Tuesday 1st March 1955
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, sometimes I ask you for something and you hesitate and I, in My infinite goodness, wait and fill you with special graces as if you had given me everything. See My patience, My mercy, My love!”
Wednesday 2 March 1955
– Jesus: “My poor little one, how you follow Me at a distance! Today, I do not ask you what you are doing? Look at Me! Did I run away from the instruments of My passion just because I felt weak? No, My dear little one. I accepted everything. My love for you was too great. I wanted to give up everything to redeem your soul.
You are right in feeling weak. With what do we save souls? From now on, may your confidence be greater. Listen to Me carefully: if I ask you for more, I will give you more! Do you believe this?”
Thursday 3 March 1955
– Mimi: I am suffering a lot. No matter whether I suffer more or less. All I wish for is to do the Will of God in everything. My Beloved is giving me many graces. Especially when He sees that I am submissive. He knows about my desire to suffer with Him. When I suffer I become so little that there is room for both of us on the same cross. This makes me very happy!
My happiness is so great when I am placed with Him on the same cross and during that time, my love is so strong that I almost forget the suffering and the cross upon which I am placed. I think only of Him, my unique Love.
Friday 4 March 1955
– Mimi: Great temptation! The devil wants to discourage me by telling me that all I am doing is useless. This is what he says:
– Satan: “When you die, your hands will be empty but I will wait for you with my hands burdened with your faults, my arms piled with your sins. Then, you will be allowed to see your work.”
– Mimi: “My wish is to arrive in heaven with my hands empty for I shall have given everything to my Beloved and souls. Like Him, I wish to die poor and naked, detached from everything in order to resemble Him better. When I come before my God, I shall say:
“Here is, ô my God, the poorest, the most miserable of Your creatures. If my hands are empty, my God, it isn’t because I received nothing. On the contrary, I admit that, in Your infinite mercy, in Your love, you have spoiled me more than others. I recognize and admit that I did not deserve as much. This is why offer You my empty hands. You gave me everything. In return, I give You everything and I give the surplus to souls. There is nothing left.
However, my God, look at a poor heart filled with love for You. I know, my God, that I did not do much on earth but I think I did my best to keep this love for You alone, my God, especially for the past 5 years. And, in the past, I know that I took advantage of Your love, Your graces. I overdid it. I gave to the things of the earth, to creatures too much of myself, too much importance. I ask Your forgiveness.
Now that I have become the spouse of Your Beloved Son, I jealously keep watch over this precious gift of love. It must remain inside of me. This is why I beg You, increase Your love in me. Increase also the state of sanctifying grace and protect me from sin that is able to make me lose an incomparable treasure.
Yes, my God, this love is Yours. I want to give it back to You intact. I want to give back my poor little soul as white as on the day of my baptism. I am confident and I believe in Your infinite mercy. In order to obtain these graces, I want to make myself so little, so poor, so humble, so confident. I want to become the beggar of love.
I am sure that Your paternal heart will be moved at seeing my poverty, my misery, my spiritual smallness. I want to approach You with courage and with Your grace, I will take refuge in Your divine heart. I want to get my strength back by becoming one with You more and more through the sacrament of love.
My God, I expect everything from You and only Your love will fulfill my desires. Only Your love will be able to warm my heart so cold, so indifferent. In spite of my misery, my weaknesses, I expect everything from Your Infinite Mercy. You, the God of love, purify my soul. Listen to the prayer of Your little girl who is asking for Your help, Your assistance, but especially of Your love.
My God, in the name of Your Son’s merits, convert me and increase in me the confidence and love and thus I shall remain faithful to You all my life.”
Saturday 5 March 1955
– Mimi: I was meditating on the infinite mercy of God towards me and about all the special graces He was giving me out of pure goodness. I was reminding myself of certain circumstances of my poor life and I was thanking Him for so much love and goodness.
But suddenly, my enemy began troubling me with certain memories of my life. He wanted to discourage me. The temptations were getting worse. At this critical moment, I asked for the help of My Gentle Mother of heaven saying:
– Mimi: “Ô Mary conceived without sin, pray for me. Protect your child who is struggling!”
And the more I pray, the more my enemy attacks me with more strength, more violence. He wants to win. I can’t go on and I weep like a child. Suddenly, the Holy Spirit inspires me to call my director to inform him about the present situation. He understands my insinuations and says he will pray. This gives me strength and courage. After several hours of struggling and suffering, I am able to find rest in the arms of my Beloved.
Sunday 6 March 1955
– Mimi: During the night, I was awakened by a strange pain. My whole body was in pain. I could hardly breathe and I was unable to move. Suddenly, I clearly heard a voice near me say:
– Satan: “My dear little one, offer Me this suffering. I need it because there is a soul in the state of mortal sin who is about to die. Give it to me by accepting to suffer!”
– Mimi: “Yes, my God, I accept this suffering to save this soul.”
Then the pain got worse. I could not even move. This lasted quite a while. Confident that this suffering came from God and being assured of the salvation of this soul, accepting the will of God, in spite of the sufferings, I felt great joy. I fell peacefully to sleep like a child in the arms of my Beloved. Then, during the day, great temptation against faith. My enemy attacked me once again.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect my soul and my body. I take refuge in Your Motherly Heart. Look upon Your child who is suffering and weeping.
I so want to keep my soul pure, my Beloved. See Your little spouse who is struggling to keep this love pure. Why do you turn a deaf ear? I need You, I need Your help.”
The struggle was long and painful for my soul was in the dark and my body weakened by illness.
In the evening, a visit from my director. He speaks to me for a long time about the mercy of God, about His love, about the beauty of a soul in the state of grace and about the necessity of obedience and of total abandonment to the Holy Will of God. After he left, I meditated on these words so encouraging for a sick soul.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, with love, I accept the state in which I am and I no longer want to place obstacles to the inspiration of Your graces.
7 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I prefer seeing myself lying on a cross than seeing myself carry it on my shoulders, for I am still too weak. I would certainly have fallen.”
I have already been in bed for two months or rather on my cross. Happily I am not alone. I am happy to be with Him. What an honor and a joy to suffer with Him. What comfort for a little girl so weak, so frail.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, don’t leave me. Give me perseverance to follow You to the end. Increase my confidence, purify my love, give me the strength to accomplish with resignation, with love what You have asked of me especially for the past two months.”
From now on, my ideal will be to do the will of God in all things and everywhere, to continue saving souls, to suffer in silence, to put up each day with my little pain and all this out of love for you and for souls.
8 March 1955
– Mimi: I am suffering. I would like to give alms to help my neighbor. I would so like to practice charity, but having given everything away, I have nothing. I will still help my neighbor by giving alms of my prayers and of my little sacrifices. My enemy is mocking me. He is trying to discourage me.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, help me please. I do not want to offend You from a lack of confidence. Increase my faith, my love. I am suffering a lot from uncertainty.
