy last night and eating too much chocolate.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I thank You for showing me my weaknesses… You know that I don’t want to refuse You anything. But consider my weakness, my frailty… Give me the strength and courage to overcome my faults. I sincerely ask Your forgiveness. Without You, I can do nothing.”

Rosary, holy hour for the intentions of my director who is on retreat. This evening, rosary said on my knees in spite of the pain.

Saturday 10 July 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness for the criticisms I made today. Poor Jesus! I was proposing, this morning, not to offend You. Hardly a few hours have gone by and I have already caused You sorrow. Poor Jesus! Woe is me with my miseries! What would it be like if I didn’t have You in me? To help You forget, I will become silent…”

– Jesus: “Ô My poor little one, I am sad. Why are you so prone to criticism and then, in My presence you remain silent? You don’t know how to speak to Me. 

As of now, My dear little beloved spouse, to atone for all these weaknesses and to help you get rid of this fault, you will make a sacrifice of all your opinions… your impressions, and when someone asks you your opinion, you will answer frankly, simply, without adding anything. This will mortify your spirit. I give you permission.

And with Me, do just the contrary. Yes, talk… Yes, talk to Me about everything, about your love, your repentance, your wishes. There are so many things we can talk about. I, your God and you, My little spouse. From now on, in My presence, talk to Me with confidence and if sometimes you do not know what to say, ask Me to speak to you and you will listen in silence.

And if you should happen not to hear My voice, don’t worry. Speak to Me anyhow. Tell Me especially that you believe, that you love Me, that you count on Me… and that I live in you in spite of your failures.

Do you recognize My goodness towards you, My poor little one… My little girl? If you knew how much I love you, my beloved little spouse. If you could see the state of My heart when you express your love for Me. Yes, My heart is jubilant… when you are humbled after each one of your sins  and remember your past. My joy is even greater when you suffer, you accept to suffer with Me to atone for your sins and for the salvation of souls.”

Sunday 11 July 1954

– Mimi: From early morning, I was planning to write and do my meditation but suddenly arrived visitors for the whole day.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I accept Your Holy Will.” 

It was only at 5 p.m. that I was able to go to church for my holy hour.

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, give me the necessary dispositions to make a good and holy retreat for the greater glory of God. Grant me the grace to be humble so that the Holy Spirit may visit my poor soul.”

My Beloved, I allow You to act freely in me. Give me the courage to look at my life, my poor life, to look at my past. Increase in me a repentance for my sins, especially for my lack of confidence after all that You have done for such a long time. Open my eyes so that I may see all the ugliness of my sins. Engrave in my soul all the sorrow that I have caused You. Ô Infinite Goodness, give me also true contrition. How evil I have been! How was I able to live so disorderly. 

My Beloved, yes, I want to clean up my dwelling. Purified by Your grace, I want to be able to say: Here is Your dwelling, Ô my Love, take possession of it forever. It is Yours!

My Gentle Mother of heaven, help me please to clean up my interior dwelling. Tell me what I must do to render it agreeable to God. Please give me perseverance in my resolutions. Give me a spirit of piety, of meditation. Increase in me love and confidence.

Ô Mary Magdalene, grant me the grace of a little peace and quiet so that I may meditate, write, read and make a good retreat. 

                                            However, may Your Holy Will be done.”

Tuesday 13 July 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I offer You my fatigue, this heat in atonement for my sins.” 

It was very hot. I said to Him: 

– Mimi: “How I would like to be sitting by a stream, alone, instead of ironing. How I would also like to be far, very far away. To be alone with You in order to chat freely with You, to rest in Your presence. I offer all this to You out of love.”

– Jesus: “My dear little beloved spouse, why look beyond you for what you wish… You would like to be near a brook as a refreshment. Come and visit Me in church and look at Me on the cross… Look at this blood pouring freely for you and for souls. My heart is larger than a brook. It is an ocean of mercy where you can bathe without fear of drowning. 

You wish to be far away, alone with Me… My dear little one, nothing prevents you from coming close to Me in My sacrament of love.”

Thursday 15 July 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is with confidence that I approach the sacrament of penance.” 

– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is at Your feet that I weep over my sins…Ô Holy Spirit, enlighten me so that I may make a good and holy confession.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, You who told Your Divine Son, at the wedding feast of Cana to make a miracle, I beg You to ask Your Gentle Son for my true and sincere conversion. My soul si worth more than a cup of wine, don’t You think? I am certain that He cannot refuse You anything. My Gentle Mother of heaven, share with me Your humility. Increase in me the repentance for having offended God. After all that He has done for me, for such a long time, how could I have been separated from Him for so long? 

My Beloved, let me weep over my sins. I regret them. I sincerely ask Your forgiveness for all the sins of my whole life. Yes, I am weeping. Have pity on me, on my misery. It is with love and confidence that I approach You. You let Mary Magdalene weep for her sins at Your feet. It is on Your heart that I want to weep for my sins. Yes, near this heart that has loved me so, that has shed His blood out of love for me. In return, my Beloved Spouse, I offer You my poor little heart filled with love, confidence, sincerity… 

If in the past I offended You, from now on I want to love You, to make You forget all my ingratitude and wickedness. With the brief time left, I want to dedicate it to atone, to expiate, but especially to love You even more and to make others love You. I count on You to help me keep my resolutions. I want to work hard at correcting my faults…

I allow You to do with me what You will. You know that I am all Yours, my Beloved Spouse. What joy it is to work with You for the salvation of souls. Yes, my wish is to continue working for You and for souls. I have not forgotten Our team work: You, my director and myself.

My Beloved, please grant all the wishes of my director. How hard he has worked for the last four years in pulling me away from the devil, in preparing me to receive all the necessary enlightenment concerning the state of life in which You have placed me. With his precious advice and examples, I have changed my ways.

I am now walking on the road that leads to heaven… It is joyfully and with resignation that I carry my daily cross accepting everything out of love and for whatever mission that You give me. I bowe with respect before Your Holy Will to give glory to God. However, my Beloved, do not leave me. I need You.”

Friday 16 Juy 1954

– Jesus: “Ask your director to prepare you for the mission I have in mind…”

− Mimi: “What mission do You mean, my Beloved?”

– Jesus: “Your director knows!!! Do as I ask… be obedient!”

Saturday 17 July 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask Your forgivenes. I just made a criticism. To repair, I made several acts of love and to humiliate myself, I kissed the floor several times.” 

– Jesus: “My little one, offer this sacrifice. Do not take any desert and pray a lot for there is a missionary who is discouraged and another of My priests who is about to give in to temptation. Pray a lot!”

– Mimi: “Look at my weakness. Hardly two hours ago, I was asking forgiveness for my sins and praying for others. And now it is my turn to fall. I ask myself why I told these lies. My Beloved, purify my spirit. Teach me to tell the complete truth… Once more, I ask Your forgiveness. I was working  when suddenly I heard Your voice calling me to the statue of the Sacred Heart. 

Here I am, my Beloved. I kiss His divine feet and ask forgiveness for my sins, those of all my life, those of my parents, for the sins of all the world. Then, in a surge of love and full of confidence, I kiss His divine forehead. I caress Him. I repeat that I adore Him, love Him, that I believe in Him, that I believe in His love for me. I was telling myself that if this statue were alive… I love Him more ardently… 

Where does this voice come from saying:

− Satan: “All you are doing is to satisfy your affectionate nature… The surges of your heart are completely false. By kissing the statue, you are trying to obtain sensuous kisses…”

– Mimi: How upset I was! 

