Thursday 1st March 1956
– Jesus: “You didn’t do much praying for your children today. You were too busy. What would you say of a mother who has many children. Some are sick, handicapped, unhappy, hungry and who would spend her whole day without caring for them, leaving them by themselves? This is what you did today. How do you understand your role as a spouse of Christ?
“A good thing I am there, at each moment, thinking about all my children. If I had to wait after you in order to save souls, today, I would have had a long wait. What would you say if I acted the same way with you? Once and for all, put your pride aside. You would no longer have any preoccupations. You know what I mean. Be humble, simple with your director. I chose him in order to help you.”
Thursday 8 March 1956
– Mimi: I was watching the snow coming down. How beautiful!
– Mimi: “How great and powerful you are! My God, I love you and I adore you. With each snowflake, I offer you acts of love, of thanksgiving, of perfect contrition for me and for souls.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you believe in my presence because you see. Think about each moment since your birth when love descended upon you like these snowflakes but you did not always see.”
Friday 9 March 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I allow you to have these temptations in order to keep you humble , to atone for your sins and also to allow you to merit, to save souls. Do you believe, my dear little girl, that if it were you who caused these temptations that put you in such a state, like the devil would want you to believe, do you believe that your director would experience the same results? He is aware enough. He would tell you right away, for you know my dear little Beloved spouse, by a special privilege, I allow your director to experience the same feelings as you. Don’t doubt it. He suffers as much as you during these moments because he is aware of many things that he cannot explain to you because you are too little and do not know the importance of all this. This enlightens him more about what I expect from you. I know that you don’t understand the meaning of these words. No matter. He understands. At times we have a secret code concerning you, curious one.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t know anymore how to talk to you. You tell me over and over again that I do not understand and when I try to understand you tell me that I am curious. Put yourself in my place.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I don’t want to put myself in your place at any time because I would lack confidence in my Father. I don’t ask you to understand everything. You wouldn’t be able to without a special grace from the Holy Spirit. For the time being, all I ask is that you understand my love for you. That’s all. You don’t understand the value of temptations, ask your director for explanations.”
Saturday 10 March 1956
– Mimi: I was getting ready to write.
– Jesus: “No, my dear little one, go and make a Holy Hour at the church. Come and build up your strength in my presence.”
– Mimi: I didn’t know what to do, to write or make a Holy Hour.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, is it you or the other one who is asking me to make a Holy Hour? What must I do to please you?
No answer. So, I go to the church to make a Holy Hour. I have been here a half hour and the devil doesn’t stop pestering me. I can’t pray. I suffer a lot from all sorts of temptations against faith, against the infinite mercy of God. My mind is tormented by blasphemous and impure thoughts, by acts of revolt against the Will of God. I tremble at the simple thought of making my little retreat tomorrow. A voice tells me: “Go see your director. Go for a blessing for you are going to undergo a great trial.”
– Satan: “No, my dear little girl. Don’t listen to the voice of your enemy. He wants you to disturb your director for nothing. You should have gone to confession.”
– Mimi: “My God, what must I do?”
– Satan: “Don’t tell your director about your doubts. He is tired of you. He doesn’t understand the state of your soul. He can’t do anything for you, for your salvation.”
– Mimi: I couldn’t go on. I tell my director all that is going on within me. He examines the situation well and reassures me saying:
– My director: “Offer everything in order to save souls.”
Then, he asks me to kneel and receive his blessing. My enemy was near me. I don’t know thy I did what I did but I refused to kneel saying that it wasn’t necessary. My director, with all the authority he has over me as a priest said:
– My director: “I do not speak in my name. I speak in the name of God. I ask you to kneel.”
– Mimi: Upon hearing the name of God, my enemy left. I knelt but I still felt fearful. I was afraid to confess for I knew that my enemy would return. I hesitated. My director said:
– My director: “You give in too easily.You allow the devil to bother you too much. You listen to him rather than to me who speaks to you in the name of God.”
– Mimi: And he adds:
– My director: “I pity the devil to prevent me from kneeling for a blessing. Go and meditate on what I have just told you but not for long. You will return. God has a long arm.”
– Mimi: I was suffering a lot. I couldn’t listen to him any longer. I was anxious to leave. I was hot. I couldn’t even look at him without feeling angry, scornful. (How I suffer to have to write all this).
So, after a long silence, my director, guessing what was going on within me, said:
– My director: “You want the devil to win and you listen to him.”
– Mimi: “No, I don’t want him to win.”
– My director: “Well then, what are you going to do for God?”
– Mimi: I understood and I asked him to hear my confession. At the moment of absolution, my enemy returned. Immediately, I ask my director to help me, to bless me.
He also prayed for a certain length of time by invoking Jesus, Mary and Joseph.
After my confession, I could breathe freely and find peace of soul.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, let me rest on your heart. You know how I detest these temptations. Keep me near you.”
However, my enemy returned. I began to cry.
– Mimi: “My God, please help me. Jesus, Mary, Joseph, come to my aid.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, offer everything up. You aren’t the only one suffering for at this moment your director is suffering and is offering it for your little soul. Offer with me this temptation, this trial in union with my passion to expiate, to save souls for the greater glory of my Father.”
Sunday 11 March 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, did you notice that my director was weeping when I spoke to him about our conversation concerning the great temptation I had of buying a straw hat for Easter and where you told me that I would have another adornment on my head at Easter.”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little girl. It is true that he was weeping. He understands the importance of my words. He knows what it means.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, what kind of adornment are you speaking of? A crown of thorns or a crown of the elect?”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you make me laugh with all your questions. You are acting like a little child. I like you anyway because you are simple and at times simple minded. This is for your pride. To satisfy your curiosity, I will tell you that first I will place the crown of thorns and as for the crown of the elect, I will see what My Father has in mind for you. I must submit to my Father’s wish.
“First of all, cure yourself of your curiosity. What kind of crown would you want me to place on a little stubborn head like yours?”
