Wednesday 1st February 1956
– Mimi: I was coming back from communion. I was walking back to the house very quickly.
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, why are you walking so fast? You are not thinking of me present in you. Repair this rudeness, this lack of respect. Walk more slowly. Attach your heart and mind unto me. Adore me in you, speak to me. Tell me especially that you love me. What would you say if you saw a procession go by and that the priest holding the monstrance in his hands walked rapidly by in a distracted manner? You would immediately say that he was not respectful. You would feel sad to see me treated in such a manner by one of my servants. I can hear you say : “Poor Jesus! I want to repair this offence. I want to love you with respect as you deserve.” And what are you doing at this moment?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved. Forgive me for this lack of respect, but you can understand that it isn’t that I want to offend you that I am walking quickly. It is because I was nervous.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I know that it was because you were nervous. This is not the reason why I reproach you. It is the state of your mind, of your heart, for, you were so preoccupied that your thoughts were going as fast as your steps. If you had taken the time to reflect, your mind would have been calm as well as your steps. So, think about this more often: that you are my Beloved spouse, that you are all mine, that your soul has become a small consecrated host and that your body has become a monstrance in which you dwell with me.”
Thursday 2 February 1956
In church.
– Mimi: “My God, I believe, I adore you and I love you.
“Come, my Beloved, come and warm my poor little heart that is so cold, as cold as my body. How I would like to console you but I am capable of nothing (a great temptation against faith). I offer you my little heart that loves you and who wishes to love you more. I suffer at this moment not to be able to love you as you deserve.
“Ô my gentle Mother of heaven, please lend me your heart to adore, to love my God, my Creator, my All.
“My Beloved, give me refuge in your Divine Heart in order to speak to you heart to heart. Look at me as you did for Mary Magdalene, eye to eye. How I regret my sins that have offended you so. Ô my God! I humbly ask forgiveness for my selfishness, especially for my lack of confidence after receiving such proof of your love. How unjust I have been towards you, my God, ô Infinite Goodness. How can one not believe in your love? I merited hell and you give me heaven. I merited chastisement and you come and save me. I merited being rejected and you come and pick me up. I merited to be scorned and you come and love me. I merited to be alone and abandoned and you give me your Son as a living companion, as a spouse. I merited nothing and you give me all.
“Thank you, my God, for all your goodness. My God, I implore you sincerely, do not only look at my needs but also at the bottom of my little heart that loves you and begs you to increase in it your love. Nothing is impossible to you, my God. Do not reject my humble and confident prayer. My God, I am your child who is suffering, weeping, who asks your forgiveness. Forgive my despicable behavior. With your grace and depending on the merits of your Divine Son, I no longer want to offend you. Thank you, ô my God, for your merciful love.
“My Gentle Mother of heaven, let we weep on your motherly heart. You know the reason why I am weeping. Please help me pick myself up and continue my journey towards God, towards my ideal. Keep me in your arms like a child, protect me from my enemies, hide me in your queenly mantle. Protect me as you protected your Gentle Jesus when you fled to Egypt. Protect me from my enemies, from dangers, especially from discouragement. I am weak and I place my trust in you. Ô Virgin most pure, most humble, ô my Mother. At your example, I want ot love and please God. Teach me, please, to love and practice humility in all things. Like you, I want to be the little servant of God. I want to serve him with loyalty and tell him each day my fiat.
“How time flies! I am sad because I have to leave you. However, my Beloved, I had so many things to tell you. I am so comfortable in tranquility near you. I ask the sanctuary lamp to replace me and keep you company. May the wick that burns be the burning flame of my little heart filled with love for you and may our love be consumed in one another, ô my God, my all.”
– Jesus: “Thank you, thank you, my dear little Beloved spouse. You chose the best place to speak to me. Isn’t this so in being close to my Divine Heart? Isn’t it so that your little heart so cold at the outset of your Holy Hour warmed up quickly near my Adorable Heart, my Heart burning with love for you? My dear little one... you are mine, only mine forever. I count the days when our union will be perfect.”
