Saturday 26 February 1955
– Mimi: My director just gave me communion. I have a hard time preparing myself for communion for I am greatly tempted.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, help me prepare my soul to receive my Beloved! I believe in Him, in His presence within me. In spite of all my misery I believe in His merciful love for me. I believe He loves me in spite of my indifference, my dejection, my lack of desire to pray and receive the sacraments.
Why after so many signs of love is my heart so cold, so indifferent? This situation makes me suffer a lot. I don’t understand myself, yet, my Beloved, You know how I wish to love You more. You know the bottom of my heart. You know how I wish to save souls. I don’t have the strength to reach my goal. I need You!
How can I fulfill my mission without You? I beg You, help me love You. Teach me to abandon myself to the Holy Will of God everywhere and in all things. You know how small I am in Your divine arms. Give me the strength to fight against my enemies.
My Beloved, I would have liked to visit You during Forty-Hour devotions, but I am in bed because of illness. It has been a month and a half since my operation. How time flies when I am near You! Out of love for You, I offer You the sacrifice of remaining where I am and in the state I am in.”
– Jesus: “My dear beloved little spouse, why do you wish to visit Me in church? Am I not in you, in your soul? I am closer to you than in church! I beg you, speak to Me. If you knew the happiness I feel when you speak to Me with confidence, with love. If you could understand My love for you, My dear little spouse that I have chosen, that I have awaited for such a long time. Show Me your love by accepting the state in which I have placed you. You think your life is useless, however, how many souls will owe you their salvation!
You are meriting even in the state of spiritual aridity I want for you. Do not be discouraged and speak to Me. Speak to Me even more and if I do not answer you, believe that I hear everything. If your soul is in darkness, believe that I see everything.
And if My lips do not say a word, tell yourself that My heart is speaking very loudly its love for you. And if your soul feels abandoned, tell yourself that some day you will have the consolation of eternal happiness with Me, your Spouse. Together, we will glorify My Father. But, my dear little girl, tell yourself especially that in spite of your weaknesses, your daily faults, I love you. Yes, I love you, my little one in whom I have placed so much confidence, so much hope.
Do you want to please Me? Speak to Me of love. Tell Me your sorrows. Trust Me with your desires. Ask Me often forgiveness for your sins, especially for your lack of confidence after all I have done for you. Console Me by accepting everything and give Me everything. Pray also for the souls visiting My monstrance altar. How many of them are sincere? Visit for a reason. Visit in groups to flatter their self-love.
But if only each one of these souls took the time to examine their lives, to see what is needed to avoid offending Me and to love Me even more. This would make Me very happy. Pray so that souls may understand that I am their God and that I love them.”
Then another voice was heard.
– Satan: “My dear little one, why believe in the the presence of God in your soul? You believe that your soul is a tabernacle where God lives? What folly! Why do those who approach the Tabernacle be purified? And you, vain as you are, proud as you are, you believe that this same God lives in you, in your soul soiled by sin! Poor little one! When you will understand, it will be too late. You please me with your sacrilegious communions! You are getting closer and closer to me. How anxious I am to possess you completely like in the past. I am patient!”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar!”
My God, I believe You! I adore You, living in my soul. I love You. I throw myself with confidence into Your divine arms. I am suffering, but may Your Holy Will be done and not mine. My God, I give You everything. I offer You everything. Grant me the grace of never losing You. Without You I can do nothing.”
