1st April 1956
Easter Sunday
– Mimi: My Beloved has filled me with his graces, his favors for he placed on my head the crown of thorns.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved. I cannot write. I am suffering too much.”
My Beloved is hiding but I know very well where to find him. How beautiful heaven must be today. The gentle encounter of my Beloved with his Father in the presence of his saints. When will my turn come?
– Jesus: “My Beloved, some day, you will experience celestial joys when I come for you to offer you to my Father. I want everything, I will take everything and that will be all. Do you understand the meaning of ‘all’? By a special privilege, your body will not experience corruption for each part of your being has been purified by a special grace reserved for privileged souls. All that you are suffering at this moment is only a preparation of what my Father expects from you. That is why I want more, in order to give you more and both of us will create a unity agreeable to my Father.”
Monday 2 April 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you know how I detest these temptations. I am always afraid of offending you and I tremble when I feel the presence of my enemy.”
– Jesus: “Of course not, my dear little one. If you tremble, it is because you don’t trust in me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I trust in you. It seems to me that it is quite natural for a child to be afraid, to experience fear in the presence of danger!”
– Jesus: “You are right in saying that the child is afraid in the presence of danger but this child is a little girl that I hold in a special manner in my arms and that I keep near my Divine Heart like a small baby. Does she have reason to be afraid in the arms of her God? Do you know this little girl who at times lacks confidence? Even in my arms?
“Don’t cry my poor little Peter or G....... Come closer to me. You know how much I love you. Listen to me carefully. I allow these temptations in order to purify you, to expiate, to merit, to save souls. If you understood the importance of these great temptations! I am closer to you during these moments and you are meriting. One day you will see the number of souls you saved in a short time during these temptations. You must accept everything in advance and offer everything up.
“At the beginning, recite an act of humility and the beautiful prayer of the Anima Christi and during the painful moments of your sufferings, place your little trembling hand on your little heart where I am present, near to your little testament.
“I will understand everything. The temptations and small moral crises that you have are nothing compared to those you will undergo in a short while. My Beloved, I have to prepare you. Fear not. Trust in me. Trust in your director. Have you noticed that you are never alone in undergoing these trials?
“It is through an effect of my goodness that I allow your director to be a witness in order to help you. You know what you would do if you were all alone. He takes my place.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I cannot understand these temptations that are so dangerous for my soul. I cannot understand that you are closer to me during these moments when my enemy is within me, where my mind is full of blasphemies, rebellion, scorn for you and your representative. You know during these moments what I do: I detest, I hurl insults, I refuse blessings, prayers, I detest holy water, I suffer a lot when I hear my director pray and invoke the Holy Names of Jesus, Mary and Joseph. At certain moments, I cannot even endure holy water and an invisible force makes me regret having given all to you. I seem to act like someone who is damned.
“My Beloved, I who love you so much, why must I be so evil, so unjust towards you, Infinite Goodness, my God? Why must I cause such trouble, make my director suffer, he who is doing so much for my soul?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, once more you are asking ‘why’. Do you think I don’t know what is going on in you? Do you believe that I do not know the state of your soul during these moments? It is almost a martyrdom, a moral agony that you are enduring. I allow everything in you be affected, physically and morally. I know very well what you are going through. I see you struggling. I am suffering with you and at certain moments I weep with you. Your director experiences the same effects as you; only, it is not he who must undergo these trials, these temptations. He is there only to help you. He is a little stronger because of his priesthood. This is why I want him to wear the stole during these great temptations, for he has an extraordinary power over the devil. It is through a privilege that I placed him in order to help you. However, his task is difficult for the devil hates him.”
– Satan: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, don’t listen to this voice. It is that of your enemy who is trying to make you believe that the great temptations come from God. If it were so, would you act this way by blaspheming? So, there is in you another invisible force that comes from me. Some day, your director will see how much I hate him because he has taken your soul from me. He wants your salvation. He wants to save your soul but it is you who will be his loss. I have placed you in order to play your role. You seem so sincere with your tears, especially during these alleged great temptations. I am pleased with you. I knew that you are capable of anything. I can depend on you to tell him my hatred, my scorn. You can see that I am the strong one.