− Mimi: “You know, my Beloved, You know the bottom of my soul, my ardent desire to love You…

An unexplainable fear prevents me from seeing my director. I struggled with this fear… for I knew that You were present in him… waiting for me in the confessional. It is with confidence that I opened the secret door of my soul. I shared with him my doubts, my temptations… 

Thank You, my Beloved for a director who knows how to speak to my soul and shows me the needs of my soul. Like a doctor, he examines my moral infirmities and considers my miseries. With his words, he dresses my wounds caused by sin. And with his absolution, he places me once more into Your divine arms. He speaks to me about Your love for me, Your infinite mercy. He is so convincing that he increases in me my confidence and love. 

Yes, I want to follow his advice, that is, to throw myself into Your arms with total confidence. I wish to love You more and more. All is for You, my Beloved who loves me so.”

18 July 1954

– Mimi: I was going down a street. There were two youn men who were cursing. How awful it was to hear them,  

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask forgiveness for them. They know not what they are doing. Jesus in the Most Blessed Sacrament, I adore You and love You. Ô Divine Blood contained in the chalice, purify the mind and heart of these two young men!”

Monday 19 July 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, today I want to please You and refuse You nothing because I love You. Give me patience! I was planning on making a holy hour. My Beloved, may Your will be done. I offered myself to go to the doctor with my sister who is ill and then go shopping with her. While waiting in the store: my Beloved, I love You! How I would like to be with You at this moment in the church!” 

– Jesus: “My beloved little spouse, I am here within you. You please Me when you think of Me.”

– Mimi: “I am very tired. It’s very hot! I offer You all this discomfort in atonement for my sins… to please You more and to mortify my body, I offer myself to carry the heaviest parcels during 4 hours. I could hardly remain standing, so great was the pain.”

– Jesus: “My little one, think of Me. I walked for 33 years out of love for you and for souls.” 

– Mimi: “Thank You my Beloved. You have helped me continue my journey… Yes, I offer out of love, I wish to save souls”

Tuesday 21 July 1954

– Mimi: “Help me be charitable towards my neighbor. Remove from my mind this feeling of resentment towards a person.”

Thursday 22 July 1954

– Mimi: Feast of Saint Mary Magdalene. Make me respond to the love of God. I ask you to intercede for me in favor of my Beloved. Painful work for me. In church.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is in all humility and repentance that I approach You to spend an hour with You. We have so much to tell each other don’t we, my Beloved? Like Mary Magdalene, it is with confidence that I will speak of my miseries, of my desires. I will recite my third rosary with my eyes closed to please You.”

− Mary: “Very well, my little one, but you should have closed them sooner for you were looking at the people. This would have mortified your eyes. See, My dear little one how much I care about you! It is because I love you that I wish to make your soul agreeable to My Father. He has done a lot for you. Out of gratitude, love Me more!”

After holy hour, I approach the marian grotto.

– Mimi: “How beautiful You are, my Gentle Mother. I thank You for accepting to become my Mother. Consider me Your most frail, weakest child. Teach me to speak in total confidence with Your Divine Son. Teach me to walk on the right road. Guide each of my steps. But teach me especially to be more obedient.”

Friday 23 July 1954

– Mimi: “Good morning, my Beloved. I love You. My whole day is Yours. I beg You, my Beloved, help me put up with this conflict. Grant me the grace that my mother may sleep without noticing what is going on: Difficulty in sleeping because of a loud radio in the next room. It is only quarter to seven. I wonder why they open the radio so early. This gets on my nerves and I suffer greatly because I think of mom who has so much trouble sleeping. However, I offer You everything… Thank You my Beloved… Mom didn’t notice anything.”

In church, holy hour. I was reciting my rosary. I was praying for us poor sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

− Eternal Father: “Pray well for the hour of your death… I will come to get little Michelle. Ask that she be buried in your lot for you will have one more martyr. Then, your turn will come. Prepare yourself and, for the little time left for you to live, consecrate it to loving Me more. Offer more to atone for your sins and be united to the Passion of My Son. Carry your daily little cross with love and resignation to save souls and to please and give homage to God.”

I was making the way of the cross. I was meditating on the beautiful gesture of Saint Veronica.

– Mimi: “How I would like to have the same privilege as Veronica, that of wiping Your adorable face and keeping in my soul the divine imprint of Your face.”

– Jesus: “My dear beloved little spouse, you have the same privilege when you express acts of love for you console Me and wipe away My tears. You wish to keep on the white cloth the imprint of My divine image. My dear little one, you have more than that. When you receive Me in your soul, not only do you have the imprint of My face but you have all My Divinity. I am totally there.

Think often of My presence in you and prostrate yourself before Me. Adore Me, love Me. Kiss the earth in a spirit of humility in atonement for your sins and for those committed each day. Make yourself small in Me, in My powerful arms.”

Saturday 24 July 1954

– Mimi: “Good morning my Beloved. I am Yours. I adore You and love You… Once more, the same trial as yesterday: music at 7. Help me please  to put up with it. Thank You, thank You. Mom continues to sleep.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, give me patience. I cannot meditate quietly. You know why… Thank You, thank You for helping me put up with it. I cannot live without You. I am always needing You. Even for the least detail. I need Your presence in me.”

– Jesus: “My little one, keep this morning’s trial a secret. (the awakening because of the radio) Do this for Me.”

– Mimi: Hardly a half-hour goes by and I give away the secret to my little sister, Marcelle… At that moment, I felt guilty. My grief was so great for not having listened to You. Once at home, I threw myself at the feet of the Sacred Heart statue. I kissed His feet asking His forgiveness. I wept bitterly because of this sin… And to make Him forget, I made often, very often, acts of love.

(visit to church. Recitation of my rosary)

Sunday 25 July 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I love You. My day is totally Yours. Grant me the grace not to offend You. I was greatly surprised and happy to attend the mass said by my director and to receive communion. He had been away for eight days. Sometimes, I felt like an orphan. I needed him but he was so far away. It was near You that I went for advice. Thank You my Beloved for all these marks of affection, especially for this morning’s mass… and for the little ray of sun.”  

Monday 26 July 1954

Feast of Saint Ann

– Mimi: “My patron saint. I am happy to carry such beautiful names: Ann, Mary. Good morning my Beloved. Another rude awakening from the radio in the neighboring room. My God, grant me the grace, please, that mom may not notice what is going on. Thank You. She is sleeping soundly.”

Mass, communion. I am suffering a lot. 

– Mimi: “My Beloved, the temptation is getting worse. The devil is taking advantage of me. He wants to convince me that You are no longer within me. My God, My Beloved Spouse, I believe, I adore You and I love You. You know it. Strengthen my faith. Increase my love. I have full confidence in Your Merciful Love. 

The struggle has been going on for several hours.

– Mimi: “My God, come to my aid. I can’t go on! I’m afraid of disturbing my director, of making an act of humility. I will go to him with confidence. I want to tell him all my temptations. I will especially speak to him about the struggle I have undertaken.”

Visit to my director.

– Mimi: “I who was so fearful! He received me with a big smile. This gave me confidence and I opened the door of my soul.” 

I was comfortable in speaking to him… just as if You had been there… I felt Your divine presence in him… He spoke to me gently. He also spoke to me about Your love for me, of all that You have done for me and of all that You expect from me. I was so moved, so happy when he gave me absolution to reassure me and give me peace. My joy was too great, I who thought I had lost You, my Love. The sorrow I felt at the thought of having lost You for a moment! 

Thank You, my love, for reassuring me that You are there present in me in spite of all the temptations. And I didn’t stop repeating: he is there, my love. He is in me! I believe, I adore You and I love You.”

Visit to the doctor. I hate going to the doctor… examinations.

– Mimi: “My God, I offer this to You! You know how I hate examinations of this kind. I accept everything out of love for You and for souls and in atonement for my sins. How often I took advantage of this body! I won’t complain to anybody.” 