– Mimi: “My God, help me please. I have never undergone such a difficult moral crisis as of today.”
My enemy is near me and doesn’t leave me for a second, saying:
– Satan: “Take advantage of the situation, take a chance, it is the intention that counts. You can do certain things and even enjoy them while thinking of God. Fear not. If your mind is on God, you will lack full consent of the will. Don’t tell this to your director. Wait a few days.”
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, help me please. My Beloved, give me the strength to go and see my director.”
I went to the church in order to weep near my Beloved. However, the attacks got worse and this voice kept telling me:
– Satan: “You see what it’s like to be the spouse of Christ. You aren’t worthy of carrying this name for you broke our silence. So now you are free. Free to enjoy, free to love, free to do anything, free to be mine. You are now my spouse. Take your life in order to show him that you are free with your life, that you want to be mine. Now that your God has rejected you, take your life. Fear not. There is no danger. If you fail, it will be considered an accident and if you die, I will come and get you for I will be the only one near you. You will be free.”
– Mimi: I was looking at my Beloved nailed to the cross. Thoughts of blasphemy filled my mind. My poor little heart suffers greatly. I weep and cannot hold back my tears of repentance.
– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me, on your little daughter who is at your feet asking your forgiveness. Forgive me, my Beloved. Look upon me. I am dragging at your feet like a miserable worm. I deserve to be trampled on. My Beloved, I cannot go on. If I must die trampled on, may it be by you and not by my enemy.”
– Mimi: A voice said to me:
– Satan: “Depart, Satan, leave this place. It is no longer your place to be near the tabernacle, child damned, spoiled by sin. I reject you. Depart from me, your God that you have offended and whose graces and sacraments you have taken advantage of for the last six years.
“Monster of pride, do not raise any longer your eyes towards me. You would deserve to perish on the spot but the prayers of your director have prevented my arm from taking revenge. But at the hour of your death, it will be unable to put an end to my condemnation. I am a God of justice.”
– Mimi: How I was suffering. I cannot describe all the suffering I was experiencing.
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me. I can’t believe that it is you who is saying this. You, infinite goodness, God of mercy. You who are all love for the repentant soul, for the sincere soul, for the soul that wants to love you. My Beloved, tell me that this isn’t true. Tell me that I am still your little girl, that I am smaller than the previous day, smaller than yesterday. Look upon me for moment. In the past, you received me as a poor wounded lamb. Today, it is my whole being that suffers, my soul, my heart, my mind, my body. I am nothing but a scornful being. I have nothing. All that remains is my hope in you, my Beloved. It is so simple for you to pick me up once more, to place me on your heart as your little one. You know how I regret my sins, that I will go to my director for confession as soon as possible. But, I beg you, tell me that you forgive me, my Beloved.”
– Satan: “Poor little girl, I forbid you to call me your Beloved. I have no time to lose with you. I can no longer do anything for you. My Father has spoken. I have to obey and remain silent.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you cannot remain silent while your spouse is suffering.”
– Satan: “Indeed, you have been my spouse. I had chosen you. But my Father, wisdom itself has refused to accept you as my little girl and I after six years understand that he was right. My love for you made me blind.”
– Mimi: No, no, I don’t want to get discouraged. I didn’t know what to do. I was weeping and I am still crying while writing, thinking of all this. My only hope is in my gentle heavenly Mother.
– Mimi: “Mother, mother, my gentle heavenly Mother, I beg you. Come to my aid. I am in such pain. Look upon your child who is crying at your feet and who, in spite of its miseries, offers herself to you,offers you her sufferings to atone for her fault, her sins, to do reparation and save souls.”
– Satan: “Poor little girl, you think that I need your tears, your sufferings to save souls. I don’t need you. I gave you my Beloved Son. All I can do for you is to give you advice : Have yourself exorcised by another priest than your director for you are possessed by a demon. Remember the words of your director during your moral crises. It is only through the power of his priesthood that he was able to give you some peace by saying to your enemy: Depart Satan. You know what you are like , how you speak in such moments. Your director has already told you : “This does not frighten me. You are not the one speaking.” So, if it isn’t you, it is the devil in you. You are smart enough to understand that. Do what I tell you, that’s all.”
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me. I can’t go on!”
– Satan: “Don’t tire yourself with praying. I have closed the door of my heart forever.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you know that I was in your heart before you closed the little door of your heart.”
– Satan: “You see, you didn’t want to believe me. This is proof. What has he done for you to console you. What more do you want? So, turn yourself over to me. Enjoy yourself as much as possible. I will be patient. You have cried enough for nothing. Give yourself at least the satisfaction of doing what you want, of enjoying your freedom. Since there is no forgiveness for you, that your God has rejected you, I will receive you. Throw yourself in front of this automobile. You will see how well off you will be with me. All you might have to suffer is to be deprived from the vision of God. This will not change anything in your life. You have never seen him. You only believe in an invisible being. I am anxious to receive you. Your God is placing you in my arms.”
– Mimi: “My God, how I suffer! I was weeping at the very moment when I was beginning my little retreat in order to purify me, to know you better, to love you more, to serve you better. No! It isn’t possible. You whom I love so much, you my only love, my God, my all.”
Tuesday 13 March 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you must die a victim of my love.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask myself how. May I ask my director what it means? He surely knows the answer.”
– Jesus: “No, my dear little Beloved spouse, he must not tell you for now because you are still too little to understand. If I told you now, you would die of fright even before beginning your mission. Your little heart is only beginning to understand a little what I expect from you. Your little nature still hesitates. There is a lot of work to be done to clean up your little attic. Your mind remains too preoccupied, too distracted. If only you were as preoccupied in listening to my voice and that of my representative. I beg you not to put an obstacle to grace. Let the Holy Spirit enter freely into your little attic. His work will be more efficient. What would you say if you had a little servant who would like to put your little attic in order and who, in seeing a pile of dust, would remove it a little at a time? She would get her work done but it would take more time. If, on the contrary, you let her freely take all the means that she wanted to clean your little attic. If you told her: go ahead, take any means you need, use a shovel, wash, scrub, remove everything.”