Friday 3 February 1956
– Mimi: During my Holy Hour, I was looking at my Beloved on the cross.
– Mimi: “Poor Jesus of my heart, I beg you, in the name of our love, come and rest near my poor little heart. You know a day ago you told me that with my role as a spouse of Christ, I had to have the heart of a mother. At this moment, my little heart needs to give of itself even more. You are the one I want to console. My Beloved, I beg you, make me as little as a child so that I may cradle you and show you my love. With my gentle Mother of heaven, I want to love you more. How I love you tenderly! I am looking at you with the eyes of faith, with the eyes of a little mother.”
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, now that your role as a mother near me is over, you want me to speak to you about important things. Do you see the extent of my love for you? I take pleasure in granting you your least wishes, your least whims as if I were obliged. And you, what do you do when I ask for more? Are you always anxious to give me what I wish? When are you going to attach your whole heart and mind on me alone? I manifest myself in you with special graces, warnings, tangible signs, graces of choice.
“You believe, but when I come with the cross, with trials, you begin to doubt and when I come with great temptations of all sorts, that I reserve for my friends, then, you lose your head which isn’t very solid and forget everything. You allow your enemy to distract you. This is what saddens me most. You do not undestand yet the importance of great temptations.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, more scolding!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, would you prefer to be scolded by my Father? You had better receive the scolding while you are living than after dying.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I wonder when we are going to be getting along. I do my best to please you, to serve God with what I have, with all the love that I have. I was so happy to come and console you, to hold you in my arms like a child, like a treasure, to press you against my poor little heart filled with love for you and you take advantage of the occasion to scold me. What more do you want me to do? You tell me that I do not understand the importance of great temptations and when I try to understand and ask why, like a child, you tell me that I am curious, that I must walk with my eyes closed without understanding. I don’t know what to do, what to think... and I was crying.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, come, do not weep like that. Now, are you close to my Divine Heart? We are going to have a heart to heart talk. Do you see how much I love you in spite of everything, spoiled child of my love, privileged child of my Father. Do you think I act the same way with everyone? It is the same thing with great temptations. There is only a small number of those who receive them. This is what you don’t understand.
“My dear little one, aren’t you the one who manifested the desire to see me as a little child. Well, this is what I am doing. I speak to you with simplicity, like a child. We will get along the day when you give up everything, the day when you will understand perfectly my love for you.
“The day when you accept the great temptations like the consolations, out of love, all that I ask of you my Beloved little one, that is called love. All that I desire to receive from you is more love. All that I expect from you is a proof of your love. Let there be no other question between us than one of love. Think a little about this : I, God of love, united by such a pure link to his poor little creature. On certain days, you ask yourself why I love you so much and I in certain moments ask myself the same question. The answer is always love.
“This little heart so affectionate, I want it to be all mine, only mine. During your little retreat, look especially during your life at your sins, but above all at what I did out of love for you. At each moment of your life I show you a proof of my love. Your poor little heart that I constantly hold in my hands, that I place at certain moments near mine and together we give glory to my Father. Do you understand the importance of my love? Do you understand the meaning of being loved by me, your God, your Spouse? Yes, my dear little Beloved spouse, my little one that I so love to the point of making the angels jealous. They have the advantage of seeing me, of adoring me, and you, through the state of grace, through the Holy Eucharist, you possess me entirely, you make room for me in your little dwelling where I am so happy to be at home within you. My love never leaves you for a second, even when I hide in order to try your faith, your confidence, your love, your loyalty. If you took the time to look carefully without being preoccupied by your enemy, you would find me perhaps hidden behind the door of your little dwelling. The other day, you were looking for me outside. You gave a quick look inside your little dwelling. You were so upset that you didn’t think of looking everywhere. I was hiding behind this cross, this temptation. It took your director to show you were I was. I wasn’t so far away.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, do you talk this way to my director?”