“What is your God doing during these moments? He says that he is hiding. It is because he is afraid. He says that he allows this to happen. He cannnot do otherwise. That is why you are all alone with me.
“Even your director is afraid. He finds it annoying because he is not sure of himself. He speaks out loudly but trembles inside. If he could flee, he would.
“If these temptations that he witnesses came from God, he would be happy to accept the Holy Will of God. But he does the contrary. He finds the time long. He is afraid of having to struggle with me within you. I am not afraid of him. You know how I make fun of his blessings, his prayers. I hate him with all my heart.
“Poor little one! It makes me laugh when your God asks you to accept these temptations, as if it were coming from him, as if you were a saint. He doesn’t want you to become proud and he gives you what it takes to do so with these temptations that he believes coming from him.
“He does well in asking you to accept them. This way, he admits that I am right, that I am stronger since he is unable to avoid or prevent these temptations. Where is his might? So, accept them to please him and to obey me for during these moments I am in command. You are all mine. I have you say what I want and do whatever I command.
“Isn’t it true that you are numb, that you are unable to make the sign of the cross. Sometimes, I hold back your hand by my strength. You can hardly repeat the invocations that your director would want you to say. Do you believe that if all this came from your God, he would allow himself to be insulted by a little girl like you?
“You are the one who provokes these temptations and I am the one who inspires you. This makes me so happy. I don’t have to hide in order to act in a soul that is all mine.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! My God, have mercy on me. Mother, Mother, come to my aid. Come to the aid of your little girl who is struggling.
“My Beloved, where are you? I need your help.”
– Mimi: After a certain time.
– Jesus: “Don’t cry, my Beloved. If you only knew how much I am suffering in you. I’m sorry to make you suffer but, what do you want, in order to go to my Father, you must take the same road as I. I beg you, do not let the lies of your enemy discourage you. Believe in me, in my word that is truth itself. Place your trust in me. You will have many more temptations, more painful and more violent. Fear not. I will always be in you and with you, whatever your enemy says. That he makes you say or do what he wants makes me laugh. I scorn him. Listen to me carefully. With all his power he believes to have over me and you, he cannot expell me from my little home that is your little soul. I am at home within you and will remain always because I have chosen you to become my little spouse. Like a wild animal, he is jealous. He tries by every means to penetrate into our little dwelling in order to devour you, but, have no fear. I am there, within you and outside, our dwelling is well guarded by a loyal guardian in the person of your director. By his priesthood, he is strong, he is powerful over your enemy. You know what I mean. He has means of protecting you through the sacraments.
“During your moral crises, who is victorious, your enemy or your director? Courage, struggle with me and out of love for me and for souls. One day, you will understand the importance of the great temptations.”
Tuesday 3 April 1956
– Satan: “My dear little Beloved spouse, you must come to understand perfectly that it is I who allows these temptations. It is very simple to understand, my dear little girl. Go no longer to confession. Thus, you will be quiet, your director will be happy, for he also does not like these temptations, and your God will no longer worry about you. You will no longer offend him by accumulating your sacrileges. It is not that I am complaining. It is for your sake that I am giving you this advice. I take pity on you. This way, your health will improve for the moral crises, the great temptations aren’t good for you. You are too weak. It exhausts you and worsens your condition. You know how much you suffer physically during these temptations. So, no more confessions and you will have peace.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, do not listen to this evil voice. Trust in me. I allow these temptations.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I accept everything, but it is always at the moment of confession before my director that the great temptations come.”
– Jesus: “I know, my dear little one. Would you rather have your parents, your friends witness your moral crises? In order to try you, to make you atone and merit in order to save souls, I leave you by yourself, I can assure you that you aren’t very pretty. Your director knows what I mean! I allow it to keep you in humility even during the temptation. I want you to be so little... however, with my grace, overcome the temptations and scorn your enemy.”