– Mimi: “I don’t want any dirtiness in my little attic. I don’t like it for I want to please my Spouse and keep our little dwelling very clean, even the little attic.”
– Jesus: “And once the cleaning is done, to keep it clean, you will take care of it each day by avoiding the dust to accumulate. If you knew how happy your Spouse would be, at home in a clean dwelling. He wouldn’t be ashamed to invite his friends, and even to show them the little attic. Do you know who these friends are?
“Grace, love, charity, confidence, temptation, suffering, the cross and immolation. All must enter your little dwelling, the little attic and remain there permanently. You must accept them, welcome them with joy, with love as friends of your Beloved Spouse and on the last visit that is Immolation, the door of your little dwelling will be closed forever to the things of the world, of the earth, for, having received your friends in your little dwelling, you will be full of joy near your Beloved Spouse.”
Wednesday 14 March 1956
– Mimi: I was preparing the confession of my retreat. I had just experienced great temptations.
– Satan: “You are damned. I repeat it. You will finally understand and believe me.”
– Mimi: “Depart from me, liar. Believe you, the father of lies! You make me laugh. For you, I am perhaps damned, but not for God. I trust in him, in his infinite mercy for me. I love him and this is sufficient. I don’t have time to waste in listening to your lies. Go see my director. You know how he treats you, how he receives you.”
My enemy rages. He wants to avenge himself. He attacks me violently. The temptation gets worse.
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me!”
This great temptation has brought me closer to God. My Beloved stopped me just in time. I understood that I would have been lost forever. I understood what it is like to suffer alone, to feel all alone in the abyss, to see an ideal crumble, to see our children perish before our eyes.
Not to feel divine help, not to have any human assistance, is to experience complete emptiness, to be alone in the presence of ones enemy, in the face of danger without having a weapon to defend oneself. I didn’t even have the shadow of hope, of a good thought. I could not even look up to God. I was surrounded by temptations. My mind was in darkness, my soul expanded in pain. When I think of this, I begin to cry.
Thursday 15 March 1956
– Mimi: After my confession, I went to church to thank God and my gentle heavenly Mother. I was looking at my Beloved nailed to the cross.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how I wish that the cross were not so high. I could kiss your feet, weep because of my sins like Mary Magdalene.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, it isn’t necessary to look up at me to attain me. Simply descend to the bottom of your little soul. I am there waiting for you with love, arms extended to receive you and your heart, to possess all of you.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I thank you for your infinite mercy, for your love of me, your poor and miserable creature, so little in your presence. I offer myself to you. I throw myself with love, with confidence into your divine arms as a tiny baby. Keep me always near your Divine Heart that loves me so. What do you want of me? What do you expect from your little spouse, your little servant?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, the hour has come when you must take the great step.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t understand very well. How many times you scolded me because I was counting my little steps? Today, you are asking me to take a big step. I am not even able to take a small step. How do you expect me to take a big step?”
– Jesus: “Indeed, my dear little girl, I know very well that you are not able to do anything without me. This is what I wanted you to say, to admit, that you are nothing without me. Now, it is time to take the great step, that is, to take the great step from your natural life to your spiritual life.”
– Mimi: “I am not even able to take little steps, to stand up straight in spiritual life. I know what I will do. Since I am still a little baby, I will throw myself confidently into your powerful arms. With you I have no fears, I know that I am forever safe. I love you so, my Beloved, my all.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, my dear little one, tell me once more that you love me. Tell me that you trust in me. Tell me that you accept what My Father wants from you. From now on, you must live only for me alone, your God. No matter what. Close your eyes on the things of the world but fix your look on me, your Beloved Spouse.
“No preoccupation but the salvation of your soul. No human affection except for souls. Your mission begins today. A mission of love, of suffering for the salvation of souls. You must love me in order to console me. You must love souls only for me alone. You must make souls love me. You must love me in my consolations, in my intimacy with you but especially when I arrive with my crosses, my trials, my great temptations I reserve for my spoiled children. You haven’t reached the end of your moral and physical sufferings. You are just beginning. You must repair, atone and merit, yes, atone for you and for the whole world.
“You must offer yourself as a victim so that my Father may reign on earth, so that my love may reign in all hearts. With all your miseries, your weaknesses, you must offer yourself as a victim for unity in the Church, to help the Holy Father, for missionaries, to obtain sacerdotal and religious vocations, also to obtain the conversion of poor sinners, to obtain mercy for the dying, to obtain the deliverance of the poor souls in purgatory. In other words, to obtain peace in the world and the reign of God over the world. If you knew all the human miseries! Recite in the presence of my representative the formula of offering found in the Imitation of Jesus Christ.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, give me your heart, please, I need it to understand and to love all these souls.”
– Jesus: “Fear not, my Beloved, with my grace and my Love, your little heart can contain the whole world.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, what more do you want? I gave you everything in my T......”
– Jesus: “I know, my dear little one. But your director had a distraction and forgot to give me the essential, you little will. It is the most important of all, for your will is free. Without your will, you can do nothing. Think of that. You can do nothing in the temporal order as in the spiritual order. Meditate on this: “I have come to do the will of my Father.”
“Every day you say: ‘May your Will be done on earth as it is in heaven’. You do your own will and keep it. It is this will that I want from you. How can you trust in me if you keep your will. It is by an act of the will and of humility that the world was saved, by the Will of my Father and the humility accepted by my Mother. It is also by an act of the will, of rebellion and pride that the world was lost. How do you want to have humility if you keep your own will? How do you want to obey me, your director, if you keep your will? How do you want to submit yourself to the conformity of God if you keep your will and do as you please? How do you want to really love me if you keep your will? This is what prevented you from throwing yourself completely into my arms.