After examination, I can hardly walk, the pain is so great! 

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I have come to get my strength back, near You, for I have to go back home. Please give me serenity in order not to worry mom. How anxious I am to receive You. I thank You for all the graces I received today: meditation, preparation for communion.

Till tomorrow, my Gentle Mother of heaven! I love You! Cradle me in Your arms. I am so sick, so little. Thank You!”

There was a man looking for worms to go fishing… I was thinking while looking at him: he is looking for worms while he is alive, but when he dies, it is the worms that will be looking for him! Poor human nature!

As for myself, the worms won’t have much to nibble on my flesh! Tough! They can suck my bones and will be disappointed because I have taken so much medecine during my life! 

Tuesday 27 July 1954

– Mimi: “My God! Please help me! My whole day is Yours. May Your Holy Will be done!”

Monday 2 August 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I love You! Then, I greet the Blessed Trinity with a beautiful sign of the cross and kiss my crucifix. This reminds me that I must also carry my cross with love.  Always the same ordeal from 7 to 9. 

– Mimi: “Thank You, thank You my Beloved! Mom is still resting.” 

The devil would like to take advantage of the situation to distract me and keep me from mass and communion.

– Mimi: “Today, I want to work for You. I want to save many souls. Give me more patience. I don’t want to offend You with my criticisms. I will remain silent. With You, my Beloved, I will begin to correct my faults. They are numerous. I will begin by putting an end to my criticisms. I know that I will be tempted. Out of love for You and to atone for my sins, I won’t even give my opinion, and so, there will be no criticism.

Thank You, my Beloved! With Your grace, I was patient. One half hour listening to a reading. Now, I will go meditate. 

I will especially meditate on: Why has God created me? I will ask myself: What have I done to know Him better? Do I love Him the way He deserves? Do I serve Him thinking of myself rather than of Him?

Thank You for the beautiful sun! – Washing – I would prefer staying at home this afternoon but I have to do some shopping. I walked for two hours. It was very hot!

– Jesus: “Thank you, my dear little one! It is for Me that you walk. I count each of your steps. Think of Me. I walked 33 years for you, My dear little beloved spouse!”

Tuesday 3 August  1954

– Mimi: “I getting an early start to work for You. Good morning, my Beloved. Today I want to save many souls. I accept with love Your Holy Will. Thank You, thank You for this proof of Your love. I love You.”

– Mimi: “I must remind myself that You are meekness. My Beloved help me be meek and charitable. I notice that the day begins with little pricks. I don’t want to lose anything for heaven. Increase in me the desire of heaven. 

Circumstances obliged me to fast this morning. The whole morning went by doing the will of my neighbor. 

– Mimi: “Out of love for You, I accept the cross that You place on my left shoulder.”

– Jesus: “Come, offer everything my dear little spouse! Make the way of the cross on your knees in spite of the suffering. I beg you! Accompany Me along the stations of the cross as I did along the roads searching for souls. Atone, offer yourself with Me to God the Father.”

– Mimi: Evening, at home, rosary said by my director.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask forgiveness for the sorrow I caused You today. How easily I judged a person.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, what would you have done if I had done the same to you?”

I had just been contradicted and I gave this person the cold stare without saying anything. I ask Your forgiveness once more.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, when you offend Me, do I give you the cold stare? Think about how often and at each moment what I do for you. Pray for your director. He is suffering a lot at this moment (it is 4h30 p.m.) The devil is tempting him, but he is fighting back. He needs your prayers.”

Night prayers. Preparation for communion. Thursday, tragedy accepted.

                                                                            

Wednesday 4 August 1954

– Mimi:   Awakened at 5h15 by such a soft voice… repeating three times: Glory be to the Father, to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. 

– Mimi: “Ô my God, today I will consecrate my day glorifying the Blessed Trinity.” 

I want to meditate on what the Blessed Trinity has done for me in my life and what place today God the Father has in my soul. Does He have the respect and love that He deserves from me? God the Son, does He have the love He deserves? Am I really the faithful little spouse He desires? The Holy Spirit, do I let Him freely work in me ? Do I not doubt at times His inspirations?

So many things to meditate on today! Thank You, thank You, my God for such a gentle awakening. I made a spiritual communion at home. I did not go to mass. I nevertheless united myself to all the masses celebrated throughout the world… Morning prayer, meditation, spiritual reading in the Imitation of Christ and the Spiritual Combat.”

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me please to be very humble… Teach me also to love Your Gentle Son. Increase in me the devotion to the Blessed Trinity. Give me the desire of heaven.

My Beloved, I offer you everything out of love. I want to atone for my sins. I want to save souls with You for the glory of God.” 

I was sad at not being able to go to church. I had too much work.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, console yourself. I am still happy for you accomplished your duties. Didn’t we make a beautiful way of the cross together!”

− Mimi: He is talking about my work this afternoon when, for three hours, I was on my knees washing and waxing the floor: for, during this work, I was meditating on His passion and was offering the fatigue and pains I had. I was also making many acts of love, thanksgiving for so much goodness.  During the break, before preparing the meal, I said my rosary.

– Mimi: “My God, I am worried about my director. Protect him. I feel he is hiding something from me. 

Thank You, my Beloved, for Your help, but especially for Your love. Are You pleased with me today? If I displeased You in any way, I sincerely ask Your forgiveness. My love for You is growing day by day. I can no longer live without You.”

I miss You so much! I am anxious to see You in all Your splendor. Ô my God, my only Love, I love You now and for eternity. Here is my heart! It is Yours! Before falling asleep, I give You a big hug. Good night, my Beloved!

My Gentle Mother of heaven, let me rest near Your heart. I am so tired! Keep it close to Yours. I so need to feel Your presence in me. The devil doesn’t stop tormenting me. I trust in You… I believe, I adore You and I love You, my Jesus”

Evening. My rosary for my director. Evening prayers, meditation, preparation for communion. 

                                                          How I look forward to tomorrow!

Friday 6 August 1954

– Mimi: “I was thinking about Your infinite mercy, Your love for me… I was thinking about all the sorrow I caused You yesterday. My soul was very sad. 

My Beloved Spouse, let me weep for my sins on Your adorable heart. I need to tell you once again all the sorrow I feel. How ungrateful I am after receiving so much love from You. My Beloved, forgive me. It is near You that I seek refuge. Receive me. Keep me close to You. Do not leave me to myself. See my weakness. Look at my misery. I am so poor.

I know that I am unworthy of receiving You. But I also know how great is Your mercy towards sinners. It is with repentance and a firm purpose that I weep for my sins. But it is especially with love and fully confident that I approach You. Ô my Beloved Spouse, I believe in You.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one… My poor little one. I love you in spite of everything. Do not doubt My love for you. Truly you have offended Me… but I forgive you because you trust Me and love Me sincerely. See My love for you. Today, I will be the one to give you the kiss of peace. Now do you believe in my Divine love?”

− Mimi: “Thank You, thank You, my Beloved . Too much joy! I don’t deserve so much happiness and, in a few moments, You will come to me, ô infinite goodness! You are welcome in my poor soul. My inner dwelling isn’t rich to receive my King… but I think You preferred a stable to a palace. This gives me confidence. I am so poor.

With You within me, all is beautiful! I count on You to embellish my soul, to transform it, to render it agreeable to God. This is why I recognize my miseries and let You work within me. I accept everything out of love… what I desire above all is to do Your Holy Will in all things…

Grant me the grace to recognize my mistakes, to flee from the occasions of sin, even the slightest imperfection. Teach me to detest all that displeases You. I so want to prove to You my repentance, my love. I therefore want to repair, atone. I wish to save many souls. I also want, with your grace, to do a good job with my team work.”