Wednesday 4 April 1956
– Mimi: “Another day for you, my Beloved. I am suffering a lot from the great temptations. My Beloved, I don’t want to offend you. Please help me. I am helpless. I can’t go on. My nerves are shot.”
– Jesus: “I know, my Beloved, but it isn’t a reason to give up!”
– Mimi: “Is it really you, my Beloved, who speaks to me this way?”
– Jesus: “Of course, my little girl. Who are you that I should speak to you differently? I answer you the way you speak to me. This is our understanding. We mustn’t constantly take detours in order to understand one another. What does a child do when he asks for something? He simply goes strait to the point. This is why I love children, understand? What are you today, a grown up and almost old damsel or a small little child, like a baby?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, forgive me. I notice more and more how weak I am. With you grace, I want to remain little. My Beloved, keep me in your arms like a small baby. I need affection. Cradle me, tell me once more that you love me. I trust in you and I love you. I miss you. How I find the time long! How anxious I am to receive you Friday. I am counting the days. I know how happy you are to come into my soul, to give of yourself to all out of love. Come, ô my Love! Come into my poor little soul that yearns for you, my God, my All.”
At the moment of confession, my enemy is enraged. I don’t know what is happening to me. I feel magnetized. My limbs are numb, my will refuses to blaspheme and my mouth repeats blasphemies and insults to my director. I repel all blessings. This causes me more pain.
– Mimi: “I am suffering, my God. Have mercy on me.”
Friday 6 April 1956
– Mimi: By the grace of God and the help of my Beloved, I want to be during the great temptations as if I were on water, in a small boat that would be my body and as pilot my consecrated soul. I imagine myself on a long journey to an unknown land that is called Heaven. Before reaching my goal, I must cross the ocean, I must fight the violent waves of temptations. I must face the bad weather that is the lack of confidence, discouragement, perseverance in all difficulties. On other days, when the sea is calm, I will let myself be cradled softly by the waves of Divine Love. And if danger becomes a menace, I will hang onto my rosary as a security belt.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I allow you to steer my little boat. I place all my trust in you. With you, I want to remain in the infinite ocean of your mercy.”
Tuesday 10 april 1956
– Mimi: I dreamt that I was hanging. In my dream, I was happy and telling people:
– Mimi: “God loves me so much that he has me by the neck. He is giving me a tangible proof of his Love.”
Strange coincidence. I have returned from the hospital with a felt collar that I must wear night and day.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved. This gives me the occasion to atone for my vanity. How many times was I proud of myself, of this poor body that is crumbling. My God, purify me. I give myself to you without reservation. I give you everything, my all. Take all.”
At the hospital, I was looking at all these suffering faces, all these eyes preoccupied by worry, fear, by moral and physical suffering. I was praying for them.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you know my great desire to save souls with you. I beg you in the name of our love, of our union in love and suffering, look at your children who are also mine, look at how much all are suffering. How I would like to help them more! You know, my Beloved, I feel sometimes like a mother hen who would like to keep warm under her wings her little chicks. With your grace, I want to keep them in my heart.
“I would like to love these souls more. I would like to shelter them from misery, give them a taste for what is good, the taste of living only for you. I would like to see in their eyes a single ray of hope, a little happiness on their faces, a smile on their lips and a lot of peace in their souls, this peace that we can only find in you. How I would like to radiate you in each one of these souls. I would so like to speak to them about you, about your love. I would like to explain to them your infinite mercy for them. They wouldn’t be so unhappy if they were all with you. With your help, all I can do for them is to pray and suffer. I love them as if they were my own children.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, the image of the little hen suits you well. Indeed, my dear little one, there are days when you resemble a little hen. When I come with the great temptations, you tremble like a frightened hen. When you mortify your body, you have goose bumps even before beginning. How long did you spend incubating your sins, your faults, your imperfections? How many times also did you hide under your wings and kept secret from your director the consolations, the graces that out of pure goodness I gave you to help you? However, keep your chicken wings to fly towards me, now that you admit that you can do nothing without me. With the fire of my love, I am going to hatch your little eggs (souls) you incubated through my grace, through your ardent love of souls, through your little sacrifices.