Out of love for You, I offer You this struggle, this state I am in. I trust in You. My God, throught the sufferings and merit of Your Son, save the souls of poor sinners. Have mercy on the dying. I unite my sufferings to those of Your Divine Son for the salvation of souls. My wish is to offer You many.”
Wednesday 9 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I am beginning my day in great sorrow. It pains me a lot. You know how anxious I was to receive You. You know my growing desire of union with You. You are my whole life, my only love, my unique hope. I need You so much to help me, to purify me. I know that without You I can do nothing, that I am nothing. I beg You, come spiritually into my soul, my Beloved, my God, my All.
Come with all Your splendor, come especially with all Your love. I wish to receive You, to adore you, to love You. I feel so weak, so sick, so miserable because of my sins. I need to get my strength back in order to struggle. I need support in order not to fall. I need a pure heart to love and it is Yours that I have chosen. Ô my God, I believe in Your love for me and I thank You with all my soul, with all my strength. You know, my Beloved, what the heart of a child is capable of doing when it loves. It does not measure, it gives without reservation its love, its affection and multiplies its kisses and caresses. Accept these marks of tenderness and love, ô my Beloved. Am I not Your child? How I miss You! How anxious I am to receive You!”
Another voice:
– Satan: “My dear little one, you have time to lose! Do you believe this invisible being exists? You’re out of your mind! Live in reality! Why do you love without any return? Why live as a slave? You were not able to receive communion this morning. Why does your director tell you that you are in the state of grace? He is in doubt. He knows very well that this communion would have been a sacrilege. He is afraid. Yes, he fears for himself for he is still searching for truth… He fears you and me. He knows very well that I will not leave you. Some day, you will be mine, only mine.
This is why he did not come. Look at his strength. He didn’t dare. He finds excuses and you believe him? Listen! I open your eyes and I am not afraid to speak to you. Why do you have confidence in him? He doesn’t understand you. What can he do for you?
– Mimi: “Liar! Get lost! Leave me in peace!”
I believe in God. I adore Him and love Him. I trust in Him and his representative. My God, close my ears to the discourses and suggestions of the devil!
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please protect me. I trust in You, my hope. I place my trust in God. I believe in the dignity of the priest, of my director. I see only You in him. I want to always have the same respect and the same submission. I believe in Your words: “He who hears you, hears Me and he who rejects you, rejects Me.” My guardian angel, watch over me!
Thursday 10 March 1955
– Mimi: “My God, how I hate to write, but I must do it out of obedience.
Ô Holy Spirit, please guide me so that no words, phrases of mine be contrary to the truth, for the devil tells me not to say everything, not to write.
My Beloved, please help me keep smiling in spite of the physical pain I have. I thank You for Your help, for with Your grace, I am able to remain serene and hide my struggles, my doubts, my interior sorrows.”
It makes me smile when I hear certain persons say: “She is very well. She doesn’t seem to suffer”, when I am suffering most, or when I am struggling to remain pure, for my enemy uses every means to attack me. It seems at times that he is using burning tips, so great is the temptation. He uses every means. He wants to discourage me.
Ô Mary conceived without sin, protect me. Do not leave Your child to struggle alone. I throw myself with confidence into Your motherly arms.
In spite of the state I am in, I believe and expect everything from You, my Beloved. Consider my heart that wants to love You more than ever and suffers to see how little You are loved by Your creatures so indifferent. And to think that I used to be one of them. I ask sincerely Your forgiveness. How anxious I am to receive You in order to console You, to atone for my sins, to love You.”
Then, for a moment, being near to me, I felt so small in His arms. Ô gentle embrace! I would have wanted this moment to last forever! Thank You, my Beloved, for so much love! How calm I feel, an immense peace in spite of the physical pain! I can no longer doubt our love.”
I feel that I know that my Beloved wants me to be His. Of this I am sure.
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for this attention! In Your goodness, You allowed my director to share Our happiness. I do not know whether he knew that Our love was so strong, ô my Beloved. Thank You, my Love! You had already promised me that You would manifest Yourself in him to increase his confidence. I saw it and do not doubt it.”
How happy he was! He wept for joy. When I expressed my desire to receive You, he eagerly said: “I will come back tomorrow. Yes, I will bring your Jesus!” I was so happy, so moved that when he left, I too wept for joy. My happiness was so great that it was too much for my poor heart. I could hardly carry on without feeling sharp pains. Only divine love can have such an effect on my soul. How I found the time long waiting for tomorrow.”
Friday 11 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, come share my happiness. Help me prepare my soul so that I may receive Him with all the respect and love He claims. I am so anxious to receive Him! After having been in the dark for several days, it was so dark in my prison though I wanted to believe that He was hiding from me to try my confidence and love. I cannot express here all the happiness I feel. Thank You, thank You my God for having come into my soul this morning through the Sacrament of love.”
What joy, today, to be able to speak to Him freely. He is in my soul, in Our little dwelling. There are so many things to say after such a long silence.
– Mimi: “My Lord and my God, I adore You present in me. I thank You for Your infinite mercy. With what love You come to me! I am not worthy to receive You after having offended You so many times. I ask Your forgiveness.”
– Jesus: “My dear little beloved spouse, if I gave you this consolation, it is to prepare you. If My love has become so strong, so powerful in you, it is to strengthen you for you must be strong in Me and with Me to accomplish what I expect from you. Since you became My spouse, My little girl, I have asked a lot more from you because I had given you more than you deserve. My dear little one, I must purify you completely so that there may not remain a particle of you and of sin. Then, you will be able to say sincerely: “Nothing is mine, I have given everything and it is He who lives in me.” From now on We are but one.
Because of your lack of confidence you were placing an obstacle to grace and the work of the Holy Spirit had become difficult at times. May your love become complete in Me. Together We will take to the road once more. The road I will offer you will be filled with crosses, trials of all kinds, sufferings. It is the only road that leads to heaven for eternity.
Now that I am near you, that I feel your sincerity, that I consider your love, I am aware of your struggles, your efforts to please Me. I see your repentance. Do you believe I am going to leave you alone to walk along this road I am offering you?
No, My little girl, have no fear. I will be with you, everywhere and forever. However, believe in My word and in what I tell you. It is out of pure goodness that I speak to you. Do not doubt. Even in a state of spiritual aridity, in darkness, in all kinds of temptations.
I am always near you even though you do not always feel My presence. I am always there. I see everything. I see you struggle. I hear your cries. I hear your prayers. I receive the movements of love from your little soul. I am aware of your desire to possess Me for eternity. This consoles Me.
