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January 1st 1955
– Mimi: “Thank You my Beloved for Your kindness. I was so happy to begin the new year by attending Holy Mass celebrated by my director. How happy I was to receive my God! At the beginning of this year, I offer You all that I have. I throw myself completely into Your divine arms. I accept with love and submission Your Holy Will.
Ô Almighty God, grant me a greater love for You. Increase my confidence and perseverance in prayer and in doing good for without You I can do nothing. I need You to accomplish my duties. You know my great desire never to refuse You anything. You know how much I want to attain my goal this year. I want to save many souls, but I need You, Your grace. My desires are so great but my strength so little. But with You I can do anything.
My Beloved, I thank You for all the graces I received during this year in the spiritual realm. I also thank You for the trials and crosses accompanied by Your grace to endure them with resignation. With each cross, I discovered Your love for me more and more. I thank the Holy Spirit to help me understand what God expects from me and the importance of the cross, of sufferings in my life.
Thank You, my God, for Your infinite mercy, Your patience. Thank You for Your love. Thank You for so much kindness I did not deserve. Thank You for giving me a director who is enlightened, a good and holy priest worthy of carrying the title of God’s representative.
His example and firmness in accomplishing everything perfectly and giving me the courage and an entire submission to the Holy Will of God, the strength to carry on, for I know that in obeying him I am on the right path. However, I did not always understand the importance of blind obedience, of entire submission, of total abandonment. How patient he has been for the last 5 years!
My God, are You pleased with us, with our work over the past 5 years? I beg You, help us. There is still a lot to be done in my soul to purify it and render it agreeable to God. I thank You for all graces received. I did not deserve so much. Once again, thank You, thank You for everything. I want to get rid of all that displeases God. I no longer want to offend Him, even with venial sins. I also want to rid myself of my imperfections, my numerous faults. Especially when I lack confidence that creeps in at times through temptations. Yes, I want to atone. I want to show You my love and gratitude. I want to be constantly on the alert for You. I believe in Your presence within me. I do not want to offend Your gentle gaze and make Your heart suffer, for You have so loved me and given me all out of love.
I no longer fear death for I have thrown myself with love and confidence into the arms of my Gentle Mother of heaven. I am Her little girl. I am certain She will come and get me. Why fear? Does God not give me each day a proof of His love, of His infinite mercy? And why fear judgment? God knows better than I the place He has prepared for me out of His kindness and infinite mercy. And Jesus in becoming my Spouse has giving me a real proof of His love. I so want to please Him.
I allow Him to work freely in me and when death will come, I will go towards God with my Beloved for it is not safe to let a poor little girl go alone on an unknown road. And since my Beloved is always walking by my side and that my great desire is never to leave Him, why would He leave me alone for such a long trip? I have the right to expect everything from Him, for I love Him, I trust in Him, I believe that His love and grace will sustain me each day.”
Saturday 26 February 1955
– Mimi: My director just gave me communion. I have a hard time preparing myself for communion for I am greatly tempted.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, help me prepare my soul to receive my Beloved! I believe in Him, in His presence within me. In spite of all my misery I believe in His merciful love for me. I believe He loves me in spite of my indifference, my dejection, my lack of desire to pray and receive the sacraments.
Why after so many signs of love is my heart so cold, so indifferent? This situation makes me suffer a lot. I don’t understand myself, yet, my Beloved, You know how I wish to love You more. You know the bottom of my heart. You know how I wish to save souls. I don’t have the strength to reach my goal. I need You!
How can I fulfill my mission without You? I beg You, help me love You. Teach me to abandon myself to the Holy Will of God everywhere and in all things. You know how small I am in Your divine arms. Give me the strength to fight against my enemies.
My Beloved, I would have liked to visit You during Forty-Hour devotions, but I am in bed because of illness. It has been a month and a half since my operation. How time flies when I am near You! Out of love for You, I offer You the sacrifice of remaining where I am and in the state I am in.”
– Jesus: “My dear beloved little spouse, why do you wish to visit Me in church? Am I not in you, in your soul? I am closer to you than in church! I beg you, speak to Me. If you knew the happiness I feel when you speak to Me with confidence, with love. If you could understand My love for you, My dear little spouse that I have chosen, that I have awaited for such a long time. Show Me your love by accepting the state in which I have placed you. You think your life is useless, however, how many souls will owe you their salvation!
You are meriting even in the state of spiritual aridity I want for you. Do not be discouraged and speak to Me. Speak to Me even more and if I do not answer you, believe that I hear everything. If your soul is in darkness, believe that I see everything.
And if My lips do not say a word, tell yourself that My heart is speaking very loudly its love for you. And if your soul feels abandoned, tell yourself that some day you will have the consolation of eternal happiness with Me, your Spouse. Together, we will glorify My Father. But, my dear little girl, tell yourself especially that in spite of your weaknesses, your daily faults, I love you. Yes, I love you, my little one in whom I have placed so much confidence, so much hope.
Do you want to please Me? Speak to Me of love. Tell Me your sorrows. Trust Me with your desires. Ask Me often forgiveness for your sins, especially for your lack of confidence after all I have done for you. Console Me by accepting everything and give Me everything. Pray also for the souls visiting My monstrance altar. How many of them are sincere? Visit for a reason. Visit in groups to flatter their self-love.
But if only each one of these souls took the time to examine their lives, to see what is needed to avoid offending Me and to love Me even more. This would make Me very happy. Pray so that souls may understand that I am their God and that I love them.”
Then another voice was heard.
– Satan: “My dear little one, why believe in the the presence of God in your soul? You believe that your soul is a tabernacle where God lives? What folly! Why do those who approach the Tabernacle be purified? And you, vain as you are, proud as you are, you believe that this same God lives in you, in your soul soiled by sin! Poor little one! When you will understand, it will be too late. You please me with your sacrilegious communions! You are getting closer and closer to me. How anxious I am to possess you completely like in the past. I am patient!”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar!”
My God, I believe You! I adore You, living in my soul. I love You. I throw myself with confidence into Your divine arms. I am suffering, but may Your Holy Will be done and not mine. My God, I give You everything. I offer You everything. Grant me the grace of never losing You. Without You I can do nothing.”
Tuesday 1st March 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, sometimes I ask you for something and you hesitate and I, in My infinite goodness, wait and fill you with special graces as if you had given me everything. See My patience, My mercy, My love!”
Wednesday 2 March 1955
– Jesus: “My poor little one, how you follow Me at a distance! Today, I do not ask you what you are doing? Look at Me! Did I run away from the instruments of My passion just because I felt weak? No, My dear little one. I accepted everything. My love for you was too great. I wanted to give up everything to redeem your soul.
You are right in feeling weak. With what do we save souls? From now on, may your confidence be greater. Listen to Me carefully: if I ask you for more, I will give you more! Do you believe this?”
Thursday 3 March 1955
– Mimi: I am suffering a lot. No matter whether I suffer more or less. All I wish for is to do the Will of God in everything. My Beloved is giving me many graces. Especially when He sees that I am submissive. He knows about my desire to suffer with Him. When I suffer I become so little that there is room for both of us on the same cross. This makes me very happy!
My happiness is so great when I am placed with Him on the same cross and during that time, my love is so strong that I almost forget the suffering and the cross upon which I am placed. I think only of Him, my unique Love.
Friday 4 March 1955
– Mimi: Great temptation! The devil wants to discourage me by telling me that all I am doing is useless. This is what he says:
– Satan: “When you die, your hands will be empty but I will wait for you with my hands burdened with your faults, my arms piled with your sins. Then, you will be allowed to see your work.”
– Mimi: “My wish is to arrive in heaven with my hands empty for I shall have given everything to my Beloved and souls. Like Him, I wish to die poor and naked, detached from everything in order to resemble Him better. When I come before my God, I shall say:
“Here is, ô my God, the poorest, the most miserable of Your creatures. If my hands are empty, my God, it isn’t because I received nothing. On the contrary, I admit that, in Your infinite mercy, in Your love, you have spoiled me more than others. I recognize and admit that I did not deserve as much. This is why offer You my empty hands. You gave me everything. In return, I give You everything and I give the surplus to souls. There is nothing left.
However, my God, look at a poor heart filled with love for You. I know, my God, that I did not do much on earth but I think I did my best to keep this love for You alone, my God, especially for the past 5 years. And, in the past, I know that I took advantage of Your love, Your graces. I overdid it. I gave to the things of the earth, to creatures too much of myself, too much importance. I ask Your forgiveness.
Now that I have become the spouse of Your Beloved Son, I jealously keep watch over this precious gift of love. It must remain inside of me. This is why I beg You, increase Your love in me. Increase also the state of sanctifying grace and protect me from sin that is able to make me lose an incomparable treasure.
Yes, my God, this love is Yours. I want to give it back to You intact. I want to give back my poor little soul as white as on the day of my baptism. I am confident and I believe in Your infinite mercy. In order to obtain these graces, I want to make myself so little, so poor, so humble, so confident. I want to become the beggar of love.
I am sure that Your paternal heart will be moved at seeing my poverty, my misery, my spiritual smallness. I want to approach You with courage and with Your grace, I will take refuge in Your divine heart. I want to get my strength back by becoming one with You more and more through the sacrament of love.
My God, I expect everything from You and only Your love will fulfill my desires. Only Your love will be able to warm my heart so cold, so indifferent. In spite of my misery, my weaknesses, I expect everything from Your Infinite Mercy. You, the God of love, purify my soul. Listen to the prayer of Your little girl who is asking for Your help, Your assistance, but especially of Your love.
My God, in the name of Your Son’s merits, convert me and increase in me the confidence and love and thus I shall remain faithful to You all my life.”
Saturday 5 March 1955
– Mimi: I was meditating on the infinite mercy of God towards me and about all the special graces He was giving me out of pure goodness. I was reminding myself of certain circumstances of my poor life and I was thanking Him for so much love and goodness.
But suddenly, my enemy began troubling me with certain memories of my life. He wanted to discourage me. The temptations were getting worse. At this critical moment, I asked for the help of My Gentle Mother of heaven saying:
– Mimi: “Ô Mary conceived without sin, pray for me. Protect your child who is struggling!”
And the more I pray, the more my enemy attacks me with more strength, more violence. He wants to win. I can’t go on and I weep like a child. Suddenly, the Holy Spirit inspires me to call my director to inform him about the present situation. He understands my insinuations and says he will pray. This gives me strength and courage. After several hours of struggling and suffering, I am able to find rest in the arms of my Beloved.
Sunday 6 March 1955
– Mimi: During the night, I was awakened by a strange pain. My whole body was in pain. I could hardly breathe and I was unable to move. Suddenly, I clearly heard a voice near me say:
– Satan: “My dear little one, offer Me this suffering. I need it because there is a soul in the state of mortal sin who is about to die. Give it to me by accepting to suffer!”
– Mimi: “Yes, my God, I accept this suffering to save this soul.”
Then the pain got worse. I could not even move. This lasted quite a while. Confident that this suffering came from God and being assured of the salvation of this soul, accepting the will of God, in spite of the sufferings, I felt great joy. I fell peacefully to sleep like a child in the arms of my Beloved. Then, during the day, great temptation against faith. My enemy attacked me once again.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect my soul and my body. I take refuge in Your Motherly Heart. Look upon Your child who is suffering and weeping.
I so want to keep my soul pure, my Beloved. See Your little spouse who is struggling to keep this love pure. Why do you turn a deaf ear? I need You, I need Your help.”
The struggle was long and painful for my soul was in the dark and my body weakened by illness.
In the evening, a visit from my director. He speaks to me for a long time about the mercy of God, about His love, about the beauty of a soul in the state of grace and about the necessity of obedience and of total abandonment to the Holy Will of God. After he left, I meditated on these words so encouraging for a sick soul.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, with love, I accept the state in which I am and I no longer want to place obstacles to the inspiration of Your graces.
7 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I prefer seeing myself lying on a cross than seeing myself carry it on my shoulders, for I am still too weak. I would certainly have fallen.”
I have already been in bed for two months or rather on my cross. Happily I am not alone. I am happy to be with Him. What an honor and a joy to suffer with Him. What comfort for a little girl so weak, so frail.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, don’t leave me. Give me perseverance to follow You to the end. Increase my confidence, purify my love, give me the strength to accomplish with resignation, with love what You have asked of me especially for the past two months.”
From now on, my ideal will be to do the will of God in all things and everywhere, to continue saving souls, to suffer in silence, to put up each day with my little pain and all this out of love for you and for souls.
8 March 1955
– Mimi: I am suffering. I would like to give alms to help my neighbor. I would so like to practice charity, but having given everything away, I have nothing. I will still help my neighbor by giving alms of my prayers and of my little sacrifices. My enemy is mocking me. He is trying to discourage me.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, help me please. I do not want to offend You from a lack of confidence. Increase my faith, my love. I am suffering a lot from uncertainty.
Out of love for You, I offer You this struggle, this state I am in. I trust in You. My God, throught the sufferings and merit of Your Son, save the souls of poor sinners. Have mercy on the dying. I unite my sufferings to those of Your Divine Son for the salvation of souls. My wish is to offer You many.”
Wednesday 9 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am beginning my day in great sorrow. It pains me a lot. You know how anxious I was to receive You. You know my growing desire of union with You. You are my whole life, my only love, my unique hope. I need You so much to help me, to purify me. I know that without You I can do nothing, that I am nothing. I beg You, come spiritually into my soul, my Beloved, my God, my All.
Come with all Your splendor, come especially with all Your love. I wish to receive You, to adore you, to love You. I feel so weak, so sick, so miserable because of my sins. I need to get my strength back in order to struggle. I need support in order not to fall. I need a pure heart to love and it is Yours that I have chosen. Ô my God, I believe in Your love for me and I thank You with all my soul, with all my strength. You know, my Beloved, what the heart of a child is capable of doing when it loves. It does not measure, it gives without reservation its love, its affection and multiplies its kisses and caresses. Accept these marks of tenderness and love, ô my Beloved. Am I not Your child? How I miss You! How anxious I am to receive You!”
Another voice:
– Satan: “My dear little one, you have time to lose! Do you believe this invisible being exists? You’re out of your mind! Live in reality! Why do you love without any return? Why live as a slave? You were not able to receive communion this morning. Why does your director tell you that you are in the state of grace? He is in doubt. He knows very well that this communion would have been a sacrilege. He is afraid. Yes, he fears for himself for he is still searching for truth… He fears you and me. He knows very well that I will not leave you. Some day, you will be mine, only mine.
This is why he did not come. Look at his strength. He didn’t dare. He finds excuses and you believe him? Listen! I open your eyes and I am not afraid to speak to you. Why do you have confidence in him? He doesn’t understand you. What can he do for you?
– Mimi: “Liar! Get lost! Leave me in peace!”
I believe in God. I adore Him and love Him. I trust in Him and his representative. My God, close my ears to the discourses and suggestions of the devil!
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please protect me. I trust in You, my hope. I place my trust in God. I believe in the dignity of the priest, of my director. I see only You in him. I want to always have the same respect and the same submission. I believe in Your words: “He who hears you, hears Me and he who rejects you, rejects Me.” My guardian angel, watch over me!
Thursday 10 March 1955
– Mimi: “My God, how I hate to write, but I must do it out of obedience.
Ô Holy Spirit, please guide me so that no words, phrases of mine be contrary to the truth, for the devil tells me not to say everything, not to write.
My Beloved, please help me keep smiling in spite of the physical pain I have. I thank You for Your help, for with Your grace, I am able to remain serene and hide my struggles, my doubts, my interior sorrows.”
It makes me smile when I hear certain persons say: “She is very well. She doesn’t seem to suffer”, when I am suffering most, or when I am struggling to remain pure, for my enemy uses every means to attack me. It seems at times that he is using burning tips, so great is the temptation. He uses every means. He wants to discourage me.
Ô Mary conceived without sin, protect me. Do not leave Your child to struggle alone. I throw myself with confidence into Your motherly arms.
In spite of the state I am in, I believe and expect everything from You, my Beloved. Consider my heart that wants to love You more than ever and suffers to see how little You are loved by Your creatures so indifferent. And to think that I used to be one of them. I ask sincerely Your forgiveness. How anxious I am to receive You in order to console You, to atone for my sins, to love You.”
Then, for a moment, being near to me, I felt so small in His arms. Ô gentle embrace! I would have wanted this moment to last forever! Thank You, my Beloved, for so much love! How calm I feel, an immense peace in spite of the physical pain! I can no longer doubt our love.”
I feel that I know that my Beloved wants me to be His. Of this I am sure.
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for this attention! In Your goodness, You allowed my director to share Our happiness. I do not know whether he knew that Our love was so strong, ô my Beloved. Thank You, my Love! You had already promised me that You would manifest Yourself in him to increase his confidence. I saw it and do not doubt it.”
How happy he was! He wept for joy. When I expressed my desire to receive You, he eagerly said: “I will come back tomorrow. Yes, I will bring your Jesus!” I was so happy, so moved that when he left, I too wept for joy. My happiness was so great that it was too much for my poor heart. I could hardly carry on without feeling sharp pains. Only divine love can have such an effect on my soul. How I found the time long waiting for tomorrow.”
Friday 11 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, come share my happiness. Help me prepare my soul so that I may receive Him with all the respect and love He claims. I am so anxious to receive Him! After having been in the dark for several days, it was so dark in my prison though I wanted to believe that He was hiding from me to try my confidence and love. I cannot express here all the happiness I feel. Thank You, thank You my God for having come into my soul this morning through the Sacrament of love.”
What joy, today, to be able to speak to Him freely. He is in my soul, in Our little dwelling. There are so many things to say after such a long silence.
– Mimi: “My Lord and my God, I adore You present in me. I thank You for Your infinite mercy. With what love You come to me! I am not worthy to receive You after having offended You so many times. I ask Your forgiveness.”
– Jesus: “My dear little beloved spouse, if I gave you this consolation, it is to prepare you. If My love has become so strong, so powerful in you, it is to strengthen you for you must be strong in Me and with Me to accomplish what I expect from you. Since you became My spouse, My little girl, I have asked a lot more from you because I had given you more than you deserve. My dear little one, I must purify you completely so that there may not remain a particle of you and of sin. Then, you will be able to say sincerely: “Nothing is mine, I have given everything and it is He who lives in me.” From now on We are but one.
Because of your lack of confidence you were placing an obstacle to grace and the work of the Holy Spirit had become difficult at times. May your love become complete in Me. Together We will take to the road once more. The road I will offer you will be filled with crosses, trials of all kinds, sufferings. It is the only road that leads to heaven for eternity.
Now that I am near you, that I feel your sincerity, that I consider your love, I am aware of your struggles, your efforts to please Me. I see your repentance. Do you believe I am going to leave you alone to walk along this road I am offering you?
No, My little girl, have no fear. I will be with you, everywhere and forever. However, believe in My word and in what I tell you. It is out of pure goodness that I speak to you. Do not doubt. Even in a state of spiritual aridity, in darkness, in all kinds of temptations.
I am always near you even though you do not always feel My presence. I am always there. I see everything. I see you struggle. I hear your cries. I hear your prayers. I receive the movements of love from your little soul. I am aware of your desire to possess Me for eternity. This consoles Me.
So that Our union may be complete, My dear little girl, may your prayer remain confident. Throw yourself entirely into My divine arms, like today. It is so easy. Am I not right in saying that you wish these consoling moments never to end? Do you see how divine love is able to transform a poor little soul that is still very miserable? You are still so weak.
My dear little one, this is the reason why I want to help you. I am constantly keeping watch over you. I strengthen you with My grace. Ask Me often for the gift of love, the gift of strength, of perseverance and for all the gifts of the Holy Spirit. You will need them all your life that will soon come to an end.
My dear little spouse, in a short while you will suffer greatly to help Me save souls. By a special privilege and to make you understand what I endured out of love for you and souls, I will share with you a few sufferings that I endured during My passion. You will endure sufferings of the body. The pain will be so great that the traits on your face will change. You will also endure almost total abandonment because others will not understand your pain and what is going on within you. All your sufferings will come from Me. I will share My agony with you. You will also suffer in your heart, in your mind.
During one of our encounters, you said you were happy to have been placed with Me on the same cross. You even added this: “What an honor and what happiness there is to suffer with Him!” Yes, My dear little girl, the honor for you is to be with Me, your God and the happiness for Me is to be with you, My dear little girl. You are Mine, all Mine! At times, I am a jealous God!”
Begin this very day to offer Me a little more. Keep silent on all this except with your director so that he may help you, enlighten you, sustain you with his prayers and sacrifices. Prepare yourself with acts of love, confidence in My omnipotence, in My mercy. Abandon yourself into My arms. Be submissive to the Holy Will of My Father. Ask for the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Tell Me you accept with love and an entire submission the Holy Will of My Father.
However, ask permission from your director. Be very obedient to him. He is taking My place. Do as he says. I bowe before the priest. Reflect a little on these words you don’t understand. Be humble. Ask your director to explain. If I favor you with so many graces, special favors, it is only to show you My love. For you are the poorest, the littlest of My creatures. You are so miserable with your sick body, your soul full of faults and imperfections. This is why I come to you in order to help you in your purification.”
– Mimi: “My God, with Your grace and Your help, I freely accept with the full consent of my will all that it will please You to send me for the greater good of my soul. But in submitting myself to Your Holy Will, ô my God, I especially want to show You my love and gratitude for so much goodness.
You know, my Beloved, that my poor little nature is trembling at the thought of what You ask of me. This is why I beg You, do not leave me. You are my strength, my support, my courage. Strenghten my faith, purify my love, increase my confidence. I want to place all my hope in You alone.
I place myself in Your divine arms. I abandon myself entirely like a little girl in the arms of her father. I trust in You. I also want to allow the Holy Spirit to work in me.”
Every day, I ask my Gentle Mother of heaven to teach me how to say my Fiat.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, listen to the voice of Your little girl who is weeping and suffering because I know my weaknesses and sins that are so numerous. Humbly and with love, confidence, I throw myself into Your motherly arms. Sustain my courage, strengthen my faith, protect me from my enemies, ô Mother of Sorrows. How You must have suffered because of me! I ask Your forgiveness. My heart suffers with Yours in seeing Your Gentle Jesus, my Beloved.
Please give me perseverance, and when God comes, may He find me ready to to His Holy Will. At Your example, may I say in spite of my misery: “I am the servant of the Lord.”
Saturday 12 March 1955
– Mimi: “I had a beautiful gift. Great happiness was mine, this morning. My director gave me communion! I did the novena of grace. All day, I did my best to remain constantly in His arms. What gentle exchanges We had. God knew very well that in giving me an affectionate heart, one day, this same heart would beat for Him alone. He also knew that with a sensitive heart I would have to suffer more. My Beloved! I give you this heart, lovingly. Keep it! It is Yours. Do with it what You will!”
My Beloved made me understand that the only true happiness on earth is to do the Will of His Father, to remain faithful to Him out of love. How I meditated for a long time on a sentence given to me by my director:
“Pray for me so that I may love Him more.
I would like to die of love for Him.”
How consoling it is for God to see a soul that loves Him, a faithful soul, one that has given up everything to follow Him, a soul that loves Him enough to die of love for Him! How this soul must have a special place in His Divine Heart!
– Mimi: “My Beloved! I also wish to love You even more! I will ask my director to help me love You, to teach me how to serve You faithfully with an entire submission and full confidence.”
