Friday 2 September 1955
– Mimi: First Friday of the month. I am happy for I have just finished the nine First Fridays in honor of the Sacred Heart.
I have the great pleasure of making a Holy Hour. How time flies when I am near Him. Strange! My intimacy with God present in my soul is greater at home than in church. In church, I feel a discomfort. The distance is too great and I freeze. I have gotten used for the last nine months to speak to Him, to love Him, to adore Him present in me. And I am happy to offer Him my poor soul as a home for I give Him everything. He is absolute Master of everything I have and am.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, offer Me more for a soul. At this moment, your director has near him in the confessional a poor soul in the state of mortal sin. Pray that she may make a good confession for she doesn’t want to end her sinful relationship under the pretext that she will soon be married. Poor young people who prepare themselves for a sinful future.”
Saturday 3 September 1955
– Mimi: “My God, please come to my aid! I am suffering a lot. My enemy is near me.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, ô Immaculate Virgin! Keep my body pure! Protect my soul! Look upon Your child who is struggling! Give me the strength to resist temptations! My Beloved, I place all my trust in You! Keep me near You! I don’t want to lose You for a single moment! Give me the strength to be courageous, generous and faithful. Increase my love!”
In the afternoon.
Painfully, I reached the church to go to confession but there was a person in the confessional. Suddenly, I heard a voice that said:
– Jesus: “Pray a lot for this soul. She is in great need for she doesn’t want to speak.”
I was waiting and praying. Several times, I wanted to leave for I was suffering too much and each time, my Beloved would say:
– Jésus: “Stay, stay some more where I have placed you. Think of this soul. She is suffering for she has a great problem to resolve. Don’t think of yourself. Think of your director who is doing his best to convince her. She keeps resisting.Think of Me for I am waiting for this soul.”
– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved. I accept everything for this soul. I must give her to You. I offer You to do more, but help me, for You know that I myself am struggling at this moment. Without You I can do nothing.”
– Jesus: “I know but you are not the only one. Think of Our team work at this moment. We are working together. It isn’t often that Our little team is together working at the same spot. Tell your director about Our little chat.”
I must have waited half an hour. I was suffering but hoping to have my turn for confession. But suddenly, my director simply left. He hadn’t seen me. I was so exhausted from waiting, I didn’t feel I had the strength to come back in the evening and I was crying. I couldn’t hold back my tears. My enemy took advantage of this by trying to discourage me.
− Jesus: “Finally, I was able to go to confession to my director. I told him about what had happened in the afternoon and I was pleased to talk to him.
– Jesus: “Do you see how important it is to tell him everything, to obey him, to trust in him? It is because of a special privilege that you are able to share Our secret. If I allow it, it is to prepare you for what I expect from you. At the moment you do not understand. No matter. Carry on! Close your eyes! Let your director guide you for he represents Me. He knows where he is going. He also know where to go and what road to take. Remain little. It is easier for Me to keep you in My arms near My heart that loves you so much.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, do not speak to your director about this. You believe you prayed for this soul this afternoon. It is useless for you are making rash judgments about your neighbor when you do this. Why don’t you mind your own business! This soul has its own freedom. What illusions! If God asks you to pray, to offer more, where is His power? And your director whom you trust, what power does he have on souls? You can see that I am always the stronger one.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! I don’t want to listen to any more lies. My God, I believe in You who are Truth. I adore You as the Almighty. I love You and I want to love only You. I believe in Your word, in Your love for souls and especially for me, Your little girl who loves You and wants to love You more and more. I want to thank You for so much love, for so much goodness.”
Sunday 4 September 1955
– Mimi: '' My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me to receive my God. How difficult it is to make an act of faith when God hides Himself.
I am going through a terrible crisis at this moment. I feel all alone. My enemy is attacking me from all sides. I don’t have the strength to continue. My mind wanders, my will is numb, my senses weakened. He is taking advantage of this to tell me:
– Satan: “Where is the One in whom you place your trust? What is He doing for you at this moment? You can see that when you say your are happy near Him that all this is an illusion. Life is not made up of dreams. Why not enjoy life a little.”
– Mimi: He suggests certain bad actions simply to offend my God. My mind is filled with ugliness, blasphemies I don’t dare write down.”
– Satan: “Remove your ring. You can tell your director that you lost it.”
– Mimi: I had already promised my director that I would tell him I was going through a moral crisis. So, I phoned him. He promised to help me, to do something so that I would not offend God.”
– Satan: “You believe that, poor little one! Your director is out of his mind! It’s no use!”
– Mimi: “I went to church in spite of the state I am in. The temptations are worse. I can’t pray. I only have blasphemies on my mind, in my mouth. How evil is my heart! I can’t go on. I try to distract myself. I go for a walk and my enemy is constantly by my side.”
– Satan: “Why not put an end to this life right away?”