So that Our union may be complete, My dear little girl, may your prayer remain confident. Throw yourself entirely into My divine arms, like today. It is so easy. Am I not right in saying that you wish these consoling moments never to end? Do you see how divine love is able to transform a poor little soul that is still very miserable? You are still so weak.
My dear little one, this is the reason why I want to help you. I am constantly keeping watch over you. I strengthen you with My grace. Ask Me often for the gift of love, the gift of strength, of perseverance and for all the gifts of the Holy Spirit. You will need them all your life that will soon come to an end.
My dear little spouse, in a short while you will suffer greatly to help Me save souls. By a special privilege and to make you understand what I endured out of love for you and souls, I will share with you a few sufferings that I endured during My passion. You will endure sufferings of the body. The pain will be so great that the traits on your face will change. You will also endure almost total abandonment because others will not understand your pain and what is going on within you. All your sufferings will come from Me. I will share My agony with you. You will also suffer in your heart, in your mind.
During one of our encounters, you said you were happy to have been placed with Me on the same cross. You even added this: “What an honor and what happiness there is to suffer with Him!” Yes, My dear little girl, the honor for you is to be with Me, your God and the happiness for Me is to be with you, My dear little girl. You are Mine, all Mine! At times, I am a jealous God!”
Begin this very day to offer Me a little more. Keep silent on all this except with your director so that he may help you, enlighten you, sustain you with his prayers and sacrifices. Prepare yourself with acts of love, confidence in My omnipotence, in My mercy. Abandon yourself into My arms. Be submissive to the Holy Will of My Father. Ask for the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Tell Me you accept with love and an entire submission the Holy Will of My Father.
However, ask permission from your director. Be very obedient to him. He is taking My place. Do as he says. I bowe before the priest. Reflect a little on these words you don’t understand. Be humble. Ask your director to explain. If I favor you with so many graces, special favors, it is only to show you My love. For you are the poorest, the littlest of My creatures. You are so miserable with your sick body, your soul full of faults and imperfections. This is why I come to you in order to help you in your purification.”
– Mimi: “My God, with Your grace and Your help, I freely accept with the full consent of my will all that it will please You to send me for the greater good of my soul. But in submitting myself to Your Holy Will, ô my God, I especially want to show You my love and gratitude for so much goodness.
You know, my Beloved, that my poor little nature is trembling at the thought of what You ask of me. This is why I beg You, do not leave me. You are my strength, my support, my courage. Strenghten my faith, purify my love, increase my confidence. I want to place all my hope in You alone.
I place myself in Your divine arms. I abandon myself entirely like a little girl in the arms of her father. I trust in You. I also want to allow the Holy Spirit to work in me.”
Every day, I ask my Gentle Mother of heaven to teach me how to say my Fiat.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, listen to the voice of Your little girl who is weeping and suffering because I know my weaknesses and sins that are so numerous. Humbly and with love, confidence, I throw myself into Your motherly arms. Sustain my courage, strengthen my faith, protect me from my enemies, ô Mother of Sorrows. How You must have suffered because of me! I ask Your forgiveness. My heart suffers with Yours in seeing Your Gentle Jesus, my Beloved.
Please give me perseverance, and when God comes, may He find me ready to to His Holy Will. At Your example, may I say in spite of my misery: “I am the servant of the Lord.”
Saturday 12 March 1955
– Mimi: “I had a beautiful gift. Great happiness was mine, this morning. My director gave me communion! I did the novena of grace. All day, I did my best to remain constantly in His arms. What gentle exchanges We had. God knew very well that in giving me an affectionate heart, one day, this same heart would beat for Him alone. He also knew that with a sensitive heart I would have to suffer more. My Beloved! I give you this heart, lovingly. Keep it! It is Yours. Do with it what You will!”
My Beloved made me understand that the only true happiness on earth is to do the Will of His Father, to remain faithful to Him out of love. How I meditated for a long time on a sentence given to me by my director:
“Pray for me so that I may love Him more.
I would like to die of love for Him.”
How consoling it is for God to see a soul that loves Him, a faithful soul, one that has given up everything to follow Him, a soul that loves Him enough to die of love for Him! How this soul must have a special place in His Divine Heart!
– Mimi: “My Beloved! I also wish to love You even more! I will ask my director to help me love You, to teach me how to serve You faithfully with an entire submission and full confidence.”
Sunday 13 March 1955
– Mimi: “My God! I believe in You who have risen from the dead. Please grant me the grace for my soul to resurrect to another life… a new life filled with love and total abandonment. You who healed the blind, allow me to see, yes, may I see with the eyes of faith; may I see my misery, my faults, my sins as You see them, my Beloved! Yes, my Beloved, open my ears so that I may only hear Your voice of truth and may I listen to the words of my director. Guide my faltering steps on the road to heaven. Everything in me is sick. Look with pity on Your poor little girl who so wants to please You and love You! I believe! I expect everything from Your infinite mercy.»
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for Your kindness. I am suffering physically but your love is so strong that I also forget that I am nailed to the cross. I am so happy to rest my head on Your shoulder, like Saint John. How wonderful it is to hear Your heart filled with love for Your little spouse. I can’t get enough of it. Thank You for Your love that I am savoring with delight. Ô Infinite Goodness! My God, my Love, my All!
In return, receive my love that is still very feeble, but I am confident that You can increase it and purify it. This is why I wish to receive You in Your sacrament of love. I want to live only in You and for You, my God. You know, my Beloved, how much I wish more and more to become Your little Host of love that You could offer and immolate each day with You for the salvation of souls.
Thank You for Your graces, for such goodness in spite of my faults for which I ask forgiveness. Yes, forgive me for the sins of all my life. Forgive me for my lack of confidence. I did not know You as You were. Yet, after so many signs of Your love, why did I remain so indifferent? My director was doing his best to make me understand. In my ignorance, in my pride, I must admit that I prayed badly… I couldn’t admit the intimacy of God with a soul, especially with a sinful soul. I still prayed but my prayers were only on a natural level, prayers of interest. I was too earthly. I was more preoccupied by my enemy than by Your grace that helped me along continually. What mistakes I could have made if You had abandoned me! In Your infinite goodness, in Your great mercy, You waited for me patiently for such a long time! You protected me! From what dangers You spared my soul and my body!
Moreover, You filled me with Your favors and special graces. You even chose a director to guide me. You favored me by giving me the chance to atone, repair, merit and become Your little spouse. Your love is so great that You wish, through a special privilege, to share with me Your sufferings so that Our union may be perfect. How can one refuse after all this?
How stupid I have been, ungrateful towards You, towards my director! I ask Your forgiveness. Let me weep at Your feet, over my faults, my infidelity, at such goodness I didn’t deserve. How can I refuse to believe in Your love, Your infinite mercy? I humbly ask Your forgiveness. Allow me to kiss Your divine forehead as I tell You from the bottom of my soul that I love You, that I accept out of love Your Holy Will. I offer You all the love contained in my little heart.”
