Sunday 1st July 1956
– Mimi: “Ô Eternal Father, I want to be your little Host of love in order to console you. I offer myself with your Divine Son through the hands of my gentle heavenly Mother and through the sacrifice offered by my director. I throw myself with confidence into your arms and may your Holy Will be done within me according to your saintly wishes.
“With your grace, I will be ready in heart and spirit to accept all the crosses and trials that it will please you to send me for the greater good of my soul. With my gentle heavenly Mother, I want to say my Fiat and thank you once more, my God. I accept once more all that is contained in my little t…
“My Beloved, remove from my heart all that could harm our union. Detach me from vain things, purify me, please help me put things in order in my poor life before our encounter. If you knew, my love, how I find the time long. How I look forward to seeing you face to face, to live with you and love you.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, your desire to live with me is nothing compared to my ardent desire of coming to get you soon.
“My dear little……….. whom I love, whom my Father has chosen as his little daughter, spoiled child of our merciful love.”
Monday 2 July 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, I am a little uneasy in telling you this. I would like very much that you clean your little nuptial dress. There are stains on it. I really want you to be clean when I bring you into the presence of my Father, before the Celestial Court. A word of advice. Don’t bring your two hats and your two pairs of gloves that you bought without permission to satisfy your vanity, your pride asleep at the bottom of your little dwelling. You can see now that you must be wary of this monstrous pride that doesn’t always make noise and sometimes seems asleep and yet acts cunningly. So, be prudent. With me, beware of your enemy… Place your trust in me alone. Be obedient to your director. Ask your director to help you clean up your soul. This cleaning must be done ultra rapidly. Let it begin this very day. I will do the rest. Before leaving, everything must be purified.”
Tuesday 3 July 1956
– Mimi: I wasn’t satisfied for my doctor was hiding the truth of my condition from me. I would rather know the truth.
– Jesus: “My poor little one. Our union is in love and suffering. Remember what you accepted in becoming my spouse. This is why no human being will understand what’s wrong with you presently. After your death, they will understand everything. For the time being, your sufferings are mine and for souls.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, please help me prepare my confession on my retreat. It is with love, confidence, a true repentance of my numerous sins that I want to come to you. My enemy is already tormenting me. I place my trust in you. You are my strength, you are the light of my darkness, you are the truth in moments of doubt, you sustain me in my struggles, you are my guide in moments of danger, you are my hope forever. In other words, you are my God, my All, my Infinite love, my Only Love. My Beloved, when will the day come when our union will be complete and our love endless?”
Saturday 7 July 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you are a well of surprises. For the last six years, your director has been working in this well. The more he digs, the more he discovers other faults, more vanity. What good is there in buying white gloves if your hands are soiled by vanity. And the blue gloves. Is it in a spirit of humility and poverty that you wish to wear them? To expiate and repair this fault, may your director take away the gloves. You must give them to him as soon as possible. I forbid you to wear them.”
Sunday 8 July 1956
– Mimi: A sad birthday. No greetings, kisses from the one who –gave birth to me. Mom has forgotten this day and a few members of my family are indifferent. My director wished me a happy birthday. It was the first time in six years. It won’t take long for me to be forgotten after my death. I’m already forgotten alive. Thank you, my God.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, another year is beginning for me. I offer myself to you and hope that this year will be a year of encounter.”
I went and made a Holy Hour. I wanted to begin this year near him. Time goes by so fast.
At home, a person who lives with us shows me a gift she received from my director. To my great surprise, it was my blue gloves. I had made the sacrifice of giving them to my director but my heart ached in seeing her large hands wearing my delicate little gloves. I looked at her. Her happiness was so great that I forgot my sorrow. Suddenly, she began insisting that I try them on. I began to feel weak. By the grace of God, I put them on and was able to say that they were beautiful and that I was happy for her. I was sincere but it was a bit painful. I didn’t think that the reaction would have been so great. Poor little human nature!
Evening:
– Jesus: “My Beloved, go tell your director what happened this afternoon and tell him about your little reaction.”
So, with courage, I went to see my director and told him everything. And so he began to laugh. Very encouraging! Then, he read to me nine pages (yellow) that he had written. It was far from being wishes, compliments. He began with this sentence : “My dear little stubborn (of n.)” I thought he meant stubborn head of little Peter. So, I ask him and he tells me that ‘n’ meant ‘nitwit’! After this, I resolved not to question him and listen to the end. It was a real deluge. It included everything, pride, vanity, self-love, lies, lack of confidence towards God, towards him, all kinds of ingratitude, my fear of suffering plus, in moments of great temptations, my negligence to write, my preoccupations, my useless visits, everything, and even my white hair, etc. It wasn’t a slight drizzle of rain!
It goes without saying that it was a beautiful day! I accepted it all and I thank God for entrusting me to an enlightened director, firm, a good father who shows me my mistakes and does his best to help me correct my faults and save my soul. He has a very difficult task. I want to help him. Today, my director is walking on his heart and I am trampling on mine. I was thinking of my blue gloves. I was saying to myself that they came from Hong Kong and because of them and of my vanity, my head is being clobbered.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, please give me your hand. I no longer have any gloves.”