− Satan: “My little one, you quickly justify yourself! You wish to be forgiven, but what tells you that God has forgiven you (for you are guessing). Did He come to tell you so? Isn’t it rather your pride that is speaking within you? 

For you write what you would like to believe, but interiorly you know very well that God detests you and that He is waiting for the right moment… to suddenly show you His justice… You are writing in order to deaden the remorse within you. You are deceiving your director. You are feeding your vanity. Your pride and lying is getting worse. Some day, you will see your mistake, but it will be too late for you will be with me for all eternity… He wants you but I am holding onto you. Don’t say anything about this to your director. What more can he do for you? He knows I am right! And you trust him! Open your eyes.”

– Mimi: “My God, come to my aid! My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect me!... I am suffering.”

Holy hour in spite of temptations. My enemy is always at my side.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I believe in You who are present in me. I love You. I adore You. Increase my faith. Give me the strength to resist these temptations. My Gentle Jesus, tell me once more You love me. I throw myself with confidence into Your arms…Do not leave me, my Beloved Spouse. 

I have confidence in my director for he represents You. He has done so much for my soul  and helped me overcome my enemy. I will tell him everything and obey him. At the moment I am writing this, I want to obey You. I cannot become proud for I am aware of my ignorance – hardly six years of schooling… and the only vanity I can have is to transmit what You inspire me through the Holy Spirit and I am satisfied. For, whatever good there may be, it is God who has given it to me. I can do nothing and am nothing. All I know is that I am a sinner who wants to show You my love by atoning for my sins and accepting Your Holy Will” 

                                                                             Till tomorrow, my Beloved.

                                                 

Saturday 7 August 1954

– Mimi: “I wanted to go to communion as promised, but temptations against faith were torturing me.

I could hear a voice saying:

− Satan: “I am your Beloved. Out of My great kindness, I am warning you. You must not received communion this afternoon. You have offended me enough so far. I don’t want you to defile my sacrament of love.” 

– Mimi: “Ô Holy Spirit, enlighten me! Where is the truth? I was troubled and very sad. Can my enemy borrow Your gentle name? What am I to do? I must be very wicked not to be able to receive Holy Communion.” 

− Satan: “Your soul soiled by sin must not approach my immaculate soul.”

− Mimi: I went to see my director and told him all my sorrow, my doubts, my temptations. I did my best to make a good confession. He advised me to go to communion in order to overcome my enemy and he also reassured me of Your love. To prepare my communion, I made the way of the cross, for my enemy was giving me all kinds of pretexts, such as shyness, fatigue, self love. Upon the advice of my director, I humbly made the way of the cross. This way, I knew…”

Monday 9 August 1954

– Mimi: “I got up too late to attend Mass. This made me very sad. However, I made a spiritual communion and I want to extend my thanksgiving throughout the day. 

– Mimi: “Today, my Beloved, following Your example, I want to be very good, very charitable. I want to save many souls.”

The devil is tempting me to tell about the interview I just had.

– Jesus: “No, My little one. Offer Me this silence for the salvation of souls.”

– Mimi: “In order to please You, my Beloved, I offer it to You.”

Hardly ten minutes go by, another attack.

− Satan: “You can talk about it. It’s not a crime… Do you think God needs silence in order to save a soul? Use your head! Why does He ask the martyrdom of certain souls out of love.”

– Mimi: I know that silence is little compared to martyrdom, but I believe that what counts most for God is humility and a sincere submission to His Holy Will. And in accepting this silence out of love, I am certain to save a soul because God asked me and I believe in His Word. He is truth!

– Mimi: “My Beloved, look at my weaknesses in spite of my promises. The devil wasn’t able to make me break my silence but he succeeded through gluttony. I could have abstained from desert to mortify my body. I regret not having offered You more… I was feeling sorry at the thought that I could have saved another soul by offering You more. I ask Your forgiveness… how frail I am! My Beloved, make me more prudent… and persevering in Your service.”

– Jesus: “My dear beloved little spouse, you please Me in recognizing your weakness… I know you. And if you did not receive My grace, you would sink even lower. You are so frail that a simple breeze can make you fall. Take a look at your past. 

In the future, do not wait for Me to ask for a sacrifice on your part… it consoles Me greatly when you simply offer something out of love… And when the soul has understood Divine love, it always finds a way to please Me, to grow in its love.”

– Mimi: “Thank You, my Gentle Mother of heaven for keeping me near You today. You were so patient in waiting for me in the past. I am now certain that You will not abandon me for I throw myself with confidence into Your Motherly arms. I believe in Your love for me. A mother does not reject her sick and lame child, does she not? It is my infirmity, my weakness and also my love that urge me to go to You with confidence, for I know that I will be secure. 

My Gentle Mother of heaven, I also come to rest on Your heart after a day filled with interior struggles. I bring with me all the souls of poor sinners. I am praying for the success of the marian congress. I would have liked to go to Cap-de-la-Madeleine as a pilgrim but I offer it as a sacrifice. Mother of heaven, I ask for the grace that all souls that will visit You may not return empty handed and may profit from the graces. I especially give You the souls of poor sinners.”

Tuesday 10 August 1954

– Mimi: Today, I want to make many acts of humility, but especially acts of love, of contrition.  

I was in a lot of pain. I was asking myself if I should make the way of the cross.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, I beg you. Come and keep Me company on the road to calvary. I need your sufferings, your sacrifices to complete My passion. Remember Our union in love and suffering. Remember Good Friday 1954…”

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, strengthen my faith. Holy Spirit, enlighten me. My Gentle Mother of heaven, there seems to be an emptiness in my soul. Tell me what is missing. Tell me what displeases You. What I must correct. What I must do to love Your Beloved Son, to serve God, to make Him known, to make people love Him. I so want to prove my love for Him. But I do so little! Something is missing.”

− Mary: “Don’t look so far, My little one! What is missing today, the emptiness that you feel is caused by your negligence. This morning, why didn’t you go to mass? And during the day, how many times did you think of Us? Your mind is too preoccupied by all kinds of things. You didn’t even find a moment to write, and yet you found the time to gossip with your little neighbor… My dear little one, is My Son waiting for you to think of Him in order to think  of you?”

– Mimi: “Forgive me, my Gentle Mother of heaven. I thank You for helping me understand. My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness. I do not want to cause You anymore sorrow. I am not pleased with myself. My Gentle Mother of heaven, You are right. I find time for everything, but not enough for God. In the future, I will put God first in my life. He must come first in my actions for I am His.”

– Jesus: “Ô My beloved little spouse, what would a husband coming home and seeing his house empty and upside down say? This is what I found in you today. Your soul was too preoccupied, in a mess. There was no room for Me. In spite of all this, I love you. I beg you, do not leave Me alone. Speak to Me. I need to hear your language of love.”

– Mimi: “Good night, my Beloved. Till tomorrow. To help You forget my miserable day, I give You gentle kisses and repeat to You that I love You, my Beloved Spouse. I want to remain faithful. Help me with Your grace.”

Wednesday 11 August 1954

– Mimi: During the stations of the cross – The agony of Jesus.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, allow me to feel Your agony at the sight of my sins. I detest all my sins that offended You. I ask sincerely Your forgiveness.”

Saturday 14 August 1954

– Mimi:  mmmmMI did not receive communion because a voice told me not to profane the sacred Host. I went and confessed my doubts to my director. A certain unease took hold of me. I did not want to make the way of the cross because I was in too much pain. I could hardly walk.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, I beg you to come near Me during My passion. It is precisely because you are suffering a lot that I want you to share My sufferings in atonement and to obtain the conversion of sinners.”