Monday 14 March 1955
– Mimi: “Another day with You, my Beloved. I want to love You, to console You. With Your grace, I want to do my best not to offend You. Please help me. I need a lot of patience.
I will silently put up with the faults of those around me, remembering that You were very patient with me for such a long time. I offer You all the sorrows of mylife, the loneliness, the unkindness, the difficulties of all sorts especially those concerning my obligations. I offer You my aches and pains out of love. I want to remain silent about everything. On my knees, I protrate myself near You. I adore You. I want to tell you all the sorrow I have for having offended a God so good. I feel the need to be near You, to tell You I love You, that I want to remain faithful. It is near You that I get back my strength. I entrust to You all the souls, especially the poor sinners, the dying. I pray for the conversion of the world, for peace in the world, for peace among families, for peace among souls.
In Your infinite goodness, protect Our Holy Father. Strengthen Your Church. Give strength and courage to missionaries. Increase sacerdotal and religious vocations. Protect the purity of youth, console the suffering, those who weep, who struggle and are alone. Have pity on orphans, give courage to those who are desperate. In other words, my Beloved, consider all human misery. My Beloved, I wish that all these souls may look up to You their God. I would like all these souls to recognize You as their God who is infinitely good; that they remain confident and hope in You, the Almighty.
If only I were able to go all over the world to tell them that You are the only God, the Almighty, the God of mercy; that You are the One who gave us everything out of love. I would like to tell them all that You have done for me. I would like to make them understand that each soul You created is loved by You in a particular way as if it were the only one in the world. All You ask for in return is to be loved and that in spite of trials and crosses, they remain faithful to You by accepting everything out of love and for the glory of Your Father. There are days when I would like to be a missionary to make others aware of You. How I would like to be a priest in order to offer more to God.
My Beloved, please give me the heart of an apostle, a generous heart, ready to give myself to everyone, a heart that understands souls, a heart that helps out the needy, especially sinners, a heart that is able to speak about divine love, confidence, a heart that gives without regret, a heart that inspires hope, confidence, that gives others the strength to carry on. I would like to have a heart able to weep with those who suffer. I would like to have a humble heart, one that consoles, one that is compassionate towards my neighbor, friends and enemies. I would like to have a heart that can smile when joyful or sorrowful. My Beloved, give me a faithful heart to follow You, a heart submissive to Your Holy Will, a heart that can only be satisfied in possessing You completely. Give me a heart able to really love You!
– Mimi: Please give me a heart that resembles Yours; a heart like Your Divine Mother’s. You know, my Beloved, how much is needed to be done to change my poor little heart. How about it? Grant me the grace of purifying it, sanctifying it, rendering it agreeable to God in order that I may accomplish all that You expect from Your little girl. This is why I am counting on You, on Your grace. With love, full confidence, I place my heart near Yours, in Yours. Sacred Heart of Jesus, I trust in You!
Tuesday 15 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, in spite of my misery, I hope in You, I accept to suffer with You. I accept with love to carry my daily cross with an entire submission. I accept what You expect from me on earth and later on in heaven, for I am confident that Our union will be completed in heaven.
What increases my confidence in You is Your Merciful Love for me, so poor, so little, so sinful. How great is Your goodness! How beautiful is love in suffering! Union of God with the most frail of His creatures!”
I am happy. My director has taught me how to pray to You without making detours. He speaks to me about the intimacy of God with souls, of His goodness, of His infinite mercy, of His love. He then speaks to me about what I used to be and about what God did for me out of pure goodness. I must meditate on this seriously.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, come close to me to help me prepare tomorrow’s communion. The time seems far off and I am so anxious.”
Wednesday 16 March 1955
– Mimi: “Nearer to You, my God. I need You more and more. I need Your presence in my poor soul to help me struggle against my enemy who remains at my side.
My Beloved, I want to spend this day without offending You. I am suffering a lot. My enemy wants to take advantage of this to make me impatient. My Beloved, without You I can do nothing. Help me remain faithful. Like You, my Beloved, I want to suffer in silence, since this pain comes from You and that everything in me belongs to You. Do with me what You will. I give myself to You for life and eternity. My Beloved, how I miss You. The more I receive You the more I desire to posses You entirely to love You,to thank You. You know, my Beloved, that I want to remain Your little victim of love, Your little Host of love that You immolate every day with You. I believe in You, divine love, my Beloved Spouse. I am happy to be near You. I want to offer You everything out of love. I cannot write any longer. I am suffering too much.”
– Mimi: “My director reassured me. I was afraid of losing You, of offending You. Do You realize, my Beloved, all the mistakes I could make if you did not sustain me? I can see that I am not dead yet and that I must be on the alert for more battle. Each day I must do battle.
After this storm, I lift up my head towards God.
– Mimi: “Consider me, my Beloved, see my misery! I need You. I need Your help. Sustain me with Your graces, with Your love. I don’t want to lose You. When will the day come when I will not fear losing You?
I bowe before Your Holy Will and count on Your help for I have every reason to fear for my poor human nature as long as I live. But I am confident. I know that You will not allow me to be separated from You if I abandon myself to You, if I place my confidence in You every day of my life. This love, this confidence in You, my Beloved, I ask You to expand it, to purify it. I expect everything fromYou, my God, my All.”
Thursday 17 March 1955
– Mimi: “Today, my Beloved, I want to repair all my negligence. My Beloved, I want to remember that I must resemble You to be aggreeable to God. I want to practice humility. I will avoid talking about myself, about my aches, about what bothers me. I will keep silent out of love for You. Isn’t it true, my Beloved, that Our love, Our intimacy must remain a secret?”
I was reciting the Rosary and meditating…
First mystery: The Annunciation. Let us ask for humility.
– Mimi: “My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the grace to be humble enough so that Jesus will accept to visit me with His grace and that in the eyes of the world, I will be considered a nobody.
2nd Mystery: The Visitation. Let us ask for charity.
Ô my Gentle Mother of heaven, how I lack this virtue! Please grant me the grace to be charitable towards everyone and out of charity, I want to offer everything, give everything away. I ask for the conversion of the whole world, the delivrance of the souls in purgatory.
3rd Mystery: The birth of Jesus. Let us ask for detachment.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the detachment from everything. Like You, I want to live and die poor and unknown by all. Detach my heart from human affections, creatures. Remove all that could separate me from You, from Your Gentle Son. Like Him, I want to be submissive to God out of love.”
4th Mystery: The presentation of Jesus in the temple. Let us ask for purity.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the grace of purity. When I pray to God, may all my prayers, my requests be purified by You, ô Mediatrix of all graces. Grant me the grace of remaining pure. May I allow my spirit to be guided by the Holy Spirit and may my heart be constantly turned towards God with love and submission. Grant me the grace to always purify my intentions towards my neighbor.”
