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Sunday, 1st January 1956
– Mimi: “Indeed, my God, I am your little spoiled child, but it isn’t my fault, I know that I don’t deserve it. But you are the one, my God, who has spoiled me with your infinite mercy but also with your love by allowing your Divine Son to become my Spouse and in your immense goodness have given me an enlightened spiritual director to guide me, to lead me to you. Thank you, my God, I have received everything from you, through your grace. You fill me each day with your love. What more can I wish for on this earth. However, like a spoiled child, I am never satisfied, I always want more. Therefore, my God, I want more, I want you more and more. I can no longer live separated from My Beloved, my Spouse, my Unique Love. I want heaven in order to be with you and with my Beloved Spouse forever without forgetting my gentle heavenly Mother.
“Come and get me, I miss you so much. I want heaven not because I would be leaving this earth filled with suffering, I want heaven, my God, only in order to love you more, console you , adore you during all eternity. It is a need that I have of giving myself to you, of loving you, ô My God, who are so good to me.
“I understand your love for me. I understand the need you have to come into my poor soul in order to purify it, so miserable, so full of faults. Come, ô my Beloved, come with your grace, with your merciful love, come put in order your small dwelling. I beg you to increase in my soul your love, purify my soul and my body, grant me if you please the grace to love and practice humility.
“Teach me to love and bless the crosses and trials of this life, to submit myself totally into your powerful arms. I know that without you I can do nothing, I am nothing.
“I hope that 1956 will be the year of my sanctification since it will be the year of God. I offer myself to you from the outset, do with me what you will, I accept with love your Holy Will, I trust in you for I know that you love me and that you will always be near me for without you I can do nothing, but with you I can do anything. You know my Beloved that there is a lot of work to be done in my soul in order to make it agreeable to my Father. Before thinking about my sanctification I must first think of my conversion. I am confident that I will obtain it for I know that you are always near me and also because I trust in my director who represents you. In the last six years under his direction there has been a lot of changes in my poor life.”
– Jesus: “Indeed, my dear little spouse, let’s see. Meditate a lot on what we have done, on what we are doing for you, for your soul, your director and myself.
Look at it with the eyes of faith.
Human love has been replaced by divine love.
Sin has been replaced by purity.
Carnal life has been replaced by spiritual life.
Comfort, few goods have been replaced by begging, abandonment of created things (even permitted things).
An aimless life has been replaced with an ideal, the salvation of souls.
A forsaken and useless life has been replaced by an active life of loving God and neighbor.
A life of sinful pleasure has been replaced by a life of intimate joy in suffering and crosses.
A life of pride, vanity has been replace by a life of self-denial and humiliation.
“Remember your visits to the hospital during a whole year; your temptations, your small moral crises in the presence of your director and of your reparations. Remember your awful gesture of revolt, your blessed ring. Remember my love, my marks of mercy afterwards.
My dear little Beloved spouse, for the last six years I am pleased for your director has done a great job. He has cooperated in the work of my Father, he is worthy of our love and trust, he has given us great consolation. My dear little spouse, I can’t say the same about you. You give me at times great concern but I love you still in spite of your miseries.”
– Mimi: “My God, what more can I do? It seems to me that I have shown good will, that I am doing my best not to displease you.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, did you do your best on Tuesday with your greed? When I was by your side asking you not to take anything? Remember also your awful gesture of revolt, your lack of trust, your disobedience to your director who represents me. What about your hidden pride? And so you think you are doing your best!
Indeed, my dear little spouse, there are days when you do your best to listen to the voice of the devil.”
– Mimi: “My God, how I suffer when I listen to your reproaches. After six years of struggles, of efforts. Yet, I have often done the housework of my little dwelling with my director.”
– Jesus: “Yes, I know that you did the housework but there was the attic where your pride, your lack of trust, your faults were hidden. You haven’t finished, you will discover many things accumulated over the years. It took the Holy Spirit to stir up the dust. There is still some more.”
– Mimi: “Why, my Beloved, didn’t you tell me this six years ago. My director could have helped me more?”
– Jesus: “Do you think that your director could have done more? Did you always allow him to enter your little abode? As for myself, how long did I wait at the door of your soul without receiving an answer. How many times did your director stand before your little dwelling with the door closed? He could not even look through the window. There was too much dirt, too much disorder.
“My dear little spouse, six years ago you were not ready for what I expected from you. Would you ask a newborn baby to do the house cleaning of your little dwelling? After six years, you are only beginning to stand up alone. You are still unable to walk on the road of spiritual life. This is why I have chosen for you a spiritual director, an experienced guide, to lead you where you must go and where I want you. Give him your hand without being afraid, close your eyes and walk with him, He represents me. He cannot err. He knows what I want. You cannot understand, no matter.”
– Mimi: “My God, forgive me. How could I have done this? How can I not remember your goodness, your mercy, your love? My Beloved, in the name of our love, do not consider only my misery, but also my love for you in spite of my weaknesses. I love you, I recognize my sins, my miseries, my weaknesses. I know that I am feeble at times during my struggles. I know that I am far behind in following you on the road of perfection. I know that I am blind and do not always see all that you are doing for me and I am quick to forget what you are doing for my soul and what my director is doing for me and for my soul. I recognize how ungrateful I am after receiving so many signs of your love, that I am selfish after having received from your infinite goodness so much love, so much mercy, special graces, graces of choice. I am aware day after day that I am nothing. My sins, my daily faults remind me constantly that I am not an angel, that my poor nature is not dead and in spite of this, you can see how blind I am. I did not even see the hidden faults in the attic of my dwelling.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, remember when your director suspected these faults. What was your reply? You would simply say in a disinterested manner : “I don’t think so.” Yet, he knew quite well! And he knows many other things. He knows what I want from you and what I expect from you. For the moment, you are still too small to understand.
“It isn’t for nothing that I chose for you a director who knows what I want. He knows well the road you must take in order to come to me. He has already taken the same route. He knows about the obstacles, dangers, the craftiness of the devil, his traps. He has suffered a lot. He is still suffering, he is suffering for you, he very much wants to lead your little soul towards me. Help him, trust in him, obey him blindly. He represents me.
Address to God the Father
– Mimi: “Ô my God, infinitely good, I ask your forgiveness. Let me cry on your shoulder for I am suffering greatly. See in what condition I am, full of misery, and that this saddens you. My God, have mercy on me who am but an atom in your powerful arms. My love is so small, so cold, at times so indifferent. However, my God, I offer you all this nothingness and I offer your more and more my small soul in order to become your little host of love, not simply an ordinary host that one offers! By your grace, I want to be a host consumed by love for you.Yes, my God, in your love, consume me totally, so that nothing of me may remain. I know, my God, that you will perhaps have trouble digesting the small host I am offering you. It is so full of the misery from my sins. However, I am hopeful, for my gentle Mother of heaven, seeing your difficulties, will give you a dose of the precious blood of your Divine Son and all will end well. Forgive me, my God, for speaking to you this way. I am speaking to you like a little girl in the arms of her father.
“My Beloved, I ask your forgiveness, I ask your help in order to overcome my numerous faults.
“Ô Holy Spirit, please enlighten me so that I may see the ugliness of my faults and understand the enormity of my sins, but, that I may understand especially the merciful love of my God, my Creator, My All.”
– Jesus: “At last, at last, this is what I expected from you. That you would understand what my love has accomplished for you, what we are doing for you.
“Child spoiled by love and grace, dear infant of my Father, child privileged by my love, my mercy like Mary Magdalene! Are you beginning to understand a little what your director is doing for you but especially for your soul? You owe him a lot, a lot. Without the help of his prayers and sacrifices, his tireless devotion, his self-denial in the service of God and of souls, your salvation would have been in danger. He has always cooperated with us. He knows what we want from you. Don’t forget that he was chosen by me and not by you. He has complete authority to direct your soul because he replaces me. Let him act freely in you. It is for your own good. Therefore, be very obedient to him and don’t place obstacles with your short sighted will that he must break, by your pride that he must crush. May he use all possible means. You must walk rapidly towards holiness for you have begun the last stage of your life. So, be fully confident. I have entrusted you to him. You are secure provided you remain obedient, humble and simple as a little girl.
“Do not listen to the devil. He is jealous of your director. Listen to me carefully. I will surprise you once more. You know the wrongful discomfort towards your director in speaking to him, in opening the door of your soul to share your consolations and our conversations. Well, my dear little girl, this was basically pride in disguise. You have acted in the same manner with me, your God.
“Yet, it is so simple to talk to a friend, to someone who is attentive, who understands, give advice, console, lead someone to perfection, holiness, who wants your good, who respects you, who loves your soul for love of me. I implore you, tell him all, your salvation depends on your obedience, your trust.
“I have waited a long time for you to recognize what my love has done for you. Finally, you acknowledge your faults, your weaknesses, you admit that without me you can do nothing, that you are nothing. Believe it! You are weakness itself. This is why you must listen, obey your director, even without undersanding why. This is why that in turn I can show you your mistakes, your failures, your faults. I ask you to repair immediately, even in the presence of your director, in order to remain in perfect humility. Do you believe, my dear little Beloved spouse that if I did not love you, I would speak to you in this manner? It is because I love you with an infinite love, it is because I want you totally, I want you to be mine, all mine, your Beloved spouse. I so want to purify you, to render you agreeable to my Father. I implore you, do not place obstacles between us, between our love by your lack of trust, by your pride that wants to remain in you, even without you noticing it.
“Do not let yourself be defeated by your enemy, fight with me and for me. My love is stronger. Be with your director as a child and not as a lady. After all, who are you in my presence? In his presence? He knows you well enough and for a long time. You know in spiritual life, age is nothing. An elderly person can have the soul of a child, a pure soul and a candid heart.
“So, my dear little spouse, meditate on what I have just told you. Inform your director about it. One more remark : do not neglect your handwriting, form your letters well, especially the letter “T”, think of the cross.”
Wednesday 4 January 1956
I was meditating on missionary work.
– Mimi: When I think that with my prayers full of distractions and my sacrifices so small that I don’t even think of them, I can help missionaries in their work for I too want to save souls. I want to do my part.
– Jesus: “Certainly, my dear little girl, everything counts for me, an atom offered out of love to save souls is more agreeable to me than all virtuous acts done out of obligation. What have you done with the communion of saints. This does not exist only in heaven. Let it be known that every soul in the state of grace and, in spite of its daily weaknesses and showing goodwill by accepting everything out of love, by accepting its daily obligations out of love is a soul that is sanctified and has already begun on earth to give glory to God my Father. Think about the little Thérèse of the Child Jesus.”
Thursday 5 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear Beloved little spouse, I would like you to have your spiritual testament blessed and that afterwards you wear it on your little heart. Meditate on it every day. In the darkest moments, during your great temptations when your mind is lost, or when your being seems lifeless, numbed by the devil, place your trembling little hand on your little heart and I will understand all that you wish to tell me and all that you have offered me in your little testament. I forbid you to remove it for any reason. I expect a lot from this little spiritual testament. Wear it preciously on your little heart for, at the moment of your death, it will be your ticket to enter heaven. Do not doubt this.”
Friday 6 January 1956
– Mimi: A memorable day. I had my spiritual testament blessed and have placed it on my little heart full of love for him, my God, my Beloved Spouse.
During my meditation concerning the visit of the three Magis to Jesus :
How long this trip must have been for them! They walked for days in order to adore the Infant Jesus. Perhaps they saw him only for a few hours, and when I think that this same Jesus is present in me. I believe it. He is in my poor little soul and that, in order to adore him, a single act of love is needed, an act of the will and of faith. How happy I am. This is why I do not want to leave him a single moment and when I happen to loose him through my fault each day, through my concerns, my lack of trust in moments of trials, I quickly do my best to find him through acts of love and contrition.
– Jesus: “My dear Beloved little spouse, one day I watched you as you walked like the Magis. You were looking for me in spite of your sins. You were suffering. At times, you had positive desires but your flesh was weak and at the bottom of your little heart there still remained love. One day, my heart could no longer contain the love that I had for you. I wanted you all to myself. I had pity on you. I suffered to see you walk alone on a deserted road without a guide. In spite of your good intentions, your good will, you could not go very far without falling, without getting lost on an unknown road. This is why I chose a director for you. May he be your star, your guide on the road of love and suffering, a direct route of happiness leading to us for eternity.”
– Mimi: I was getting ready for my Holy Hour and I immediately told my Beloved:
– Mimi: “Do you want me to place myself near your Divine Heart? Let me rest my poor head on your shoulder. How good it feels to be near you, ô my Infinite Love, my Beloved.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl. Don’t you find that our roles are inverted? I am the one who wishes to be consoled. – (After a long silence.) – Now do you want me to rest on your little heart, this little heart that I love so much?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, forgive me for having chosen first. How selfish I am. Forgive me, poor Jesus of my heart. Come, I beg you, come rest your head on my little heart.
“You know that it belongs entirely to you and that I am totally yours forever. You do not need permission to come and rest in your dwelling where I am living.”
Monday 9 January 1956
– Mimi: I had distractions and was looking at the donkey in the manger. I wonder who he resembles, his gaze seems like that of a person.
– Jesus: “My poor little one, do not look any further, for, at this moment, you resemble him for you are like a donkey, with your wide eyes, looking everywhere, your ears listening to the least little sound, your mouth that is unable to speak to me, with your heart that is so cold, so indifferent in my presence.
“Can you now recognize the resemblance? Do you see yourself? Weren’t you pleased to have lost this page. So, now, add this page to the others.”
– Mimi: “Do I have to write this, my Beloved?”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little one, it is even important in order to keep you humble and oblige you to make an act of obedience. Do you think I do not know the bottom of your little heart? It repels you to write this...Do it out of love for me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, in writing this, I am not only doing an act of humility. I am also doing one of humidity for I am very hot!”
Tuesday 10 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, for the soul that aspires to a high ideal, and, in order to offer itself as a holocaust, the soul must be purified like incense.
“Incense must be consumed by fire and it is only when it becomes ashes that it spreads such an agreeable odor that reaches heaven.
“It is the same for the soul. It is only when it has been purified by the fire of divine love that it becomes ashes before God, that the soul can offer itself and rise rapidly towards God and be agreeable to Him. Meditate on this.”
Saturday 14 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come and make a Holy Hour at the church.
– Satan: “No, my dear little one, I prefer that you attend Holy Mass and I even allow you to receive communion once more, two communions on the same day isn’t too much for a soul that loves, that loves me so much. Don’t share your doubts with your director, he wouldn’t understand the love I have for you at this moment. Isn’t my love ready to give of itself each moment?”
– Mimi: “My God, please enlighten me, where is the truth?”
I shared with my director my doubts and he enlightened me by explaining where this voice came from. He advised me to make the Holy Hour and not to listen to the other voice that suggested I make another communion.
Wednesday 18 January 1956
– Mimi: My heart is causing me pain. I can hardly breathe without feeling sharp pain.
– Jesus: “Come, my dear little Beloved spouse. Come and tell me that you accept this suffering for it is a precursory sign of our encounter.”
– Mimi: “I ask him : Am I going to die soon?”
Poor human nature! I was trembling when I asked him this.
– Jesus: “No, my dear little one. Do not call it death but rather the beginning of your life with me. For this is when our union will be perfect according to my Father’s wish.
“Make an act of humility. Go towards your director. Share this with him and take advantage of this occasion to put your little soul in order. There is still a lot of dust in the attic. Tell him about your greed yesterday. You must repair.”
Thursday 19 January 1956
– Jesus: “Don’t worry about the pain you experience in your heart. It is simply my love that is beginning to work.
“Do you recall, yesterday, when you were near me, at the moment when you offered me more. Wasn’t my embrace too strong for you? Then, afterwards, your pain became more intense. Remember Good Friday 1953 when I taught you about my sixth wound. Then on Good Friday 1954, the gentle moments you had near my Holy Face that was veiled. Then on Good Friday 1955 when you undrstood the meaning of love through suffering. Finally, there will be Good Friday 1956 when you will understand perfectly the love of the cross, when I will take all.
“My dear little one, I have been telling you for a long time that you must die as a victim of my love. So, I am preparing you each day. The last stage of your life begins in 1956. It wasn’t a passing fancy that made me want your director to prepare you, to compose and write for you a spiritual testament.
“Remember the short prayer of the 13th of November 1955. Meditate on it. And don’t forget to meditate on your spiritual testament. It is very important.”
Saturday 21 January 1956
– Jesus: “Come, let us make a Holy Hour, for a calamity is hovering over your family.”
To my great surprise, the next day, my sister phoned me to tell me that something strange had happened. Her little girl was studying her lessons when suddenly there was a loud noise. The glass of the window was shattered. There was someone who had fired a rifle. The bullet was found in the house. Thanks to God, the little one was not wounded. She was however in a state of shock.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, do you still doubt about my demands? Share this with your director.”
Sunday 22 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, is this what you call making a Holy Hour? For the last 10 minutes, you have been near me, half asleep, your mind almost numb.”
– Mimi: “I know, my God, but it feels so good to be with you, and you once said : Come to me all you who are burdened, you who suffer. Since I am suffering a lot and am tired, it is near you that I am getting back my strength, that I come to find the courage to continue my journey towards heaven, towards you, my Beloved. I am so happy to be with you. I feel safe. I am taking advantage of this gentle peace”.
– Jesus: “Indeed, my dear little Beloved spouse, enjoy the time in which you find yourself. I am leaving you a bit of a break to allow you to get back your strength. The time is at hand where you will begin to take your first steps in the mission that I have chosen for you and destined from all eternity. Don’t forget that you must die as a victim of my love.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, do not listen to this voice. This peace that you feel comes from me and what you are hearing comes from your imagination. See how strong I am. I inspire you to write what I want. I even inspire you with good thoughts, for, in your blindness, your director has let himself be taken. He has doubts, he is prudent, he is fearful at times and asks for help to understand the meaning of our exchanges.”
– Mimi: “Where is the truth?”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, if you believe that everything that happens to you comes from you or if you doubt my voice, it is just another form of pride.
“Why be afraid, why do you ask me where truth lies, why ask for a visible sign? My dear little one, if you want a visible sign, I can very well withdraw from your life and leave you alone and if everything that happens comes from you, you will soon see what you are capable of doing. I implore you, do not listen to the voice of your enemy. Reflect on this. Are you able to give yourself consolations in a time of desolation? Are you able to find peace during violent temptations? Are you able to have a single good thought during a time of spiritual dryness?
“Are you able to pray, meditate, love me and even write when I allow your enemy to remain near you at certain moments to try you, to increase your merit, to save souls. My dear little one, are you able to answer yes to all these questions? Am I really the Almighty God for you? If you believe that I am Almighty, why do you believe in the evil voice of your enemy? Do you consider your director an imbecile? Do you think that after six years of spiritual direction, your director does not know you? Why do you listen to the suggestions of the devil? Do not let yourself be led by your impressions. Scorn your enemy.
“Go your way, set your heart and spirit on me and not on your neighbor by allowing yourself to be distracted and preoccupied for this is an obstacle to what I want and expect from you.”
Monday 23 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come and make a Holy Hour.”
– Mimi: I don’t know what came over me. I was loath to go out. I was cold and very tired. I rather preferred to lie down and take some rest. Then, while on my way to church, suddenly, a mysterious force made me change direction and I was on my way to see my director. I could not explain to him why I was there. He took advantage of this visit to speak to me about my pride. He spoke to me clearly about my lack of confidence especially concerning temptations. To my great surprise, the time for my Holy Hour was over.
– Jesus: “Don’t worry, my dear little one. Don’t trouble yourself. I am still pleased for the visit to your director was necessary. He told you all that I wanted to tell you. Think about it. You were on your way to church. Who directed you to your director? My dear little one, after the remarks from your director concerning your pride, were you still cold?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you know very well that I was warm and even very much so. I can assure you that I didn’t need a heater.”
Tuesday 24 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, be very careful. Act as a night guardian who must look after a building. He mustn’t sleep. He must be attentive to to the least noise and must keep a close watch on safe and precious objects for he is responsible. At each hour, he must mark down his presence. Do the same. Your body represents the building. Watch over it but especially your soul where I am hiding like a precious treasure. Be attentive to the least noise of grace, to the least murmur of the Holy Spirit.
“My dear Beloved little spouse, at each hour, come and mark down your presence in my Divine Heart by acts of love. Your team work will be more complete. Think about your ideal, that is, I and souls. And I am thinking about your ideal : you and your soul. For me alone, I want everything.”
Wednesday 25 January 1956
– Mimi: I was looking at the monstrance. How I would like to be the little consecrated Host to give glory to God.
– Jesus: “My dear Beloved little spouse, you need not go so far. In offering your poor little body, you have become a living tabernacle and in offering your little soul, you have become the little Host consecrated through love and suffering. With the state of grace, you are continually dwelling with me within you. How pleased I am! Adore me, present within you.”
Thursday 26 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, repair the irreverance in my Church. During the holiday season, people arrive with their children and the first thing that they do is to go in haste to the manger. It is not that I blame them but I would prefer that the parents also teach their little ones that I am present on the altar in the tabernacle. May they come first to greet me and then go to the manger and make them understand that it is simply a representation of me. This saddens me for it is a thoughtless gesture. At times, they have more faith in a small wax figure than in myself, present at the altar.
When entering a palace, do people immediately go towards the picture of the king without first greeting him and offering him their homage? Am I not the King of my palace in a church? Repair. Stay near me and do reparation for yourself. Yes, for yourself. The other day, you spent very little time speaking to me. You were distracted, looking at the children in front of the manger. You made me think of the donkey that seemed to look at the coming and going of the children. I would also like to correct the expression of those who simply say : “I am going to see the manger”. I would rather that they say : “I am going to see the Infant Jesus in the manger.” or “I am going to see the Holy Family in the manger.”
“My dear little one, with your little sensitive heart, you will understand. It is not to complain that I tell you this, but to show you that the judgment of men are false at times, and that their minds are narrow. I feel sorry for the little children who have a religious education with a bad start, poorly directed.
“Do you believe that if these people weren’t so preoccupied, so distracted, they would be so irreverent? In spite of this, I pity them, their weaknesses. To console me, tell me that you accept to repair. However, ask your director first.”
Friday 27 January 1956
– Mimi: I am so happy to be working under the gaze of my gentle Mother of heaven. How I love her! Sometimes, when I am writing, I am distracted for I look at her, I find her so beautiful. I pause to embrace her, to tell her that I love her, that I am happy to be her little girl.
– Mary: “My dear little girl, listen to me carefully. If at each hour you pause for a short while and think about the sufferings and death of my Divine Son, imploring mercy for sinners and the dying and ask for the deliverance of souls in purgatory, for peace in the world, for the reign of God on earth, offer up this prayer to God saying : “Eternal Father, my God and my all, through the hands of Mary Mediatrix of all graces, have mercy on these poor children whom she loves so much, these poor souls, and with the precious blood of your Beloved Son, purify them so that one day they may render you glory in heaven. All I ask for myself is to increase my love for you alone, my God and my all. My God, in your infinite love, protect your Church, the Holy Father and all his priests, missionaries. Give us holy priests. Eternal Father, I believe in you, I love you and I give your thanks. With Mary, I am confident and expect all from your love.”
– Eternal Father: “My dear little girl, if you are faithful in doing this, I promise you to save souls and to answer your humble and trusting prayer. Persevere in this for I can never refuse Mary, my Beloved daughter who intercedes for you and her children. Ask your director permission to say this prayer. Do nothing on your own. You owe him obedience.”
Saturday 28 January 1956
– Mimi: I couldn’t make up my mind to go out. I was so cold. My Beloved was asking me to make a Holy Hour at the church.
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, don’t think of yourself at this time. Think of me and my little manger. Think of the souls. Do you think that I was warm in my manger? I endured this out of love for you. Think of the souls, of your little adopted children for, though I consider you as a little girl, as a spoiled child in your role as spouse of Christ, you must have the heart of a mother for everyone. Think of souls as if they were your own children. I have given you an affectionate heart for me and for souls. Think of what I endured out of love for you. Do you think that I was warm while looking at your heart so cold in the presence of my love? I didn’t have a heater like a little girl that I know.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, more remarks again! What am I to do?”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, this last remark was to tease you a little, to make you smile, to teach you to know me better. I am not always a stern God, an annoyed God, a melancolic God, a sad God.
“I am above all a God of love, of mercy, a God of peace. Does the love in me make others sad?”
“I am the Good God, infinitely Good. I am not a God with a stern look at all the ugliness of man. I am not always tight fisted, ready to strike at the least offense. Rather, I am so easy going, gentle with the little ones and the humble. I am always ready to forgive. My arms are always open to receive them into my Divine Heart, to bless them, to sustain them, to love them. Look at me on the cross. My heart is open to all. Look at me on the cross, my arms are open to receive them. Look at me on the cross, my eyes looking towards heaven to implore mercy.
“Do you understand my Love? This is the way I want you to love me; simply. I want our intimacy to grow. There are moments when you become so little, so simple, so humble that I smile when seeing you act this way. You are like a tiny baby, spoiled by grace, that one looks upon with love and tenderness. Everything is so simple, so pure. When this happens, I am so happy, so happy that if it wasn’t to do the will of my Father asking me to wait, I would come and fetch you right away never to be separated from one another.
“I love you. There are days when my heart can no longer contain my love for you, my Beloved little spouse. Do you see how much love I have for you? I beg you, increase your intimacy with me. It’s so simple, so easy for you with your nature withdrawn from the world. To be alone with me. There are days when you sadden me, when you seem to regret being simple, to have had a greater intimacy with me. Why don’t you always remain little, simple and affectionate with me? I have not come to condemn love. On the contrary. Pure love has first place. Am I not a God of love? I have given everything out of love.
“Why be shy to speak about love with me, your Beloved Spouse, your God, your Father, your Friend? This little heart, so tender, so affectionate, do you think that I don’t understand it? I am the one who gave it to you. I know you so well and love you so much, my dear little one, my little Beloved spouse. Yes, I know this heart very well. I know that it is very large. Though it is large at certain moments, there is almost no room for me. It is full of affection for sinners, the dying, the whole Church, missionaries, the sick, without mentioning the concerns and all the rest !”
– Mimi: “You know very well, my Beloved, that this little heart is yours for ever and if I give hospitality to all these souls, it is you that I have in mind for I love my neighbor for your sake. I am loving them with you. Fear not, my Beloved, I will always love you. Always. You have first place!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, don’t speak too soon. Don’t be so sure of yourself, even in loving me for you could perhaps one day be called the female Peter of the Gospel. Remember Peter, his words, his promises?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t know how to talk to you. I want to be open with you but you are still scolding me.” (I was crying)
– Jesus: “Come, my dear little Beloved spouse, come closer, don’t cry. Let me kiss your eyes and dry your tears for you won’t be able to see. Now, lets look at your sentence: “Fear not! I will love you always, always”, as if you were capable of loving me alone. See what I mean? You should have said: “With your grace or with your help, I will do my best to love you always.” See the difference?
“Without me you can do nothing, you are nothing, you cannot have a single good thought without the help of my grace. You cannot pray to me, think of me without the help of the Holy Spirit. Don’t forget this. You can do nothing like a little child.
“Throw yourself into my arms with confidence like a small baby. I love you dearly, you know. Now, look into my eyes and give me a beautiful smile. It is because I love you that I speak to you this way. I want you to be so beautiful, to have a pure soul to offer my Father. I don’t want to be ashamed of having chosen you as a spouse. This is why I want to educate you spiritually. You know where you come from and where you must go. However, you still don’t know the road you must take. Fear not. Your director knows what I mean. He knows this road that leads to me. Before leaving you, I must tell you once more how much I love you, my dear Beloved little one. You are mine, all mine.”
– Mimi: “Thank you, my God, my Beloved. Why, my Beloved do you call me by my name instead of my pet name. Wouldn’t it help us have greater intimacy?”
