Friday 1st April 1955
– Mimi: I couldn’t be happier! I received my Beloved in Holy Communion!
– Mimi: “You can see, my Beloved, how much my director loves You. He certainly understands Us! He gave me permission to offer more for souls. Thank You, my Beloved. I didn’t have to spend time looking for what I could do more. You have chosen for me and I accept with love Your Holy Will. So, another day laying on the cross with You.”
In the evening, an immense love took hold of my soul and an urgent need to receive my Beloved tomorrow. I am pleased. My director has taught me a beautiful prayer that I think he composed himself. I recite it many times a day especially in times of battle, of spiritual aridity.
Therefore, Lord, I do not ask You for health, riches, honors. I ask for only one thing: to love You with all my heart, all my spirit, all my soul; to love you more than anything, to die of love, You who have loved me so much.
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, you have pleased Me. I see how great is your wish to honor the day consecrated to My Divine Mother. I want to fill your heart. What would you say if She came to get you on the 15th of August, the day of Her Assumption? She would carry you in Her arms as Her favorite child and then place you in My Divine arms to offer you to My Father, your God.”
Think often of this day, this happiness in heaven, of Us with you for eternity. To merit this, you must suffer a lot. Put your trust in Us, your love, and you will never be alone. Pray a lot, do penance, prostrate yourself often before Me, adore Me present in you, speak to Me, allow your feelings of love from your little soul to go forth. This consoles Me.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, prepare my soul to work with You. Please give me a lively faith, a love that is ardent and pure like that of my Gentle Mother of heaven. Grant me the grace to be brave in battle and that in spite of all obstacles I may remain faithful in following You. May I walk with hesitation by Your side to accomplish the Holy Will of God. I must end this pleasant chat. You know the reasons why, my Beloved. This grieves me a lot. I accept it with love for the salvation of souls.”
Saturday 2 April 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I adore You present in me. I unite my adorations with my Gentle Mother of heaven, the angels and saints. Yes, my Beloved, You are at home in my poor little soul. I would prefer to offer You a palace for a home, My God, King of heaven and earth, but I know that You prefer poverty to riches. This is why I am happy to offer You my poor little soul as a home. I know that I am unworthy of such a favor after having closed the door because of my numerous sins. Ô Infinite Goodness! I regret all my sins but especially the sorrow that I caused You with my lifestyle. No, I no longer want to offend You and to carry out my promise, I need Your help. I want to become docile to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. I want to imitate my Gentle Mother of heaven. I ask Her to keep me in Your arms, to lead me by the hand on the road to heaven.”
Sunday 3 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, today is the beginning of Holy Week. I want to return with many souls at Easter. My God, let me see the bottom of my soul. Show me my errors, the horrors of my sins so that I may sincerely take a look at all my faults, my weaknesses, my imperfections. Allow me to see myself as You see me, my God. I regret having offended You. My God, increase my faith, my confidence. Please give me a true repentance of my sins.
My Beloved, I am at Your feet. I am weeping over my faults. Receive my tears as the perfume that Mary Magdalene poured on You. Consider my sincerity, my love for You. I do not ever want to lose You. I don’t want to forsake You during Your Passion. I beg You in the name of Our love. I want to follow You, share Your sufferings for the salvation of souls, to atone for my sins and especially to show You my love. I also want to accompany my Gentle Mother of heaven to console Her. Answer my prayer, my Beloved. Receive my wish. I have this privilege. Am I not Your little spouse?”
Monday 4 April 1955
– Satan: '' No, My dear little one, do not hesitate to cry. When you are suffering too much, beware of this, My dear little one, for, in holding back your tears like you sometimes do, it could be out of pride instead of being virtuous. Your nature is still present. Be transparent with everyone. Do not listen to your enemy and whatever he tells you, you have not lost My friendship. Now now My little one, would I abandon and condemn a little child who is crying because of her sufferings? Especially when these sufferings come from Me? No, My dear little one. I love you even more. Come, I understand. Come and weep near Me. Tell Me your sorrow, your problems. I see your sufferings, I know your wishes. This consoles Me a lot. My dear little beloved spouse, come and weep on My Divine Heart. My love will dry your bitter tears.They will become precious pearls for Me, your God, and you cannot refuse Me this.”
Tuesday 5 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I offer You my whole day. I have to go to the hospital this morning. May Your Holy Will be done, ô my God. I am suffering a lot physically but I am happy to be with You, my Love.