TUESDAY 10 JULY 1956
– Mimi: I consider the day I was baptized as the most important and beautiful day of my life. It is more important, more precious than the day of my birth.
Saturday 14 July 1956
– Mimi: I was having great temptations. I was desperate. I was asking my gentle heavenly Mother to come to my aid. The crisis lasted several hours. Suddenly, my director calls me to the phone. I believe that he has a secret code with my gentle heavenly Mother. I can’t explain what went on. I was afraid of him and of even hearing his voice on the phone.
He asked me what was going on and without knowing why, he asks me : “Are you afraid of me?” During this time, my enemy is enraged. I cannot even answer the questions that my director asks me. He orders me to go see him in the afternoon. When the time arrives, I am overcome with fear. I am afraid of my director, that is, of his sacerdotal powers. I had hardly arrived when I was anxious to leave.
My director asks me what is going on within me. I want to answer but I am unable to speak. No sound comes out of my mouth. However, I am never at a loss for words when it comes to criticisms. He then speaks to me about Mary Immaculate and each time, my enemy makes me react in a rage. Then, I look out the window. I could not stand the look of my director. There was a long moment of silence.
– Mimi: Another voice tells me softly :
– Jesus: “Your director is praying. He is suffering. He is weeping because of you. Another sorrow to be added to the other ones.”
– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me for you know in what state I am in.”
My director asks me to kneel and recite the act of humility. I begin. At the word ‘pride’ I begin to giggle. I can’t explain it. My director orders me to begin once more and again I begin to giggle. My director tells me : “I know where these giggles come from”. He blesses while I laugh. I think he raised his voice for I couldn’t make out what he was telling me. I couldn’t understand anything and this made me laugh even more. So, my director said :
– My Director: “The only thing for you to do is to go to the church and stay for two minutes near your heavenly Mother. Ask her to help you. Tell her to come to your aid. As for myself, I will pray and God will do the rest. He has a powerful arm.”
I cannot say what I saw in his gaze. It lasted only a few seconds. It seems to me that it was no longer the same look.
I was moved. I believe it was the look of my Beloved. I cannot explain clearly what took place in such a short time.
In the presence of such a kind and merciful look, I could not flee. Suddenly, I experience a great sorrow, a need to be blessed. Having returned to myself, I ask my director to go to confession. At first, we both offered all these trials to save souls and during absolution, my enemy is in a rage. He wants to make me laugh again. I am aware of this and undertake the struggle. I know that I am not alone.
– Mimi: “My God, please help me. I don’t want to laugh at your sacrament. I can’t understand the state I am in. I thought I was losing my mind. I couldn’t believe that my enemy could make me laugh during the temptation. My God, I offer you everything.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, weren’t you surprised at this new temptation, more dangerous than the others. It was the first time that your director witnessed this and in thirty-six years of priesthood, it was the first time for him to hear and see such a thing. Yet, during seventy-four years, he saw and heard many things. My Father arranged this trial. You must undergo it. Accept it without understanding. Thank God for allowing your director to be near you. Did you notice that this new temptation arrived just before the departure of your director? What would it have been like to undergo this trial in front of a priest who does not know about the situation? Do you see my goodness? Have you noticed that during the great temptations, your director is always near you as he will be at the moment of your imminent death?
“Do you remember when I told you that you would undergo great temptations that I allow my friends to have but that you would never be alone? Through this, I want you to atone, merit and save souls. Our team is complete and in unison for the greater glory of God and the salvation of souls.”
Sunday 15 July 1956
– Mimi: Near to my Gentle Heavenly Mother.
– Mary: “My dear little girl, take note of the date : 15 July 1956. What would you say if I came to get you next month?”
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, you know how anxious I am to be with all of you, but this doesn’t give me much time, a month to repair, expiate, prepare for eternity. You know how much I need time to repair, to house clean my soul. I am so poor. My hands are empty. I am only your poor little girl in yor motherly arms. However, I give you my heart. Please keep it near to your heart so pure, now and at the hour of my death. Ô Immaculate Virgin, I love you. I entrust to you my whole life, my death, my eternity.”
– Mary: “My dear little girl, if you died suddenly today, would you be ready to bring what is needed for a long journey? Don’t worry, my dear little one, trust me, fear not. Isn’t it up to the mother to prepare, to help her little daughter pack her things in order to undertake a long trip? Before leaving, she gives a last glance at everything in order to see whether she has all that she needs, and if per chance there is something missing, she hurries to give it to her. Trust me. Didn’t I help you when your soul was dead? No, my dear little girl, do not fear.
“Death is but a gentle slumber and a joyful awakening. Abandon yourself into my motherly arms. I will cradle you near to my Divine Heart.