– Jesus: “Of course not, my little curious one!. I don’t have to always talk to him like I do with you for I prefer to listen to him speak to me. At certain moments, he is so simple, so affectionate with me that I ask myself if I was mistaken in giving him a heart. He has a sensitive heart like that of a mother. He has an affectionate heart like that of a young girl that I know well. You know that he has suffered a lot and is still suffering. He is one who went immediately to the right school. He learned to know me, to love me, to serve me constantly with joy as in moments of sorrow, when consoled as in moments of sadness. For a long time he has been doing everything out of love for me and for souls. He understands the intimacy between God and the soul. He knows me well and I know him. I know his ideal, that of saving your soul, to lead it where I want. He knows what I expect from you. I placed him for this reason, to help you.
Saturday 4 February 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you still do not understand what temptation is about. You believe that temptation is an affliction. On the contrary. It is for the soul a blessing. See me in all things. I am closer to you in temptation than in consolation. When this happens, you feel nothing. Yet, believe that I am there within you. If you could only understand my love for you even in temptations! The day you will understand this perfectly, you will then walk at a rapid pace towards me without noticing it. Make a novena to the Holy Spirit before beginning your little retreat. I expect a lot from this retreat. Leave everything behind. No preoccupations, no useless outings. Stay alone with yourself. Live in silence. Close your eyes to creation, to the world.
“My dear little girl, how do you expect a victory without a struggle? During great temptations you allow your enemy to overcome you too much. Why don’t you do what I ask? You forget everything. Why don’t you place your little trembling hand on your little heart where I am, near your spiritual testament? You are there, weeping, waiting for your director to ask for help on your behalf from heaven. Make a act of humility from the outset. Then, ask me to help you. Ask your director to pray with you. What would you think of a soldier who, in danger, before his enemy, would remain weeping and wait for his commander to give him a shove to go forward? In temptations, you must learn to fight. In spiritual life it is like being at war. If you do not advance towards your enemy with confidence in God, with a solid weapon like the cross, it is your enemy who will advance towards you in order to destroy you, to claim victory.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t understand. You know in what state I am during great temptations. I am unable to do anything. You allow these temptations. Why are you always saying that I don’t understand and when I want to do my best to understand, you scold me? My Beloved, you never reprimanded Mary Magdalene as much after her conversion.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, it is true. I never had to scold Mary Magdalene because from the start, she loved me, she was humble, she was repentant, she was faithful, she gave her all out of love. She was trusting.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if you knew how heavy is my heart, how sorrowful I am. Why are you like this. Always scolding, especially since 1956. (I was crying). You know that I love you, that I trust in you.”
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, your heart is heavy, you are sorrowful. I am also suffering for you don’t seem to understand my love for you. It is out of love that I act this way. It is with a special privilege that I speak to you. The time is near when you must begin your mission, when you must execute the orders of my Father, when you must accomplish what my Father expects from you from all eternity. Don’t forget, you are my spouse. You must follow me, take the same road to go to my Father.
“My Beloved, I must help you, I must purify you, I must prepare you, I must strengthen you before the great day for you must die a victim of my love. Fear not. Don’t cry.
“I understand your little human nature, your hesitation before a fact that hasn’t happened. I myself had a moment of weakness during my agony.
“My Beloved, in the name of our love, I promise you to always be present in you, in our little dwelling. Believe this no matter what. I will always be with you! By a special privilege, I will grant your wish and allow your director to be near you during your agony and with the sign of the cross, he will place in my arms your little soul that my Father had given him and that I had lent him. He has done a lot for your little soul. It has cost him dearly but he will receive his reward at the moment of his death.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am afraid. I shiver as I write this.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you have only that. As for myself, I sweated blood before my death. My dear little one, I know that you don’t understand. Don’t try to understand for the time being. Trust me. Believe what I have just told you, that’s all. In reading these lines, your director will understand everything. After your little retreat, you won’t ask me why or the meaning of this sentence.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you surround me with mystery. I who am easily fearful, weak, I am afraid and at times, I tremble.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, my dear little Peter, for at this moment you remind me of Peter. You are right in being fearful of yourself. So, with confidence, with love, jump into my arms, into the arms of your Beloved.”