“Your director will take care to collect the eggs and clean your little henhouse. You are not yet a hen of category “A” in every respect. There is still a lot of work to be done, don’t you think, my little chick?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, today you compare me to a small chicken. You know that in order for a chicken to be delicious and very tender, it must be cooked slowly. I count on your ardent love in cooking me so that I may be tender. Purify me in the fire of charity. Purify my body so that it may be consumed by your love and that I may detach myself from everything and not be like in the song “A Little Black Chicken”, but a white one that is delicious to eat. As long as you are not satisfied, slice and cut all the pieces you want. I am in your hands like a little chicken. Between the two of us, my Beloved, I don’t like it when, in our intimacy, you compare me to animals like a donkey or a chicken. After all, my Beloved, I have a soul.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you make me laugh. I should call you a little rooster and at times compare you to a filly for at certain moments you are.......... I don’t dare say.
“My dear little one, I know very well that you have a soul. I am the one who gave it to you. But you, my dear little one, since when have you been thinking that you have a soul to save? When I compare you to something, it isn’t of your soul I am thinking but of your poor body. I don’t say that you are this or that. I say that you remind me of or resemble this or that.
“I remind you that at the beginning of our conversation, you are the one who compared yourself to a little hen. I simply continue on the same subject. After all, my dear little girl, it is pleasant to have a small white chicken in my hands. This morning, you really had the small heart of a chicken for you didn’t do much for your little ones.”
Saturday 14 April 1956
– Mimi: I am wearing the felt collar. Being proud, I felt shy to go out.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, more pride! I am simply asking you to make a Holy Hour. I am not asking you to go around the church, to take up a collection at each pew! And yet, this is what I should ask you to do to atone and correct yourself. On this subject, I leave it up to your director to act as he sees fit to keep you in humilityand help you correct yourself. May he take every means possible. He is taking my place. Be submissive and obedient to him. It is for the good of your soul. Accept everything out of humility and love to atone for your sins and those of your children.”
sunday 15 april 1956
– Satan: “I wonder when your director will come to understand the state of your soul? Each time that you approach the sacraments, you will always have great temptations that I detest. My dear little one, I send you this to atone for your disobedience for I have been forbidding you for a long time to approach the sacraments, to go to confession. In doing this, you make me suffer more, me, your God. What have I been able to do for you for so many years? In spite of everything, I pity you and out of pure goodness, at the moment of confession, I give your director a tangible sign. He doesn’t understand. You become the image of what you are in reality. Your director does not want to believe this and yet he knows what I mean! You told him yesterday that you did not want me in your life. You understand that my mercy has its limits. But your director does not. He persists in his error because he has another reason. In his pride as a priest, he believes that under his direction, you could become a little saint. Do you know what he has been doing with you for the last six years? He is trying to make you into a saint, a holier-than-thou, nothing more. In keeping you in such a state, your director is putting an obstacle to grace and to the work of the Holy Spirit. The blood of a God is too precious to be poured out on a soul that is damned.
“You believe that I love you. Get that out of your head. I am patient. I am waiting and anxious to show my justice on the day when you will come before me. This day is getting closer. The sentence for your director will be heavier for he ignores what I ask of him. I order him to exorcise you. When will he do it? I allow him to submit your case to a confrere for he hesitates. He has a decision to make. He trembles. If you were not a lost soul, do you think I would be doing this? This is your last chance.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! I don’t believe you. You are jealous. You want to upset me. I believe that my Beloved is present in me and that’s that.”