“Your director asks something of you but you hesitate. Tell him on my part to no longer hesitate. Tell him about....... about P... Now, my dear little girl, I ask you to atone for the lack of trust in me, your lack of respect in the presence of authority, of my representative. I did not give you a guide who is blind. When you atone, do not look at the man but simply at me in him. Don’t do your little will. Be simple and humble like my Mother. May your director add your little will to your T....... Give me everything by V.C.O.P. I want everything and I will keep it in my heart forever.”
Friday 16 March 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how can I thank you for so much love, such goodness?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am the one to thank you. I am happy, pleased with my little spouse. Do you see the happiness you experience in feeling little, humble, obedient in submitting yourself to the Holy Will of my Father? You have finally understood my love.”
– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved, I understand now the love and confidence that Mary Magdalene had at your feet.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I wanted you to atone in order to remain humble, to repair you lack of trust, of respect for my representative, especially in his presence. You know very well what I mean.
“This morning I was worried about you. I was asking myself what you were going to do with your little will. By a special grace, I permitted your director to share the same moments of joy. He shares your problems and even the suffering you experience in great temptations. I couldn’t leave him by himself. I wanted him to share our happiness, experience this peace and the results of my love. Our little team must be one in moments of joy and in suffering.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, when I think of it, everything happened so fast. I can’t express this change. My heart was full of joy, my soul was inundated with love for you. A gentle peace had taken over. Only your power, your presence, your love can have such an effect on my soul.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, my little one..... whom I love, my little spouse, the day will come when you will understand perfectly my love without needing any explanation. What took place this morning between the three of us was for the greater glory of my Father. You cannot understand. I only manifested myself in you because I love you and also because you were sincere and humble, both of you. The humility of your director to accept without understanding, the humility you had to atone without understanding the importance. At that moment, your director understood once more my infinite mercy and how my love can transform a soul. He understood his dignity as a priest, the place he occupies as my representative of a poor little soul.
“It is the second time during his life that I manifest myself to him in a tangible way. On the morning of his ordination and this morning. He had been wanting to understand somthing for a long time. Like you, in a moment, he understood. Everything was clear to him. No more doubts. My love and the murmur of the Holy Spirit had torn open the obscure veil. Between him and me, something else happened that you don’t know about. One does not tell a little girl everything, but you will understand perhaps at the moment of your impending death. Your director understood the great responsibility he had in directing your little soul toward me, to what I expect from you and what my Father wants from you. He knows and understands what I want from you. He no longer has any doubts.”
Saturday 17 March 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, give the medal of Mary Queen of Hearts that you are wearing to this poor sick person.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I have another one in my purse!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, no matter whether you have another one in your purse. Do what I ask without understanding.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask myself what I am going to do. If this keeps on, if I have to wear all the medals that you ask me to give away, on the long run, I will have to carry a bag on my back.”
– Jesus: “Indeed, my dear little girl, it is a bag full of obedience that you will have to carry on your back.”
Sunday 18 March 1956
– Mimi: Near the statue of the Sacred Heart, kneeling at his feet, I was weeping over my sins.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t understand the state I am in during great temptations. Grant me, please, the strength and courage to accept, to struggle. Without you I can do nothing. See how bad I am during these moments and yet, you know very well that I love you, that I don’t want to offend you. I ask your forgiveness and also the grace to obtain a true and sincere conversion.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, by the confession of your retreat, you have thrown away the heavy pieces. Now, you have to remove the dust. All must be purified before coming before my Father. Remember that there is only one way of the cross and that I was the only one to do it out of love.”
Monday 19 March 1956
Feast of Saint Joseph.
– Mimi: My director was hesitant in giving me communion for I was suffering greatly. He was afraid of more vomiting.
– Mimi: “You know my Beloved the great sorrow that I have at the sole thought that I will not be able to receive you. You are here, so near. I beg you, in the name of our union, of our love, do not leave me by myself.”
– Mimi: Inspired by the Holy Spirit, I tell me director :
– Mimi: “Fear not, be without fear, my Beloved knows very well the great desire that I have to receive him because of my love for him. He will arrange things in order to remain within me. On my part, I won’t budge. I will remain in bed.”
I was so happy to receive him once more to help me. I am suffering so much. I want him more and more in my life.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved, for this sign of love, for the vomiting started again only a half hour after receiving communion.”
Tuesday 20 March 1956
– Mimi: I was suffering a lot physically and morally.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, look at me, please help me!”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, each day, for the past six years, I have witnessed your martyrdom. In a loud voice I am asking for more, I need more.”
Friday 23 March 1956
– Mimi: I was meditating on my T..... Suddenly I saw the Holy Shroud. The features weren’t clear. The Holy Shroud was the size of a small medal.
– Jesus: “It is I, my Beloved. See how I show myself small to you. Do you really love me? Keep me hidden within you.
“My Beloved, before accepting what I am about to ask, look at me closely on the cross, before the little crucifix that your director is wearing. This little crucifix was the object of many things. It is precious for it witnessed your great temptations. Even during one of your moral crises and urged on by your enemy, you repelled it violently. You threw it on the floor. But this little cross also witnessed your repentance. It was covered by your tears of repentance, of your kisses burning with love. And it is this little cross that your director will press on your lips at the moment of your death. Your last breath of life, your last kiss of love will be for me on this little cross that your director must keep preciously as a relic to continue honoring me, loving me, and in atoning for me. Some day, it will come in handy. When you die, someone will claim this little cross as a souvenir. I forbid him to part from it under any pretext. This little cross belongs to him. May he keep it. It belongs to him and to me and it is my will.
“I want him to atone, to make many acts of love on this little cross by kissing it with love, with respect. My Beloved, today, I am asking you for everything in front of this little cross.
“Look at me closely for a moment. Show me your love by accepting to do it with the permission of your director.”
Saturday 24 March 1956
– Mimi: At a certain moment, I experience great physical suffering.
– Mimi: “I thought you were coming to get me. Your poor little girl, your little spouse who wants only you, your presence. I miss you terribly, my Love, my God, my All.”
Sunday 25 March 1956
– Mimi: Memorable day for me. Six years already since I made V.C.