Sunday 13 March 1955
– Mimi: “My God! I believe in You who have risen from the dead. Please grant me the grace for my soul to resurrect to another life… a new life filled with love and total abandonment. You who healed the blind, allow me to see, yes, may I see with the eyes of faith; may I see my misery, my faults, my sins as You see them, my Beloved! Yes, my Beloved, open my ears so that I may only hear Your voice of truth and may I listen to the words of my director. Guide my faltering steps on the road to heaven. Everything in me is sick. Look with pity on Your poor little girl who so wants to please You and love You! I believe! I expect everything from Your infinite mercy.»
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for Your kindness. I am suffering physically but your love is so strong that I also forget that I am nailed to the cross. I am so happy to rest my head on Your shoulder, like Saint John. How wonderful it is to hear Your heart filled with love for Your little spouse. I can’t get enough of it. Thank You for Your love that I am savoring with delight. Ô Infinite Goodness! My God, my Love, my All!
In return, receive my love that is still very feeble, but I am confident that You can increase it and purify it. This is why I wish to receive You in Your sacrament of love. I want to live only in You and for You, my God. You know, my Beloved, how much I wish more and more to become Your little Host of love that You could offer and immolate each day with You for the salvation of souls.
Thank You for Your graces, for such goodness in spite of my faults for which I ask forgiveness. Yes, forgive me for the sins of all my life. Forgive me for my lack of confidence. I did not know You as You were. Yet, after so many signs of Your love, why did I remain so indifferent? My director was doing his best to make me understand. In my ignorance, in my pride, I must admit that I prayed badly… I couldn’t admit the intimacy of God with a soul, especially with a sinful soul. I still prayed but my prayers were only on a natural level, prayers of interest. I was too earthly. I was more preoccupied by my enemy than by Your grace that helped me along continually. What mistakes I could have made if You had abandoned me! In Your infinite goodness, in Your great mercy, You waited for me patiently for such a long time! You protected me! From what dangers You spared my soul and my body!
Moreover, You filled me with Your favors and special graces. You even chose a director to guide me. You favored me by giving me the chance to atone, repair, merit and become Your little spouse. Your love is so great that You wish, through a special privilege, to share with me Your sufferings so that Our union may be perfect. How can one refuse after all this?
How stupid I have been, ungrateful towards You, towards my director! I ask Your forgiveness. Let me weep at Your feet, over my faults, my infidelity, at such goodness I didn’t deserve. How can I refuse to believe in Your love, Your infinite mercy? I humbly ask Your forgiveness. Allow me to kiss Your divine forehead as I tell You from the bottom of my soul that I love You, that I accept out of love Your Holy Will. I offer You all the love contained in my little heart.”
Monday 14 March 1955
– Mimi: “Another day with You, my Beloved. I want to love You, to console You. With Your grace, I want to do my best not to offend You. Please help me. I need a lot of patience.
I will silently put up with the faults of those around me, remembering that You were very patient with me for such a long time. I offer You all the sorrows of mylife, the loneliness, the unkindness, the difficulties of all sorts especially those concerning my obligations. I offer You my aches and pains out of love. I want to remain silent about everything. On my knees, I protrate myself near You. I adore You. I want to tell you all the sorrow I have for having offended a God so good. I feel the need to be near You, to tell You I love You, that I want to remain faithful. It is near You that I get back my strength. I entrust to You all the souls, especially the poor sinners, the dying. I pray for the conversion of the world, for peace in the world, for peace among families, for peace among souls.
In Your infinite goodness, protect Our Holy Father. Strengthen Your Church. Give strength and courage to missionaries. Increase sacerdotal and religious vocations. Protect the purity of youth, console the suffering, those who weep, who struggle and are alone. Have pity on orphans, give courage to those who are desperate. In other words, my Beloved, consider all human misery. My Beloved, I wish that all these souls may look up to You their God. I would like all these souls to recognize You as their God who is infinitely good; that they remain confident and hope in You, the Almighty.
If only I were able to go all over the world to tell them that You are the only God, the Almighty, the God of mercy; that You are the One who gave us everything out of love. I would like to tell them all that You have done for me. I would like to make them understand that each soul You created is loved by You in a particular way as if it were the only one in the world. All You ask for in return is to be loved and that in spite of trials and crosses, they remain faithful to You by accepting everything out of love and for the glory of Your Father. There are days when I would like to be a missionary to make others aware of You. How I would like to be a priest in order to offer more to God.
My Beloved, please give me the heart of an apostle, a generous heart, ready to give myself to everyone, a heart that understands souls, a heart that helps out the needy, especially sinners, a heart that is able to speak about divine love, confidence, a heart that gives without regret, a heart that inspires hope, confidence, that gives others the strength to carry on. I would like to have a heart able to weep with those who suffer. I would like to have a humble heart, one that consoles, one that is compassionate towards my neighbor, friends and enemies. I would like to have a heart that can smile when joyful or sorrowful. My Beloved, give me a faithful heart to follow You, a heart submissive to Your Holy Will, a heart that can only be satisfied in possessing You completely. Give me a heart able to really love You!
– Mimi: Please give me a heart that resembles Yours; a heart like Your Divine Mother’s. You know, my Beloved, how much is needed to be done to change my poor little heart. How about it? Grant me the grace of purifying it, sanctifying it, rendering it agreeable to God in order that I may accomplish all that You expect from Your little girl. This is why I am counting on You, on Your grace. With love, full confidence, I place my heart near Yours, in Yours. Sacred Heart of Jesus, I trust in You!
Tuesday 15 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, in spite of my misery, I hope in You, I accept to suffer with You. I accept with love to carry my daily cross with an entire submission. I accept what You expect from me on earth and later on in heaven, for I am confident that Our union will be completed in heaven.
What increases my confidence in You is Your Merciful Love for me, so poor, so little, so sinful. How great is Your goodness! How beautiful is love in suffering! Union of God with the most frail of His creatures!”
I am happy. My director has taught me how to pray to You without making detours. He speaks to me about the intimacy of God with souls, of His goodness, of His infinite mercy, of His love. He then speaks to me about what I used to be and about what God did for me out of pure goodness. I must meditate on this seriously.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, come close to me to help me prepare tomorrow’s communion. The time seems far off and I am so anxious.”
Wednesday 16 March 1955
– Mimi: “Nearer to You, my God. I need You more and more. I need Your presence in my poor soul to help me struggle against my enemy who remains at my side.
My Beloved, I want to spend this day without offending You. I am suffering a lot. My enemy wants to take advantage of this to make me impatient. My Beloved, without You I can do nothing. Help me remain faithful. Like You, my Beloved, I want to suffer in silence, since this pain comes from You and that everything in me belongs to You. Do with me what You will. I give myself to You for life and eternity. My Beloved, how I miss You. The more I receive You the more I desire to posses You entirely to love You,to thank You. You know, my Beloved, that I want to remain Your little victim of love, Your little Host of love that You immolate every day with You. I believe in You, divine love, my Beloved Spouse. I am happy to be near You. I want to offer You everything out of love. I cannot write any longer. I am suffering too much.”
– Mimi: “My director reassured me. I was afraid of losing You, of offending You. Do You realize, my Beloved, all the mistakes I could make if you did not sustain me? I can see that I am not dead yet and that I must be on the alert for more battle. Each day I must do battle.
After this storm, I lift up my head towards God.
– Mimi: “Consider me, my Beloved, see my misery! I need You. I need Your help. Sustain me with Your graces, with Your love. I don’t want to lose You. When will the day come when I will not fear losing You?
I bowe before Your Holy Will and count on Your help for I have every reason to fear for my poor human nature as long as I live. But I am confident. I know that You will not allow me to be separated from You if I abandon myself to You, if I place my confidence in You every day of my life. This love, this confidence in You, my Beloved, I ask You to expand it, to purify it. I expect everything fromYou, my God, my All.”
Thursday 17 March 1955
– Mimi: “Today, my Beloved, I want to repair all my negligence. My Beloved, I want to remember that I must resemble You to be aggreeable to God. I want to practice humility. I will avoid talking about myself, about my aches, about what bothers me. I will keep silent out of love for You. Isn’t it true, my Beloved, that Our love, Our intimacy must remain a secret?”
I was reciting the Rosary and meditating…
First mystery: The Annunciation. Let us ask for humility.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the grace to be humble enough so that Jesus will accept to visit me with His grace and that in the eyes of the world, I will be considered a nobody.
2nd Mystery: The Visitation. Let us ask for charity.
Ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, how I lack this virtue! Please grant me the grace to be charitable towards everyone and out of charity, I want to offer everything, give everything away. I ask for the conversion of the whole world, the delivrance of the souls in purgatory.
3rd Mystery: The birth of Jesus. Let us ask for detachment.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the detachment from everything. Like You, I want to live and die poor and unknown by all. Detach my heart from human affections, creatures. Remove all that could separate me from You, from Your Gentle Son. Like Him, I want to be submissive to God out of love.”
4th Mystery: The presentation of Jesus in the temple. Let us ask for purity.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the grace of purity. When I pray to God, may all my prayers, my requests be purified by You, ô Mediatrix of all graces. Grant me the grace of remaining pure. May I allow my spirit to be guided by the Holy Spirit and may my heart be constantly turned towards God with love and submission. Grant me the grace to always purify my intentions towards my neighbor.”
5th Mystery: The recovery of Jesus in the temple. Let us ask for obedience.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the grace of always finding Jesus, God, in all things and everywhere; in moments of joy and in sorrow. Grant me the grace of always being submissive and docile to the Holy Will of God. For this, I must be obedient to my director who represents You. It is so easy to jump in the arms of Jesus with love and to allow oneself to be guided by a blind obedience full of confidence.”
Friday 18 March 1955
– Mimi: “How anxious I am to receive You! With the help of my Gentle Mother of heaven, I want clean up my little interior home. I so want to purify it, make it agreeable to God. There is still a lot of dust but I am confident that with the breeze of grace, You will make these faults, these imperfections that offend You disappear entirely.”
− Eternal Father: “My dear little girl, I could make everything disappear with one stroke, everything that is wrong with you but for the time being I want it to be this way. Otherwise, where would your efforts be? Your struggles? Where would you place your confidence? To whom would your love go? Isn’t it true that you recognize your faults, that you admit there is a lot to be done? It’s going to take time. You are right in asking for your Divine Mother’s help in cleaning up your home. She did such a good job in preparing the home of My Beloved Son. My dear little girl, be humble and confident. Love Her. I am sure She won’t refuse to help you prepare your little soul to receive Us.”
– Mimi: “How anxious I am to receive You! I am counting on Your love to purify me. I am counting the hours. To wait until tomorrow seems very far.”
Saturday 19 March 1955
Memorable day. Feast of Saint Joseph
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for so much goodness. I had the great privilege of receiving communion. I cannot express all the joy of possessing You entirely. You, my God, my unique Love. Dear Saint Joseph, receive the best wishes from a little girl who loves You and who implores Your help.
On this feast day, You cannot refuse anything to a little soul who asks with sincerity and confidence Your help, Your assistance in all her needs. You, the guardian of the Blessed Virgin, grant me the grace to keep my soul pure. Protect me from the dangers of this life, especially of losing God. You know what it’s like to lose God without being your fault. You had lost Jesus during three days and it must have seemed an eternity. Then, what joy it was for You to recover Your son, Your Jesus. I also had lost Jesus for a long time. But now that I have recovered Him, do not allow me to lose Him again through sin. Have pity on me and protect me. I want this feast day to be spent in union with Jesus, Mary, Joseph in order for Us to be one single family.
I want God to fill with spiritual and temporal favors my director to whom I owe a lot for the salvation of my soul. I ask You to give him health. He needs it to accomplish what You expect from him. You know his desire to save souls. Look upon this apostle working with firmness and fervor to give You as many souls as possible. Help him in the difficulties he encounters at times in his Holy Ministry.
You know that he is working for You and that all the souls that You have given him, he wants to return them to You purified and render glory to God. You know, my Beloved, how happy he is to hold You in his hands, with what confidence and especially with what love he abandons himself to the Holy Will of God. Receive my humble prayers and please grant him all the graces he asks and needs in his Holy Ministry for the salvation of souls.»
Sunday 20 March 1955
– Mimi: “I am sad. Someone is missing and this someone is You, my Beloved. Come visit me with Your love, your grace in a spiritual communion. I adore You, present in me. I know that I don’t deserve this favor but You who see the bottom of my soul, You know all the sorrow I feel for having offended You. But I beg You, see my desire of never losing You and the resolution of loving You ever more. I ask Your help for without You I can do nothing. Ô Almighty God, please grant me the grace of pure love. You cannot refuse my request. Look at my sincerity.
How anxious I am to live near You and never be separated from You. How I regret all the years when I lived without worrying about my salvation! How often I turned a deaf ear to Your calls. I had shut the door to any grace. I ask sincerely your forgiveness. Thank You, thank You for waiting such a long time for me. Thank You for Your infinite mercy. Thank You for Your love. My Beloved, I give myself to you without limit. Receive this offering of my whole being, all that I am. My Beloved Spouse, all that is mine is Yours forever. Here I am!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, did you notice that Our two hearts think and wish the same thing? You tell me: “My Beloved Spouse, everything in me is Yours. Here I am!” And I answer you by repeating the same words: “My dear little spouse, everything in Me is yours. Here I am!” Do you recognize the effects of divine love? Do not forget Our union, love in suffering for the salvation of souls and the glory of My Father.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for Your love. In return, receive mine.”
Monday 21 March 1955
– Mimi: The day does not begin well. I am suffering a lot physically. The pain is so severe that I can only manage a few hours of sleep, always on the same side. Looking at me, I seem to be on a bed of roses, but they do not suspect that under the roses there are thorns.
– Mimi: “I thank You, my Beloved, for having chosen for me this suffering that has lasted for two and a half months without forgetting my weariness and the anxieties of my soul when I am in darkness, when I am looking for You and am afraid of not being Your little girl, when the temptation oppresses me constantly, when the road seems endless, when my Beloved makes me go through all kinds of mind-sets. My Beloved, I love You and I trust in You.”
Upon leaving the hospital, how anxious I was to get home and pick up my routine to lighten the burden of my dear mom. It was just the opposite. Here I am continually depending on everybody.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, because I love You, I accept lovingly the state I am in. I accept the action of Your grace in my soul. I cannot refuse You anything. I offer You my entire life, my body, my soul, my eternity. I abandon You everything I have, my God, my All.
Tuesday 22 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, to please You I will remain silent. I am so tired hearing everyone talking that I am unable to rest. My God, I need You, Your love, Your grace in my soul. My Beloved, please give me a lot of patience and enough love to accept everything. I accept Your Holy Will to stay in bed.
My God, I love You. Increase my love, my confidence. Help me. Without You I am nothing. I feel the presence of my enemy near me. He wants to discourage me. He wants to take advantage of the state of weakness I am in. My Beloved, I beg You, speak to me. You who are Truth. I need to hear Your voice to reassure me. At the moment, I am suffering too much and don’t have the strength to write all the suggestions of my enemy. All I want to write is about Your love and all that You have done for me for such a long time. I would like to write about all my gratitude and to love You even more. I thank You for Your infinite mercy, Your love.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me how to love Your Gentle Son. Teach me how to love everything that comes from Him; the joys and the crosses, the trials. Teach me especially to love His Holy Will. I am afraid of my enemy. I tremble. I am afraid of my weakness but I hope in You, my Mother, my Love. This is why I implore Your help. I throw myself confidently into Your powerful arms. Keep me in Your heart and hide me from my enemy so that he may never find me. Together, we will prepare tomorrow’s communion. I can hardly wait.”
Wednesday 23 March 1955
– Mimi: “I was preparing my communion with My Gentle Mother of heaven. How anxious I was! I felt that my director wasn’t coming fast enough. I was making acts of faith and love. Suddenly, my enemy comes to me saying:
– Satan: “You are suffering for nothing. Why don’t you take advantage of the remainder of your life to enjoy it a little? If you wanted, I could do something for you. You could even find a certain consolation in the state you are in. You know what I mean. Am I not right in saying that you find the time long between four walls. Poor little one! So young and suffering so much for nothing. It isn’t fair! Give me a simple “yes”. Give me a sign and I am there! I will share your joy, your pleasure. Your happiness will be great. After having given up everything for such a long time, you will experience a new joy of coming together after such a long absence. You can now see your mistake. It is still time to come back to me.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! Mother, Mother, my Gentle Mother of heaven, come to my aid! My God, give me enough love to accept all that You want from me.
My Beloved, I beg You, protect me. I am all Yours forever and I don’t want to lose You a single moment through sin. Consider my Love. I cradle myself inYour mighty arms, ô my Beloved Spouse. Do not allow my confidence to be shaken for I believe in You, I cry out to You, I trust in You. I am convinced that Your love is stronger than my enemy.
– Mimi: “My God, receive the offering of Your little girl. Once again, I offer myself as a little Host of love that Your Divine Son immolates each day with Himself for Your glory and for the salvation of souls. I want to keep nothing. Everything in me is Yours. I give You everything, my God, my Creator.
The struggle went on for several hours.
– Mimi: “I thank You, my Beloved, for Your help. I am so pleased for not having offended You, my God, my All.
– Mimi: Thank You my Gentle Mother of heaven for having helped me during this struggle. I am suffering too much to continue writing. I accept this suffering for the salvation of souls but especially to show You my gratitude, my love and my entire submission to Your Holy Will.”
Thursday 24 March 1955
- Mimi: I am always in the same state. My heart is tormented by temptations. I am always in the same moral solitude since this morning. I must keep smiling, hide my troubles, my struggles.
Oh! How tempted I am to say with my Beloved: “Father, if it is possible, may this cup depart from me.” My director came for a few minutes. Seeing that he had little time at his disposal, I did not share with him what was going on in my soul. I must not be selfish by thinking only of myself. How nature and grace are struggling!
– Mimi: “Tomorrow, I have to go to the hospital. Another day of suffering for You, my Beloved.”
Friday 25 March 1955
– Mimi: “I am beginning my day with a great sorrow. If You knew the joy I would have had in receiving You on this beautiful feast day but out of obedience, I had to go to the hospital.
Yes, on the 25th of March, five years ago, I was making my first vows. I remember that long expected day. My director had prepared me with a retreat followed by a general confession. How happy I was to have finally found peace, security, happiness in You forever. I was happy to have a heart that was finally free to undertake a new life, to have an ideal. I could raise my eyes to heaven. I had been hoping for this day for such a long time.
I will never forget what my director did for my soul especially on this beautiful day, that is, the day of my conversion. My love was so great to receive You. I felt like I was receiving You for the first time. Do You remember, my Beloved, the tender moments of Our union? I remember Your divine caresses.
I was exhausted after my visit to the hospital, 4 hours of waiting on a bench and always on the same side. I am still suffering from an abcess caused by a faulty injection. For the last two months and a half, I have been suffering a lot from this infection that is spreading more and more. I already have eight boils, a real little factory of boils. I am so exhausted that I can only sleep a few hours each night. The hours are long. It is with great difficulty that I am able to sit down, either to write or read. I am suffering so much this evening that I cannot place my head on the pillow without feeling sharp pain and my little heart is beating so fast. I tell Him:
– Mimi: “These sufferings are for You, my Beloved.”
– Jesus: “Thank you, my dear little one. You please Me when you think of Me in your sufferings. Remember that I had only a stone to rest My poor head and I endured everything out of love for you.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for opening my eyes. It is true that I am selfish in thinking only of myself. Come my Love! Come rest Your head on my heart! Come! I want to console You, to tell You once more that I love You. I offer You my little heart. It is Yours. Keep it forever. I know that in the past, my heart was as hard as a rock. Now that it belongs to You, change it, purify it, keep it in Yours for eternity. I am confident for I know that it is secure. I need You so badly. I need Your help for without You I am nothing. – Well, now my enemy is sticking out his nose.”
− Satan: “You can easily see that your director is mocking you. Don’t call him for communion. Tomorrow, he will laugh at you.”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! I am confident. I will yet ask to receive communion and the more you do your best to prevent me to receive Him, the more I will lovingly throw myself into with confidence into His Divine arms. You cannot prevent me from receiving Him spiritually!”
I am pleased! I will be able to receive Him tomorrow! Thank You, my God! Thanks to my director.
– Mimi: “Welcome, my Beloved, to my little soul! Our dwelling and That of the Blessed Trinity!
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, please cradle me in Your arms. I have such a headache! Yes, cradle me as You did for Your Gentle Jesus, Your Treasure. I am also Your sick child. Could You help me prepare my soul for tomorrow?”
Saturday 26 March 1955
– Mimi: The storm is starting again. I am suffering a lot. My enemy is near me to trouble me.
– Satan: “You are suffering for nothing. You make me laugh. You believe you are suffering with your God. It is useless for you are losing your time. Hardly two and a half months have gone by and you already have had enough. You have left the hospital with five kinds of remedies as pain killers. After all this, do you really think you are suffering out of love?
My poor little one, how easily you are mistaken into believing that you are united to Him, believing in an invisible being! You should believe in what life is refusing you and giving you to suffer, all kinds of difficulties. However, if you wanted, I could help you.
– Mimi: “How I suffer! I who wanted to prepare my communion properly. Why is my enemy near me at this moment? Why is he the first one to visit me? And You, my Beloved, why do You hide at the moment when I desire Your presence in my soul, ô my Love, when I need You so badly at this moment? I was not able to write more for all day was spent in great physical sufferings without forgetting the interior storm.
My God, come to my aid. I am so exhausted that I am not even able to hear someone speak. Everything tires me. The least effort to do something exhausts me.
Therefore, I must submit myself to Your Holy Will and accept with patience, with great love all that You want from me, my Beloved, and for the moment, You want me to remain in a bed that has become my cross, Our Cross, ô my Love. I love You more than anything.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, I am sending you a S.O.S. Come to my aid if You please! I am losing my strength! Give me the courage to continue this struggle. If Your Gentle Son decides to hide from me, I suffer from this but You, my Gentle Mother of heaven, do not hide from me as well, I beg You. Look upon Your little girl who weeps and is struggling. Help me! I don’t want to lose Your Jesus. I love Him so and more than anything. Increase my faith and my love.”
Sunday 27 March 1955
– Mimi: “The storm is full blown! My God, come to my aid! I feel so lonely! Why are you hiding from me, my Beloved? What will become of me without You? My enemy doesn’t leave me alone, ô my Beloved. Help me struggle, purify me, give me courage, patience, love to continue the struggle! You know, my Beloved that I don’t want to lose You. I would rather die than consent for a single moment to what my enemy suggests. My God, I believe, I adore You and love You more than anything else. I believe in Your presence in me in spite of the temptations I am undergoing. I am suffering a lot but I accept everything out of love and for the salvation of souls.
Mother! Mother! My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect Your little girl. The temptation is getting worse! I am exhausted by the illness. Without You I can do nothing. Cover me with Your regal mantle and hide me. Hide my soul, my will, my spirit, my heart, my body. Everything in me belongs to You.
My Beloved! Please protect me. Tell me You love me as Your little spouse.”
I was reading the Passion of Jesus Christ and suddenly my enemy made an appearance saying:
− Satan: “Poor little girl! Why do you believe all this? You believe you are suffering with God! Why would He need your sufferings, especially yours? Where is His might? Look at what He is doing with you at the moment!”
He has abandoned you. He no longer listens to what you ask of Him. Since way back He has rejected you. Why believe in heaven? It is not for you. If there is one, it is for souls that are pure, not for the damned. You are among them with all the souls you have already lost. How proud you are! You always expect that some day He will forgive you, but your sins are so many. And besides, you believe you are the spouse of Christ! You say that He loves you and that you love Him more than anything. Come on, little one! Use your head! This God that you put to death because of your sins would lovingly become your spouse? You’re wrong and you believe that? You have a blind confidence in your director who tells you that God loves you. He is mistaken. Poor little one who falls for this so easily.