Sunday 5 February 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how somber is the picture.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, you are only looking at the shadows. Be patient. Wait for the Holy Spirit to enlighten your little picture. Let my Father choose to place in it the subjects, the personages. I will place the color. I will do the modifications. I will add what is missing to make it a masterpiece. For the moment, your director is doing the first coat. Fear not. When it comes time for the delicate work, I will do it in order to finish this little picture as soon as possible. After your death, this little picture that you see today in black will be painted white, a symbol of purity and in red, a symbol of martyrdom. I will highlight the love. Heaven will be blue. You will see it with your own eyes.”
Monday 6 February 1956
– Mimi: I was ironing a dress in a hurry. I was anxious to finish.
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, take care in doing your work as if you were receiving a salary. Bear in mind that you are working for me. My dear little Beloved spouse, if you were ironing my tunic, would you iron it as fast? Without worrying about the creases? Do your work with love and for souls. Strive for perfection in the least little things, since everything belongs to me and that you are offering me everything.”
Tuesday 7 February 1956
In church.
– Jesus: “You know my dear little Beloved spouse that a soul that wants to undertake a journey in spiritual life isn’t free from temptations. On the contrary, the more the soul journeys in spiritual life, the more it must be aware of its enemy, the more it must be aware of its smallness, of its weakness, of its ignorance, of its infirmities in spiritual life. Faults always exist. They must be dreaded and feared for the soul at times believes it is safe and this feeling it has of being safe allows it to fall in the enemy’s traps.
“My dear little girl, spiritual life does not mean having a life on earth full of delights, a peaceful existence, a life without worries, without thorns, without crosses, a life free from trials, a life that would be almost like heaven on earth. No, my dear little girl, my beloved. You know that spiritual life is above all a life filled with love, confidence, self-denial, conformity to the Holy Will of my Father. It is a life of struggles but also a life of victory and peace. You must not be surprised, you know, that in spiritual life, faults remain the same even though the soul does its best to dislike them and resist them.
“It must rely only on God, his Grâce, on the inspirations of the Holy Spirit, on the sacraments, on obedience to its superiors. It must be convinced and recognize that it can do nothing without the help of God’s grace.
“At times, the temptation is greater, stronger for this soul than for others, because in spiritual life, the soul must be completely purified and the basis is humility.
“At times, in this soul, there are many faults, imperfections. This is why the devil is always there, more attentive to the least failure, the least sign of weakness of this soul. To try these souls, I remain hidden for a while to make sure of their fidelity, of their love, of their trust in me, only in me.
“My dear little Beloved spouse, do you understand now why I ask more from you? This is why I want to help you understand spiritual life. This is why I have given you an enlightened director, a guide who is certain and does not tremble at efforts, at struggles with the enemy. He knows the road well. The road that leads to me. There is still a lot of dust in your little dwelling.
“I am anxious for you to make your little retreat, your little house cleaning with your director. Be confident and walk without fear even though you don’t understand everything. Don’t ask me why anymore. Don’t ask useless questions to your director. This could become spiritual curiosity, a lack of trust. Also, in moments of spiritual dryness, do not neglect your prayers, your meditations for this could become spiritual laziness.
“Ask me continually to be free from spiritual pride. It is the fault that I hate most, that I hate because it is the most dangerous one, the most dreaded one for the soul that wants an elevated ideal.