Feast of the Annunciation of the Blessed Virgin Mary.
– Jesus: “Today begins for you the Annunciation of what my Father expects from you. A coincidence with Palm Sunday. Yes, you will make your entrance with me unto the sorrowful road of the cross to save souls. On this day, I want you to renew your v.c.o.p. Also, make your act of offering before my representative. I accept all that is contained in your little t..... After you have given me freely out of love everything, I will have you begin your mission of saving souls. I expect a lot from you. I want everything. I will take everything and that will be all.”
Monday 26 March 1956
– Mimi: I was in the hospital. I spent five hours ( exams, x-rays for the spinal column). In spite of the physical pain, I was happy to see all these poor sick people, my children again.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, prepare yourself. All that you are suffering presently is nothing. Prepare yourself. In a short while, I will take more, for you will undergo another operation.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, where will the operation take place?”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, simply at the hospital.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you are pulling my leg again. Speak seriously. The situation is critical enough.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am well aware of the situation. I am very serious. You will undergo another operation where I want. Don’t ask me useless questions.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved. It doesn’t seem to me to be a useless question. You speak to me about an operation. Between us, you know, I would like to know where they are going to cut me. This is the sixth time. I hope they won’t cut off my neck.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I simply want to have more in order to save souls. Each time I ask for more, I come closer to you and you resemble me more and this is what feeds and strengthens our union, our love in suffering to do the Holy Will of my Father for the salvation of souls.
“Think of me. Did I ask during the scourging how many lashes I would have? Did I set limits on my love for you, for souls? The number of wounds on my body is incalculable. My poor body did not have anesthesia, nor was it surrounded by care or precautions.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, forgive me for my useless question, for my lack of confidence. You see how weak I am with my poor little fearful and curious nature. I am like a child and yet I so would not want to displease you, to accept everything out of pure love. This dreadful fault that always makes me ask questions that do not concern me but only you, my God. Forgive me, my Beloved, and please grant me the grace of minding my own business. Give me also greater confidence.
“My gentle heavenly Mother, help me please to accept everything from you. I know that you are able to help me correct my faults. You know how much I love my God, my Beloved. I wouldn’t want to cause him any sorrow. Look at my conduct. Look at what I am doing. I lack trust in him.”
And I was crying.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, look at your child who is so weak. Strengthen my love and trust. I can do nothing without you.”
– Jesus: “Indeed, my Beloved, I always look upon you as a child who is very small, a spoiled child. Don’t cry, my Beloved. Come close to my heart. Poor little girl whom I love in spite of everything. I know your good wishes. I have known for a long time the love of your poor little heart.
“I scold you because I love you. I scold you because I want to help you correct yourself, purify yourself. It is because I love you. I know your weaknesses well.
“My Beloved, you have given me all, so, why do you want to know where, the added piece that I want from you? My Beloved, give me a beautiful smile and tell me that you love me and that you give me all without counting the pieces, without reserve. You are beginning Holy Week with me. I want everything. I must save many souls. Your director is generous. He is working hard without counting the pieces he gives me.”
Tuesday 27 March 1956
– Mimi: Great temptation, physical and moral sufferings. For the last three months, the moment of confession has become for me a moment of torture. However, I find peace again after this struggle. I don’t know what’s going on within me. It seems like a nightmare. I was very sad when my director told me what I had said and done. I can’t believe all the malice that came out of my heart.
– Mimi: “Yet, you know very well that I detest these temptations, that I fear them. You know that I love you my Beloved. I beg you not to believe what I say during these moments, my physical and moral suffering is so great. One has to go through it to understand a little what the soul can suffer.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, why complain? You are the one putting on a show to draw the attention of your director. You are the one who brings on these temptations to pass the time, to have your director waste time and at the same time to have something extraordinary happen in your life because you know that the saints went through great temptations and you think that you will become a saint this way. You want to please me and you offend me even more when you receive the sacrament of penance. I forbid you to go to confession. This way, you will avoid the temptations you seek to satisfy your pride. Each time you disobey me by going to confession, the temptations will return. I ask myself : why go to confession? Why receive absolution? I have already forgiven you all. Don’t mention this to your director. It is very delicate matter.
“He knows his business but with you he no longer knows what to do. He suspects something but is hesitant to speak to you about it, not to hurt your feelings. It is very delicate matter. So, no more confession and all will go back into place. Keep quiet about what I have just told you for the greater good of your soul.”
– Mimi: During and after the temptations, I am so exhausted that I begin to cry.
No matter how hard I try, I am unable to have a little smile. I ask my director to tell me something funny in order to make me laugh, for I don’t want others to suspect what went on within me.
– Satan: “My dear little one, you say so yourself. You play your role so well that you are able to cry and a few minuts later, laugh. You see that I am right. I am a God of truth. Doubt me no longer. Once more, no more sacraments and you will have peace for you tend to be scrupulous. It is in your interest. Your director will finally find peace.”
Wednesday 28 March 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, listen carefully to what I am going to tell you. Take a white handkerchief and go to the church near the statue of Our Lady of Pity. Kiss my feet respectfully, with love in union with the sufferings of my Beloved Mother. Then, apply with faith, with confidence, the white handkerchief to the wounds of my feet. I am preparing a surprise, a great surprise, but especially great joy, a great consolation. You will share with your director the little white handkerchief that you will keep as a relic, as a token of my love. There is a condition. You must keep this absolutely silent except for your director.”
Holy Thursday 29 March 1956
– Mimi: My enemy never leaves me. I cannot describe all the moral suffering I experience, the physical suffering I endure is nothing compared to this.
Painfully, I was able to get to the church.
