Tuesday 1st JuNE 1954
– Mimi: “My God, I offer You my heart. I also offer You all my pain, my sorrows. Today, I need a lot of patience. My Beloved, I offer myself to You completely. I am still suffering in my heart since Sunday when Your embrace was so strong. You know the pact we made together. I am so happy to be Your spouse, to work with You for souls.”
I was preparing the meal. Suddenly, He called me saying:
– Jesus: “Come and kiss My feet. Tell Me that you love Me.”
So I knelt and kissed the statue of the Sacred Heart saying:
– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is lovingly that I kiss Your divine feet that walked so much searching for me on the wrong road I had taken. My Beloved, I sincerely ask Your forgiveness for the sins of my whole life. How I want to atone, to make You forget my conduct so ungrateful, so despicable.
My Beloved, teach me how to love You. Grant me the gift of Divine Love. Increase in me the love for souls.”
A visit to my director is always comforting to me. There still exists, however, a certain shyness. This makes me suffer a lot.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, help me be more open to my director, to open wide the secret door of my soul.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me how to remain very little, very humble. Help me give my Fiat each day and give me the strength to accept in silence and with resignation the trial that has been weighing on my family for the last four months, following the death of my dear little sister and of her little girl.
Since then, what tears, what pain and troubles of all kinds! Come to our aid! I trust in Your motherly heart. You, the Consoler of the afflicted, the Refuge of sinners, it is in You that I confide my miseries. For, no one can understand at this moment what I am suffering. My director seems to make out a little what it is, but I cannot tell him everything. He is too sensitive.
My Beloved, yes, I accept to suffer more for the salvation of the soul of … that you gave me Sunday. However, I insist and ask Your help for I can do nothing alone. With You, I can do anything. You are all my strength, my support, my Love, my God, my All. Give me the patience and perseverance to do my team work. I must have souls to give You.”
Tuesday 8 JuNE 1954
– Mimi: Already 5 months have gone by since the death of Fernande and Diane.
Departure of the 3 dear little ones for the charity convent. How sad!
– Mimi: “My Beloved Jesus, I place all three of them in Your Divine Heart. I no longer fear for them. I am confident for You said: “Let the little children come to me.”
I entrust them to You, my Gentle Mother of heaven for they will never know the happiness of having a mother. Fill in the emptiness in their lives as orphans.”
I felt sad at the thought of never seeing them again. They will be so far away. I will make the sacrifice.
– Mimi: “Thank You my God, the ray of sunlight arrived just at the right moment. Visit to my director. I spoke to him about my miseries. I told him how ungrateful I had been towards You. After having given me everything, I thanked You with ingratitude and even contempt… Poor Jesus! How You have suffered because of me.
My Beloved, I entrust to You the soul of Cylien. Tomorrow, he will undergo his trial, accused of the murders of my dear little sister and of her little daughter Diane. Be merciful towards him, please! You forgave the good thief. I trust in Your infinite Mercy.
You have forgiven me! My crimes were just as bad for even though I did not kill human beings, how many souls were destroyed because of me! How evil and guilty I was! Ô Infinite Goodness, after such conduct, You could have chastised me, kept me far from You for all eternity. How can I forget Your patience.
In Your inifinite goodness, You allowed me to encounter this priest, Fr. Gamache. You entrusted my soul to him. He had trouble fulfilling this obligation from the start for the devil had me in his grip. Following Your example, he was patient. He prayed so much and said many masses including all kinds of sacrifices and mortifications… How my soul cost him dearly!
Ô my Beloved, now that I have become Your poor little wounded lamb, do not leave me for I could go the wrong way if left alone. I am so frail. After so many infirmities, I ask myself how I was able to live so disorderly. How was I able to breathe in the prison of my soul? My body had become a furnace where the fire of my passions were devouring me and destroying me little by little.
Thank You, ô my Beloved Spouse, for Your love, for Your infinite mercy. Thank You for the Precious Blood poured on my soul to reanimate it. Thank You for the Precious Blood poured on my body to put out the flames of my passions.