– Satan: “My dear little girl, I beg you. Be quiet for in telling me to go, you are blaspheming for you are rejecting me, your God. I am the truth. I want to enlighten you one last time and you believe that I want to upset you. I cannot be present in a soul that is damned, in a soul where the devil is king and master.”
– Mimi: “Mother, my gentle heavenly Mother, come to my aid.”
I was weeping.
– Satan: “My dear little one, be obedient to my Son who is the truth. Therefore, no more confession or sacrilegious communions and you will have peace.”
– Mimi: I ask God to purify all the thoughts going through my mind since this morning.
Monday 16 april 1956
– Mimi: I was meditating on the Good Shepherd.
– Mimi: “My God, my Beloved, like a Good Shepherd, look upon me as your little lamb, the most miserable one. Look at my fleece that is soiled by sin. I am wounded, disabled by my faults, my weaknesses, my daily failures. I am so weak. I cannot walk without a guide, without support on the road of virtue. My little heart suffers for having offended you. I would like to love you more. Listen to my pleas, listen to my voice. Come fetch me to place me under your protection. Please keep me near your heart, your Precious Blood. Cleanse and purify me of every stain and out of love look after my wounds. Protect me from my enemy who is wounding me. What a gentle word of consolation upon hearing you say that you know your sheep. When I think and consider all that you have done to come and seek your lost little lamb. My director worked hard to keep me in the pasture. Thank you, my Beloved, for your infinite mercy.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I wanted everything. I took everything, I will take everything. My little lamb wounded more than others, this is why I love you so.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, with my felt collar, I don’t look like a lamb. I look more like a lapdog. Since you want everything from me, you can have the lapdog that I am.”
Wednesday 18 April 1956
– Mimi: A person was telling three of my friends :
“How unlucky she is! There is always something wrong with her.”
– Mimi: I look at her as I laugh saying :
– Mimi: “You won’t say the same thing after my death. You will say : “How lucky she is! She has something forever.” God has grabbed me by the neck. That’s all!
“Between the two of us, my Beloved, it is quite normal between spouses... I am so happy to be with you!”
Thursday 19 April 1956
– Mimi: “It makes me laugh, my Beloved, when I see a poor doctor still looking for the sickness that I have and for the proper remedies. You were so right in saying that this suffering came directly from you. Out of love for you and for souls, in a spirit of atonement, I accept once more the exams that make me suffer.”
“X-rays of the spinal column. It goes without saying, these poor doctors take every means to search for the cause of my illness. At the human level, it is useless. I was awakened during the night. I was pleased for it gave me the occasion of telling my Beloved that I love him and at the same time that I could offer up more for souls.
“My Beloved loves me so much that he cannot let me sleep for very long. He knows how happy I am to be awakened by him. My waking is so gentle in his arms.”
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, don’t forget to wish a happy birthday to my dear papa who is near you. I hope that he is in heaven.”
Friday 20 April 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I really want to walk in your tracks. I really want to follow you, but you take great steps. If I try to take an extra step, I fall. I am following you from afar.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I don’t always ask you to take big steps. You wouldn’t be able to for you are more often on the ground than on your feet. You are still so little. All that I ask of you is to take the same road. There is but one road that leads to my Father, yes, the way of the cross, a narrow road for little ones, the humble, and not for souls puffed up with pride. They couldn’t manage. There wouldn’t be enough room. A painful road for souls that are truly generous in the service of God and neighbor. This road is not for souls generous in words, in acts reeled off but not practiced. A way of the cross made out of moral obligation, accomplished each day out of love and in conformity to the Holy Will of God, in union with my way of the Cross for the salvation of living souls.
“What is there to say of a way of the cross done in a few minutes with a mind preoccupied in winning indulgences. A mind filled with distractions, offered for the poor souls in purgatory. What good is there for a soul who makes the way of the cross and yet follows me only with ones eyes? Wouldn’t Redemption, my Beloved, have been over with in a short while? I would only have had to cast my eyes on my Passion, on the world. No, my Father wanted more! I have a confidence to share with you, my Beloved.