– Jesus: “I know very well my dear little one that your pet name suits you well for you are so little, but I prefer the name that you received at your baptism. When I call someone to serve, I call him by his name. On the day of Last Judgment, I will do the same. Each one will be called by the name he received at baptism, as a child of God and of the Church. What would Peter have said if I had given him a pet name like Scaredy-cat?”
Sunday 29 January 1956
– Mimi: I was wondering how many souls were saved today.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I did my best not to refuse you anything.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, think about all the souls that perhaps you lost. Therefore, stop asking why. I know everything. Don’t be curious. If you were as anxious, as curious to discover your faults, your sins, I wouldn’t reprimand you.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you seem to have something against me. Why do you speak to me this way?”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl. Indeed, I am not pleased with you and my Father as well because you don’t stop asking me why : why temptations? Why consolations? Why am I hiding? Why am I near you? Why am I treating you this way? Why does your director act this way? You are always asking questions. Correct this fault of yours. In asking why, you are lacking confidence, conformity to the Divine Will of my Father. In asking why, you lack humility. In asking why, you lack love. Remember that my Father is the Creator of heaven and earth and the Sovereign Master. To him alone belongs the reason why of everything. You didn’t realize my dear Beloved little spouse, that this is what saddens us most, the lack of confidence. You must never, never try to probe the designs and the Heart of God. Humbly ask your director to help you correct yourself. Did you not see that there are many hidden things in your little attic?”
Monday 30 January 19560
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you often remind me of persons in the Gospel :
- The prodigal son, when you return to me.
- Mary Magdalene, by her sinful life but especially by her love, her repentance.
- Peter, by his temerity.
- Thomas, by his disbelief.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I recognize that I am all this and that at times I am in your eyes very sick, lame in spiritual life. My Beloved, don’t only look at my miseries. Look at my love for you. Like the persons in the Gospel, I approach you in order to know you better, to love you more.
- Like the prodigal son, I run towards you, ô my God. I throw myself with confidence into your fatherly arms, into your powerful arms ready to receive me in spite of my shameful conduct.
- Like Mary Magdalene, I approach you with love, confident in spite of my numerous sins, in spite of my life filled with misery; consider my love, my repentance.
- Like Peter, I have been very imprudent in my life. I thought only of myself. I did not think of the nothingness that I am in your hands.
- Like Thomas, I was weak. How many times I refused to believe even when you were near me.
“I ask your forgiveness, my Beloved. It is not I who touched your Divine Heart in order to believe. It is you, my Beloved, with your love, your mercy, by your grace that touched my poor little heart. It is you, ô my Love, who bandaged this wound that I carried for a long time. Yes, this wound caused by sin. My Beloved, like the blind man in the Gospel, I want to see you in all your splendor. I want to see you only through the eyes of pure Faith, simple Faith. I want to see you in all things as my God, my All, my Unique Love. Grant me to see my sins, my miseries as you see them. Grant me also the grace to remain blind to all created things and to the world.
“Allow me to walk like a blind person in spiritual life. May I walk lovingly, confident, leaning only on you and letting myself be led by the hand of my director.
“My Beloved, I hope that at the hour of my death, you will remember me like the good thief. I will be certain to be near you on the cross and some day hear you in heaven forever.”
Tuesday 31 January 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, remain little. Do not oppose your affectionate and simple little nature. Let your soul open up to me, let your heart dilate within me. If you knew how much I love you, my little one, when you act simple, like a little baby. What I want from you is your whole heart and love.”
Wednesday 1st February 1956
– Mimi: I was coming back from communion. I was walking back to the house very quickly.
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, why are you walking so fast? You are not thinking of me present in you. Repair this rudeness, this lack of respect. Walk more slowly. Attach your heart and mind unto me. Adore me in you, speak to me. Tell me especially that you love me. What would you say if you saw a procession go by and that the priest holding the monstrance in his hands walked rapidly by in a distracted manner? You would immediately say that he was not respectful. You would feel sad to see me treated in such a manner by one of my servants. I can hear you say : “Poor Jesus! I want to repair this offence. I want to love you with respect as you deserve.” And what are you doing at this moment?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved. Forgive me for this lack of respect, but you can understand that it isn’t that I want to offend you that I am walking quickly. It is because I was nervous.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I know that it was because you were nervous. This is not the reason why I reproach you. It is the state of your mind, of your heart, for, you were so preoccupied that your thoughts were going as fast as your steps. If you had taken the time to reflect, your mind would have been calm as well as your steps. So, think about this more often: that you are my Beloved spouse, that you are all mine, that your soul has become a small consecrated host and that your body has become a monstrance in which you dwell with me.”
Thursday 2 February 1956
In church.
– Mimi: “My God, I believe, I adore you and I love you.
“Come, my Beloved, come and warm my poor little heart that is so cold, as cold as my body. How I would like to console you but I am capable of nothing (a great temptation against faith). I offer you my little heart that loves you and who wishes to love you more. I suffer at this moment not to be able to love you as you deserve.
“Ô my gentle Mother of heaven, please lend me your heart to adore, to love my God, my Creator, my All.
“My Beloved, give me refuge in your Divine Heart in order to speak to you heart to heart. Look at me as you did for Mary Magdalene, eye to eye. How I regret my sins that have offended you so. Ô my God! I humbly ask forgiveness for my selfishness, especially for my lack of confidence after receiving such proof of your love. How unjust I have been towards you, my God, ô Infinite Goodness. How can one not believe in your love? I merited hell and you give me heaven. I merited chastisement and you come and save me. I merited being rejected and you come and pick me up. I merited to be scorned and you come and love me. I merited to be alone and abandoned and you give me your Son as a living companion, as a spouse. I merited nothing and you give me all.
“Thank you, my God, for all your goodness. My God, I implore you sincerely, do not only look at my needs but also at the bottom of my little heart that loves you and begs you to increase in it your love. Nothing is impossible to you, my God. Do not reject my humble and confident prayer. My God, I am your child who is suffering, weeping, who asks your forgiveness. Forgive my despicable behavior. With your grace and depending on the merits of your Divine Son, I no longer want to offend you. Thank you, ô my God, for your merciful love.
“My Gentle Mother of heaven, let we weep on your motherly heart. You know the reason why I am weeping. Please help me pick myself up and continue my journey towards God, towards my ideal. Keep me in your arms like a child, protect me from my enemies, hide me in your queenly mantle. Protect me as you protected your Gentle Jesus when you fled to Egypt. Protect me from my enemies, from dangers, especially from discouragement. I am weak and I place my trust in you. Ô Virgin most pure, most humble, ô my Mother. At your example, I want ot love and please God. Teach me, please, to love and practice humility in all things. Like you, I want to be the little servant of God. I want to serve him with loyalty and tell him each day my fiat.
“How time flies! I am sad because I have to leave you. However, my Beloved, I had so many things to tell you. I am so comfortable in tranquility near you. I ask the sanctuary lamp to replace me and keep you company. May the wick that burns be the burning flame of my little heart filled with love for you and may our love be consumed in one another, ô my God, my all.”
– Jesus: “Thank you, thank you, my dear little Beloved spouse. You chose the best place to speak to me. Isn’t this so in being close to my Divine Heart? Isn’t it so that your little heart so cold at the outset of your Holy Hour warmed up quickly near my Adorable Heart, my Heart burning with love for you? My dear little one... you are mine, only mine forever. I count the days when our union will be perfect.”
Friday 3 February 1956
– Mimi: During my Holy Hour, I was looking at my Beloved on the cross.
– Mimi: “Poor Jesus of my heart, I beg you, in the name of our love, come and rest near my poor little heart. You know a day ago you told me that with my role as a spouse of Christ, I had to have the heart of a mother. At this moment, my little heart needs to give of itself even more. You are the one I want to console. My Beloved, I beg you, make me as little as a child so that I may cradle you and show you my love. With my gentle Mother of heaven, I want to love you more. How I love you tenderly! I am looking at you with the eyes of faith, with the eyes of a little mother.”
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, now that your role as a mother near me is over, you want me to speak to you about important things. Do you see the extent of my love for you? I take pleasure in granting you your least wishes, your least whims as if I were obliged. And you, what do you do when I ask for more? Are you always anxious to give me what I wish? When are you going to attach your whole heart and mind on me alone? I manifest myself in you with special graces, warnings, tangible signs, graces of choice.
“You believe, but when I come with the cross, with trials, you begin to doubt and when I come with great temptations of all sorts, that I reserve for my friends, then, you lose your head which isn’t very solid and forget everything. You allow your enemy to distract you. This is what saddens me most. You do not undestand yet the importance of great temptations.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, more scolding!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, would you prefer to be scolded by my Father? You had better receive the scolding while you are living than after dying.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I wonder when we are going to be getting along. I do my best to please you, to serve God with what I have, with all the love that I have. I was so happy to come and console you, to hold you in my arms like a child, like a treasure, to press you against my poor little heart filled with love for you and you take advantage of the occasion to scold me. What more do you want me to do? You tell me that I do not understand the importance of great temptations and when I try to understand and ask why, like a child, you tell me that I am curious, that I must walk with my eyes closed without understanding. I don’t know what to do, what to think... and I was crying.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, come, do not weep like that. Now, are you close to my Divine Heart? We are going to have a heart to heart talk. Do you see how much I love you in spite of everything, spoiled child of my love, privileged child of my Father. Do you think I act the same way with everyone? It is the same thing with great temptations. There is only a small number of those who receive them. This is what you don’t understand.
“My dear little one, aren’t you the one who manifested the desire to see me as a little child. Well, this is what I am doing. I speak to you with simplicity, like a child. We will get along the day when you give up everything, the day when you will understand perfectly my love for you.
“The day when you accept the great temptations like the consolations, out of love, all that I ask of you my Beloved little one, that is called love. All that I desire to receive from you is more love. All that I expect from you is a proof of your love. Let there be no other question between us than one of love. Think a little about this : I, God of love, united by such a pure link to his poor little creature. On certain days, you ask yourself why I love you so much and I in certain moments ask myself the same question. The answer is always love.
“This little heart so affectionate, I want it to be all mine, only mine. During your little retreat, look especially during your life at your sins, but above all at what I did out of love for you. At each moment of your life I show you a proof of my love. Your poor little heart that I constantly hold in my hands, that I place at certain moments near mine and together we give glory to my Father. Do you understand the importance of my love? Do you understand the meaning of being loved by me, your God, your Spouse? Yes, my dear little Beloved spouse, my little one that I so love to the point of making the angels jealous. They have the advantage of seeing me, of adoring me, and you, through the state of grace, through the Holy Eucharist, you possess me entirely, you make room for me in your little dwelling where I am so happy to be at home within you. My love never leaves you for a second, even when I hide in order to try your faith, your confidence, your love, your loyalty. If you took the time to look carefully without being preoccupied by your enemy, you would find me perhaps hidden behind the door of your little dwelling. The other day, you were looking for me outside. You gave a quick look inside your little dwelling. You were so upset that you didn’t think of looking everywhere. I was hiding behind this cross, this temptation. It took your director to show you were I was. I wasn’t so far away.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, do you talk this way to my director?”
– Jesus: “Of course not, my little curious one!. I don’t have to always talk to him like I do with you for I prefer to listen to him speak to me. At certain moments, he is so simple, so affectionate with me that I ask myself if I was mistaken in giving him a heart. He has a sensitive heart like that of a mother. He has an affectionate heart like that of a young girl that I know well. You know that he has suffered a lot and is still suffering. He is one who went immediately to the right school. He learned to know me, to love me, to serve me constantly with joy as in moments of sorrow, when consoled as in moments of sadness. For a long time he has been doing everything out of love for me and for souls. He understands the intimacy between God and the soul. He knows me well and I know him. I know his ideal, that of saving your soul, to lead it where I want. He knows what I expect from you. I placed him for this reason, to help you.
Saturday 4 February 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you still do not understand what temptation is about. You believe that temptation is an affliction. On the contrary. It is for the soul a blessing. See me in all things. I am closer to you in temptation than in consolation. When this happens, you feel nothing. Yet, believe that I am there within you. If you could only understand my love for you even in temptations! The day you will understand this perfectly, you will then walk at a rapid pace towards me without noticing it. Make a novena to the Holy Spirit before beginning your little retreat. I expect a lot from this retreat. Leave everything behind. No preoccupations, no useless outings. Stay alone with yourself. Live in silence. Close your eyes to creation, to the world.
“My dear little girl, how do you expect a victory without a struggle? During great temptations you allow your enemy to overcome you too much. Why don’t you do what I ask? You forget everything. Why don’t you place your little trembling hand on your little heart where I am, near your spiritual testament? You are there, weeping, waiting for your director to ask for help on your behalf from heaven. Make a act of humility from the outset. Then, ask me to help you. Ask your director to pray with you. What would you think of a soldier who, in danger, before his enemy, would remain weeping and wait for his commander to give him a shove to go forward? In temptations, you must learn to fight. In spiritual life it is like being at war. If you do not advance towards your enemy with confidence in God, with a solid weapon like the cross, it is your enemy who will advance towards you in order to destroy you, to claim victory.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t understand. You know in what state I am during great temptations. I am unable to do anything. You allow these temptations. Why are you always saying that I don’t understand and when I want to do my best to understand, you scold me? My Beloved, you never reprimanded Mary Magdalene as much after her conversion.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, it is true. I never had to scold Mary Magdalene because from the start, she loved me, she was humble, she was repentant, she was faithful, she gave her all out of love. She was trusting.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if you knew how heavy is my heart, how sorrowful I am. Why are you like this. Always scolding, especially since 1956. (I was crying). You know that I love you, that I trust in you.”
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, your heart is heavy, you are sorrowful. I am also suffering for you don’t seem to understand my love for you. It is out of love that I act this way. It is with a special privilege that I speak to you. The time is near when you must begin your mission, when you must execute the orders of my Father, when you must accomplish what my Father expects from you from all eternity. Don’t forget, you are my spouse. You must follow me, take the same road to go to my Father.
“My Beloved, I must help you, I must purify you, I must prepare you, I must strengthen you before the great day for you must die a victim of my love. Fear not. Don’t cry.
“I understand your little human nature, your hesitation before a fact that hasn’t happened. I myself had a moment of weakness during my agony.
“My Beloved, in the name of our love, I promise you to always be present in you, in our little dwelling. Believe this no matter what. I will always be with you! By a special privilege, I will grant your wish and allow your director to be near you during your agony and with the sign of the cross, he will place in my arms your little soul that my Father had given him and that I had lent him. He has done a lot for your little soul. It has cost him dearly but he will receive his reward at the moment of his death.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am afraid. I shiver as I write this.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you have only that. As for myself, I sweated blood before my death. My dear little one, I know that you don’t understand. Don’t try to understand for the time being. Trust me. Believe what I have just told you, that’s all. In reading these lines, your director will understand everything. After your little retreat, you won’t ask me why or the meaning of this sentence.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you surround me with mystery. I who am easily fearful, weak, I am afraid and at times, I tremble.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, my dear little Peter, for at this moment you remind me of Peter. You are right in being fearful of yourself. So, with confidence, with love, jump into my arms, into the arms of your Beloved.”
Sunday 5 February 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how somber is the picture.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, you are only looking at the shadows. Be patient. Wait for the Holy Spirit to enlighten your little picture. Let my Father choose to place in it the subjects, the personages. I will place the color. I will do the modifications. I will add what is missing to make it a masterpiece. For the moment, your director is doing the first coat. Fear not. When it comes time for the delicate work, I will do it in order to finish this little picture as soon as possible. After your death, this little picture that you see today in black will be painted white, a symbol of purity and in red, a symbol of martyrdom. I will highlight the love. Heaven will be blue. You will see it with your own eyes.”
Monday 6 February 1956
– Mimi: I was ironing a dress in a hurry. I was anxious to finish.
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, take care in doing your work as if you were receiving a salary. Bear in mind that you are working for me. My dear little Beloved spouse, if you were ironing my tunic, would you iron it as fast? Without worrying about the creases? Do your work with love and for souls. Strive for perfection in the least little things, since everything belongs to me and that you are offering me everything.”
Tuesday 7 February 1956
In church.
– Jesus: “You know my dear little Beloved spouse that a soul that wants to undertake a journey in spiritual life isn’t free from temptations. On the contrary, the more the soul journeys in spiritual life, the more it must be aware of its enemy, the more it must be aware of its smallness, of its weakness, of its ignorance, of its infirmities in spiritual life. Faults always exist. They must be dreaded and feared for the soul at times believes it is safe and this feeling it has of being safe allows it to fall in the enemy’s traps.
“My dear little girl, spiritual life does not mean having a life on earth full of delights, a peaceful existence, a life without worries, without thorns, without crosses, a life free from trials, a life that would be almost like heaven on earth. No, my dear little girl, my beloved. You know that spiritual life is above all a life filled with love, confidence, self-denial, conformity to the Holy Will of my Father. It is a life of struggles but also a life of victory and peace. You must not be surprised, you know, that in spiritual life, faults remain the same even though the soul does its best to dislike them and resist them.
“It must rely only on God, his Grâce, on the inspirations of the Holy Spirit, on the sacraments, on obedience to its superiors. It must be convinced and recognize that it can do nothing without the help of God’s grace.
“At times, the temptation is greater, stronger for this soul than for others, because in spiritual life, the soul must be completely purified and the basis is humility.
“At times, in this soul, there are many faults, imperfections. This is why the devil is always there, more attentive to the least failure, the least sign of weakness of this soul. To try these souls, I remain hidden for a while to make sure of their fidelity, of their love, of their trust in me, only in me.
“My dear little Beloved spouse, do you understand now why I ask more from you? This is why I want to help you understand spiritual life. This is why I have given you an enlightened director, a guide who is certain and does not tremble at efforts, at struggles with the enemy. He knows the road well. The road that leads to me. There is still a lot of dust in your little dwelling.
“I am anxious for you to make your little retreat, your little house cleaning with your director. Be confident and walk without fear even though you don’t understand everything. Don’t ask me why anymore. Don’t ask useless questions to your director. This could become spiritual curiosity, a lack of trust. Also, in moments of spiritual dryness, do not neglect your prayers, your meditations for this could become spiritual laziness.
“Ask me continually to be free from spiritual pride. It is the fault that I hate most, that I hate because it is the most dangerous one, the most dreaded one for the soul that wants an elevated ideal.
“It is also to be feared by my consecrated souls. May your director take every precaution to keep you humble. Allow him to do so. Remain very little in my arms for you know what you are in my presence and where you come from. Your director also knows you well. Besides myself, there will be no one but your director who will know the depth of your little soul.”
Sunday 19 February 1956
– Mimi: I visit my sister. I can’t explain what I was feeling. I couldn’t decide myself to go out.
– Mimi: “I did what you asked me, my Beloved, and what my director asked me to do.”
For a long time, the voice was asking me to visit my sister and this is what it was asking me to do :'' My dear little girl, I want you to visit J... take the medal of the Blessed Virgin that you are wearing, and place it on the sick leg. First, recite an act of humility. Pray with confidence to your gentle heavenly Mother.”
I didn’t know where this demand came from. Finally, I decided to speak about it to my director who asked me to do what the voice asked. Then, before placing the medal of Mary, Queen of Hearts, on her sick leg, I recollected myself briefly and without anyone noticing it, I recited the act of humility with confidence.
Later at the church, near the statue of the Blessed Virgin.
– Mimi: “My gentle Mother of heaven, Queen of Hearts, I entrust to you this soul, this sick body. I am confident that you can do something for her, to relieve her if it is the Holy Will of God. With God’s help, I offer myself to suffer in her place.
“You know what it’s like for a family where the mother has been sick for at least 20 years. Listen to the confident prayer of your poor little daughter. It is to your motherly heart that I pray. I trust in you. I know that you are all powerful on the heart of God and I know that a mother cannot refuse to answer the prayer of her little child who asks her with confidence, with love and who allows her affectionate heart to speak. We are beginning a novena to Mary, Queen of Hearts.
“My gentle Mother of heaven, there is nothing I can do besides pray, wait with confidence the hour of God and I count on you to intercede, to touch the heart of God. Mediatrix of all graces, I trust in you, in your love. Have mercy on us, your poor children.”
Sunday 26 February 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I have been here for half an hour and you still haven’t told me that you love me. Instead, I am scolded.”
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, this is how I show you my love by indicating your mistakes, your negligence, your faults, your weaknesses. You have a high ideal, that of saving souls. Because I love you, I want to help you understand what spiritual life is about. To understand and love it, it has to be based on humility, trust, obedience. All these acts must be done out of love and in perfect harmony with the Holy Will of my Father. Could you build a solid building on mud? It wouldn’t take long for the building to collapse. This is what happens to souls that want to journey in spiritual life by doing it their way. They surely want to practice humility but never want to take orders, or be criticized, or contradicted. Have all their needs met and do their own will. They want to trust but are always worried, always preoccupied by all kinds of things that are only of my concern. They constantly live in a state of fear. They want to practice obedience but never take orders especially from their superiors.
“How do you expect to build a solid building on such a foundation? Look at yourself closely. You are among these souls with such great desires and such weak strength. You can see, my little daughter, that my reproaches are more gentle. Graciously, I spoke in the plural not to embarrass you but you know, between us, it was of you that I was thinking above all in saying this.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I thank you for your graciousness in showing me my faults. Between us, I rather prefer receiving them directly. It is easier to recognize them and our intimacy is greater. My Beloved, I no longer dare raise my head and I don’t know how to talk to you. I am always walking with my head down. I always think that you are going to strike me and when you remain silent, it is my director who, at times, replaces you. After this, my Beloved, you ask me to walk with my eyes closed, without fear. I no longer know how to please you. Since I feel little, since I am weak, I cannot even walk. My Beloved, look at your little girl who is dragging her feet like a little baby.”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little girl, my Beloved. This is why I must have you under close surveillance. I am keeping watch over you like a mother who has greater attention for her smallest one who is weak and is beginning to drag itself around. She does not keep as close a watch on her elder one because the dangers are greater for the little one. You do well to lower your head in my presence but I would prefer that you lower it at times before people. After all, my dear little one, who are you to walk with your head held high?
“My dear little girl, I am pleased to learn that you recognize that your director replaces me to keep you humble. This I knew. I am the one who asked him to help me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you are mocking me again...(And I was crying).”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little proud one, so sensitive. I am mocking you. It is so funny to see you act this way. You are really like a spoiled child. I am not the only one laughing. Are you going to be uncomfortabl if I tell you that your director will be laughing when he reads this? My dear little girl, don’t reproach me for laughing at you. How many times you made me cry in the past!”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I’m sorry, help me please to correct my faults that cause you sorrow. With your grace, from now on, I want to console you.You know that I love you. Let us make peace. Give me your hand and let me kiss your forehead.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, was there a war going on between us? I accept your little hand, but I would prefer your little heart. You are asking me to make peace. This is what your director and myself want. We want to give you peace of soul, a solid and long lasting peace. One full of love and trust. What are you going to do now? Accept or refuse.”
Monday 27 February 1956
In the doctor’s office.
– Mimi: I was waiting my turn to see the doctor. I could no longer wait. I couldn’t understand what was wrong with me. I was afraid. I was feeling an aversion, disgust.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, why are you disgusted, feeling an aversion for these poor people? If you knew how much I love all of them without exception. It is for them that I came, that I died for sinners, the needy, the sick, for those who are suffering. Do not only look at their body, look also at their faces marked by moral and physical suffering and especially at their soul. Pray for each one of them. Look upon them as your children, suffer for them! See me in each one of them. I have pity on the crowd. Meditate on these words : “You who suffer, come to me!”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how can you ask me to remain calm, insensitive in the face of so much suffering, in the presence of my neighbor, to love him as you do? My Beloved, look at the one in front of me. He doesn’t stop looking at me. He scares me. He has a furious look on his face. I am nauseated. To think that I must love him as if it were you! My Beloved, I am doing my best to try seeing you in him. I am unable to find a shadow of resemblance. Your gaze is so good, so gentle, so affectionate. No! It isn’t possible. My Beloved, did you look at him closely?”
– Jesus: “And you, my dear little one, did you look closely at his soul? My dear little spouse, it to your little motherly heart that I am speaking. You must love him even more than others. You must pray more fervently for him. He is so unhappy. Do you know why he is looking at you. First of all because you are opposite him and because you appear calm. Your smile reassures him. Look at him closely. There is so little in a smile. One day, you will meet him and you will understand why I wanted you to love him more.
“My dear little one, you were nauseated from looking at these poor people and I, my dear little girl, how long did I remain nauseated in seeing your soul infected by sin and your body waisting away. When I picked you up out of the mire of sin, you were already smelling like a corpse. I didn’t think of myself but of you, of your soul.
“I loved you. I placed you on my heart and entrusted you to your director to take care of your little soul for him to give it back to me purified. Out of pure goodness, by a special grace, I gave you a director. I placed him in order to help you, to replace me. By a privilege, it is he who will assist you during your agony and who will give me your soul. You think that the poor unhappy man is looking at you with fury. Poor little one! If you only knew how much he suffers. He also has no one to help him. This is why I want you to love him and pray for him, for his soul. Give him a smile. My dear little girl, do you think that your expression is gentle and lucid when you are going through a moral crisis? If people saw you with this furious look, this hatred in your eyes, they are the ones who would be afraid of you. Make an act of humility, ask your director what he thinks about this.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how evil my soul must be at that moment to have a horrible expression on my face! It seems that the eyes are the mirror of the soul. How can my soul be so ugly, so evil?”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you mustn’t mix things up. Saint Thomas of Aquinas says that the eyes are the mirror of the soul. This is only in a figurative sense. It is not the words of the Gospel. I declare that your look changes, becomes furious from temptation. I didn’t speak about your soul even though it is troubled by temptation, by the presence of your enemy. I allow this. I am always present within you. I am sleeping like in Peter’s boat. Think about this, my little Peter. I love you in spite of everything.”
Thursday 1 March 1956
– Jesus: “You didn’t do much praying for your children today. You were too busy. What would you say of a mother who has many children. Some are sick, handicapped, unhappy, hungry and who would spend her whole day without caring for them, leaving them by themselves? This is what you did today. How do you understand your role as a spouse of Christ?
“A good thing I am there, at each moment, thinking about all my children. If I had to wait after you in order to save souls, today, I would have had a long wait. What would you say if I acted the same way with you? Once and for all, put your pride aside. You would no longer have any preoccupations. You know what I mean. Be humble, simple with your director. I chose him in order to help you.”
Thursday 8 March 1956
– Mimi: I was watching the snow coming down. How beautiful!
– Mimi: “How great and powerful you are! My God, I love you and I adore you. With each snowflake, I offer you acts of love, of thanksgiving, of perfect contrition for me and for souls.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you believe in my presence because you see. Think about each moment since your birth when love descended upon you like these snowflakes but you did not always see.”
Friday 9 March 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I allow you to have these temptations in order to keep you humble , to atone for your sins and also to allow you to merit, to save souls. Do you believe, my dear little girl, that if it were you who caused these temptations that put you in such a state, like the devil would want you to believe, do you believe that your director would experience the same results? He is aware enough. He would tell you right away, for you know my dear little Beloved spouse, by a special privilege, I allow your director to experience the same feelings as you. Don’t doubt it. He suffers as much as you during these moments because he is aware of many things that he cannot explain to you because you are too little and do not know the importance of all this. This enlightens him more about what I expect from you. I know that you don’t understand the meaning of these words. No matter. He understands. At times we have a secret code concerning you, curious one.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t know anymore how to talk to you. You tell me over and over again that I do not understand and when I try to understand you tell me that I am curious. Put yourself in my place.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I don’t want to put myself in your place at any time because I would lack confidence in my Father. I don’t ask you to understand everything. You wouldn’t be able to without a special grace from the Holy Spirit. For the time being, all I ask is that you understand my love for you. That’s all. You don’t understand the value of temptations, ask your director for explanations.”