5th Mystery: The recovery of Jesus in the temple. Let us ask for obedience.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please grant me the grace of always finding Jesus, God, in all things and everywhere; in moments of joy and in sorrow. Grant me the grace of always being submissive and docile to the Holy Will of God. For this, I must be obedient to my director who represents You. It is so easy to jump in the arms of Jesus with love and to allow oneself to be guided by a blind obedience full of confidence.”
Friday 18 March 1955
– Mimi: “How anxious I am to receive You! With the help of my Gentle Mother of heaven, I want clean up my little interior home. I so want to purify it, make it agreeable to God. There is still a lot of dust but I am confident that with the breeze of grace, You will make these faults, these imperfections that offend You disappear entirely.”
− Eternal Father: “My dear little girl, I could make everything disappear with one stroke, everything that is wrong with you but for the time being I want it to be this way. Otherwise, where would your efforts be? Your struggles? Where would you place your confidence? To whom would your love go? Isn’t it true that you recognize your faults, that you admit there is a lot to be done? It’s going to take time. You are right in asking for your Divine Mother’s help in cleaning up your home. She did such a good job in preparing the home of My Beloved Son. My dear little girl, be humble and confident. Love Her. I am sure She won’t refuse to help you prepare your little soul to receive Us.”
– Mimi: “How anxious I am to receive You! I am counting on Your love to purify me. I am counting the hours. To wait until tomorrow seems very far.”
Saturday 19 March 1955
Memorable day. Feast of Saint Joseph
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for so much goodness. I had the great privilege of receiving communion. I cannot express all the joy of possessing You entirely. You, my God, my unique Love. Dear Saint Joseph, receive the best wishes from a little girl who loves You and who implores Your help.
On this feast day, You cannot refuse anything to a little soul who asks with sincerity and confidence Your help, Your assistance in all her needs. You, the guardian of the Blessed Virgin, grant me the grace to keep my soul pure. Protect me from the dangers of this life, especially of losing God. You know what it’s like to lose God without being your fault. You had lost Jesus during three days and it must have seemed an eternity. Then, what joy it was for You to recover Your son, Your Jesus. I also had lost Jesus for a long time. But now that I have recovered Him, do not allow me to lose Him again through sin. Have pity on me and protect me. I want this feast day to be spent in union with Jesus, Mary, Joseph in order for Us to be one single family.
I want God to fill with spiritual and temporal favors my director to whom I owe a lot for the salvation of my soul. I ask You to give him health. He needs it to accomplish what You expect from him. You know his desire to save souls. Look upon this apostle working with firmness and fervor to give You as many souls as possible. Help him in the difficulties he encounters at times in his Holy Ministry.
You know that he is working for You and that all the souls that You have given him, he wants to return them to You purified and render glory to God. You know, my Beloved, how happy he is to hold You in his hands, with what confidence and especially with what love he abandons himself to the Holy Will of God. Receive my humble prayers and please grant him all the graces he asks and needs in his Holy Ministry for the salvation of souls.»
Sunday 20 March 1955
– Mimi: “I am sad. Someone is missing and this someone is You, my Beloved. Come visit me with Your love, your grace in a spiritual communion. I adore You, present in me. I know that I don’t deserve this favor but You who see the bottom of my soul, You know all the sorrow I feel for having offended You. But I beg You, see my desire of never losing You and the resolution of loving You ever more. I ask Your help for without You I can do nothing. Ô Almighty God, please grant me the grace of pure love. You cannot refuse my request. Look at my sincerity.
How anxious I am to live near You and never be separated from You. How I regret all the years when I lived without worrying about my salvation! How often I turned a deaf ear to Your calls. I had shut the door to any grace. I ask sincerely your forgiveness. Thank You, thank You for waiting such a long time for me. Thank You for Your infinite mercy. Thank You for Your love. My Beloved, I give myself to you without limit. Receive this offering of my whole being, all that I am. My Beloved Spouse, all that is mine is Yours forever. Here I am!”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, did you notice that Our two hearts think and wish the same thing? You tell me: “My Beloved Spouse, everything in me is Yours. Here I am!” And I answer you by repeating the same words: “My dear little spouse, everything in Me is yours. Here I am!” Do you recognize the effects of divine love? Do not forget Our union, love in suffering for the salvation of souls and the glory of My Father.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for Your love. In return, receive mine.”
Monday 21 March 1955
– Mimi: The day does not begin well. I am suffering a lot physically. The pain is so severe that I can only manage a few hours of sleep, always on the same side. Looking at me, I seem to be on a bed of roses, but they do not suspect that under the roses there are thorns.
– Mimi: “I thank You, my Beloved, for having chosen for me this suffering that has lasted for two and a half months without forgetting my weariness and the anxieties of my soul when I am in darkness, when I am looking for You and am afraid of not being Your little girl, when the temptation oppresses me constantly, when the road seems endless, when my Beloved makes me go through all kinds of mind-sets. My Beloved, I love You and I trust in You.”
Upon leaving the hospital, how anxious I was to get home and pick up my routine to lighten the burden of my dear mom. It was just the opposite. Here I am continually depending on everybody.
– Mimi: “My Beloved, because I love You, I accept lovingly the state I am in. I accept the action of Your grace in my soul. I cannot refuse You anything. I offer You my entire life, my body, my soul, my eternity. I abandon You everything I have, my God, my All.
Tuesday 22 March 1955
– Mimi: “My Beloved, to please You I will remain silent. I am so tired hearing everyone talking that I am unable to rest. My God, I need You, Your love, Your grace in my soul. My Beloved, please give me a lot of patience and enough love to accept everything. I accept Your Holy Will to stay in bed.
My God, I love You. Increase my love, my confidence. Help me. Without You I am nothing. I feel the presence of my enemy near me. He wants to discourage me. He wants to take advantage of the state of weakness I am in. My Beloved, I beg You, speak to me. You who are Truth. I need to hear Your voice to reassure me. At the moment, I am suffering too much and don’t have the strength to write all the suggestions of my enemy. All I want to write is about Your love and all that You have done for me for such a long time. I would like to write about all my gratitude and to love You even more. I thank You for Your infinite mercy, Your love.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, teach me how to love Your Gentle Son. Teach me how to love everything that comes from Him; the joys and the crosses, the trials. Teach me especially to love His Holy Will. I am afraid of my enemy. I tremble. I am afraid of my weakness but I hope in You, my Mother, my Love. This is why I implore Your help. I throw myself confidently into Your powerful arms. Keep me in Your heart and hide me from my enemy so that he may never find me. Together, we will prepare tomorrow’s communion. I can hardly wait.”