Admit, my little proud one, that I am right. You know very well that I am telling the truth even though you tell your director that you are happy to suffer with God, that you are proud to be the spouse of Christ, that you want to love Him, serve Him, that you accept His Holy Will, that you want to save souls with the help of your director, that you are working as a team for the glory of God by giving Him many souls.
What useless words! In the bottom of your heart you know it isn’t true. They are only words, dreams of illusion, lies. You are doing this only to receive encouragement, consolation for you are still seeking to be happy. You are going to need it. Why not enjoy life, its pleasures. You have so little time left to live. I know very well that you are not happy. Look at your family. Your friends are leaving you. You are alone, sick. You cannot go out in spite of such fine weather. The persons living with you don’t understand you.
You only have your director who visits you out of charity and to gain indulgences. Look at me! You don’t have to ask me. I am always by your side. I do not hide for I am powerful. I have nothing to hide and your God, where is He today? What can He do for you at this moment? And at the hour of your death, where will you go? If you wish, I could show you my power. I could fill you with joy, friends, pleasure. You would no longer be a slave. You would no longer be the servant of an invisible God. I would be your servant. You would only have to ask to receive. I do not turn a deaf ear. When I love someone, I keep her for eternity. Yes, my little one, I am faithful and I love you!”
– Mimi: “I can’t go on! Get lost, liar! I hate you with all my heart! I hate your suggestions, your lies. Get lost! Go see my director. You’ll see how he will receive you! You’ll see what power the priest has over you!”
How it makes me suffer to write down all these errors, these blasphemies. It is enough for me to put up with them without having to write them down, but I accept out of love and obedience. My Beloved! How can You dwell in my soul in the midst of all this disorder? My God, I find the struggle difficult for my poor little soul. I tremble! The storm upsets me greatly. My God, do not let me give in to temptation. I beg You, my Beloved, give me the courage to continue my way towards You. I lift up my eyes towards You with confidence. I expect everything from You. Without You I can do nothing.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please give me Your hand to pass through this dangerous road. I don’t want to fall into this mud. I don’t want to soil my soul where the Holy Trinity dwells. I want to keep my soul pure.
– Mimi: Immaculate Virgin, my Mother, I love You! Virgin most pure, keep me near You, in Your motherly heart. I love You and trust in You. Thank You for Your help. Without You, without God, I can do nothing. I confide in You forever, especially at the hour of my death.”
Monday 28 March 1955
– Mimi: “The sun is out and yet the storm is raging within me. I have reached my limit. My God, help me overcome this temptation. I don’t want to offend You. I don’t want to lose You.
I didn’t know where this voice came from.
– Satan: “Poor little one! I can do nothing for you. I have been kind. I have been merciful. I have loved you. I have filled you with special favors. I gave you My Son as spouse and now that you have taken advantage of My graces, of My sacraments, I will no longer do anything for you. Don’t forget! I am a just God, a jealous God. Whatever you do during your life, you will always be rejected by Me your God. Don’t ask Me anything for I have closed the door of My heart. Moreover, I forbid you to receive communion. You have committed enough sacrileges. Listen to Me carefully! The first communion that you will take in spite of my interdiction, to punish you, I will allow you to see the devil in person who, at that very moment, will take possession of you for eternity! You have always served him before Me, now that he will become a part of your life. I want nothing to do with you. Remove this ring that you are wearing from your finger. It will bring you bad luck.
What do you need to understand my contempt? For the last 5 years I have chastised you and because of you, your family has suffered and has been tried. Look a bit into your past: death, drama, tragedy, separation, sickness, money problems, no more freedom at home, sickness, operations, complications, sorrows, moral troubles. You are a burden to others. Understand once and for all that I hate you.”
– Mimi: “No! It isn’t possible that this sentence comes from You, my God! You, who gave Your life to save souls. I believe in You merciful love for me. I recognize my faults. I regret having offended You, my God!
How I detest my errors, the sins of my life, like Mary Magdalene. Let me come close to You with confidence. Receive my good will. Accept my love and repentance. To prove my love, I want to atone and I accept to follow You in carrying my daily cross. I accept Your Holy Will, my God. I trust in You and I love You!”
Tuesday 29 March 1955
– Satan: “Your creator gave you a free will. Take advantage of it. Experience it. If you follow my advice, you will see that I am right. So, do what I propose and we will establish our power. If you come back to life, your God will be more powerful than I and if He really loves you, He will do something for you, and if you die, I will be the powerful one for I will possess you for eternity. This is how you will have a real sign that God has rejected you.
– Mimi: “Liar! Liar! Get lost! My God, I believe in You! Please help me! Do not allow me to give in to temptation. I am suffering so much that I don’t know where to rest my head! What am I saying? It is on Your heart that I will lay my poor head, ô my Beloved.”
He is back again!
– Satan: “My poor little one! You know very well that you no longer understand. You are going out of your mind. You pretend that the suggestions going through your mind are from me. Poor little one! Isn’t it the Holy Spirit who enlightens, inspires? You are daydreaming. You are inventing errors, lies. You believe that they come from me. How do you explain that your good wishes, your thoughts are from God? Do you see in what state you are in? You can do nothing by yourself. You are constantly in doubt. You are leading a miserable life and in spite of it all, you seem to be happy with Him, your Beloved. Where is He at the moment? How lost you are my poor little one with your acts of love, contrition. You make me laugh.”
Don’t tell everything to your director. This tires him a lot for he has done his best to help you but it is to no avail. He knows very well that your soul is lost, incurable. But he doesn’t dare tell you for fear that you will fall into despair, and his pride as a priest would be shaken to see the loss of a soul for he is always hoping for a miracle.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for having inspired my director to come this evening. I told him about my doubts, my temptations. He reassured me once again. I was so happy to learn that he would come to give me communion tomorrow even though I am very sick. How good and devoted he is! His blessing chased my enemy away.
My God, Your servant is ill. Would You please do something for him. He loves You so. You know his great desire to serve You faithfully, lovingly. He so wants to save souls.
I beg You, my Beloved, give him his health, the strength to fulfill his work he does with so much love. He is very busy, especially during Holy Week, next week. My Beloved, he wants to do his best, but please help him with Your graces. Strengthen him with Your love. I trust in You!
Thank You, my God. I am certain he will get well. Thank You. I will now prepare my communion with my Gentle Mother of heaven. I am so happy when I think that my Beloved will come tomorrow. He will dwell within my soul in spite of my weaknesses. Ô infinite Goodness, how anxious I am! Thank You, thank You!”
Wednesday 30 March 1955
– Mimi: “I am happy to receive You, my Beloved, even if You are still hiding. I believe that You are present in me. I adore You with all my heart. Thank You for Your visit.”
My enemy is back again.
− Satan: “Poor little one! I played my part well, Monday. I borrowed the voice of your God. I forbade you from receiving communion. I knew very well that you would tell your director about our chat and believing that this suggestion came from me, he gave you communion this morning. This is exactly what I wanted: another sacrilegious communion. I got it thanks to your director.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! I don’t want to believe you. You take every means to discourage me. I am not afraid of you for I put all my trust in God, my Creator and I am certain that He loves me and that He is present in me.”
I gave myself to Him forever. I am happy to be His little spouse. So, go away! I don’t have any time to lose with you, listening to your lies. I have to be with my Beloved in my soul. I don’t want to leave Him alone for a single moment. I love Him so! I want to adore Him, pray to Him, serve Him by accepting His Holy Will. Another day at Your service, my Beloved. I want to love You for the souls who don’t think of You during this time of penance, who are too busy with their outdoor life, shopping, preparation for the Easter parade.
How many are seriously busy preparing their soul for Easter? Accept, my God, my humble prayers and my small sacrifices. Accept, also, the offering of my whole being to obtain the conversion of poor sinners. I would like so much that all souls would love You and never offend You, ô my God of infinite Goodness.”
The whole day is spent suffering with my Beloved to save souls. Yes, a single soul costs so much. When I think that my soul cost the life of a God! My God! My Creator!
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I do not want to refuse You anything. Please help me prepare my heart, my body for what You expect from me. With the Precious Blood of my Beloved, I want to erase the sins of my whole life and by the merits of this Precious Blood, I beg You to be merciful to the souls of poor sinners who approach You with confidence but have mercy especially on those who fear You and do not know You. To You, infinite Goodness, God of love, like Your Son, this is my prayer: “Father, forgive them for they know not what they are doing. And through the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I beg You to listen to the prayers of victim souls. Look with compassion on all these souls who are Your children and are poor, suffering and unhappy in this world, ô my God.”
Yes, my God, I accept with love all You ask of Your little girl. I want to repair, to atone for me and others. With Your Gentle Son I want to save many souls, especially during this Holy Week.
My God, my God, the Precious Blood of Your Divine Son must not be wasted. I ask You for a single drop of this Precious Blood to purify my soul. Ô Infinite Goodness, You cannot refuse my request. I so want to love You. I want to love You with a heart full of confidence, a pure heart, a simple heart like Mary, my Mother.”
Thursday 31 March 1955
– Mimi: “Another day for You and for souls. How time flies! The month of March is already gone! My God, I thank You for all graces received during this month. My God, please give me patience. I have great need for it at the moment.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, think of Me, of My patience each day as people and yourself offend Me. Think of My silence when I am offended. My dear little girl, take your crucifix and look at Me. Yes, look at me in the eyes. Look also at this heart that suffered for you, My dear little one. Yes, this Heart that suffered out of love in silence for you and for souls.
From now on, what will you do for Me? My dear little beloved spouse, I have something to confide in you. You know that when I was nailed to the cross, a soldier came forward with a spear to pierce My heart. This poor unfortunate didn’t have to do this for when I died, My Heart opened up and it isn’t because of the hand of man that My Heart opened up but because of the love it contained for the souls that this Heart opened up and has never closed up. My love is as strong, as powerful as ever and that is why it continues to pour blood till the end of the world. When will they understand the love I have for them? Keep this a secret. Don’t tell anyone, except your director.
Poor people, they didn’t understand at the time My Mission, My Love. They were blinded by all kinds of passions and in spite of all I have done for them since, they haven’t changed much. My Divine Mother has interceded for them. With Her love and Her humility, She asked permission from My Father to come on earth and speak to mankind. She has performed great miracles to touch their hearts. She has spoken to them with love and kindness like a mother does with her children.
She was so sad to come once again to tell Us that She was disappointed in seeing the ingratitude of mankind, that the love of God and neighbor no longer exists. There is only the word “Myself” that overrides the earth. Passions occupy first place. Everything is in disorder.
However, She was consoled a little when She saw the Holy Father, in spite of difficulties, open his arms to protect His Church and His sheep. She considered the untiring devotion of all these priests, the generosity of consecrated souls, the self-sacrifice of missionaries, the obscure work of little souls hidden to human eyes, little souls offering themselves to save souls. You know, My dear little one, there are few who offer themselves only out of love to save souls.
My dear little spouse, if you knew how you console Me by accepting the Holy Will of My Father. You can see that nothing is impossible to divine love. Do you see what the love of God can do for a sinful soul that is repenting. We have done a lot for you. In return, we expect a lot. I am your Spouse and I love you.”
My dear little spouse, that’s enough for now. Go and rest. We have Our whole life to speak about love and all eternity to love one another. Go and rest in My divine arms. Place your little head on My Heart and close your eyes. In spite of your physical pain, you will find a restful sleep.
− Mimi: “Out of obedience, I leave everything. Good night my Beloved and thank You.”
Friday 1 April 1955
– Mimi: I couldn’t be happier! I received my Beloved in Holy Communion!
– Mimi: “You can see, my Beloved, how much my director loves You. He certainly understands Us! He gave me permission to offer more for souls. Thank You, my Beloved. I didn’t have to spend time looking for what I could do more. You have chosen for me and I accept with love Your Holy Will. So, another day laying on the cross with You.”
In the evening, an immense love took hold of my soul and an urgent need to receive my Beloved tomorrow. I am pleased. My director has taught me a beautiful prayer that I think he composed himself. I recite it many times a day especially in times of battle, of spiritual aridity.
Therefore, Lord, I do not ask You for health, riches, honors. I ask for only one thing: to love You with all my heart, all my spirit, all my soul; to love you more than anything, to die of love, You who have loved me so much.
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, you have pleased Me. I see how great is your wish to honor the day consecrated to My Divine Mother. I want to fill your heart. What would you say if She came to get you on the 15th of August, the day of Her Assumption? She would carry you in Her arms as Her favorite child and then place you in My Divine arms to offer you to My Father, your God.”
Think often of this day, this happiness in heaven, of Us with you for eternity. To merit this, you must suffer a lot. Put your trust in Us, your love, and you will never be alone. Pray a lot, do penance, prostrate yourself often before Me, adore Me present in you, speak to Me, allow your feelings of love from your little soul to go forth. This consoles Me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, prepare my soul to work with You. Please give me a lively faith, a love that is ardent and pure like that of my Gentle Mother of heaven. Grant me the grace to be brave in battle and that in spite of all obstacles I may remain faithful in following You. May I walk with hesitation by Your side to accomplish the Holy Will of God. I must end this pleasant chat. You know the reasons why, my Beloved. This grieves me a lot. I accept it with love for the salvation of souls.”
Saturday 2 April 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I adore You present in me. I unite my adorations with my Gentle Mother of heaven, the angels and saints. Yes, my Beloved, You are at home in my poor little soul. I would prefer to offer You a palace for a home, My God, King of heaven and earth, but I know that You prefer poverty to riches. This is why I am happy to offer You my poor little soul as a home. I know that I am unworthy of such a favor after having closed the door because of my numerous sins. Ô Infinite Goodness! I regret all my sins but especially the sorrow that I caused You with my lifestyle. No, I no longer want to offend You and to carry out my promise, I need Your help. I want to become docile to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. I want to imitate my Gentle Mother of heaven. I ask Her to keep me in Your arms, to lead me by the hand on the road to heaven.”
Sunday 3 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, today is the beginning of Holy Week. I want to return with many souls at Easter. My God, let me see the bottom of my soul. Show me my errors, the horrors of my sins so that I may sincerely take a look at all my faults, my weaknesses, my imperfections. Allow me to see myself as You see me, my God. I regret having offended You. My God, increase my faith, my confidence. Please give me a true repentance of my sins.
My Beloved, I am at Your feet. I am weeping over my faults. Receive my tears as the perfume that Mary Magdalene poured on You. Consider my sincerity, my love for You. I do not ever want to lose You. I don’t want to forsake You during Your Passion. I beg You in the name of Our love. I want to follow You, share Your sufferings for the salvation of souls, to atone for my sins and especially to show You my love. I also want to accompany my Gentle Mother of heaven to console Her. Answer my prayer, my Beloved. Receive my wish. I have this privilege. Am I not Your little spouse?”
Monday 4 April 1955
– Satan: '' No, My dear little one, do not hesitate to cry. When you are suffering too much, beware of this, My dear little one, for, in holding back your tears like you sometimes do, it could be out of pride instead of being virtuous. Your nature is still present. Be transparent with everyone. Do not listen to your enemy and whatever he tells you, you have not lost My friendship. Now now My little one, would I abandon and condemn a little child who is crying because of her sufferings? Especially when these sufferings come from Me? No, My dear little one. I love you even more. Come, I understand. Come and weep near Me. Tell Me your sorrow, your problems. I see your sufferings, I know your wishes. This consoles Me a lot. My dear little beloved spouse, come and weep on My Divine Heart. My love will dry your bitter tears.They will become precious pearls for Me, your God, and you cannot refuse Me this.”
Tuesday 5 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I offer You my whole day. I have to go to the hospital this morning. May Your Holy Will be done, ô my God. I am suffering a lot physically but I am happy to be with You, my Love.
My God, through the merits of Your Son, have pity on these souls who are suffering and rebel against suffering, against You. Poor souls! They do not know You. If I could shout to the whole universe about Your love, Your infinite mercy for everyone! If I could travel the earth like the apostles to preach about love, confidence, to convert souls. I have nothing of this, yet, receive my love, my wishes and my little sacrifices. I know that we must suffer a lot in order to save souls. This evening begins the martyrdom for souls.
My God, give courage and patience to Your priests. They are doing their best to give You souls but how many souls refuse their help, their advice. If only these souls stopped to think before entering the confessional. Yes, if they could meditate for a moment on the heavy responsibility that weighs on the shoulders of priests. What difficulties they encounter in their holy ministry, especially with souls who don’t want to cooperate! How sad the priest must be to see a soul leave without being sincere and who refuses his help.
And You, my Beloved, how You must suffer when You see such things! What sorrow for You to see Your representative rejected at times because of a lack of confidence, of respect and obedience.
We should have for the priest full confidence and a lot of gratitude. He is always there, near us to help us, to forgive us in the name of God, to open heaven, to give us peace. We need the priest especially in difficult moments, in moments of discouragement.
Why not see in him Jesus Christ himself? Have full confidence in him. He only wants what is good for us. He is another Christ. His heart is open to everyone. This same heart receives confidences, avowals and he keeps it a secret, remains silent, offers up, prays, wears himself out, works for us. Each day he is on duty, always ready to start again without even receiving the encouragement of souls. And when I think that I used to be among these ungrateful persons.
My God, to atone I want to become grateful, to pray each day for all priests, especially for the one You chose to help me and who is doing good to my soul and who wants to sanctify it more and more.
My God, with Your grace, with Your Gentle Son, I want to conquer souls out of love. I accept everything out of love. My God, have mercy on poor sinners. I will offer more, pray for these souls. I don’t want through my negligence a single soul to be lost. My God, do not allow the Precious Blood of Your Divine Son be lost!
Through the most pure hands of my Gentle Mother of heaven, I offer You the most hardened souls of poor sinners, souls that are dear to me. Save all of them from hell. I beg You! Be merciful for these poor souls. They know not what they are doing. See their misery! They are not happy, You know, because their souls are not in peace! They are suffering constantly and looking for a refuge, happiness. And if they only understood that it is in Your arms, in Your heart that they will find these infinite treasures, that they will find peace, love, happiness for eternity! My God, I want to love You for all these souls.
With my Gentle Mother of heaven, I will prepare my communion for tomorrow. I am so anxious to receive my Beloved. My good angel, please watch over me.”
Wednesday 6 April 1955
– Mimi: I am happy! My Beloved arrived just in time! How anxious I was to receive Him in Holy Communion!
– Mimi: “My Beloved, what is going on in me? You know how happy I was to receive You. Now that You are present in me, I am silent. I don’t speak as I would like to and this makes me suffer. On the other hand, my tongue is not paralyzed and my mind is not silent when I happen quite frequently to criticize my neighbor!
I would like so much to speak to You like Your Divine Mother does. I would like to praise You, adore You like the angels and saints adore You in heaven. I would like to speak to you of love but my heart is dry, almost indifferent. Why is this so, my Beloved? This makes me suffer a lot. If it is You who allow this, I accept Your Holy Will.”
Thursday 7 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I am sorrowful, my heart is sick and tormented by temptations. Have pity on me! I would like to visit You at the monstrance altar but I am bedridden because of illness.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I am always there, in your little soul that has become My monstrance altar, My home. Adore Me! I am so happy to find in your little soul a permanent dwelling.”
– Mimi: “Thank You for so much goodness, my Beloved. I believe You are present in me through Your love. I know that You are in me through suffering. In spite of temptations, I want to keep my body pure.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect me from my enemies. Look upon Your sick child who is suffering and struggling to remain where God has placed her.
My God, I believe, I adore you, I love You in spite of the state of weakness I am in. I prostrate myself to adore, pray and ask mercy for sinners. I am one of them. My God, I wanted to love You more this week. I wanted to follow You more closely. I beg You, help me, give me the strength and courage to follow You. I don’t want to lose You for a moment. I want to work with You and my director for the salvation of as many souls as possible.
I am too sick, too weak to write any more. The little strength left, I want to use it by keeping company and following my Beloved in His Passion. I don’t want to refuse Him anything. He loves me so, and I want to love Him more.”
Good Friday 8 April 1955
– Mimi: Last night, I was telling my Beloved:
– Mimi: “I want to be by Your side this night. I want to share Your solitude. I want to suffer with You, pray with You to save souls. I want to offer myself to God with You. I don’t want to leave You.
Look at where I am with my wishes. Like Your apostles, I left You for several hours. I fell asleep. Around three o’clock, You came and woke me up with a pain so sharp that I could hardly breathe. I thought of You, my Beloved. You were in agony and were suffering because of me and of souls and I, during this time, was sleeping. Poor Jesus of my heart! I ask Your forgiveness for having left You alone at such an important moment.
My Beloved, because of Our love, I want to follow You today. I accept everything out of love to save souls. With God’s help and the permission of my director, I can offer more.”
In the afternoon, physical suffering accompanied by the joy of being with Him, but suddenly the suffering increased more and more. I no longer understand. The joy I felt at the beginning of the afternoon disappeared to be replaced by great temptations against faith; then, my enemy attacked me from all sides. From the top of my cross (my bed), I cried out to Him. I feel so alone, abandoned by everyone. I suffer and cry. It seems that He no longer hears my voice.
– Mimi: “My God, in the name of the sufferings and merits of Your Divine Son, have pity on me! Consider me, strengthen me! I love You! I don’t want to give in to temptations. My Beloved, I beg You, speak to me! Do not leave me alone! It is too much for me! I am trembling! You know how weak I am. I place my trust in You.”
No answer, except for my enemy who blasphemes and torments me. The interior struggle is terrible and the physical pain is getting worse. No remedy brings me relief. I can hardly raise my head from the pillow. However, I raise my eyes to God saying:
– Mimi: “I love You! I am suffering, my God. I am not alone. I am with Your Dear Son. Give me the strength and courage to follow Him. Increase my love for souls.”
I look at my Beloved nailed to the cross because of my sins and those of mankind. I was thinking about His infinite love for us, for me and His love is so great for each soul. I am certain that if I had been the only one needing salvation, He would have agreed to die for me. How great is His love for poor souls! How this Dear Jesus loves me! My God, my All! Thank You for Your infinite love!
– Mimi: “Though I feel total abandonment, I still want to follow You. I want to show You my love, my gratitude. I want to remain on my cross with You as long as You wish. I unite my sufferings to Yours to atone for my sins and to save souls.”
At three o’clock, I wanted to get up to make the way of the cross on my knees. Mom asked me to stay in bed, not to be imprudent. So, out of obedience, I remained in bed, that is, I laid on my cross. To my great surprise, my Beloved was with me once again. I cannot write all that We suffered together. This unity in love and suffering lasted one hour. Then, emptiness took place. My Beloved hid Himself. After such dear moments, the separation from my Beloved caused me a lot of pain. I became very sad. How long is He going to hide?
– Mimi: “The day isn’t over yet. My God, I accept all out of love for You with my Beloved. I want to save many souls for Your glory.
My Beloved, would You please help my director? He works hard, You know. Give him health, courage, patience. He so wants to give You many souls. You know how much he loves You. He is always ready to obey You, to serve You faithfully. Count all the hours he spends in the confessional to help out souls. But, as You know, souls are not always sincere. I want to work with You, with him to save souls. Your Blood must not be shed in vain. There are so many souls who are fearful. Poor souls! If only they were as fearful before committing sin.
Saturday 9 April 1955
– Mimi: A day of great suffering, of great temptations! I am always nailed to the cross with my Beloved.
− Mimi: “My God, sustain my faith, augment my confidence! I love You, my Beloved, in spite of the aridity, in spite of my weakness. I want to follow You till the end.