– Mimi: My director advised me to make the way of the cross. In spite of my condition, out of humility and obedience, I made the way of the cross. Afterwards, I recited my rosay near the grotto of the Virgin of Lourdes… I was looking at the beautiful flower that decorated the altar and the rock. We were preparing the celebration of the feast of the Assumption. 

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, I also would like to offer You flowers for Your feast day, but I don’t have the means.”

− Mary: “My dear little one, offer Me souls. Jesus will be very pleased. Offer Me especially acts of love, humility, confidence and place them at My feet like a bouquet of flowers. I would be so pleased.”

But, suddenly, my enemy interrupted me. For more than half an hour, he tempted me:

− Satan: “You pray badly! Don’t recite your rosary!”

– Mimi: Seeing that I ignored him, he tried something else, about faith, then, impurity. What suggestions! 

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, help me put up with these temptations. I love You. I believe in You, ô Immaculate Virgin. Keep my soul pure”

And I continued to recite my rosary. And as I finished the words: 

“Now and at the hour of our death”, I clearly heard a voice say:

− Mary: “My dear little one, what would you say if I came to get you tomorrow?”

– Mimi: My surprise was so great that I answered: “My love, I’m afraid!” believing that it was my enemy attacking me again.

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, is it You or my enemy? I beg You, give me a visible sign to let me know the truth. Give me a flower or allow someone to offer me some flowers. 

That evening, my little neighbor brought me some flowers to please me. – Thank You Gentle Mother, I have my answer.

That evening:

− Mary: “My dear little one, remember what I am going to tell you. Beginning with the 15^th of August, you will begin counting your days! Prepare yourself with prayers and sacrifices. You will have a lot to suffer for the conversion of sinners and to finish your purification. Believe in Me, your Gentle Mother of heaven. Go see your director and tell him this.

Trust him for he knows what We expect from you. Aren’t We the ones who designated him to fulfill the role of director for your poor little soul. Be confident! We have placed Our trust in him. Tell him everything and be very obedient and submissive. “He who hears you, hears Me”. Meditate this well. Yes, make a good confession. Believe in his absolution.”

− Satan: “Don’t disturb your director! People will notice for you went to confession this afternoon. Don’t go back this evening to tell him about your pipe dreams, your illusions. You will disturb him. Wait until next week.”

− Mary: “Don’t listen to him. Meditate this well. Make a good confession. Believe in his absolution. He has received the power. He is worthy to carry the secret of the priesthood. He alone can help you.”

– Mimi: “My God, I commend my soul into Your hands. I accept Your Holy Will. Grant me the grace never to offend You.”

Tuesday 17 August 1954

– Mimi: I was meditating on these words: “My God, I commend my soul into Your hands.”

– Jesus: “My dear little one, think about this for you are growing in confidence, about going to heaven, about My infinite mercy. The love of possessing Me, an entire submission to the Will of God, total detachment from everything.”

Monday, mass at 7h o’clock, holy hour, rosary, way of the cross, rosary for my director.

Tuesday 25 August 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I have come to tell You that I love You. How I would like to speak to You freely but my mind wanders, my will is somewhat paralyzed, my heart is cold and I am silent before You. However, my Beloved, You know very well that I love You in spite of the indifference. Look at the bottom of my soul. In spite of my spiritual aridity, I yearn for You. I desire you. My God, have pity on me.  My Beloved, don’t leave me. I am afraid of everything, but my greatest fear is to offend You. I beg You, help me!”

– Mimi: “In spite of the state I am in, I come to You for I promised to obey my director. In the future, I want to accomplish all my actions as if everything were going well, as if I were receiving great consolations etc… I should walk with my eyes closed, guided by my director and I should throw myself into Your Divine arms. I abandon myself to Your Holy Will.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, look upon Your little girl who is before You asking for help. My Gentle Mother of heaven, grant me the grace that the little love I have, I may always keep it for Him alone. You know that I prefer Him to everything because He is my Beloved Spouse in whom I have placed all my trust. Grant me the grace never to think of myself for a moment in order that I may faithfully follow my Beloved on the road of suffering, for the conquest for souls. 

Give me also Your humility everywhere and for everything. Teach me to pray with love, confidence and resignation. Tell me what I must do to please God.”

– Mary: “My dear little one, remain where My Son has placed you and as long as He wants. What counts in the eyes of God is love, humility and an entire submission to His Holy Will. Try to practice these three virtues and you will please God.”

– Mimi: “Even in the state of spiritual aridity I am in at this moment?”

– Mary: “But of course, carry on, my little one. Love, humility and submission to His Holy Will.”

Sunday 29 August 1954

– Mimi: In church, I knelt before the statue of Our Lady of Seven Sorrows. 

– Mimi: “Thank You my Gentle Mother of heaven for having held back the arm of Your Divine Son. Yes, this hand that You are holding in Yours was the one that saved me .

My God, I am before you as the smallest of Your creatures. How I would love to adore you, render You homage like the angels and saints in heaven! How I would love to pray to You like Your Gentle Son used to do when He was on earth, but especially during His agony.

If only I could love You like my Gentle Mother of heaven! My God, I admit my impotence, my ignorance. However, I thank You for making me Your child. Unfortunately, I did not always act as Your child.

I thank You for Your infinite mercy when I presented myself to You as the prodigal son, and You accepted me. How could I not believe in Your love for me? And, in Your goodness, You knew I would need as a road companion a strong person on whom I could depend, in whom I would find reassurance, security. You knew that my heart needed a solid and lasting bond. And it is Your Son that You gave me as road companion to heaven and as a guide You gave me my director Fr. J. Gamache, s.j.

I thank You for all these graces, my God, my Father-in-law. Can I call You my Father-in-law?  Am I not the spouse of Your Son? Forgive me my God for so much familiarity. I have such a need to tell You all my gratitude and my love… Yes, this love that remains is Yours for You must come first. I offer it to You. My Beloved, please help me purify my love so that it may be agreeable to God.”

− Satan: “Why write these things? You know the state of your soul. You don’t even believe in what you have written. So why write down lies.”

– Mimi: “and more I want to love You, more my heart is cold. More I want to grow in confidence, more my fear increases. More I would like to hear Your voice, more I remain deaf and indifferent and more I wish to speak to You heart to heart, more I remain silent.”

Thursday 2 September 1954

– Mimi: During my holy hour, I remain in doubt. Spiritual aridity is growing more and more. According to the advice of my director, I shall say: 

– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me, forgive me.” What suffering! I have nothing to hang onto. There is complete emptiness. I cannot go anywhere; there is total darkness… My God, I beg You, help me… do not allow my condition to discourage me.”

– Jesus: “My little one, you don’t have to hang on. Throw yourself into My arms with confidence. My dear little beloved spouse, it is because I love you that I treat you this way. I repeat: you must be purified before I present you to My Father as My spouse. Remain faithful in My arms… If you could understand all the pleasure you give Me at this moment by accepting My Holy Will!

My dear little spouse, you will have a lot to suffer to save souls. If you accept with love to remain where I place you, I promise you to come and get you and you will not go to purgatory for I am giving you the privilege of doing it on earth. See in all of this My love and My mercy towards you.

Think often of the day of Our union (Good Friday) when you were so happy to share My sufferings. Did I deceive you? Each time I promised you something, I always kept My promise. But you, My dear little one, do you always keep your promises to Me, to your director? Renew your vow of obedience to your director.”

– Mimi: “How can I please You, my Beloved? I cannot even pray. I accept and do not understand the importance of my actions. More I wish to approach You, more I feel far away and more I hope to chat with You, more I find the time long because I have nothing to tell You. Words fail me and my mind is troubled… more I want to love you, more my heart is cold. More I want to be confident, more my fear is great. My Beloved, doYou still love me?”