Wednesday 23 March 1955
– Mimi: “I was preparing my communion with My Gentle Mother of heaven. How anxious I was! I felt that my director wasn’t coming fast enough. I was making acts of faith and love. Suddenly, my enemy comes to me saying:
– Satan: “You are suffering for nothing. Why don’t you take advantage of the remainder of your life to enjoy it a little? If you wanted, I could do something for you. You could even find a certain consolation in the state you are in. You know what I mean. Am I not right in saying that you find the time long between four walls. Poor little one! So young and suffering so much for nothing. It isn’t fair! Give me a simple “yes”. Give me a sign and I am there! I will share your joy, your pleasure. Your happiness will be great. After having given up everything for such a long time, you will experience a new joy of coming together after such a long absence. You can now see your mistake. It is still time to come back to me.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! Mother, Mother, my Gentle Mother of heaven, come to my aid! My God, give me enough love to accept all that You want from me.
My Beloved, I beg You, protect me. I am all Yours forever and I don’t want to lose You a single moment through sin. Consider my Love. I cradle myself inYour mighty arms, ô my Beloved Spouse. Do not allow my confidence to be shaken for I believe in You, I cry out to You, I trust in You. I am convinced that Your love is stronger than my enemy.
– Mimi: “My God, receive the offering of Your little girl. Once again, I offer myself as a little Host of love that Your Divine Son immolates each day with Himself for Your glory and for the salvation of souls. I want to keep nothing. Everything in me is Yours. I give You everything, my God, my Creator.
The struggle went on for several hours.
– Mimi: “I thank You, my Beloved, for Your help. I am so pleased for not having offended You, my God, my All.
– Mimi: Thank You my Gentle Mother of heaven for having helped me during this struggle. I am suffering too much to continue writing. I accept this suffering for the salvation of souls but especially to show You my gratitude, my love and my entire submission to Your Holy Will.”
Thursday 24 March 1955
- Mimi: I am always in the same state. My heart is tormented by temptations. I am always in the same moral solitude since this morning. I must keep smiling, hide my troubles, my struggles.
Oh! How tempted I am to say with my Beloved: “Father, if it is possible, may this cup depart from me.” My director came for a few minutes. Seeing that he had little time at his disposal, I did not share with him what was going on in my soul. I must not be selfish by thinking only of myself. How nature and grace are struggling!
– Mimi: “Tomorrow, I have to go to the hospital. Another day of suffering for You, my Beloved.”
Friday 25 March 1955
– Mimi: “I am beginning my day with a great sorrow. If You knew the joy I would have had in receiving You on this beautiful feast day but out of obedience, I had to go to the hospital.
Yes, on the 25th of March, five years ago, I was making my first vows. I remember that long expected day. My director had prepared me with a retreat followed by a general confession. How happy I was to have finally found peace, security, happiness in You forever. I was happy to have a heart that was finally free to undertake a new life, to have an ideal. I could raise my eyes to heaven. I had been hoping for this day for such a long time.
I will never forget what my director did for my soul especially on this beautiful day, that is, the day of my conversion. My love was so great to receive You. I felt like I was receiving You for the first time. Do You remember, my Beloved, the tender moments of Our union? I remember Your divine caresses.
I was exhausted after my visit to the hospital, 4 hours of waiting on a bench and always on the same side. I am still suffering from an abcess caused by a faulty injection. For the last two months and a half, I have been suffering a lot from this infection that is spreading more and more. I already have eight boils, a real little factory of boils. I am so exhausted that I can only sleep a few hours each night. The hours are long. It is with great difficulty that I am able to sit down, either to write or read. I am suffering so much this evening that I cannot place my head on the pillow without feeling sharp pain and my little heart is beating so fast. I tell Him:
– Mimi: “These sufferings are for You, my Beloved.”
– Jesus: “Thank you, my dear little one. You please Me when you think of Me in your sufferings. Remember that I had only a stone to rest My poor head and I endured everything out of love for you.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for opening my eyes. It is true that I am selfish in thinking only of myself. Come my Love! Come rest Your head on my heart! Come! I want to console You, to tell You once more that I love You. I offer You my little heart. It is Yours. Keep it forever. I know that in the past, my heart was as hard as a rock. Now that it belongs to You, change it, purify it, keep it in Yours for eternity. I am confident for I know that it is secure. I need You so badly. I need Your help for without You I am nothing. – Well, now my enemy is sticking out his nose.”
− Satan: “You can easily see that your director is mocking you. Don’t call him for communion. Tomorrow, he will laugh at you.”
– Mimi: “Go away, liar! I am confident. I will yet ask to receive communion and the more you do your best to prevent me to receive Him, the more I will lovingly throw myself into with confidence into His Divine arms. You cannot prevent me from receiving Him spiritually!”
I am pleased! I will be able to receive Him tomorrow! Thank You, my God! Thanks to my director.
– Mimi: “Welcome, my Beloved, to my little soul! Our dwelling and That of the Blessed Trinity!
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, please cradle me in Your arms. I have such a headache! Yes, cradle me as You did for Your Gentle Jesus, Your Treasure. I am also Your sick child. Could You help me prepare my soul for tomorrow?”
Saturday 26 March 1955
– Mimi: The storm is starting again. I am suffering a lot. My enemy is near me to trouble me.
– Satan: “You are suffering for nothing. You make me laugh. You believe you are suffering with your God. It is useless for you are losing your time. Hardly two and a half months have gone by and you already have had enough. You have left the hospital with five kinds of remedies as pain killers. After all this, do you really think you are suffering out of love?
My poor little one, how easily you are mistaken into believing that you are united to Him, believing in an invisible being! You should believe in what life is refusing you and giving you to suffer, all kinds of difficulties. However, if you wanted, I could help you.
– Mimi: “How I suffer! I who wanted to prepare my communion properly. Why is my enemy near me at this moment? Why is he the first one to visit me? And You, my Beloved, why do You hide at the moment when I desire Your presence in my soul, ô my Love, when I need You so badly at this moment? I was not able to write more for all day was spent in great physical sufferings without forgetting the interior storm.
My God, come to my aid. I am so exhausted that I am not even able to hear someone speak. Everything tires me. The least effort to do something exhausts me.
Therefore, I must submit myself to Your Holy Will and accept with patience, with great love all that You want from me, my Beloved, and for the moment, You want me to remain in a bed that has become my cross, Our Cross, ô my Love. I love You more than anything.
– Mimi: My Gentle Mother of heaven, I am sending you a S.O.S. Come to my aid if You please! I am losing my strength! Give me the courage to continue this struggle. If Your Gentle Son decides to hide from me, I suffer from this but You, my Gentle Mother of heaven, do not hide from me as well, I beg You. Look upon Your little girl who weeps and is struggling. Help me! I don’t want to lose Your Jesus. I love Him so and more than anything. Increase my faith and my love.”