Saturday 10 March 1956
– Mimi: I was getting ready to write.
– Jesus: “No, my dear little one, go and make a Holy Hour at the church. Come and build up your strength in my presence.”
– Mimi: I didn’t know what to do, to write or make a Holy Hour.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, is it you or the other one who is asking me to make a Holy Hour? What must I do to please you?
No answer. So, I go to the church to make a Holy Hour. I have been here a half hour and the devil doesn’t stop pestering me. I can’t pray. I suffer a lot from all sorts of temptations against faith, against the infinite mercy of God. My mind is tormented by blasphemous and impure thoughts, by acts of revolt against the Will of God. I tremble at the simple thought of making my little retreat tomorrow. A voice tells me: “Go see your director. Go for a blessing for you are going to undergo a great trial.”
– Satan: “No, my dear little girl. Don’t listen to the voice of your enemy. He wants you to disturb your director for nothing. You should have gone to confession.”
– Mimi: “My God, what must I do?”
– Satan: “Don’t tell your director about your doubts. He is tired of you. He doesn’t understand the state of your soul. He can’t do anything for you, for your salvation.”
– Mimi: I couldn’t go on. I tell my director all that is going on within me. He examines the situation well and reassures me saying:
– My director: “Offer everything in order to save souls.”
Then, he asks me to kneel and receive his blessing. My enemy was near me. I don’t know thy I did what I did but I refused to kneel saying that it wasn’t necessary. My director, with all the authority he has over me as a priest said:
– My director: “I do not speak in my name. I speak in the name of God. I ask you to kneel.”
– Mimi: Upon hearing the name of God, my enemy left. I knelt but I still felt fearful. I was afraid to confess for I knew that my enemy would return. I hesitated. My director said:
– My director: “You give in too easily.You allow the devil to bother you too much. You listen to him rather than to me who speaks to you in the name of God.”
– Mimi: And he adds:
– My director: “I pity the devil to prevent me from kneeling for a blessing. Go and meditate on what I have just told you but not for long. You will return. God has a long arm.”
– Mimi: I was suffering a lot. I couldn’t listen to him any longer. I was anxious to leave. I was hot. I couldn’t even look at him without feeling angry, scornful. (How I suffer to have to write all this).
So, after a long silence, my director, guessing what was going on within me, said:
– My director: “You want the devil to win and you listen to him.”
– Mimi: “No, I don’t want him to win.”
– My director: “Well then, what are you going to do for God?”
– Mimi: I understood and I asked him to hear my confession. At the moment of absolution, my enemy returned. Immediately, I ask my director to help me, to bless me.
He also prayed for a certain length of time by invoking Jesus, Mary and Joseph.
After my confession, I could breathe freely and find peace of soul.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, let me rest on your heart. You know how I detest these temptations. Keep me near you.”
However, my enemy returned. I began to cry.
– Mimi: “My God, please help me. Jesus, Mary, Joseph, come to my aid.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, offer everything up. You aren’t the only one suffering for at this moment your director is suffering and is offering it for your little soul. Offer with me this temptation, this trial in union with my passion to expiate, to save souls for the greater glory of my Father.”
Sunday 11 March 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, did you notice that my director was weeping when I spoke to him about our conversation concerning the great temptation I had of buying a straw hat for Easter and where you told me that I would have another adornment on my head at Easter.”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little girl. It is true that he was weeping. He understands the importance of my words. He knows what it means.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, what kind of adornment are you speaking of? A crown of thorns or a crown of the elect?”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you make me laugh with all your questions. You are acting like a little child. I like you anyway because you are simple and at times simple minded. This is for your pride. To satisfy your curiosity, I will tell you that first I will place the crown of thorns and as for the crown of the elect, I will see what My Father has in mind for you. I must submit to my Father’s wish.
“First of all, cure yourself of your curiosity. What kind of crown would you want me to place on a little stubborn head like yours?”
– Mimi: “My God, help me please. I have never undergone such a difficult moral crisis as of today.”
My enemy is near me and doesn’t leave me for a second, saying:
– Satan: “Take advantage of the situation, take a chance, it is the intention that counts. You can do certain things and even enjoy them while thinking of God. Fear not. If your mind is on God, you will lack full consent of the will. Don’t tell this to your director. Wait a few days.”
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, help me please. My Beloved, give me the strength to go and see my director.”
I went to the church in order to weep near my Beloved. However, the attacks got worse and this voice kept telling me:
– Satan: “You see what it’s like to be the spouse of Christ. You aren’t worthy of carrying this name for you broke our silence. So now you are free. Free to enjoy, free to love, free to do anything, free to be mine. You are now my spouse. Take your life in order to show him that you are free with your life, that you want to be mine. Now that your God has rejected you, take your life. Fear not. There is no danger. If you fail, it will be considered an accident and if you die, I will come and get you for I will be the only one near you. You will be free.”
– Mimi: I was looking at my Beloved nailed to the cross. Thoughts of blasphemy filled my mind. My poor little heart suffers greatly. I weep and cannot hold back my tears of repentance.
– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me, on your little daughter who is at your feet asking your forgiveness. Forgive me, my Beloved. Look upon me. I am dragging at your feet like a miserable worm. I deserve to be trampled on. My Beloved, I cannot go on. If I must die trampled on, may it be by you and not by my enemy.”
– Mimi: A voice said to me:
– Satan: “Depart, Satan, leave this place. It is no longer your place to be near the tabernacle, child damned, spoiled by sin. I reject you. Depart from me, your God that you have offended and whose graces and sacraments you have taken advantage of for the last six years.
“Monster of pride, do not raise any longer your eyes towards me. You would deserve to perish on the spot but the prayers of your director have prevented my arm from taking revenge. But at the hour of your death, it will be unable to put an end to my condemnation. I am a God of justice.”
– Mimi: How I was suffering. I cannot describe all the suffering I was experiencing.
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me. I can’t believe that it is you who is saying this. You, infinite goodness, God of mercy. You who are all love for the repentant soul, for the sincere soul, for the soul that wants to love you. My Beloved, tell me that this isn’t true. Tell me that I am still your little girl, that I am smaller than the previous day, smaller than yesterday. Look upon me for moment. In the past, you received me as a poor wounded lamb. Today, it is my whole being that suffers, my soul, my heart, my mind, my body. I am nothing but a scornful being. I have nothing. All that remains is my hope in you, my Beloved. It is so simple for you to pick me up once more, to place me on your heart as your little one. You know how I regret my sins, that I will go to my director for confession as soon as possible. But, I beg you, tell me that you forgive me, my Beloved.”
– Satan: “Poor little girl, I forbid you to call me your Beloved. I have no time to lose with you. I can no longer do anything for you. My Father has spoken. I have to obey and remain silent.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you cannot remain silent while your spouse is suffering.”
– Satan: “Indeed, you have been my spouse. I had chosen you. But my Father, wisdom itself has refused to accept you as my little girl and I after six years understand that he was right. My love for you made me blind.”
– Mimi: No, no, I don’t want to get discouraged. I didn’t know what to do. I was weeping and I am still crying while writing, thinking of all this. My only hope is in my gentle heavenly Mother.
– Mimi: “Mother, mother, my gentle heavenly Mother, I beg you. Come to my aid. I am in such pain. Look upon your child who is crying at your feet and who, in spite of its miseries, offers herself to you,offers you her sufferings to atone for her fault, her sins, to do reparation and save souls.”
– Satan: “Poor little girl, you think that I need your tears, your sufferings to save souls. I don’t need you. I gave you my Beloved Son. All I can do for you is to give you advice : Have yourself exorcised by another priest than your director for you are possessed by a demon. Remember the words of your director during your moral crises. It is only through the power of his priesthood that he was able to give you some peace by saying to your enemy: Depart Satan. You know what you are like , how you speak in such moments. Your director has already told you : “This does not frighten me. You are not the one speaking.” So, if it isn’t you, it is the devil in you. You are smart enough to understand that. Do what I tell you, that’s all.”
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me. I can’t go on!”
– Satan: “Don’t tire yourself with praying. I have closed the door of my heart forever.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you know that I was in your heart before you closed the little door of your heart.”
– Satan: “You see, you didn’t want to believe me. This is proof. What has he done for you to console you. What more do you want? So, turn yourself over to me. Enjoy yourself as much as possible. I will be patient. You have cried enough for nothing. Give yourself at least the satisfaction of doing what you want, of enjoying your freedom. Since there is no forgiveness for you, that your God has rejected you, I will receive you. Throw yourself in front of this automobile. You will see how well off you will be with me. All you might have to suffer is to be deprived from the vision of God. This will not change anything in your life. You have never seen him. You only believe in an invisible being. I am anxious to receive you. Your God is placing you in my arms.”
– Mimi: “My God, how I suffer! I was weeping at the very moment when I was beginning my little retreat in order to purify me, to know you better, to love you more, to serve you better. No! It isn’t possible. You whom I love so much, you my only love, my God, my all.”
Tuesday 13 March 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you must die a victim of my love.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask myself how. May I ask my director what it means? He surely knows the answer.”
– Jesus: “No, my dear little Beloved spouse, he must not tell you for now because you are still too little to understand. If I told you now, you would die of fright even before beginning your mission. Your little heart is only beginning to understand a little what I expect from you. Your little nature still hesitates. There is a lot of work to be done to clean up your little attic. Your mind remains too preoccupied, too distracted. If only you were as preoccupied in listening to my voice and that of my representative. I beg you not to put an obstacle to grace. Let the Holy Spirit enter freely into your little attic. His work will be more efficient. What would you say if you had a little servant who would like to put your little attic in order and who, in seeing a pile of dust, would remove it a little at a time? She would get her work done but it would take more time. If, on the contrary, you let her freely take all the means that she wanted to clean your little attic. If you told her: go ahead, take any means you need, use a shovel, wash, scrub, remove everything.”
– Mimi: “I don’t want any dirtiness in my little attic. I don’t like it for I want to please my Spouse and keep our little dwelling very clean, even the little attic.”
– Jesus: “And once the cleaning is done, to keep it clean, you will take care of it each day by avoiding the dust to accumulate. If you knew how happy your Spouse would be, at home in a clean dwelling. He wouldn’t be ashamed to invite his friends, and even to show them the little attic. Do you know who these friends are?
“Grace, love, charity, confidence, temptation, suffering, the cross and immolation. All must enter your little dwelling, the little attic and remain there permanently. You must accept them, welcome them with joy, with love as friends of your Beloved Spouse and on the last visit that is Immolation, the door of your little dwelling will be closed forever to the things of the world, of the earth, for, having received your friends in your little dwelling, you will be full of joy near your Beloved Spouse.”
Wednesday 14 March 1956
– Mimi: I was preparing the confession of my retreat. I had just experienced great temptations.
– Satan: “You are damned. I repeat it. You will finally understand and believe me.”
– Mimi: “Depart from me, liar. Believe you, the father of lies! You make me laugh. For you, I am perhaps damned, but not for God. I trust in him, in his infinite mercy for me. I love him and this is sufficient. I don’t have time to waste in listening to your lies. Go see my director. You know how he treats you, how he receives you.”
My enemy rages. He wants to avenge himself. He attacks me violently. The temptation gets worse.
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me!”
This great temptation has brought me closer to God. My Beloved stopped me just in time. I understood that I would have been lost forever. I understood what it is like to suffer alone, to feel all alone in the abyss, to see an ideal crumble, to see our children perish before our eyes.
Not to feel divine help, not to have any human assistance, is to experience complete emptiness, to be alone in the presence of ones enemy, in the face of danger without having a weapon to defend oneself. I didn’t even have the shadow of hope, of a good thought. I could not even look up to God. I was surrounded by temptations. My mind was in darkness, my soul expanded in pain. When I think of this, I begin to cry.
Thursday 15 March 1956
– Mimi: After my confession, I went to church to thank God and my gentle heavenly Mother. I was looking at my Beloved nailed to the cross.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how I wish that the cross were not so high. I could kiss your feet, weep because of my sins like Mary Magdalene.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, it isn’t necessary to look up at me to attain me. Simply descend to the bottom of your little soul. I am there waiting for you with love, arms extended to receive you and your heart, to possess all of you.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I thank you for your infinite mercy, for your love of me, your poor and miserable creature, so little in your presence. I offer myself to you. I throw myself with love, with confidence into your divine arms as a tiny baby. Keep me always near your Divine Heart that loves me so. What do you want of me? What do you expect from your little spouse, your little servant?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, the hour has come when you must take the great step.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t understand very well. How many times you scolded me because I was counting my little steps? Today, you are asking me to take a big step. I am not even able to take a small step. How do you expect me to take a big step?”
– Jesus: “Indeed, my dear little girl, I know very well that you are not able to do anything without me. This is what I wanted you to say, to admit, that you are nothing without me. Now, it is time to take the great step, that is, to take the great step from your natural life to your spiritual life.”
– Mimi: “I am not even able to take little steps, to stand up straight in spiritual life. I know what I will do. Since I am still a little baby, I will throw myself confidently into your powerful arms. With you I have no fears, I know that I am forever safe. I love you so, my Beloved, my all.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, my dear little one, tell me once more that you love me. Tell me that you trust in me. Tell me that you accept what My Father wants from you. From now on, you must live only for me alone, your God. No matter what. Close your eyes on the things of the world but fix your look on me, your Beloved Spouse.
“No preoccupation but the salvation of your soul. No human affection except for souls. Your mission begins today. A mission of love, of suffering for the salvation of souls. You must love me in order to console me. You must love souls only for me alone. You must make souls love me. You must love me in my consolations, in my intimacy with you but especially when I arrive with my crosses, my trials, my great temptations I reserve for my spoiled children. You haven’t reached the end of your moral and physical sufferings. You are just beginning. You must repair, atone and merit, yes, atone for you and for the whole world.
“You must offer yourself as a victim so that my Father may reign on earth, so that my love may reign in all hearts. With all your miseries, your weaknesses, you must offer yourself as a victim for unity in the Church, to help the Holy Father, for missionaries, to obtain sacerdotal and religious vocations, also to obtain the conversion of poor sinners, to obtain mercy for the dying, to obtain the deliverance of the poor souls in purgatory. In other words, to obtain peace in the world and the reign of God over the world. If you knew all the human miseries! Recite in the presence of my representative the formula of offering found in the Imitation of Jesus Christ.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, give me your heart, please, I need it to understand and to love all these souls.”
– Jesus: “Fear not, my Beloved, with my grace and my Love, your little heart can contain the whole world.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, what more do you want? I gave you everything in my T......”
– Jesus: “I know, my dear little one. But your director had a distraction and forgot to give me the essential, you little will. It is the most important of all, for your will is free. Without your will, you can do nothing. Think of that. You can do nothing in the temporal order as in the spiritual order. Meditate on this: “I have come to do the will of my Father.”
“Every day you say: ‘May your Will be done on earth as it is in heaven’. You do your own will and keep it. It is this will that I want from you. How can you trust in me if you keep your will. It is by an act of the will and of humility that the world was saved, by the Will of my Father and the humility accepted by my Mother. It is also by an act of the will, of rebellion and pride that the world was lost. How do you want to have humility if you keep your own will? How do you want to obey me, your director, if you keep your will? How do you want to submit yourself to the conformity of God if you keep your will and do as you please? How do you want to really love me if you keep your will? This is what prevented you from throwing yourself completely into my arms.
“Your director asks something of you but you hesitate. Tell him on my part to no longer hesitate. Tell him about....... about P... Now, my dear little girl, I ask you to atone for the lack of trust in me, your lack of respect in the presence of authority, of my representative. I did not give you a guide who is blind. When you atone, do not look at the man but simply at me in him. Don’t do your little will. Be simple and humble like my Mother. May your director add your little will to your T....... Give me everything by V.C.O.P. I want everything and I will keep it in my heart forever.”
Friday 16 March 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how can I thank you for so much love, such goodness?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am the one to thank you. I am happy, pleased with my little spouse. Do you see the happiness you experience in feeling little, humble, obedient in submitting yourself to the Holy Will of my Father? You have finally understood my love.”
– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved, I understand now the love and confidence that Mary Magdalene had at your feet.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I wanted you to atone in order to remain humble, to repair you lack of trust, of respect for my representative, especially in his presence. You know very well what I mean.
“This morning I was worried about you. I was asking myself what you were going to do with your little will. By a special grace, I permitted your director to share the same moments of joy. He shares your problems and even the suffering you experience in great temptations. I couldn’t leave him by himself. I wanted him to share our happiness, experience this peace and the results of my love. Our little team must be one in moments of joy and in suffering.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, when I think of it, everything happened so fast. I can’t express this change. My heart was full of joy, my soul was inundated with love for you. A gentle peace had taken over. Only your power, your presence, your love can have such an effect on my soul.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, my little one..... whom I love, my little spouse, the day will come when you will understand perfectly my love without needing any explanation. What took place this morning between the three of us was for the greater glory of my Father. You cannot understand. I only manifested myself in you because I love you and also because you were sincere and humble, both of you. The humility of your director to accept without understanding, the humility you had to atone without understanding the importance. At that moment, your director understood once more my infinite mercy and how my love can transform a soul. He understood his dignity as a priest, the place he occupies as my representative of a poor little soul.
“It is the second time during his life that I manifest myself to him in a tangible way. On the morning of his ordination and this morning. He had been wanting to understand somthing for a long time. Like you, in a moment, he understood. Everything was clear to him. No more doubts. My love and the murmur of the Holy Spirit had torn open the obscure veil. Between him and me, something else happened that you don’t know about. One does not tell a little girl everything, but you will understand perhaps at the moment of your impending death. Your director understood the great responsibility he had in directing your little soul toward me, to what I expect from you and what my Father wants from you. He knows and understands what I want from you. He no longer has any doubts.”
Saturday 17 March 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, give the medal of Mary Queen of Hearts that you are wearing to this poor sick person.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I have another one in my purse!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, no matter whether you have another one in your purse. Do what I ask without understanding.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I ask myself what I am going to do. If this keeps on, if I have to wear all the medals that you ask me to give away, on the long run, I will have to carry a bag on my back.”
– Jesus: “Indeed, my dear little girl, it is a bag full of obedience that you will have to carry on your back.”
Sunday 18 March 1956
– Mimi: Near the statue of the Sacred Heart, kneeling at his feet, I was weeping over my sins.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t understand the state I am in during great temptations. Grant me, please, the strength and courage to accept, to struggle. Without you I can do nothing. See how bad I am during these moments and yet, you know very well that I love you, that I don’t want to offend you. I ask your forgiveness and also the grace to obtain a true and sincere conversion.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, by the confession of your retreat, you have thrown away the heavy pieces. Now, you have to remove the dust. All must be purified before coming before my Father. Remember that there is only one way of the cross and that I was the only one to do it out of love.”
Monday 19 March 1956
Feast of Saint Joseph.
– Mimi: My director was hesitant in giving me communion for I was suffering greatly. He was afraid of more vomiting.
– Mimi: “You know my Beloved the great sorrow that I have at the sole thought that I will not be able to receive you. You are here, so near. I beg you, in the name of our union, of our love, do not leave me by myself.”
– Mimi: Inspired by the Holy Spirit, I tell me director :
– Mimi: “Fear not, be without fear, my Beloved knows very well the great desire that I have to receive him because of my love for him. He will arrange things in order to remain within me. On my part, I won’t budge. I will remain in bed.”
I was so happy to receive him once more to help me. I am suffering so much. I want him more and more in my life.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved, for this sign of love, for the vomiting started again only a half hour after receiving communion.”
Tuesday 20 March 1956
– Mimi: I was suffering a lot physically and morally.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, look at me, please help me!”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, each day, for the past six years, I have witnessed your martyrdom. In a loud voice I am asking for more, I need more.”
Friday 23 March 1956
– Mimi: I was meditating on my T..... Suddenly I saw the Holy Shroud. The features weren’t clear. The Holy Shroud was the size of a small medal.
– Jesus: “It is I, my Beloved. See how I show myself small to you. Do you really love me? Keep me hidden within you.
“My Beloved, before accepting what I am about to ask, look at me closely on the cross, before the little crucifix that your director is wearing. This little crucifix was the object of many things. It is precious for it witnessed your great temptations. Even during one of your moral crises and urged on by your enemy, you repelled it violently. You threw it on the floor. But this little cross also witnessed your repentance. It was covered by your tears of repentance, of your kisses burning with love. And it is this little cross that your director will press on your lips at the moment of your death. Your last breath of life, your last kiss of love will be for me on this little cross that your director must keep preciously as a relic to continue honoring me, loving me, and in atoning for me. Some day, it will come in handy. When you die, someone will claim this little cross as a souvenir. I forbid him to part from it under any pretext. This little cross belongs to him. May he keep it. It belongs to him and to me and it is my will.
“I want him to atone, to make many acts of love on this little cross by kissing it with love, with respect. My Beloved, today, I am asking you for everything in front of this little cross.
“Look at me closely for a moment. Show me your love by accepting to do it with the permission of your director.”
Saturday 24 March 1956
– Mimi: At a certain moment, I experience great physical suffering.
– Mimi: “I thought you were coming to get me. Your poor little girl, your little spouse who wants only you, your presence. I miss you terribly, my Love, my God, my All.”
Sunday 25 March 1956
– Mimi: Memorable day for me. Six years already since I made V.C.
Feast of the Annunciation of the Blessed Virgin Mary.
– Jesus: “Today begins for you the Annunciation of what my Father expects from you. A coincidence with Palm Sunday. Yes, you will make your entrance with me unto the sorrowful road of the cross to save souls. On this day, I want you to renew your v.c.o.p. Also, make your act of offering before my representative. I accept all that is contained in your little t..... After you have given me freely out of love everything, I will have you begin your mission of saving souls. I expect a lot from you. I want everything. I will take everything and that will be all.”
Monday 26 March 1956
– Mimi: I was in the hospital. I spent five hours ( exams, x-rays for the spinal column). In spite of the physical pain, I was happy to see all these poor sick people, my children again.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, prepare yourself. All that you are suffering presently is nothing. Prepare yourself. In a short while, I will take more, for you will undergo another operation.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, where will the operation take place?”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, simply at the hospital.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you are pulling my leg again. Speak seriously. The situation is critical enough.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am well aware of the situation. I am very serious. You will undergo another operation where I want. Don’t ask me useless questions.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved. It doesn’t seem to me to be a useless question. You speak to me about an operation. Between us, you know, I would like to know where they are going to cut me. This is the sixth time. I hope they won’t cut off my neck.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I simply want to have more in order to save souls. Each time I ask for more, I come closer to you and you resemble me more and this is what feeds and strengthens our union, our love in suffering to do the Holy Will of my Father for the salvation of souls.
“Think of me. Did I ask during the scourging how many lashes I would have? Did I set limits on my love for you, for souls? The number of wounds on my body is incalculable. My poor body did not have anesthesia, nor was it surrounded by care or precautions.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, forgive me for my useless question, for my lack of confidence. You see how weak I am with my poor little fearful and curious nature. I am like a child and yet I so would not want to displease you, to accept everything out of pure love. This dreadful fault that always makes me ask questions that do not concern me but only you, my God. Forgive me, my Beloved, and please grant me the grace of minding my own business. Give me also greater confidence.
“My gentle heavenly Mother, help me please to accept everything from you. I know that you are able to help me correct my faults. You know how much I love my God, my Beloved. I wouldn’t want to cause him any sorrow. Look at my conduct. Look at what I am doing. I lack trust in him.”
And I was crying.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, look at your child who is so weak. Strengthen my love and trust. I can do nothing without you.”
– Jesus: “Indeed, my Beloved, I always look upon you as a child who is very small, a spoiled child. Don’t cry, my Beloved. Come close to my heart. Poor little girl whom I love in spite of everything. I know your good wishes. I have known for a long time the love of your poor little heart.
“I scold you because I love you. I scold you because I want to help you correct yourself, purify yourself. It is because I love you. I know your weaknesses well.
“My Beloved, you have given me all, so, why do you want to know where, the added piece that I want from you? My Beloved, give me a beautiful smile and tell me that you love me and that you give me all without counting the pieces, without reserve. You are beginning Holy Week with me. I want everything. I must save many souls. Your director is generous. He is working hard without counting the pieces he gives me.”
Tuesday 27 March 1956
– Mimi: Great temptation, physical and moral sufferings. For the last three months, the moment of confession has become for me a moment of torture. However, I find peace again after this struggle. I don’t know what’s going on within me. It seems like a nightmare. I was very sad when my director told me what I had said and done. I can’t believe all the malice that came out of my heart.
– Mimi: “Yet, you know very well that I detest these temptations, that I fear them. You know that I love you my Beloved. I beg you not to believe what I say during these moments, my physical and moral suffering is so great. One has to go through it to understand a little what the soul can suffer.”
– Satan: “My dear little one, why complain? You are the one putting on a show to draw the attention of your director. You are the one who brings on these temptations to pass the time, to have your director waste time and at the same time to have something extraordinary happen in your life because you know that the saints went through great temptations and you think that you will become a saint this way. You want to please me and you offend me even more when you receive the sacrament of penance. I forbid you to go to confession. This way, you will avoid the temptations you seek to satisfy your pride. Each time you disobey me by going to confession, the temptations will return. I ask myself : why go to confession? Why receive absolution? I have already forgiven you all. Don’t mention this to your director. It is very delicate matter.
“He knows his business but with you he no longer knows what to do. He suspects something but is hesitant to speak to you about it, not to hurt your feelings. It is very delicate matter. So, no more confession and all will go back into place. Keep quiet about what I have just told you for the greater good of your soul.”
– Mimi: During and after the temptations, I am so exhausted that I begin to cry.
No matter how hard I try, I am unable to have a little smile. I ask my director to tell me something funny in order to make me laugh, for I don’t want others to suspect what went on within me.
– Satan: “My dear little one, you say so yourself. You play your role so well that you are able to cry and a few minuts later, laugh. You see that I am right. I am a God of truth. Doubt me no longer. Once more, no more sacraments and you will have peace for you tend to be scrupulous. It is in your interest. Your director will finally find peace.”
Wednesday 28 March 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, listen carefully to what I am going to tell you. Take a white handkerchief and go to the church near the statue of Our Lady of Pity. Kiss my feet respectfully, with love in union with the sufferings of my Beloved Mother. Then, apply with faith, with confidence, the white handkerchief to the wounds of my feet. I am preparing a surprise, a great surprise, but especially great joy, a great consolation. You will share with your director the little white handkerchief that you will keep as a relic, as a token of my love. There is a condition. You must keep this absolutely silent except for your director.”
Holy Thursday 29 March 1956
– Mimi: My enemy never leaves me. I cannot describe all the moral suffering I experience, the physical suffering I endure is nothing compared to this.
Painfully, I was able to get to the church.
During the procession of all these priests prostated who were offering to God their adoration and their love, I was quite far from the monstrance altar. I was uniting myself with all these adorations but my enemy was close by suggesting to me blasphemies.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, is it possible that my soul that desires so much to receive you and that loves you be at your feet with a cold love, dry, wordless, thoughtless to express my love. There is emptiness, almost complete disgust. I cannot even read or pray. I hardly believe in your presence in the host. I cannot even prepare my communion. I am afraid of approaching you. I am not worthy of receiving you. What am I in the presence of your majesty and out of obedience, I must receive communion in such a state.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, do you want to receive me for your happiness or for mine? My happiness of giving myself once more to my poor little girl, my Beloved. Fear not, I understand everything.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am suffering so much. Keep me, please, close to your Divine Heart. My Beloved, if my director could understand what my little heart, my soul is suffering at this moment, he would pray all the more.