“I will put you to sleep like a little baby. When you wake up, your Spouse will be there to receive you into his arms forever. Yes, you, a poor little girl, so small, a dear child of God the Father, a spouse of my Beloved Son, a child spoiled by divine love, you, the smallest, the poorest, the most miserable of my children. I love you as a tiny baby in my arms. Does a mother let her tiny baby leave alone on a trip? No. Of course not. She carries it on her heart especially if the child is fragile and has been entrusted to her by God.”
– Mimi: “My God, I trust in you. I accept everything and may your Holy Will be done within me for your glory and the salvation of souls
Tuesday 16 July 1956
– Mimi: I was doing some sewing. I was offering each stitch as an act of love, acts of thanksgiving, acts of perfect contrition. I adore him present in me. I adore the Holy Trinity living in the temple where I am dwelling.
– Jesus: “Leave your work behind and come and chat with me more intimately, that is, come and put your little sheets in order for you promised to write and this, you must do. Later you will understand. However, keep our conversations a secret, except for your director.”
Wednesday 18 July 1956
– Mimi: Great fatigue from the temptations. I feel a distaste for prayer. I go to the church just the same.
– Mimi: “I come before you with a heart full of love. I don’t have the strength to pray, my mind wanders. I don’t find the words to tell you all I would like to say. Yet, consider my misery, my deprivation. I never felt so poor, so alone. I am before you like a monument. How can my little heart remain so cold, so indifferent after so many signs of love?
“My Beloved, I am suffering a lot. I would like so much to love you as you deserve, love you like no other creature has ever loved you. I cannot sincerely say that my heart is free. There is still something that escapes me. I cannot explain, I cannot understand this state and I am afraid. But in your infinite goodness, remember our union, our love when I was so pleased to become your little spouse forever. In spite of the state I am in, I do not want to retract the offering of my whole being to your merciful love. Please sustain me, keep me in your powerful arms and let me weep on your Divine Heart. I need you. I am afraid. The devil doesn’t stop tormenting me and the temptations are getting more and more violent. Consider my misery.
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, consider your child, see her distress. Don’t let your little girl who is struggling in a storm perish. Mother, Mother, you cannot remain insensitive to the cries of your child who is suffering. I beg you, please come to my aid.”
Thursday 19 July 1956
– Mimi: I was looking at someone who was going on a trip and I had a moment of weakness, of regret saying :
– Mimi: “I also would like to take some rest, go on holidays or on a beautiful trip.”
– Jesus: “Don’t be sad, my Beloved. In a short while, we will go on a long trip. Finally, you will be near me forever. You will be all mine and only mine. Offer me more by sacrificing the most little distraction allowed. I want more in order to give you more.”
Friday 27 July 1956
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved, for allowing me to receive you. I was so sick. Thank you for helping me to reach home. Now, my Beloved, please give me the strength and courage to go to the hospital. Come with me. I am always alone and I am so happy for I can work freely. I can offer up more because I am closer to my children.”
I can only laugh now in seeing how things are going. In the past, I had to accompany me a whole delegation of parents, father, mother, sister, brother, brother-in-law, friends to the hospital for a simple little test. Today, I have to undergo a painful treatment. I am so sick that I can barely walk. There isn’t a part of my poor body that isn’t suffering and I am all alone. My father is deceased. My mother is too sick. The others are too busy to accompany me. They have no time to lose with me. Fortunately, I always have with me my Beloved who is present within me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I offer you this in atonement for my sins. In the past, how many times you were alone to suffer and I didn’t find the time to keep you company? I sincerely ask your forgiveness. I thank you for giving me what I need to repair, atone. Thank you especially for your merciful love. Thanks for everything. Without a special grace, I wouldn’t even have been able to reach the hospital alone and accept the situation. Thank you in the name of my children for the great temptation and also for the injection in my spine.”
Saturday 28 July 1956
Confession - Great temptations.
– Mimi: My enemy suggests all kinds of things that I don’t dare write down out of respect for my Beloved present in me.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, when I think of it. A half hour of great temptations. I’m exhausted. My director also seems very tired, exhausted. At his age, it isn’t easy to have to direct my soul. His task is thankless at times, especially when I insult him. I don’t always understand.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I find that you have saved souls inexpensively! For only a half hour of suffering, of temptations. Do you believe that age has a limit for saving a single soul? I underwent three hours of agony! And thirty-three years of work that was almost useless! My sufferings are incalculable. Are you going to begin calculating the little half hour you give me each week? I should rather say that I take each week from you in spite of you! Aren’t you ashamed? Are you perspiring? It’s a good thing that your director has offered it all and doesn’t calculate it like you! He knows so well the value of souls. As for you, you only know yourself. Between both of us, you aren’t much. You are so tiny in my hands.
“Ask your director to explain how he understands so well the value of a single soul. As for myself, I will help you better understand, don’t get discouraged.”
“Continue to pray each day to the Holy Spirit. Don’t forget! A whole life in you needs to be re-shaped! You need to receive a complete spiritual education. You know where you are from? So, let me work freely in you, transform your soul to render it agreeable to my Father.”