– Mimi: Then, he begins menacing me. Finally, I decide to go see my director. I was afraid of disturbing him. I didn’t know what was going on. I was scared. I can’t explain it. My director blessed me. Then, I told him the purpose of my visit and the state I was in. He did his best to make me understand. He spoke to me about God’s love for me, His infinite mercy, about all that God had done for me, especially in the last five years. It is aweful to have to write these things, but during all the time he spoke, I didn’t believe him. I couldn’t admit that he was right and yet, I would have liked to tell him: “I believe everything you are telling me.” But I couldn’t. A mysterious force was holding me back. My director guessed that something was going on within me. He said:
− Mon Directeur: “I am not speaking in my name. I am speaking in the name of God who is here present. I am not here to mislead you, nor to play games with your soul. I understand the state you are in. However, have confidence. God loves you very much. He is looking at you. He knows everything. He has done a lot for you. Now, it is your turn to do something for Him. As for myself, I will do something to help you.”
– Mimi: I had trouble confessing myself. My director gave me once more his blessing. I could now speak. I was so happy to have found peace once again. My enemy had fled and I could now breathe freely.
– Mimi: “I lift up my eyes towards You, my God. I need to forget the world. Thank You for helping me. I place all my trust in You. I know very well that You alone can help me, sustain me. Thank You, my Beloved. I thank my director who has done so much for my soul.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I was watching you struggle. I could hear your cries but I have to act this way. I must purify you. There are still too many human elements in you. You allow yourself to be distracted too easily. Do not doubt My love for you. It is in times of trials, temptations, with the cross that I show you My love, but you don’t always understand.
I don’t ask you to understand everything but I want you to accept everything out of love for Me, your God who has done so much for you. My dear little one, at certain moments, I ask Myself why I love you more than others? And the answer is : I could see your miserable condition. One day, I heard your cry of distress. I saw the surges of your poor little heart full of bitterness. I took pity on you, My little one, and love closed My eyes on your poor life. This is when My heart opened up to your voice. In spite of everything, My love was no longer limited. Do you understand? My love is for you until death.
Tell Me that you believe in Me, that you are listening to My voice. I love you so. I need to tell you. I want you to be all Mine, only Mine, my dear little spouse whom I hide as a treasure from human eyes.
– Mimi: At this moment, His gentle embrace is so strong. Only my Beloved can have such an effect on my soul.
“Ô my Beloved, let me rest my head for a short while on Your Heart!» How wonderful it is to have found peace, security once again. I feel so happy knowing that this human heart that is near me is the heart of My God and to think that each heartbeat of His Divine Heart is full of love for me, poor and miserable little creature. How great and powerful is the love of God. I feel so small when I see my ungratefulness after having received so much love.
– Mimi: “Forgive me, my God, for having loved you so little. I thank You for having loved me by giving me Your Son as spouse. I give myself entirely to You by the hands of Your Divine Son and by the hands of my Gentle Mother of heaven. My God, in difficult moments, I beg You, sustain my faith, increase my confidence, purify my love. You alone can help me attain my ideal. Do with me as You will. Bless my director, if You please. He is doing his best to help me and sanctify me.”
Monday 5 September 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, to please You, I am going to put my writings in order.
My God, bless my director. He is going to begin visiting his district. May he bring peace, joy, consolation to each home where he will go. May he radiate Christ. Increase in him the power to touch the most hardened souls. How I would like to follow him in each home and tell the people: “Look at this priest with an apostolic heart. Trust him, listen to his voice. He represents God. If you only knew all that he has done for my soul that was lost. Go to him. He will lead you to God.”
I have begun to work. I am thinking about Our little team. With him, with my Beloved, I want to save many souls in order to offer them to You, my God, to console You, to show You my love, my gratitude.
Tuesday 6 September 1955
– Mimi: Today, in spite of a very difficult time, my Beloved helped me understand His love in an affectionate manner.
– Satan: “My dear little one, do you see how much I love you?”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved. Please increase my confidence, my love for You and for souls. I accept the state I am in today. (Spiritual aridity)
I was asking myself what I had done to please God during the day.»
– Jesus: “My poor little one, don’t look too much. You have done almost nothing. It is I who have done everything. You are easily distracted by the circumstances in your life. Rise above all this. Focus your heart, your mind, your soul on Me. How happy I would be to be the only subject on your mind. My dear little one, correct yourself. Ask your director to help you. You are very quick on resolutions but very slow on actions.”
Wednesday 7 September 1955
– Mimi: This morning, I was awakened by these words:
– Jesus: “My kingdom is peace!”