During the procession of all these priests prostated who were offering to God their adoration and their love, I was quite far from the monstrance altar. I was uniting myself with all these adorations but my enemy was close by suggesting to me blasphemies.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, is it possible that my soul that desires so much to receive you and that loves you be at your feet with a cold love, dry, wordless, thoughtless to express my love. There is emptiness, almost complete disgust. I cannot even read or pray. I hardly believe in your presence in the host. I cannot even prepare my communion. I am afraid of approaching you. I am not worthy of receiving you. What am I in the presence of your majesty and out of obedience, I must receive communion in such a state.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, do you want to receive me for your happiness or for mine? My happiness of giving myself once more to my poor little girl, my Beloved. Fear not, I understand everything.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am suffering so much. Keep me, please, close to your Divine Heart. My Beloved, if my director could understand what my little heart, my soul is suffering at this moment, he would pray all the more.
“He is there, speak to him. It would please him so much. Give him, please, gentle consolations. He deserves it. See all that he is doing to help me love you more, to know you better, to serve you better. You know that he doesn’t hesitate in front of obstacles from the devil, that he doesn’t back away from the snares of my enemy. You know how much he wants to lead my little soul towards you, towards my ideal. He has always been dedicated. He does not calculate his time, his health, his sacrifices, his mortifications, his prayers without mentioning what you know and what I do not know. He must also have a secret area in his soul.”
– Jesus: “Yes, he has a secret area in his soul. He does not have a secret place in a little attic like a little girl that I know. My Beloved, if I understand you correctly, you would like me to give a reward to your director right away.”
– Mimi: “Yes, you are correct, my Beloved. As usual, the least wish is granted. You understand everything. Thank you, thank you in advance.”
– Jesus: “Not so fast, my Beloved. Indeed, I understand everything. I understand the wish of your little heart, your gratitude, your respect in the presence of my representative, but, if I grant you your wishes, what merits, what happiness will he have left after his death?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is so easy for you. I do not ask you to give him heaven on earth. I know him well enough.He wouldn’t accept it for he could not live for long without suffering, without the cross. It is his daily bread. All that I ask for him is a special place in your Divine Heart that he loves so much, and, at this moment, please give him a gentle consolation. My Beloved, do this for your little girl who loves you.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, you make me laugh. You pester me, you insist like a tiny little baby who wants something.
“My Beloved, you please me. I am so happy. This is what I call being confident. My heart is so sensitive that it weeps for joy at your love for me, your confidence, your big heart has taken over. You are suffering greatly at this moment. You aren’t thinking of yourself. You ask me for consolations, not for yourself but for your director.
“My Beloved, I cannot resist your demand. I promise you that he will have, that he will experience for a brief moment my love, my gentle presence within him. However, he will receive his reward, and I repeat this to you once more, he will receive his reward when he hands over your little soul that my Father entrusted to him and that I had lent him. Therefore, his reward will be at the moment of your death. My dear little one, do not take the place of the guardian angel of your director to enumerate all that he is doing. Do you think that I don’t know everything? I know him well as I know you. Don’t forget it. I have a secret code with him.”
Good Friday 30 March 1956
– Satan: “My dear little girl, it is useless to pray, to receive communion, to offer up more, all these actions don’t count because, in the state of sin in which you are continually living, you have become a dead member of my mystical body.”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar. I know you by your lies. You are right in saying that I have become a dead member for you and that, by the infinite mercy of my Beloved, I have become a living member of the mystical body and by sanctifying grace, I believe that my Beloved is present in my poor little soul.”
– Satan: “You are leading a useles life. In doing your own will, you believe that you are doing the will of God.”
– Mimi: “I know that I am leading a useless life for you but I am sure that it is useful to God. In spite of my weaknesses, I am helping my Beloved in saving souls. It is the Holy Will of God.”
After violent attacks from my enemy, I suffer more and more morally and physically.
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me. Everything in me is crumbling. It seems to me that I will become discouraged. Everything is dark around me. I am in darkness and there is no more hope. All I hear is the voice of my enemy who wants me to offend you.
“My God, I don’t want to offend you. I am suffering but I accept your Holy Will in atonement for my sins and for those of the whole world in union with your sufferings to save souls.”
The physical suffering is increasing. The temptation becomes more violent. Great temptation against faith, against the great mystery of the cross, against the infinite mercy of God. I can no longer accept what God expects from me.
– Jesus: “Ask for help, my dear little girl. Send a S.O.S. to your director. Do you think you are stronger than I to undergo this trial alone?”
– Mimi: I write a few lines to my director to inform him of the situation. He phones me and, seeing that there is something that isn’t right, he asks me to come and see him. I didn’t want to see him in order not to discourage him. I was afraid of having a moral crisis for my enemy was getting closer and closer.
In the afternoon, I visited my director. Once more, I had a moral crisis in his presence. He advises me to go to the church, to simply look at the statue of the Blessed Virgin and speak to her like a child. I don’t understand what happened to me. I refuse. He wants to bless me. Once again I refuse to kneel and in my heart, I felt hatred for God and contempt for my director. Seeing that the situation was getting critical, he tells me :
– My Director: “In the name of Jesus, Mary and Joseph, I ask you to kneel.”
– Mimi: I remember answering him :
– Mimi: “If I kneel, it is because I want to and not because you ask me to.”
Then I reproached him and insulted him. I told him:
– Mimi: “As God’s representative, I detest you. I hate you. You won’t win over me. I am a free person.”
I am weeping as I write this. I don’t dare write these abominable things out of respect for my Gentle Mother of heaven who is near me on my little table (the statue).
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how evil, ungrateful, unfair towards you, towards your representative. Why must he suffer because of me? I ask myself why I have been speaking against my will. All that I would like to do and say, I don’t do and all that I would not like to do and say, I do. I say it scornfully. At certain moments, it seems to me that I am happy to act this way. It is a diabolical joy that takes hold of me and urges me on to act this way and yet, I do not want to. My Beloved, You know that you are my only hope, my God, my All.”
Then, after quite a serious struggle, I decide to kneel. My enemy rages by my side and when my director pronounces the names of Jesus, Mary and Joseph, I recover my peace. I take the opportunity to ask my director to go to confession. I am so anxious to receive My Beloved, my God.