There are still many souls who do not want to make their Easter confession. My God, forgive them for they know not what they are doing. I know that it only takes a second for God to convert a soul and His Love alone can transform it forever.”
Easter Sunday 10 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on Your little girl. I who hoped to find You like Mary Magdalen. Yet, You are still hiding, my Beloved. I accept the state I am in, however, please help me. I need You, Your love, to sustain me. I am so exhausted by interior struggles, by illness. I place my trust in You. Strengthen my love for You. I don’t want to lose You a single moment.»
I hate writing these things. Voice of my enemy who wants to discourage me saying:
– Satan: “You see what your God has done to you. He has risen in all His glory, so we say. Who was a witness when it happened? No one. And you believe this! Your God is happy in His heaven. He doesn’t have time to think of you. No matter your sufferings, your surges of love, He doesn’t need you if He is really God. Let Him take care of Himself. Poor little one! What a miserable life you have because you believe in impossible things. This is why the Church calls them mysteries. Your God spoke in parables. If everything He taught was true, why not say things in a simple manner? And after this, He accuses people, souls of not understanding. Poor little one! You make me laugh when you speak to your Beloved. You believe He loves you? He had the time to love others before you, to love holy souls. Remove from your mind that God loves you. Why would He love you? Would this be fair to other souls? You’re out of your mind to believe that you have become the spouse of Christ. Think about it! You, a sinner! You easily forget what you are.”
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me! I believe, I adore You and I love You more than anything. My God, my All! I throw myself with confidence into Your arms. My Beloved, tell me that You love me! I need to hear Your voice. I am so tired. Let me rest my heart on Your Divine Heart. Without You I can do nothing.
Pleasant surprise! A visit from my director!
– Mimi: “What comfort! I thank You, my Beloved, for this kindness. I will be able to receive communion tomorrow. I was so anxious to receive You in Your sacrament of love.
Monday 11 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, please give me perseverance in prayer. My Beloved, I want to accept everything in spite of the state I am in. I don’t want to be selfish; think only of myself. I want to think of You, my Beloved. I want to meditate on Your sufferings and all that You have done for me out of love. I also want to think of souls.
Tuesday 12 April 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am in doubt, in fear, uncertain whether I am still Your little spouse. This torments me continually. I am suffering and want to love You more even though I do not feel Your presence in me. You seem hidden so far away, my Beloved. However, help me offer up everything to God. Without You I can do nothing.”
Wednesday 13 April 1955
– Mimi: “Same situation as always. See my helplessness, my Beloved. However, I love You. I don’t understand what is going on in me. Why this lack of taste for prayer? I would like to meditate a little. I cannot. It is almost complete emptiness and the only thoughts I am able to have are impure thoughts. My spirit is troubled by these pictures. Yet, I lift up my eyes to Him. I want to look at Him with the eyes of Faith. Yet, I remain empty. I am like a blind person. Everything is dark around me but especially in my poor soul. This makes me suffer a lot. My Beloved, is it possible that my love for You has become so indifferent? How ungrateful and weak I have become in Your service. Yet, I would like to love You even more.
I abandon myself into Your powerful arms. Receive me with all my miseries, my weaknesses. You know that in spite of the state I am in I love You. I don’t feel anything but I believe in You, in Your love for me, Your poor little girl.”
Thursday 14 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I am Your little girl. Have mercy on me. I love You, my Beloved. Do not leave me! I need You. I need Your love. I am suffering too much to go on writing.”
Friday 15 April 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I throw myself into Your arms. I accept to suffer with You. Give me strength and courage.”
Visit to the hospital from 8 o’clock to 12h50. X-ray of my sinuses. Total rest.
− Mimi: “My Beloved, help me endure everything for You and for souls!»
Saturday 16 April 1955
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for Your love. How can You want to come into such a sick soul? Help me offer up everything. I accept the state I am in. I am suffering a lot, especially my head. Give me patience. I cannot put up with any noise without feeling sharp pains. My Beloved, I beg You, help me! Suddenly, there is a visitor, a person who speaks very loud. I know she is going to stay several hours. My Beloved, give me patience! I am going to need it!”
– Satan:“My poor little one, think of Me. Think of my crown of thorns. Think of the noise the soldiers made as they prepared to crucify Me. Think of the cries and shouting from My people who were condemning Me. Think that I endured it all out of love for you and for souls.”
Sunday 17 April 1955
Temptations…
– Mimi: “I don’t want to get discouraged. Please help me, my Beloved!
I am suffering a lot. I have to go to the hospital tomorrow. I wonder what they are going to do to me.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, do not fear. I will be with you, poor little one. When you think of yourself, how quickly you forget Me and yet, I am always there. Think of Our union.”
Monday 18 April 1955
– Mimi: “Out of love for You and souls, I offer You my whole day.”
I spent the morning at the hospital. Nose operation and sinus treatment.
Visit of my director.
– Mimi: He helps me offer up everything to You and confirms me in the Holy Will of God. I take courage.
Evening.
– Mimi: “My God, help me! The pain is getting progressively worse! I was frozen for the operation but the effects are beginning to disappear. I cannot write any longer.”
Tuesday 19 April 1955
– Mimi: Anniversary of my dear father. I offered my communion. Great affliction, being always in aridity. My director helps me to prepare for communion.
After communion:
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me in my thanksgiving.
Thank You, my God, for coming into my poor little soul in spite of the disorder, the uncertainty. I believe You are living within me. I know that Your mercy is infinite and that You shut Your eyes on all my misery. Instead of having contempt, You cherish me. Instead of chastisement, You give Yourself to me entirely. I know that Your pleasure is to give Yourself to the most miserable souls. This is why You enjoy coming to me to help me put my life in order, to purify me, to give me Your love and to increase my confidence, my faith. Come, ô Infinite love! Come dwell forever in my poor little soul! Come with Your love, Your grace, Your power, Your charity. Remove from my soul all that can displease You, my God.
Ô Holy Spirit, give me the grace to be docile to Your inspirations and to receive all the divine gifts with humility.”
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, please teach me to know my God perfectly. Teach me to love Him as He deserves, to serve Him with love and fidelity and to submit myself to His Holy Will. This is why I want to imitate You, I want to practice Your virtues, ô Virgin most pure, ô Immaculate Virgin. My mother, listen to my prayer, consider my good will, sustain my courage, help me attain my goal. In love and humility, in an entire submission to the Holy Will of God, I want to serve Him with You forever.
My Good Guardian Angel, protect me as on the first day of my baptism.”
Wednesday 20 April 1955
– Mimi: “Another day for You. I offer everything out of love.”
– Jesus: “Pray, My dear little girl, pray a lot for the little ones making their first communion. Especially for the mothers who are more attentive in preparing the appearances of their little girls than that of their souls. How many young souls receive Me for the first time with a soul full of pride, vanity, self-love. Poor little souls! Already slaves to the vanities of the world and it is the fault of their negligent parents. Why make of a first communion a worldly feast? Pride has first place and love, second.
I who enjoy coming into the souls of little ones, ask Myself, sometimes, if there is room for Me! If I have first place! I ask Myself why we have placed the day of Confirmation before that of First Communion? Yet, I had instituted the sacrament of the Eucharist before My apostles received the gifts of the Holy Spirit on the day of Pentecost.
Love must dominate first and foremost. By receiving Confirmation before Eucharist, the children prepare themselves for their first communion, the following day, with a distracted heart for they begin receiving presents, compliments on their outfits. They also receive the visit of parents and friends. In their little heads, many things go on! They are so busy looking at their presents and asking themselves what they will get the next day. With all this, they don’t have the time to think about Me, to prepare their soul in pure love and sacrifice. Having received the sacrament of Love first,they will be stronger when receiving the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Tell your director about this conversation.”
Thursday 21 April 1955
Strange dream!
– Mimi: It was a beautiful day! Suddenly, I see my little statue of the Blessed Virgin near a house. I looked at it and said hello while continuing my way. The second time, I see it in front of me. It had fallen. I bend over to pick it up. Poor Blessed Virgin! She had fallen. With love, I kiss he statue and keep it preciously in my hands while walking.
I saw a long tunnel in front of me. There was no other way to go. I heard footsteps behind me. I looked back and saw a nun dressed in white, her hands hidden in her habit, her head down and walking rapidly. I was happy not to be alone in the tunnel for I was afraid.
To my great surprise, the person I thought was a nun was the devil. A struggle ensues to wrest the statue of the Blessed Virgin from me as I held it in my hands. I was crying, struggling. I was so exhausted that I could hardly breathe. I was crying and suffering a lot.
When I woke up, how happy I was to find out it was only a nightmare. I asked myself the reason for such a dream, such a nightmare?
Friday 22 April 1955
– Mimi: I was asking myself where I was at in my resolutions. I was asking myself whether I was on the fast track to heaven.
– Satan: “My dear little one, don’t ask yourself such questions. When a soul is anxious enough to try and know whether it is progressing in the spiritual life, it becomes useless. It is as if it were looking in a mirror in the dark. And though the mirror is there, what does it see? Nothing, nothing!”
Saturday 23 April 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you were impressed when you saw the x-ray of your head! But what a good feeling you would have had if you had seen your soul in the state of grace, especially after Holy Communion! But if I allowed this to happen, where would your faith be, your confidence, your love for Me?”
Sunday 24 April 1955
– Mimi: A visit from my little niece. I was holding little T. in my arms. I said to her:
«Listen, little T. It is an important day for your big sister. She received little Jesus for the first time in her soul”. She seemed to understand and looked at me with a smile.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, be the same with Me. Remain little. Abandon yourself into My arms. My dear little one, did you notice the confidence of the little child?
She was crying. You took her in your arms. You spoke to her gently. She smiled even though her eyes were still wet. With her little hand she pressed your fingers very tightly as if she were afraid of being along. However, what more could you do for her? For her soul?
Do you understand why I ask you to trust in Me, to abandon yourself into My divine arms and in difficult moments to give Me your hand? If a poor little girl is able to make a little one who is crying smile, what could I not be able to do , I your God, for your little soul? Abandon yourself with love, with confidence into the care of My Infinite Mercy.”
Sunday 1st May 1955
– Mimi: I am happy to begin the month consecrated to my Gentle Mother of heaven. I want to show Her my love, my gratitude by being faithful to the recitation of my rosary.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, during this month, will You please help me correct my faults? Teach me to remain silent when I am tempted to speak uselessly or criticize. Give me patience, perseverance in prayer and in my resolution to overcome my faults. Like You, ô my Tender Mother, I want to love Jesus and serve God. My Gentle Mother of heaven, listen to the prayer of Your little girl who begs You to help her love, know and serve God.
Teach me to practice humility at all times. Help me to live continually united to God in perfect love. At Your example, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, I want to love and serve God with a pure love, a free heart, detached from all human affections and all created things. I want to live forgotten in order to practice humility that is so dear to the heart of God. Give me a simple heart, charitable towards everyone.
Like You, I want to serve Him with love and fidelity especially in little things and in being faithful in accomplishing my daily task with an entire conformity to the Holy Will of God, submitting myself with love, confidence to His Infinite Love for me. In other words, my Gentle Mother of heaven, please give me Your spirit of holiness, tell me what I must do to correct my faults, my imperfections.
Grant me to recognize my miseries by reminding me that I am before God, a poor little girl ungrateful at times, weak in following You, indifferent in serving You, selfish by holding ontoYour love without giving anything in return. Poor miserable me!
Ô My Gentle Mother, it is with You that I share my sorrows. It is in Your motherly heart that I take refuge, You, the refuge of sinners. I beg You, increase my confidence, strengthen my faith, purify my love.
Ô Gentle Virgin Mary, if I turn to You, it is because I know that You are my Mother and that You cannot allow Your child to perish for she is constantly struggling to keep her soul intact. From the depths of my misery I am sending You a S.O.S. I am confident and certain that You will answer my needs.”
I presently throw myself with love, with confidence into Your motherly arms. I need to feel secure in Your Divine Arms and near to Your adorable heart. Help me! I don’t want to lose Your Gentle Jesus. Dangers are so great around me. Temptations so strong. But with You, I will be stronger, more courageous to continue my journey towards heaven where I wish to go and live with my God, my Beloved and with You, my Gentle Mother of heaven. It is inconceavable not to find all of you in heaven. I have loved all of you on earth and I am doing my best to love you more than ever.
When I think of this, all of Us together for eternity! My heart is filled with joy at the thought of heaven, my God, my All, my Hope, my Love, my Support. I love You. I don’t want to leave You. I am all Yours forever.”
Monday 2 May 1955
– Mimi: “Out of love for You and to submit to Your Holy Will, I will go to the hospital. If I listened to myself, I would very willingly stay at home. These treatments of my sinuses and throat are very painful for after these treatments I spend several hours without being able to move my head without experiencing sharp pain.
My Beloved, You created me in Your image and likeness. Like You, I want to live and die by accepting in all things the Holy Will of God.”
Tuesday 3 May 1955
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me if You please to take each day a step closer to heaven. Give me Your hand. I want to advance in love and confidence towards God, my All.
For the month of May and to honor my Gentle Mother of heaven, I have prepared for Her a bouquet of white flowers near Her statue.
I am suffering a lot. I cannot always pray as I would like. However, I look at Her and tell Her that I love Her, that I want to imitate Her in Her humility, in her entire submission to the Holy Will of God.
How I would like to have Her pure heart to love God like Her. I ask Her for Her help and when temptations make me suffer too much, I look at Her as I weep. She is my Mother. I know that She sees me and hears me. A mother always understand the heart of her child for she understands the language of tears. She understands the language of joys. No one can understand all the love I have for my Heavenly Mother. I was looking at the statue saying:
– Mimi: “How beautiful You are, my Gentle Mother of heaven!”
− Mary: “My dear little girl! If you could see My beauty, My splendor when I am surrounded by souls in the state of grace. They are My decoration. I thank you for the bouquet of flowers in front of My statue. However, offer Me something more. Offer Me souls”.
Thursday 5 May 1955
− Mary: “Pray with Me! Do not leave Me! I need your love and you, My dear little one, need Mine”.
Friday 6 May 1955
– Mimi: I was so anxious to receive communion that I was awake at five thirty.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, You know how I hate going to the hospital but to show You my love, I will go anyhow. I offer You my whole day. You see that I am not doing my will.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I know very well that you are not doing your will by accepting everything out of love. You are doing the will of My Father. Ask your director to help you correct yourself, to break your little will. May he take every means possible. As for yourself, My dear little one, be submissive to him. You owe him obedience in all things, don’t forget. He is taking My place. Prepare yourself. There is still time.”
Saturday 7 May 1955
− Mary: “Ask your director to prepare you to make the vow of conformity to the Holy Will of God. Before, prepare yourself through prayer, sacrifice. Make a small retreat. Make a general review.”
My Gentle Mother of heaven has made a reproach I deserve because I was in doubt concerning the little interior voice.
− Mary: “My dear little one, I am sad because you are making My Son suffer by doubting His voice. If you only believed in Our love for you!”
Visit at the hospital: painful examination.
– Mimi: I offered everything in atonement for my sins. A little friend in the hospital has passed away. It is the second friend that God has claimed in the last four months. I have many trials. How many good moments we had together as we spoke about our Heavenly Mother and our time on earth.
Upon my arrival at the hospital, I had a lot of affection for her telling myself that she was suffering more than I. One day as she was in a lot of pain, I had permission to get up and keep her company for an hour. How happy she was. She wept for joy to have someone near her. With God’s help, I succeeded in making her laugh. I was happy to hear her laugh. She seemed to suffer less. One day, she asked me: “Will you promise me to pray for me? Tell me you will pray for me. My sufferings are too great. I don’t have the strength. I don’t want to get discouraged. Can I be your friend?”
– Mimi: “Listen closely!... not only do I want you to be my little friend, but I want to love you like a little sister. You know what, J… when I see someone suffer, I love her more than others. And since you are suffering a lot morally, have no fear, you know that I love you and that I want to help you. So J… pray for me also. I need it.
− My Beloved, receive the soul of J… Please give her the reward she deserves. She suffered so much. You know that she did her best to accept everything with love and entire resignation to Your Holy Will.”
Sunday 15 May 1955
– Mimi: I had just finished preparing a meal when suddenly an inspiration told me:
“Leave all this and go to Him.”
So, I obeyed, knelt down and He told me:
– Jesus: “Kneel on both knees, prostrate yourself before Me and speak to Me.”
– Mimi: At that moment, I felt a great sorrow for having offended Him. I kissed His feet thanking Him for graces received, for His patience, His love. I asked forgiveness for my sins, forgiveness for the sins of the whole world.
Monday 16 May 1955
– Mimi: “I was looking at the leaves of a tree. I was telling myself that a month ago, this same tree was without leaves and now it was full of beautiful leaves of many colors and sizes. How good is my Creator! Why does He do this for a tree without a soul? I know that He created a tree for man’s use and even to be a shelter for little birds. How good and powerful is God.
– Mimi: “I adore You and love You. Everything in nature speaks to me of You, ô Infinite Goodness!
– Mimi: I was meditating.
– Mimi: With what care He accomplishes so many things, for only a simple tree. What marvels He can accomplish in a soul that receives His love, in a submissive soul that expects everything from Him with confidence. His love is so great that He gives His all. He is willing to share with us His eternal happiness for eternity. I must remember that I have an immortal soul.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you are simply meditating before a tree. Look at nature in its entirety. Look at a human being. If you could see the obscure work in souls. Yes, my dear little one, look closely at this tree. Is there an architect who could draw up a plan to give trees such a form and variety? And what contractor would accept the contract of mounting branch after branch and placing on it each leaf at each season? What patience it would take each year and I, the Supreme Being, how long have I been doing this beautiful work? No one even takes the time to stop and look.”
Think of the millions of trees in forests. Everything in nature claims My aid, My power. And what does the human being do? He takes advantage of everything. I am not important to him. They want to live as if they will never die. This saddens Me a lot. They no longer want Me in their lives, I, the Creator, their God, Master of heaven and earth.”
Ô ungrateful people whom I loved and for whom I gave up my life, people young and old. I am always receiving the same contempt, the same ingratitude. My dear little one, do you understand My love and why I am suffering? It consoles Me to find a compassionate heart with whom I can share my thoughts. The work that I accomplish in nature overwhelms your eyes, but if you could see the splendor of a soul in the state of grace, if you knew all the obscure work I accomplish in souls humble and submissive, in souls filled with love. Like in nature, these souls expect everything from Me. Only the souls humble and submissive draw My attention as I attempt to grow in their souls virtues of love, charity and total self-denial. They will be able, in the future, blossom into perfect purity now and for eternity.”
Monday 1 August 1955
– Jesus: “Do not say that you wish to serve Me as a slave for when you accept to do My will, which is My Father’s, you are, at that moment, My faithful little spouse, My beloved. All that I ask of you must be done out of pure love and not by obligation like a slave. Note well, My dear little one, you are slaves of the devil, of your passions, of the world and not of Me, your Infinite Goodness.”
Tuesday 2 August 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little one. Prepare yourself for another struggle. It will be the last stage of your life”.
Wednesday 3 August 1955
– Mimi: I was asking myself what death was like? And what attitude I would have before God?
– Jesus: “My dear little one, death is simply changing address. At the moment, it is I who comes to you. At death, it is you who will come to Me. The attitude you will have before God will be the same as the one you had during your life. Therefore, my little one, more love, more confidence.”
Great temptation against faith!
I was suffering a lot because of this situation. I was praying my Gentle Mother of heaven to come to my aid. With the permission of my director, I could offer more and find ways of overcoming it. As I was preparing myself to offer everything out of love, suddenly, my enemy began attacking me from all sides at the same time. I could not go on. I cry, I look at my Beloved on the cross. I ask Him to help me but He doesn’t seem to hear my voice. The temptation gets worse. The attacks against my senses are so violent that I can hardly stand up and all I am able to say is:
– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me. I don’t want to offend You.”
And then, my courage returned thanks to these words so gentle to my poor heart:
– Jesus: “My dear little one, take the means to overcome this even by shedding blood if you must.”
– Mimi: “The struggle is getting worse. I know that God is with me even though He is hiding. I no longer calculate. I must overcome my enemy. After the struggle, I was so exhausted that I could hardly breathe freely without feeling pain. However, I was so happy at the thought of having kept my Beloved within me, of having fought with Him and for Him. My happiness is so great that I forgot the sufferings of my body. And I could not stop telling Him:
– Mimi: “Thank You, thank You, my Beloved for helping me during this struggle. Thank You, my Gentle Mother of heaven!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I was watching you struggle. My grace was sustaining you. However, I wanted to make sure of your fidelity, your love, your confidence in Me.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for so much love. I know that if left to myself, I could have offended You. When I think that I could have lost You! I cannot express all my gratitude for so much goodness.”
My enemy once again tells me:
− Satan: “You think you won the battle over me. I am patient and I know that you are exhausted from this struggle. I’ll be back tonight.”
– Mimi: At that moment, the Holy Spirit inspires me to call my director, to tell him about this struggle and take advantage of the occasion to receive a blessing. I trust in him. I know that he will help me with his prayers and sacrifices. With the two of us, the struggle won’t last as long.
– Mimi: “My God! Sustain me! I trust in You! I need you, my Beloved! Keep me near You always!”
Thursday 4 August 1955
– Mimi: A visit from my director. I tell him about yesterday’s battles. My enemy is always at my side telling me:
– Satan: “Don’t speak about this to your director for he is afraid of you and each time he senses my presence in you he is scared. He knows very well that I am stronger than he.”
– Mimi: “No matter what you say, I will tell him anyhow.”
– Mimi: At a certain moment, my director asks me to recite the little prayer he composed and taught me to recite but especially to meditate each day. I recite it and even several times a day, especially in moments of temptation. But now, I don’t remember it, not a single word! I want to recite it. I cannot! Complete emptiness in my mind! My director helps me. I repeat after him, word for word, as if it were the first time I was reciting it. I don’t understand what is happening to me, why this lapse of memory. I could almost see my enemy by my side laughing, his presence was so close to me. I know that he doesn’t like this prayer and at the moment I am writing these lines, he does not want me to copy this beautiful prayer. Since I have resolved to do the contrary of what he forbids me to do, I therefore write:
– Mimi: “Lord, I do not ask You for health, riches or honors. I ask You only one thing: to love You with all my heart, all my spirit, all my soul. I want to love You more than anything and die of love, You who have loved me so!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you did the right thing to write this beautiful prayer that contains the most beautiful proof of love that a human being can offer his God. Tell this to your director. Tell him that I will bless and grant all graces to those who recite it in a spirit of faith and total confidence in an act of perfect love. This prayer will cause a lot of good and obtain conversions. I wish him to publish this beautiful prayer while remaining silent about its author. Later on, I will tell you what I expect from saying this prayer. Together, My dear little one, let us give glory to God and may He be praised through his servant and all souls under his care.”
Friday 5 August 1955
– Mimi: “During my confession, my enemy expressed his rage at the moment of absolution, saying:
− Satan: “You believe in the forgiveness of your sins! You believe in the Infinite Mercy of God! Poor little one! He has rejected you long ago! Open your eyes. He leaves you to yourself. No one can do anything for you except me. I am always near you. At this moment, your director hesitates to give you absolution. He doubts your sincerity. He is afraid of you. He doesn’t know what to do. How he would like to escape this situation! Poor him! If he flees, he approves me. If he stays, he gives me a sacrilegious confession. Either way, I am happy. You can see that I am the stronger one. Do you recognize that you are all mine for life and for eternity? Don’t tell this to your director. You know very well that I am right. Be careful! He is wary of you. Your work for me will be more difficult.”