– Mimi: I was meditating on these words. Does the kingdom of God reign in me? Do I allow Him to establish His Kingdom in my life the way He wants to? It is true that when God reigns in my soul, I find peace, confidence, love, security.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you recognize My Royalty in joy, happiness, peace, consolation. But that is not all. Learn to recognize My Royalty when I come with My cross, with temptations, with trials, with spiritual aridity. I am always the same God, the King of heaven and earth, the Almighty. However, I am not like the kings of the earth who want to establish their kingdom with splendor, riches, honors, pleasures. In spite of all this, the poor fools do not think they are like beggars who, in order to receive the esteem of their subjects, make promises, conquests, and in spite of their royalty, they are full of worries. They aren’t free. The least of their subjects is often the happiest. And yet they pretend to be kings. My royalty is gentle, silent, humble. When I choose a subject to serve me, I always choose the littlest, the humble, the poor, the miserable. When I want to establish My Kingdom in a soul, I come with My cross, with trials, temptations, etc. As a reward, I give them heaven for eternity.”
– Mimi: “My God, Your kingdom come on earth! Reign with Your love in all hearts, especially poor sinners. I offer You my poor soul as a palace. Reign within me. I will no longer be at home but with Your grace I will be with You. My greatest wish is to become one of Your subjects, faithful in serving You. But I want to serve You with love whether joyful or sorrowful. I am confident that what I ask, I will obtain, for You have come for sinners, the miserable, the poor. I am one of them, my God. You know my life, my daily weaknesses. In spite of all this, ô my God, look at the desire I have to love You more than ever, to serve You with fidelity, with an entire submission to Your Holy Will. You know, my God, that I love You and that I want to sanctify myself by all means, that I want to save many souls. I beg You, help me realize my wish for Your greater Glory. I thank You for all that You are doing for me, ô my King of love.”
Thursday 8 September 1955
– Jesus: “Pray for priests who exercise their ministry routinely. How many offer the Holy Sacrifice with an apparent piety but with a distracted heart. They make me suffer. Yes, I am suffering more because they are my children of privilege, My apostles, My friends.
I am also thinking of all the christians who practice their religion superficially, poor souls! My commandments don’t count for them. And you, My little one, in the state you are in, tell Me that you love Me even if you don’t feel it. If you only knew how I need to be consoled. Do your Holy Hour anyhow. You can’t speak to Me; then, simply look at Me. Offer Me the heartbeats of love from your little heart. Have you ever noticed this: when you are sleeping, you are not talking to Me and this does not prevent your heart from beating. At this moment, in the state in which I have placed you, your are sleeping in My arms, near My heart that loves you so.”
– Mimi: I can’t write anymore. My Beloved is hiding. Complete emptiness.
– Mimi: “Without You, my Beloved, I am nothing, I can do nothing. Yet, I accept Your Holy Will over me.”
Friday 9 September 1955
– Mimi: I was getting ready to write but my Beloved hid again so I can do nothing. I cannot have a single thought about Him. I cannot even pray, meditate, nor write a single word. Complete emptiness.
– Mimi: “My God, I accept Your Holy Will. I will make many acts of faith.”
Saturday 10 September 1955
– Mimi: I could not prepare my communion. I could see such misery, preoccupations, temptations in my soul. Not enough love, confidence, and I was suffering a lot.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how great is Your love seeing all this misery. You will still come into my soul! I am so unworthy to receive You in the midst of such disorder, but You alone are able to help me. Increase within me love and confidence.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t trouble yourself! Didn’t I choose a manger at my birth? I don’t look at the state of your soul for it is very miserable. I look at your good will and the great desire you have to love Me even more. Throw yourself with confidence into My arms. I will do the rest.»
– Mimi: “My director helped me prepare my communion. The door of my soul was wide open. He entered it to put it in order. He spoke to me at length about Your infinite love for me. But he spoke especially about my ungratefulness, of my lack of confidence. I was ashamed of my conduct but I was especially sorry for having offended You, ô my God, after so many signs of Your love. I ask sincerely Your forgiveness, but I hope with Your grace never to offend You. I ask Your forgiveness. From now on, I want to atone. I want to console You, to prove to You my repentance, my love by accepting everything from Your Holy Will. I throw myself with love into Your arms. Keep me forever. I know that without You I am nothing.”
Sunday 11 September 1955
– Mimi: My soul is full of joy because it is full of God. In spite of my state of spiritual aridity, all kinds of temptations, a great distaste for prayer, I sense the presence of God in me. I am happy for in the state I am in, I am certain to be doing the Will of God.
– Satan: “Poor little one, you can very well say that you are happy for you are being lazy. Your soul is lukewarm, anything about God leaves you cold, your God is hiding. So much the better for He is in the way! You are now free! This is why you feel happy. Listen to me. I have a lot to tell you.”
– Mimi: “My God, come to my aid! I don’t want to listen to my enemy. I don’t want to offend You through a lack of confidence. I believe in You who are the Truth. I hope and expect everything from You, ô Infinite Goodness, my God, my only Love.”