“He is there, speak to him. It would please him so much. Give him, please, gentle consolations. He deserves it. See all that he is doing to help me love you more, to know you better, to serve you better. You know that he doesn’t hesitate in front of obstacles from the devil, that he doesn’t back away from the snares of my enemy. You know how much he wants to lead my little soul towards you, towards my ideal. He has always been dedicated. He does not calculate his time, his health, his sacrifices, his mortifications, his prayers without mentioning what you know and what I do not know. He must also have a secret area in his soul.”
– Jesus: “Yes, he has a secret area in his soul. He does not have a secret place in a little attic like a little girl that I know. My Beloved, if I understand you correctly, you would like me to give a reward to your director right away.”
– Mimi: “Yes, you are correct, my Beloved. As usual, the least wish is granted. You understand everything. Thank you, thank you in advance.”
– Jesus: “Not so fast, my Beloved. Indeed, I understand everything. I understand the wish of your little heart, your gratitude, your respect in the presence of my representative, but, if I grant you your wishes, what merits, what happiness will he have left after his death?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is so easy for you. I do not ask you to give him heaven on earth. I know him well enough.He wouldn’t accept it for he could not live for long without suffering, without the cross. It is his daily bread. All that I ask for him is a special place in your Divine Heart that he loves so much, and, at this moment, please give him a gentle consolation. My Beloved, do this for your little girl who loves you.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, you make me laugh. You pester me, you insist like a tiny little baby who wants something.
“My Beloved, you please me. I am so happy. This is what I call being confident. My heart is so sensitive that it weeps for joy at your love for me, your confidence, your big heart has taken over. You are suffering greatly at this moment. You aren’t thinking of yourself. You ask me for consolations, not for yourself but for your director.
“My Beloved, I cannot resist your demand. I promise you that he will have, that he will experience for a brief moment my love, my gentle presence within him. However, he will receive his reward, and I repeat this to you once more, he will receive his reward when he hands over your little soul that my Father entrusted to him and that I had lent him. Therefore, his reward will be at the moment of your death. My dear little one, do not take the place of the guardian angel of your director to enumerate all that he is doing. Do you think that I don’t know everything? I know him well as I know you. Don’t forget it. I have a secret code with him.”
Good Friday 30 March 1956
– Satan: “My dear little girl, it is useless to pray, to receive communion, to offer up more, all these actions don’t count because, in the state of sin in which you are continually living, you have become a dead member of my mystical body.”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar. I know you by your lies. You are right in saying that I have become a dead member for you and that, by the infinite mercy of my Beloved, I have become a living member of the mystical body and by sanctifying grace, I believe that my Beloved is present in my poor little soul.”
– Satan: “You are leading a useles life. In doing your own will, you believe that you are doing the will of God.”
– Mimi: “I know that I am leading a useless life for you but I am sure that it is useful to God. In spite of my weaknesses, I am helping my Beloved in saving souls. It is the Holy Will of God.”
After violent attacks from my enemy, I suffer more and more morally and physically.
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me. Everything in me is crumbling. It seems to me that I will become discouraged. Everything is dark around me. I am in darkness and there is no more hope. All I hear is the voice of my enemy who wants me to offend you.
“My God, I don’t want to offend you. I am suffering but I accept your Holy Will in atonement for my sins and for those of the whole world in union with your sufferings to save souls.”
The physical suffering is increasing. The temptation becomes more violent. Great temptation against faith, against the great mystery of the cross, against the infinite mercy of God. I can no longer accept what God expects from me.
– Jesus: “Ask for help, my dear little girl. Send a S.O.S. to your director. Do you think you are stronger than I to undergo this trial alone?”
– Mimi: I write a few lines to my director to inform him of the situation. He phones me and, seeing that there is something that isn’t right, he asks me to come and see him. I didn’t want to see him in order not to discourage him. I was afraid of having a moral crisis for my enemy was getting closer and closer.
In the afternoon, I visited my director. Once more, I had a moral crisis in his presence. He advises me to go to the church, to simply look at the statue of the Blessed Virgin and speak to her like a child. I don’t understand what happened to me. I refuse. He wants to bless me. Once again I refuse to kneel and in my heart, I felt hatred for God and contempt for my director. Seeing that the situation was getting critical, he tells me :
– My Director: “In the name of Jesus, Mary and Joseph, I ask you to kneel.”
– Mimi: I remember answering him :
– Mimi: “If I kneel, it is because I want to and not because you ask me to.”
Then I reproached him and insulted him. I told him:
– Mimi: “As God’s representative, I detest you. I hate you. You won’t win over me. I am a free person.”
I am weeping as I write this. I don’t dare write these abominable things out of respect for my Gentle Mother of heaven who is near me on my little table (the statue).
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how evil, ungrateful, unfair towards you, towards your representative. Why must he suffer because of me? I ask myself why I have been speaking against my will. All that I would like to do and say, I don’t do and all that I would not like to do and say, I do. I say it scornfully. At certain moments, it seems to me that I am happy to act this way. It is a diabolical joy that takes hold of me and urges me on to act this way and yet, I do not want to. My Beloved, You know that you are my only hope, my God, my All.”
Then, after quite a serious struggle, I decide to kneel. My enemy rages by my side and when my director pronounces the names of Jesus, Mary and Joseph, I recover my peace. I take the opportunity to ask my director to go to confession. I am so anxious to receive My Beloved, my God.
In the silence and peace of a small chapel, I do my thanksgiving, that is, I speak with my Beloved. I savor these moments of intimacy. I profit from the occasion to ask for his help, to ask for the strength and courage and more love to follow him till the end.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, now go to the church.”
– Mimi: I go immediately to the church. As I usually enter the door on R street,
– Jesus: “No, my dear little one, walk further on, enter by the door of P street.”
Once inside the church, I was going toward the altar of the Blessed Virgin. He tells me:
– Jesus: “No, my Beloved, not on this side, go towards the monstrance.”
– Mimi: I kneel in a pew.
– Jesus: “No, my Beloved, advance to a few more pews.”
To my great surprise, after an act of adoration before my God, I notice that near my gloves there is a small medal. Immediately, I pick it up and look at it.
It was exactly the same reproduction of the little medal I had seen a few days before at home during a moment of gentle consolation. I was trembling. I was so moved. This medal represented the Holy Shroud and on the other side, Our Lady of Seven Sorrows.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, consider my love once more. Is this sign visible enough to you? Is it not the medal that you saw the other day? So, go immediately and have this medal blessed by your director and keep it as a souvenir of Good Friday 1956. After your death, it must be given to your director. Inform those concerned. My dear little girl, my Beloved, are you strong enough to make the way of the cross with you by my side?”
– Mimi: “Yes, yes, my Beloved. With you I can do anything. I love you and thank you.”
After the way of the cross, I kissed the tall cross installed in the church for the veneration of the faithful on the occasion of Good Friday. I approached it with love, with repentance, with sorrow, with confidence. At the moment when I kissed his Divine Feet:
– Jesus: “My Beloved, tell me that you accept to follow me. Do not leave me alone, you, my Beloved spouse, my little G.....”
I could not hold back my tears of joy.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, this is a little moment of respite. Do you also accept to share my agony to save souls? Now, look at what you have done to me. In the early part of the afternoon, under the control of the devil, you didn’t want to go to church. For a few minutes, you didn’t know what to do. But now, for the past hour, you have been near me and you even made the way of the cross in spite of your moral sufferings and the fatigue of your poor body. Under the influence of the devil, you refused to kiss the little crucifix that your director had in his hands. Now, you are present at my feet. You kiss lovingly, with respect the cross. You are prostrated before me like Mary Magdalene in front of everybody. I continue. You wanted to remove all that was blessed, medals, ring and so forth. Now, I have given you a medal that you will ask to be blessed by your director and that you will keep and wear in memory of this memorable day of Good Friday, 30 March 1956. Who oriented you towards the church? Who especially chose the features of the Holy Shroud on your little medal? Who placed the little medal in the pew? Is it not the same medal you had seen earlier?
“Isn’t it a beautiful day for our little team, the three inseparables like the Blessed Trinity, the Holy Family. This isn’t all. You didn’t want to go see your director under the pretext of not disturbing him. I ask you to go and tell him this, in spite of what he experienced yesterday and today and will experience tomorrow. Tell him on my part that I love him, that I place him in my Divine Heart as my beloved disciple. May he remain in peace with me, in my heart. One more remark: you did not want to see your director. You even insulted him in what he treasures most, his priesthood.”
“You expressed unmerited reproaches to him and I ask you to go and tell him what I think of him and I give you at the same time a proof that I love him as my disciple, as my faithful servant, devoted to the cause of my Father. See all that you have done with me in such little time and even without noticing it. It is a special privilege that I speak to you, that I am granting you all these favors to help you better understand the state of the great temptation. You have the heart, the good will to accept but you are weak. You do not always understand the importance of the temptations.
“My dear little one, the temptation is not extraordinary for privileged souls. It is something quite natural and normal in spiritual life. It is also a normal sign for consecrated souls who want to follow me till the end and accomplish faithfully, with love, the Holy Will of my Father. Ask your director if you may offer up more. If he allows it, may he lend you what is necessary for tonight. I want more. My Beloved, do not leave me tonight. Do you want to share my agony?”
– Mimi: “Why yes, my Beloved. With your grace, I accept with love. I love you so.”
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, first of all, may your mind be open to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. Do everything I ask of you without understanding. Spend an hour on your knees to make the way of the cross in a spirit of mortification to save souls. Remain in that position without moving. Place under your knees the little cross.”
I was suffering a lot when the great temptations against purity were added to my sufferings. They were so violent that I seemed to receive at each one a lashing. This lasted during all the duration of the way of the cross. There were moments of temptations against faith, against the great mystery of Redemption, of the Resurrection. I was suffering greatly. I wanted to make acts of love and of faith. I was unable to do anything. There was emptiness.
– Mimi: “My God, my Beloved, have mercy on me. I can’t go on.”
I was bent over in pain but the moral pain was worse. Not a ray of hope, of confidence, of love. Yet, I did not stop saying :
– Mimi: “My God, I believe. I want to believe, I want to love you, I do not want to offend you. Help me, please. Come to my aid.”
– Satan: “Do you believe that God is going to make a miracle for you? If you wait for help from heaven, you are going to wait a long time. Look at what he did to his Son. Did he come to his aid? If he had, he would not have died. You are silly to endure all this. To find peace, it is very simple : get up. Do you think that with more or less pain you can save souls? You’re being stupid.”
– Mimi: “My God, help me. I cannot write down all the blasphemies that are filling my mind.”
– Jesus: “Take courage, my Beloved, for I am with you. Extend your little arms as a cross and remain this way during the next two stations. My Beloved, I want more. Apply on your wrists the little c... and keep it until the end of the way of the cross.”
The way of the cross lasted one hour. I am so exhausted, worn out. I was suffering a lot. At home, I had a fever. I was anxious to drink a good cold glass of water. As I was getting ready to drink it, my Beloved said :
– Jesus: “No, my Beloved, offer me one more sacrifice to save souls. Don’t take a single drop. Think of me, of my thirst for souls! Think of the vinegar that they gave me.”
Feeling faint, I was preparing to wash my face with some cold water to refresh myself a little.
– Jesus: “No, my Beloved. Think of me, of my bloody sweat shed for you and for souls. Offer me this discomfort.”
I was getting ready to take some rest.
– Jesus: “No, my little Beloved spouse, don’t lie down just yet. Stay by my side, console me. Look at me straight in the eyes. Look at my heart that loves you so. My Beloved, a day will come when your thirst will be quenched by gentle words of consolation, your face will be revived by the gentle kisses of your Beloved Spouse and you will find forever your rest in my divine arms, for I shall remember the Good Friday of 1956 where you were all mine and only mine.”
How time flies when I am in his presence. Since 10 o’clock, I have been in his Divine Arms. It is already one o’clock in the morning. I don’t want to leave him by himself.
During all this time, I didn’t experience any suffering. I was so happy to be in his arms. I was nestled in his adorable Heart. I was experiencing great peace, a gentle happiness that cannot be put into words. I felt completely detached from the earth. His embrace was so tight that I could hardly breathe.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, not so tight! I feel as if I am going to die of love. It is too much for my poor little soul. I don’t deserve so much happiness.”
I was weeping with joy.
– Jesus: “Come, my Beloved. Let me dry your tears with a gentle kiss. You are crying like a little baby in my arms.
“I love you. This is why I am doing this, for I want you to understand in a tangible manner all the strength, the power, all the mercy, all the love of my Divine Heart for you. My Beloved, if my love, if my embrace is so strong, it is because I want to reduce your size in order to make you smaller in my Divine Heart. I want you to understand the love of the cross, the joy of suffering in order to save souls. Do you see how much you are inundated by my love, by my grace?
“My little spouse, my little treasure that I have finally discovered, well hidden for years in a body full of mud, in a miserable state! In spite of all this, I wanted all of you.”
Holy Saturday 31 March 1956
– Mimi: After a few hours of sleep, filled with nightmares, with diabolical dreams, I begin another day near my Beloved. The whole morning is filled with great temptations accompanied by moral and physical sufferings.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved, for the small ray of sun in the midst of my darkness.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, don’t leave me in spite of your physical sufferings. Offer me more. If you knew the number of souls to convert, to save and who still hesitate to come close to me. Offer up more. Your director is dealing with a difficult case. ”
It was ten thirty.
– Mimi: In the afternoon :
– Jesus: “Go see your director in the confessional. Make an act of humility. Tell him that I am asking you to do a Holy Hour during hours of confession. That he prepare himself to receive difficult cases. Tell him that you are going to help him with your prayers. Our team work will be complete. Then, make another Holy Hour. Stay with me near the cross to console me. At this moment, your director needs your help. Offer up more. There are so many souls that need to be saved.”
– Mimi: “My God, Eternal Priest, I beg you, listen to the humble and confident prayer of your little girl.
“I ask you for all priests throughout the world and especially for my director the strength and necessary courage to accomplish their task. I beg you to be in their hearts so that they may speak like you, gently in spite of their fatigue. May they understand and speak gentle words to souls, words of comfort and peace. Be present in their minds so that they may be enlightened to help each soul and indicate the road to real happiness that we can only find in you through the state of grace. May you be in their mouths so that when they pronounce the words of absolution to repentant sinners, the sincere soul may receive this gentle pardon like a balm on ones heart and experience the gentle kiss of peace.
“I also pray for all the souls who go to confession so that they may be very sincere and that the reason why they go be not simply out of obligation but out of pure love based on confidence in your infinite mercy for sinners. And now, my Beloved, I pray for fearful souls. Please give them strength and courage. These poor souls tremble because they do not understand your love. Please send them your Holy Spirit with all his gifts and I especially ask for these souls the gift of fortitude so that their hearts and resolutions be sincere, not only on the surface of their will.
“My Beloved, I also pray for lukewarm souls. Please give them more love, more sincerity. Inspire our confessors with a single word that could touch their hearts, so cold, so indifferent, so that they may recognize their state and finally reflect on the danger they are in.
“For the most hardened sinners, I ask for a true repentance of their sins and the firm intention of never offending you and of avoiding the occasions.
“Through your love, transform their souls into living tabernacles. With your Precious Blood, wash and purify all these souls. They are all your children and mine. I love them and I don’t want them to be unhappy by living far from you. I also want them to be happy with you in heaven for all eternity. By your grace, I want all these souls to give glory to God the Father during all eternity. For souls that are delicate, frail, weak but sincere, I ask you to look at their good will, their efforts. Please grant them more love, humility, confidence, perseverance in their good resolutions so that they may really console you.
“By your sufferings, your merits, your passion, with my gentle heavenly Mother, I want to offer to God all these souls. My God, hear my prayer, not of your little girl, but the confident prayer coming from the heart of a little mother who, in spite of her weakness, her helplessness, wants to save her children from danger. I depend on you, my Beloved and I am confident. Look at me. I implore and ask for them forgiveness and mercy. I love them all without exception. I want them all to be yours, my God.”
Evening.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how anxious I am to resurrect with you tomorrow.”
– Jesus: “Why no, my Beloved. Tomorrow you are going to resurrect in your heart, in your spirit and not in your body, for, I am going to resurrect in all my Glory, with the golden crown of Royalty. I was thinking that during this time you could wear my crown of thorns in my place, for today! As a spouse, you must be one with me at each moment. You must walk by my side, and out of charity, out of love for me and my children, I ask you to wear my crown of thorns.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, with your grace I accept to carry your crown of thorns. Have no fear. It won’t fall to the ground. At times, I am quite hard headed.
– Jesus: “I know that, my Beloved. This is why I am placing it on your small stubborn head and hope that the thorns of my love will penetrate deeply into your little head. You know, my Beloved, even on the day of Resurrection, the cross must not for a single moment be without a victim for there are still souls that are being lost. It is to you that I give this privilege of replacing me a little on the cross for you are among the consecrated souls and a victim of my love.
Are you pleased to be my little Beloved spouse?”
1st April 1956
Easter Sunday
– Mimi: My Beloved has filled me with his graces, his favors for he placed on my head the crown of thorns.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved. I cannot write. I am suffering too much.”
My Beloved is hiding but I know very well where to find him. How beautiful heaven must be today. The gentle encounter of my Beloved with his Father in the presence of his saints. When will my turn come?
– Jesus: “My Beloved, some day, you will experience celestial joys when I come for you to offer you to my Father. I want everything, I will take everything and that will be all. Do you understand the meaning of ‘all’? By a special privilege, your body will not experience corruption for each part of your being has been purified by a special grace reserved for privileged souls. All that you are suffering at this moment is only a preparation of what my Father expects from you. That is why I want more, in order to give you more and both of us will create a unity agreeable to my Father.”
Monday 2 April 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you know how I detest these temptations. I am always afraid of offending you and I tremble when I feel the presence of my enemy.”
– Jesus: “Of course not, my dear little one. If you tremble, it is because you don’t trust in me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I trust in you. It seems to me that it is quite natural for a child to be afraid, to experience fear in the presence of danger!”
– Jesus: “You are right in saying that the child is afraid in the presence of danger but this child is a little girl that I hold in a special manner in my arms and that I keep near my Divine Heart like a small baby. Does she have reason to be afraid in the arms of her God? Do you know this little girl who at times lacks confidence? Even in my arms?
“Don’t cry my poor little Peter or G....... Come closer to me. You know how much I love you. Listen to me carefully. I allow these temptations in order to purify you, to expiate, to merit, to save souls. If you understood the importance of these great temptations! I am closer to you during these moments and you are meriting. One day you will see the number of souls you saved in a short time during these temptations. You must accept everything in advance and offer everything up.
“At the beginning, recite an act of humility and the beautiful prayer of the Anima Christi and during the painful moments of your sufferings, place your little trembling hand on your little heart where I am present, near to your little testament.
“I will understand everything. The temptations and small moral crises that you have are nothing compared to those you will undergo in a short while. My Beloved, I have to prepare you. Fear not. Trust in me. Trust in your director. Have you noticed that you are never alone in undergoing these trials?
“It is through an effect of my goodness that I allow your director to be a witness in order to help you. You know what you would do if you were all alone. He takes my place.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I cannot understand these temptations that are so dangerous for my soul. I cannot understand that you are closer to me during these moments when my enemy is within me, where my mind is full of blasphemies, rebellion, scorn for you and your representative. You know during these moments what I do: I detest, I hurl insults, I refuse blessings, prayers, I detest holy water, I suffer a lot when I hear my director pray and invoke the Holy Names of Jesus, Mary and Joseph. At certain moments, I cannot even endure holy water and an invisible force makes me regret having given all to you. I seem to act like someone who is damned.
“My Beloved, I who love you so much, why must I be so evil, so unjust towards you, Infinite Goodness, my God? Why must I cause such trouble, make my director suffer, he who is doing so much for my soul?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, once more you are asking ‘why’. Do you think I don’t know what is going on in you? Do you believe that I do not know the state of your soul during these moments? It is almost a martyrdom, a moral agony that you are enduring. I allow everything in you be affected, physically and morally. I know very well what you are going through. I see you struggling. I am suffering with you and at certain moments I weep with you. Your director experiences the same effects as you; only, it is not he who must undergo these trials, these temptations. He is there only to help you. He is a little stronger because of his priesthood. This is why I want him to wear the stole during these great temptations, for he has an extraordinary power over the devil. It is through a privilege that I placed him in order to help you. However, his task is difficult for the devil hates him.”
– Satan: “My dear little girl, my Beloved, don’t listen to this voice. It is that of your enemy who is trying to make you believe that the great temptations come from God. If it were so, would you act this way by blaspheming? So, there is in you another invisible force that comes from me. Some day, your director will see how much I hate him because he has taken your soul from me. He wants your salvation. He wants to save your soul but it is you who will be his loss. I have placed you in order to play your role. You seem so sincere with your tears, especially during these alleged great temptations. I am pleased with you. I knew that you are capable of anything. I can depend on you to tell him my hatred, my scorn. You can see that I am the strong one.
“What is your God doing during these moments? He says that he is hiding. It is because he is afraid. He says that he allows this to happen. He cannnot do otherwise. That is why you are all alone with me.
“Even your director is afraid. He finds it annoying because he is not sure of himself. He speaks out loudly but trembles inside. If he could flee, he would.
“If these temptations that he witnesses came from God, he would be happy to accept the Holy Will of God. But he does the contrary. He finds the time long. He is afraid of having to struggle with me within you. I am not afraid of him. You know how I make fun of his blessings, his prayers. I hate him with all my heart.
“Poor little one! It makes me laugh when your God asks you to accept these temptations, as if it were coming from him, as if you were a saint. He doesn’t want you to become proud and he gives you what it takes to do so with these temptations that he believes coming from him.
“He does well in asking you to accept them. This way, he admits that I am right, that I am stronger since he is unable to avoid or prevent these temptations. Where is his might? So, accept them to please him and to obey me for during these moments I am in command. You are all mine. I have you say what I want and do whatever I command.
“Isn’t it true that you are numb, that you are unable to make the sign of the cross. Sometimes, I hold back your hand by my strength. You can hardly repeat the invocations that your director would want you to say. Do you believe that if all this came from your God, he would allow himself to be insulted by a little girl like you?
“You are the one who provokes these temptations and I am the one who inspires you. This makes me so happy. I don’t have to hide in order to act in a soul that is all mine.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! My God, have mercy on me. Mother, Mother, come to my aid. Come to the aid of your little girl who is struggling.
“My Beloved, where are you? I need your help.”
– Mimi: After a certain time.
– Jesus: “Don’t cry, my Beloved. If you only knew how much I am suffering in you. I’m sorry to make you suffer but, what do you want, in order to go to my Father, you must take the same road as I. I beg you, do not let the lies of your enemy discourage you. Believe in me, in my word that is truth itself. Place your trust in me. You will have many more temptations, more painful and more violent. Fear not. I will always be in you and with you, whatever your enemy says. That he makes you say or do what he wants makes me laugh. I scorn him. Listen to me carefully. With all his power he believes to have over me and you, he cannot expell me from my little home that is your little soul. I am at home within you and will remain always because I have chosen you to become my little spouse. Like a wild animal, he is jealous. He tries by every means to penetrate into our little dwelling in order to devour you, but, have no fear. I am there, within you and outside, our dwelling is well guarded by a loyal guardian in the person of your director. By his priesthood, he is strong, he is powerful over your enemy. You know what I mean. He has means of protecting you through the sacraments.
“During your moral crises, who is victorious, your enemy or your director? Courage, struggle with me and out of love for me and for souls. One day, you will understand the importance of the great temptations.”
Tuesday 3 April 1956
– Satan: “My dear little Beloved spouse, you must come to understand perfectly that it is I who allows these temptations. It is very simple to understand, my dear little girl. Go no longer to confession. Thus, you will be quiet, your director will be happy, for he also does not like these temptations, and your God will no longer worry about you. You will no longer offend him by accumulating your sacrileges. It is not that I am complaining. It is for your sake that I am giving you this advice. I take pity on you. This way, your health will improve for the moral crises, the great temptations aren’t good for you. You are too weak. It exhausts you and worsens your condition. You know how much you suffer physically during these temptations. So, no more confessions and you will have peace.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, do not listen to this evil voice. Trust in me. I allow these temptations.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I accept everything, but it is always at the moment of confession before my director that the great temptations come.”
– Jesus: “I know, my dear little one. Would you rather have your parents, your friends witness your moral crises? In order to try you, to make you atone and merit in order to save souls, I leave you by yourself, I can assure you that you aren’t very pretty. Your director knows what I mean! I allow it to keep you in humility even during the temptation. I want you to be so little... however, with my grace, overcome the temptations and scorn your enemy.”
Wednesday 4 April 1956
– Mimi: “Another day for you, my Beloved. I am suffering a lot from the great temptations. My Beloved, I don’t want to offend you. Please help me. I am helpless. I can’t go on. My nerves are shot.”
– Jesus: “I know, my Beloved, but it isn’t a reason to give up!”
– Mimi: “Is it really you, my Beloved, who speaks to me this way?”
– Jesus: “Of course, my little girl. Who are you that I should speak to you differently? I answer you the way you speak to me. This is our understanding. We mustn’t constantly take detours in order to understand one another. What does a child do when he asks for something? He simply goes strait to the point. This is why I love children, understand? What are you today, a grown up and almost old damsel or a small little child, like a baby?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, forgive me. I notice more and more how weak I am. With you grace, I want to remain little. My Beloved, keep me in your arms like a small baby. I need affection. Cradle me, tell me once more that you love me. I trust in you and I love you. I miss you. How I find the time long! How anxious I am to receive you Friday. I am counting the days. I know how happy you are to come into my soul, to give of yourself to all out of love. Come, ô my Love! Come into my poor little soul that yearns for you, my God, my All.”
At the moment of confession, my enemy is enraged. I don’t know what is happening to me. I feel magnetized. My limbs are numb, my will refuses to blaspheme and my mouth repeats blasphemies and insults to my director. I repel all blessings. This causes me more pain.
– Mimi: “I am suffering, my God. Have mercy on me.”
Friday 6 April 1956
– Mimi: By the grace of God and the help of my Beloved, I want to be during the great temptations as if I were on water, in a small boat that would be my body and as pilot my consecrated soul. I imagine myself on a long journey to an unknown land that is called Heaven. Before reaching my goal, I must cross the ocean, I must fight the violent waves of temptations. I must face the bad weather that is the lack of confidence, discouragement, perseverance in all difficulties. On other days, when the sea is calm, I will let myself be cradled softly by the waves of Divine Love. And if danger becomes a menace, I will hang onto my rosary as a security belt.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I allow you to steer my little boat. I place all my trust in you. With you, I want to remain in the infinite ocean of your mercy.”
Tuesday 10 april 1956
– Mimi: I dreamt that I was hanging. In my dream, I was happy and telling people:
– Mimi: “God loves me so much that he has me by the neck. He is giving me a tangible proof of his Love.”
Strange coincidence. I have returned from the hospital with a felt collar that I must wear night and day.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved. This gives me the occasion to atone for my vanity. How many times was I proud of myself, of this poor body that is crumbling. My God, purify me. I give myself to you without reservation. I give you everything, my all. Take all.”
At the hospital, I was looking at all these suffering faces, all these eyes preoccupied by worry, fear, by moral and physical suffering. I was praying for them.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you know my great desire to save souls with you. I beg you in the name of our love, of our union in love and suffering, look at your children who are also mine, look at how much all are suffering. How I would like to help them more! You know, my Beloved, I feel sometimes like a mother hen who would like to keep warm under her wings her little chicks. With your grace, I want to keep them in my heart.