My God, through the merits of Your Son, have pity on these souls who are suffering and rebel against suffering, against You. Poor souls! They do not know You. If I could shout to the whole universe about Your love, Your infinite mercy for everyone! If I could travel the earth like the apostles to preach about love, confidence, to convert souls. I have nothing of this, yet, receive my love, my wishes and my little sacrifices. I know that we must suffer a lot in order to save souls. This evening begins the martyrdom for souls.
My God, give courage and patience to Your priests. They are doing their best to give You souls but how many souls refuse their help, their advice. If only these souls stopped to think before entering the confessional. Yes, if they could meditate for a moment on the heavy responsibility that weighs on the shoulders of priests. What difficulties they encounter in their holy ministry, especially with souls who don’t want to cooperate! How sad the priest must be to see a soul leave without being sincere and who refuses his help.
And You, my Beloved, how You must suffer when You see such things! What sorrow for You to see Your representative rejected at times because of a lack of confidence, of respect and obedience.
We should have for the priest full confidence and a lot of gratitude. He is always there, near us to help us, to forgive us in the name of God, to open heaven, to give us peace. We need the priest especially in difficult moments, in moments of discouragement.
Why not see in him Jesus Christ himself? Have full confidence in him. He only wants what is good for us. He is another Christ. His heart is open to everyone. This same heart receives confidences, avowals and he keeps it a secret, remains silent, offers up, prays, wears himself out, works for us. Each day he is on duty, always ready to start again without even receiving the encouragement of souls. And when I think that I used to be among these ungrateful persons.
My God, to atone I want to become grateful, to pray each day for all priests, especially for the one You chose to help me and who is doing good to my soul and who wants to sanctify it more and more.
My God, with Your grace, with Your Gentle Son, I want to conquer souls out of love. I accept everything out of love. My God, have mercy on poor sinners. I will offer more, pray for these souls. I don’t want through my negligence a single soul to be lost. My God, do not allow the Precious Blood of Your Divine Son be lost!
Through the most pure hands of my Gentle Mother of heaven, I offer You the most hardened souls of poor sinners, souls that are dear to me. Save all of them from hell. I beg You! Be merciful for these poor souls. They know not what they are doing. See their misery! They are not happy, You know, because their souls are not in peace! They are suffering constantly and looking for a refuge, happiness. And if they only understood that it is in Your arms, in Your heart that they will find these infinite treasures, that they will find peace, love, happiness for eternity! My God, I want to love You for all these souls.
With my Gentle Mother of heaven, I will prepare my communion for tomorrow. I am so anxious to receive my Beloved. My good angel, please watch over me.”
Wednesday 6 April 1955
– Mimi: I am happy! My Beloved arrived just in time! How anxious I was to receive Him in Holy Communion!
– Mimi: “My Beloved, what is going on in me? You know how happy I was to receive You. Now that You are present in me, I am silent. I don’t speak as I would like to and this makes me suffer. On the other hand, my tongue is not paralyzed and my mind is not silent when I happen quite frequently to criticize my neighbor!
I would like so much to speak to You like Your Divine Mother does. I would like to praise You, adore You like the angels and saints adore You in heaven. I would like to speak to you of love but my heart is dry, almost indifferent. Why is this so, my Beloved? This makes me suffer a lot. If it is You who allow this, I accept Your Holy Will.”
Thursday 7 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I am sorrowful, my heart is sick and tormented by temptations. Have pity on me! I would like to visit You at the monstrance altar but I am bedridden because of illness.”
– Jesus: “My dear little one, I am always there, in your little soul that has become My monstrance altar, My home. Adore Me! I am so happy to find in your little soul a permanent dwelling.”
– Mimi: “Thank You for so much goodness, my Beloved. I believe You are present in me through Your love. I know that You are in me through suffering. In spite of temptations, I want to keep my body pure.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect me from my enemies. Look upon Your sick child who is suffering and struggling to remain where God has placed her.
My God, I believe, I adore you, I love You in spite of the state of weakness I am in. I prostrate myself to adore, pray and ask mercy for sinners. I am one of them. My God, I wanted to love You more this week. I wanted to follow You more closely. I beg You, help me, give me the strength and courage to follow You. I don’t want to lose You for a moment. I want to work with You and my director for the salvation of as many souls as possible.
I am too sick, too weak to write any more. The little strength left, I want to use it by keeping company and following my Beloved in His Passion. I don’t want to refuse Him anything. He loves me so, and I want to love Him more.”
Good Friday 8 April 1955
– Mimi: Last night, I was telling my Beloved:
– Mimi: “I want to be by Your side this night. I want to share Your solitude. I want to suffer with You, pray with You to save souls. I want to offer myself to God with You. I don’t want to leave You.