I was planning to write, read,visit the Blessed Sacrament, but nothing materialized.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you made up your program for the day without asking My advice. That is why I have made My own. You are no longer alone. I am your Spouse, don’t forget!”
– Mimi: “Forgive me, my Beloved. Yes, I accept Your program. I accept with love Your crown of thorns that You have placed on my poor head.
The day went by in suffering a lot. No remedy brings me relief. Only the thought of my Beloved suffering with me helps me and sustains me.
– Mimi: “My God! I am suffering but I love You!”
Monday 12 September 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I accept Your Holy Will in spite of the state I am in. I want to love You more and more. Increase my confidence! My Beloved, in all humility, I have to admit I have a distaste for prayer, for meditation. It is repulsive for me to pray in my present state. However, I accept Your Holy Will and I will do my best to pray, to offer up my day, as if I were having great consolations. Yes, my Beloved, since I have offered You my poor soul as a dwelling, I am no longer at home. I am with You. I thank You for the space You want to give me out of Your goodness. I thank You for the degree of love You give me out of Your Infinite Mercy.”
Tuesday 13 September 1955
– Mimi: I am always in the same state. Complete emptiness. I cannot write anything.
– Mimi: “My God, I believe, I hope and I love You. May Your Holy Will be done!”
Wednesday 14 September 1955
– Mimi: “My God, sustain my faith, increase my love, my confidence. I am going through a terrible moment of temptation against faith. I don’t know what is going on in me. It is making me suffer a lot. I would like to pray. I am unable to. I still make acts of faith and love but I don’t believe what I am saying. I would like to write but there is emptiness. My spirit wanders. I have the impression I am doing nothing to please God. My God! Have pity on me and if this situation is according to Your Will, I accept it.”
Thursday 15 September 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, may your Holy Will be done! I would like to write but there is emptiness. My enemy wants to take advantage of this by troubling my soul.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, you admit that you cannot write a single word. Why don’t you take a book and copy a few sentences. No one will know that these words are not from you. This way, you will be obedient to your director. Fear not! I give you permission. I am the truth! Listen to my voice. I want to make sure of your love and entire submission to my voice.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, please enlighten me. Is this Your Holy Will? I suspect it is my enemy. He seems to have set a trap. My God, I accept the state I am in. Complete emptiness! But You know, my Beloved, that I don’t want to write anything other than what the Holy Spirit inspires me and what You ask of me for the greater glory of God. But at this moment, I can do nothing without You. I submit myself to You. I am awaiting with resignation, with patience, Your light and the inspirations of the Holy Spirit”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, do you still have doubts about Me, My inspirations, My demands, My suggestions, My advice? Do you presently believe in the words of your director, at what he asked you to write down? He knew very well that it wasn’t coming from you. Like Me, he knows your ignorance, your miseries. When I am no longer there, hiding, are you able to do anything? At this moment, are you able to write a single sentence? Of course not!”
Will you finally understand that all this is doing My Holy Will? To accept with love and entire submission everything whether in darkness or in moments of joy. My dear little one, it is by special privilege that I speak to you this way. I want to purify you, to prepare you for what My Father expects from you. Let yourself be led by your director. Give him your hand. Close your eyes. Don’t try to understand. He has known for a long time what I want from you. You will still need him for the road you are going to take will be more painful than the first one. Share with your director what I have just told you. He will understand. May he take all the necessary means to lead you where I want.
My dear little one, your attitude makes me smile. I can see everything. You have opened wide your eyes and at the bottom of your soul, you are wondering what I mean. Poor little one! I understand very well where you are. In the name of Our love, trust Me without trying to understand. Ask constantly for the help of My Divine Mother. Imitate Her in Her humility, in Her entire submission to the Holy Will of God. Meditate on this: “I am the servant of the Lord. May it be done according to Your word.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I thank You for such goodness. I recognize that without You I can do nothing and without the help of Your grace I cannot even raise my eyes towards You nor establish my heart in You nor make a single act of love and of faith. I thank You for Your love and I want to accept the state I am in only because I love You and want to console You in order to help You forget all the sorrow I have caused You with a conduct so evil, so ungrateful, because of my lack of confidence after havng received so many signs of love.
I have to go to the hospital tomorrow. This repels me greatly. However, I accept Your Holy Will with love for the salvation of souls.
I am thinking about Our team work and my prayer at this moment accompanies my director who is working hard in each home he visits.”
Friday 16 September 1955
– Mimi: Visit to the hospital. The doctor suggests another operation for the 28th of September. It is very risky.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if it is Your Will that I am not able to walk after this operation, I accept Your Holy Will, but help me! Give me the courage to resign myself perfectly for I am so weak. Today I accept, but on the very day, will I have the same courage? I place my trust in You. Keep me in Your arms.
My enemy is near me. My God, have pity on me!