– Mimi: “How I suffer! I can’t go on! My director suspects that something diabolical is going on. He asks me about it. I could not answer, nor speak, nor express myself clearly. He then blesses me. Once my enemy has fled, I tell my director everything and become calm and peaceful after absolution. Then, he helps me prepare my communion. I was so happy to receive my Beloved.”
Saturday 6 August 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, where are You this morning? Why are You hiding? Why do You give room to Your enemy? You know very well that I hate him with all my heart!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, if I were always near you, your happiness would be too great. Where would your struggles be to keep Me in you? Where would your desire be to love Me even more? Where would your efforts be to serve Me with fidelity? No, my dear little one. Allow Me to lead you where I want, the way I want. Accept everything out of love. Trust in Me. I know where I am going. If you were alone in your journey you would have reason to fear for you are still very weak and the road with Me is very long, very rough. The cross is always with Me. Put your trust in Me and don’t ask Me for anything. Don’t try to understand everything. Accept simply out of love. Be obedient to your director without asking why. Close your eyes and let yourself be guided by him. He has known for a long time what I expect from you.”
– Mimi: “Great temptation! Still another attack. My director is beginning his retreat this evening. My enemy is taking advantage of this by troubling me saying:
– Satan: “Next week, I will win you over.»
- Mimi: My first visit to the church in 8 months. How anxious I was to chat with my Beloved, to see my Gentle Mother of heaven. I don’t understand what is going on in me. I was looking forward to my coming to church. I am totally indifferent! I can’t pray!
I wanted to look at my Gentle Mother of heaven. My mind is troubled by impure thoughts. I want to pray but there are blasphemes on my lips. I want to make acts of love, yet, my heart is cold.
– Mimi: “My God, help me, strengthen my faith, purify my mind and my body, please increase my love, my confidence. In spite of the state I am in, I trust in You, I believe and I love You! My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect your child who loves You.”
Monday 8 August 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I accept with love Your Holy Will. I know very well that this suffering comes from You and I am pleased!”
Thursday 18 August 1955
– Mimi: “This morning, I was preparing my confession. My whole life was unfolding as clearly as if I were looking at a movie. I could see my sins one after another, and with each sin, my sorrow was increasing at the thought of having offended God.”
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, help me prepare my confession.”
My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness. Give me true repentance for my sins and the firm resolution never to offend You. Grant me perfect contrition.”
During my examination of conscience, my enemy wanted to trouble me by reminding me of my sins and if my Beloved had not intervened in time, I was allowing myself, without noticing it, to fall into culpable daydreaming. Luckily that my Beloved showed me this. Then, by a happy coincidence, my director phoned me at that moment to ask whether I was well enough to make my confession. In the afternoon, at about one fifteen, when I was preparing my examination of conscience, my Beloved said to me:
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, prepare your examination of conscience with love and confidence in My Infinite Mercy. I have known the number of your sins for a long time. I also know your life, your poor miserable life. Be confident! Why tremble?
Did I not give you all the proof of My love for you, My dear little girl that I love so much? What would a father say if he saw his repentant child tremble?”
Then, at three fifteen my Beloved said to me:
– Jesus: “At this moment, your director is doing something for you. Don’t think he is only praying. He is offering Me more so that you may make a good and sincere confession, and starting today, you may resolve to love Me more by accepting My Holy Will and by having total confidence. Tell your director that all that he has asked for you, he will obtain for he has asked Me a lot for your soul. I will give him a visible sign.”
– Mimi: At that moment, I cannot describe what happened inside of me. Only God can understand the state of my soul.
After my confession.
How happy I am! My God has forgiven me once again. With my director, I made the inventory of my life, my poor life filled with sin, misery. I ask myself how I could breathe with such an evil heart. How could I say I was alive when everything in me was dead?”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved. How patient and good my director has been with me! How he understands me! He tells me about Your Infinite Mercy. He speaks so lovingly of You, with conviction. I can see he is walking his talk.
His words penetrate deeply into my mind and heart and I desire to love you even more!”
Suddenly, the enemy takes advantage of a few seconds to trouble me. He wants to play his last card, but it is useless. My Beloved is present within me. There is no room for him.
– Mimi: Visit to church to thank God and my Gentle Mother of heaven.
– Mimi: “My God, I am kneeling in Your presence to adore You, to thank You for Your Infinite Love of the poor little girl that I am. I believe in You. I believe in Your merciful love for me. I want to thank You with all my heart. Thank You, my God, for Your patience, for Your love in spite of my conduct so contemptible, so indifferent at times. I am unworthy of so many favors and yet You fill me with special graces. You have kept me under Your protection in spite of my bad conduct.
I am sorry for having offended You, ô my God, my Creator. Forgive me my sins so numerous and that have wounded You so much. In Your infinite mercy, forgive me for having loved You so little. With Your grace, ô my God, I want to repair, atone, merit but especially I want to love and console You.
My Beloved, I love You with all my heart and I do not want to love anyone but You. You know my desire of holiness. I want to transform myself into You. I want to detach myself from everything and everyone in order to live only for You, to live continually with You present in me.
Before leaving, my Beloved, one more request: Would You please bless in a special way my director who is so good to me. He is doing his utter best to help me sanctify myself. Sadly, I am aware that I have not always been obedient. I was too busy and allowed myself to be easily distracted by worldly things. I did not always understand especially when my director would tell me that God wanted everything. I was offering everything in general but I did not understand the importance of such an important statement.
Friday 19 August 1955
– Mimi: When I think about such a pathetic life and that my soul was dead though my body was alive. Presently, the roles have changed. My soul will live and my body will die by self denial. With God’s help, I want to keep my body pure so that it may be like a citadel and protect my soul as the temple of God, Our dwelling. I am so happy since yesterday. Thank You, my Beloved, once again.
– Jesus: “My dear little one. We are also happy for your soul was very costly to Us. I gave My life for you, and your director offered Us blood and all this for you. If you had seen in what state his body was and all this for your soul. Will you finally understand? Your director showed that he was hot by wiping his eyes. He was hot but the real reason was because he was weeping with joy at the thought that his prayer had been answered.”
– Mimi: I remember quite well seeing tears in his eyes but I didn’t know why.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, if you had seen Our joy in heaven at the moment of absolution, if you had seen his heart beat as a priest at the moment of absolution! He was so happy to offer Me a soul, a soul that was so miserable. And thanks to the sacrament of love, he transformed your soul into a living temple! He offered Us a home!”
Yes, My dear little one, from now on, I will dwell in you as absolute Master. I will be at home within you. Yes, I will be present in your little soul forever. Do not offend Me any longer by doubting Me, My love, by leaving Me.”
Saturday 20 August 1955
– Mimi: I was preparing a meal.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come quickly. I am suffering a lot at this moment. I need to be consoled. Come and tell Me that you love Me.”
– Mimi:“Here I am, my Beloved! You know very well that I love You and that I desire to love You even more by accepting Your Holy Will.”
Thursday 1 September 1955
– Mimi: Being in spiritual aridity for quite a while, I cannot even pray. There is complete emptiness and this makes me suffer a lot. Yet, I accept it out of love for You, my Beloved.
I was getting ready for bed. It was 9 p.m.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come spend an hour with Me. I am in such need of love. I need to be consoled.”
– Mimi: “But my Beloved, You know very well what state I am in. How can You want me to speak to You about love when my heart is so cold? How do You want me to console You? I can’t find the appropriate words to do so.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one. You don’t need words to speak to Me about love. The surges, the hearbeats, the desires of your little heart full of love for Me console Me already. Isn’t it true that two persons who love one another understand each other even when they are silent? At this moment, I am with you like a mother near the cradle of her little one. She isn’t speaking to her. Yet she loves her. She looks at her. She smiles at her. She expects a lot from her and the poor little one cannot speak yet, doesn’t understand but looks at her mother with a loving smile, with confidence. My dear little one, do the same thing at this moment. You don’t understand everything yet. Be confident! Look at Me with love. I love you so much, My dear little girl. You are Mine, only Mine!
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved, for Your love. It is true that I am so little that I don’t always understand. However, I trust in You. I want to show You my love and submission to Your Holy Will. I accept the state I am in and I am happy because I know that You are with me, that You are present in me. I adore You, ô my Beloved.”
I am beginning a Holy Hour from 11p.m. to midnight. I cannot speak as I would like.
– Mimi: “I throw myself with love, with confidence into Your Divine Arms. My Gentle Mother of heaven, please be near me. Teach me to love Your Gentle Jesus. Teach me to adore my God. Holy Spirit, enlighten me during my Holy Hour. I want to spend an hour with my Beloved to console Him, to thank Him for so many favors. I want to atone, I want to save souls. Yes, many souls to offer them to my God. My God and my All. My Creator, my Only Love. How I love You, my Jesus of Love!
A person committed an indiscretion by wanting to see what I was writing.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, be prudent and write this; place it on your table: “Woe to the curious for they will not be able to see with their eyes God who is in Heaven!”
Friday 2 September 1955
– Mimi: First Friday of the month. I am happy for I have just finished the nine First Fridays in honor of the Sacred Heart.
I have the great pleasure of making a Holy Hour. How time flies when I am near Him. Strange! My intimacy with God present in my soul is greater at home than in church. In church, I feel a discomfort. The distance is too great and I freeze. I have gotten used for the last nine months to speak to Him, to love Him, to adore Him present in me. And I am happy to offer Him my poor soul as a home for I give Him everything. He is absolute Master of everything I have and am.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, offer Me more for a soul. At this moment, your director has near him in the confessional a poor soul in the state of mortal sin. Pray that she may make a good confession for she doesn’t want to end her sinful relationship under the pretext that she will soon be married. Poor young people who prepare themselves for a sinful future.”
Saturday 3 September 1955
– Mimi: “My God, please come to my aid! I am suffering a lot. My enemy is near me.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, ô Immaculate Virgin! Keep my body pure! Protect my soul! Look upon Your child who is struggling! Give me the strength to resist temptations! My Beloved, I place all my trust in You! Keep me near You! I don’t want to lose You for a single moment! Give me the strength to be courageous, generous and faithful. Increase my love!”
In the afternoon.
Painfully, I reached the church to go to confession but there was a person in the confessional. Suddenly, I heard a voice that said:
– Jesus: “Pray a lot for this soul. She is in great need for she doesn’t want to speak.”
I was waiting and praying. Several times, I wanted to leave for I was suffering too much and each time, my Beloved would say:
– Jésus: “Stay, stay some more where I have placed you. Think of this soul. She is suffering for she has a great problem to resolve. Don’t think of yourself. Think of your director who is doing his best to convince her. She keeps resisting.Think of Me for I am waiting for this soul.”
– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved. I accept everything for this soul. I must give her to You. I offer You to do more, but help me, for You know that I myself am struggling at this moment. Without You I can do nothing.”
– Jesus: “I know but you are not the only one. Think of Our team work at this moment. We are working together. It isn’t often that Our little team is together working at the same spot. Tell your director about Our little chat.”
I must have waited half an hour. I was suffering but hoping to have my turn for confession. But suddenly, my director simply left. He hadn’t seen me. I was so exhausted from waiting, I didn’t feel I had the strength to come back in the evening and I was crying. I couldn’t hold back my tears. My enemy took advantage of this by trying to discourage me.
− Jesus: “Finally, I was able to go to confession to my director. I told him about what had happened in the afternoon and I was pleased to talk to him.
– Jesus: “Do you see how important it is to tell him everything, to obey him, to trust in him? It is because of a special privilege that you are able to share Our secret. If I allow it, it is to prepare you for what I expect from you. At the moment you do not understand. No matter. Carry on! Close your eyes! Let your director guide you for he represents Me. He knows where he is going. He also know where to go and what road to take. Remain little. It is easier for Me to keep you in My arms near My heart that loves you so much.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, do not speak to your director about this. You believe you prayed for this soul this afternoon. It is useless for you are making rash judgments about your neighbor when you do this. Why don’t you mind your own business! This soul has its own freedom. What illusions! If God asks you to pray, to offer more, where is His power? And your director whom you trust, what power does he have on souls? You can see that I am always the stronger one.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! I don’t want to listen to any more lies. My God, I believe in You who are Truth. I adore You as the Almighty. I love You and I want to love only You. I believe in Your word, in Your love for souls and especially for me, Your little girl who loves You and wants to love You more and more. I want to thank You for so much love, for so much goodness.”
Sunday 4 September 1955
– Mimi: '' My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me to receive my God. How difficult it is to make an act of faith when God hides Himself.
I am going through a terrible crisis at this moment. I feel all alone. My enemy is attacking me from all sides. I don’t have the strength to continue. My mind wanders, my will is numb, my senses weakened. He is taking advantage of this to tell me:
– Satan: “Where is the One in whom you place your trust? What is He doing for you at this moment? You can see that when you say your are happy near Him that all this is an illusion. Life is not made up of dreams. Why not enjoy life a little.”
– Mimi: He suggests certain bad actions simply to offend my God. My mind is filled with ugliness, blasphemies I don’t dare write down.”
– Satan: “Remove your ring. You can tell your director that you lost it.”
– Mimi: I had already promised my director that I would tell him I was going through a moral crisis. So, I phoned him. He promised to help me, to do something so that I would not offend God.”
– Satan: “You believe that, poor little one! Your director is out of his mind! It’s no use!”
– Mimi: “I went to church in spite of the state I am in. The temptations are worse. I can’t pray. I only have blasphemies on my mind, in my mouth. How evil is my heart! I can’t go on. I try to distract myself. I go for a walk and my enemy is constantly by my side.”
– Satan: “Why not put an end to this life right away?”
– Mimi: Then, he begins menacing me. Finally, I decide to go see my director. I was afraid of disturbing him. I didn’t know what was going on. I was scared. I can’t explain it. My director blessed me. Then, I told him the purpose of my visit and the state I was in. He did his best to make me understand. He spoke to me about God’s love for me, His infinite mercy, about all that God had done for me, especially in the last five years. It is aweful to have to write these things, but during all the time he spoke, I didn’t believe him. I couldn’t admit that he was right and yet, I would have liked to tell him: “I believe everything you are telling me.” But I couldn’t. A mysterious force was holding me back. My director guessed that something was going on within me. He said:
− Mon Directeur: “I am not speaking in my name. I am speaking in the name of God who is here present. I am not here to mislead you, nor to play games with your soul. I understand the state you are in. However, have confidence. God loves you very much. He is looking at you. He knows everything. He has done a lot for you. Now, it is your turn to do something for Him. As for myself, I will do something to help you.”
– Mimi: I had trouble confessing myself. My director gave me once more his blessing. I could now speak. I was so happy to have found peace once again. My enemy had fled and I could now breathe freely.
– Mimi: “I lift up my eyes towards You, my God. I need to forget the world. Thank You for helping me. I place all my trust in You. I know very well that You alone can help me, sustain me. Thank You, my Beloved. I thank my director who has done so much for my soul.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I was watching you struggle. I could hear your cries but I have to act this way. I must purify you. There are still too many human elements in you. You allow yourself to be distracted too easily. Do not doubt My love for you. It is in times of trials, temptations, with the cross that I show you My love, but you don’t always understand.
I don’t ask you to understand everything but I want you to accept everything out of love for Me, your God who has done so much for you. My dear little one, at certain moments, I ask Myself why I love you more than others? And the answer is : I could see your miserable condition. One day, I heard your cry of distress. I saw the surges of your poor little heart full of bitterness. I took pity on you, My little one, and love closed My eyes on your poor life. This is when My heart opened up to your voice. In spite of everything, My love was no longer limited. Do you understand? My love is for you until death.
Tell Me that you believe in Me, that you are listening to My voice. I love you so. I need to tell you. I want you to be all Mine, only Mine, my dear little spouse whom I hide as a treasure from human eyes.
– Mimi: At this moment, His gentle embrace is so strong. Only my Beloved can have such an effect on my soul.
“Ô my Beloved, let me rest my head for a short while on Your Heart!» How wonderful it is to have found peace, security once again. I feel so happy knowing that this human heart that is near me is the heart of My God and to think that each heartbeat of His Divine Heart is full of love for me, poor and miserable little creature. How great and powerful is the love of God. I feel so small when I see my ungratefulness after having received so much love.
– Mimi: “Forgive me, my God, for having loved you so little. I thank You for having loved me by giving me Your Son as spouse. I give myself entirely to You by the hands of Your Divine Son and by the hands of my Gentle Mother of heaven. My God, in difficult moments, I beg You, sustain my faith, increase my confidence, purify my love. You alone can help me attain my ideal. Do with me as You will. Bless my director, if You please. He is doing his best to help me and sanctify me.”
Monday 5 September 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, to please You, I am going to put my writings in order.
My God, bless my director. He is going to begin visiting his district. May he bring peace, joy, consolation to each home where he will go. May he radiate Christ. Increase in him the power to touch the most hardened souls. How I would like to follow him in each home and tell the people: “Look at this priest with an apostolic heart. Trust him, listen to his voice. He represents God. If you only knew all that he has done for my soul that was lost. Go to him. He will lead you to God.”
I have begun to work. I am thinking about Our little team. With him, with my Beloved, I want to save many souls in order to offer them to You, my God, to console You, to show You my love, my gratitude.
Tuesday 6 September 1955
– Mimi: Today, in spite of a very difficult time, my Beloved helped me understand His love in an affectionate manner.
– Satan: “My dear little one, do you see how much I love you?”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved. Please increase my confidence, my love for You and for souls. I accept the state I am in today. (Spiritual aridity)
I was asking myself what I had done to please God during the day.»
– Jesus: “My poor little one, don’t look too much. You have done almost nothing. It is I who have done everything. You are easily distracted by the circumstances in your life. Rise above all this. Focus your heart, your mind, your soul on Me. How happy I would be to be the only subject on your mind. My dear little one, correct yourself. Ask your director to help you. You are very quick on resolutions but very slow on actions.”
Wednesday 7 September 1955
– Mimi: This morning, I was awakened by these words:
– Jesus: “My kingdom is peace!”
– Mimi: I was meditating on these words. Does the kingdom of God reign in me? Do I allow Him to establish His Kingdom in my life the way He wants to? It is true that when God reigns in my soul, I find peace, confidence, love, security.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you recognize My Royalty in joy, happiness, peace, consolation. But that is not all. Learn to recognize My Royalty when I come with My cross, with temptations, with trials, with spiritual aridity. I am always the same God, the King of heaven and earth, the Almighty. However, I am not like the kings of the earth who want to establish their kingdom with splendor, riches, honors, pleasures. In spite of all this, the poor fools do not think they are like beggars who, in order to receive the esteem of their subjects, make promises, conquests, and in spite of their royalty, they are full of worries. They aren’t free. The least of their subjects is often the happiest. And yet they pretend to be kings. My royalty is gentle, silent, humble. When I choose a subject to serve me, I always choose the littlest, the humble, the poor, the miserable. When I want to establish My Kingdom in a soul, I come with My cross, with trials, temptations, etc. As a reward, I give them heaven for eternity.”
– Mimi: “My God, Your kingdom come on earth! Reign with Your love in all hearts, especially poor sinners. I offer You my poor soul as a palace. Reign within me. I will no longer be at home but with Your grace I will be with You. My greatest wish is to become one of Your subjects, faithful in serving You. But I want to serve You with love whether joyful or sorrowful. I am confident that what I ask, I will obtain, for You have come for sinners, the miserable, the poor. I am one of them, my God. You know my life, my daily weaknesses. In spite of all this, ô my God, look at the desire I have to love You more than ever, to serve You with fidelity, with an entire submission to Your Holy Will. You know, my God, that I love You and that I want to sanctify myself by all means, that I want to save many souls. I beg You, help me realize my wish for Your greater Glory. I thank You for all that You are doing for me, ô my King of love.”
Thursday 8 September 1955
– Jesus: “Pray for priests who exercise their ministry routinely. How many offer the Holy Sacrifice with an apparent piety but with a distracted heart. They make me suffer. Yes, I am suffering more because they are my children of privilege, My apostles, My friends.
I am also thinking of all the christians who practice their religion superficially, poor souls! My commandments don’t count for them. And you, My little one, in the state you are in, tell Me that you love Me even if you don’t feel it. If you only knew how I need to be consoled. Do your Holy Hour anyhow. You can’t speak to Me; then, simply look at Me. Offer Me the heartbeats of love from your little heart. Have you ever noticed this: when you are sleeping, you are not talking to Me and this does not prevent your heart from beating. At this moment, in the state in which I have placed you, your are sleeping in My arms, near My heart that loves you so.”
– Mimi: I can’t write anymore. My Beloved is hiding. Complete emptiness.
– Mimi: “Without You, my Beloved, I am nothing, I can do nothing. Yet, I accept Your Holy Will over me.”
Friday 9 September 1955
– Mimi: I was getting ready to write but my Beloved hid again so I can do nothing. I cannot have a single thought about Him. I cannot even pray, meditate, nor write a single word. Complete emptiness.
– Mimi: “My God, I accept Your Holy Will. I will make many acts of faith.”
Saturday 10 September 1955
– Mimi: I could not prepare my communion. I could see such misery, preoccupations, temptations in my soul. Not enough love, confidence, and I was suffering a lot.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how great is Your love seeing all this misery. You will still come into my soul! I am so unworthy to receive You in the midst of such disorder, but You alone are able to help me. Increase within me love and confidence.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t trouble yourself! Didn’t I choose a manger at my birth? I don’t look at the state of your soul for it is very miserable. I look at your good will and the great desire you have to love Me even more. Throw yourself with confidence into My arms. I will do the rest.»
– Mimi: “My director helped me prepare my communion. The door of my soul was wide open. He entered it to put it in order. He spoke to me at length about Your infinite love for me. But he spoke especially about my ungratefulness, of my lack of confidence. I was ashamed of my conduct but I was especially sorry for having offended You, ô my God, after so many signs of Your love. I ask sincerely Your forgiveness, but I hope with Your grace never to offend You. I ask Your forgiveness. From now on, I want to atone. I want to console You, to prove to You my repentance, my love by accepting everything from Your Holy Will. I throw myself with love into Your arms. Keep me forever. I know that without You I am nothing.”
Sunday 11 September 1955
– Mimi: My soul is full of joy because it is full of God. In spite of my state of spiritual aridity, all kinds of temptations, a great distaste for prayer, I sense the presence of God in me. I am happy for in the state I am in, I am certain to be doing the Will of God.
– Satan: “Poor little one, you can very well say that you are happy for you are being lazy. Your soul is lukewarm, anything about God leaves you cold, your God is hiding. So much the better for He is in the way! You are now free! This is why you feel happy. Listen to me. I have a lot to tell you.”
– Mimi: “My God, come to my aid! I don’t want to listen to my enemy. I don’t want to offend You through a lack of confidence. I believe in You who are the Truth. I hope and expect everything from You, ô Infinite Goodness, my God, my only Love.”
I was planning to write, read,visit the Blessed Sacrament, but nothing materialized.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you made up your program for the day without asking My advice. That is why I have made My own. You are no longer alone. I am your Spouse, don’t forget!”
– Mimi: “Forgive me, my Beloved. Yes, I accept Your program. I accept with love Your crown of thorns that You have placed on my poor head.
The day went by in suffering a lot. No remedy brings me relief. Only the thought of my Beloved suffering with me helps me and sustains me.
– Mimi: “My God! I am suffering but I love You!”