In the silence and peace of a small chapel, I do my thanksgiving, that is, I speak with my Beloved. I savor these moments of intimacy. I profit from the occasion to ask for his help, to ask for the strength and courage and more love to follow him till the end.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, now go to the church.”
– Mimi: I go immediately to the church. As I usually enter the door on R street,
– Jesus: “No, my dear little one, walk further on, enter by the door of P street.”
Once inside the church, I was going toward the altar of the Blessed Virgin. He tells me:
– Jesus: “No, my Beloved, not on this side, go towards the monstrance.”
– Mimi: I kneel in a pew.
– Jesus: “No, my Beloved, advance to a few more pews.”
To my great surprise, after an act of adoration before my God, I notice that near my gloves there is a small medal. Immediately, I pick it up and look at it.
It was exactly the same reproduction of the little medal I had seen a few days before at home during a moment of gentle consolation. I was trembling. I was so moved. This medal represented the Holy Shroud and on the other side, Our Lady of Seven Sorrows.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, consider my love once more. Is this sign visible enough to you? Is it not the medal that you saw the other day? So, go immediately and have this medal blessed by your director and keep it as a souvenir of Good Friday 1956. After your death, it must be given to your director. Inform those concerned. My dear little girl, my Beloved, are you strong enough to make the way of the cross with you by my side?”
– Mimi: “Yes, yes, my Beloved. With you I can do anything. I love you and thank you.”
After the way of the cross, I kissed the tall cross installed in the church for the veneration of the faithful on the occasion of Good Friday. I approached it with love, with repentance, with sorrow, with confidence. At the moment when I kissed his Divine Feet:
– Jesus: “My Beloved, tell me that you accept to follow me. Do not leave me alone, you, my Beloved spouse, my little G.....”
I could not hold back my tears of joy.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, this is a little moment of respite. Do you also accept to share my agony to save souls? Now, look at what you have done to me. In the early part of the afternoon, under the control of the devil, you didn’t want to go to church. For a few minutes, you didn’t know what to do. But now, for the past hour, you have been near me and you even made the way of the cross in spite of your moral sufferings and the fatigue of your poor body. Under the influence of the devil, you refused to kiss the little crucifix that your director had in his hands. Now, you are present at my feet. You kiss lovingly, with respect the cross. You are prostrated before me like Mary Magdalene in front of everybody. I continue. You wanted to remove all that was blessed, medals, ring and so forth. Now, I have given you a medal that you will ask to be blessed by your director and that you will keep and wear in memory of this memorable day of Good Friday, 30 March 1956. Who oriented you towards the church? Who especially chose the features of the Holy Shroud on your little medal? Who placed the little medal in the pew? Is it not the same medal you had seen earlier?
“Isn’t it a beautiful day for our little team, the three inseparables like the Blessed Trinity, the Holy Family. This isn’t all. You didn’t want to go see your director under the pretext of not disturbing him. I ask you to go and tell him this, in spite of what he experienced yesterday and today and will experience tomorrow. Tell him on my part that I love him, that I place him in my Divine Heart as my beloved disciple. May he remain in peace with me, in my heart. One more remark: you did not want to see your director. You even insulted him in what he treasures most, his priesthood.”
“You expressed unmerited reproaches to him and I ask you to go and tell him what I think of him and I give you at the same time a proof that I love him as my disciple, as my faithful servant, devoted to the cause of my Father. See all that you have done with me in such little time and even without noticing it. It is a special privilege that I speak to you, that I am granting you all these favors to help you better understand the state of the great temptation. You have the heart, the good will to accept but you are weak. You do not always understand the importance of the temptations.
“My dear little one, the temptation is not extraordinary for privileged souls. It is something quite natural and normal in spiritual life. It is also a normal sign for consecrated souls who want to follow me till the end and accomplish faithfully, with love, the Holy Will of my Father. Ask your director if you may offer up more. If he allows it, may he lend you what is necessary for tonight. I want more. My Beloved, do not leave me tonight. Do you want to share my agony?”
– Mimi: “Why yes, my Beloved. With your grace, I accept with love. I love you so.”
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, first of all, may your mind be open to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. Do everything I ask of you without understanding. Spend an hour on your knees to make the way of the cross in a spirit of mortification to save souls. Remain in that position without moving. Place under your knees the little cross.”
I was suffering a lot when the great temptations against purity were added to my sufferings. They were so violent that I seemed to receive at each one a lashing. This lasted during all the duration of the way of the cross. There were moments of temptations against faith, against the great mystery of Redemption, of the Resurrection. I was suffering greatly. I wanted to make acts of love and of faith. I was unable to do anything. There was emptiness.
– Mimi: “My God, my Beloved, have mercy on me. I can’t go on.”
I was bent over in pain but the moral pain was worse. Not a ray of hope, of confidence, of love. Yet, I did not stop saying :
– Mimi: “My God, I believe. I want to believe, I want to love you, I do not want to offend you. Help me, please. Come to my aid.”
– Satan: “Do you believe that God is going to make a miracle for you? If you wait for help from heaven, you are going to wait a long time. Look at what he did to his Son. Did he come to his aid? If he had, he would not have died. You are silly to endure all this. To find peace, it is very simple : get up. Do you think that with more or less pain you can save souls? You’re being stupid.”
– Mimi: “My God, help me. I cannot write down all the blasphemies that are filling my mind.”
– Jesus: “Take courage, my Beloved, for I am with you. Extend your little arms as a cross and remain this way during the next two stations. My Beloved, I want more. Apply on your wrists the little c... and keep it until the end of the way of the cross.”
The way of the cross lasted one hour. I am so exhausted, worn out. I was suffering a lot. At home, I had a fever. I was anxious to drink a good cold glass of water. As I was getting ready to drink it, my Beloved said :
– Jesus: “No, my Beloved, offer me one more sacrifice to save souls. Don’t take a single drop. Think of me, of my thirst for souls! Think of the vinegar that they gave me.”
Feeling faint, I was preparing to wash my face with some cold water to refresh myself a little.