“I would like to love these souls more. I would like to shelter them from misery, give them a taste for what is good, the taste of living only for you. I would like to see in their eyes a single ray of hope, a little happiness on their faces, a smile on their lips and a lot of peace in their souls, this peace that we can only find in you. How I would like to radiate you in each one of these souls. I would so like to speak to them about you, about your love. I would like to explain to them your infinite mercy for them. They wouldn’t be so unhappy if they were all with you. With your help, all I can do for them is to pray and suffer. I love them as if they were my own children.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, the image of the little hen suits you well. Indeed, my dear little one, there are days when you resemble a little hen. When I come with the great temptations, you tremble like a frightened hen. When you mortify your body, you have goose bumps even before beginning. How long did you spend incubating your sins, your faults, your imperfections? How many times also did you hide under your wings and kept secret from your director the consolations, the graces that out of pure goodness I gave you to help you? However, keep your chicken wings to fly towards me, now that you admit that you can do nothing without me. With the fire of my love, I am going to hatch your little eggs (souls) you incubated through my grace, through your ardent love of souls, through your little sacrifices.
“Your director will take care to collect the eggs and clean your little henhouse. You are not yet a hen of category “A” in every respect. There is still a lot of work to be done, don’t you think, my little chick?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, today you compare me to a small chicken. You know that in order for a chicken to be delicious and very tender, it must be cooked slowly. I count on your ardent love in cooking me so that I may be tender. Purify me in the fire of charity. Purify my body so that it may be consumed by your love and that I may detach myself from everything and not be like in the song “A Little Black Chicken”, but a white one that is delicious to eat. As long as you are not satisfied, slice and cut all the pieces you want. I am in your hands like a little chicken. Between the two of us, my Beloved, I don’t like it when, in our intimacy, you compare me to animals like a donkey or a chicken. After all, my Beloved, I have a soul.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you make me laugh. I should call you a little rooster and at times compare you to a filly for at certain moments you are.......... I don’t dare say.
“My dear little one, I know very well that you have a soul. I am the one who gave it to you. But you, my dear little one, since when have you been thinking that you have a soul to save? When I compare you to something, it isn’t of your soul I am thinking but of your poor body. I don’t say that you are this or that. I say that you remind me of or resemble this or that.
“I remind you that at the beginning of our conversation, you are the one who compared yourself to a little hen. I simply continue on the same subject. After all, my dear little girl, it is pleasant to have a small white chicken in my hands. This morning, you really had the small heart of a chicken for you didn’t do much for your little ones.”
Saturday 14 April 1956
– Mimi: I am wearing the felt collar. Being proud, I felt shy to go out.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, more pride! I am simply asking you to make a Holy Hour. I am not asking you to go around the church, to take up a collection at each pew! And yet, this is what I should ask you to do to atone and correct yourself. On this subject, I leave it up to your director to act as he sees fit to keep you in humilityand help you correct yourself. May he take every means possible. He is taking my place. Be submissive and obedient to him. It is for the good of your soul. Accept everything out of humility and love to atone for your sins and those of your children.”
sunday 15 april 1956
– Satan: “I wonder when your director will come to understand the state of your soul? Each time that you approach the sacraments, you will always have great temptations that I detest. My dear little one, I send you this to atone for your disobedience for I have been forbidding you for a long time to approach the sacraments, to go to confession. In doing this, you make me suffer more, me, your God. What have I been able to do for you for so many years? In spite of everything, I pity you and out of pure goodness, at the moment of confession, I give your director a tangible sign. He doesn’t understand. You become the image of what you are in reality. Your director does not want to believe this and yet he knows what I mean! You told him yesterday that you did not want me in your life. You understand that my mercy has its limits. But your director does not. He persists in his error because he has another reason. In his pride as a priest, he believes that under his direction, you could become a little saint. Do you know what he has been doing with you for the last six years? He is trying to make you into a saint, a holier-than-thou, nothing more. In keeping you in such a state, your director is putting an obstacle to grace and to the work of the Holy Spirit. The blood of a God is too precious to be poured out on a soul that is damned.
“You believe that I love you. Get that out of your head. I am patient. I am waiting and anxious to show my justice on the day when you will come before me. This day is getting closer. The sentence for your director will be heavier for he ignores what I ask of him. I order him to exorcise you. When will he do it? I allow him to submit your case to a confrere for he hesitates. He has a decision to make. He trembles. If you were not a lost soul, do you think I would be doing this? This is your last chance.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! I don’t believe you. You are jealous. You want to upset me. I believe that my Beloved is present in me and that’s that.”
– Satan: “My dear little girl, I beg you. Be quiet for in telling me to go, you are blaspheming for you are rejecting me, your God. I am the truth. I want to enlighten you one last time and you believe that I want to upset you. I cannot be present in a soul that is damned, in a soul where the devil is king and master.”
– Mimi: “Mother, my gentle heavenly Mother, come to my aid.”
I was weeping.
– Satan: “My dear little one, be obedient to my Son who is the truth. Therefore, no more confession or sacrilegious communions and you will have peace.”
– Mimi: I ask God to purify all the thoughts going through my mind since this morning.
Monday 16 april 1956
– Mimi: I was meditating on the Good Shepherd.
– Mimi: “My God, my Beloved, like a Good Shepherd, look upon me as your little lamb, the most miserable one. Look at my fleece that is soiled by sin. I am wounded, disabled by my faults, my weaknesses, my daily failures. I am so weak. I cannot walk without a guide, without support on the road of virtue. My little heart suffers for having offended you. I would like to love you more. Listen to my pleas, listen to my voice. Come fetch me to place me under your protection. Please keep me near your heart, your Precious Blood. Cleanse and purify me of every stain and out of love look after my wounds. Protect me from my enemy who is wounding me. What a gentle word of consolation upon hearing you say that you know your sheep. When I think and consider all that you have done to come and seek your lost little lamb. My director worked hard to keep me in the pasture. Thank you, my Beloved, for your infinite mercy.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I wanted everything. I took everything, I will take everything. My little lamb wounded more than others, this is why I love you so.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, with my felt collar, I don’t look like a lamb. I look more like a lapdog. Since you want everything from me, you can have the lapdog that I am.”
Wednesday 18 April 1956
– Mimi: A person was telling three of my friends :
“How unlucky she is! There is always something wrong with her.”
– Mimi: I look at her as I laugh saying :
– Mimi: “You won’t say the same thing after my death. You will say : “How lucky she is! She has something forever.” God has grabbed me by the neck. That’s all!
“Between the two of us, my Beloved, it is quite normal between spouses... I am so happy to be with you!”
Thursday 19 April 1956
– Mimi: “It makes me laugh, my Beloved, when I see a poor doctor still looking for the sickness that I have and for the proper remedies. You were so right in saying that this suffering came directly from you. Out of love for you and for souls, in a spirit of atonement, I accept once more the exams that make me suffer.”
“X-rays of the spinal column. It goes without saying, these poor doctors take every means to search for the cause of my illness. At the human level, it is useless. I was awakened during the night. I was pleased for it gave me the occasion of telling my Beloved that I love him and at the same time that I could offer up more for souls.
“My Beloved loves me so much that he cannot let me sleep for very long. He knows how happy I am to be awakened by him. My waking is so gentle in his arms.”
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, don’t forget to wish a happy birthday to my dear papa who is near you. I hope that he is in heaven.”
Friday 20 April 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I really want to walk in your tracks. I really want to follow you, but you take great steps. If I try to take an extra step, I fall. I am following you from afar.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I don’t always ask you to take big steps. You wouldn’t be able to for you are more often on the ground than on your feet. You are still so little. All that I ask of you is to take the same road. There is but one road that leads to my Father, yes, the way of the cross, a narrow road for little ones, the humble, and not for souls puffed up with pride. They couldn’t manage. There wouldn’t be enough room. A painful road for souls that are truly generous in the service of God and neighbor. This road is not for souls generous in words, in acts reeled off but not practiced. A way of the cross made out of moral obligation, accomplished each day out of love and in conformity to the Holy Will of God, in union with my way of the Cross for the salvation of living souls.
“What is there to say of a way of the cross done in a few minutes with a mind preoccupied in winning indulgences. A mind filled with distractions, offered for the poor souls in purgatory. What good is there for a soul who makes the way of the cross and yet follows me only with ones eyes? Wouldn’t Redemption, my Beloved, have been over with in a short while? I would only have had to cast my eyes on my Passion, on the world. No, my Father wanted more! I have a confidence to share with you, my Beloved.
“The most deserving, the most beautiful way of the cross that can be offered to my Father is the way of the cross made with me, each day, at each hour, at each moment in union with my Passion.
“My dear little Beloved spouse, by accepting the small daily crosses of each day, out of love, in conformity with the Holy Will of my Father, the way of the cross has more value and is more meritorious in delivering the souls of purgatory and more efficient in saving the living souls. We have a wrong notion of the way of the cross. We think that it is only useful to the souls in purgatory. In that case, I could have waited for the end of the world to accomplish my Redemption.
“How many souls would be saved if people often did the way of the cross with me in union with my Passion, for the salvation of souls, of poor sinners? The merits, the sufferings of my Passion weren’t only applied to the souls in purgatory. I gave myself to everyone without exception, but especially for sinners. As for the souls in purgatory, they are safer than sinners because they are in a place where I am purifying them. It isn’t that I condemn the practice of the way of the cross in church for there are many indulgences to be obtained. It also helps souls that still don’t understand the Royal gift of the cross. You know what it is like to make the way of the cross each day with me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, teach me, please, how to love, to carry my cross each day with you so that, by your side, I may walk on the royal road of the cross with all my children.”
Saturday 21 April 1956
– Mimi: “My ............ asks me to pray for (his, her) conversion. What must I do, my Beloved?”
– Jesus: “My dear Beloved little spouse, pray for her sanctification, for, a consecrated soul, a soul in the state of grace is the temple of the Holy Spirit. It is almost an insult to ask us to pray in order to obtain a conversion. A conversion consists in going from a state of sin to a state of grace. We do not make our dwelling in a soul that is in a state of sin, nor in a soul hardened by sin. We make our home in the soul that is in the state of grace, in a consecrated soul that is weak, humble, that recognizes its nothingness. That soul has a greater need of sanctification than of conversion. This does not mean that consecrated souls, souls in the state of grace don’t need prayers! On the contrary. They need more prayers to keep them in humility, perseverance, in order to obtain one day the level of my love. This demands a lot of self-denial, faith, love, humility, perseverance, charity, confidence in obtaining this goal. Souls that are humble, confident, loving understand this because they have given up everything. In return, I give them more. I give myself to souls.”
Friday 27 April 1956
– Mimi: “How weak I am during great temptations. I am quick in forgetting what you have done for me. I beg your forgiveness.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you aren’t the only one suffering from this illness. What saddens me most is that this malaise is especially found among consecrated souls, at times among privileged souls. Pray for souls suffering from spiritual anemia. They are weak in moments of temptation. They lack strength in moments of combat. They hardly have the courage to accomplish their duty with love and confidence. These consecrated souls are at times in quite a pitiful state. At times, you are one of them. It is a calamity for the hierarchy of the Church. If all these souls could understand a little my love and have more love for me, they would quickly find a remedy for their spiritual anemia. My love is so powerful, so strong. You know what I mean, don’t you? Do you not remember all your Good Fridays?”
Monday 30 April 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, another day with you and my children.”
I am in the hospital about to undergo an x-ray for the spinal column.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I put myself in your powerful arms and accept with resignation your Holy Will. Thank you for this new sign of your love.”
The doctor orders me to continue wearing the felt collar until the 15th of Juin. I am getting used to it. I have been wearing it since the month of April. Poor nature! And to think that since then, my little pride, my vanity still gets the upper hand. The doctor asks me once more to sleep on a board.
– Mimi: “I am happy to resemble you a little, my Beloved. When I think of all the sufferings you endured out of love for me! In return, I can only want to love you more and want a share in your sufferings to console you. When I am on my board, I will think of you on the cross. I am thankful that the doctor didn’t ask me to lie on an ironing board. Someone said : “Poor little girl, when I think that she is still sleeping on a board.” Why complain? I am better off sleeping on a board than between four boards or on match sticks! I am much more comfortable on a board.”
Tuesday 1 May 1956
– Mimi: I had the great pleasure of receiving my Beloved. I was so anxious that I couldn’t sleep.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you are pleasing me. Offer up more for souls.”
– Mimi: “I no longer feel alone. I have my two loves near me (statues of Jesus and Mary). I am so happy to own these two treasures. I received as a gift two beautiful statues representing my two loves, the statue of the Sacred Heart and that of the Blessed Virgin. This is the most precious treasure that I have. Thank you, my God and my director.”
Thursday 3 May 1956
– Mimi: Holy Hour from eleven to midnight.
Friday 4 May 1956
Communion.
– Mimi: My Beloved asks me to share with him his sixth wound.
– Satan: “Do we ask a child to mortify its body? Your Beloved doesn’t stop telling you to remain little, to be little like a child. So, act as a child. You please him. Your body is sick enough without being obliged to mortify it. Accept simply what you have. It’s already enough.”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! I know who you are. I don’t need your sympathy. What I suffer is nothing in comparison with the sufferings that my Beloved endured out of love for me. I don’t forget our union, love in suffering. My ideal is to resemble him as much as possible and with his grace, I will reach my goal. To give glory to God, I want to suffer with my Beloved. I accept with love the Holy Will of God for the salvation of souls.
Saturday 5 May 1956
– Jesus: “Do you know, my Beloved, what would please me and console my Divine Heart? I would like the world to have a greater devotion to my Father and to recognize his authority, especially as God, as Creator, as a Merciful Father, he who is the Eternal Father.
“For everything returns to him, the honor, the praise. He played a great role in creation, in redemption. He must not remain in the shadows. He is the Supreme Master of heaven and earth. We must recognize this and praise him forever and ever.
“You remember the beautiful little prayer that you wrote, inspired by the Holy Spirit and that you recite each day to give glory to the Eternal Father (prayer of 27 January 1956). You cannot fathom the great pleasure that you give my Father in reciting this prayer each hour saying : Eternal Father… my God, my All, etc. Remain faithful to this beautiful prayer. You are saving many souls. Your director should get into the habit of reciting this beautiful prayer. It is very efficient in saving souls.”
– Mimi: “My God, I would willingly like to continue to remain faithful in reciting this little prayer. I would like to extend it to the world but it has not been approved by the authority of the Church.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, why be afraid? If this prayer came from you, you would have reason to worry, to be afraid.
“Am I not the authority? Am I not the supreme head of the Church? Am I not the master of heaven and earth?
“With the devotion to the Eternal Father, I also expect a lot from this little prayer for each demand is precise and based on love, charity, confidence. We make monuments, statues and medals to honor simple creatures that my Father created and sanctified, and we don’t think of him enough. There isn’t on earth a single church, not even a small chapel dedicated especially to the Eternal Father. Even the Vatican is called Saint Peter’s.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is you who told Peter, if I remember correctly : “You are Peter and on this rock I shall build my Church.”
– Jesus: “Indeed, I asked Peter to be the head, the representative of my Church. But I didn’t ask him to give it his name. Man decided this without consulting us.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, in speaking of Rome, we call it the Eternal City!”
– Jesus: “Understand, my little ignorant one, the name of the Eternal City doesn’t designate me in particular, it isn’t my Father’s name. I have something to tell you. What saddens my Father most is man’s ingratitude. He too has feelings. Why build cathedrals dedicated to the Sacred Heart, to the Blessed Virgin, to Saint Ann, to Saint Joseph. As for him, the Eternal Father, no one thinks about him. I suffer with him. My Beloved, console him often. Tell him that you love him.
“If you knew how much he loves you providentially. My Beloved, you must spread the devotion to the Eternal Father.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, do you know what you are asking of me? I have nothing. I am nothing. I have no qualifications. Consider my ignorance in every domain. I am not a gifted speaker. I am fearful, timid, and humid at times when my director causes me to heat up when he speaks to me of my faults, of who I am.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I know very well who you are. I know you so well, I know your generous heart. I also know your weaknesses. Does a child who wants to tell her friends about the goodness, the love, the mercy of her Father need a learned book, complicated sentences? Does my Father need serious studies, theologians, great masters, scholars to establish his rank as God, for his power to come forth? What is the Holy Spirit doing? No, my Beloved, all that he needs is a little heart to understand him, to console him and especially to love him. Like myself, he needs to be loved and to love. He has the heart of a Father.
“The world still does not understand the love of the Eternal Father for his creatures. It hardly understands a little the love of the Son of God, but the Father remains unknown to the world and even to consecrated souls. But for you, my Beloved, it is so easy to love him with your little affectionate heart that is so sensitive. And when we love a person, we tend to think of him, to make him known, to talk about him, to find all kinds of occasions to please him, to express our love and gratitude.
“And if this person is a God? Your God, your Creator, your Father for all eternity? Isn’t it consoling to be able to say : I have a Father who loves me. He is constantly thinking of me. He is here in my soul with his love, with his grace, with his power. He is living with my Beloved and the Holy Spirit. Think about this often and meditate on it. I have a Father for all eternity. The Eternal Father, my God, my All. Out of pure goodness, he gave me everything out of love. He gave me his Son. I must give back to him everything and out of love give him everything, my poverty with my little assets. I would like you to pray to my Father especially under the name of Eternal Father.”
I wanted to paint a statue representing the Eternal Father. I took a statue of the Sacred Heart. I painted the hair and beard white. But suddenly, my enemy said to me :
– Satan: “Look at what you are doing! You want to paint an Eternal Father and you are making him look like Santa Claus with his white beard.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, make a drawing of what I will inspire you. I want you to place in the center of the page God, the Eternal Father sitting on his throne, with the crown of his Royalty on his head, the Globe at his feet, the Holy Spirit on his breast, his extended hands to his Son on the right, to Mary Magdalene on the left who is holding the hand of the Blessed Virgin holding the hand of the Good Thief.”
– Mimi: I begin to draw.
– Mimi: “I wonder why, my God, we don’t place God the Son with his Mother, Mary Magdalene and the Good Thief together?”
– Eternal Father: “No, no my dear little one. Simply draw what I wish and inspire you to do. It seems to me that I know what I want.”
– Mimi: “My God, forgive me. (and I began to cry).”
– Eternal Father: “Why are you crying?”
– Mimi : “I don’t dare tell you.”
– Eternal Father: “Come, my dear little one. I know what you are thinking at this moment. I know the bottom of your heart. Tell me. I’m listening.”
– Mimi: “I’m ashamed to tell you.”
– Eternal Father: “Tell me, I’m listening.”
– Mimi: “My God, I didn’t want to do the wrong thing. I didn’t want to offend you with my comments. Forgive me. I spoke without thinking twice. It grieves me to hear you speak this way. It’s the first time. You speak to me like your Son.”
– Eternal Father: “I know and I hope that it’s the last time.”
– Mimi: I was crying as I thought of the sorrow I had caused him.
– Mimi: “I’m sorry. I’m ashamed of myself. I don’t dare come close to you but, my God, your love is stronger and attracts me to you. In spite of my despicable conduct, I throw myself with confidence into your fatherly arms. I ask forgiveness. I thank you and I love you.”
– Eternal Father: “My dear little one, this is what I wanted you to admit, your errors. I wanted to see your repentance, your love for me. You know very well that I love you. I speak to you like a good father. You aren’t perfect yet, your little human nature is still there, very much alive. The more I want you to be all mine, the more I have to purify you. Like a good father, I must help you in correcting yourself, to show you your mistakes even in the smallest things. To purify you, to give you merit and save you, I must allow great trials, great temptations. At certain moments, I suffer to see you struggle, you, so small, so weak. What do you want, it is necessary. It is the road taken by my Son. At times, I have to walk on my heart. Your director understands what I mean. To show you that I speak to you like a father, I am going to answer your little comment concerning the drawing.
“I wish to have on my right, my Beloved Son, holding the hand of Mary Magdalene, his first conquest in perfect love. On my left, I wish to have the Immaculate Virgin Mary and the Good Thief, her first conquest in pure love.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, did you give her Saint John before giving her the Good Thief?”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little one, I gave first of all to my divine Mother, Saint John, the all pure.”
“By this gesture, it is I who gave him to her. She accepted this child joyfully and with love. My divine Mother, by accepting the Good Thief as her child was her first conquest in love and suffering, that is, it was her first child that she accepted from human nature.
“I, in truth, was her child, that is the Child of the Eternal Father. Consequently, I was from divine nature.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, forgive me but I don’t understand very well. Speak to me, if you please, in order to be understood. Give me the necessary explanation. You know how ignorant I am. My Beloved, how is it that the Good Thief was the first child that my gentle heavenly Mother accepted from human nature? First, you gave her Saint John. He also was from human nature.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one. Forgive me and let me laugh. You are so little to ask questions. It’s amusing. If I always had to talk to you so that your little intelligence could understand me, I can assure you that I wouldn’t say much. In my conversation I am not only talking to you. I am also talking to your director and to souls. There are many things that you wrote under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit and will never know about on this earth its importance or value. This is why I want you to write down everything without asking too many useless questions. Trust me and believe in my word. That’s all”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if I can no longer ask you questions, I wonder what our intimacy will become?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I’m not asking you to never ask me questions, but not to ask useless and indiscreet questions. My dear little one. Come closer. To please you, I am going to answer your question.
“Indeed, Saint John was of human nature like the Good Thief. But Saint John represented the child of pure love in the spiritual order because he was pure from the very first moment of conception, while the Good Thief represented the child of sin but redeemed, purified by love. Ask you director to explain this to you. You are so little.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if I am to ask my director to explain this to me, I must ask him questions. He represents you. I don’t know whether he will answer all these questions.”
– Jesus: “Like me, he knows what he must say and answer a little girl like you. Don’t ask useless and indiscreet questions. You won’t be disappointed. Your director is there to help you, enlighten you, guide you, to give you advice and not to help your curiosity, your lack of confidence.
“In this drawing, do you see the love of the Eternal Father for all his creatures? Do you see the love of the Father for the Son? Do you see the love of the Son for his Mother? Do you see the love of the Mother for her children? Do you see the love of the children for their Creator? Love and confidence are like a chain. If each ring of confidence is welded by love, there is no danger. The chain is solid. It is love and pride that ruins the world. But it is love and humility that will save it.”
Sunday 20 May 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little one, go to church. I want to talk to you. Remember that it is at the Cenacle that my apostles received the visit of the Holy Spirit.”
– Mimi: “My God, give me please the gift of wisdom to always accept your Holy Will and to follow you faithfully. My Beloved, give me please the gift of intelligence to understand perfectly your love and mercy and also to understand the great temptations and all that you expect from me. My Beloved, give me please the gift of counsel so that I may faithfully follow the advice and inspirations of the Holy Spirit, without forgetting the advice of my director. My Beloved, give me please the gift of force to overcome my faults and enemies. Give me the strength to carry my cross. My Beloved, give me please the gift of knowledge to know you better, to serve you and to love you. Give me the knowledge of what is good in order to give you glory and make you known. My Beloved, give me please the gift of piety so that I may be faithful in praying to God and in asking for heavenly help especially in great temptations and final perseverance. My Beloved, give me please the gift of the fear of God in order to avoid the least sin that wounds your Divine Heart and that with the help of God and my director, I may conquer sin and my imperfections.
“Give me please a salutary fear. My Beloved, give me please the gift of Holy love. Increase my faith, my confidence, my love. I am suffering too much. I cannot continue to write.”
Monday 21 May 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, is it with my spinal column that you wanted more?”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little one, my Beloved, for, it is after the heart, the most important piece, the biggest one. It holds everything together. This way, I am able to purify everything.”
– Mimi: “It is true, my Beloved, that I have given everything. I have nothing left.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, there still remains your little heart. It won’t be long, now. The end is near for you. I am so anxious, my Beloved, to have this gentle encounter. I am beginning to count the days when we will love one another during all eternity. Meditate on this. Is it normal for two spouses to live apart from one another? Are you anxious, my Beloved, to live with me forever? Ask your director to help you prepare well for this great journey. He was awaiting the signal. It has arrived. May he help you purify yourself as soon as possible. I order him in the name of my Father to have you follow the program outlined in spiritual life for a soul like yours. He must not hesitate a single moment. Like us, he will have to walk on his heart. You don’t understand. No matter and so much the better. My Beloved, tell me that you will accept everything out of love. Be very obedient to your director. This is very important. All that he wants you to do has been approved by my Father. Let him walk without fear. He has our approval.
“I count on him to return to me my little Beloved spouse that I entrusted to him and that he looked after and respected like an angel. I knew to whom I was entrusting you to. And why him more than another? Another mystery for you. ‘Our secret code forbids to speak about it for now’. Do we tell a small baby everything? Do we explain to it the great problems of life? And is the child preoccupied by all this? No. It is content to be secure in her Father’s arms. She trusts in him because she knows that she is loved and loves him. With me, always be like a small baby. I love you so this way. You console me. Have you noticed an adult, when it loves sincerely, purely? Everything becomes child’s play, is simplified, gestures, words. A simple person is so beautiful. Do you remember the little girl who, one day, tried to act as a grand damsel?”
Tuesday 22 May 1956
– Mimi: I was looking at photos of the season’s debutants.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you should rather call them ‘the season’s failures’. Why admire the photos of debutants, queens of this or that, stars, artists? Why not give an importance to the pictures of young girls who leave the world to become nuns, future spouses of Christ? It isn’t something shameful to want to give God everything.
“When I think about all the money spent for nothing during these worldy encounters, drinks, clothes. I should rather call it an ‘unclothing’ of these so called damsels. It is ridiculous to have them wear a dress that is almost like a piece of white fabric, symbol of grace and purity. The Immaculate Virgin Mary suffers greatly from this. Following this, catholics are afraid to show a picture of their son or daughter in a religious habit! How narrow minded people can be at times. I find that to show the picture of a star, a debutant, etc... is a real disgrace for a society, and that the picture of a religious or a nun is an honor for humanity and for the Church, for it is a new member of the mystical body.”
Friday 1 JUNE 1956
– Mimi: A visit to the hospital. I am happy, it gives me the occasion to see my children who are suffering. My Beloved still has me by the neck. I must wear the felt collar till mid Juin. I have to receive the same treatment.
– Mimi: “My God, I accept everything out of love for you and for souls.”
Saturday 9 JUNE 1956
– Jesus: “My children, you are both deserving. ‘I have allowed this to better understand one another and thus allow you to accomplish your team work’. At a certain moment, your director, with his sacerdotal heart, experienced a little the great mercy and attitude I had towards Mary Magdalene. You don’t understand the importance of this statement? He needed a special grace to understand the situation, to understand his state or yours. He suffered much, as much as you. I also, my children, wept with you. I know that the struggle was terrible. To obey my Father’s orders, I simply had to uphold you with my gaze and hide behind this grace, this great temptation.
“The Eternal Father wept with joy when, in the midst of the tempest and the moment of succumbing, you cried out your s.o.s. to heaven saying : ‘Thank you, my God, for this temptation, for this trial and I thank you three times.’
“I also, my children, wept with joy to see you both accept. I was moved in seeing you both suffer. I looked at you, I could see your poor little heart torn by moral sufferings, your poor body weakened, exhausted by the demon’s attacks. But the time, the duration of this temptation was determined by my Father. If you knew the number of souls that you saved. There were especially two consecrated souls in danger. One was about to die in the state of sin and the other about to commit a mortal sin.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, is it possible for consecrated souls to be damned?”
– Jesus: “Unfortunately, there are some! My dear little one, this is what makes me suffer most. This is why I asked you before to offer up everything. I wanted these sins to be atoned by two consecrated souls. Your director by his priesthood was in a position to atone, in order to save the soul of a priest and you, my soul, consecrated through a mystical union, by your v... you expiated and atoned for the other consecrated soul. I sent you both the same temptations. Only, I was closer to you to sustain you. You don’t know what the agony of a priest who is helpless is like and who feels all the weight of the responsibility of his sacerdotal life weigh on his shoulders like an iron cross.