Monday 12 September 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I accept Your Holy Will in spite of the state I am in. I want to love You more and more. Increase my confidence! My Beloved, in all humility, I have to admit I have a distaste for prayer, for meditation. It is repulsive for me to pray in my present state. However, I accept Your Holy Will and I will do my best to pray, to offer up my day, as if I were having great consolations. Yes, my Beloved, since I have offered You my poor soul as a dwelling, I am no longer at home. I am with You. I thank You for the space You want to give me out of Your goodness. I thank You for the degree of love You give me out of Your Infinite Mercy.”
Tuesday 13 September 1955
– Mimi: I am always in the same state. Complete emptiness. I cannot write anything.
– Mimi: “My God, I believe, I hope and I love You. May Your Holy Will be done!”
Wednesday 14 September 1955
– Mimi: “My God, sustain my faith, increase my love, my confidence. I am going through a terrible moment of temptation against faith. I don’t know what is going on in me. It is making me suffer a lot. I would like to pray. I am unable to. I still make acts of faith and love but I don’t believe what I am saying. I would like to write but there is emptiness. My spirit wanders. I have the impression I am doing nothing to please God. My God! Have pity on me and if this situation is according to Your Will, I accept it.”
Thursday 15 September 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, may your Holy Will be done! I would like to write but there is emptiness. My enemy wants to take advantage of this by troubling my soul.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, you admit that you cannot write a single word. Why don’t you take a book and copy a few sentences. No one will know that these words are not from you. This way, you will be obedient to your director. Fear not! I give you permission. I am the truth! Listen to my voice. I want to make sure of your love and entire submission to my voice.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, please enlighten me. Is this Your Holy Will? I suspect it is my enemy. He seems to have set a trap. My God, I accept the state I am in. Complete emptiness! But You know, my Beloved, that I don’t want to write anything other than what the Holy Spirit inspires me and what You ask of me for the greater glory of God. But at this moment, I can do nothing without You. I submit myself to You. I am awaiting with resignation, with patience, Your light and the inspirations of the Holy Spirit”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, do you still have doubts about Me, My inspirations, My demands, My suggestions, My advice? Do you presently believe in the words of your director, at what he asked you to write down? He knew very well that it wasn’t coming from you. Like Me, he knows your ignorance, your miseries. When I am no longer there, hiding, are you able to do anything? At this moment, are you able to write a single sentence? Of course not!”
Will you finally understand that all this is doing My Holy Will? To accept with love and entire submission everything whether in darkness or in moments of joy. My dear little one, it is by special privilege that I speak to you this way. I want to purify you, to prepare you for what My Father expects from you. Let yourself be led by your director. Give him your hand. Close your eyes. Don’t try to understand. He has known for a long time what I want from you. You will still need him for the road you are going to take will be more painful than the first one. Share with your director what I have just told you. He will understand. May he take all the necessary means to lead you where I want.
My dear little one, your attitude makes me smile. I can see everything. You have opened wide your eyes and at the bottom of your soul, you are wondering what I mean. Poor little one! I understand very well where you are. In the name of Our love, trust Me without trying to understand. Ask constantly for the help of My Divine Mother. Imitate Her in Her humility, in Her entire submission to the Holy Will of God. Meditate on this: “I am the servant of the Lord. May it be done according to Your word.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I thank You for such goodness. I recognize that without You I can do nothing and without the help of Your grace I cannot even raise my eyes towards You nor establish my heart in You nor make a single act of love and of faith. I thank You for Your love and I want to accept the state I am in only because I love You and want to console You in order to help You forget all the sorrow I have caused You with a conduct so evil, so ungrateful, because of my lack of confidence after havng received so many signs of love.
I have to go to the hospital tomorrow. This repels me greatly. However, I accept Your Holy Will with love for the salvation of souls.
I am thinking about Our team work and my prayer at this moment accompanies my director who is working hard in each home he visits.”
Friday 16 September 1955
– Mimi: Visit to the hospital. The doctor suggests another operation for the 28th of September. It is very risky.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if it is Your Will that I am not able to walk after this operation, I accept Your Holy Will, but help me! Give me the courage to resign myself perfectly for I am so weak. Today I accept, but on the very day, will I have the same courage? I place my trust in You. Keep me in Your arms.
My enemy is near me. My God, have pity on me!
Saturday 1 October 1955
First Saturday of the month.
– MIMI: When I think that my God will come to me, I am so happy! I would like the time to pass more quickly. I prepare my communion with my Gentle Mother of heaven on my right and my Guardian angel on my left, for my enemy wants to trouble me.”
Sunday 2 October 1955
– Mimi: My enemy scolds me concerning my director and says:
− Satan: “Poor little one, you let yourself be led by the tip of your nose by your director. He does what he wants with you. You are not free. You walk out of fear. Where is your freedom? Why believe that God has told him what He wants from you? He can make mistakes, you know. He is human. Why place your trust in him?”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! I don’t want to listen to you anymore! He is a director that I have and not a dictator. I have confidence in him because he represents God and has never led me astray. It is God himself who chose him. I know that my soul has been very costly to him.
Visit to church to console Him for the sorrow I have caused Him through my lack of faith.
Monday 3 October 1955
Feast of Saint Thérèse
– Mimi: “How I would like to be Your little sister, Thérèse! Ô Thérèse, please teach me how to serve and love Jesus like you. Help me walk on your little road of love that leads to heaven. Give me the necessary courage, especially in temptations, you who know what aridity and desolation is about. I need your help. I want to sanctify myself. I can’t do it alone. Come to my help, I beg you!”
Tuesday 4 October 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I ask you to walk with your eyes closed and not with your ears as you sometimes do. My dear little one, how I suffered last week in seeing your attitude so indifferent after all I gave you out of pure goodness and love. I had filled you with chosen graces!
Thank My Gentle Mother for having interceded for you because at a certain moment I wanted to give you a good lesson, but the prayers of My Divine Mother and those of your director, the sacrifices accompanied by corporal sufferings at least three times touched My heart for he asked several times to forgive you saying: “My God, forgive her for she knows not what she is doing.”
Tell him about Our chat. He may not want to speak about it in a spirit of humility but I hope he tells you a little about what he did for you, for your soul. And if a human being is able to suffer by shedding blood to save a soul, what would I not do, I your God, your Creator? Have I not given you enough proof of My love? My dear little one, after each trial, you should kiss the earth to thank Me for My favors. Take notice that each trial, each cross is a mark of My love to help you in sanctifying yourself.
Wednesday 5 October 1955
– Jesus: “Poor little one, what are you doing about Our team work? In moments of temptation you are content to see Us work. You act as a supervisor. You add up very well what your director and Myself are doing for you. You do nothing and wait for your salary. Do you think that souls are bought only with wishes? What purpose did My passion serve? Remember Our team work, Me, him and you.
Your director must offer, work. You must pray, suffer. As for Myself, I add on what is lacking to be agreeable to My Father.”
Thursday 6 October 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I sincerely ask Your forgiveness for my ungratefulness. Increase in me my confidence and love. In spite of everything, You know very well that I love You and wish to love You even more. I expect everything from Your Infinite Mercy. Have pity on me!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t forget your Holy Hour from eleven to midnight. I am counting on you. Come and console Me.”
Friday 7 October 1955
First Friday of the month
– Mimi: I couldn’t be happier. I have received my Beloved.
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God. I adore You present in me. Thank You for so much love!”
Saturday 8 October 1955
– Mimi: I am so happy! I was able to attend Holy Mass in the church.
– Mimi: “Thank You for Your great mercy. Thank You for Your love. I can’t keep back my tears just at the thought of the sorrow I caused you the other day because of my lack of confidence. I beg You, please give me full confidence, increase my love for You alone, ô my God. Strengthen my faith, give me the strength and courage to serve you with fidelity especially in difficult moments, during the great temptations You send me out of goodness to purify me.
With Your grace, ô my God, from now on, I wish to bless Your hand in moments of trials and moments of joys. I surrender myself to You. I throw myself with confidence into Your divine arms. My Beloved, please give me holy perseverance in my resolutions. I am so weak! I humbly ask Your aid, Your assistance, Your love.”
Sunday 9 October 1955
– Mimi: I am happy! I attended Holy Mass celebrated by my director.
– Mimi: “My God and my All, I adore You and love You more than anything. I offer myself to You with my Beloved through the hands of my Gentle Mother of heaven and through the hands of my director.
Yes, my God, I accept everything out of love. I want to become Your little Host of love that You will immolate each day for the greater glory of God. All for You, my God, nothing for me. My God, help me to be detached from everything and everyone in order to live only for You.
Monday 10 October 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I ask Your forgiveness for all the sorrow I caused You through my lack of confidence after so many signs of Your love. I recognize that I am ungrateful, selfish. I humbly ask Your forgiveness.
Tuesday 11 October 1955
Maternity of the Blessed Virgin Mary
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Gentle Mother of heaven for having accepted to become my Mother. Thank You for Your love, ô Immaculate Virgin. Keep my soul pure! Protect me from my enemies. I am Your child and all that I have belongs to You. Teach me to love Your Gentle Jesus. Teach me to serve Him faithfully like You did. Most pure Virgin, Most Blessed Virgin, I love You, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven. I thank You for interceding in my favor to God. I sincerely ask Your forgiveness. You also have suffered because of me. See my pain, my repentance. Do not reject my humble prayer.
It is in confidence that I come to You to share my sorrows, ô Refuge of sinners. Promise me that You will help me love Your Gentle Jesus even more by submitting myself to His Holy Will. With the grace of God, I want to practice and imitate Your virtues so that at the hour of my death, I may say with You that I am the little servant of the Lord. My Gentle Mother of heaven, I want to begin today to better serve God. I don’t want to waste time. I have so much to be forgiven. I need to atone.”
Wednesday 12 October 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little one, will you ever understand? How unjust, ungrateful you have been towards Me, your God, your Creator. It is out of pure goodness that I filled you and you selfishly kept the graces you received. Ask Me to understand the sorrow I felt last week at your reprehensible conduct, you, My little spouse, My beloved, My little one. Yes, how I suffered! I wept because of you. Your director suffered with Me. He wept. His soul was so sad at seeing your attitude after all that he had said. He suffered a lot. He did not count the extent of his sufferings to the point of shedding his blood and the numerous sacrifices, and all this for your soul. Poor little one! Never doubt him. He has known for a long time all that I want from you and expect from you, as you are sustained by My grace.
My dear little one, during these days of trials, My soul was in agony at seeing in what state you were. You were pitying yourself so much. This is why I left you alone to struggle. The sharpest pain I felt was when you rejected with contempt your blessed ring saying: “I can no longer wear it!”
At that moment my heart skipped a beat! I could almost feel a sword piercing My heart.
Your director felt the same thing for his sorrow was so great. He even jumped in fright before this vile gesture of revolt. Who are you, poor miserable creature to act in such a manner towards your God? What do you make of the authority of your director?
So, by rejecting this blessed ring, you no longer wanted Me to be a part of your life. You despised My love, I your Beloved Spouse. You rejected the cross. I who loved it to the point of wanting to die on it for you. Poor little one! Why have you done this, you My privileged child? I who have filled you, who have preferred you to so many others who by their conduct deserved My favors. Ô My dear little spouse, I beg you, allow me to act freely in you. I want to purify you in order to offer you to My Father with a renewed soul, with a purified soul, with a soul full of love for Him.
Give me your poor little hand still trembling. Together, we will resume Our road towards heaven. Do not doubt My love, you, so little, so contemptible at times. My love for you is so great that I did not fear picking you up from your sinful condition. You were wounded. I bandaged your wounds and with the merits of My Precious Blood, I washed your soul. Now, I want to purify you. Let Me, let Us do this. Look once more at My Infinite Mercy. Seeing your repentance, your sincerity, I forgive you, poor little one. Yes, come My dear privileged child, My dear little spouse, My dear little one!”
– Mimi: It is the first time He calls me by my first name.
− Jesus: “Come close, come closer to My Divine Heart. Do not retain your tears, weep upon My shoulder. I understand. I understand your weaknesses and in spite of everything, I can’t help loving you. I know you want to make amends, you want to console Me, you want to atone.”
My dear little spouse, I accept you. Speak to me of love. Throw yourself with confidence into My arms and I will forget everything. Now, promise Me you will never remove your blessed ring. It is the symbol of Our union in love and suffering. Read again the little pages of Good Friday 16 April 1954. You will understand what I mean. My dear little one, what would you say if at the hour of your death I rejected you like you rejected the blessed ring? Don’t do it again, I beg you in the name of Our love. Never reject My will, that of My Father, for you will still have great trials, great temptations. Support them with resignation, with confidence in Us, with patience, with love, with an entire submission to the Holy Will of God. Show Us your repentance, your gratitude, your love by accepting everything. For in doing this you are saving souls.”
Thursday 13 October 1955
− Mimi: “My God, I want to love You more and more. Increase my confidence! My Beloved, give me the strength and courage to follow You with fidelity even in small things. I offer You everything out of love. I want to fulfill my team work to save souls but especially to please You, to console You.
Yes, my Beloved, I love You more than my poor human heart has ever loved. I am all Yours and I throw myself with confidence into Your arms. I adore You present in me and I thank You for so much goodness, ô my God of love, my All.”
Friday 14 October 1955
− Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for being present in me to help me overcome this trial.”
Great temptation against faith.
– Mimi: “My God, I believe. I adore You. I love You. I believe in You, in Your infinite mercy for me. I can do nothing without You, my Beloved. Help me in this struggle. I cannot do it alone. Sustain me with Your grace and Your love. I don’t want to lose You a single moment.”
Visit from my director in spite of his illness. He comes to help me. His devotion has no limit not to mention his great charity.
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for this favor.
“Ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, I want to share with you a great sorrow. The health of my director worries me a lot. Ô Mary, my hope, watch over him. He is Your child. Ask God for me to heal him, please. Protect me. My enemy is taking advantage and wants to discourage me. I place all my trust in You, ô my Beloved. You are stronger than he.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me to prepare tomorrow’s communion. How anxious I am! Time seems so long!”
Saturday 15 October 1955
– Mimi: I am happy to receive my Beloved. After my communion, I went to bed and slept peacefully.
– Jesus: “My dear little one. This is how you make your thanksgiving? I take the time to come and see you! Your director who is ill and comes out of his way to bring you this happiness! How I must love you to shut my eyes on all this, on your imperfections, on your faults. I forgive you, little one. Before doing something, think of Me. You will see how everything will change in your life.”
– Mimi: “To repair, my Beloved, I want my whole day to be a day of thanksgiving. I ask Your forgiveness. Thank You for being present in me.”
Sunday 16 October 1955
– Mimi: “My God, see my sorrow! My director is ill. My God, receive my humble request.
My Beloved, answer my prayer. My God, Your servant is ill. It is with faith and confidence that I make this request. Please heal him. I wish to make another request. I would like to suffer instead of my director. I have the time to suffer. It is my duty, my share in Our team work. My director’s share is to work. My Beloved, how do You want him to work if he is sick? He has so much to do during the retreat that begins this evening and will end only in several weeks. My Beloved, promise me You will heal him, if You please. My Beloved, I offer to suffer in his place. You know my little secret. You know how useful he still is for souls. As for myself!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I will do something for him. Our team has a lot to do during this time of retreat. My dear little one, during this busy time, what are your plans? Will you work with Us? Or will you look at us like a supervisor? What salary do you claim on this earth? My dear little one, meditate on this. Tell it to your director.”
– Mimi: “Ô gentle reproaches of my Beloved! You know very well that I want to work with You. Since I am a weak instrument, I want to do my share. Receive me simply as a little apprentice without experience but who wants to learn the trade, that of saving souls. I don’t count on myself. I know very well that I am not able to do it alone.
But I count on Your love, on Your grace to help me walk by Your side and fulfill my duty as team member. Following the example of my director, I wish to give You many souls. I accept Your Holy Will in all things. I don’t ask for a salary in doing this team work. All I ask You and request from You is Your love and the grace to serve You faithfully, to love You more than anything and holy perseverance in my resolutions. I place all my trust in You.”
Monday 17 October 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I trust in You. I love You. I thank You for having loved me and forgiven me following such bad conduct. With Your grace, I want to love You and serve You better. I so want to make You forget my ungratefulness. I thank You for Your goodness. I thank You for this new trial that you sent me for the greater good of my soul.
I adore You present in me and I love You in this cross that You have placed on my shoulder. My Beloved, hear my prayer. I beg You to heal him if it be the Holy Will of God.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, ask for this favor! Watch over him. Take care of him like Your child. See how he suffers! Can Your motherly Heart , Your compassionate Heart not be moved? In Your love for him who has always done his best and even more to serve You, love You, who has always worked for You, to make You better known and loved by souls, I beg You, please give him great spiritual consolations to help him. I am certain, I am confident that a smile coming from You, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven can heal him. Ô my dear Mother, you are almighty on the heart of God. Ask Him, if You please, to heal him. Listen to the confident prayer of Your poor little girl filled with sorrow. As for myself, I want to do my share and I offer myself in union with the sufferings of Your Divine Son, with my humble prayers for him.
Remember, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, my daily prayer when I ask You to die before my director in order to be ready to receive the last rites before appearing before God.
How he would be pleased to sign my safe passage to heaven. How he would be happy to see me close my eyes forever, he who opened them to faith and truth and divine love.
– Mimi: Mother, ô Mother, my Gentle Mother of heaven, when will You come to get me? I would be so happy to die on the 8th of December, the day of Your Immaculate Conception. Think of my joy, my happiness. I was born on the 8th and I would die on the 8th. Baptized in the church of the Immaculate Conception with a funeral service in the church of the Immaculate Conception. To die on the day of the Immaculate Conception! What joy to go and live forever near my Gentle Mother of heaven! However, my God, I accept Your Holy Will.”
Tuesday 18 October 1955
Great temptation again faith!
− Mimi: “My God, come to my aid! My God, I believe in Your Infinite Mercy.
My Beloved, to please You, I accept the state in which You have placed me today. I want to save souls. My Beloved, I offer You this worry concerning my director. I know that he is still sick and I have no news. My God, it is with confidence that I ask You to heal him. All I can do for him is to pray.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, watch over him. He deserves it.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come and say hello! You are too preoccupied by your trials. Come and place them at My feet. Come My dear little spouse. We are going to talk about Our projects, Our love, Our team work.”
Wednesday 19 October 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little one, offer Me your silence.”
– Mimi: I couldn’t write nor read. I have to listen to the reading.”
– Jesus: “Come and spend an hour with Me, this afternoon, at the church.”
– Mimi: To my great surprise, my director who is ill goes to his confessional to hear confessions. There are many persons.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, look at him! You suffer to see him work though he is sick. He knows the value of a soul in the state of grace. He doesn’t wait for Me to tell him to work. He offers up, he does his team work. He isn’t like you. You are right in being sorrowful, ashamed of your conduct.
Finally we are once again the three of us together to accomplish our team work. Pray for the souls who go to confession so that they may be sincere with perfect contrition. Recite your rosary on your knees.
– Mimi: I was so exhausted!
– Jesus: “Through your obedience and sufferings, you are helping and sustaining confessors in their duties. You give them patience and courage to continue. If people understood how extenuating and difficult it is at times to confess for several hours. How great would be their consolation and their encouragement to be able to say: “This soul whose confession I have just heard is really sincere! He is full of good will! He loves his God enough to avoid falling into sin again”. But, unfortunately, how many make retreats only to do what others do, nothing more. How often have I heard the following: “My God, I want to make my retreat but I don’t want to change anything in my life, my habits, my affections, my faults, etc. Afterwards, I will go to heaven because I made my retreat.” Poor souls! Poor unfortunates! They talk as if I didn’t see everything, as if I didn’t know about their deepest thoughts, their hearts’ desires.
If I am telling you this, My dear little one, if I confide in you, it is because I know that you understand Me perfectly. Do you remember your superficial retreats? Now that you recognize your miseries and wish to serve Me, love Me, console Me, I confide in you My sorrows, My little spouse whom I love! I beg you, give Me souls!”
Thursday 20 October 1955
– Mimi: “My God, make me love You more and more!”
– Jesus: “Come spend an hour with Me! Come and console Me! If you only knew all I am suffering! Tell me often that you love Me. My heart needs so much love!”
– Mimi: I was meditating on the goodness of God towards me, on His love, on His Infinite Mercy. Then, I meditated on all my ungratefulness, on my lack of confidence.
– Mimi: “You alone, ô my God, know the sorrow that I feel at seeing my faults. I sincerely ask Your forgiveness. My God, I beg You, allow all the words of preachers and the advice of confessors to penetrate the minds and remain embedded in their hearts forever. I want to offer You a lot during these retreats. I want souls to offer themselves to You and console You.”
– Jesus: “Offer me this concern of seeing your director ill. You are sorrowful at seeing him suffer in his body. Think, therefore, about the sorrow he sometimes has when he sees your soul ill and when you do not want to do anything to heal it.”
Friday 21 October 1955
– Mimi: I had just made an act of patience and had been struggling with a great temptation.
– Mimi: “I think, my Beloved, that I have just made a step in the right direction.”
– Jesus: “Yes, my dear little one, you regressed for when you think you have made progress, you are further away. It is not for you to judge. My dear little one, I beg you, do not begin calculating your little steps. Did I calculate My steps during the years I was looking for you? In the past, did you calculate your steps when offending Me? Therefore, be humble and don’t do it again. It saddens Me!”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness. I know that without You I am nothing. With Your grace, I want to walk by Your side without counting my steps. I ask Your forgiveness once again. I don’t want to offend You. I simply said it without thinking, like a little child who is happy when it takes a few steps.”
– Jesus: “I know very well that you said this without thinking. This is what saddens Me, for if you had thought of Me at that moment, you would have said: “My Beloved, I thank You. I think I took another step to love You.” And you act like a child who is happy to have taken a few steps on its own.
My dear little one, if I did not hold you in My arms, do you see all the stupid things you could do? Can you see how closely I follow you? This does not prevent Me from loving you. The smaller you are, the more I love you. I am so aware of your miseries. I have pity on you. I forgive you.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, one more thing. In the future, be more respectful towards Me and My representative. This evening, you could have knelt to receive absolution. Don’t you kneel to wash your floor?”
– Mimi: “I ask Your forgiveness. Ô Holy Spirit, please give me all Your gifts, especially the gift of intelligence.”
– Satan: “Poor little one, do you see what kind of life you are leading? You are free and yet, you are unable to do things on your own. Do you see what kind of God you have? The more you give, the more He asks of you. He is no longer content with your good will. He doesn’t stop scolding you and what can we say about your director! He doesn’t give you a chance! He strongly approves your God. Can’t you see They both want to dominate you? You are not living in a time of slavery! Listen to me! There is still time to rebuild your life, a life of freedom like before. Think of me. Do I scold you? I respect your freedom. You believe in the true love of God for you. He says so! Don’t you believe it! He has more pity on you than love.”
– Mimi: “ Get lost, liar! You really must be the devil for telling me such things. My Beloved, I believe, I adore You present in me. I thank You for Your love. I bless Your hand that shows me my mistakes, my faults. I lower myself before You, ô my God, my Creator. I submit myself to Your Holy Will because I love You. In spite of my unworthiness, my misery, I know and I believe that You love me. I implore Your mercy, Your help, Your strength, Your might, but especially Your love to continue my journey towards God. I know that the road is very long, very painful but I do not fear. I have a good guide in the person of my director and Yourself, my Beloved. You are my support, my strength. My God, answer my prayer. I want to love You even more.”
Saturday 22 October 1955
After communion.