Sunday 27 March 1955
– Mimi: “The storm is full blown! My God, come to my aid! I feel so lonely! Why are you hiding from me, my Beloved? What will become of me without You? My enemy doesn’t leave me alone, ô my Beloved. Help me struggle, purify me, give me courage, patience, love to continue the struggle! You know, my Beloved that I don’t want to lose You. I would rather die than consent for a single moment to what my enemy suggests. My God, I believe, I adore You and love You more than anything else. I believe in Your presence in me in spite of the temptations I am undergoing. I am suffering a lot but I accept everything out of love and for the salvation of souls.
Mother! Mother! My Gentle Mother of heaven, protect Your little girl. The temptation is getting worse! I am exhausted by the illness. Without You I can do nothing. Cover me with Your regal mantle and hide me. Hide my soul, my will, my spirit, my heart, my body. Everything in me belongs to You.
My Beloved! Please protect me. Tell me You love me as Your little spouse.”
I was reading the Passion of Jesus Christ and suddenly my enemy made an appearance saying:
− Satan: “Poor little girl! Why do you believe all this? You believe you are suffering with God! Why would He need your sufferings, especially yours? Where is His might? Look at what He is doing with you at the moment!”
He has abandoned you. He no longer listens to what you ask of Him. Since way back He has rejected you. Why believe in heaven? It is not for you. If there is one, it is for souls that are pure, not for the damned. You are among them with all the souls you have already lost. How proud you are! You always expect that some day He will forgive you, but your sins are so many. And besides, you believe you are the spouse of Christ! You say that He loves you and that you love Him more than anything. Come on, little one! Use your head! This God that you put to death because of your sins would lovingly become your spouse? You’re wrong and you believe that? You have a blind confidence in your director who tells you that God loves you. He is mistaken. Poor little one who falls for this so easily.
Admit, my little proud one, that I am right. You know very well that I am telling the truth even though you tell your director that you are happy to suffer with God, that you are proud to be the spouse of Christ, that you want to love Him, serve Him, that you accept His Holy Will, that you want to save souls with the help of your director, that you are working as a team for the glory of God by giving Him many souls.
What useless words! In the bottom of your heart you know it isn’t true. They are only words, dreams of illusion, lies. You are doing this only to receive encouragement, consolation for you are still seeking to be happy. You are going to need it. Why not enjoy life, its pleasures. You have so little time left to live. I know very well that you are not happy. Look at your family. Your friends are leaving you. You are alone, sick. You cannot go out in spite of such fine weather. The persons living with you don’t understand you.
You only have your director who visits you out of charity and to gain indulgences. Look at me! You don’t have to ask me. I am always by your side. I do not hide for I am powerful. I have nothing to hide and your God, where is He today? What can He do for you at this moment? And at the hour of your death, where will you go? If you wish, I could show you my power. I could fill you with joy, friends, pleasure. You would no longer be a slave. You would no longer be the servant of an invisible God. I would be your servant. You would only have to ask to receive. I do not turn a deaf ear. When I love someone, I keep her for eternity. Yes, my little one, I am faithful and I love you!”
– Mimi: “I can’t go on! Get lost, liar! I hate you with all my heart! I hate your suggestions, your lies. Get lost! Go see my director. You’ll see how he will receive you! You’ll see what power the priest has over you!”
How it makes me suffer to write down all these errors, these blasphemies. It is enough for me to put up with them without having to write them down, but I accept out of love and obedience. My Beloved! How can You dwell in my soul in the midst of all this disorder? My God, I find the struggle difficult for my poor little soul. I tremble! The storm upsets me greatly. My God, do not let me give in to temptation. I beg You, my Beloved, give me the courage to continue my way towards You. I lift up my eyes towards You with confidence. I expect everything from You. Without You I can do nothing.
My Gentle Mother of heaven, please give me Your hand to pass through this dangerous road. I don’t want to fall into this mud. I don’t want to soil my soul where the Holy Trinity dwells. I want to keep my soul pure.
– Mimi: Immaculate Virgin, my Mother, I love You! Virgin most pure, keep me near You, in Your motherly heart. I love You and trust in You. Thank You for Your help. Without You, without God, I can do nothing. I confide in You forever, especially at the hour of my death.”
Monday 28 March 1955
– Mimi: “The sun is out and yet the storm is raging within me. I have reached my limit. My God, help me overcome this temptation. I don’t want to offend You. I don’t want to lose You.
I didn’t know where this voice came from.
– Satan: “Poor little one! I can do nothing for you. I have been kind. I have been merciful. I have loved you. I have filled you with special favors. I gave you My Son as spouse and now that you have taken advantage of My graces, of My sacraments, I will no longer do anything for you. Don’t forget! I am a just God, a jealous God. Whatever you do during your life, you will always be rejected by Me your God. Don’t ask Me anything for I have closed the door of My heart. Moreover, I forbid you to receive communion. You have committed enough sacrileges. Listen to Me carefully! The first communion that you will take in spite of my interdiction, to punish you, I will allow you to see the devil in person who, at that very moment, will take possession of you for eternity! You have always served him before Me, now that he will become a part of your life. I want nothing to do with you. Remove this ring that you are wearing from your finger. It will bring you bad luck.
What do you need to understand my contempt? For the last 5 years I have chastised you and because of you, your family has suffered and has been tried. Look a bit into your past: death, drama, tragedy, separation, sickness, money problems, no more freedom at home, sickness, operations, complications, sorrows, moral troubles. You are a burden to others. Understand once and for all that I hate you.”
– Mimi: “No! It isn’t possible that this sentence comes from You, my God! You, who gave Your life to save souls. I believe in You merciful love for me. I recognize my faults. I regret having offended You, my God!
How I detest my errors, the sins of my life, like Mary Magdalene. Let me come close to You with confidence. Receive my good will. Accept my love and repentance. To prove my love, I want to atone and I accept to follow You in carrying my daily cross. I accept Your Holy Will, my God. I trust in You and I love You!”
Tuesday 29 March 1955
– Satan: “Your creator gave you a free will. Take advantage of it. Experience it. If you follow my advice, you will see that I am right. So, do what I propose and we will establish our power. If you come back to life, your God will be more powerful than I and if He really loves you, He will do something for you, and if you die, I will be the powerful one for I will possess you for eternity. This is how you will have a real sign that God has rejected you.
– Mimi: “Liar! Liar! Get lost! My God, I believe in You! Please help me! Do not allow me to give in to temptation. I am suffering so much that I don’t know where to rest my head! What am I saying? It is on Your heart that I will lay my poor head, ô my Beloved.”
He is back again!