– Jesus: “No, my Beloved. Think of me, of my bloody sweat shed for you and for souls. Offer me this discomfort.”
I was getting ready to take some rest.
– Jesus: “No, my little Beloved spouse, don’t lie down just yet. Stay by my side, console me. Look at me straight in the eyes. Look at my heart that loves you so. My Beloved, a day will come when your thirst will be quenched by gentle words of consolation, your face will be revived by the gentle kisses of your Beloved Spouse and you will find forever your rest in my divine arms, for I shall remember the Good Friday of 1956 where you were all mine and only mine.”
How time flies when I am in his presence. Since 10 o’clock, I have been in his Divine Arms. It is already one o’clock in the morning. I don’t want to leave him by himself.
During all this time, I didn’t experience any suffering. I was so happy to be in his arms. I was nestled in his adorable Heart. I was experiencing great peace, a gentle happiness that cannot be put into words. I felt completely detached from the earth. His embrace was so tight that I could hardly breathe.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, not so tight! I feel as if I am going to die of love. It is too much for my poor little soul. I don’t deserve so much happiness.”
I was weeping with joy.
– Jesus: “Come, my Beloved. Let me dry your tears with a gentle kiss. You are crying like a little baby in my arms.
“I love you. This is why I am doing this, for I want you to understand in a tangible manner all the strength, the power, all the mercy, all the love of my Divine Heart for you. My Beloved, if my love, if my embrace is so strong, it is because I want to reduce your size in order to make you smaller in my Divine Heart. I want you to understand the love of the cross, the joy of suffering in order to save souls. Do you see how much you are inundated by my love, by my grace?
“My little spouse, my little treasure that I have finally discovered, well hidden for years in a body full of mud, in a miserable state! In spite of all this, I wanted all of you.”
Holy Saturday 31 March 1956
– Mimi: After a few hours of sleep, filled with nightmares, with diabolical dreams, I begin another day near my Beloved. The whole morning is filled with great temptations accompanied by moral and physical sufferings.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved, for the small ray of sun in the midst of my darkness.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, don’t leave me in spite of your physical sufferings. Offer me more. If you knew the number of souls to convert, to save and who still hesitate to come close to me. Offer up more. Your director is dealing with a difficult case. ”
It was ten thirty.
– Mimi: In the afternoon :
– Jesus: “Go see your director in the confessional. Make an act of humility. Tell him that I am asking you to do a Holy Hour during hours of confession. That he prepare himself to receive difficult cases. Tell him that you are going to help him with your prayers. Our team work will be complete. Then, make another Holy Hour. Stay with me near the cross to console me. At this moment, your director needs your help. Offer up more. There are so many souls that need to be saved.”
– Mimi: “My God, Eternal Priest, I beg you, listen to the humble and confident prayer of your little girl.
“I ask you for all priests throughout the world and especially for my director the strength and necessary courage to accomplish their task. I beg you to be in their hearts so that they may speak like you, gently in spite of their fatigue. May they understand and speak gentle words to souls, words of comfort and peace. Be present in their minds so that they may be enlightened to help each soul and indicate the road to real happiness that we can only find in you through the state of grace. May you be in their mouths so that when they pronounce the words of absolution to repentant sinners, the sincere soul may receive this gentle pardon like a balm on ones heart and experience the gentle kiss of peace.
“I also pray for all the souls who go to confession so that they may be very sincere and that the reason why they go be not simply out of obligation but out of pure love based on confidence in your infinite mercy for sinners. And now, my Beloved, I pray for fearful souls. Please give them strength and courage. These poor souls tremble because they do not understand your love. Please send them your Holy Spirit with all his gifts and I especially ask for these souls the gift of fortitude so that their hearts and resolutions be sincere, not only on the surface of their will.
“My Beloved, I also pray for lukewarm souls. Please give them more love, more sincerity. Inspire our confessors with a single word that could touch their hearts, so cold, so indifferent, so that they may recognize their state and finally reflect on the danger they are in.
“For the most hardened sinners, I ask for a true repentance of their sins and the firm intention of never offending you and of avoiding the occasions.
“Through your love, transform their souls into living tabernacles. With your Precious Blood, wash and purify all these souls. They are all your children and mine. I love them and I don’t want them to be unhappy by living far from you. I also want them to be happy with you in heaven for all eternity. By your grace, I want all these souls to give glory to God the Father during all eternity. For souls that are delicate, frail, weak but sincere, I ask you to look at their good will, their efforts. Please grant them more love, humility, confidence, perseverance in their good resolutions so that they may really console you.
“By your sufferings, your merits, your passion, with my gentle heavenly Mother, I want to offer to God all these souls. My God, hear my prayer, not of your little girl, but the confident prayer coming from the heart of a little mother who, in spite of her weakness, her helplessness, wants to save her children from danger. I depend on you, my Beloved and I am confident. Look at me. I implore and ask for them forgiveness and mercy. I love them all without exception. I want them all to be yours, my God.”
Evening.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how anxious I am to resurrect with you tomorrow.”
– Jesus: “Why no, my Beloved. Tomorrow you are going to resurrect in your heart, in your spirit and not in your body, for, I am going to resurrect in all my Glory, with the golden crown of Royalty. I was thinking that during this time you could wear my crown of thorns in my place, for today! As a spouse, you must be one with me at each moment. You must walk by my side, and out of charity, out of love for me and my children, I ask you to wear my crown of thorns.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, with your grace I accept to carry your crown of thorns. Have no fear. It won’t fall to the ground. At times, I am quite hard headed.
– Jesus: “I know that, my Beloved. This is why I am placing it on your small stubborn head and hope that the thorns of my love will penetrate deeply into your little head. You know, my Beloved, even on the day of Resurrection, the cross must not for a single moment be without a victim for there are still souls that are being lost. It is to you that I give this privilege of replacing me a little on the cross for you are among the consecrated souls and a victim of my love.
Are you pleased to be my little Beloved spouse?”