Look at where I am with my wishes. Like Your apostles, I left You for several hours. I fell asleep. Around three o’clock, You came and woke me up with a pain so sharp that I could hardly breathe. I thought of You, my Beloved. You were in agony and were suffering because of me and of souls and I, during this time, was sleeping. Poor Jesus of my heart! I ask Your forgiveness for having left You alone at such an important moment.
My Beloved, because of Our love, I want to follow You today. I accept everything out of love to save souls. With God’s help and the permission of my director, I can offer more.”
In the afternoon, physical suffering accompanied by the joy of being with Him, but suddenly the suffering increased more and more. I no longer understand. The joy I felt at the beginning of the afternoon disappeared to be replaced by great temptations against faith; then, my enemy attacked me from all sides. From the top of my cross (my bed), I cried out to Him. I feel so alone, abandoned by everyone. I suffer and cry. It seems that He no longer hears my voice.
– Mimi: “My God, in the name of the sufferings and merits of Your Divine Son, have pity on me! Consider me, strengthen me! I love You! I don’t want to give in to temptations. My Beloved, I beg You, speak to me! Do not leave me alone! It is too much for me! I am trembling! You know how weak I am. I place my trust in You.”
No answer, except for my enemy who blasphemes and torments me. The interior struggle is terrible and the physical pain is getting worse. No remedy brings me relief. I can hardly raise my head from the pillow. However, I raise my eyes to God saying:
– Mimi: “I love You! I am suffering, my God. I am not alone. I am with Your Dear Son. Give me the strength and courage to follow Him. Increase my love for souls.”
I look at my Beloved nailed to the cross because of my sins and those of mankind. I was thinking about His infinite love for us, for me and His love is so great for each soul. I am certain that if I had been the only one needing salvation, He would have agreed to die for me. How great is His love for poor souls! How this Dear Jesus loves me! My God, my All! Thank You for Your infinite love!
– Mimi: “Though I feel total abandonment, I still want to follow You. I want to show You my love, my gratitude. I want to remain on my cross with You as long as You wish. I unite my sufferings to Yours to atone for my sins and to save souls.”
At three o’clock, I wanted to get up to make the way of the cross on my knees. Mom asked me to stay in bed, not to be imprudent. So, out of obedience, I remained in bed, that is, I laid on my cross. To my great surprise, my Beloved was with me once again. I cannot write all that We suffered together. This unity in love and suffering lasted one hour. Then, emptiness took place. My Beloved hid Himself. After such dear moments, the separation from my Beloved caused me a lot of pain. I became very sad. How long is He going to hide?
– Mimi: “The day isn’t over yet. My God, I accept all out of love for You with my Beloved. I want to save many souls for Your glory.
My Beloved, would You please help my director? He works hard, You know. Give him health, courage, patience. He so wants to give You many souls. You know how much he loves You. He is always ready to obey You, to serve You faithfully. Count all the hours he spends in the confessional to help out souls. But, as You know, souls are not always sincere. I want to work with You, with him to save souls. Your Blood must not be shed in vain. There are so many souls who are fearful. Poor souls! If only they were as fearful before committing sin.
Saturday 9 April 1955
– Mimi: A day of great suffering, of great temptations! I am always nailed to the cross with my Beloved.
− Mimi: “My God, sustain my faith, augment my confidence! I love You, my Beloved, in spite of the aridity, in spite of my weakness. I want to follow You till the end.
There are still many souls who do not want to make their Easter confession. My God, forgive them for they know not what they are doing. I know that it only takes a second for God to convert a soul and His Love alone can transform it forever.”
Easter Sunday 10 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on Your little girl. I who hoped to find You like Mary Magdalen. Yet, You are still hiding, my Beloved. I accept the state I am in, however, please help me. I need You, Your love, to sustain me. I am so exhausted by interior struggles, by illness. I place my trust in You. Strengthen my love for You. I don’t want to lose You a single moment.»
I hate writing these things. Voice of my enemy who wants to discourage me saying:
– Satan: “You see what your God has done to you. He has risen in all His glory, so we say. Who was a witness when it happened? No one. And you believe this! Your God is happy in His heaven. He doesn’t have time to think of you. No matter your sufferings, your surges of love, He doesn’t need you if He is really God. Let Him take care of Himself. Poor little one! What a miserable life you have because you believe in impossible things. This is why the Church calls them mysteries. Your God spoke in parables. If everything He taught was true, why not say things in a simple manner? And after this, He accuses people, souls of not understanding. Poor little one! You make me laugh when you speak to your Beloved. You believe He loves you? He had the time to love others before you, to love holy souls. Remove from your mind that God loves you. Why would He love you? Would this be fair to other souls? You’re out of your mind to believe that you have become the spouse of Christ. Think about it! You, a sinner! You easily forget what you are.”