“It is terrible when my Father is obliged to punish, to chastise a consecrated soul. Pray a lot for them. You do not know the martyrdom of a consecrated soul that has for a second lost its head and as a result lost everything through a mortal sin and who doesn’t have the courage to return to God, plus the circumstances do not permit this soul to see a priest before many days. Out of human respect, it decides to receive communion anyhow. It was especially for this soul that you suffered. Pray a lot for this soul. Do you see the importance of these great temptations? Are you beginning to understand that it is a blessing that I am sending you to expiate, merit and save souls?”
Monday 11 JUNE 1956
– Mimi: I had to send in an application for a disability allowance. I didn’t know what to do.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, in heaven, you won’t need a disability allowance. Don’t do anything before two months. I’ll take care of it. When you will be near me, you will not be considered an invalid. You will have a lot of work to do for your children on earth. You are considered by people as an invalid. Indeed, your poor body isn’t worth much. Your director was right in saying that it was a wreck from head to toe.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you don’t give me a chance. Here you are speaking the same language as my director. Don’t only look at the body! You know, my Beloved, that among ruins you can still find at times some pretty solid rocks.”
– Jesus: “You’re right. Your little head is still hard and your little vanity still solid. After this, you ask me not to look only at the body.”
– Mimi: “I know very well that my poor body is crumbling. I see this every day. I wanted to speak to you about my little soul. With your grace, it seems to me that I did my best to keep the temple in good order and prevent it from crumbling. I don’t count on myself. I know that everything in me is nothing. I am looking at my nothingness.
“But I depend on you, on your love, on your mercy, on your power and I am so convinced of our love, of our union that this is why I was saying that sometimes, among ruins, there are good stones solid enough, since we are more than one. However, my God, increase my love wo that it may be solid like a stone. Please increase my confidence and make it solid like a rock. You know very well that without you I can do nothing.”
– Jesus: “Why yes, my dear little one, my Beloved. I know this very well but it is you who seem to forget it.”
– Mimi: “I know, my Beloved, that I often have a short memory even when I am near you. And when I am in your powerful arms, don’t ask me any questions. I forget everything. I am so happy that I forget everything. I hear your Divine Heart beats that are so loud. Your love is so intense, your words so gentle that I forget everything. When this happens, I let myself be cradled like a spoiled child. Thank you, my Beloved, for your infinite love.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, if only you told me this in moments of great temptations! If your love were as intense! If your confidence were blind! If your simplicity were that of a child!
“My Beloved, dear daughter of my Father, this is all that I ask of you in great temptations. Total abandonment in my arms. My Beloved, in the future when I come with great temptations, look at me with love, confidence. Look at my hands filled with graces of blessings for you and your children.
“A mother does not have the right to refuse to give food to her children who are dying of hunger. Would you be heartless enough to do this? Look at my heart that is open, full of love, always ready to receive you as a refuge in the middle of a storm.
“The great temptations are not only a blessing. They are especially food for the soul. They feed the soul with pure love. They strengthen it in combat, they give confidence. When in danger, they increase total abandonment into the arms of God.”
Tuesday 12 JUNE 1956
– Satan: “My Beloved, make a good confession. You are continually living in sin. See my love. I am giving you a last chance. At each confession, you commit one more sacrilege in what you call your great temptations. So, make a good confession and accuse your temptations for you are misleading your director.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I forbid you to accuse the great temptations as faults, as if they come from you because, first of all,you would be lying to the Holy Spirit. Moreover, you would be sinning against your v.... of obedience to your director who represents me, and, believing that the temptation comes from you, you would commit a sin of pride. Finally, you would gravely offend my Father who is the Truth.”
Wednesday 13 JUNE 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I’m tired of wearing my green dress. I’ve been wearing it for the last eight years.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, think of your baptismal dress. How long did you wear it without soiling it? And for how long did you keep your little dress stained by sin? My dear little Beloved spouse, I even find little stains on your nuptial dress. That is why I ask your director to help me remove these stains. It is a delicate task, for the material is very fragile. Sometimes, the stain is hidden in a crease or next to a pearl. The pearl dazzles the eyes and the stain can hardly be seen and yet, it is there. A good thing your director has good eyesight.
“My Beloved, you are such a child, so clumsy. This is why you must receive the sacrament of penance more often than others in order to remove as soon as possible the least little stain on your soul. Like a little child, isn’t it true that you often fall? In order to keep you standing, to help you take a few steps, your director and I are obliged to hold your hands, and still you fall.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I know that I am little. That is why I continually place myself in your arms like a child.”
There, I am confident, I’m safe and have all I need. I don’t ask for more. I sleep soundly and when I am awakened in a fright by the great temptations, I cry like a baby who is awakened suddenly without knowing why and needs a few minutes to recognize where he is. For me, it is the same.
Friday 15 JUNE 1956
– Mimi: At the hospital, the examination lasted three quarters of an hour. An injection in the spine. I was suffering a lot.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, think about my crown of thorns. Think of the thorns that you entered into my poor head (it wasn’t hard like yours). Yes, the thorns of your pride, your vanities, because of your lack of confidence. I did not receive injections of cocaine to calm the pain. My Beloved, I have to purify you. I want everything. I will take all and that will be all.”
Sunday 17 JUNE 1956
Father’s Day.
– Mimi: I wanted to wear my blue dress. I would have liked to please someone.
– Jesus: “That person, isn’t it you, first of all?”
– Mimi: “Why yes, my Beloved. I would be pleased to wear my little blue dress.”
– Jesus: “Well, offer me this sacrifice in atonement for all your vanities and don’t wear your little blue dress. Think of taking refuge in the arms of your gentle heavenly Mother under her blue mantle. Aren’t you happier this way? Think of repairing the immodesties of your children. Atone for you and for them.”
Monday 18 JUNE 1956
– Mimi: I was writing when, suddenly, I saw a small fly on my paper. I began to meditate.
How powerful is God. How good is God. To think that He thought of this little fly. He gave it life. On earth, it has its use. Like us, it will live and die. What will be left? Nothing. Everything comes from God : life, death. Everything must return to God. Almighty God didn’t neglect anything to create this little fly. Everything is perfect in the least detail; small eyes, so small that I need a magnifying glass to see them.
I was admiring the skill in using its wings, its small legs. Everything has been calculated; the elephant that is so strong, and the fly so small next to it. And both have their own use. There is nothing useless in what God created and yet, how many times, in the past, did I think that my life was useless, without a goal.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am pleased that you found a subject of meditation, even of a little fly. Consider yourself always like a little fly in my hands, and when you are tempted to act as a grand damsel, or to be vain, proud, remind yourself of the elephant that, in spite of its strength, takes big heavy steps. It doesn’t move as fast as the little fly that escapes so easily.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, forgive me, but I had a distraction. This is why I was laughing. I imagined seeing an elephant with wings.”
– Jesus: “This is what you find amusing, since you are little. My Beloved, have you ever seen an elephant with wings?”
– Mimi: “Come now my Beloved, your are making fun of me. You know very well that it does not exist.”
– Jesus: “Yet, my Beloved, this is the picture of what you used to be.”
– Mimi: “Me?”
– Jesus: “Yes, you! With your sinfull life, you took heavy steps. With your pride, you thought you were as strong as an elephant and in spite of everything, you tried to have wings to fly away like a fly. After you die, what will you be? Nothing will be left.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, your comparison is getting stranger all the time. A little while ago, you compared me to a donkey, to a small chicken; my director compared me to a wet chicken. Today, you compare me to an elephant and a fly. I wonder when I come before Saint Peter, how will I identify myself with all these qualifying terms?”
– Jesus: “Don’t trouble yourself. I will be there. I will tell my Father: here is my little Beloved spouse. She has nothing. I give her everything forever and that is all.
“Do you see how important it is to remain in my arms?”
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved for this great lesson. And to think that it is a simple little fly that started all this and ended with an elephant.
“My Beloved, you ask me to always remain like a little fly in your arms. I beg of you not to chase me away. At times, the fly is a nuisance to man. But you understand. And if I bother you too much, it is to show you my love and if I land on your adorable heart, it is in order to never leave you.”
– Jesus: “Fear not, my Beloved. Do you believe that a little fly like you could annoy me if it were there? Am I going to tell you what I think?”
– Mimi: “Why yes, my Beloved. Speak to me and continue your sentence.”
– Jesus: “My little one, if you were a bug, I wouldn’t say this.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I would like to become a little bug. This way, our love would have no respite. I would show you at each moment that I am near you and that I love you.
“I found in the dictionary that the bug feeds on the blood of man. So, I thought of becoming your little bug in order to feed on your Precious Blood. At the same time, it will be easier to crush me if I’m a little bug than if I’m an elephant.”
Saturday 27 JUNE 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am suffering from being penniless. If I were rich, I would like to help in the formation of priests, religious, missionaries, help the poor. I can only offer up my little prayers full of distractions, my small sacrifices that are like sand. I can’t even see them.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, don’t cry. I understand your heart is too big for its means. Console yourself. You have a small gold mine that you can explore. It is your sufferings, your wishes, your daily way of the cross with me. Think also about our intimacy, our love. Think about my Adorable Heart where are hidden all the treasures of love from which you can draw so many favors for you and your children. My Divine Heart is entirely at your disposal.
“You are rich and you don’t know it! Meditate on this : You are living in God’s temple by the state of grace.You are the spouse of a God. You are the privileged child of God, the Father. Consider your life on the spiritual level with the eyes of faith.
“My Beloved, if you were rich on the temporal level, you might not have the wish that you have at this moment, that of attaining your goal of saving souls. And if I gave you all this on the temporal level, you would be so poor in the eyes of God. Offer up your poverty and desires. I will satisfy you, spoiled child of my love.”
Thursday 28 JUNE 1956
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, for the last eight days I have been praying, asking you and tormenting you in order to obtain the healing of my dear mom. I trust in you. You are all powerful on the heart of God. You only have to ask. At the Wedding feast of Cana, you asked for a miracle. It seems to me that the healing of my dear mom is much more important than a cup of wine. You didn’t want the master of the house to be embarrassed. Look at your little girl who is embarrassed from not being able to do anything to relieve my dear mom.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl. I wanted more. Isn’t it true that you are suffering at seeing your mother ill? I wanted to test your confidence, your perseverance in prayer. I will do something for your mom.”
– Mimi: “Thank you, my God. Thank you in advance. I thank you with all my heart.”
Friday 29 JUNE 1956
– Mimi: My director is on retreat from the 24th of Juin to the 3rd of July. I begin my little retreat until the 3rd of July.
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, prepare your retreat in silence and recollection. You must put an end to all your preoccupations. Make your retreat with the little notes that your director wrote especially for you. Meditate especially on the yellow and green pages.”
Sunday 1 July 1956
– Mimi: “Ô Eternal Father, I want to be your little Host of love in order to console you. I offer myself with your Divine Son through the hands of my gentle heavenly Mother and through the sacrifice offered by my director. I throw myself with confidence into your arms and may your Holy Will be done within me according to your saintly wishes.
“With your grace, I will be ready in heart and spirit to accept all the crosses and trials that it will please you to send me for the greater good of my soul. With my gentle heavenly Mother, I want to say my Fiat and thank you once more, my God. I accept once more all that is contained in my little t…
“My Beloved, remove from my heart all that could harm our union. Detach me from vain things, purify me, please help me put things in order in my poor life before our encounter. If you knew, my love, how I find the time long. How I look forward to seeing you face to face, to live with you and love you.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, your desire to live with me is nothing compared to my ardent desire of coming to get you soon.
“My dear little……….. whom I love, whom my Father has chosen as his little daughter, spoiled child of our merciful love.”
Monday 2 July 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little Beloved spouse, I am a little uneasy in telling you this. I would like very much that you clean your little nuptial dress. There are stains on it. I really want you to be clean when I bring you into the presence of my Father, before the Celestial Court. A word of advice. Don’t bring your two hats and your two pairs of gloves that you bought without permission to satisfy your vanity, your pride asleep at the bottom of your little dwelling. You can see now that you must be wary of this monstrous pride that doesn’t always make noise and sometimes seems asleep and yet acts cunningly. So, be prudent. With me, beware of your enemy… Place your trust in me alone. Be obedient to your director. Ask your director to help you clean up your soul. This cleaning must be done ultra rapidly. Let it begin this very day. I will do the rest. Before leaving, everything must be purified.”
Tuesday 3 July 1956
– Mimi: I wasn’t satisfied for my doctor was hiding the truth of my condition from me. I would rather know the truth.
– Jesus: “My poor little one. Our union is in love and suffering. Remember what you accepted in becoming my spouse. This is why no human being will understand what’s wrong with you presently. After your death, they will understand everything. For the time being, your sufferings are mine and for souls.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, please help me prepare my confession on my retreat. It is with love, confidence, a true repentance of my numerous sins that I want to come to you. My enemy is already tormenting me. I place my trust in you. You are my strength, you are the light of my darkness, you are the truth in moments of doubt, you sustain me in my struggles, you are my guide in moments of danger, you are my hope forever. In other words, you are my God, my All, my Infinite love, my Only Love. My Beloved, when will the day come when our union will be complete and our love endless?”
Saturday 7 July 1956
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, you are a well of surprises. For the last six years, your director has been working in this well. The more he digs, the more he discovers other faults, more vanity. What good is there in buying white gloves if your hands are soiled by vanity. And the blue gloves. Is it in a spirit of humility and poverty that you wish to wear them? To expiate and repair this fault, may your director take away the gloves. You must give them to him as soon as possible. I forbid you to wear them.”
Sunday 8 July 1956
– Mimi: A sad birthday. No greetings, kisses from the one who –gave birth to me. Mom has forgotten this day and a few members of my family are indifferent. My director wished me a happy birthday. It was the first time in six years. It won’t take long for me to be forgotten after my death. I’m already forgotten alive. Thank you, my God.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, another year is beginning for me. I offer myself to you and hope that this year will be a year of encounter.”
I went and made a Holy Hour. I wanted to begin this year near him. Time goes by so fast.
At home, a person who lives with us shows me a gift she received from my director. To my great surprise, it was my blue gloves. I had made the sacrifice of giving them to my director but my heart ached in seeing her large hands wearing my delicate little gloves. I looked at her. Her happiness was so great that I forgot my sorrow. Suddenly, she began insisting that I try them on. I began to feel weak. By the grace of God, I put them on and was able to say that they were beautiful and that I was happy for her. I was sincere but it was a bit painful. I didn’t think that the reaction would have been so great. Poor little human nature!
Evening:
– Jesus: “My Beloved, go tell your director what happened this afternoon and tell him about your little reaction.”
So, with courage, I went to see my director and told him everything. And so he began to laugh. Very encouraging! Then, he read to me nine pages (yellow) that he had written. It was far from being wishes, compliments. He began with this sentence : “My dear little stubborn (of n.)” I thought he meant stubborn head of little Peter. So, I ask him and he tells me that ‘n’ meant ‘nitwit’! After this, I resolved not to question him and listen to the end. It was a real deluge. It included everything, pride, vanity, self-love, lies, lack of confidence towards God, towards him, all kinds of ingratitude, my fear of suffering plus, in moments of great temptations, my negligence to write, my preoccupations, my useless visits, everything, and even my white hair, etc. It wasn’t a slight drizzle of rain!
It goes without saying that it was a beautiful day! I accepted it all and I thank God for entrusting me to an enlightened director, firm, a good father who shows me my mistakes and does his best to help me correct my faults and save my soul. He has a very difficult task. I want to help him. Today, my director is walking on his heart and I am trampling on mine. I was thinking of my blue gloves. I was saying to myself that they came from Hong Kong and because of them and of my vanity, my head is being clobbered.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, please give me your hand. I no longer have any gloves.”
TUESDAY 10 JULY 1956
– Mimi: I consider the day I was baptized as the most important and beautiful day of my life. It is more important, more precious than the day of my birth.
Saturday 14 July 1956
– Mimi: I was having great temptations. I was desperate. I was asking my gentle heavenly Mother to come to my aid. The crisis lasted several hours. Suddenly, my director calls me to the phone. I believe that he has a secret code with my gentle heavenly Mother. I can’t explain what went on. I was afraid of him and of even hearing his voice on the phone.
He asked me what was going on and without knowing why, he asks me : “Are you afraid of me?” During this time, my enemy is enraged. I cannot even answer the questions that my director asks me. He orders me to go see him in the afternoon. When the time arrives, I am overcome with fear. I am afraid of my director, that is, of his sacerdotal powers. I had hardly arrived when I was anxious to leave.
My director asks me what is going on within me. I want to answer but I am unable to speak. No sound comes out of my mouth. However, I am never at a loss for words when it comes to criticisms. He then speaks to me about Mary Immaculate and each time, my enemy makes me react in a rage. Then, I look out the window. I could not stand the look of my director. There was a long moment of silence.
– Mimi: Another voice tells me softly :
– Jesus: “Your director is praying. He is suffering. He is weeping because of you. Another sorrow to be added to the other ones.”
– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me for you know in what state I am in.”
My director asks me to kneel and recite the act of humility. I begin. At the word ‘pride’ I begin to giggle. I can’t explain it. My director orders me to begin once more and again I begin to giggle. My director tells me : “I know where these giggles come from”. He blesses while I laugh. I think he raised his voice for I couldn’t make out what he was telling me. I couldn’t understand anything and this made me laugh even more. So, my director said :
– My Director: “The only thing for you to do is to go to the church and stay for two minutes near your heavenly Mother. Ask her to help you. Tell her to come to your aid. As for myself, I will pray and God will do the rest. He has a powerful arm.”
I cannot say what I saw in his gaze. It lasted only a few seconds. It seems to me that it was no longer the same look.
I was moved. I believe it was the look of my Beloved. I cannot explain clearly what took place in such a short time.
In the presence of such a kind and merciful look, I could not flee. Suddenly, I experience a great sorrow, a need to be blessed. Having returned to myself, I ask my director to go to confession. At first, we both offered all these trials to save souls and during absolution, my enemy is in a rage. He wants to make me laugh again. I am aware of this and undertake the struggle. I know that I am not alone.
– Mimi: “My God, please help me. I don’t want to laugh at your sacrament. I can’t understand the state I am in. I thought I was losing my mind. I couldn’t believe that my enemy could make me laugh during the temptation. My God, I offer you everything.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, weren’t you surprised at this new temptation, more dangerous than the others. It was the first time that your director witnessed this and in thirty-six years of priesthood, it was the first time for him to hear and see such a thing. Yet, during seventy-four years, he saw and heard many things. My Father arranged this trial. You must undergo it. Accept it without understanding. Thank God for allowing your director to be near you. Did you notice that this new temptation arrived just before the departure of your director? What would it have been like to undergo this trial in front of a priest who does not know about the situation? Do you see my goodness? Have you noticed that during the great temptations, your director is always near you as he will be at the moment of your imminent death?
“Do you remember when I told you that you would undergo great temptations that I allow my friends to have but that you would never be alone? Through this, I want you to atone, merit and save souls. Our team is complete and in unison for the greater glory of God and the salvation of souls.”
Sunday 15 July 1956
– Mimi: Near to my Gentle Heavenly Mother.
– Mary: “My dear little girl, take note of the date : 15 July 1956. What would you say if I came to get you next month?”
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, you know how anxious I am to be with all of you, but this doesn’t give me much time, a month to repair, expiate, prepare for eternity. You know how much I need time to repair, to house clean my soul. I am so poor. My hands are empty. I am only your poor little girl in yor motherly arms. However, I give you my heart. Please keep it near to your heart so pure, now and at the hour of my death. Ô Immaculate Virgin, I love you. I entrust to you my whole life, my death, my eternity.”
– Mary: “My dear little girl, if you died suddenly today, would you be ready to bring what is needed for a long journey? Don’t worry, my dear little one, trust me, fear not. Isn’t it up to the mother to prepare, to help her little daughter pack her things in order to undertake a long trip? Before leaving, she gives a last glance at everything in order to see whether she has all that she needs, and if per chance there is something missing, she hurries to give it to her. Trust me. Didn’t I help you when your soul was dead? No, my dear little girl, do not fear.
“Death is but a gentle slumber and a joyful awakening. Abandon yourself into my motherly arms. I will cradle you near to my Divine Heart.
“I will put you to sleep like a little baby. When you wake up, your Spouse will be there to receive you into his arms forever. Yes, you, a poor little girl, so small, a dear child of God the Father, a spouse of my Beloved Son, a child spoiled by divine love, you, the smallest, the poorest, the most miserable of my children. I love you as a tiny baby in my arms. Does a mother let her tiny baby leave alone on a trip? No. Of course not. She carries it on her heart especially if the child is fragile and has been entrusted to her by God.”
– Mimi: “My God, I trust in you. I accept everything and may your Holy Will be done within me for your glory and the salvation of souls
Tuesday 16 July 1956
– Mimi: I was doing some sewing. I was offering each stitch as an act of love, acts of thanksgiving, acts of perfect contrition. I adore him present in me. I adore the Holy Trinity living in the temple where I am dwelling.
– Jesus: “Leave your work behind and come and chat with me more intimately, that is, come and put your little sheets in order for you promised to write and this, you must do. Later you will understand. However, keep our conversations a secret, except for your director.”
Wednesday 18 July 1956
– Mimi: Great fatigue from the temptations. I feel a distaste for prayer. I go to the church just the same.
– Mimi: “I come before you with a heart full of love. I don’t have the strength to pray, my mind wanders. I don’t find the words to tell you all I would like to say. Yet, consider my misery, my deprivation. I never felt so poor, so alone. I am before you like a monument. How can my little heart remain so cold, so indifferent after so many signs of love?
“My Beloved, I am suffering a lot. I would like so much to love you as you deserve, love you like no other creature has ever loved you. I cannot sincerely say that my heart is free. There is still something that escapes me. I cannot explain, I cannot understand this state and I am afraid. But in your infinite goodness, remember our union, our love when I was so pleased to become your little spouse forever. In spite of the state I am in, I do not want to retract the offering of my whole being to your merciful love. Please sustain me, keep me in your powerful arms and let me weep on your Divine Heart. I need you. I am afraid. The devil doesn’t stop tormenting me and the temptations are getting more and more violent. Consider my misery.
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, consider your child, see her distress. Don’t let your little girl who is struggling in a storm perish. Mother, Mother, you cannot remain insensitive to the cries of your child who is suffering. I beg you, please come to my aid.”
Thursday 19 July 1956
– Mimi: I was looking at someone who was going on a trip and I had a moment of weakness, of regret saying :
– Mimi: “I also would like to take some rest, go on holidays or on a beautiful trip.”
– Jesus: “Don’t be sad, my Beloved. In a short while, we will go on a long trip. Finally, you will be near me forever. You will be all mine and only mine. Offer me more by sacrificing the most little distraction allowed. I want more in order to give you more.”
Friday 27 July 1956
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved, for allowing me to receive you. I was so sick. Thank you for helping me to reach home. Now, my Beloved, please give me the strength and courage to go to the hospital. Come with me. I am always alone and I am so happy for I can work freely. I can offer up more because I am closer to my children.”
I can only laugh now in seeing how things are going. In the past, I had to accompany me a whole delegation of parents, father, mother, sister, brother, brother-in-law, friends to the hospital for a simple little test. Today, I have to undergo a painful treatment. I am so sick that I can barely walk. There isn’t a part of my poor body that isn’t suffering and I am all alone. My father is deceased. My mother is too sick. The others are too busy to accompany me. They have no time to lose with me. Fortunately, I always have with me my Beloved who is present within me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I offer you this in atonement for my sins. In the past, how many times you were alone to suffer and I didn’t find the time to keep you company? I sincerely ask your forgiveness. I thank you for giving me what I need to repair, atone. Thank you especially for your merciful love. Thanks for everything. Without a special grace, I wouldn’t even have been able to reach the hospital alone and accept the situation. Thank you in the name of my children for the great temptation and also for the injection in my spine.”
Saturday 28 July 1956
Confession - Great temptations.
– Mimi: My enemy suggests all kinds of things that I don’t dare write down out of respect for my Beloved present in me.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, when I think of it. A half hour of great temptations. I’m exhausted. My director also seems very tired, exhausted. At his age, it isn’t easy to have to direct my soul. His task is thankless at times, especially when I insult him. I don’t always understand.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I find that you have saved souls inexpensively! For only a half hour of suffering, of temptations. Do you believe that age has a limit for saving a single soul? I underwent three hours of agony! And thirty-three years of work that was almost useless! My sufferings are incalculable. Are you going to begin calculating the little half hour you give me each week? I should rather say that I take each week from you in spite of you! Aren’t you ashamed? Are you perspiring? It’s a good thing that your director has offered it all and doesn’t calculate it like you! He knows so well the value of souls. As for you, you only know yourself. Between both of us, you aren’t much. You are so tiny in my hands.
“Ask your director to explain how he understands so well the value of a single soul. As for myself, I will help you better understand, don’t get discouraged.”
“Continue to pray each day to the Holy Spirit. Don’t forget! A whole life in you needs to be re-shaped! You need to receive a complete spiritual education. You know where you are from? So, let me work freely in you, transform your soul to render it agreeable to my Father.”
Wednesday 1 August 1956
– Jesus: “How is it that after all I have done for you, you would like to keep the photo of when you were in a state of sin? Where your smile was only a mask! My Beloved, if I could show you a photo of the beauty, the splendor of your soul presently in the state of grace, especially in moments of great temptations. If you could see the picture of our dwelling within you. Believe me, my Beloved, after seeing for only a second this image, you would never commit even the shadow of the smallest fault for the beauty of divine grace is powerful and is transformed in a little soul. It is a hidden treasure that only simple and humble souls can discover with a special grace that God gives to a few privileged souls. For the time being, because you are blind, you are still unable to contemplate this marvel.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if I could borrow my director’s glasses, I can assure you that he sees clearly the smallest little detail.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, it wouldn’t change anything to wear the glasses of your director. He looks with the eyes of pure faith, of limitless confidence. I repeat. You are still blind. Have you ever seen a blind person wear glasses? What would you say if you saw a newborn with glasses?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, this makes me laugh for it is ridiculous.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, will you laugh if I tell you that you are a newborn in spiritual life?
“You are blind. Your eyes are still not open to all that I expect from you. However, put on the glasses of confidence. One day, you will be healed from your spiritual infirmity. Walk without fear with your guide for he isn’t blind! He knows the road that leads to us. There is only one road. The one I took in order to teach you how to walk in accordance with the Holy Will of my Father. A road of love through suffering, a direct road to perfect happiness. A mysterious road, a painful road, a glorious road.”
Thursday 2 August 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I know that you spoke to me this morning, but, I’m sorry to say that I had a distraction and finally I forgot everything. My Beloved, I would like to know what you wanted to tell me.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, I spoke to you about your lack of adaptation in spiritual life. To punish you and correct you from your preoccupations, I should remain silent but my love for you makes me forget everything. I love you in spite of it all. I said this :
“My Beloved, there is still something missing in our intimacy. You don’t seem to understand what I expect from you, what my Father wants from you! There is in you a lack of adaptation to God’s plan. You don’t seem to realize God’s intentions for you, ô privileged child of our love. Do you understand what your mission entails? To give everything out of pure goodness by my Father for the salvation of souls.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, it seems to me that I have given up everything. What more do you want? You know, my Love, that I place myself each day with you on the cross. I offer myself with you, to God the Father, through the hands of my gentle heavenly Mother and the offering of the Holy Sacrifice offered by your representative on earth. You know the bottom of my little heart. You know that I want to do my best to please God the Father and that my only wish is to fulfill my duty as a spouse by loving you more and more.
“You know my ideal of saving many souls in order to give glory to God. You also know how much I need to atone, to correct myself. Please help me. It is in your interest to answer my confident prayer. Without you, I can do nothing.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I know that you place yourself each day with me on the cross but you are not yet fastened to the cross. Let your director enlighten you on this. I count on him for he has known for a long time what we want from you.”