– Mimi: I am so happy. My God is present in me. We have so much to say to one another. We shared Our love and then spoke of Our projects. Concerning this, I told Him:
– Mimi: “How sad my mom will be when she learns that I have died. Who will take care of her?”
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, My beloved, why do you have such useless regrets? She won’t be alone. I will be with her as I have always been. My dear little one, before dying on the cross, before leaving this earth, did I leave My Divine Mother alone? Of course not! I gave her to Saint John. I understand your anxiety. Give me your mother and do not fear. My dear little one, your mother will be rapidly consoled at knowing that you are all Mine and that as a Spouse, I have come to fetch you. If a human being had asked for your hand, she would have accepted to see you leave happy. She would have given everything up to make you happy. I, your God, your Spouse, I want to fetch you in order to share eternal life with you. And if I come to fetch you, it is still out of love. Is it so painful to come to possess My heaven? To live with Me in My glory for all eternity? My dear little one, do you prefer to live a long life of suffering and worrying about losing Me and being unsure of your salvation?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, You know very well that I love You and that my greatest wish is to do Your Holy Will at all times.
You know very well that two persons who love each other cannot live apart very long. How could I live and be happy far from You, ô my Love? During the little time left for me to live, I want to be at Your service. I want to love You even more. I abandon myself into Your powerful arms. With Your grace, I want to save many souls.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me to prepare my soul before appearing before my God. I trust in You.
My Beloved, grant me final perseverance.»
Sunday 23 October 1955
– Mimi: “I am very happy to receive You. I know that I am unworthy of receiving communion.
How great is His love for me, His poor little creature!
– Mimi: “My Beloved, You are here, present in me. I adore You and I love You. I thank You for Your infinite love. Consider my miseries, my faults. Increase my confidence. Strengthen my faith, purify my love.
Grant me especially the grace of never losing You for a single moment. Please grant me the grace of being humble and submissive to Your Holy Will and docile to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. I ask Your forgiveness for having offended You. I ask Your forgiveness for my malice, my ungratefulness and for the sins of my whole life, after having received so many signs of Your love. When I think of the day when I rejected the blessed ring, my heart suffers and I still feel a great sorrow. How I regret this senseless gesture! My God, I humbly ask Your forgiveness.
With Your grace, I want to atone. I especially want to love You and console You. I cannot continue writing. I am expecting visitors this afternoon. However, my Beloved, I am not leaving You completely since You are here, present in me. I love You, my Beloved. I yearn for You each moment.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, I love You. Protect me. Please help me. I want to imitate Your virtues and practice Your humility. Like Yourself, I want to keep secret all that is going on between Us, especially between My Beloved and me, His poor little girl who loves Him in spite of her miseries.”
Do not forget, my Beloved, the confident prayer that I recite each day for my director, my parents, my friends and enemies.”
– Jesus: “Finally, My dear little one, We are alone! I found the time long!”
– Mimi: “I also, my Beloved. I was anxious to be near You.”
Monday 24 October 1955
– Mimi: I was talking about music with a friend. I had a moment of vanity when I said:
− Mimi: “You know, I have my licence in music and I would have liked to continue my studies to obtain my masters.”
– Jesus: “My poor little one, you are not the only one to have a licence. Wild animals can also have a licence. What would be the use for you to have a licence in music? Do you believe that it is necessary to save souls? Continue to study your faults in order to master them. This will be more agreeable to Me and more useful to you. Poor little one, poor human nature! You can see, My dear little one, how much you need Me every moment. Do you see the necessity of a guide?”
– Mimi: “My God, I ask Your forgiveness. I want to atone. I am counting on You to help me. In the future, I will avoid speaking of me, this poor me, and to remain humble, I will ask for the help of my director. I will often think of Jesus. Yes, Jesus, meek and humble of heart, render my heart similar to Yours.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, I am very upset. I offended once again Your Gentle Jesus with my vain words. Please help me correct myself. Ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, I want to remain very little, very humble so that Jesus may make in me His permanent home.”
Tuesday 25 October 1955
– Mimi: I can’t write today. Someone needs my help.
– Mimi: “Out of love for You, my Beloved and also because of my team work, I will spend my day helping this person. I want to help her. She deserves it. She has been so good to me.”
– Mimi: “I was exhausted. My heart is bigger than my capacity. I have to go to the hospital tomorrow. This repels me a lot. Out of love for You, my Beloved, I accept Your Holy Will. I want to prove to You my love, my gratitude for all Your goodness and I wish to save many souls.”
Wednesday 26 October 1955
– Mimi: Visit to the hospital. I am happy for once again the doctor declared that I was a difficult case to follow because there were a lot of complications.
– Mimi: “However, it is so easy to understand for Us, isn’t it, my Beloved? And it is so easy to look at it with the eyes of faith. I would have liked to rest, this afternoon. I was in a lot of pain.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, don’t think of it. I need your work, your sufferings. I need souls.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, to please You, I will consecrate this afternoon in helping out. My Beloved, help me hide my exhaustion. Help me smile in spite of my situation.”
Thursday 27 October 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I will do my team work by doing the will of others. I thank You for this has given me the occasion of mortifying my will and my body. Since I couldn’t write, I made acts of love. During my work, I was engaged in private prayer of adoration, thanking God present in me. My God, my Beloved, I accept this fatigue in union with Your sufferings, in atonement for my sins, especially in atonement for the hateful gesture of revolt. If You knew, my Beloved, all the sorrow I feel when I think about this. It makes me suffer greatly.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I know very well that you are suffering. However, your pain will never be similar to Mine. I forgive you but you must repair this offense against your God, your Creator. He is Infinite Goodness, Almighty, King of heaven and earth. He is a God of love, your Beloved Spouse who loved you to the point of shedding His Precious Blood, His life for you out of love.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved! May Your will be done! Tell me what I must do to repair, to atone.”
Friday 28 October 1955
– Mimi: “I am taking drops to sustain the health of my poor body, but I especially need the drops of Your Precious Blood for my sick soul to sustain it, to strengthen it, to protect it against enemies that are close to me like microbs.”
I cannot write down the great happiness that I have when I think about my Beloved coming tomorrow into my poor soul. I need Him so badly to help me. I need His love to purify me. I so want to love Him more. I have no excuse for not having confidence after so many signs of love.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I wish to receive You in order to please You. Come, my Beloved Spouse, my God, my Unique Treasure. Come into Your abode. Come with Your infinite love. Come with Your mercy. Come with all Your graces. Come with Your Spirit of Holiness. I give myself to You completely and forever. I want to let You act freely, to work in my soul in order to render it agreeable to God, my Creator. My poor soul is so sick! My God, have mercy.
Saturday 29 October 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I offer You my communion for Your Glory. My God, I love You because Your are my Father, my Creator. I adore You present in me. I recognize Your infinite mercy and the power of Your love in my poor little soul.
During thanksgiving, great temptation. My enemy told me:
– Satan: “You believe in the presence of God in this Host? Poor little one! Why don’t you believe in visible things! Look at reality with human eyes and not with the eyes of faih. Who told you that you had faith? You believe in an invisible God! Try an experiment. Ask your God to show Himself to you to increase your confidence. If He does so, I will bow before Him and if He does not answer, you will have proof that He does not exist. My dear little one, ask me the same thing. You will see my power. I am not afraid. I can appear to you right away if you like. You believe that God is present in you? As for myself, I am always by your side!”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! I hate you with all my heart! My God, have pity on me! Come to my help! Come, my Beloved, Your little spouse needs You, needs Your love. My Beloved, I believe in You. I adore You. I believe in Your presence in me. I believe in Your infinite mercy. I believe in my future happiness in heaven, near You for all eternity.
Mother! My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect your child! Give me strength and courage to fight against all temptations. Do not allow me to offend Your Gentle Jesus through my lack of confidence.
I do not want to allow any doubt to enter my mind. Ô my Mother, I throw myself into Your arms. Hide me near Your Divine Heart as You used to hide Your Gentle Jesus from the hands of Herod. I also have enemies. Protect me! Receive and answer the confident prayer of Your little girl who takes refuge in Your powerful arms. With You, ô Mother, I have no fear. I trust in You, Refuge of sinners. I love You and thank You for Your assistance in all my needs.
Sunday 30 October 1955
Feast of Christ the King
– Mimi: “I am happy to receive communion on this beautiful day, my Beloved, feast of Your Royalty. Rest and keep the golden crown on Your head. Place on my head Your crown of thorns. I want to work in Your place. With Your grace, I want to work for You. I want to save souls. Yes, out of love for You, I accept everything and I want to offer You a lot to show You my gratitude.”
My God, my King, I prostate myself on my knees before You to give You homage. Look at Your feet upon the smallest of Your creatures, the weakest, the most miserable one, but the most loving one in spite of her miseries. I know, my God, that I am not worthy of receiving You. I am ashamed and regret my conduct so despicable at times. But I trust in You and love You. Your goodness and Your love draws me closer more and more. I yearn for You constantly. Ô my powerful King, ô King of my heart, please grant me the necessary graces to serve You better and to follow You by avoiding sin and even imperfections. Ô my King of love, my Spouse, my Beloved, strengthen my love for You so that I may live only for You. Detach me from all creatures. Grant me the grace to have no human affection that could keep me away from You.”
Ô my King, my Beloved Spouse! May Your embrace be stronger in moments of great temptations and in spite of the storm, may I believe and say that my Beloved is present in me in spite of the state I am in. Grant me, if You please, the grace of remaining always Your faithful little spouse at Your service and very submissive to Your Holy Will. May I always walk by Your side with love and full confidence. Please grant me the grace to love You each day more and more. Give me the strength and courage to overcome my evil passions, my rebellious will, my visible and invisible faults, all temptations, my visible and invisible enemies.
My God, I thank You for Your love and for all Your graces. My God, I offer myself to You forever in the presence of the Holy Trinity, of my Gentle Mother of heaven, of the whole celestial court. Yes, I offer myself with all my miseries. Receive me as the prodigal son. Receive me as You did Mary Magdalen, for my heart is filled with love for You and repentance for all my faults, all my numerous sins. Finally, receive me as You did the good thief into Your kingdom so that I may love You, adore You, glorify You, serve You eternally. I throw myself into Your powerful arms with full confidence and I huddle close to Your adorable heart. Thank You, thank You. I am so happy in the arms of my Beloved Spouse, my King of Love. I adore You as the King of my heart, King of heaven and earth. Receive my humble homage.
Ô my King of Love, reign in all hearts. Your kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven. Reign on Your Church. Reign on all peoples. May Your reign be without end. Ô my God, may the whole universe recognize Your Royalty.
How beautiful You are with the monstrance and the golden crown and the rich royal mantle. I am so happy. It is worthy of You, worthy of a King of Love.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl! My beloved! I am very grateful and I appreciate this beautiful decoration but, after all, they are perishable things. I know very well that these exterior actions honor Me, but do you know where I recognize My royalty? It is in souls and when a soul allows Me to live in it as King and Master. That is when I live and reign in it until the day when I will share with it My Kingdom for all eternity, because, on earth, it shall have given Me a place to stay in its poor little dwelling, Me, the unknown God, the forsaken King, the forgotten King.”
At this moment, My dear beloved little girl, if your earthly eyes could see Me in all My power, My beauty, My Royalty, if you could see the happiness in heaven today, if you could hear the hymns of gratitude, of prayer; if you could see all the homage that I am receiving from the whole celestial court; I do not forget the homage from the consecrated souls and the faithful, from the little ones on earth. My dear beloved little spouse, I am sad at not being able to have you experience My joy, My happiness today. However, My dear little one, look at this spectacle with the eyes of faith. Have full confidence in My words. Think of the day when, full of My love, I will come to fetch you. Meditate on this and prepare yourself for you must die as a victim of My love. You don’t understand? Trust Me and prepare our next encounter. How anxious I am to possess You for all eternity!
My dear little spouse, Mine and only Mine, if you knew how I am jealously guarding you as a treasure. This is why I wish you to be ignored by mankind. Remain little and humble. Remain hidden in Me, My dear little one.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for giving me a foretaste of heaven, and if there was no one around, how I would like to place myself near the altar to be nearer to You, my God, my King of Love.”
– Jesus: “My dear beloved little spouse, am I not there, in you, in My palace, in Our dwelling? It is easy to come closer to Me. Close your eyes. Meditate for a few moments and descend once again within yourself. Look at your miseries. Look at what you are before Me, your God. Look at what you are without Me, your God. Look at what I have done for you out of pure love. Look at my constant love.
My dear little spouse, the more you are humble before Me and before mankind, the more you will be confident. The more you have love for Me, the more you will accept the crosses of life. The more you will be in conformity with My Holy Will, the more you will be near Me. With all that, My dear little spouse, not only will you be near Me, but you will be in Me. For when a soul gives itself to Me completely and that I give Myself to it, We are but One.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, look at me! I am so happy to hear Your voice. How I would like to speak to You, but I do not know what is going on in me. A gentle peace penetrates my soul and I remain silent. I was watching the people pray. I would like to pray like them with fervor.”
– Jesus: “My dear little beloved spouse, do not trouble yourself. I understand. Love doesn’t need words. A simple sigh, a simple gaze is sufficient.”
Do you know that from all the prayers I receive,
I prefer the intimacy of the soul with its God,
I prefer the simplicity of the child with its Father,
I prefer simple and pure love,
I prefer disinterested demands,
I prefer blind confidence,
I prefer conformity to My Holy Will.
My dear little one, do you know that among the people kneeling before Me to adore Me in My Royalty, it is you whom I prefer the most? You are surprised? Why yes, My dear little beloved spouse. Do you know why I prefer you to so many others? Why I love you, why I want to purify you? It is because you are in My eyes the most miserable one, the poorest, the weakest, the smallest of My creatures. I know how much your soul cost Me! Your director also knows this. He is doing a lot for your soul. Think about this privilege that you have in having a director chosen by Me. Since you have offered your little soul as a palace where I am King and Master, I want to purify you.
There is a lot of work to be done. That is why all your miseries attract Me, that is why I look upon you with so much love for I know very well that you love Me and that your great desire is to love me more but you are weak at times. You remember this vile gesture of revolt? My dear little one, if a king found out one day that one of his subjects is very sick, disabled and poor and has to undertake a long journey empty handed, do you believe he would let him leave without any help, without providing him with a good guide to help him undertake this long trip, without giving him all he needs to reach his goal?”
My dear little one, this King is I ! The subject is you! The guide is your director! Will you finally understand why I love you? Will you remain loyal like a faithful subject until the day I come to fetch you?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, on the day of Your Royalty, I would have liked You to reign with radiance, with a day of sunshine, but it is raining. How sad!”
– Satan: “My dear little one, this gives you an idea of the tears I shed on My people. In spite of My Royalty, I don’t forget My Passion. I think about each soul.
I shed tears of blood for you. Your director has often wept because of you. Make an act of humility. Ask him how costly your soul was to Us.”
Thursday 3 November 1955
– Mimi: I am happy to have opened wide the door of my soul to my director.
– Jesus: “It is a very good thing to have opened the door of your soul but watch out for the drafts. It is dangerous for a weak soul. From now on, cover yourself with the veil of charity.”
My Beloved said this because during the conversation, I had criticized a person.
Thursday 10 November 1955
– Jesus: “My dear beloved little girl, I want you to repair this offense made to God and to the Blessed Trinity. I want your director to bless this ring with holy water. With this vile gesture of revolt that you did, this ring has been profaned. Do you recognize the enormity of your fault? In doing this, you have sinned gravely against Me your Spouse, Me Infinite Goodness. You have shown contempt for the love of God the Father. You have profaned Our Love, Our union. You have rejected Me from your life. You have trampled on this pact that I had made with you in love and suffering. You have turned your back on the aspirations of the Holy Spirit. My poor little one, why have you done such a thing? If you had seen My tears of blood! My heart was open and through My wound, I was letting a few drops of My Precious Blood flow for you. Do you see how much I love you?”
My dear little girl, I have given up everything for you, to redeem your soul, to save it, to give it life for it had been dead for a long time. What more can I do for you? I fill you with favors, special graces. I offer you to share My happiness in heaven for eternity. In the past, I suffered to see you live in sin, indifference, but the other day, I suffered even more to see your hateful gesture of revolt, to realize your contempt for all We had done for you, your director and Myself. You sinned in the presence of your director. You must repair in his presence.”
– Satan: “You will have to kiss the earth three times. Once, to repair this sacrilege, to repair your lack of confidence, your contempt for your God, infinitely good. Ask sincerely for My forgiveness. Second, to adore Me as your Creator, your God, your Beloved Spouse. Third, to thank Me for all the graces I have given you out of pure goodnes, and humiliate yourself by recognizing your fault. To help you repair, may your director inflict on you a well-deserved correction. It is necessary. He knows what I mean.”
– Mimi: “My God, is this what You really want? That I repair by kissing the floor before my director? It seems to me that there are other ways I could repair.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, when will you be humble enough, submissive enough to admit what I am asking without arguing. I can easily do without your comments. What are you before Me? I know the bottom of your heart, of your thoughts at this moment. You hesitate because it is going to humiliate you, upset you. Yet, My dear little girl, you did not hesitate for a moment to make this vile gesture of revolt in front of your director. Don’t forget that he represents Me.”
– Mimi: My enemy takes advantage of this by telling me:
– Satan: “Poor little one, how I feel sorry for you. You are leading a very miserable life. Your God does not respect your freedom. He even obliges you to do ridiculous things. Think about it. To kneel before your director and kiss the floor. What a humiliation for you! Simply because you wanted to claim your freedom. In acting this way, your God calls this love, mercy. Open your eyes!”
Your God is afraid you will discover that His way of treating you is unjust. This is why He constantly asks you to walk with your eyes closed. He knows very well that if you discovered the truth, you would leave Him forever.”
– Mimi: “My God, I believe in You. I believe that You are the Truth. I believe in Your merciful love for me. I beg You, have mercy on me. Do not allow me to give in to all these temptations. Have pity on my weakness, my poor human nature. To show You my love, my repentance, I accept to atone though it goes against my nature to kiss the floor.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, model of virtue and humility, please help me!
My God, I adore You present in me. I want to love You even more. My Beloved, I recognize my fault. I ask Your forgiveness. I know that you suffered greatly when I struck You with this spear in a vile gesture of revolt. But I also suffer and regret having offended You. My Beloved, You received the blow and I am keeping the wound in my soul. Only Your love can help me obey.”
Friday 11 November 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little one, if you could only see what is going on in heaven at this moment! The Saints, the angels are in a nervous tension at seeing you prepare your confession. They are awaiting the moment with anxiety. They are leaning close to you, praying for you.
After my confession
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, there is joy in heaven! If you could hear the hymns of thanksgiving! My Divine Mother launches into the Magnificat. If you knew the value of a single soul in the state of grace! If you understood My happiness of forgiving. I am happy to receive in My arms My guilty but repentant child. Do you remember what happened in you at the moment of absolution? You are not able to write nor express this phenomenon, this peace, this joy. As a special privilege, your director experienced the same feelings.”
– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved, I remember very well. It felt as if my soul was leaving my body and reaching out to You. Only Your Love, ô my God, can realize this effect in my soul. I thank You, my God, for having forgiven me once more. Thank You for Your love. Thank You for Your infinite mercy. I am happy to be huddled into Your divine arms, near Your adorable heart.»
At this moment, my Beloved, I would like my director to feel the same happiness. He deserves it. He has done a lot for my soul. You know how much my soul cost him. My Beloved, keep him close to Your heart. My God, bless his work, his sacrifices. In Your infinite love, grant him all his priestly desires, his prayers that he makes for the salvation of souls and for Your greater glory. Fill him with Your special graces that You reserve for Your faithful friends, Your privileged children.
If I am presently able to raise my eyes towards You, it is because I have had a good guide, enlightened, walking in Your footsteps. His love for You, his entire conformity to Your Holy Will, his limitless confidence are his principles. He did not hesitate a single moment to seek holiness, perfection in the least little things. At his example, I want to come closer to You with love, with full confidence. I thank You, my God, for giving me a good director in whom I trust and to whom I confide my soul and eternal salvation.”
Saturday 12 November 1955
– Mimi: “I am so happy to receive my Beloved. It is as if I were receiving Him for the first time. When I think that my Beloved is present in my poor little soul!
My God, my Love, I thank You for given Yourself entirely to me. I ask sincerely Your forgiveness. You know very well that if, in the past, I offended You, I regret this former life of sin. Ô my Beloved, grant me the grace of loving You even more. You know my great wish of loving You even more but You know very well that without You I can do nothing. Give me the gift of Your holy love so that Our union may be perfect. Give me holy perseverance in asking to love You each day, especially in difficult moments. Come spend some time with me! Come and work with the team. It is time for confessions.”
I was meditating on death.”
– Jesus: “Do not fear, My dear little girl. Trust Me. You were not afraid, you did not hesitate, on the day of your operation, to entrust your body to fallible men. Yet, you were in great danger of dying. Entrust your soul, your body to Me. The moment of your death will be peaceful. You will be like someone under an anesthetic. When you wake up, I will be there. You will be in My arms, My beloved.”
Think a little about the joy of seeing Me, of possessing Me for eternity, Me your love, your Beloved Spouse. Think about this hour when Our love will be eternal, Me your God, with you who are so little. I am so happy at the thought of coming to fetch you, My little spouse, My dear little girl, My nothingness, My treasure so small that I can hide you in My heart. Do not try to understand My infinite love for you.
Keep our union, our love a secret. Speak about it only to your director. People are not able to understand divine love, the mystery of love and of infinite mercy for sinners, especially for you, so miserable. You know, my dear little one, how strong Our love is. You understand that nothing is impossible to God.
I ask you to remain silent about Our love for there are many who are jealous among My consecrated souls and in your family. Your entourage already criticizes you because of Me. How many useless questions about you.
First: Why does she write so often, for such a long time, instead of going out for some fresh air, for her health?
Second: Why all these hours of meditation, of reading? She is being lazy.
Third: Why all these Holy Hours instead of some distraction, why this, why that, always why. Poor human nature!”
– Mimi: To all these questions I can answer: it is the love of God that makes me do this.”
1) I am writing out of obedience and to please my Beloved, for the salvation of souls, to converse with my God and to protect my moral health.
2 ) Reading is a way to nourish my mind with things of God.
3 ) Meditation is to approach more intimately my Beloved in order to love Him, know Him, better serve Him and also to listen to His voice of truth.
– Mimi: “Am I correct, my Beloved? It is not being lazy to sacrifice everything out of love for You.”
4 ) Holy hours. I have come to keep my Beloved company to console Him, to ask His forgiveness, to thank Him, to pray to Him. The list would be too long for one hour in His presence isn’t enough for me. Time goes by so fast near my Beloved. I am not praying only for myself. I am also praying for my neighbor, my parents. I pray in the name of my friends and enemies. I pray for God’s reign on earth. I pray for the needs of the Church, the intentions of the Holy Father, for priests, to obtain many missionary, priestly and religious vocations.
I pray for peace in the world, peace in all the hearts through the love of God. I pray for married couples so that they may accomplish faithfully their duty of state, for educators, for youth so that they may be enlightened in their vocation and may remain pure. I ask for the protection and affection of all little ones. I ask for the grace of baptism for new-borns.
I pray for all consecrated souls, missionaries, so that their work may be fruitfull. I ask to be enlightened by the Holy Spirit, for confessors and spiritual directors. I ask for the conversion of sinners. I ask mercy for the dying. I ask for the deliverance of the souls in purgatory, especially those most forsaken.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I beg You, grant me the grace that there be not a single soul to die in the state of sin because I have neglected to pray for them. Help me to accomplish my team work, my duty of state, please help me attain my ideal, to love You more and more and to save many souls.”
