Monday 1st August 1955
– Jesus: “Do not say that you wish to serve Me as a slave for when you accept to do My will, which is My Father’s, you are, at that moment, My faithful little spouse, My beloved. All that I ask of you must be done out of pure love and not by obligation like a slave. Note well, My dear little one, you are slaves of the devil, of your passions, of the world and not of Me, your Infinite Goodness.”
Tuesday 2 August 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little one. Prepare yourself for another struggle. It will be the last stage of your life”.
Wednesday 3 August 1955
– Mimi: I was asking myself what death was like? And what attitude I would have before God?
– Jesus: “My dear little one, death is simply changing address. At the moment, it is I who comes to you. At death, it is you who will come to Me. The attitude you will have before God will be the same as the one you had during your life. Therefore, my little one, more love, more confidence.”
Great temptation against faith!
I was suffering a lot because of this situation. I was praying my Gentle Mother of heaven to come to my aid. With the permission of my director, I could offer more and find ways of overcoming it. As I was preparing myself to offer everything out of love, suddenly, my enemy began attacking me from all sides at the same time. I could not go on. I cry, I look at my Beloved on the cross. I ask Him to help me but He doesn’t seem to hear my voice. The temptation gets worse. The attacks against my senses are so violent that I can hardly stand up and all I am able to say is:
– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me. I don’t want to offend You.”
And then, my courage returned thanks to these words so gentle to my poor heart:
– Jesus: “My dear little one, take the means to overcome this even by shedding blood if you must.”
– Mimi: “The struggle is getting worse. I know that God is with me even though He is hiding. I no longer calculate. I must overcome my enemy. After the struggle, I was so exhausted that I could hardly breathe freely without feeling pain. However, I was so happy at the thought of having kept my Beloved within me, of having fought with Him and for Him. My happiness is so great that I forgot the sufferings of my body. And I could not stop telling Him:
– Mimi: “Thank You, thank You, my Beloved for helping me during this struggle. Thank You, my Gentle Mother of heaven!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I was watching you struggle. My grace was sustaining you. However, I wanted to make sure of your fidelity, your love, your confidence in Me.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for so much love. I know that if left to myself, I could have offended You. When I think that I could have lost You! I cannot express all my gratitude for so much goodness.”
My enemy once again tells me:
− Satan: “You think you won the battle over me. I am patient and I know that you are exhausted from this struggle. I’ll be back tonight.”
– Mimi: At that moment, the Holy Spirit inspires me to call my director, to tell him about this struggle and take advantage of the occasion to receive a blessing. I trust in him. I know that he will help me with his prayers and sacrifices. With the two of us, the struggle won’t last as long.
– Mimi: “My God! Sustain me! I trust in You! I need you, my Beloved! Keep me near You always!”
Thursday 4 August 1955
– Mimi: A visit from my director. I tell him about yesterday’s battles. My enemy is always at my side telling me:
– Satan: “Don’t speak about this to your director for he is afraid of you and each time he senses my presence in you he is scared. He knows very well that I am stronger than he.”
– Mimi: “No matter what you say, I will tell him anyhow.”
– Mimi: At a certain moment, my director asks me to recite the little prayer he composed and taught me to recite but especially to meditate each day. I recite it and even several times a day, especially in moments of temptation. But now, I don’t remember it, not a single word! I want to recite it. I cannot! Complete emptiness in my mind! My director helps me. I repeat after him, word for word, as if it were the first time I was reciting it. I don’t understand what is happening to me, why this lapse of memory. I could almost see my enemy by my side laughing, his presence was so close to me. I know that he doesn’t like this prayer and at the moment I am writing these lines, he does not want me to copy this beautiful prayer. Since I have resolved to do the contrary of what he forbids me to do, I therefore write:
– Mimi: “Lord, I do not ask You for health, riches or honors. I ask You only one thing: to love You with all my heart, all my spirit, all my soul. I want to love You more than anything and die of love, You who have loved me so!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you did the right thing to write this beautiful prayer that contains the most beautiful proof of love that a human being can offer his God. Tell this to your director. Tell him that I will bless and grant all graces to those who recite it in a spirit of faith and total confidence in an act of perfect love. This prayer will cause a lot of good and obtain conversions. I wish him to publish this beautiful prayer while remaining silent about its author. Later on, I will tell you what I expect from saying this prayer. Together, My dear little one, let us give glory to God and may He be praised through his servant and all souls under his care.”