My Beloved, there are so many stains that remain. I beg You, wash me anew. I so want to be purified. It is with confidence and love that I throw myself entirely into the chalice with Your Divine Blood through the hands of the priest. I so need to be purified to render my soul agreeable to You since it has become Your permanent abode. Now that my director is with me, we will work together to make it agreeable to God.”
Thursday 24 JuNE 1954
– Mimi: “I am very sad! I woke up too late to go to mass and receive You. I offer You a lot, however. I am happy to be working with You for souls. There are so many who are living in sin! I thank You for giving me the opportunity to repair, atone, to merit.”
– Jesus: “My little one, think of the souls who are suffering in the fires of purgatory. Offer and sacrifice yourself, My little one, this afternoon. Do not go to see the St. John parade. Visit Me. Together, we will look at the parade of all My goodnesses. We will look at all the chosen graces I have been showering on you for the past four years. Come, My dear little one. I am feeling so lonely today!”
– Mimi: “You know very well that I love You, my Beloved. Yes, here I am. I am sacrificing everything to please You and show You my love…”
Here comes my enemy again to attack me. The temptation is getting worse.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, come quickly! You know that I don’t want to lose You. I believe in You, I adore You and I love You.”
“Here I am, my Beloved Spouse.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, come closer! Please Me and console Me. Place your heart in Mine and tell Me that you love Me. Speak to Me of love. This consoles Me from the indifference of certain souls. Remember that you used to be one of them, but with the impulse of love coming from your little heart, I forget everything. Tell Me often, very often, that I am yours. Our union is first of all about love through suffering to please God.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, You invite me to come closer to Your Divine Heart, but how can I penetrate completely into this adorable heart? My poor heart is so little, so imperfect to come in contact, to take possession of Your Divine Heart completely.”
– Jesus: “My poor little one, you are aware how small your heart is. I still wish for this union where Our two hearts will beat in unison. My little one, I will give you a way of penetrating more easily into My Divine Heart. Pass through the wound of My side and the blood that is flowing. Clean and purify your little heart before entering. Once your heart is purified, We will stay together in My Divine Heart. We will be united.”
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, what more can I do to please my God?”
− Mary: “Today, My dear little one, tell Him simply that you love Him and accept His Will in the future. Remain faithful as a spouse. Don’t try to understand everything. Trust Us.”
Friday... JuNE 1954
– Mimi: I was suffering a lot.
– Jesus: “My poor little one, don’t complain! I am simply placing you on the cross for a brief moment. I need your sufferings. My beloved little spouse, prepare yourself to die. Ask your director to compose a prayer that you will recite each day in order to better prepare yourself for this great departure… May he help you detach yourself from everything and everyone.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, teach me how to live in order to die well. My Beloved, it seems to me that if You came right away to get me, I wouldn’t be afraid, for I trust in Your Mercy. I believe in Your love for me. I am certain that You will receive me as Your faithful spouse. I know that my hands are empty, but look at this little cross I am carrying on my shoulder and that You Yourself placed there.
Since I have had it, I have always kept it, even in moments of weakness. From the darkest moments of discouragement. I know that sometimes I drag it, but I don’t want to leave it as long as I live… and in heaven where You are waiting for me, if You wish, I will keep it for it will be for Your glory. It is through the cross that You redeemed me. It is through the cross that I shall live and die united to You out of love.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, if you only knew how I much I love You! Yes, I love You because you accepted to become my Mother. I know that through You I will reach God. I believe how powerful You are over His Divine Heart. I know that You are watching over me… that You are keeping me pure… that You are helping me give my Fiat each day with love. You are helping me in all my trials and temptations…
Ô Gentle Mother of heaven, thank You for Your help… I am not afraid of the future for You are the refuge of sinners. This is why I throw myself into Your arms. This way, I feel safe! And at the hour of my death, ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, receive the soul of Your little girl. Offer me with Your Gentle Jesus to God since Jesus and I are now one since I became His little spouse.”
I was greedy by taking three helpings from a desert.
– Jesus: “My poor little one, think of My fasting for forty days for you… So, atone right away.”
– Mimi: “I am suffering a lot. Without You I can do nothing.”