“It is also to be feared by my consecrated souls. May your director take every precaution to keep you humble. Allow him to do so. Remain very little in my arms for you know what you are in my presence and where you come from. Your director also knows you well. Besides myself, there will be no one but your director who will know the depth of your little soul.”
Sunday 19 February 1956
– Mimi: I visit my sister. I can’t explain what I was feeling. I couldn’t decide myself to go out.
– Mimi: “I did what you asked me, my Beloved, and what my director asked me to do.”
For a long time, the voice was asking me to visit my sister and this is what it was asking me to do :'' My dear little girl, I want you to visit J... take the medal of the Blessed Virgin that you are wearing, and place it on the sick leg. First, recite an act of humility. Pray with confidence to your gentle heavenly Mother.”
I didn’t know where this demand came from. Finally, I decided to speak about it to my director who asked me to do what the voice asked. Then, before placing the medal of Mary, Queen of Hearts, on her sick leg, I recollected myself briefly and without anyone noticing it, I recited the act of humility with confidence.
Later at the church, near the statue of the Blessed Virgin.
– Mimi: “My gentle Mother of heaven, Queen of Hearts, I entrust to you this soul, this sick body. I am confident that you can do something for her, to relieve her if it is the Holy Will of God. With God’s help, I offer myself to suffer in her place.
“You know what it’s like for a family where the mother has been sick for at least 20 years. Listen to the confident prayer of your poor little daughter. It is to your motherly heart that I pray. I trust in you. I know that you are all powerful on the heart of God and I know that a mother cannot refuse to answer the prayer of her little child who asks her with confidence, with love and who allows her affectionate heart to speak. We are beginning a novena to Mary, Queen of Hearts.
“My gentle Mother of heaven, there is nothing I can do besides pray, wait with confidence the hour of God and I count on you to intercede, to touch the heart of God. Mediatrix of all graces, I trust in you, in your love. Have mercy on us, your poor children.”
Sunday 26 February 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I have been here for half an hour and you still haven’t told me that you love me. Instead, I am scolded.”
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, this is how I show you my love by indicating your mistakes, your negligence, your faults, your weaknesses. You have a high ideal, that of saving souls. Because I love you, I want to help you understand what spiritual life is about. To understand and love it, it has to be based on humility, trust, obedience. All these acts must be done out of love and in perfect harmony with the Holy Will of my Father. Could you build a solid building on mud? It wouldn’t take long for the building to collapse. This is what happens to souls that want to journey in spiritual life by doing it their way. They surely want to practice humility but never want to take orders, or be criticized, or contradicted. Have all their needs met and do their own will. They want to trust but are always worried, always preoccupied by all kinds of things that are only of my concern. They constantly live in a state of fear. They want to practice obedience but never take orders especially from their superiors.
“How do you expect to build a solid building on such a foundation? Look at yourself closely. You are among these souls with such great desires and such weak strength. You can see, my little daughter, that my reproaches are more gentle. Graciously, I spoke in the plural not to embarrass you but you know, between us, it was of you that I was thinking above all in saying this.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I thank you for your graciousness in showing me my faults. Between us, I rather prefer receiving them directly. It is easier to recognize them and our intimacy is greater. My Beloved, I no longer dare raise my head and I don’t know how to talk to you. I am always walking with my head down. I always think that you are going to strike me and when you remain silent, it is my director who, at times, replaces you. After this, my Beloved, you ask me to walk with my eyes closed, without fear. I no longer know how to please you. Since I feel little, since I am weak, I cannot even walk. My Beloved, look at your little girl who is dragging her feet like a little baby.”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little girl, my Beloved. This is why I must have you under close surveillance. I am keeping watch over you like a mother who has greater attention for her smallest one who is weak and is beginning to drag itself around. She does not keep as close a watch on her elder one because the dangers are greater for the little one. You do well to lower your head in my presence but I would prefer that you lower it at times before people. After all, my dear little one, who are you to walk with your head held high?