“The most deserving, the most beautiful way of the cross that can be offered to my Father is the way of the cross made with me, each day, at each hour, at each moment in union with my Passion.
“My dear little Beloved spouse, by accepting the small daily crosses of each day, out of love, in conformity with the Holy Will of my Father, the way of the cross has more value and is more meritorious in delivering the souls of purgatory and more efficient in saving the living souls. We have a wrong notion of the way of the cross. We think that it is only useful to the souls in purgatory. In that case, I could have waited for the end of the world to accomplish my Redemption.
“How many souls would be saved if people often did the way of the cross with me in union with my Passion, for the salvation of souls, of poor sinners? The merits, the sufferings of my Passion weren’t only applied to the souls in purgatory. I gave myself to everyone without exception, but especially for sinners. As for the souls in purgatory, they are safer than sinners because they are in a place where I am purifying them. It isn’t that I condemn the practice of the way of the cross in church for there are many indulgences to be obtained. It also helps souls that still don’t understand the Royal gift of the cross. You know what it is like to make the way of the cross each day with me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, teach me, please, how to love, to carry my cross each day with you so that, by your side, I may walk on the royal road of the cross with all my children.”
Saturday 21 April 1956
– Mimi: “My ............ asks me to pray for (his, her) conversion. What must I do, my Beloved?”
– Jesus: “My dear Beloved little spouse, pray for her sanctification, for, a consecrated soul, a soul in the state of grace is the temple of the Holy Spirit. It is almost an insult to ask us to pray in order to obtain a conversion. A conversion consists in going from a state of sin to a state of grace. We do not make our dwelling in a soul that is in a state of sin, nor in a soul hardened by sin. We make our home in the soul that is in the state of grace, in a consecrated soul that is weak, humble, that recognizes its nothingness. That soul has a greater need of sanctification than of conversion. This does not mean that consecrated souls, souls in the state of grace don’t need prayers! On the contrary. They need more prayers to keep them in humility, perseverance, in order to obtain one day the level of my love. This demands a lot of self-denial, faith, love, humility, perseverance, charity, confidence in obtaining this goal. Souls that are humble, confident, loving understand this because they have given up everything. In return, I give them more. I give myself to souls.”
Friday 27 April 1956
– Mimi: “How weak I am during great temptations. I am quick in forgetting what you have done for me. I beg your forgiveness.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you aren’t the only one suffering from this illness. What saddens me most is that this malaise is especially found among consecrated souls, at times among privileged souls. Pray for souls suffering from spiritual anemia. They are weak in moments of temptation. They lack strength in moments of combat. They hardly have the courage to accomplish their duty with love and confidence. These consecrated souls are at times in quite a pitiful state. At times, you are one of them. It is a calamity for the hierarchy of the Church. If all these souls could understand a little my love and have more love for me, they would quickly find a remedy for their spiritual anemia. My love is so powerful, so strong. You know what I mean, don’t you? Do you not remember all your Good Fridays?”
Monday 30 April 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, another day with you and my children.”
I am in the hospital about to undergo an x-ray for the spinal column.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I put myself in your powerful arms and accept with resignation your Holy Will. Thank you for this new sign of your love.”
The doctor orders me to continue wearing the felt collar until the 15th of Juin. I am getting used to it. I have been wearing it since the month of April. Poor nature! And to think that since then, my little pride, my vanity still gets the upper hand. The doctor asks me once more to sleep on a board.
– Mimi: “I am happy to resemble you a little, my Beloved. When I think of all the sufferings you endured out of love for me! In return, I can only want to love you more and want a share in your sufferings to console you. When I am on my board, I will think of you on the cross. I am thankful that the doctor didn’t ask me to lie on an ironing board. Someone said : “Poor little girl, when I think that she is still sleeping on a board.” Why complain? I am better off sleeping on a board than between four boards or on match sticks! I am much more comfortable on a board.”