– Mimi: “My God, have mercy on me! I believe, I adore You and I love You more than anything. My God, my All! I throw myself with confidence into Your arms. My Beloved, tell me that You love me! I need to hear Your voice. I am so tired. Let me rest my heart on Your Divine Heart. Without You I can do nothing.
Pleasant surprise! A visit from my director!
– Mimi: “What comfort! I thank You, my Beloved, for this kindness. I will be able to receive communion tomorrow. I was so anxious to receive You in Your sacrament of love.
Monday 11 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, please give me perseverance in prayer. My Beloved, I want to accept everything in spite of the state I am in. I don’t want to be selfish; think only of myself. I want to think of You, my Beloved. I want to meditate on Your sufferings and all that You have done for me out of love. I also want to think of souls.
Tuesday 12 April 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am in doubt, in fear, uncertain whether I am still Your little spouse. This torments me continually. I am suffering and want to love You more even though I do not feel Your presence in me. You seem hidden so far away, my Beloved. However, help me offer up everything to God. Without You I can do nothing.”
Wednesday 13 April 1955
– Mimi: “Same situation as always. See my helplessness, my Beloved. However, I love You. I don’t understand what is going on in me. Why this lack of taste for prayer? I would like to meditate a little. I cannot. It is almost complete emptiness and the only thoughts I am able to have are impure thoughts. My spirit is troubled by these pictures. Yet, I lift up my eyes to Him. I want to look at Him with the eyes of Faith. Yet, I remain empty. I am like a blind person. Everything is dark around me but especially in my poor soul. This makes me suffer a lot. My Beloved, is it possible that my love for You has become so indifferent? How ungrateful and weak I have become in Your service. Yet, I would like to love You even more.
I abandon myself into Your powerful arms. Receive me with all my miseries, my weaknesses. You know that in spite of the state I am in I love You. I don’t feel anything but I believe in You, in Your love for me, Your poor little girl.”
Thursday 14 April 1955
– Mimi: “My God, I am Your little girl. Have mercy on me. I love You, my Beloved. Do not leave me! I need You. I need Your love. I am suffering too much to go on writing.”
Friday 15 April 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I throw myself into Your arms. I accept to suffer with You. Give me strength and courage.”
Visit to the hospital from 8 o’clock to 12h50. X-ray of my sinuses. Total rest.
− Mimi: “My Beloved, help me endure everything for You and for souls!»
Saturday 16 April 1955
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for Your love. How can You want to come into such a sick soul? Help me offer up everything. I accept the state I am in. I am suffering a lot, especially my head. Give me patience. I cannot put up with any noise without feeling sharp pains. My Beloved, I beg You, help me! Suddenly, there is a visitor, a person who speaks very loud. I know she is going to stay several hours. My Beloved, give me patience! I am going to need it!”
– Satan:“My poor little one, think of Me. Think of my crown of thorns. Think of the noise the soldiers made as they prepared to crucify Me. Think of the cries and shouting from My people who were condemning Me. Think that I endured it all out of love for you and for souls.”
Sunday 17 April 1955
Temptations…
– Mimi: “I don’t want to get discouraged. Please help me, my Beloved!
I am suffering a lot. I have to go to the hospital tomorrow. I wonder what they are going to do to me.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, do not fear. I will be with you, poor little one. When you think of yourself, how quickly you forget Me and yet, I am always there. Think of Our union.”
Monday 18 April 1955
– Mimi: “Out of love for You and souls, I offer You my whole day.”
I spent the morning at the hospital. Nose operation and sinus treatment.
Visit of my director.
– Mimi: He helps me offer up everything to You and confirms me in the Holy Will of God. I take courage.
Evening.
– Mimi: “My God, help me! The pain is getting progressively worse! I was frozen for the operation but the effects are beginning to disappear. I cannot write any longer.”
Tuesday 19 April 1955
– Mimi: Anniversary of my dear father. I offered my communion. Great affliction, being always in aridity. My director helps me to prepare for communion.
After communion:
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, please help me in my thanksgiving.
Thank You, my God, for coming into my poor little soul in spite of the disorder, the uncertainty. I believe You are living within me. I know that Your mercy is infinite and that You shut Your eyes on all my misery. Instead of having contempt, You cherish me. Instead of chastisement, You give Yourself to me entirely. I know that Your pleasure is to give Yourself to the most miserable souls. This is why You enjoy coming to me to help me put my life in order, to purify me, to give me Your love and to increase my confidence, my faith. Come, ô Infinite love! Come dwell forever in my poor little soul! Come with Your love, Your grace, Your power, Your charity. Remove from my soul all that can displease You, my God.