“My dear little girl, I am pleased to learn that you recognize that your director replaces me to keep you humble. This I knew. I am the one who asked him to help me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you are mocking me again...(And I was crying).”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little proud one, so sensitive. I am mocking you. It is so funny to see you act this way. You are really like a spoiled child. I am not the only one laughing. Are you going to be uncomfortabl if I tell you that your director will be laughing when he reads this? My dear little girl, don’t reproach me for laughing at you. How many times you made me cry in the past!”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I’m sorry, help me please to correct my faults that cause you sorrow. With your grace, from now on, I want to console you.You know that I love you. Let us make peace. Give me your hand and let me kiss your forehead.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, was there a war going on between us? I accept your little hand, but I would prefer your little heart. You are asking me to make peace. This is what your director and myself want. We want to give you peace of soul, a solid and long lasting peace. One full of love and trust. What are you going to do now? Accept or refuse.”
Monday 27 February 1956
In the doctor’s office.
– Mimi: I was waiting my turn to see the doctor. I could no longer wait. I couldn’t understand what was wrong with me. I was afraid. I was feeling an aversion, disgust.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, why are you disgusted, feeling an aversion for these poor people? If you knew how much I love all of them without exception. It is for them that I came, that I died for sinners, the needy, the sick, for those who are suffering. Do not only look at their body, look also at their faces marked by moral and physical suffering and especially at their soul. Pray for each one of them. Look upon them as your children, suffer for them! See me in each one of them. I have pity on the crowd. Meditate on these words : “You who suffer, come to me!”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how can you ask me to remain calm, insensitive in the face of so much suffering, in the presence of my neighbor, to love him as you do? My Beloved, look at the one in front of me. He doesn’t stop looking at me. He scares me. He has a furious look on his face. I am nauseated. To think that I must love him as if it were you! My Beloved, I am doing my best to try seeing you in him. I am unable to find a shadow of resemblance. Your gaze is so good, so gentle, so affectionate. No! It isn’t possible. My Beloved, did you look at him closely?”
– Jesus: “And you, my dear little one, did you look closely at his soul? My dear little spouse, it to your little motherly heart that I am speaking. You must love him even more than others. You must pray more fervently for him. He is so unhappy. Do you know why he is looking at you. First of all because you are opposite him and because you appear calm. Your smile reassures him. Look at him closely. There is so little in a smile. One day, you will meet him and you will understand why I wanted you to love him more.
“My dear little one, you were nauseated from looking at these poor people and I, my dear little girl, how long did I remain nauseated in seeing your soul infected by sin and your body waisting away. When I picked you up out of the mire of sin, you were already smelling like a corpse. I didn’t think of myself but of you, of your soul.
“I loved you. I placed you on my heart and entrusted you to your director to take care of your little soul for him to give it back to me purified. Out of pure goodness, by a special grace, I gave you a director. I placed him in order to help you, to replace me. By a privilege, it is he who will assist you during your agony and who will give me your soul. You think that the poor unhappy man is looking at you with fury. Poor little one! If you only knew how much he suffers. He also has no one to help him. This is why I want you to love him and pray for him, for his soul. Give him a smile. My dear little girl, do you think that your expression is gentle and lucid when you are going through a moral crisis? If people saw you with this furious look, this hatred in your eyes, they are the ones who would be afraid of you. Make an act of humility, ask your director what he thinks about this.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how evil my soul must be at that moment to have a horrible expression on my face! It seems that the eyes are the mirror of the soul. How can my soul be so ugly, so evil?”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you mustn’t mix things up. Saint Thomas of Aquinas says that the eyes are the mirror of the soul. This is only in a figurative sense. It is not the words of the Gospel. I declare that your look changes, becomes furious from temptation. I didn’t speak about your soul even though it is troubled by temptation, by the presence of your enemy. I allow this. I am always present within you. I am sleeping like in Peter’s boat. Think about this, my little Peter. I love you in spite of everything.”