Friday 5 August 1955
– Mimi: “During my confession, my enemy expressed his rage at the moment of absolution, saying:
− Satan: “You believe in the forgiveness of your sins! You believe in the Infinite Mercy of God! Poor little one! He has rejected you long ago! Open your eyes. He leaves you to yourself. No one can do anything for you except me. I am always near you. At this moment, your director hesitates to give you absolution. He doubts your sincerity. He is afraid of you. He doesn’t know what to do. How he would like to escape this situation! Poor him! If he flees, he approves me. If he stays, he gives me a sacrilegious confession. Either way, I am happy. You can see that I am the stronger one. Do you recognize that you are all mine for life and for eternity? Don’t tell this to your director. You know very well that I am right. Be careful! He is wary of you. Your work for me will be more difficult.”
– Mimi: “How I suffer! I can’t go on! My director suspects that something diabolical is going on. He asks me about it. I could not answer, nor speak, nor express myself clearly. He then blesses me. Once my enemy has fled, I tell my director everything and become calm and peaceful after absolution. Then, he helps me prepare my communion. I was so happy to receive my Beloved.”
Saturday 6 August 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, where are You this morning? Why are You hiding? Why do You give room to Your enemy? You know very well that I hate him with all my heart!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, if I were always near you, your happiness would be too great. Where would your struggles be to keep Me in you? Where would your desire be to love Me even more? Where would your efforts be to serve Me with fidelity? No, my dear little one. Allow Me to lead you where I want, the way I want. Accept everything out of love. Trust in Me. I know where I am going. If you were alone in your journey you would have reason to fear for you are still very weak and the road with Me is very long, very rough. The cross is always with Me. Put your trust in Me and don’t ask Me for anything. Don’t try to understand everything. Accept simply out of love. Be obedient to your director without asking why. Close your eyes and let yourself be guided by him. He has known for a long time what I expect from you.”
– Mimi: “Great temptation! Still another attack. My director is beginning his retreat this evening. My enemy is taking advantage of this by troubling me saying:
– Satan: “Next week, I will win you over.»
- Mimi: My first visit to the church in 8 months. How anxious I was to chat with my Beloved, to see my Gentle Mother of heaven. I don’t understand what is going on in me. I was looking forward to my coming to church. I am totally indifferent! I can’t pray!
I wanted to look at my Gentle Mother of heaven. My mind is troubled by impure thoughts. I want to pray but there are blasphemes on my lips. I want to make acts of love, yet, my heart is cold.
– Mimi: “My God, help me, strengthen my faith, purify my mind and my body, please increase my love, my confidence. In spite of the state I am in, I trust in You, I believe and I love You! My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect your child who loves You.”
Monday 8 August 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I accept with love Your Holy Will. I know very well that this suffering comes from You and I am pleased!”
Thursday 18 August 1955
– Mimi: “This morning, I was preparing my confession. My whole life was unfolding as clearly as if I were looking at a movie. I could see my sins one after another, and with each sin, my sorrow was increasing at the thought of having offended God.”
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, help me prepare my confession.”
My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness. Give me true repentance for my sins and the firm resolution never to offend You. Grant me perfect contrition.”
During my examination of conscience, my enemy wanted to trouble me by reminding me of my sins and if my Beloved had not intervened in time, I was allowing myself, without noticing it, to fall into culpable daydreaming. Luckily that my Beloved showed me this. Then, by a happy coincidence, my director phoned me at that moment to ask whether I was well enough to make my confession. In the afternoon, at about one fifteen, when I was preparing my examination of conscience, my Beloved said to me:
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, prepare your examination of conscience with love and confidence in My Infinite Mercy. I have known the number of your sins for a long time. I also know your life, your poor miserable life. Be confident! Why tremble?