Friday 3 August 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, please help me understand. Make my head solid.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, don’t ask me for this. Your head is solid enough. Ask, rather, that I make by my grace your poor little will more flexible and more supple to the least inspiration of the Holy Spirit, that it may be docile to divine grace, and in conformity with the Holy Will of God. That’s all.”
– Mimi: After communion, I was looking at the statue of the Sacred Heart. I asked him :
– Mimi: “My Beloved, when will you smile? You seem so sad. It seems to me that I am doing my best to please you.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, do you believe I can be smiling when I see you with all your preoccupations for other things besides me, your spouse? I am anxious that you begin your little retreat. We will make an inventory of your poor little life. We will also make a budget of all you received and spent uselessly in the spiritual and temporal order. Together we will figure out all you have given me. There is so little.”
Saturday 4 August 1956
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I want you to prepare the feast of the Assumption of the Immaculate Virgin Mary by making a little three day retreat in silence, meditation, if possible, in solitude, prayer and mortification. So, we must put our little house in order. Recently, you have neglected the upkeep of our dwelling too much. The dust is accumulating. You are too preoccupied and our intimacy is suffering.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t know what to do. Preoccupations come from persons who need to confide in me, to be encouraged, to be helped. Isn’t it a duty of charity towards my neighbor to try to help them? Even you, my Beloved, during your public life, you mixed with the crowd.”
– Jesus: “Of course, my dear little one. During my public life, I was with everyone. I came for everyone. I gave myself to everyone but I wasn’t preoccupied by them to the point of forgetting my mission, of forgetting to do the Holy Will of My Father, of forgetting at times his presence, of forgetting that he is my Father. My sole preoccupation was to accept out of love to do the Holy Will of my Father for the salvation of souls. (Meditate this. Have you ever heard me speak about this?) Do you have short term memory?”
“My Beloved, your first duty of charity is towards us, towards me, your Beloved Spouse and let me tell you that you are doing more for your neighbor by praying in silence than in speaking for at times there is in you contentment, natural satisfaction, vanity for phrases that don’t come from you but from the Holy Spirit. (Examine yourself on this.)
“You are saving more souls by remaining at home writing for our intimacy is more important than anything. In writing about our intimacy, that is, about the story of our lives, you are doing the Will of my Father. My Beloved, if you only wrote about the story of your poor little life, I can assure you that it wouldn’t be worth writing at all. But in writing about the story of your poor little life with me, you and me, me in you, by writing about the intimacy of our love and in describing our union in love and suffering, the souls will understand my infinite mercy, my love for poor souls like yours. They will understand better how Divine love can transform a poor little soul for you have been like Mary Magdalene, the prodigal son, Peter, Thomas, without naming the others. By writing, you are enlightening and helping your director a lot.”
– Mimi: “Me, helping my director? I don’t see how. You can’t be serious.”
– Jesus: “I’m very serious. Why yes, my Beloved, you are helping one another. I wouldn’t have told you this six years ago! And I even wonder if you are going to believe me today. You needed him and he needed you. This is how it is in the mystical body. All of its members must be useful, helping one another. Sometimes, the smallest one needs the stronger one and then, one day, the stronger one needs the smallest one.
“My Beloved, one day, I had to become little in order to conquer the world, to save the world, not by my strength, my power, but by what is most simple, love. Think about this. What would you say if, one day, your little heart refused to work saying ‘my body is bigger, stronger, let it take care of itself’? What would your body become without the help of your little heart?
“All that counts in your life is, first of all, love and present conformity to the Holy Will of God, an adaptation to God’s divine plan for you, a boundless generosity in the service of God and souls, a greater love of the cross, of sufferings, especially in moments of great temptations, to please God and obtain the salvation of souls.”
Sunday 5 August 1956
– Jesus: “Your director has something to ask of you but is a bit hesitant. Tell him on my part to speak. I will help you understand.”
– Mimi: “Thank you, my God. I am so happy to know this. I was caught up in a spider’s web made up of my sins, my faults, my failures, my lack of confidence. I was present but didn’t dare budge. I was numb. But today, my director tore the web to allow me to breathe freely, in order to free myself from this awful web. After that, my director asked me to give up something I liked very much. Poor Jesus! I who thought I had given you everything! Poor human nature! I thank you, my Beloved, for allowing me to understand, to accept it with love. I offered it all. It is so little. I am so happy. I thank my director for helping me and enlightening me. I am so happy that I seem to have wings.”
– Jesus: “Don’t talk too fast. It is still hot and you could be tempted to use what you gave up today. Be careful for you could easily wet your wings when being tempted. Do you know the story of the little wet hen?”
Wednesday 8 August 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, the other day, you told me that after my death, I wouldn’t be considered an invalid and added : ‘You will have a lot to do for your children’. I wonder what I must do to accomplish my duty as a spouse and yet remain all yours. I couldn’t divide myself between you and my children since you desire a total giving of myself to you.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, is this your great problem? Aren’t you my spouse forever? Isn’t our union based on love and suffering? The souls you call your children are also mine! Am I not their Father? In a union of two beings, in a situation of pure love, does the spouse love her children at the expense of the father? And when this spouse is God, do you think that family life vanishes? That the love for one another must diminish? Love and duty are never separate! At my birth, my Father entrusted me with two spouses that made up the Holy Family. Believe me, my little one, my Beloved, in heaven, you will continue to love me. You will accomplish your duty as a spouse while loving your children on earth.”
Friday 10 August 1956
– Mimi: At the hospital while the doctor was giving me a spinal injection, he asked his assistant, Dr. X : ‘I’m going on holidays, how about you?’ She answered : ‘I will be bored, but I’m happy for you.”
– Mimi: Afterwards, my Beloved said to me :
– Jesus: “You, my Beloved, what would you do if I went away, if I went on holidays?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I think I would die of grief. You love me too much. You wouldn’t go far without your poor little girl.”
– Jesus: “And you, my dear little spouse, how do you think I feel when you distance yourself from me because of your preoccupations?”
Saturday 11 August 1956
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you are about to undergo three great temptations that are so dangerous. I must ask you for more! If only you knew the number of souls that offend me especially on weekends and during the holidays. The number is incalculable. These souls fly as rapidly as butterflies toward sin, toward eternal death. Give me your consent. Go to your director. Accept, both of you, in order to save souls. You know that he also suffers.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, does my director suffer more than I during the great temptations, for you tell me that he also suffers?”
– Jesus: “My dear little curious one, your question is indiscreet. So, there will be no answer for my little Eve. You will find out after your death. However, the suffering is well shared. You each have your share and I have mine. Your director suffers one way and you suffer another way. As for myself, I suffer with you both. That is all. All that counts in the eyes of my Father is the acceptance, the conformity to his Holy Will and all this is accomplished with pure love, with confidence, to please my Father and save souls, many, many souls.
“My Beloved, in 1956, I will still be able to repeat these words : I thirst, give me souls. Offer me often your love, as if it were a cup filled with fresh water. May it be as clear as water from a pure spring, that is, without the dust of your failures. Then, I will be able to drink, to quench my thirst. I need your little heart, your love to quench my thirst. The day will come when your director, I and you will drink from the same cup.”
– Mimi: “Excuse me, my Beloved, why do you say ‘your director, I and you’?
– Jesus: “My Beloved, am I not the hyphen between you? Poor little one! To interrupt me for so little! You are just like a child who cannot wait for the end of a conversation before asking useless questions.
“So, I continue. For the time being, at times, you will drink from a chalice filled with bitterness. My two children, when I arrive with the great trials and present you with my chalice to drink, accept everything, be confident and notice at the end after having accepted it, you will always find at the bottom of the chalice a drop of my Precious Blood and of my love to comfort my children whom I love.
“After each trial, temptation, thank me sincerely from the bottom of your heart, not because the trial is over but for the great favor, the great blessing that I have sent you out of love to help you atone, merit and save souls that will give us glory for all eternity.”
Wednesday 15 August 1956
Feast of the Assumption.
After communion
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t know what’s going on in me. I think I’m going to faint. My heart-beat is weak. Help me, please! I have the impression that my life is hanging by a thread.”
– Jesus: “Of course not, my Beloved, my dear little Beloved spouse, my little treasure that I love. What you believe to be a weak spell is nothing other than my love. You have not yet experienced the fever of two beings in love, that is, the fever of my love for you, poor little creature. My Beloved, up until now, you have only experienced my embrace. In the last three days, you have offered me more. So, I wanted to give you a little more. See how powerful is my love. My Beloved, when you die, you will receive more than an embrace, a moment of exhilaration. What you will receive from my Father, what I will give you, your poor little heart won’t take. You will then die a victim of my love. My dear little one, if you knew what I have in store for you when you die, you would beg me to come and get you right away. If you would think more about our gentle encounter, you would have an unlimited confidence. You would accept everything.”
Thursday 16 August 1956
– Mimi: “My director told me that God would come and get me when the fruit is ripe. But you, my Beloved, who knows my ardent desire to love you even more, who understands my love for you, I beg you, please send me the divine rays of your love to ripen me as quickly as possible and even if you wish, you could come and get me, remove me from this earth full of misery and in which I am always afraid of losing you through sin.
“You could transplant me into your Divine Heart where your merciful love will ripen my love for you alone, my God and my All.”
Sunday 19 August 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I think that you went on a little vacation this past weekend.”
– Jesus: “You are right, my Beloved. I was counting on you to work, to save souls.”
– Mimi: “Yes, but this way, I worked on Sunday and also gave work to my director.”
– Jesus: “Don’t worry. By working in the spiritual realm, that is, by working to save souls, weren’t you both doing the will of my Father? Who will judge you? Think about the souls that you have surely saved.”
Monday 20 August 1956
– Mimi: I had to use the great means three times to overcome this temptation. Each time I asked the Immaculate Virgin to help me, my enemy became enraged.
My enemy, imitating the voice of my gentle heavenly Mother said :
– Satan : “Go away, hypocrite! I can do nothing for you. So, remove your mask of false humility in front of your director. Show yourself as you really are. Stop acting the comedy with your soul. It is a dangerous game. Your salvation is at risk. Don’t go to confession. You have nothing to say. You invent lies. At each confession, you believe that you are chosen by God to save souls. You believe that you are meriting and you make sacrilegious confessions. Like a mother speaking to her child, listen to me. You merit hell with your hideous conduct. You are abusing the sacraments. Your director is beginning to understand your little game. That of playing a comedy, pretending you are a good little girl and wasting his time, distracting him in his work.
“After six years, he is tired of you, of your lies, of your pride, of your lack of confidence. He knows very well that you are not sincere. He is anxious to find the occasion of abandoning you completely. You won’t be able to deceive God for very long. My Son sent him to help you but he is incapable of fulfilling his task because Satan has taken you over. Your director is going to say that it is my Son who allows this, that they are temptations and yet, it is the truth. It isn’t the first time that I ask him to exorcise you but in his pride as a priest, he doesn’t like taking orders.
“My Son is too honest to allow a damned soul to deserve saving souls. You know that your mission is to lose souls. You have all that it takes. You were always successful. For the time being, you have a good subject in hand. As you can see, I can do nothing for you, for your salvation. My Son is not obliged to make a miracle for you. It’s been a long time since God rejected you. What more do you want? So, no matter what you do, you are already damned. That is all I have to say to you.”
Tuesday 21 August 1956
– Mimi: Great temptation against faith.
My director was explaining something to me. I was watching him when suddenly he told me :
– My Director: “You seem to understand nothing of what I am saying! You are looking at me with an insignificant expression on your face.”
– Mimi: He did not know that I was suffering physically in my head. My pride was suffering even more.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved for helping me. I simply smiled and said nothing out of love for you.”
Wednesday 22 August 1956
– Jesus: “My Beloved, your eyes play an important role in your life. They are like a two edge sword. On one hand, they will do a lot of good. On the other, a lot of harm. Be aware that all that goes on in you is reflected in your look. Your joys, spiritual consolations, your love for me, your moral and physical sufferings, especially in great temptations. My Beloved, I would not have spoken of this six years ago for your were still wearing your mask of hypocrisy.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I wonder what I am to do. I surely can’t remove my eyes or change their expression! I am not going to wear sun glasses.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I know that you must keep them the way they are, since, I am the one who gave them to you.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, now I really have insignificant eyes because I cannot understand what you mean. You tell me that my eyes will do good, and yet that they will also be dangerous. Then, you add that I must keep them the way they are. How can my eyes be a danger when they reflect your presence within me?”
– Jesus: “Wasn’t I right, my Beloved to say that you are as blind as a newborn in spiritual life? I was speaking about your eyes especially in the spiritual realm.
“Your eyes can be a danger if they try to see, to scrutinize God’s plan, if you try to see the distance you have made, instead of looking with the eyes of faith, the road that you must follow in order to reach us. This is called ‘spiritual curiosity’ and is very dangerous especially for consecrated souls, privileged souls. Now, on the natural level, it is also dangerous. Be blind to the things of the world. Close your eyes to all kinds of desires and preoccupations. There are many examples that your director will show you. A simple look can trouble at times another person.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you don’t tell me that my look is dangerous when I look at you eye to eye! You aren’t afraid! My Beloved, how many times I don’t say a word. We simply look at one another with love and you are so happy and we understand one another. Yet, they are the same eyes.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I understand the language of the eyes. Remember Mary Magdalene. A single look of love was enough to conquer her heart. And you, my Beloved, I conquered your little heart even if my Holy Shroud was covered! Do you remember Good Friday? Even though my eyes were closed, you felt the presence of my look filled with love and mercy for you, poor little girl of yesterday. My Beloved, today, during the great temptations, at certain moments, you can’t even open your eyes and when you look at your director, it is filled with hatred and scorn.
“Do you think you are able to change your look and have one that is gentle, clear, calm, serene, sympathetic?
“So you admit that I allow this for you to atone, merit and save souls. I allow Satan to act on your sensitivity, your senses and even your look.
“Only your director can understand through your eyes for they reflect the lamentable state, the martyrdom, the moral and physical suffering you are having at that time. So now, my Beloved, are you going to be able to open your little eyes? Are you going to look with eyes of faith at the spiritual life? Do you need to put on the glasses of confidence?”
Thursday 23 August 1956
– Mimi: “My God, I am a very weak instrument to be working for you.”
– Jesus: “I know. This is why I chose you! Nothing is impossible when God holds in his powerful hand a weak and little instrument like you.”
Friday 24 August 1956
– Jesus: “Entrust me with your mother every day. I entrusted my Mother to Saint John, my beloved disciple. He was a human being and I wasn’t afraid for her. But you entrust your mother to a God. What have you to fear? Poor little human nature still very much alive. I understand you so well and love you in spite of it all. My little host of love, purified in my merciful love and whom I await each day!”
Sunday 26 August 1956
– Jesus: “Finally the day has come where your spirit is free. Come close to my Divine heart. Rest your poor little head on my shoulder. Close your eyes to better taste my words. Open your ears. Listen carefully. I have something to tell you.
“My Beloved, I want to tell you that what I expect from you is love, yes, lots of love. Especially a great love of suffering and of the cross. I want a heart that is free, without affection for created things, a flexible spirit to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. A mind without preoccupations. I want a will that is firm in combat, unlimited courage in the face of the enemy. I want a generous soul in the service of God, a soul humble and simple towards his neighbor, a soul charitable in helping all the souls of your children, even the souls in purgatory.
“My Beloved, my dear little one, I want to make you a little saint. Not a great saint for you are too little for that. I simply want to have a little saint that is all mine, always ready to console me, to love my Father, to love me for you know that in heaven there are at times preoccupations to relieve human misery. My Divine Mother is so busy. She intercedes constantly for her children on earth. The saints all have their occupations to relieve human misery and, at times, we remain for a few seconds without receiving any love. It seems like an eternity.”
– Mimi: “But, my Beloved, little Theresa who loves you so much, must surely love you even more. There is Mary Magdalene who was constantly looking for you on earth. She surely doesn’t leave you often alone!”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, notice that I am not complaining, just noticing. The little Theresa loves me more than ever but she is able to scatter her roses on earth and this keeps her very busy. Mary Magdalene doesn’t waste her time. She looks for sinners. She finds repentant souls and gives them to me. She no longer has to look for me for she has found me for all eternity.
“All that I want you to become is a little saint who loves me, consoles me, and who suffers with me. A soul where I can always take refuge and rest. A soul to chat with me, a soul to cry with me about human miseries.
“My little treasure of love, I especially want your love, so scarce in this world, so important for me. I want your little soul to love me :
A soul that is free,
A soul that is considerate,
A soul that smiles,
A soul obedient to the Spirit,
A soul that is humble,
A soul that is full of the Divine,
A soul that I want to hide way down in my Divine Heart forever.
“My little host of love, tell me that you accept. Everything is so little compared to my infinite love for you, my spouse who is mine, all mine.
“To be certain of our love, I want you to renew your commitment from your t…. in the presence of my representative. My Beloved, I want all of you, I will take all and that will be all.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am all yours. With your grace, I accept everything with love. Thank you for your merciful love. Ô Eternal Father, thank you. I am not worthy of so much love. When I think that out of pure goodness, out of love, God looks upon me, so little, so miserable. My God, why do you love me so after so much ungratefulness.?”
– Eternal Father: “My dear little girl, do not try to understand my infinite love. It is out of love for your poor little soul that I sent my Son to redeem you and that, in spite of your indignity, I entrusted him to you and gave him to you as a Spouse. He who loves you so, meditate on this. Meditate especially on your role as a spouse of Christ.”
Tuesday 28 August 1956
– Mimi: Departure of my piano. Only my Beloved and my director can understand the state I am in. I am so happy on the spiritual level.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, out of love for you and in a spirit of sacrifice, I will keep secret what is going on within me, within my poor human nature.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, Thank you. You know that in life, to make others happy, there has to be sacrifices. We have to leave things behind. Am I not everything for you?”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I know that you are everything for me but look at me and with my poor little nature, let me weep for a few minutes at your feet and that will be all.”
Friday 31 August 1956
– Mimi: At the hospital, an x-ray of the liver. I am anxious for the results but have to wait eight days.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, what would you say if I asked to have an x-ray of your faith in moments of great temptations? Would you be anxious for the results? To show me a copy?”
– Mimi: “No, my Beloved. I wouldn’t be anxious but rather ashamed.”
– Jesus: “So, my Beloved, offer me more today. My dear children, I expect a lot from you today. It’s Friday.”
– Mimi: A temptation that lasted an hour and a half (kneeling). I think that my director was suffering more than I.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my Beloved for your help.”
Without a special grace, I would never have been able to put up with this long and difficult temptation. I was already exhausted from having spent the morning at the hospital and weakened by a prolongued fasting.
In the church after the great temptation.
– Mimi: “Mother, I come to you for some rest. I am so exhausted.”
I was looking at my gentle heavenly Mother. She was so beautiful. Suddenly, a gentle peace takes hold of my soul, a calm, a joy that I cannot explain.
– Mimi: “Ô Immaculate Virgin, my Mother, I love you, I trust in you and I thank you.”
To my great surprise, I had come to rest and I was still on my knees, feeling no fatigue. I don’t know how long I was in this position. All I know is that time went by very fast.
Sunday 2 September 1956
– Mimi: I was watching the birds fly. How I would like to be in their place, free, and not bound to this earth.
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, it is easy for you to be like a little bird. Sometimes you have the brains of a bird. What could prevent you from flying towards me? What prevents you from being free? True, your wings are so small. You are so weak and could easily fall.”
Monday 3 September 1956
– Mimi: I had just finished reading the yellow pages in which my director was making remarks that I deserved. As I read this, I said to my Beloved :
– Mimi: “Don’t you think that my director is going a bit too far?”
– Jesus: “Why no, my Beloved. I approve him. There is no limitations in directing your soul and keeping you humble. It is you who are going too far by making this remark. You are very wrong and you have offended me. Don’t forget that he who despises you despises me. When you are in error, would you like your director to close his eyes, write on white pages, sign a certificate of good behavior, shake your hand congratulating you for your faults? Do you think you deserve praise when your weakness depends on a few strains of white hair? Believe me, my Beloved, I am well pleased with the beautiful work of your director. But I can’t say the same for you. After this, are you still going to make remarks on the actions of your director who represents me and to whom I entrusted the direction of your little soul.”
Thursday 6 September 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, when I am in your arms I forget everything. I am so happy.”
– Jesus: “True, my Beloved. And I when I am at the center of your great temptations, I forget everything, that I am with my loved one. A good thing your director is there! Do you see the importance of being two to offer and why I ask you both to offer?”
Friday 7 September 1956
– Mimi: “My God, grant me to see, to hear, to walk.”
Until now, I was on the cross with my Beloved, but, he made me understand that I still wasn’t attached to the cross with him. I was well adapted to physical suffering, but not enough to moral suffering. I was afraid of crossing the somber tunnel of spiritual aridity and of great temptations. I don’t have a minute to lose. God wants it all. He will take it all and that will be all from my poor little nothingness. I need his love so much to sustain me, to follow him. It won’t be long. There was only the head and heart that was left. The doctors are talking about an operation of the spinal column. A good thing it isn’t in the fifth column. In time of war, it would be dangerous.
Monday 24 September 1956
– Mimi: On the tenth, I had a heart attack and the pain was getting worse. My family called the doctor in an emergency disturbing him for so little. When he arrived, he gave me an injection and said :
– Doctor: “For now, I don’t think it’s necessary to call the priest and if, however, there is a relapse, you are ready for heaven.”
– Mimi: “Such is the opinion of a human being, my Beloved.”
This made me smile. I was saying to myself : he is much more ill than I when he talks this way. I didn’t think that he was so blind. He didn’t know that in the spiritual life, I was very sick, full of infirmities and very weak. I am like a newborn. I don’t see very clearly. I can’t walk alone. That is why I drag myself when I am too tired. My Beloved leans over me, takes me in his arms and lets me rest on his adorable heart and I remain there like a child spoiled by grace and merciful love.
Wednesday 26 September 1956
– Mimi: I was preparing the confession of my retreat.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, give me drink. I thirst. Give me your sins, your imperfections, your failures of each day, your miseries, your faults, your joys. Yes, I thirst and I want to be satisfied.”
– Mimi: “How can all my sins, my Beloved, satisfy you? They are so shameful, so ugly, so contemptible, so repulsive!”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, isn’t it for them that I shed my Divine Blood? It certainly isn’t for your merits that I gave you all this. Give me all your sins. Give me all of them and throw yourself with them into the infinite ocean of my mercy. Do you understand my merciful love? My Beloved, my dear little spouse, the more your are full of misery, the more I love you. Such is the infinite love of a God for his poor little creature. In return, all that he wants is pure love.
“Come, come, I am waiting for you with extended arms to receive you as the prodigal child, with an open heart to forgive you like Mary Magdalene. In the presence of your sincere love, your confidence, your repentance, I will tell you like the good thief : ‘My Beloved, this very day, I will remember you in my kingdom but especially in my heart.”
Thursday 27 September 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, may there be nothing between us.”
– Jesus: “Fear not, my Beloved. I am watching over him like I am watching over you. I have no negative comments to make. He respects you as a consecrated host and you respect him as you do me. To re-assure you, you know how you felt the other day when you received the gift. It is quite natural in your case. In spite of your age, your little affectionate nature remains childlike. This is what pleases me. You do well to control your sincere feelings in front of everyone. However, you must not exaggerate by remaining or seeming indifferent to what we are doing to you or to what we are giving you. Be natural, little, humble when being thankful and remain sincere. My Beloved, this is why I chose you, that I took possession of your little heart, so that it would not be divided. I knew you with your little affectionate nature. This is why that in order to satisfy your little heart, I have received you into mine. You please me so much when you suffer and approach me to speak to me about simple love. You know what happens between us?
“Isn’t it true that only Divine Love can produce this effect in your little soul? Remember especially my embrace on Good Friday and the little medal! Yes, we spent such memorable moments in love and suffering.”
– Mimi: “You know, my Beloved, how affectionate my little heart becomes in your presence.”
– Jesus: “My little treasure of love, I know you so well. Continue having in my presence a warm heart burning with love for me alone. But be careful with your little affectionate nature. With your little warm heart, it isn’t a reason for burning others even by writing to them. You know what I mean.”
Friday 28 September 1956
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am more strict with you than with others. Your faults, your mishaps, your imperfections, I consider them serious for they are against your God, your Spouse. And a spouse chosen by God cannot allow herself to offend him in the slightest way. It is to insult him after all that he has given you out of love. I want you to be so pure, to render you agreeable to my Father before the final encounter. Think about what our eternal union will be like.”
Saturday 29 September 1956
– Mimi: “Thank you, my God, I am so happy to have once more given you everything. I was so anxious to receive you. It seemed to me that I was receiving you for the first time. My Beloved, this is too much. I don’t deserve this. I have finally found what I was looking for, peace of soul, of heart and especially of the mind. I am free. Yes, free for him alone, with love and confidence. I jump into your powerful arms forever.
“Now, my only preoccupation will be to do and accept your Holy Will at all times in order to show you my love and gratitude and to save souls.
“You know, my Beloved, that sometimes my desires are great and my actions slow. However, consider my good will, my efforts, my struggles. But especially my love. With your grace, I want to follow you faithfully and refuse you nothing.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, it is by a special privilege that I use you to offer, to suffer with me for the salvation of souls. Love me, especially when I come with the great temptations, the trials. Kiss the cross lovingly each day. It is in preparation of what I expect, of what I have in store. Thank me each time I ask you for more and be generous, faithful as a spouse of Christ.
“My little treasure, my Beloved, the last stage of your life has begun. It will perhaps not be long before the gentle encounter. You must be attached to the cross with me out of love. I want all and expect all from your love and I will take all, and it will be all before giving you all. Think also of your children. Come, my little host of love, my little consecrated host of my Precious Blood by our union in love and suffering. Tell me that you accept to follow me to the end, even in my sufferings, in my passion, in my agony, in my death on the cross, for the salvation of the world. Don’t forget that you must die a victim of my love. It is the most beautiful gift I can offer you before possessing me forever.”
Sunday 30 September 1956
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I think I lost the copy of our conversation. I perhaps tore it up by mistake.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, don’t worry. A good thing you didn’t lose your bearings.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I don’t need to lose it for the road that I have to follow to reach you is quite long. All I need is that my map be in good order. Otherwise, I risk getting lost forever. But I trust in you and in my guide to lead me to you.”
Tuesday 2 October 1956
– Mimi: I was in church and was having negative feelings towards a person.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, offer me ese negative feelings. The other day, you were nauseated because a person smelled garlic. Today, it’s another one who smells perfume. Another time, it was the smell of tobacco. How sensitive is your little, frail nature.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, if you had been near her, I can assure you that you would have been nauseated. It wasn’t a perfume of great value like the one Mary Magdalene poured on you.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, which Mary Magdalene are you speaking of? Mary Magdalene No.1 or No.2? Indeed, Mary Magdalene No.1 poured a perfume of great value on my feet. I was very happy to receive this homage but what I preferred was the perfume of her tears of love and repentance. Let us talk now about Mary Magdalene No.2. When I was near her, I was indeed nauseated from the decomposition of her poor soul, of her poor body. This is all that she had to offer! At times, she was at my feet like Mary Magdalene No.1 shedding tears of repentance. They were often more like crocodile tears.”
– Mimi: “Presently, my Beloved, my little frail nature and my hypersensitive heart cannot remain insensitive to these well deserved reproaches. So, let me weep, not at your feet but on your Divine Heart.
“Poor Jesus whom I love so. This is how I treat him. Who am I to allow myself to treat God, my Creator, my Beloved Spouse this way?