– Satan: “My poor little one! You know very well that you no longer understand. You are going out of your mind. You pretend that the suggestions going through your mind are from me. Poor little one! Isn’t it the Holy Spirit who enlightens, inspires? You are daydreaming. You are inventing errors, lies. You believe that they come from me. How do you explain that your good wishes, your thoughts are from God? Do you see in what state you are in? You can do nothing by yourself. You are constantly in doubt. You are leading a miserable life and in spite of it all, you seem to be happy with Him, your Beloved. Where is He at the moment? How lost you are my poor little one with your acts of love, contrition. You make me laugh.”
Don’t tell everything to your director. This tires him a lot for he has done his best to help you but it is to no avail. He knows very well that your soul is lost, incurable. But he doesn’t dare tell you for fear that you will fall into despair, and his pride as a priest would be shaken to see the loss of a soul for he is always hoping for a miracle.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for having inspired my director to come this evening. I told him about my doubts, my temptations. He reassured me once again. I was so happy to learn that he would come to give me communion tomorrow even though I am very sick. How good and devoted he is! His blessing chased my enemy away.
My God, Your servant is ill. Would You please do something for him. He loves You so. You know his great desire to serve You faithfully, lovingly. He so wants to save souls.
I beg You, my Beloved, give him his health, the strength to fulfill his work he does with so much love. He is very busy, especially during Holy Week, next week. My Beloved, he wants to do his best, but please help him with Your graces. Strengthen him with Your love. I trust in You!
Thank You, my God. I am certain he will get well. Thank You. I will now prepare my communion with my Gentle Mother of heaven. I am so happy when I think that my Beloved will come tomorrow. He will dwell within my soul in spite of my weaknesses. Ô infinite Goodness, how anxious I am! Thank You, thank You!”
Wednesday 30 March 1955
– Mimi: “I am happy to receive You, my Beloved, even if You are still hiding. I believe that You are present in me. I adore You with all my heart. Thank You for Your visit.”
My enemy is back again.
− Satan: “Poor little one! I played my part well, Monday. I borrowed the voice of your God. I forbade you from receiving communion. I knew very well that you would tell your director about our chat and believing that this suggestion came from me, he gave you communion this morning. This is exactly what I wanted: another sacrilegious communion. I got it thanks to your director.”
– Mimi: “Get lost, liar! I don’t want to believe you. You take every means to discourage me. I am not afraid of you for I put all my trust in God, my Creator and I am certain that He loves me and that He is present in me.”
I gave myself to Him forever. I am happy to be His little spouse. So, go away! I don’t have any time to lose with you, listening to your lies. I have to be with my Beloved in my soul. I don’t want to leave Him alone for a single moment. I love Him so! I want to adore Him, pray to Him, serve Him by accepting His Holy Will. Another day at Your service, my Beloved. I want to love You for the souls who don’t think of You during this time of penance, who are too busy with their outdoor life, shopping, preparation for the Easter parade.
How many are seriously busy preparing their soul for Easter? Accept, my God, my humble prayers and my small sacrifices. Accept, also, the offering of my whole being to obtain the conversion of poor sinners. I would like so much that all souls would love You and never offend You, ô my God of infinite Goodness.”
The whole day is spent suffering with my Beloved to save souls. Yes, a single soul costs so much. When I think that my soul cost the life of a God! My God! My Creator!
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I do not want to refuse You anything. Please help me prepare my heart, my body for what You expect from me. With the Precious Blood of my Beloved, I want to erase the sins of my whole life and by the merits of this Precious Blood, I beg You to be merciful to the souls of poor sinners who approach You with confidence but have mercy especially on those who fear You and do not know You. To You, infinite Goodness, God of love, like Your Son, this is my prayer: “Father, forgive them for they know not what they are doing. And through the Immaculate Heart of Mary, I beg You to listen to the prayers of victim souls. Look with compassion on all these souls who are Your children and are poor, suffering and unhappy in this world, ô my God.”
Yes, my God, I accept with love all You ask of Your little girl. I want to repair, to atone for me and others. With Your Gentle Son I want to save many souls, especially during this Holy Week.
My God, my God, the Precious Blood of Your Divine Son must not be wasted. I ask You for a single drop of this Precious Blood to purify my soul. Ô Infinite Goodness, You cannot refuse my request. I so want to love You. I want to love You with a heart full of confidence, a pure heart, a simple heart like Mary, my Mother.”
Thursday 31 March 1955
– Mimi: “Another day for You and for souls. How time flies! The month of March is already gone! My God, I thank You for all graces received during this month. My God, please give me patience. I have great need for it at the moment.”
– Jesus: “My dear little girl, think of Me, of My patience each day as people and yourself offend Me. Think of My silence when I am offended. My dear little girl, take your crucifix and look at Me. Yes, look at me in the eyes. Look also at this heart that suffered for you, My dear little one. Yes, this Heart that suffered out of love in silence for you and for souls.
From now on, what will you do for Me? My dear little beloved spouse, I have something to confide in you. You know that when I was nailed to the cross, a soldier came forward with a spear to pierce My heart. This poor unfortunate didn’t have to do this for when I died, My Heart opened up and it isn’t because of the hand of man that My Heart opened up but because of the love it contained for the souls that this Heart opened up and has never closed up. My love is as strong, as powerful as ever and that is why it continues to pour blood till the end of the world. When will they understand the love I have for them? Keep this a secret. Don’t tell anyone, except your director.
Poor people, they didn’t understand at the time My Mission, My Love. They were blinded by all kinds of passions and in spite of all I have done for them since, they haven’t changed much. My Divine Mother has interceded for them. With Her love and Her humility, She asked permission from My Father to come on earth and speak to mankind. She has performed great miracles to touch their hearts. She has spoken to them with love and kindness like a mother does with her children.
She was so sad to come once again to tell Us that She was disappointed in seeing the ingratitude of mankind, that the love of God and neighbor no longer exists. There is only the word “Myself” that overrides the earth. Passions occupy first place. Everything is in disorder.
However, She was consoled a little when She saw the Holy Father, in spite of difficulties, open his arms to protect His Church and His sheep. She considered the untiring devotion of all these priests, the generosity of consecrated souls, the self-sacrifice of missionaries, the obscure work of little souls hidden to human eyes, little souls offering themselves to save souls. You know, My dear little one, there are few who offer themselves only out of love to save souls.
My dear little spouse, if you knew how you console Me by accepting the Holy Will of My Father. You can see that nothing is impossible to divine love. Do you see what the love of God can do for a sinful soul that is repenting. We have done a lot for you. In return, we expect a lot. I am your Spouse and I love you.”
My dear little spouse, that’s enough for now. Go and rest. We have Our whole life to speak about love and all eternity to love one another. Go and rest in My divine arms. Place your little head on My Heart and close your eyes. In spite of your physical pain, you will find a restful sleep.
− Mimi: “Out of obedience, I leave everything. Good night my Beloved and thank You.”