Did I not give you all the proof of My love for you, My dear little girl that I love so much? What would a father say if he saw his repentant child tremble?”
Then, at three fifteen my Beloved said to me:
– Jesus: “At this moment, your director is doing something for you. Don’t think he is only praying. He is offering Me more so that you may make a good and sincere confession, and starting today, you may resolve to love Me more by accepting My Holy Will and by having total confidence. Tell your director that all that he has asked for you, he will obtain for he has asked Me a lot for your soul. I will give him a visible sign.”
– Mimi: At that moment, I cannot describe what happened inside of me. Only God can understand the state of my soul.
After my confession.
How happy I am! My God has forgiven me once again. With my director, I made the inventory of my life, my poor life filled with sin, misery. I ask myself how I could breathe with such an evil heart. How could I say I was alive when everything in me was dead?”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved. How patient and good my director has been with me! How he understands me! He tells me about Your Infinite Mercy. He speaks so lovingly of You, with conviction. I can see he is walking his talk.
His words penetrate deeply into my mind and heart and I desire to love you even more!”
Suddenly, the enemy takes advantage of a few seconds to trouble me. He wants to play his last card, but it is useless. My Beloved is present within me. There is no room for him.
– Mimi: Visit to church to thank God and my Gentle Mother of heaven.
– Mimi: “My God, I am kneeling in Your presence to adore You, to thank You for Your Infinite Love of the poor little girl that I am. I believe in You. I believe in Your merciful love for me. I want to thank You with all my heart. Thank You, my God, for Your patience, for Your love in spite of my conduct so contemptible, so indifferent at times. I am unworthy of so many favors and yet You fill me with special graces. You have kept me under Your protection in spite of my bad conduct.
I am sorry for having offended You, ô my God, my Creator. Forgive me my sins so numerous and that have wounded You so much. In Your infinite mercy, forgive me for having loved You so little. With Your grace, ô my God, I want to repair, atone, merit but especially I want to love and console You.
My Beloved, I love You with all my heart and I do not want to love anyone but You. You know my desire of holiness. I want to transform myself into You. I want to detach myself from everything and everyone in order to live only for You, to live continually with You present in me.
Before leaving, my Beloved, one more request: Would You please bless in a special way my director who is so good to me. He is doing his utter best to help me sanctify myself. Sadly, I am aware that I have not always been obedient. I was too busy and allowed myself to be easily distracted by worldly things. I did not always understand especially when my director would tell me that God wanted everything. I was offering everything in general but I did not understand the importance of such an important statement.
Friday 19 August 1955
– Mimi: When I think about such a pathetic life and that my soul was dead though my body was alive. Presently, the roles have changed. My soul will live and my body will die by self denial. With God’s help, I want to keep my body pure so that it may be like a citadel and protect my soul as the temple of God, Our dwelling. I am so happy since yesterday. Thank You, my Beloved, once again.
– Jesus: “My dear little one. We are also happy for your soul was very costly to Us. I gave My life for you, and your director offered Us blood and all this for you. If you had seen in what state his body was and all this for your soul. Will you finally understand? Your director showed that he was hot by wiping his eyes. He was hot but the real reason was because he was weeping with joy at the thought that his prayer had been answered.”
– Mimi: I remember quite well seeing tears in his eyes but I didn’t know why.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, if you had seen Our joy in heaven at the moment of absolution, if you had seen his heart beat as a priest at the moment of absolution! He was so happy to offer Me a soul, a soul that was so miserable. And thanks to the sacrament of love, he transformed your soul into a living temple! He offered Us a home!”
Yes, My dear little one, from now on, I will dwell in you as absolute Master. I will be at home within you. Yes, I will be present in your little soul forever. Do not offend Me any longer by doubting Me, My love, by leaving Me.”
Saturday 20 August 1955
– Mimi: I was preparing a meal.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come quickly. I am suffering a lot at this moment. I need to be consoled. Come and tell Me that you love Me.”
– Mimi:“Here I am, my Beloved! You know very well that I love You and that I desire to love You even more by accepting Your Holy Will.”