– Jesus: “But of course, My dear little one. I love you even more for you admit that without Me you can do nothing and that you are nothing, that you understand nothing. By admitting your weaknesses, your miseries, remain in My Divine arms, do not leave Me. Stay in the situation in which I have placed you for the greater glory of My Father.

I know you don’t understand… for the moment…however, tell Me only that you love Me. I need to hear you say it My gentle little spouse even if you don’t feel what you are saying.”

Saturday 4 September 1954

– Jesus: “Thank your director for he is doing a lot for you, especially this afternoon. Mortify your body with the permission of your director.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, You know this. I am suffering enough as it is.”

Thursday 9 September 1954

– Mimi: Words of my director:

1. God is preparing you for special graces.
2. Act as if…
3. When you listen to me, you can be sure of not being misled.

Moreover, in the presence of my director: I make the vow of accepting to suffer all my life for the salvation of souls, to uphold Your Church.

− Satan: “My little one, it is I who inspired you. You guessed right concerning death. Do you know why your director wrote this morning? He wanted to reassure you. If he was so sure of himself, it is because he consulted a confrere concerning this encounter.”

Friday 17 September 1954

– Mimi: Visit to the church. Complete emptiness and yet, I would have liked to pray to You. 

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, see at Your feet Your child so miserable, so poor, so weak. I beg You, receive my love so little, so cold. Warm it up in Your heart ardent with love for God.”

I wanted to buy a hat. I did not really need it.

− Eternal Father: “My dear little one, buy Me rather souls, they cost so much!”

Saturday 18 September 1954

– Mimi: I wanted to meditate but I was suffering too much, especially my head and neck.

– Jesus: “My little one, offer Me the state you are in… Accept to wear My crown of thorns. Think of My heart that loves you so.”

– Mimi: Since four o’clock this morning I have been suffering. I was so weak, feverish, that I could not meditate on anything.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, offer what you are suffering at this moment. There is no better prayer!”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I accept with love and resignation what I am suffering. Today, I am uniting my weak sufferings to Yours in atonement for my numerous sins and also for the salvation of souls with You. 

My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me to love Jesus as You loved him: to love, to submit myself to the Holy Will of God the Father. 

In the state of spiritual aridity in which I find myself, I cannot pray, meditate as I would like. However, what I can say is that I wish to always remain faithful… because I love You. My Beloved, I believe in Your love for me. I beg You, believe in my love for You. However, I feel nothing. You know that I love You, that I am Your little spouse.”

Tuesday 21 September 1954

− Mimi: “My Beloved, I am always in the same state and accept it with an entire submission to Your Holy Will. Since Sunday that You nailed me to the cross with You. I am happy to be with You, to share Your sufferings for the salvation of souls.

Yes, I accept to be bedridden. You know how I hate to be inactive. However, I don’t want to lose this precious time during which I am with You on the cross… The fever is burning up my body. To mortify myself, I will not take a single drop of water. I thought of Your thirst for souls… In spite of the pain, I said my rosary. I prayed for the Holy Father, for my director, for missionaries. I offered my sufferings, united to Yours, to obtain the conversion of sinners and for the deliverance of the poor souls in purgatory. I so want to save souls with You, with my director.

Help me my Beloved Spouse… the devil is tormenting me. He knows that my body is weakened by illness and that I am in the dark, that I want to reach my ideal in spite of everything. My God, have pity on me. I trust in You. Come to my aid! 

My Gentle Mother, protect Your child who is struggling. I feel so lonely. Console me! I need You! I love You.”

Wednesday 22 September 1954

– MImi: spent the whole day writing and praying.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, you please Me by writing for you are obeying My orders… The time spent with Me is not lost. Think of Me first, do as I ask… As for your housework, don’t worry, it will be done. I will help you. Through this illness, I wanted to ask you more for souls. I also wanted you to put your little notes in order for you were beginning to neglect Me for work that profits you nothing after death.”

A great temptation

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother, protect me. Keep my soul pure for Him, my Beloved Spouse.”

Monday 4 October 1954

– Mimi: “How empty is my heart! My Beloved, fill this heart with love for You and for souls. I need souls. ”

– Jesus: “My dear beloved little spouse, I knew what I was doing when I gave you an affectionate nature for I knew that this love would come back to Me some day and forever. Your artistic soul and sensitivity make you suffer. I know. This is how you merit.”

– Mimi: I was making the way of the cross a little fast.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, what would you have said if I had made My way to calvary in a hurry? It would have been ridiculous, don’t you think? 

Would I have had the time to reflect properly, to think of you? Why do you do this?”

Tuesday 5 October 1954

– Mimi: “I feel nothing and I am happy just the same to be working with You. I am happy because I know that I am doing Your Holy Will.” 

I am preparing the noonday meal when He calls me.

– Mimi: “Here I am, my Beloved, at Your knees. Let me kiss Your divine feet. Let me weep over my sins and the sins of poor souls. From the bottom of my soul, I repent for having offended You, my Beloved Spouse.

My God, I thank You for having thought of me in giving Your Beloved Son… and in return, how ungrateful and unbelieving I have been. I ask Your forgiveness. For the remainder of my life, I want to love You. In order to love You, I must know You.

I ask the Holy Spirit for all the gifts I need to better know You, to serve You with love and fidelity.

Note :I had just been uncharitable towards two persons:

“What a hypocrite! I didn’t think she was so proud.”

– Jesus: “My poor little one, how quick you are to recognize the faults of your neighbor. If I didn’t hold you back, what would you become? Remember your past and the faults you find in your neighbor. You had them too.”

Wednesday 6 October 1954

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother, look upon Your child who wants to love Him.”

– Jesus: “May your director not deprive himself of food to mortify his body but refrain himself from smoking.”

Thursday 7 October 1954

– Mimi: “Ô my Beloved, I prostrate myself at Your feet to thank You for all that You are doing for me in spite of the aridity in which I find myself. I am sure that You are in me and that You are holding me in Your powerful arms. All that I do is in order to please You. I so want to prove to You my love, my gratitude because I want to repair my lack of confidence with acts of love and an entire submission to the Holy Will of God who has done so much for me  who didn’t deserve it. Thank You, ô Infinite Goodness. In return, I accept to suffer for the salvation of souls. My Beloved, have pity on all of us and be merciful.”

  Visit to my director to inform him of Our conversation.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I’m afraid of having hurt his feelings in telling him what You asked me to say. I don’t want to refuse You anything. If I hurt his feelings, console him with Your gentle caresses. With what humility he accepted what I was telling him.”

8 October 1954

– Mimi: A great temptation against faith.  I am going through a crisis and a terrible struggle.

– Mimi: “Immaculate Virgin, keep me in Your arms. Protect Your little girl! Keep me pure.”

How good is my director. He has helped me get through this crisis. Being already in a state of spiritual aridity, how dark it was.”

− Jesus: “My dear little one, remain at your post as a faithful spouse.

Remain in the state in which I have placed you. Is it not true that you love Me? Prove it by accepting everything, even though you don’t understand. If you knew the degree of love I have for you! For you are so little and poor. You are like a little rose bud in Our hands. I have to hold you securely for you are so frail and the least gush of wind, temptations, shake you up. Poor little flower of My garden that I found almost lifeless among the thorns of sin.

Now that I have snatched you from death, I must shelter you from all kinds of bad weather caused by sin, violent temptations. I want you to become strong. I will give you plenty of sun with My ardent love. Yes, my little flower, I will keep you in My heart as in a greenhouse, so that some day, you will blossom in heaven to the glory of My Father. Do not hesitate to weep in My presence. Your tears are soft and salutary to water the little rose bud and help it develop day by day. It is long and patient work.