“My God, I sincerely ask your forgiveness. My Beloved, look at my repentance. With your grace, I will remain silent and more generous in your service. Look at my little heart that suffers for having offended you.
“My Beloved, may I kiss your forehead to help you forget my conduct? Please receive and accept my tears of contrition as if they were acts of love, of perfect contrition, of thanksgiving and please forget the crocodile tears.”
Thursday 4 October 1956
– Mimi: I was suffering. I would have liked to get some rest.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, it’s Thursday, the eve of the first Friday of the month.”
– Mimi: I had forgotten the holy hour from eleven to midnight. I made an effort to stay awake until then. I placed my two loved ones on a chair near me. Looking at my loved ones, I said to my Beloved :
– Mimi: “Close your eyes and rest. With your grace and the help of my gentle heavenly Mother, I will stay by your side like a devoted and faithful spouse watching over her children by night. Let me suffer in your place. Let me console you especially. Let me speak to you of love, of our children’s needs, of our projects, of our future encounters, of our union.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, if you keep on talking I won’t be able to get some rest!”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you want to tease me for I know you well. When you seem to be asleep, your adorable heart is watching over us.”
– Jesus: “Thank you my Beloved, my dear little spouse, my little treasure. I am so pleased by your confidence and tender marks of love. I am so pleased. You will finally understand who I am. At this moment, I am so moved that I am weeping with joy.
“Come my little consecrated host. Come so that I may offer you up to my Father. He will be so pleased.”
– Mimi: Towards the end of the holy hour.
– Mimi: “Excuse me, my Beloved. I forget where I was.”
– Jesus: “Don’t worry, my little one. You were simply half asleep on my heart. In seeing you sleep, I was thinking of my apostles.”
Friday 5 October 1956
– Satan: “You are committing a sacrilege by comparing yourself to a consecrated host, to the spouse of Christ. By whom were you consecrated? Who blessed your union? You believe that you have a mission?”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! It isn’t I who chose this privilege. It is God the Almighty who, in his infinite love for me, a poor little girl, consecrated me in the Precious Blood of his Divine Son. It is my Beloved who blessed it and asked for this union in love and suffering. Then, my director blessed these vows in the name of the Church he represents. My mission is nothing other than to follow the example of my Beloved, to accept everything out of love, to conform myself with confidence to the Holy Will of my Father, to suffer and die with my Beloved on the same cross, to give glory to God for the salvation of souls.”
Saturday 6 October 1956
– Jesus: “You will have a lot to suffer in atonement for the sins of your children, especially during the weekend of Thanksgiving. How many souls will give me glory, give me thanks by offending me gravely. My little spouse, console me during this day when I am forgotten. Speak to me of love. I have such a need of giving myself to all, especially to you. Your soul cost me so much.”
Sunday 7 October 1956
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you will undergo great temptations today. Go see your director so that he may help you. Go get his blessing. I want more.”
– Mimi: In the afternoon.
– Satan: “Don’t listen to the voice telling you to go see your director for his blessing. If you go and confess yourself, it will be you who will provoke the great temptations. So, wait for my hour. Don’t do anything on your own. You are going to disturb him. Let him rest a little while. Your presence has become unbearable and the direction of your soul tires him enormously.”
– Mimi: I knew where this voice was coming from. So, I went to see my director. I told him about what I had just heard concerning the great temptations. Especially those I would endure from seven to eight hours. He encouraged me, reminding me of my role as a spouse of Christ. Then, I asked him to hear my confession in order to merit even more. We accepted everything. During confession, all was calm but after my confession, my director spoke to me about my gentle heavenly Mother and when he pronounced the name of Mary Immaculate, my enemy attacked me violently. He said :
– Satan: “I am enraged! You went to confession and he forgave you in the name of …”
– Mimi: I don’t dare write all the horrible things, all the blasphemes out of respect for my Beloved who is present within me.
My director made me accept once more and he also offered it up for the salvation of souls. We never know when the temptation will come nor when it will end and how far it will go. I had holy water. My director said :
– My director: “Make a beautiful sign of the cross with the holy water!”
– Mimi: I know the power of holy water over my enemy. So I drank a few drops. At that moment, I thought I was going to die. He was making me suffer. He was affecting my mind. Then, after a few minutes, he affected my senses with a gentleness that disturbed me and made me suffer. Finally, seeing that my director was making me pray all the more, he departed from me saying :
– Satan: “I will wait for you this evening. You will be alone. I will have the last laugh because I am going to win. You won’t have your director as a witness. You won’t have those damn blessings with holy water, those…worthless prayers, your… stole… a … eternal sacerdotal power.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I suffer terribly when I think that you are present within me and that you are hearing all these blasphemies. My Beloved, please help me!”
I am fed up with these temptations and to think that I must write all this. I look for courage. I know that I am not alone. My Beloved is present within me and with the help of my director, the team work is complete.
– Satan: “Don’t accept the little crucifix! You are going to profane it.”
– Jesus: “No! Keep it! You are going to need it.”
– Mimi: I was attempting to write. I have a lot of difficulties. My Beloved takes my thumb and I advance inch by inch. Suddenly, my Beloved tells me :
– Jesus: “The time has come! Offer it up. Before doing so, offer me more. You know what I mean. Offer me all this out of love to save souls, to atone and to merit. Keep the little crucifix on you.”
– Mimi: “My God, may your will be done. I unite my small sufferings to the passion, agony and death of your Divine Son with the pain and sufferings of my gentle heavenly Mother, and being part of the mystical body, I unite my small sufferings, my temptations with all the souls that are suffering in the world. I offer you this out of love in thanksgiving for all of your goodness and so that your kingdom may come, to sustain your Church, for the Holy Father, to help out the missions, to obtain sacerdotal and religious vocations, to obtain the conversion of sinners and mercy for the dying, to obtain the deliverance of souls from purgatory.
“I also ask you for a safe delivery for all mothers who are giving birth to a child. I ask that all these dear little ones be baptized. I ask you to bless all consecrated souls so that they may persevere on the right road for your greater glory. My God, have mercy on all human miseries. Have mercy on all my miseries.
“Please give me the strength and courage to faithfully accomplish with love and full confidence your Holy Will. My God, help me to love you more.”
Monday 8 October 1956
– Jesus: “My Beloved, do you believe that your mission is to spend your time in my arms and savor my delights, to rest on my Divine Heart without having to suffer? Yesterday, you didn’t understand your mission, to love in suffering. You easily accepted the love and left me the suffering. The roles had changed. You were like the spoiled child to whom we give a cake and who chooses the biggest slice. If I had done the same thing as you, to choose only love, I would have remained near my Father. I wouldn’t have come to redeem the world through suffering. I wouldn’t have shed all my Precious Blood for you and for souls. I was saddened today in seeing you act. You seemed to hesitate in offering me more. You were trembling for you and for your director. You had a thousand excuses and your director was hesitant for a moment. Human respect was in the middle of his duty.
“Why did you doubt, ô soul of little faith? Didn’t I tell you that I would watch over him like I would over you? So, why were you afraid? During great temptations, I protect you from witnesses and criticisms. Would you prefer to undergo the great temptations in front of people? In the past six years that he directs you, has he received reproaches because of you? And you, have you received any remarks or criticism because of him? You know me well enough to know that when I have something to say, I am able to say it. My poor children! When I think about the very moment I wanted more! I saw you trembling, hesitant and you, my little Peter and he, like Peter, poor children, trembling in the presence of suffering. Poor human nature that is naturally against suffering! If you had only thought for a second about me, about my love, of all that I have done for you before thinking of yourselves, would you have acted this way in front of the crucifix?
“However, my dear children, I forgive you. I had to tell you this and make these remarks for the greater glory of my Father. You know, at times, I have to walk on my Heart.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, we sincerely ask your forgiveness. With your grace, we will be more generous without hesitating a second for all that you will ask of us. We want to accept everything and accomplish it out of love for God, for you and for souls.”
– Jesus: “Thank you, my Beloved. I forgive you. To keep you humble, I want an act of reparation for what you have done, that is, for the moments of hesitation in the face of suffering. Tell me that you are both going to atone. If so, may your director decide what must be done. I hope that you won’t have any human respect in atoning and enough love to do so before the little crucifix.”
Wednesday 10 October 1956
– Satan: “You waste your time writing for nothing. If you spent all your time, all these hours in preparing for the Holidays. Your director should forbid you from writing. Think of all the time wasted in reading, meditation, visits to the Blessed Sacrament, rosaries, holy hours, masses, writing. To do so, you have to neglect your work. You would need days of 48 hours. What is your salary for all this?”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! I ask for nothing. I have all that I need to be happy. I love my God. I am the little spouse of my Beloved and that’s all. Go away! I have no time to lose with you.”
Thursday 11 October 1956
Feast of the Maternity of the Blessed Virgin Mary.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I would prefer that you write ‘Feast of the Maternity of the Immaculate Virgin. Her Immaculate Conception is much more important than her name.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, there is a feast of the Immaculate Conception.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you don’t understand the meaning of the phrase and of what I want. I know very well that there is a feast of the Immaculate Conception and I am pleased by this. But we would prefer that the Feast of the Maternity be celebrated with more brilliance by highlighting her Immaculate Conception in her Divine Maternity that comes from the Father and the Holy Spirit. Souls admit easily the maternity of the Virgin Mary but the new generation does not admit her Immaculate Conception in her maternity. With modernism, the world is evolving. People no longer give the same meaning to words and even my Gospel no longer has the same meaning. We practice it, interpret it according to each one’s idea. It’s easier. Yet, I am the Truth. There is but one Gospel, one Divine law as there is but one Immaculate Virgin in her conception, in her divine maternity, a dogma of faith.”
– Mimi: “You know, my Beloved, that the feast of the Maternity of the Immaculate Virgin is for me the most beautiful feast day.
“When I think that the Immaculate Virgin, the Mother of God is also my Mother and that I am her child! She watches constantly over me. She intercedes for me and protects me from danger.”
In church.
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, on the occasion of such a beautiful feast of your Divine Maternity, what could I offer you to please you ?”
– Mary: “Come closer, my dear little girl. I have a secret for you and you know very well that a secret from me in the ears of her child is something sacred, a privilege.”
– Mimi: “Mother! My gentle heavenly Mother, please tell me. I’m all ears. My mind is free and my little heart full of love is wide open to receive the little secret.”
– Mary: “My dear little girl, today, what would please me most would be that you give yourself to God once and for all. I would like you to offer yourself to God with unlimited love and confidence, that you also accept generously everything, that you accomplish with love and fidelity your role as a spouse of Christ, your mission as a consecrated host for the salvation of souls with your Beloved, your spouse. By becoming the spouse of my Son, you agreed to accept everything and, like myself, you must accept the spiritual maternity, that is, you must give birth to souls in moral and physical suffering, in the passion of my Beloved Son. Like us, you must have a great love of the cross.
“This is what you don’t have. God is waiting only for this in order to act within you. Like us, you must give everything up in order to purchase more souls and give glory to God and thus accomplish the mission that God the Father expects from you from all eternity.
“You don’t understand all the designs that God has for you. No matter. You are too little. What is most important is to accept with love, humility, confidence, abandonment and self-denial the Holy Will of God in all things forever. My dear little girl, I am speaking to you as……..”
– Mimi: “Mother, forgive me if I am trembling. I am so moved by your words. I know that you understand. You know how I am weak, fearful and my poor little nature trembles at the thought of great sufferings. I am certain that you will understand the situation, the state that I am in at this moment. Remember, ô my gentle heavenly Mother, when the angel greeted you. You were overwhelmed for a moment. You were wondering the meaning of this visit from the angel. The angel re-assured you. Look at me. I don’t want to doubt your word nor the words of my director to enlighten me. However, I am overwhelmed and trembling.”
– Mary: “Of course, my dear little girl. You must understand that by a special privilege, you have more than an angel to guide you on your mission, to speak to you. You have a representative of my Son to protect you from the devil. Don’t forget. The priest is above angels. His power has been given to him by God for all eternity. My Son is the eternal priest who sacrifices himself each day out of love for souls.
“If you place your total trust in Almighty God, in his representative chosen by God to guide you, if you place yourself under my special protection, if you have recourse to your guardian angel and give your hand to your Beloved, if you walk with him, if you accept with love, humility, confidence, the Adorable Will of God, if you consider at each moment your weakness, if you are wary of yourself, if your recognize your nothingness, if you admit that without God you can do nothing, if you have an absolute conformity to the Holy Will of God by accepting all the crosses out of love, if you are obedient to your director and place your trust in him, this way, all will go well in God’s plan. What could you possibly fear? What could you dread being in the hands of God? If you remain faithful, one day, by a special grace, you will love the cross. You will desire it out of love to please God.
“My dear little girl, you are still trembling because you are still not attached to the cross out of love. Therefore, accept everything out of love and may the crosses become your only love, your only hope in attaining your goal which is also ours.”
– Mimi: Concerning the title of the Maternity of the Immaculate Virgin.
– Satan: “Do you think that the Church is going to change the liturgical calendar just for you? Just to please you, to approve your lies? If God really wanted the name of the feast to change, he could ask the Saints. There must be a few who are still on earth. He could ask the Pope, the Bishops, the theologians, the scholars. This concerns the Church, the Pope and not you, especially you. Do you know what you are? You make me laugh when writing this, poor ignorant one except for what is bad. God would trust in you? This isn’t the first time you act silly.
“Remember the confidences about the passion, the importance of the sixth wound? It’s about time that your director open his eyes. He has confidence in you. This could play tricks on him. He thinks that you are inventing this, but I shouldn’t complain for you are working for me especially for the last six years. Don’t tell your director everything. He’ll end up being afraid of you and you won’t be able to finish your work easily. You know what mission that you have to fulfill and that I want from you and him for my greater glory.”
Friday 12 October 1956
– Mimi: My director had just finished reading the page containing the encounter of the 8th of October. He phoned me saying that we had to repair this mishap as soon as possible, that he was anxious to repair this moment of hesitation in the face of moral suffering and said :
– My director: “We must both atone.”
– Satan: “My Beloved, don’t listen to the voice asking to make an act of humility, of atonement. In doing this, you are going to look ridiculous. It is your enemy who wants to avenge himself on your director and inspires all this. Afterwards, he will boast that he made your director kneel before him. Ask your director to do nothing to atone. If he doubts, let him be. But as for you, be obedient. Do nothing. I am God and when I forgive, I don’t ask for an atonement. It would indicate a lack of confidence towards my creatures. And as God, do I need to ask your director what must be done to atone? Therefore, listen to me who am the truth. I prefer obedience to humility and humility does not consist in doing ridiculous things. If you are really humble, bow in the presence of my will. I am asking you to do nothing to atone. You would compromise my infinite mercy.”
Saturday 13 October 1956
– Mimi: “My gentle heavenly Mother, we have atoned and we are very sorry to be so weak in your service.”
– Mary: “My Beloved, don’t cry. My Son has not reproached you. It was simply a remark in order to keep you humble. Place yourselves under my special protection in all the circumstances that God presents you for his greater glory. I hope you understand what I mean. I will place you under the protection of my motherly Immaculate Heart. Fear not! Didn’t I protect my children, the Apostles? I protected their reputation, their mission, their duties, even their consolations and relationships. From the beginning, didn’t I always watch over you in a special manner for the past six years and even now? So do you think I am going to abandon you in the future when you will need me most, when you will face your formidable enemy who hates both of you, and especially you, my poor little one.
“Come each day and take refuge in my arms with love and confidence. I am watching over you and God’s representative.”
Sunday 14 October 1956
– Jesus: “You will have a lot to suffer in the name of our love and out of love for my Father. Offer me more for the success of the ladies’ retreat. I am wondering whether I should maintain the name ‘Ladies’ How many are worthy of this name? The responsibilities, duties of a mother are incalculable. With your little heart of a mother, you can understand. Pray for them.”
Monday 15 October 1956
– Mimi: I am pleased to be able to attend the mass celebrated by my director and especially to receive my Beloved.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, help me, please. You know that we have an important contract during the time of retreats.”
– Jesus: “I know, my Beloved. I am the Contractor. My Father has given me the plans. Both of you are the laborers. My Divine Mother gives you what you need for your work. It isn’t easy to build a temple worthy of a God on what formerly were ruins. Our team works better without a foreman who knows nothing of our plans.”
Tuesday 16 October 1956
– Mimi: I was watching the leaves fall from the trees. I felt sad. It seemed like seeing death go by.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you feel sad at the thought of never seeing beautiful leaves fall from the trees but I am sad from thinking that there are as many souls falling into sin. They are also falling just as fast into the fires of hell. And nobody worries about these souls. They reject them and scatter them with their feet as dead leaves.”
Thursday 17 October 1956
– Mimi: “My God, I believe in you, Creator of all things. I adore you present in me. I adore you in all created things. I thank you for so much goodness and love you in all these souls.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, you believe in my power in the presence of the moon, the stars and all created beings. But in moments of great temptations and when you are in the moon, do you still believe?
“Your director understands better infinite mercy and the need, the joy of forgiving. He had read about it but had never experienced its effects. By a special grace, I allowed this to happen; to experience a little of my mercy in the presence of a repentant soul, to help him, to encourage him, to enlighten him in directing your little soul, in the mission he must realize, the love through suffering to save souls. He also has his share of responsibility. This is why I chose him. My dear children, you both have a mission to fulfill, a special mission according to the Divine plan.
“Your director has suffered a lot during his life, but in the last six years, he is working even more and has understood what real moral suffering is about. This afternoon, he suffered a lot. I allowed this to make you aware of your mission so that you may better understand how to pray and suffer for consecrated souls. After the fall of Judas, nothing is more terrible than the fall of a consecrated soul.
“How we must pray a lot and suffer to obtain the conversion of poor sinners! You know that it takes only a second to lose our head. Nature is weak especially when the mind is blinded by passion. Think also of the dying. What can they do? When the body is weakened and that they are alone in their last struggle before being judged for all eternity. Therefore, get ready, both of you, for Sunday.”
Sunday 21 October 1956
A memorable day.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, you were right in telling me to prepare myself for a third conversion. I have never suffered morally and physically so much. We have accepted everything out of love to atone, save souls and merit.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, do you see the importance of humility, of obedience when I ask you to call on your director for help? He had his share of responsibility. Without him, you were in danger. He protected you with his power as a priest, his prayers, his blessings, his stole, holy water, his consecrated fingers. After an hour, he was victorious over your enemy who was enraged.
“My Beloved, my dear little spouse, the martyrdom you endured is nothing compared to the sufferings I endured out of love for you. It is nothing compared to the suffering you would have had in losing me forever. If you had seen us in heaven. We were on pins and needles. We followed each degree of the temptation for you were free to act or struggle to defend yourself and be saved. You were free to accept or refuse this final trial. We watched you anxiously as you suffered and struggled, both of you, before your enemy. At a certain moment, you were so exhausted by the struggle that I was afraid for you. Human nature was there. I cried out to my Father and to my Divine Mother upon seeing the anguish, the prayers and supplications of your director who didn’t want the devil to overcome both of you. This is when, in a critical moment, your director took into his hands the statue of the Blessed Virgin and said :
– My Director: “My good Mother, ô Immaculate Virgin, I beg you, help us!”
– Jesus: “And my Divine Mother, the Immaculate Virgin, the Mediatrix of all graces, seeing this gesture of love, of confidence from her child wasn’t able to resist very long this request and said the following prayer to God :
– Mary: “Eternal Father, my God, my All, I beg you to shorten this trial. These are my two children who are suffering and my Motherly Heart is suffering with them. However, ô Eternal Father, I am always your little Servant and I humbly bow before your Adorable and very Holy Will. Ô my God, like a mother who sees her children in danger, all that I ask of you with confidence is that they avoid losing you forever. The Precious Blood of your Divine Son has come a such a price!
“In your infinite goodness, maintain your representative, increase his courage, protect him against the attacks of the devil. It is to him that you entrusted this little privileged soul. Give him the strength to resist till the end against Satan. Help him defend this little soul, the spouse of your Beloved Son, your little loving daughter, your little host of love.
“My God, they are my children and yours. I suffer seeing them suffer and struggle. I love them both so much. My Motherly Heart cannot remain indifferent in their presence. However, may your Will be done.”
Monday 22 October 1956
– Mimi: To recover from the fatigue of writing, I went to chop some wood for the fire. After a quarter of an hour, I was very exhausted.
– Mimi: “As you can see, my Beloved, I have many trades.”
– Jesus: “I know this very well, my Beloved. For a long time, you have been a foreman. I also know what a little soul in a sick body sustained by my grace can do.”
Tuesday 23 October 1956
– Mimi: “My God, please give me patience. My Beloved, how do you want me to write? In the next room, someone is reading at the top of his voice and in another, the radio is rather loud. And it is the only time I have to write. How I would like to be alone with you, my Beloved, my God!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, do you want to please me? Do you want to love me even more? Remove from your life the three following words that you often repeat : I would like, I wish, I want. Be scornful of these words in your temporal life. In your spiritual life, I allow you to use them. See how I can use these three words.
“I would like you to love me more.
“I want you to be all mine.
“I want everything.
“See the difference? Do you see what we can do with three words that are supernaturalized? Meditate on this.”
Wednesday 24 October 1956
– Mimi: I had asked my Gentle Heavenly Mother to wake me up on time to prepare my communion. Strangely enough, when I awoke, I was still holding in my hand the small statue of the Virgin. How I love her! She doesn’t leave me, even while I’m sleeping.
– Mimi: “Thank you, my gentle heavenly Mother.”
Friday 2 November 1956
– Jesus: “My Beloved, would you accept to carry a cross of roses and leave me to carry the wooden cross? Do you want a cross to your liking or do you prefer a cross to my liking? Do you want to carry the cross I am carrying, the cross that you placed on my shoulders for such a long time?
“My Beloved, I don’t ask you to carry the cross alone! You are too little. You are not even able to carry it firmly on your little shoulder. You drag it more often than carry it.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I know that without you I can do nothing. Between us, I am so small and the cross is so heavy, exhausting. I am dragging it but still holding onto it. I ask you to help me carry our cross.”
– Jesus: “Do you see how much I must love you by lowering myself to your level, to ask you to help me, I, your God? If you could understand perfectly the Royal gift of the cross! My Beloved, each one of your crosses has infinite value in the presence of my Father because in becoming my spouse, you participate, you accept the same cross as I. If you knew the infinite love of God the Eternal Father for you! He treats you like a spoiled child. Yes, a child spoiled by the infinite love of God, the Eternal Father. Dear child of the Holy Spirit! Loving child and spouse of God the Son! Privileged child of his merciful love!”
– Mimi: “My God, I give you thanks. With my despicable conduct, I do not deserve so much love.
“However, my God, have pity on me. My weakness is stronger than my good will. My little human nature is always there. In spite of it all, my God, take my little heart. It is yours. My God, Eternal Father, my Father, attach me to the cross with your Divine Son, my Beloved Spouse. There, you can be sure that I will no longer escape you. Nail me, please, with nails of faith and love for you and of charity for souls.
“Ô my God, in your infinite mercy and your love for me, make me become by your power, by your grace another Christ with your Beloved Son, that is, that I may answer your call and be a little girl docile to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit, that I be submissive to your Adorable Will. Teach me to love the cross so that it may become for me each day my food, my consolation, my hope, my strength, my confidence. Make me feel the need to carry it generously with your Divine Son out of love for you and for souls.”
– Satan: “You see how your pride dominates everything. Now you want to become another Christ. In asking for this, you blaspheme. You are doing the same thing as Eve.”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! I don’t ask to become another Christ. I desire, by his power and glory to simply become the image of my Beloved. I especially want to be with him another Christ through love of suffering, through the acceptance of the cross until death, out of love for God and souls. It is quite legitimate for a child to ask her Father to help her attain her ideal, to share his dwelling forever, especially if this Father is a God, a King.
“I have the right to expect heaven, not through my human dignity. I don’t have any, since I am nothing. I am only a poor little girl in the arms of her Father. But as a child of God and a member of his mystical body, I am confident that I will obtain everything. I have no hesitation. I entrusted my life, my death, my eternal salvation to my gentle heavenly Mother. And my gentle heavenly Mother knows what her little girl needs for the greater good of her little soul and what she is missing in order to attain God.”
Sunday 4 November 1956
– Jesus: “My Beloved, in great temptations, in great sufferings, when you wish for some spiritual consolation during these trials, you are acting like a child. Sometimes, you seem to say : ‘I really want to carry the cross with my Beloved but let me carry the bottom of the cross. It isn’t as heavy.’ Or else, you act this way by wanting me to put a balm of consolations on your shoulders, that I place a cushion on your bruised shoulders by removing the great temptations. Do you believe, my Beloved, that during my passion, I carried a paper cross? Of course not, my Beloved. Out of love for you, I accepted not only to carry a wooden cross but also to be nailed and die for you and for souls.
“Poor little one, you aren’t yet where I want you. I know the place that my Father has in mind for you. The most important thing in spiritual life isn’t simply to understand the value of crosses and to be attached to the cross but also to accept out of love for God and souls all the trials, especially those that God has chosen for us each day. It isn’t enough to be attached to the cross, but we must remain there until death, like God the divine model.
“My Beloved, my life has been a long way of the cross. If you still want to follow me, accept all the crosses, especially the cross of physical suffering, and accept with love the moral sufferings, the great temptations, a precious gift, a hidden treasure for little souls. Come and follow me. Take the same road that leads to my Father for all eternity.
“My dear little spouse, you mustn’t only come to love the cross but you must also desire it out of love for me and for souls. You know, my Beloved, certain sensitive souls are moved when they look at me nailed to the cross. Poor souls! They aren’t able to see the cross that I am carrying deep in my soul, that is, the cross made up from the ingratitudes, the lack of confidence, by the abuse of grace. They are the sins of my consecrated souls. At times, you are among them. You know, my Beloved, I need to have a heart to heart talk with you. You know that the cross I carried on my body was the cross made up of the sins of man. But I was feeling a much heavier cross, more painful than the first one. It was the cross that I had in my soul made up of sins, of faults from my consecrated souls, my chosen souls.
“Poor senseless souls! When they give of themselves, they believe they have given their all. Poor souls! They don’t see that they are simply giving us back what we had lent them.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, come close! I have a secret to tell you. After what you have just told me, I’m a bit shy to speak to you. My Beloved, would you please close your eyes and listen to your little girl? My Beloved, for the last six years, you must have often chuckled at seeing my offerings. You know that I was sincere, but I can see now that it was very little, very little.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am so pleased by your confidence, to hear you speak to my ear like a little girl speaking to her father, to see the exhuberant love of your little affectionate heart. Continue to act as a little spoiled child. This consoles us greatly but I prefer that when you speak to me, you do so by looking at me with your eyes.
“Poor little one, do you think that in keeping my eyes closed, I could not see the bottom of your soul? You know quite well that I know the language of the eyes. Your director also know it well. Nothing escapes him. Now, to re-assure you, you know that when you offered yourself, I wasn’t laughing at you. I was looking at your intentions, your love for us and for souls. I knew that you had an ideal, that you had at times good intentions. Since I knew that you were weak, miserable, so small, we would therefore look at your little heart full of love for us and, being moved by this, we accepted all of your poverty. I should rather say your poor nothingness.
“My Beloved, come close, it is my turn to tell you a secret. My dear little spouse, from now on, to be agreeable to my Father, offer yourself with me out of love for his glory. Offer it all through the hands of my gentle heavenly Mother. Little……. so loved, to fulfill your role as a spouse, in the name of our love, of our union, offer yourself to me to carry this intimate cross in my soul. By your moral sufferings, you will console me. As for the cross of your body, I will take care of it. Remember, I want all, I will take all and it will be all forever, forever. Does this remind you of something? This word ‘always, always’ especially when it is said by a person who knows how to use it properly at all times.