Finally I thank You for the whole world, for all these benefits of each moment and for Your love for us, poor sinner. (When I am near Him, I can talk for hours and time goes by very quickly. My intimacy with my Beloved Spouse is growing more and more. Being in contact with Him, my love is getting stronger.
My God, I want to become a little Saint for You and a simple-minded person for the world. With your grace, I want to remain very little in order to hide in Your Divine Heart. I want to live unknown to the world. Also, my Beloved, I want to keep You as a treasure and I want to hide You in my poor little soul, Our little dwelling. I love You, adore You present in me. Thank You for Your love.”
Sunday 13 November 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I have come to spend an hour with You to thank You, to console You, to better learn to know You in order to better love You and better serve You.
My God, You who in the past accepted as offering animals as victims, I beg You to accept this poor body that I offer. Yes, I give myself to You completely. Receive my soul filled with love for You, my Creator, my God. I offer and make the sacrifice of my poor life with its miseries so that Your kingdom may come on earth and also for Your Church, to obtain many priestly, religious and missionary vocations, for peace in the world, for the salvation of many souls, to obtain the conversion of sinners, the deliverance of the poor souls of purgatory, those most abandoned. My God, I offer You my life so that the world may understand the value of the cross, to obtain the resignation of the lame, the sick, especially the members of my family.
My God, I beg You, hear me! I ask You to heal my director so that he may continue to do a lot of good and save many souls. His life is more useful than mine. All I can do to save souls is to pray and suffer with my Beloved. But when I think about all that he can do as a priest for souls… (I was meditating on the importance of the priest, his role as an apostle). Through his priesthood, he makes a sinner a friend of God. He gives him peace.
With the sacrament of baptism, he gives a child the title of child of God. He makes him a heir of heaven. At Holy Mass, he makes God the Master of heaven and earth descend on the altar. With the Eucharist, like an attentive father, he gives God as food to the souls. With the sacrament of marriage, he unites two souls to give God other little souls. At the moment of death, when he gives the sacrament of Extreme-Unction, he prepares the soul to meet God and obtains for it the gentle peace of love and confidence. He opens for souls the gates of heaven and consoles those who are left behind, those who are suffering.
He does not calculate his time, his health, his sacrifices to give God souls. Look my God upon our two lives. Can we not say that my poor little life is not as filled, is quite useless next to all that he can do and I cannot do without the help of Your grace because I have not like him received all the powers of the priesthood. However, like him, I have an ideal: to save souls. That is why, it seems to me that I have the heart of a priest. My God, grant me the grace to die before him.”
How many times he offered me with Your Son! How he would be pleased to offer me a last time! I seem to hear him say:
“My God, receive the soul of ……..that Your infinite mercy entrusted to me through a special mission. With Your Son, I did my utmost to snatch this soul from the devil. She was very costly. I faithfully accomplished all that You wanted me to do to help You purify her, to sanctify her and now is the moment ô my God to give back to You this soul that You had entrusted to me.
In Your love, grant her mercy, receive her into Your heaven for eternity so that she may reach her ideal, that is, to love You during all eternity with her Beloved Spouse, Your Divine Son.
And also with Her Gentle Mother of heaven in whom she had placed all her trust, her love, to whom she had entrusted her soul and her eternal salvation.
Remember, my God, the days when, in spite of her weakness, her miseries, she offered You her poor little soul as a dwelling. You know how much she loved receiving You to please You for she understood the need, the happiness You have in giving Yourself to souls. Receive her into Your Kingdom. She gave You asylum on earth in her poor little soul so loving in spite of its miseries. My God, give her asylum in Your heaven. I know that she has sinned a lot. I also know that she has wept a lot over her sins, that she has done her utmost to atone, to console You from her ungratefulness. She has shown her good will by accepting to do Your Holy Will. She was sincere with You. You know, my God, the affectionate nature that You gave her. This heart, my God, is Yours for eternity. Receive her as the spouse of Your Beloved Son. In the name of the merits and sufferings of Your Divine Son, grant her Your mercy.
My God, listen to the prayer of Your humble servant. Come fetch this little soul that is thinking only of You, that is sighing after You and that is suffering from being far from You, her God whom she loves. I would be very pleased to place into Your hands this little soul that You entrusted to me. I have been faithful in following what You commanded me to do and to follow Your orders. With Your grace, ô my God, I placed her on the good road and I always did my best to guide her to You alone, my God.
I know, my God, that You have suffered a lot and that Your Divine Son shed tears of blood. I also wept often because of her. Remember, my God, the days when she wept over her sins near the heart of Your Son, her Beloved Spouse. Ô my God, may all these tears become tears of joy upon seeing her near You, my God, her Only Love. During her poor life, she always loved her Gentle Mother of heaven. She often took refuge in Her Motherly Arms to weep over her faults, to tell Her her needs, to ask Her how to love You as She had and how to serve You faithfully and how to accept Your Holy Will. My God, in Your infinite love for her, come and receive her.
You cannot separate the child from its Mother. You cannot separate the Spouse from His spouse. Think about the union of Your Divine Son with this little privileged soul. Think about their love that has become one. All this love is for You, my God, for Your greater Glory.
However, my God, may Your Holy Will be done. Complete your work. She is all Yours to love You, to serve You forever. Amen.”
– Mimi: Something strange has taken place! As I was writing these lines, I seemed to hear a voice tell me :
− Jesus: “My dear little one, may your director recite this prayer with faith, with confidence. His wish will be granted.Then, some day, I will tell him the date when he will read once again this prayer in your presence and that will be the day to prepare you to die.”
Do not doubt My words for this prayer is the work of the Holy Spirit and God is truth. You began the meditation and the Holy Spirit ended it.
The work of the Holy Spirit began with these words: My God, receive the soul of…. I will give you a visible sign. Your director….. remain silent until the moment when he will accomplish what I have just indicated. After this day, you will tell him everything. He will understand.”
– Mimi: I was so moved. I was trembling. I could hardly breathe. I don’t know what was going on in me when I heard these words. I was fearful and at the same time a gentle happiness at the thought of heaven, at the thought that my death was rapidly getting close.”
– Mimi: “When I think that the hour of Our union is approaching, ô my Infinite Love, my God, my Beloved Spouse. My Gentle Mother of heaven, the hour is approaching when the soul of Your child will rejoin You. In the meantime, please help me to love my God even more. Teach me to live well in order to die well. Do not leave me, my Gentle Mother of heaven. Help me prepare my soul so that it will be agreeable to God.”
Monday 14 November 1955
After communion.
– Mimi: “I am so happy to be near You!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, the moment of your death will only be a change of address. Today, it is I who come to you. At the hour of your death, it will be you who will come to me to share My heaven for eternity. Do not doubt My words. Remember the good thief.”
I spent almost the whole day writing, putting in order my little notes and after each hour, I would rest for a few moments in order to be close to Him, my Beloved. I would lift up my heart to God to tell Him that I love Him, to thank Him for His love, to ask His mercy for sinners. I don’t forget the dying and also the deliverance of the poor souls in purgatory.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, it is easy to live with Me, to do My Holy Will. This is how you save souls, that you do your team work.”
– Mimi: I wanted to write more but I had to listen to the reading of letters I already knew about. I asked myself the purpose of reading these letters.
− Jesus: “My dear little one! For you, they are a means of saving souls and exercising your patience, of mortifying your will.”
Tuesday 15 November 1955
– Mimi: Last week, I bought a blue hat. I found it comfortable and also because I liked the color.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, at the moment you will appear before Me, do you prefer having your little blue hat on your head or do you prefer having the crown of thorns that I will change into a crown of glory? Think about it.”
– Mimi: I didn’t know what to do. After speaking about it to my director, I decided to buy it. The sacrifice was quite painful for I had not worn it yet, but, on the other hand, I didn’t want to refuse my Beloved anything. I was ready to give it away. The sacrifice has been made. I am happy about it.”
– Jésus: “My dear little one, tell your director that I leave him free to decide. Submit yourself to his will and Mine.”
– Mimi : After several days, my director decided that I would keep the hat on condition that if God made a reproach concerning the hat, I would turn it over to him without hesitation.”
Wednesday 16 November 1955
A memorable day for me.
– Mimi: I am happy. My director blessed my ring with holy water. He recited the prayers of the Church. Then, I told him of Your desire that I repair the offense that I committed with the vile gesture of revolt. My director thought it over for a few moments and answered : “Very well! I allow you to repair what you have done. Do it right away.”
The first answer was “no”, not here. Someone might come by. My enemy was suggesting all kinds of reasons. During this time, my director was still waiting. Then, after a long silence, he said:
− Mon director: “If you only knew all that is going through my mind. I am shivering! I feel his presence near you (my enemy). Listen carefully! If you don’t want to kneel and do what God has asked you, I will do it in your place. I am not afraid to adore my God, to atone, to submit to His Holy Will.»
– Mimi: At that moment, I was suffering a lot. I answered: “No, I don’t want to see you repair in my place. I am the one who sinned. It is up to me to repair, to atone.” Then, I remained silent. During this time, my enemy was saying:
– Satan: “Don’t do it. Don’t be ridiculous. It’s crazy! Go away! Go away!”
– Mimi: I repeated to my director what I had just heard.
− My Director: “Do you believe that this comes from God? Do you believe that the vile gesture of revolt that you made the other day before me was noble, elegant, graceful?...... You hear me! You are going to repair immediately and do what you must do. During this time, I will bless you.”
– Mimi: At that moment, I couldn’t move. I was stuck on my chair. I was suffering. My enemy took advantage of this. I felt his presence near me. He is enjoying this. He is watching me struggle.
– Satan: “You must not let your director win over you. Leave! There is still time. Do not be afraid. I am here!”
– Mimi: I was afraid. My director guessed that there was something going on. He said:
− My Director: “You heard me! What are you waiting for? If God were here asking you to do it, what would you do?”
– Mimi: After saying this, he had touched my heart and my enemy took flight upon hearing the name of God. What I wouldn’t do for my God, for my Beloved! So, I accomplished with respect what God had asked of me. I was so happy! My emotion was too strong to express my joy, my happiness, this peace I could feel.
– Mimi: “My God, I thank You. With Your grace and the help of my director, we have won another victory over my enemy. I am so happy!”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, will you finally understand what humility is about in all things, even in the smallest things, even in the things that are ridiculous in the eyes of the world. My dear little one, each time I want something, I have to give some examples. Did Mary Magdalen hesitate to kneel before Me in front of men?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask Your forgiveness. I want to repair my conduct. I accept with love all that You will ask of me. I love You too much to refuse to follow You. I no longer want to leave You by Yourself. I want to accomplish my team work for the salvation of souls, but without You I can do nothing. I beg You to give me the strength and courage to do battle. Increase in me faith, confidence, humility. May everything in me be transformed by You, by Your grace and Your love. My Beloved, I am nothing. Finish what You have begun in my soul for the greater glory of God.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, I give You thanks. Let me rest in Your motherly arms. My little heart is aching so. Today’s emotions were so strong. To You I come to rest. I seek refuge. I can count on You. I love You! I want to live and die in Your arms.”
Thursday 17 November 1955
– Mimi: “I am so happy to be Your little spouse.”
When I think of it, I, poor little creature, am the spouse of my God. He never leaves me. I don’t have to worry about Our love. I know that He loves me for all eternity. I do not have to fear a separation, as long as I will be with Him, as long as my love and confidence will be in Him. Near Him, my work is made easier because I want to serve Him as His little servant, most submissive to His requests. Love is my only reward. The greater my solitude, the more I love Him for it gives me the time to pray, to meditate, to think, to converse with Him and Our intimacy is growing more and more. My love for Him is strengthened in His presence.
I also have the time to exchange gentle avowals, to speak with ease, to weep over my sins, to ask Him the grace never to offend Him but to increase in my soul greater love, greater confidence, greater conformity to His Holy Will, greater humility. I feel so little near Him. My greatest wish is to love Him as He has never been loved. For this, I ask my Gentle Mother of heaven how to love Him as She did.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the grace to love Him, serve Him faithfully each day as You did. I want to remain always very humble, very little in His powerful arms. Please help me put my soul, my life and my house in order so that I may be agreeable to God.”
Grace and love of God have changed me completely. I think only of Him. I sigh only after Him. I work only for Him, in order to offer Him souls. I love Him and want to love Him more and more. I miss Him when He is distant. I am awaiting impatiently for the day when I will possess Him for eternity and Our union will be perfect.
– Mimi: “When will You come for me, my Beloved? I am so looking forward to it. I am counting the days, the hours when I will be able to say: “Here I am, my Beloved, my Spouse! I am all Yours forever!” Grant my request. If You only knew how I find the time long!”
Friday 18 November 1955
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved, for the grace I just received. Thank You for Your infinite love for me. You granted me today a great joy that I did not deserve. Thank You for the grace of not having offended You. Thank You for giving me the desire to pray. Thank You for the peace I experience with You. I put my trust in You. I abandon myself into Your divine arms. How I would like all souls to experience Your love! It is a need that I have to repeat my love for You. You are my reason for living. When I think: “Always with You in heaven for eternity!” Thank You, my God. How great is Your goodness!”
My director gave me a pleasant surprise. He gave me a beautiful little statue of the Blessed Virgin. I cannot express what I felt when I received the little statue. I was so happy, so moved, I was unable to stop kissing it with love, with respect.
– Mimi: “Welcome into my little home. How happy I am! You are now at home with Us. My Gentle Mother of heaven, would you please grant my director many spiritual consolations? Would You increase his love for God? You know his daily prayer to heaven. You know his desire of holiness to be closer to his God whom he loves, to adore Him, to be closer to his Divine Master, as His devoted and faithful servant, to work for the salvation of souls. I couldn’t be happier. My Beloved will be coming tomorrow. My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me prepare my little dwelling. My little soul needs Him. How anxious I am! My Beloved, on the cross You were thirsting for my soul. On my little cross, I hunger for You and I thirst for Your love.”
Saturday 19 November 1955
– Mimi: I had the great pleasure of receiving Him. I have a terrible headache.
– Mimi:“I unite my sufferings to Yours, my Beloved, so that the Kingdom of God may come. With You and in me, I will have more strength, more courage to work. I know that I am not alone in this team work. I, too, want to save many souls in order to offer them to God.”
Yesterday, I gave my director a copy of the little prayer that the Holy Spirit dictated to me on Sunday the 13th of November 1955. This prayer is for the preparation of death.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, your director doesn’t tire reading this little prayer. He is strongly tempted to have it read by a confrere to confirm his opinion.”
– Mimi: I was suffering a lot in the afternoon. I was planning to rest a little.
– Satan: “Tell your director that in the name of Holy Obedience, I order him to destroy this prayer for it contains lies from beginning to end. Fear not! Go tell him!”
– Mimi: I didn’t know what to do. If it were my enemy, he would not say: “In the name of Holy Obedience” for he hates obedience. He wouldn’t tell me: “Go tell him this!” He usually tells me: “Don’t speak!” Painfully,
I went to church for my Holy Hour. I took advantage of it to speak to my director about what was happening to me. He reassured me by saying that it did not come from God, the order to destroy the little prayer.
− My Director: “You know very well that he will do his utmost to seek revenge. He is outraged. (the devil). First of all, I don’t believe that this little prayer came from you. I know you well enough, unless you suddenly became a genius! (and he laughed)
– Mimi: “As for this, I have no fear. God has already told me that He knows my ignorance and that you know me so well. Besides God, you are the only one to know all the secrets of my poor little soul and if I had been a genius in writing this little prayer, where would it have come from, if not from God? Therefore, everything comes from God.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, one does not need to be a genius to understand that this prayer is the work of the Holy Spirit and not of you. An honest soul, a simple soul, an enlightened soul can easily see this. The Holy Spirit has the right to inspire the weakest, the simplest, the most ignorant souls. You are an example. In your ignorance, you wrote this prayer without understanding its importance.”
– Mimi: “My God, I did not have the time to think. The Holy Spirit was breathing His thoughts so quickly, that I thought it was Pentecost Sunday!”
Sunday 20 November 1955
– Mimi: I was watching a film taken by a member of the family and in which I appeared for a quarter of an hour. With the praises and impressions from my surroundings I suddenly felt a bit of joy, of vanity.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, what would you say if I showed before the eyes of your entourage the film of your poor life with all its miseries, your sins, your malice? Do you think you would receive praises, congratulations? Your entourage would not spend 5 minutes watching such ugliness. Do you remember the x-ray of your head? Remember the impression that you had looking at your skull on the screen. On that day, did you receive the praises of the doctors, did you find yourself pretty? You had nothing, no trait to identify your poor head. Only bones and holes. Think about it! This is the image of what you will be one day. Now, to atone for your sin of vanity, go meditate a few minutes before your crucifix. Look at Me in the eyes and you will understand. It isn’t always what appears the most that counts in life, that counts for Me. Think about My hidden life.”
– Mimi: “My God, I sincerely ask Your forgiveness.”
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me understand and practice humility.”
My Beloved, I throw myself with love into Your Divine arms. Hide me from the eyes of the world. Without You I can do nothing. Please help me atone for my sin. I am sorry for having offended You.”
Monday 21 November 1955
– Mimi: I am so happy! I received communion on this beautiful day of the Presentation of Mary in the Temple. Thank You, my God and many thanks to my director. I was suffering a lot. I had trouble working. I was feverish and couldn’t keep warm. While writing, I was thinking of little Thérèse who suffered so much from the cold. After spending several hours writing I was exhausted but I wanted to do a good job in accomplishing my team work.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, on this beautiful feast day, come spend an hour with My Divine Mother and Me.”
– Mimi: “How can I? Help me hide my pain! Otherwise, I will not be able to go out. My Beloved, I am so cold!”
– Jesus: “Come, My dear little one. My Mother and I have been cold for you and We accepted it all out of love for you. Think about repairing the cold indifference that your little heart used to have before Us. I know that you are suffering a lot because of the cold. Come warm yourself near My ardent heart, burning with love for you.”
At church.
– Mimi: I was watching Christ on the cross, thinking about all the pain I had caused Him and that I still do because of my weaknesses. I was looking at Him and thinking especially about all the love He has for me. I could almost see Him alive telling me:
– Jesus: “Look at Me! See what you have done!
Look at this heart that has loved so much and who has died out of love for you”
– Mimi: I could almost hear Him say with His last breath:
– Jesus: “I thirst. (that is) I want your soul”
– Mimi: I can hardly see Him. My eyes are filled with tears, my heart pains me. When I think that I was the cause of His death!”
– Mimi: “When I think that in the past, I turned a deaf ear to Your voice. How I regret my evil conduct, so ungrateful towards You, my God. Let me weep over my sins on Your Divine Heart, ô Infinite Goodness, ô Merciful Love. How can You love a soul like mine, so contemptible after receiving so many signs of Your love? I sincerely ask Your forgiveness.”
I could not hold back my tears.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, unite your tears to the sorrow that My Divine Mother felt because of your ungrateful conduct, so revolting at times.
Now, My dear little one, cry no more. Your poor life, your sins are hidden in My Divine Heart and My love has consumed them entirely. Cry with joy, with gratitude for all that I am doing for you. Think no longer of your past life if only to give Me glory. Think of your present life with Me present in you as Spouse, as your God of love. Think of the little temple in which you live with Us for your little soul has become Our happiness. Think of your future life near Us forever. Think of Our love for one another.”
My dear beloved little spouse, in the past, you have been weak in your affections. I, on the other hand, have been weak in My love for you. I, your God, lowered Myself in order to seek you in the filth of sin. I did this, My dear little girl, because I love you. I myself wanted to clean, purify and embellish your soul so that some day I could offer it to My Father as My little beloved spouse. Now I want to tell you a secret. You know that in the eyes of My Father you are the image of the prodigal son transformed by grace into a child of divine love. He bends down towards you. He looks at you with gentleness, with goodness, and fills you with special graces. He loves you with such tender love. Listen to Me carefully! His love for you is so great, so strong that if heaven were not His dwelling place, there would be a lot of jealousy. But He is living in a Kingdom of peace, happiness and love.
Yes, my little beloved spouse, My little treasure that I want to keep you preciously hidden in My Divine Heart. If I love you more than many others, it is because I knew that you were suffering a lot because of such a miserable life. I would look at you, I would often cry with you, I also cried because of you. I was waiting for the day when My love would be victorious, but you were a free thinker. If I waited for you for such a long time. It is because I wanted the reason for your return to be disinterested, that the sole reason of your return towards Me was simply out of love, pure love for Me your God. To help you, I chose a competent director. He knows what I want from you and what I expect from you. You are going to need him for in a short while you will suffer a lot in all kinds of ways. I have to purify you before the great departure because I love you. I have to make you pass through the same road that I took before going back to My Father. In order to come to Me, there is no other road than one of suffering and love.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved, Your word is so soft in my little heart. With You, I want to go to God. Not only do I want to follow You but with Your grace I want to walk by Your side. I want to take the same road.”
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me realize my dream; to belong entirely to God for all eternity. For this, there is a lot of work to be done in my little soul but my confidence in You reassures me and gives me courage. As Your sickest, littlest and most miserable child, I place myself in Your motherly arms, for I know that I am in security.
I know, my Gentle Mother of heaven, that I must go to God through You. I beg You, teach me how to love Him more. May I love Him like You. Teach me to imitate and practice Your virtues, especially the humility that touched the heart of God. My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me prepare my departure. I am sure that You will be near me at the hour of my death. I have been asking for this each day with the recitation of the rosary for the last 5 years. I know that You will hear my prayer because You are always interceding for a soul that prays with confidence and perseverance. I know that I will be saved by You. Ô my Mother, Refuge of sinners, keep me in Your arms so that at the hour of my death, You may present me to God the way Saint Ann, my Patron, presented You in the Temple. I believe that God the Father cannot refuse You anything. How I look forward to seeing You!
– Mimi: When will my Beloved come?
As You asked, my director took advantage of this beautiful feast to recite the little prayer with faith and confidence. With Mary, he offered me to God. My God, hear his confident prayer!
Tuesday 22 November 1955
– Mimi: To get over the fatigue of writing, I went to chop wood for the fire. After a quarter of an hour, I was exhausted.
– Mimi: “You can see, my Beloved, that I am a jack-of-all-trades!”
– Jesus: “I know but notice especially what a soul and a sick body can do when supported by My grace.”
Thursday 24 November 1955
– Satan: “You tire yourself writing for nothing. If you spent all these hours house cleaning in preparation for the festivities. Your director isn’t fair in asking you to write. Think about all the time wasted in reading, meditation, visits to the Blessed Sacrament, the rosary, Holy Hours, etc. To get everything done, you would need days of 48 hours. What is your salary for all this?”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! I ask for nothing. I have all I need to be happy. I love my God and He loves me. I am not working for nothing. I am working to please Him and to save souls for Him.”
Friday 25 November 1955
– Mimi: “My God, please give me patience.”
My Beloved, how do You expect me to do all this? There is reading out loud in the next room and in the other, there is the radio that is so loud and it is the only time that I have to write. How I would like to be alone with You, ô my Beloved!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, do you want to please Me? Do you want to love Me even more? Remove from your life the three following words that you repeat often: I would like, I desire, I want. To sum up, all this means “me”. Remove it, despise these words in your temporal life. And in spiritual life, it isn’t the same. I allow you to use them and I will be pleased if you do. As for Myself, see how I use them for you. I would like you to love Me more. I wish you to be all Mine. I want all of you. Do you see the difference? Do you see what we can do with these three words supernaturally? Meditate on this.”