My dear little beloved spouse, accept the great temptations that I reserve for My friends. You please Me when you ask your director for help. This shows that you are too little to walk alone. Remain little! Show your director that you trust him by telling him everything. Speak to him like you do to Me. He represents Me. He knows what I expect from you. This is why I placed him on your path as a special privilege so that he might be your guide, your encouragement in the spiritual and temporal order. Do as he says! Give him your hand and close your eyes. Let yourself be led with confidence.

Don’t try to see where you are going. Be fearless as you walk with him. It is with Me that you are walking and in obeying him, you can be sure that you are on the right path. If you knew the joy and love that the heart of a priest experiences when he sees at his feet a little soul miserable, sick and crippled who is looking for help and relief. What wouldn’t a priest do to save this soul? Think about what your director has done for you. Your soul has cost him a lot! Tell your director about Our conversation.”

Saturday 9 October 1954

– Mimi: “My Beloved, give me lots of patience.” 

Great temptation

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect Your child struggling to remain pure.”

– Mary: “Ask your director to consecrate you as a child of Mary.”

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, he believes I have already been received. I am one in my heart.”

− Mary: “Speak about it to your director. Do as he will tell you.”

Sunday 10 October 1954

– Mimi: “Today, I don’t want to refuse You anything. I want to chat with You as long as possible. I want my thanksgiving to last all day long.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t feel that I did much for souls.”

– Jesus: “My dear beloved little spouse, you offered Me each one of your thoughts, of your desires. You offered Me each letter, each word as acts of love, of confidence, of thanksgiving. You did great work and I am pleased for you did not calculate the time nor the fatigue. Your love for Me and for souls is stronger than anything else. Remain abandoned to My will. 

My little spouse, you saved souls this afternoon by writing for you obeyed Me. You did not believe that you were saving souls with so little.”

Monday 11 October 1954

– Mimi: I was looking at the leaves. How fast they were falling!

– Jesus: “Yes, my dear little one. It is the same thing in the spiritual order. When the wind of passions shake up certain souls, they fall as easily. Pray for these souls.”

– Mimi: “Today, I want to remain little, very little, like a small baby so that my Gentle Mother of heaven may cradle me in Her arms and careass me. It is with these feelings of confidence and love that I abandon myself into Your arms.” 

  Feast of the Maternity of the Virgin Mary.

– Mimi: “Today, rest, my Gentle Mother of heaven! With Your grace and the help of my Beloved, I want to work in Your stead for souls. Thank You, ô Gentle Virgin Mary for giving me Your Jesus, for accepting to become my Mother. I thank You for such goodness. I would have liked to offer You flowers out of gratitude but I believe it will please You if I offer You instead my little heart full of love for You. I know it isn’t much for I am so poor.

My Gentle Mother of heaven, I beg You, hear my prayer. Grant me the grace to love souls very much. At Your example, I want to give birth to the souls of poor sinners. Grant me to love them as my children. Give me the heart of a mother. This way, nothing will be mine, for I shall have given everything for the salvation of these souls because of this heart of a mother. 

I ask You for more self-denial, more sacrifices. I want to be more compassionate. I want to be more understanding towards my neighbor. I want to make those who suffer happy. I want to help my neighbor with my prayers and small sacrifices, united with Your life filled with sorrows.

I ask You to purify my intentions and my actions. I wish to remain humble, very little and submissive to God like Yourself. I wish my work for souls to remain hidden to the world. I ask You to grant me this grace. Give me perseverance. Since I have given away everything, I don’t want to take it back. 

I thank You for Your love and also for Your patience towards me. How I must have made You suffer in the past, through my ungratefulness, my lack of confidence. In spite of this, You interceded for me to God. You did even more. You gave me Your gentle Son as spouse instead of rejecting me as I deserved.

You offer me to live with You for all eternity. Thank You, my Gentle Mother, thank You for saving me. Thank You for giving me a new life. I am counting on You to help me do the Will of God in every way. I want to atone and  to show You my gratitude, I want to offer You much love and many souls.

My wishes are great, aren’t they, for a little girl so poor in virtue? But my confidence in You is without limit. This satisfies me. I am sure my wish will be granted for You have given me so many proofs of Your love. I know that You do not reject my humble and confident prayer because You are the Mother of a merciful love.

I trust in You, refuge of sinners. This is why I place myself especially in Your arms with the souls of poor sinners, the unhappy who are secure only in Your heart, Immaculate Virgin, Most Pure. Protect me, strengthen all of us who are struggling on earth.”

I am happy for I have not refused anything to my Beloved. 

– Mimi: “Thank You for the love, thank You for the help of Your grace. Do not leave me.” 

                              Thank You, my good angel for spending the day with me.

Wednesday 13 October 1954

– Mimi:  During my holy hour, complete emptiness, I could not even meditate.

– Mimi: “My Beloved, why are You hiding? I need You so much. Since You are hiding, I will look for my Gentle Mother of heaven. With Her, I am sure to find You. However, if You prefer I continue to look for You, I accept Your Holy Will. How sad life is without You.”

Thursday 14 October 1954

– Mimi: “Always in the same state of soul. I can no longer meditate, the temptations are so great.”

– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother, teach me how to pray! You, my Jesus, increase my perseverance! Give me the desire to love so that I may always please You. With Your example, I want to remain humble, little. I want to remain pure. Protect me! Give me the strength to resist temptations. I trust in You. You will not refuse me this favor.

You are all powerful on the heart of God. I beg You, come to my aid! Allow me to weep on Your heart! I so need to feel secure in Your arms, for the devil will not leave me alone. He is attacking me on all sides. How I suffer while my Beloved is hiding.

I can understand Your sorrow, Your pain, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven. You had lost Your Gentle Son during three days. I can also understand the anxiety of my Gentle Mother of heaven while she looked for Her Beloved. My Gentle Mother, give me the strength to accept with submission this pain! Give me enough faith to walk in spite of the obstacles. 

My Beloved, I believe that you are present within me. I believe You are watching me struggle. I believe that without the help of Your grace, I would not be able to resist even though I do not feel the presence of Your hand. I believe that You love me. In return, my Beloved, believe in my love for You. You know how much I want to please You. Because I love You, I want to remain where You have placed me in my spiritual poverty. 

With the impossibility of doing more, all I can do is to say over and over again that I love You, my love, my God.”

Friday 15 October 1954

– Mimi: There was a hurricane warning. The radio had given the alert, warning the population to be careful, not to go out between 4 and 8 in the morning for the hurricane was headed for Montreal, having caused lots of destruction in the United States.

In church, during my holy hour, I asked (God) to protect our city, our churches, my church, our priests and schools, hospitals, thinking especially of little children and the elderly, the sick. Protect my family. Have mercy on sinners. However, my God, I believe we deserve this chastisement and since I offered myself to suffer for souls, I ask Your forgiveness.

– Jesus: “My dear little one, offer Me more! Mortify your body. I will spare many. Call your director. Tell him there will be no hurricane.” 

Believeing that it was a suggestion of the devil, I did not dare phone him. And the next day, nothing extraordinary happened. To everyone’s surprise, the sun was out and the temperature was very mild. Thank You, my Beloved. Thank You in the name of my neighbors.” 

− Mimi: “My God, purify the earth with this rain coming from heaven! As He takes care of His plants, His trees, His fish and animals, what would He not do for (….). It was raining. My Beloved, I offer You each drop of rain as an act of love, of thanksgiving!

                                                                               

Saturday 16 October 1954

– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, accept the state I have put you in. You are quite deserving. Come visit Me each day. Come simply to tell Me you love Me, that you accept My Will. I will be satisfied. To prove to you My love, I will grant you what you will ask for your parents, friends and neighbor. I will answer your prayers for souls. Don’t ask anything for yourself for I am not able to answer your prayers.”