Ô Holy Spirit, give me the grace to be docile to Your inspirations and to receive all the divine gifts with humility.”
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, please teach me to know my God perfectly. Teach me to love Him as He deserves, to serve Him with love and fidelity and to submit myself to His Holy Will. This is why I want to imitate You, I want to practice Your virtues, ô Virgin most pure, ô Immaculate Virgin. My mother, listen to my prayer, consider my good will, sustain my courage, help me attain my goal. In love and humility, in an entire submission to the Holy Will of God, I want to serve Him with You forever.
My Good Guardian Angel, protect me as on the first day of my baptism.”
Wednesday 20 April 1955
– Mimi: “Another day for You. I offer everything out of love.”
– Jesus: “Pray, My dear little girl, pray a lot for the little ones making their first communion. Especially for the mothers who are more attentive in preparing the appearances of their little girls than that of their souls. How many young souls receive Me for the first time with a soul full of pride, vanity, self-love. Poor little souls! Already slaves to the vanities of the world and it is the fault of their negligent parents. Why make of a first communion a worldly feast? Pride has first place and love, second.
I who enjoy coming into the souls of little ones, ask Myself, sometimes, if there is room for Me! If I have first place! I ask Myself why we have placed the day of Confirmation before that of First Communion? Yet, I had instituted the sacrament of the Eucharist before My apostles received the gifts of the Holy Spirit on the day of Pentecost.
Love must dominate first and foremost. By receiving Confirmation before Eucharist, the children prepare themselves for their first communion, the following day, with a distracted heart for they begin receiving presents, compliments on their outfits. They also receive the visit of parents and friends. In their little heads, many things go on! They are so busy looking at their presents and asking themselves what they will get the next day. With all this, they don’t have the time to think about Me, to prepare their soul in pure love and sacrifice. Having received the sacrament of Love first,they will be stronger when receiving the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Tell your director about this conversation.”
Thursday 21 April 1955
Strange dream!
– Mimi: It was a beautiful day! Suddenly, I see my little statue of the Blessed Virgin near a house. I looked at it and said hello while continuing my way. The second time, I see it in front of me. It had fallen. I bend over to pick it up. Poor Blessed Virgin! She had fallen. With love, I kiss he statue and keep it preciously in my hands while walking.
I saw a long tunnel in front of me. There was no other way to go. I heard footsteps behind me. I looked back and saw a nun dressed in white, her hands hidden in her habit, her head down and walking rapidly. I was happy not to be alone in the tunnel for I was afraid.
To my great surprise, the person I thought was a nun was the devil. A struggle ensues to wrest the statue of the Blessed Virgin from me as I held it in my hands. I was crying, struggling. I was so exhausted that I could hardly breathe. I was crying and suffering a lot.
When I woke up, how happy I was to find out it was only a nightmare. I asked myself the reason for such a dream, such a nightmare?
Friday 22 April 1955
– Mimi: I was asking myself where I was at in my resolutions. I was asking myself whether I was on the fast track to heaven.
– Satan: “My dear little one, don’t ask yourself such questions. When a soul is anxious enough to try and know whether it is progressing in the spiritual life, it becomes useless. It is as if it were looking in a mirror in the dark. And though the mirror is there, what does it see? Nothing, nothing!”
Saturday 23 April 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little one, you were impressed when you saw the x-ray of your head! But what a good feeling you would have had if you had seen your soul in the state of grace, especially after Holy Communion! But if I allowed this to happen, where would your faith be, your confidence, your love for Me?”
Sunday 24 April 1955
– Mimi: A visit from my little niece. I was holding little T. in my arms. I said to her:
«Listen, little T. It is an important day for your big sister. She received little Jesus for the first time in her soul”. She seemed to understand and looked at me with a smile.
– Jesus: “My dear little one, be the same with Me. Remain little. Abandon yourself into My arms. My dear little one, did you notice the confidence of the little child?
She was crying. You took her in your arms. You spoke to her gently. She smiled even though her eyes were still wet. With her little hand she pressed your fingers very tightly as if she were afraid of being along. However, what more could you do for her? For her soul?
Do you understand why I ask you to trust in Me, to abandon yourself into My divine arms and in difficult moments to give Me your hand? If a poor little girl is able to make a little one who is crying smile, what could I not be able to do , I your God, for your little soul? Abandon yourself with love, with confidence into the care of My Infinite Mercy.”