My director advises me to say:  

− “My God, I accept with love Your Holy Will. Give me the grace never to offend You through sin. I am weak, save me.”

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t understand why You cannot answer my prayer. You once said: “Ask and you shall receive!” You are my Savior. 

My Beloved, all I ask for myself is to love You, never to offend You. I ask You the strength to follow You on the road of Your Passion. I ask You to help me carry my cross each day with love and submission to the Holy Will of God. However, I thank You for the promise of answering my prayers for my parents, my neighbor and for myself. I submit myself to Your Holy Will.

I cannot explain this attitude for I was not asking You for honors. You know that I scorn them for I want to remain humble and little like my Gentle Mother of heaven. I don’t ask for health. You know how I need to mortify my body. Moreover, in suffering, I want to share Your sufferings. 

I want to shed the last drop of my blood to save souls, to help Your Church and to prove my love for You. I do not ask for riches for I want to remain poor like You, detached from everything. I want to detach my heart from all affection, even legitimate and honest ones, and from everything else. I have offered You my will. I want nothing for myself. I want to come before God the Father, poor and detached from everything. 

After having given everything for souls, my heart will be free at the moment of my death and I will be able to say: “My God, receive me. Receive my soul. This is all that is left. I place it into Your hands. I expect everything from Your infinite mercy.”

Monday 18 October 1954

– Mimi: Always in the same state of spiritual aridity. To obey my director, I do everything as if… Great temptation during the way of the cross. 

– Mimi: “My Beloved, I criticized once again. Help me, please, correct this fault. To atone, I sincerely asked Your forgiveness and I mortified myself.”

Saturday 24 October 1954

– Jesus: “My dear little one, go frequently to the sacrament of love for you will need special graces. Only the hand of God will uphold you and His love sustain you. During this coming week, you will suffer a lot. Be faithful to your holy hours and the recitation of your rosary and don’t forget the souls in purgatory while making the way of the cross.”

− Mary: “Thank your director for he did a lot for you during the night of Thursday to Friday. He will obtain what he asked this morning at mass. Offer Me a few sacrifices and mortifications. Ask your director what you must do. Do nothing on your own.”

My dear little one, listen to Me carefully. In a short while, Montreal will suffer a curse. Only sacrifices, prayers, acts of mortification, the rosary recited faithfully with fervor and confidence by My consecrated souls will appease the justice of God. For God must take back His place in the world and reign over the universe. His Son must be loved and honored. Mankind must submit and give the Holy Spirit the power to enlighten them, direct them, govern them through His gifts.

Mankind must also recognize that I am its Mother, and learn to know My heart, a heart full of love and compassion for each one. This merciful heart, this heart that will never cease beating for you, My dear little children.”

Saturday 30 October 1954

− Mary: “My dear little girl, My Son thanks you for trusting your director to tell him immediately My wishes. He suffered a lot for you. He has done a lot for your soul. He promised not only to save your soul but also to sanctify it. I beg you, let him work freely in your soul. Help him by telling him everything. Be very obedient. Submit your will to his. Don’t forget, Voices of your superiors, Voice of God!

If you want, My dear little one, to reach your ideal, be obedient to your director. You must submit and accept everything, even without understanding. Look at My Son. He was obedient unto death and I, his Mother, was obedient to God from the very first moment of My conception. Don’t forget that obedience is the first step on the road of virtue, of perfection. Obedience saved mankind and disobedience lost it.

Remember this: 

Obedience and humility. Love of Jesus and submission of Mary. These four virtues must never be isolated and are the basis of perfection. 

Give full confidence to your director. He deserves it. We chose him for you. He represents My Son. He knows what God expects from you. The devil hates him.

In spite of the obstacles, show him your confidence by telling him everything like a little girl speaking to her father and when the devil closes your mouth, make a act of humility. Ask your director to bless you. Your enemy will take flight for, as a priest, your director has the power to chase him, 

Only your director is able to understand you for he has suffered a lot in his life. He carried his cross with resignation and love for he has always been obedient. You will still need him till the last minute, for your end is getting more and more close. Prepare yourself with prayer and sacrifices. Accept everything with love, detach yourself from everything even from your will. You will have a lot to suffer. Trials of all kinds. You must be purified. Be confident and you will never be alone to struggle.

For the moment, My Son seems to sleep, but fear not. His Heart is awake. He is considering your struggles. His grace is upholding you and you don’t seem to understand. This makes Him sad. You pay more attention to your enemy and his suggestions than to the words of His representative and to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit.”

– Mimi: “Thank You, my Gentle Mother of heaven for speaking to Your child so ungrateful, so weak in the service of God. I repent for my lack of confidence after so much proof of Your love. I am counting on You to help me correct myself. There is so much work to be done in my soul to render it agreeable to God. I thank You for opening my eyes to the importance of obedience and humility in my life. Like You, I want to remain little, humble so that Jesus may visit me with His grace. 

Like You, I want to be obedient in order to accept with love and submission the Holy Will of God in all things. Immaculate Virgin, keep me pure in Your motherly arms. Grant me the grace to accept and afterwards, ask me whatever You want.”

− Mary: “Do you see, My dear little one, the importance of unity in the spiritual and temporal life? We must always admit it as a fact. So, in the future, meditate on this and put it into practice. Therefore:

• One God to know, love and serve.
• One Son to imitate and love as spouse.
• One Holy Spirit who enlightens and guides your path.
• One Mother where you will find refuge in Her arms.
• One single road to take.

One cross to carry.

• One life to offer Us.
• One heaven to merit.
• One hell to avoid.
• One goal, to save souls.
• One past to atone.
• One director to guide you.

Take note, your director and He are one.

The examples are numerous:

• One Pope.
• One Church.
• One Redemption
• One Resurrection.
• One Immortality.
• One Immaculate Virgin.
• And so many other examples.

Sunday 31 October 1954

– Mimi: I was tired after several interior struggles and felt the weight of the cross. I was still praying in spite of the state of my soul. I could feel nothing. No consolation. Only faith sustained me and the love of God and souls. And, to please God, I offered myself once again. I was almost finishing a holy hour. My Beloved asks me to make the way of the cross for the poor souls in purgatory.

– Jesus: “My dear little spouse. I asked you to suffer all your life to save souls and help My Church. This includes also the souls in purgatory!”

– Mimi: I had just finished the way of the cross. I was very tired. I was praying with difficulty. Suddenly, the organist began playing a triumphant march. How beautiful, I thought. I was still kneeling, eyes closed to better listen. Suddenly, my imagination is struck by what seems like lightening. I don’t understand what is happening to me. It was as if I were dreaming. I could hear the organ, I could see God the Father, assisted by the Virgin Mary. How beautiful She was!

Then, I was walking in an aisle leading me directly in front of Them. How happy I was for I was walking accompanied by my Beloved spouse who simply held my hand and often looked at me. Ô gentle gaze filled with love! Then, a little child was walking before me, carrying a cross with pride and joy. And on either side, many souls who were smiling.

My Beloved bent down and told me:

– Jesus: “They are the souls you saved by accepting to suffer for them. And the little child preceding Me is the image of humility, that is, by always remaining little and carrying the cross with love and pride for the love of God. If you remain faithful to your commitments, this is the reward that We reserve for you some day in heaven”

– Jesus: “However, do not leave Me a single instant. Offer everything. Do not take back anything no matter how you feel for, everything is Mine, only Mine. I will keep you jealously in My Heart. Tell me that you love Me, that you believe in My love. This will please Me. Always remain little, very little in My arms.”

– Mimi: My happiness was so… I could not hold back my tears of joy. I was weeping abundantly. How I would have liked it to be real! It was so beautiful, so consoling. Thanks anyhow for these gentle moments. This encouraged me to carry on my day filled with sorrow.